I have been M.I.A.....I am gaining and embarassed!

[wiskband]

THERE! I SAID IT!
but now need to do something about it! HI all its me wiskband ( renee ) some of you may wonder where I have been........... like I said missing in action, mostly in the pantry and cookie draw...........while at work (restaurant) you can find me near the fryer (waiting for the fries) or the bread warmer.
I dont know where to begin! Except, we are officially in the season of summer here in New York, and I have literally have no clothes that fit me!

I am totally freaking out people! I have gained back god knows how much!
all I know is the stuff that fit me last year, no longer fit! NO JOKE!
Before, I go on, for those of you who dont know me, about 18 months ago, I lost a total of 60 lbs. doing LC going to curves and doing some WATP tapes.
I got so bored with both work outs I bought a TM and thought I would keep up the weight loss that way. I havent, I mean I used my TM and was maintaing for a while but I have noit been on it for 3 weeks. I did the marathon and then quit smoking for 3 weeks. then I gained some more weight and went right back to smoking. I feel like I am going backwards folks.........

Anyway, here I am mid june with no clothes feeling like crap! and rather than let it get the best of me, I am holding on by a thread and want to try again.
I was talking to a friend of mine, and I was thinking perhaps, I should just go to a gym in the very early hours. I have four kids that are now home from scholl and I am not sure if I will be able to get to curves during there hours. ( I also work days a week). I think I am sick of LC but I dont know any other way, I have tried WW before, and it seems like so much work!
ALL OF THIS DOES! I need help, I need to organize my life to a much healthier way.


HELP!


renee

[Tera]

Hey Renee - First things first... BREATH :earseek: Okay...now BREATH again :earseek: :earseek:

I know you probably feel embarressed about having to come back after gaining some weight, but don't worry about it, we have ALL done it at one time or another. You just need to refocus yourself. I know it's hard with the kids being out of school, but try and get whatever activity you can in and drink that water. You've done it once... you can do it again.

Hang in there :sunny:

[Desiree]

Oh Renee, sweetie, I have SOOO been there. I often wonder myself is it all worth it? :confused3 In the long run I know that it will be. I have been back at it hot and heavy the last two weeks myself. I'm at an all time high and am beyond just regular depressed about it. But honestly, it's my own fault. I have no one to blame but myself. For the last two weeks I've been literally going so early to the gym that I just can't talk myself out of it. I basically roll out of bed, throw some clothes on and head to the gym. I don't even think about it. Honestly that alone has helped me tremendously. And once work is over with for the day, I go again. Now in the afternoon it's usually only for 30 minutes or whatever I can spare.

But for now, just take it one step at a time. You are not alone in this. We're here to root you on and back you up.

Hugs to you.. :grouphug:

We're always here to welcome you back!

[Laurajean1014]

It's okay. To be perfect or near perfect for a long time is just not realistic.

Drink lots of water. That seems to be very forgiving when making a mistake.

Also, one mistake doesn't make another. You have control to do this and will do it. Focus and plan on making the right choices.

What works best for you? What doesn't? Take notes and stay on track.

Please report to us on how you are doing.

[grlpwrd]

The main thing is you're back on track. :goodvibes

You know, I frequent a lot of other fitness and health boards and the "experts" and those who have been fit for a long time also have plateaus or revert backwards so it's not only you. I think it's just a matter of finding what works for you and make it stick.

There's a WW website called Dotti's Weight Loss Zone: www.dwlz.com and one of her mottos is ONE DAY AT A TIME, NO GUILT & MOVE ON . You might want to read about her and check out her forums even if you don't go back to WW.

GL!

[JoshMom5]

Oh Renee. I could have written that too. I am trying so hard to get back on track but having a terrible time. I am going to start today by trying to drink more water. One step at a time....

[wiskband]

HI all and thanks, I missed the boards...............I had a good day today I ate good and stayed OP........ I did not howver get any exercise in but I think I made a decision to rejoin curves. It seems I lost the most weight when I was going there so tomorrow, I am going to try and fit that in.
thanks agian all.
renee

[NYcpa]

Renee - keep a positive attitude and you will begin to lose weight again. I am just getting back to exercising and trying to eat better also.

Good luck with going back to curves.

[wiskband]

Hey all, I have a two good days in a row! Yahooooooooooo!
ANd I rejoined curves today! I wasnt able to stick around and work out cuase weighing in and registering took some time but I will be there tomorrow with BELLS on!
Just wanted to drop you all a message let you know I am doing well........thanks for the support again........... and again................
and again!
renee

[Tera]

Hey Renee - Sounds like your getting back on track :cheer2: Keep up the great work and you'll have those few extra pounds gone in no time :goodvibes

[Tiger Lily 03]

Renee,
I am so glad that you know to come here for the best support you can get!

I WISH you the best. I know it is difficult to keep on with it all. I am glad and PROUD of you for trying. One bit at a time...

Keep on keepin' on. Never give up!

[Jane E.]

Hang in there! I did the same darn thing. :sad2: I went from an 18 to an 8 then back to a 16 again. Its been horrible. I can't believe that I lost all my motivation. I'm now at a size 14 working on a 12. For me it seems easier to deal with dress sizes.

I know what you mean about getting bored with workouts. Whatever workout you choose put some music you LOVE on. That always gets me working out harder.

Another motivator has been looking at my pictures. MIL gave me some pix from Christmas. I look so heavy. I feel thinner than I look so every morning I take those pix out & look at them, so I know how heavy I really do look. I just don't hold my weight well. (Other people who are heavier than I am look thinner than me in the pix!) Go figure!

[lmhall2000]

Renee!!! I'm with ya sistah!!! :cheer2: I took 7 weeks off to move my family and get things back on track...yep, I managed to gain 7 pounds in that time! UGH! I don't want to even mention all the unmentionables I ate in the past weeks...but it goes something like this...

DH...."I really want to get this gut off."
Dme..."Hey, we've had a tough go of it...let's go eat out tonight and I'll make a batch of chocolate chip cookies and we'll start serious on our diet tomorrow."
DH...."SOLD!"
Dme....eating chicken fingers and fries followed by dough and cookies hot out of the oven....next morning....breakfast is low carb but by lunch I'm craving bread and have sandwich and Pringles....ahhhhhggggg!!

So I "started" officially again 2 days ago...I've lost 1 pound the first day of lowcarbing and I've walked 16 miles this week since Sunday...I really feel like I can do it this time AGAIN....so let's do this together and knock it out once and for all!!!!! Don't be ashamed be PROUD that you came to WISH!!! No one here will be left behind! :)

Tara

[PartyofSix]

Renee you are not alone. As you can see your wish family is here for you. I too have been gone but i am 10lbs up over the past year and half of maintance. I sooo want to get that 10lbs off again but it seems impossible. As soon as vacation is over i'm gonna need my wish family to encourage me to whip back to healthy form again. You can do REnee i'll be here to see you thru along with the rest of our wish family. :)

[tiggerlover]

Hi Renee. You are not alone. I think a lot of us know that this is a life-long struggle, one that we are working on every day. It is one of the hardest challenges in our every day lives. I have to say this is my first post to WISH in a loooooooong time, I have been avoiding it like the plague. I successfully lost 60 pounds with WW and WISH and have struggled for almost a year. Today I sit here 12 pounds over my all time low of about a year ago and about 6 pounds over what I was maintaining before Christmas. I struggle with my love of food and the desire to get the weight off. I loved the way I felt 12 pounds lighter, but apparently I love food more because I continue to struggle. I know that I want to get the weight off again...maybe that is why I decided to stop in tonight, all I know is that my summer clothes from last summer feel snug and I don't want them to. I have found that the key to success is commitment and support, so if you are commited, the folks of WISH are here to support you.

[wiskband]

Hi again, I hope your all well. It just about 6 days since I began my new journey to weight loss, I did screw up once. LONG STORY!
anyway, the new me will not be bothered by thsoe screw ups just move on!
Besdies that, I have been doing great! I hot the gym again yesterday and have been eating OP! I really do think that I am at the end of this roller coaster ride. I finally know that this is NOT a temporary way for me. I am not sure, if I have actually lost weight yet just know that my clothes are fitting a little better. Last time I did this, I became so obsessed with pounds and the scale that if I didnt lose, I would totally sabotoge my day! I did go out and buy a new really good scale, because, although it can be obsessive, I think that NOT checking once in a while is how the weight crept back up on me. My plan is to weight myself weekly at the gym. Right now, my goal is to go Monday thru Friday, I just cant get there during the weekends, work is too demanding right now. I am gonna continue to LC, its what I know.

Just want to say, you guys are great motivation for me. I really love coming to the boards.

Party of six, Not sure if I ever told you but, the day I discovered WISH boards, the very first thread I read was about you, I believe there were pics as well. Seriously, your story and pics are the reason, I made the decision to inspire to stay healthy! thanks, and glad to see you back as well.


thanks all.

renee

[pixiedust23]

It is very admirable you are back here and taking steps in the right direction again! You've done it before you can do it again! ANd the support of the WISHers is nothing to laugh at either!