Drop the Facade . . . and the Pounds - Amanda's WISH Journal (comments welcome)

[contempgal]

Sometimes you find exactly what you need………When I decided to try to focus myself once again on my personal health, I wasn’t sure if I had what it took to stay motivated. Though I’m still not sure, I think that WISH will help me tremendously. Simply reading some of the posts here has already inspired me. So here goes……my WISH.

As I stated in my “commitment” post . . . I have been overweight pretty much all of my life and had convinced myself that I was content with myself. It took a long time for me to admit that I am not. I'm 27 years old and have numerous back problems that I'm positive are a result of my obesity. I've started diets before only to fall off after just a day or so. I just couldn't keep myself motivated. But I'm saying today that THIS WILL STOP. This time though, I'm not calling it a diet . . . . . it's my wellness plan. It's about making myself better in every aspect. I've been gradually moving myself in this direction for a few weeks and now its time to put it in full gear.

I KNOW I CAN DO IT

Once, when I was in high school, I did commit myself to losing weight. I did Cher aerobics (go ahead and laugh) at least 3 times a week and kept a journal of what I was eating and how I was exercising. It was the only time in my life that I was able to commit to losing weight. Even then, I think the lowest pant size I got to was 14. I don’t ever remember being below that. And yes, I did somehow and somewhere lose my focus. From that point on, I kind of just let it go.

I’ve always known I was obese . . . . . it’s not something you can truly hide. And as I said above, I convinced myself it was ok but deep down I knew it wasn’t. I think my reality check came during my last trip to Walt Disney World. Here I was, at my favorite place on earth and I found myself embarrassed because I had trouble “fitting” through the turnstiles at the Haunted Mansion. Even more, I could not even fit at all through them at the Carousel of Progress. I tried and then walked away, fighting back tears. My mom and sister has already gone through ahead of me and ended up having to chase me down. I don’t think I’ve ever been so embarrassed in my life.

For some reason though, this didn’t motivate me . . . . I guess it just depressed me. I let all of the back pain continue. I kept struggling to find clothes that fit that actually looked okay. I kept being repulsed by my pictures. And then another reality . . . . two weekends ago, I went to Six Flags America in Baltimore with a group of friends. I walked around with them all day but did not ride one ride because I was scared I wouldn’t fit in it. Though I had a great time, I knew I was missing out on a lot.

So the truth is . . . . I’m not happy with myself. I want to do this. I want to lose weight and help myself. It’s about finding me beneath all of this. So here’s my goal . . . I want to be healthy. Eat right. Exercise. Help out my back pain and my lack of energy. In September, my family is taking my 3 year old nephew on his first WDW trip. I want to be able to run and laugh with him as he experiences the magic and not worry about not having the energy to keep up.

I know it won’t be easy but it has to be done. For me. And I don’t expect miracles. I know I won’t be in shape by September as I have a lot of weight to lose. But I want to feel better.

This is just a start to what I hope is a lifetime commitment. September is just the first goal, there will be many more after that.

I’ve already taken some baby steps. I stopped drinking soda about four weeks ago. I started exercising and watching what I eat a few days ago. As WISH recommends, I plan to eat healthy but not ignore the things I want. I will eat in moderation though. Basically my plan is this:

*Eat healthier and cut out any unnecessary snacking
*Exercise at least four times a week, more when I can
*Read and write more – two passions that have been missing lately
*Get out more – whether it be outside or on little trips. Don’t stay inside!
*Get to know me better and find the beauty in myself

I’m sure I will add more to this as time progresses but it is a start. My start.

I’m not setting an “ultimate” goal because right now I just want to lose. I want to know what it feels like to be healthy and thin.

I’M READY TO BEGIN!

STEP ONE . . . . :hourglass

[TigerCheer2009]

Go you, Amanda!!!!!!!! Hi and welcome to the WISH boards!!!!!!! Your plan sounds ab-faboo! (Absolutely fabulous!!)

You know what you wanna do, go for it! Positive attitudes of your caliber always get far~!

Cheers for you:
Ready OK
:cheer2: Go Amanda!! Go Amanda!! Make those pounds go down! :cheer2:

[contempgal]

May 10, 2005


Thanks for the support Tiger! I appreciate it more than you know.

So yesterday was good . . . . . at least for strengthening my resistance.

I almost threw the alarm clock out the window when it went off at 6:25 a.m. but after hitting the snooze button and resting for a couple more minutes, I finally forces myself out of bed. I put on some workout clothes and shoes and moved, still half asleep, onto my stationary bike. I rode for 20 minutes and then did a few leg lifts to fully wake myself up :rotfl2: . I'm not a big breakfast eater, finding that often it makes me sick to eat so early so I normally stick to something small. I also rarely eat at home in the moring as I tell myself I don't have time but then end up at work at least 20 minutes early. And did so yesterday. I did, however, eat a banana and drank some water before taking my vitamin (I'm not so sure I like the one I'm using right now and will likely look for something different soon).

Got a phone call early from one of the girls who once worked with me and has since been transferred to a different department asking if I'd like to participate in a "going away" luncheon for some of the workship students we had worked with. Not knowing for sure what this luncheon was going to consist of, I reluctantly agreed. It worked out though as there as an array of food and I did manage to eat pretty healthy - a piece of skinless rotisserie chicken; fresh cauliflower, carrots and tomatoes; jello cup with mandarin oragnes (I took that one with me to the lunch). I even managed to resist the sinful looking chocolate cake and chocolate chip cookies. :bounce:

I guess I should have mentioned that I work at a University, not a large one but a growing private University. We are getting ready for commencement this weekend (in which, I will actually be graduating as well :banana: ) so everything is pretty hectic right now. I worked pretty steadily, except for my WISH board postings lol, and left around 5:00.

I had planned an evening walk but wasn't sure if I'd get to do it because it had started raining and thundering late in the afternoon. I did, however, throw on an jacket with a hood and push myself out to our local recreational trail. Realizing that the key to me keeping myself motivated means that I don't burn myself out, I decided to keep my walks short. I've done 3 since Saturday and each were for about 1 1/2 miles. That's better than nothing - which is what I used to do! I hope to continue to lengthen them each week.

I actually had the house to myself when I returned home - which is very, very rare. I went ahead and fixed myself a bowl of leftover chicken curry (I made the night before with olive oil instead of vegetable oil and used all fresh veggies) with some basmati rice. I know the rice isn't great but it's going to be difficult to give it up. My husband is from Nepal and basmati is pretty much a staple for him. I have already lightened the amount I normally eat and will try to do so even more.

I normally ride the bike again at night but since I was home alone, I decided to take advantage of it. I turned on the TV to one of the radio channels and did 20 minutes of aerobics, which was basically a mix of dancing, walking and stepping.

My proudest moment of the day though (even over the chocolate cake!) -- around 9:30 p.m., my sister came over with my favorite pizza (my family was happy, lol). Though tempting, I didn't eat any. It is funny though how even when you're not hungry . . . . that smell can make you think you are. BUT I RESISTED! :bounce: :cool1: :banana: :Pinkbounc

My goals for today: walk and bike this evening (rode bike already this morning); eat sensible lunch and dinner (thinking a small Subway sub for lunch); enjoy the beautiful, sunny, WV day!

Quote of the Day: "We don't know who we are until we see what we can do." -- Martha Grimes

[Lesli54]

WELCOME to WISH Amanda! :wave:

I think you are off to an excellent start. Considering your program as a journey rather than a diet is the best way to go. It is a lifestyle change and it takes time, but you will get there. You're going to love it here, the people are so encouraging and is mainly why I am still at this after 2 months. Would have given up be now in the "before".

Your goals look great and you don't have to commit to an ultimate weight right now, but you can make small weight loss goals while you decide where you would like to be. Breaking everything down into smaller steps makes it easier to stay focused and feels great when you reach that point. I even give myself mini rewards (new hair cut, pedicure, etc.) at every 5lbs lost.

Great job at getting through the luncheon and for getting in some type of breakfast. Remember to drink plenty of water and you will be fine.

Have a great day! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[pearlieq]

Hi! Welcome to WISH!!!

Your story sounds so much like mine it's a little frightening. I definitely know where you're coming from! It sounds like you're really making some positive changes to improve your life--good for you!!!

Just to give you some inspiration--I lost 30 pounds over the last 2 months, and it made a HUGE difference in the WDW trip we just took! I used to be in so much pain and I couldn't do much, but now with working out, losing weight, and my Crocs shoes I was able to go all day and enjoy so many more things myself instead of watching them from the nearest bench. You'll be amazed at the difference getting in shape makes!!

Best of luck to you on your journey! Keep up the good work!!!

[TigerCheer2009]

sounds like you did an awesome job! Go you!!!!!!!!!!!!! :cheer2: :cheer2:

[TPCShauna]

Hi Amanda!

I know exactly where you are coming from with your weight struggles. I just turned 28 and am extremely overweight. I made the decision to start this weight loss journey in part due to my upcoming trip to WDW but also because I would like my weight to not be an issue for me.

Good for you on making the commitment to a healthier you. You are so right in not looking at it as a diet but a wellness plan. It already looks like you are off to a great start with your exercise and eating healthier. I look forward to following your journey!

[contempgal]

May 11, 2005


THANKS TO EVERYONE PROVIDING MOTIVATION FOR MY JOURNEY - I APPRECIATE YOU!

Early to rise . . . . . makes a (wo)man healthy, wealthy and wise.

Oh how I hope that is true. LOL

Woke up bright and early today (at least for me) and once again forced myself onto the bike for a 20 minute ride. I followed it up with some leg lifts to cool down.

BREAKFAST: On the run again, so only a banana. I know bananas aren't the best of fruits but I love them dearly. :love: I guess I could have worse things to love.

Work was fine though I left everything I was supposed to do and generally surfed the net. I guess that means its a good day. LOL

LUNCH: 6 inch Subway roasted turkey sub on wheat with lettuce, tomato, olives and low fat mayo; 2 handfulls of mini honey mustard pretzels

I had to juggle my after work activities today. A friend is leaving for New York tomorrow and had to move out of his house today . . . . of course that means he's staying with me. Did I mention, he also doesn't have a car at this time, so I played chaeffer as well. Fun. I did, however, manage to get in my 1 1/2 mile walk though I was watching my watch the whole time knowing he was waiting on me to pick him up.

DINNER: Bowl and a half of basmati rice (I know!), cauliflower curry and garlic chicken.

Brother-in-law cooked tonight. He annoys me most of the time but I have to say he can hold his own in a kitchen. I also (suprisingly) was able to slip away from my guests long enough to ride the bike for 20 minutes. Thank god for CSI reruns. My house feels like its on fire so I'm sweaty and desperately need a shower but thought I'd post my day first.

Overall, I think my journey today went well. I could have held back a bit more at dinner but he doesn't cook often and the food it just too good. I did, however, eat less than I normally would have. :banana:

Ate okay. Excercised for a total of 1 hour. I'm happy with that.

[contempgal]

May 12, 2005


A few hours later . . . . back at it again. I like how Pearlieq updates her journal throughout the day so I'm going to try it out that way. We'll see how it goes.


NOTE TO SELF: Fix the air conditioning for summer! I can handle being hot during the day but not at night. Need to fix ASAP.

This morning was rough :crazy:. Definately the hardest so far to get up and get moving. I actually contemplated going back to sleep for the extra 30 minutes and forgetting about the bike for a day. Then I realized that I was already awake and going back to sleep was only going to make me more tired when I did get up. I realize that I don't have to excercise every morning but I would rather plan on not doing it rather than getting up and deciding against it. Besides, it does make me feel better. I've already noticed my back hurts much less when I excercise in the morning than when I don't. Anyway, I rode for the standard 20 minutes and then did leg lifts.

BREAKFAST: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

Took my vitamin. On my first bottle of water . . . . and now I need to actually do some work. :badpc: I plan on reading some journal entries a little later (avoiding work).

LUNCH: package of peaches and cream oatmeal; 3 bites of salad with fat free ranch dressing

My nice dead proves to be a double edge sword. I let my brother-in-law use my car today while I was at work. Good thing - after the Murphy's Law morning that I had it was good I didn't have it, otherwise, I would have been at McDonalds loading up on anything I could. Bad thing - I ordered a nice, healthy salad from a local deli that we order from often and had it delivered. At three bites and threw it away it was so awful. Lettuce was wilted, tomatoes tasted weird. Nasty. So, I begin to look around my office to see what kind of food I have stashed away --- well there's cereal bars which I had already ate this morning, low fat ice cream bars which are good but not exactly lunch, chicken kabobs that I still haven't taken home to grill and bran flakes cereal. So I'm thinking, ok...........I have no milk but this is a University, certainly I can go to the cafeteria and get some milk. So I dig some money out of my purse and walk down the street. Guess what? Not only is there no milk, but there is no anything. We are in between semesters so they were only open until 1:30 to serve employees. :blush: I guess I should go down there more often to actually be aware of these things. Anyway, I trudged back up the street and went on a frantic hunt through my drawers and did manage to find one pack of peaches and cream oatmeal. Again, not really a lunch fave but hey, it's it or nothing at this point.

At least I've finished 2 bottles of water. :cool1:

Hate my internet company . . . . it was down last night so I couldn't add my evening activities on until now.

DINNER: 1 bowl of cauliflower curry with 1 cup of basmati rice; 1 McDonalds Chicken Nugget; 1 peach yogurt

So maybe not the most inspired dinner. After my dismal day at work, I didn't want to cook nor did I want to go out so leftovers it was. The nugget came from a Happy Meal my DN had got. He gave it to me so who was I to say no :crazy: . Shouldn't have done it (or ate the rice) but I guess I could have had worse choices, and more of the choices I did make. I did, however, manage to drink 7 - 9 oz. bottles of water.

Did get in a 1 mile walk but exchanged the bike ride for some playing time outside with DN - tag, soccer, etc. Much more fun and likely a little more energy.

Overall, I am happy with the day's progress. :earsboy:


Quote of the day: "If what you're working for really matters, you'll give it all you've got." --Nido Qubein

[rcyannacci]

Hi Amanda- welcome to the journals! It sounds like you are off to a great start. I love the journal because it gives me a moment to reflect each day on my journey/progress. My goals are very similar to yours; I haven't set any weight goals (other than the final range my doctor suggested for health), and have just pledged myself to better health, including eating and exercise.

I so hear you on the breakfast thing- I hate eating breakfast. I started gradually, however, and now try to get some type of protein in the morning. I find that when I do, I have a MUCH better day both emotionally and physically. I still slip on some days, but I'm getting better. One of my favorites is an toasted whole grain english muffin with peanut butter and some fruit on top.

You'll be amazed at how much better you'll feel after a month of exercise. It will make all the difference in Sept.!

[contempgal]

May 13, 2005


Rode bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts.

BREAKFAST: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

I love being at work alone! Everyone is off this morning at Commencement rehearsal but since I'm walking, I don't have to go. There are generally 7 people that work on my floor and I will be the only one here until at least noon. Excellent. Now let's just hope the phone doesn't ring and a million issues come up like yesterday.

I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to work everything for the next few days. I have to go buy new shoes and get groceries tonight in addition to getting a hair cut. Tomorrow is commencement which will likely take forever. Sunday, my family is having a huge cookout. I should be able to get good excercise in on Sunday as our normal family cookouts consist of roaring games of badminton, volleyball and basketball. I'm sure I'll work out things for all days though.

Anyway, I'm off to get some work done in the peace and quiet :Pinkbounc . Off to drink more water as well.

LUNCH: 6 inch roasted turkey Subway sub on wheat with lettuce, tomato, olives and low fat mayo.

Blah day. Doing much work inside while its gorgeous outside. I wish I could win the lottery and never work again..........though I do think I would get bored.

DINNER: 1 1/2 servings rotisserie chicken (no skin); 1 sweet corn cob, 1 serving carrots, mushrooms, broccoli and water chesnuts in sesame sauce

So my normal routine was very messed up today, as expected. I had hoped to get in a walk after work but thunderstorms started around 4:00 and lasted until about 6:00. I had an appointment for a hair cut at 6:30 and then it was off to the store in search of shoes for commencement (didn't find any). I have a million errands to do before tomorrow. Clothes washing now, press gown, find "right" hair dryer (I've been meaning to do this for some time).

I was able to get in two separate bike rides for 20 minutes each, followed by leg lifts. Between the rain and my laundry duty, this worked out better. I hope to be able to get up early in the morning and go for a walk before I have to leave. We'll see if the weather cooperates. I'm sure my normal plan will be out of sync this weekend.

I didn't snack today, hence the extra portions of chicken at dinner. I think if I had ate a snack, even if on the run, I wouldn't have been so hungry. Will keep that in mind. I'm still happy with the progress though.

I actually started my journey last Saturday so tomorrow will be my first weigh in. I've made a promise to myself to accept the results and continue no matter what. I will post results no matter what as well. Crossing fingers! :cheer2:



Quote of the Day: "What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us." --Ralph Waldo Emerson

[contempgal]

May 14, 2005


GRADUATION DAY!

BREAKFAST: Bowl of Fruit Harvest cereal with strawberries and peaches; 1/2 cup 2% milk.

Ok, so this getting up early thing seems to be getting a bit easier. I think realizing that I'm posting my progress for all to see helps with that. Anyway, today was my first weigh in since starting one week ago. I lost 7.6 pounds! :banana: I know that since I have a lot of weight to lose and this was my first week that numbers like that won't continue but I'm happy to have it anyway. Every little thing helps . . . . and my confidence is boosted some.

Feeling pretty good this morning, I decided to go ahead and do a 1.2 mile walk. I don't know what this evening will bring so I'm glad I already got this one in. I followed it up with a 20 minute stationary bike ride and leg lifts.

My mother called telling me my DN (he actually lives with me but spends weekends with my parents) has been sick all night and will be going to the doctor. Doesn't look like my dad will get to go to graduation because he will have to go to the doctor with Sohan. I'm ok with that. I was actually concerned with him having to set so long in uncomfortable chairs anyway.

But now it's off to the shower for me. Long day ahead. :hourglass

SNACK: 1 Cherry Nutragrain Cereal Bar

I was feeling a bit weak prior to leaving for the ceremony so grabbed a bar and ate it right before we left. Glad I did as it was a very long day and I wasn't able to eat lunch at all. Not good but I guess the diploma is worth it.

DINNER: Lone Star Chicken Kabobs with green peppers and tomatoes; cup of mixed vegetables; 1 sauteed mushroom

Congratulatory dinner with some family members. The kabobs were excellent but the rest was blah. The mushrooms tasted like pure salt.

DESSERT: 1.5 servings Ben and Jerry's Cherry Garcia Low Fat Frozen Yogurt

SNACK: 2 Snack Wells Black Forest cookie cakes

Yummy.......it's now a bit after 9:00 and I'm totally dead. Very long day and tomorrow I have to get up early and go to my parents to help cook for the cookout. I'll try to post tomorrow night.

Overall, good . . . . but long day. I haven't even came close to my needed water intake today. I didn't want to drink too much before having to sit for hours and not be able to move. I'll try to make up for it.


Quote of the Day: "If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes." -- St. Clement of Alexandra

[contempgal]

May 15, 2005


Writing this one a day late so nothing special.

This weekend was long and tiring. I got up at the crack of dawn yesterday to get ready to head to my parents house. I rode the bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts, realizing this was probably the only part of my "normal" routine I would be able to stick to. I then had to go to Wal-Mart in search of badminton birdies, lol (which they didn't have).

BREAKFAST: 1 medium banana

LUNCH: Grilled chicken sandwhich on wheat bun with lettuce, tomato, light mayo

DINNER: Less than 1/2 serving cavatini; 1/2 serving baked macaroni and cheese; small piece of chocolate sheet cake; 1.5 servings dirt cake; 1 serving WW fruit salad

Ok, so at the cookout, I splurged just a bit but did manage to mainly control myself. I started out good with the grilled chicken but later had to indulge just a bit on desserts. My grandmother made the sheet cake specifically for me and brought it to me just out of the oven (my favorite). I would normally eat 3 pieces but settled for a small 1. The dirt cake was just light and creamy and while I know that it isn't truly LIGHT, I ate it anyway. The WW fruit salad was fabulous though.

I did manage to play about 45 minutes of badminton to get in some excercise but was having problems with my back. Twice, I had sharp pains to shoot through my back and ended up having to take pain medication for it.

Overall, the day wasn't great. I did manage to get in some exercise (oh, and I did buy some 5 pound weights) but the food choices weren't wonderful. Could have did much worse but definately could have done better.

[contempgal]

May 16, 2005


So this weekend kicked my butt big time. I guess that getting up early last week combined with early wake ups all this weekend, by last night I was dead. I went to bed fairly early but was woke up around midnight by my DN's cries. As I mentioned previously, he has been sick and was once again vomitting last night. I felt so sorry for him. The doctor said it is a stomach virus and I'm sure he will be well soon but you can't help but want to take it all away immediately. I hope last night was the final round of this one.

Knowing that if I didn't get "some" sleep, my weekend tiredness would continue, I opted to sleep a little later this morning and not ride the bike. I hope to make up for it this evening. I did manage to bring a new case of water as well as some Lean Cuisine meals and cans of soup to work to take care of lunches this week.

BREAKFAST: 3/4 large banana

Still taking my vitamin and drinking lots of water daily. Didn't get in my water requirements either day this weekend but will get back on track today. Also got word that many members of my family plan to start dieting this week so I hope that will help in my journey as well. :grouphug:

LUNCH: Lean Cuisine 3 cheese stuffed rigatoni

What I love about Lean Cuisine? The food is generally always good. This was just delicious. Will be buying more in the future!

Ran by the store when I took my lunch break and picked up DN some 7-Up. He's doing fine today but he generally does fine during the day and gets sick at night. When he first came to live with me 2 years ago, I noticed that when the weather got warmer, he would get sick right after he went to sleep. After a couple of nights, I decided not to give him milk in the evenings and instantly, the sickness stopped. I know that he had milk last night and on Friday night but I'm not sure about Saturday since he was at my parents house. I plan on keeping milk away from him this evening to see if it helps at all.

SNACK: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar; 2 Snack Wells black forest cookie cakes

My aunt and uncle came to visit for a few minutes after work. They had a banquet to go to and didn't have enough time to drive home and then come back. The visit delayed my walk somewhat but it was nice. It actually worked out pretty well in the end. I went walking a bit later in the evening than normal and found the coolness in the air perfect for a brisk walk. I walk about 1 3/4 miles and then went home and rode the bike for 20 minutes.

DINNER: 1/3 bowl of grilled vegetables and basmati rice

DESSERT: 1.5 servings B & J chocolate fudge brownie frozen yogurt

I know. There's the rice again. This time though, I ate very little. I don't know what it was but nothing interested me. After a few bites, I threw it away. The frozen yogurt was good though. :rotfl:

After "dinner" I rode the bike for 15 more minutes and followed with 20 leg lifts. I did a few rotations with my 5 pound weights. I think I will like them.

Good day but should have ate more. Hope I'm not getting Sohan's virus.



Quote of the Day: "I've always felt it was not up to anyone else to make me give my best." --Akeem Olajuwon

[contempgal]

May 17, 2005


Today is my DM's birthday. After work, the whole family is meeting at Bob Evans for dinner. She has no idea. Due to this, I've spent the morning trying to figure out my day. I need to exercise and do laundry this evening in addition to the dinner out. I brought my workout clothes and shoes to work in case I decide to walk on my lunch break. It may work out since its fairly cool here this morning and a brisk walk won't be too bad if I take an early "lunch." Not sure though. I have mucho work to do here and hate to stop once I get in a rythmn.

I was able to ride the bike for 20 minutes this morning followed by leg lifts. That getting out of bed early is still kicking my butt though. Ugh!

DN slept through the night and no sickness. I don't know if it was us not giving him any milk in the evening or something else that helped. I'm just happy he's feeling better. :love:

BREAKFAST: 1 1/2 cups of cherry vanilla cheerios with 1/2 cup 1% milk and packet of Splenda

LUNCH: Lean Cuisine Cheese Ravioli; few bites of chicken casserole

Haven't made it out for a "lunch" yet so haven't been able to walk. A coworker brought in some sort of chicken casserole and brought me some. It was different than anything I've had before. Didn't like at all but had to choke down a few bites so she wouldn't be offended. :guilty:

So I didn't get out to that early lunch as I had antcipated so I went ahead and took my "lunch" at 4:00 and went for a walk then. It was short (about 1.2 miles) but it was a walk. I met these two young guys on the trail who had been traveling across the country by Greyhound (they were on their way to the bus station at that time, the trail goes right by it). Very nice and polite but these guys were experienced hikers. I had to walk much faster than I wanted to keep up with them. :rotfl: I thought my legs would hurt today because my calves were so stiff after that walk but they actually don't.

DINNER: 1 piece grilled chicken with garlic butter; 1 serving green beans; 1 serving broccoli; 1 roll

Mom's birthday dinner! She was suprised when she saw everyone there. It went off nicely. I ordered the chicken with the garlic butter for the garlic taste and then scraped most of it off before I ate. It was good and extremely garlicky. I did eat 1 roll but normally that would have been at least 3 so I feel ok about it. Also, everyone ordered dessert but I was already full and though a big piece of pie looked wonderful, I knew I didn't need it so didn't order anything. :cheer2:

SNACK: 2 Snack Wells black forest cookie cakes

Instead of spluring on dessert at Bob Evans, I ate the cookie cakes when I got home and that worked just fine for me. They aren't bad at all.

Did get in another 15 minute stationary bike ride followed by leg lifts and then a few rotations of weights before calling it a night. I was dead.

It's almost TOM -- I think that's the reason I've been feeling so blah.





Quote of the Day: "Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant." --Robert Louis Stevenson

[pearlieq]

Hi! Just checking in on your to see how you're doing. It looks like you're doing very well--congrats on making good food choices and fitting in some exercise.

I hope you have fun tonight for your DM's birthday--Bob Evans is nice, lots of healthy choices, but oh, those biscuits! I'm sure you'll find a way to balance.

Sorry to hear your DN is ill. Sounds like you might have found the culprit with the milk--good thinking!

Have a wonderful day, and thanks for all the support. It's meant a lot to me as I've been struggling to get back on track.

[TPCShauna]

Congratulations on your graduation! I understand where you are coming from with the exhaustion thing. Remember to try and get as much rest as you can since too little sleep can sabotage your WL efforts.

Have a great day!

[contempgal]

Thanks Pearlieq and Shauna!

I will definately be watching those biscuits at dinner, lol. We'll see how that goes.

I've been going to bed much earlier than normal but still feel somewhat blah. I didn't feel this bad last week so I think its primarily from being so incredibly busy over the weekend.

[TigerCheer2009]

Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2:

Good luck, avoid the biscuits (the rolls too). I love the Cherry SUpreme pie but it's 18 pts!! :earseek:

[contempgal]

May 18, 2005


Did I mention the "other" reason I want to lose weight? My cousin (who's more like my brother) is getting married in October. His fiancee wants me to be a bridesmaid. I can't wait . . . . but I have this fear that there won't be a dress to fit me. I don't want to be left out of the wedding because the dress wouldn't fit! So that's another source of motivation.

BREAKFAST: 1.5 servings Oats and More cereal with strawberries; 1/2 cup 1% milk

No bike this morning, slept in a little bit and then had to go get gas before coming into work. Plan to walk this evening.

LUNCH: Lean Cuisine roasted chicken with lemon pepper fettucine; 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

Been fairly busy today. Lunch was ok but not great. Don't think I'll be getting that lean cuisine meal again. I ended up eating the cereal bar to get rid of the aftertaste in my mouth.

SNACK: Handful of mini honey mustart pretzels, low fat creamscicle ice cream

1 3/4 mile walk on recreational trail.

DINNER: 1 serving rotisserie chicken (no skin), 1 piece of mini corn on cob




Quote of the Day: " I am in control of my own destiny." -- Author Unknown

[pearlieq]

Oh, weddings are always a good reason to get in shape! I'm sure that will help motivate you!

I hope you're having a great day!

[calena]

Just wanted to say Hi. Looks like you have some good goals to work on. The wedding sounds great. My nephew is most likely getting married in September too. His mom, my sister, died in 2003 of cancer, so I want to be there for him and to look good to boot!
I know what you mean about not wanting to diet but have a wellness plan. I am struggling with that in my life. I want results and I feel I need some structure, so we will see. GOOD LUCK to us all. Have a great day and keep up the good work. ;)

[contempgal]

May 19, 2005


Well, so let me explain my MIA over the past couple of days. On Wed., I wasn't feeling too great at work but stuck it out. I decided that I would still go on my walk when I got home and did. I was feeling so proud of myself for still going even though I wasn't feeling up to it. First half of walk - great, second half - not so great. By the time I made it home, I was feeling wretched. It was like that feeling you get when you haven't ate (though I had) so I decided to eat some chicken to see it it would help, nope. Within minutes, I was so sick I couldn't do anything. To make a long story short, I had a stomach virus that I'm just getting over this evening. I'm combining my lackluster eating for the past 2 days into this post.

LUNCH: 1 bowl chicken noodle soup

DINNER: 1 bowl double noodle soup, 5 or 6 strawberries


May 20, 2005

Felt better today but still didn't feel like eating much until this evening.

BREAKFAST: 1 Nutragrain cereal bar

LUNCH: 1 bowl chicken noodle soup

DINNER: 1.5 servings taco salad (ground turkey, lettuce, tomato, jalepeno, onion, taco shells, cilantro salsa, low fat sour cream reduced fat cheese)

I was able to get 2 separate 20 minute stationary bike rides in today followed by leg lifts and rotations of weights. This was all this evening when I was feeling a bit back to normal. Weather prevented me from walking.

I do full mucho better today and will be back to journaling and walking tomorrow (hopefully!)

[contempgal]

May 21, 2005


BREAKFAST: 1 bowl Fruit Harvest cereal with strawberries and peaches, 1/2 cup 2% milk

Feeling much better today but still don't feel quite at 100%. Today is, of course, my weigh in day. I told myself before I even got on the scales that this week will be a strange week because 1) I was sick and didn't eat well (at least Thursday) and 2) it's TOM. Got on and was down 2.4 pounds, which I'll take. I think this puts me at exactly a 10 pound loss. I'll take it! :banana: :banana:

I did ride the stationary bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts and rotations with the weights. I hope to walk later. Right now though, I plan on getting ready and heading out to enjoy the perfectly blue WV skies. I hope to read some journals sometime today to get caught up. I'm way behind. Hope everyone is doing well!

LUNCH: 1.5 servings leftover taco salad

Well, I remembered early that tonight was prom for my cousin and since I live close to the country club where it will be held, many people would be coming here to see them. Glad I did as it enabled me to get a walk in. Felt wonderful. 1 3/4 mile walk on the rec trail.

Had a bit too much for lunch but my appetite is finally coming back and I was just plain hungry. Then I get this e-mail that sort of gave me conflicting emotions. The friend I mentioned before that stayed at my house and was going to New York, well he sent me an e-mail. We've been close for a long time and in the message he tells me how proud he is that I have started this journey of mine and how he has always been able to see my inner beauty. I love him for that. But in it, he mentions how people around him (people who are also supposed to be my friend) have made nasty comments about me being overweight. Needless to say, when I read this I wanted to cry. The thing is, I KNOW I'm overweight. I know that. I am not an idiot. But these people are supposed to be my friends and while it always hurts to hear that someone has been making fun of you, it hurts even more when you hear that it was people who act so caring in front of your face. It hurts and I'm even having trouble writing about it here.

So now I'm torn.....I'm trying to convince myself only to listen to his wonderful words of encouragement and how he knows the real me and not let the news of others nastiness bother me. I know he told me because he wanted me to know how much he has always and will always support me and he had no intentions of using that little bit of info to hurt me. But it does. Now I just need to figure out how to use this to keep my goals in mind. I am better than them. I AM BETTER THAN THEIR WORDS. I just need to keep repeating that. It's not easy though. Not at all. I think I'm going to get out of the house for a bit and clear my head. I need to buy DN a present to take to a birthday party tomorrow anyway.

DINNER: 1 piece baja chipotle grilled chicken, 1 serving grilled onions, couple grilled tomatoes, 1 serving broccoli

Ok, I'm over my pity party. Not letting anyone rain on my parade. A good hour or so of shopping cleared my mind. I have decided that I will not let anything steer me from my journey.

Decided to walk to the country club to see my cousin and his girlfriend dressed for prom. Uphill all the way (the way back down was nice, lol) and was completely out of breath by the time I made it all the way. Don't regret it though. Needed it. Cooked dinner and then rode the bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts and rotations with the weights. Feeling good. I now have to sew up one of DN pillows that came apart when I washed it. Oops and then I have to run back out to the store. I likely will be late posting tomorrow but not sure.

Have a nice night!

Quote of the Day: "You may have to fight a battle more than once to win." -- Margaret Thatcher

[contempgal]

May 22, 2005


BREAKFAST: 1 whole wheat bagel - 1/2 pure raspberry preserves, 1/2 pure black cherry preserves

Didn't sleep well last night but not totally sure why. I wanted to sleep in this morning but that didn't happen. Did allow me to ride the bike for the normal 20 minutes followed by the leg lifts and weight lifts. I'm getting ready to hop in the shower and then I'm heading to my parents house. Plan on some sort of physical activity there today. We'll see how that goes.

LUNCH/DINNER: 1.5 pieces fried chicken, 1 biscuit, 1/2 serving corn, 1/2 serving mashed potatoes

You know, I love my southern family but don't always love southern meals. Fried, fried, fried but good, good, good. Not exactly what I was planning for today but it's what they had and so I ate. I will consider it a treat and get back on plan tomorrow. Unfortunately, the weather prevented any major physical activity. Did do some frisbee and a bit of basketball but not happy with that.

DESSERT: 1.5 servings sugar free triple chocolate ice cream

Yummy!!!

Did go through some weight rotations when I made it home and also rode the bike for 20 more minutes, then leg lifts. Kinda makes me feel a bit better about the food choices for today.

Need to do better tomorrow!


Quote of the Day: “Victory belongs to the most persevering.” --Napoleon Bonaparte

[joelyfaithsmommy]

Keep up the good work, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! I'm new to WISH too, but wanted to say hello! :)

Jen

[contempgal]

May 23, 2005


BREAKFAST: 1 sugar free black cherry yogurt, 1 banana

Well, the week is off to a roaring start. Didn't actually get up and ride the bike this morning. I just kept thinking about how much work I was going to have when I returned to work after being out Thursday and Friday. Anyway, I do feel better now. Forcast calls for scattered thunderstorms but I hope I can get a clearing long enough to walk this evening. If not, I will ride. Also need to get back on the water wagon. I've done okay but not great.

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup (chicken removed), 10 or so harvest wheat thins

Forgot the soup was in the microwave so cooked it way too long....then the chicken was just nasty. I love Progresso soup and I'm hoping this was just a one can deal. pirate: I'm buried in work today, as expected. I had over 30 phone messages to return. I love those ones that call and say "I've left you a message already and you haven't returned my call." Of course I haven't, that's because I was in bed for 2 days and didn't even leave my house. They go directly to the bottom of the return call pile.

So far, no thunderstorms, so hopefully it will hold off until I can walk!! :Pinkbounc

SNACK: 100 calorie pack - Chips Ahoy

Wow, those things are too good. A new TREAT! :banana: :banana:

DINNER: 1.5 servings taco salad

Taco salad - the gift that doesn't stop giving. How many days have I been eating on this thing? It's too good though.

I normally try to get my walk in just after work but yesterday, just about the time I was walking out the door.........the skies grew very dark and the wind picked up considerably. So I went home, ate dinner and then looked out and decided to chance it. Seeing the skies become even darker, I think I've walked faster than I ever have :rotfl2: . When it started to sprinkle, I considered turning around but did manage to push myself to keep at it. I didn't go as far as I had hoped but did walk about 1.2 miles. Of course, halfway back it starts to pour and I get drenched. Then, as expected, as soon as I started back home, it cleared up. :confused3 I was able to ride the stationary bike for 40 minutes last night (two separate 20 minute rides) and did some leg lifts and weight rotations. Overall, good day.




Quote of the Day: "Never talk defeat. Use words like hope, belief, faith, victory." -- Norman Vincent Peale

[joelyfaithsmommy]

Me again! :flower:

Ok, so I finally had the chance to go back and read your whole journal :) and I have to say I'm so impressed with your will power!!! YOU'RE AWESOME!

I also saw where you said you quit drinking soda, and I've done that as well. It's just something my body doesn't need, and I've drank waaaaay too much of it for waaaay tooo long! So I'm ONLY drinking water, milk or juice from now on. PERIOD!

I don't need the caffene, or all that other junk! ya know? :)

So you said you just graduated, what is your degree in if I may ask? I am in college now working on my Master's Degree.

Jen

[contempgal]

So you said you just graduated, what is your degree in if I may ask? I am in college now working on my Master's Degree.



My degree is in Organizational Leadership. I started college right out of high school studying social and behavioral science .......... did 3 years ....... got married ........... and quit. I've worked at a University for 8 years and after I got married, I kind of felt like I lived at the school so I quit. I ended up starting again with a little nudge from a coworker. I went to class 1 night a week for 18 months and was able to finish the degree. In October, I start my Masters degree (hopefully). It will also be 18 months, 1 night a week. That way, I don't think I'll feel as if I live here. LOL

The University does pay for my tuition though so that's cool. :banana: :banana:

[TigerCheer2009]

Hey!!! Finally made it back! You're doing pretty well. I just popped in to say...I love the quotes you put at the end of your posts!!! :)

[joelyfaithsmommy]

kewl! I didn't even start college til all three of my kidos were born! :earseek:
I've officially been in school 6 years! FULL TIME omg! LOL, I"m now working full timefor the summer, and then back to the grind in the fall....I have 12 credit hours left to earn my Masters...and I'm considering a PhD, however, I may be insane, the jury's still out on that one :teeth:

hang in there, we're all with ya!

Jen

[contempgal]

May 24, 2005

I find it much easier to get out of bed when the sun is shining brightly. Today wasn't one of those bright, sunshiny days. It's supposed to be cold and gloomy here all day. Lovely. Somehow, though, I was able to push myself up to ride the bike. 20 minutes, leg lifts, weight rotations. I feel like I need to tighten the resistance on the bike because I don't think I'm getting much out of it. I tried to do that yesterday but it didn't work. I'll have to figure it out.

BREAKFAST: 1 sugar free black cherry yogurt

I'm normally not too big on sugar free yogurt but this one is pretty good. I've only liked the black cherry though. :confused3 Lunch should be good today --- going to a local place with two former classmates. Should be nice!

LUNCH: grilled chicken sandwhich, few french fries

Don't you hate it when you get to a restaurant and they have virtually nothing that will help you on your diet? So the chicken sandwhich wasn't too awful bad though I pretty much just picked at the chicken on it. The fries -- I don't even like fries and didn't order them but they were put on the plate. I ate a couple but not much. Bad food but good resistance, lol. The company was wonderful though!!

SNACK: 1 100 calorie pack - Chips Ahoy

DINNER: 1.5 breadsticks with cheese and pizza sauce, 1.5 servings chicken curry with basmati rice

There's that rice again. At least I've been light on it for a while. I didn't do my walk today -- 50 degrees and rain all day. Instead I rode the bike for 20 minutes and did leg lifts and weights. Not happy with my eating for today but keep telling myself that 1) it could have been much worse and 2) there will be days like this. Tomorrow is a new day!!


Quote of the Day: "Don't be afraid to be amazing." -- Andy Offutt Irwin

[contempgal]

May 25, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 sugar free peach yogurt, 1 large banana

Well, I was able to roll myself out of bed for the normal morning routine (20 minute stat bike, legs, weights). I didn't want to but after hitting the snooze button twice, I convinced myself to get up.

Today looks like its going to be another blah day. No rain in the forecast but it is very dark and dreary. A peak of sunshine is expected to shine through later but the temp is only supposed to reach the mid 50's. :guilty: Where oh where is summer???? :confused3 I guess it will make for an ok walking day.

I forgot to mention that I am taking a nice little jaunt to Ocean City, MD next week. I leave on Monday and will be back on Saturday night so I won't be posting during that time. I will, however, be journaling what I ate/exercised to post upon my return. My hotel is on the boardwalk so I hope to walk it at least once a day. My friend owns an Indian restaurant there so I think I can eat fairly healthy and well. DN is going with me (so is 1 sister) and is super excited. He lived there before but was too little to enjoy the beach and atmosphere. I hope it will at least warm up somewhat for the trip. :wizard:

LUNCH: 3/4 bowl minestrone soup; 10 or so wheat thins

Had to hide the wheat thins from myself. I would have easily sat here and ate the whole box. I have this tendency to pop things in my mouth as I'm working without truly even thinking about it.

SNACK: 1 piece wheat bread, 2 pieces cracked pepper turkey

I guess the sun is on strike in WV. I thought it was supposed to come out in the evening but nope, not here. Like I had hoped, it did make for a pretty nice walking day. It started to sprinkle as I drove to the trail but didn't rain any while I walked. I made it 1 3/4 miles.

DINNER: 1.5 servings chicken curry with basmati rice

Love it. Can't help it.

Rode bike for 20 more minutes followed by legs, weights. Hoping to hit the sack early tonight but that depends on DN. Also need to check up on journals but that may have to wait until tomorrow. I'll see how it goes.

Later!!




Quote of the Day: "When we are motivated by goals that have deep meaning, by dreams that need completion, by pure love that needs expressing, then we truly live life." -- Greg Anderson

[pearlieq]

Hope you have a very fun weekend! That sounds like a great trip!

I totally hear what you're saying about the sun--I always get a lift from the sun shining.

Hope you have a great day today! Keep up the great work!

[contempgal]

May 26, 2005


BREAKFAST: 4 or so bites of lower sugar maple and brown sugar oatmeal

I'm not a huge fan of maple or brown sugar so I'm not totally sure why I bought this flavor of oatmeal. Anyway, it does taste very maply and brown sugary but I didn't like it. Ended up taking a few bites and throwing it away.

So guess what? THE SUN HAS MADE AN APPEARANCE! :banana: :banana: I'm so excited to actually see it. Today is supposed to be sunny and beautiful. Finally! Of course, it doesn't help when I have to spend most of the day cooped inside in front of a computer. I guess if I win the lottery (which I don't play), I won't have to worry about that anymore.

I've also decided that getting up early every morning to ride the bike is just making me really tired so I'm going to do it every other morning. We'll see how that works. Since I rode yesterday, today is a no ride day. I hope to enjoy the sunshine with a walk this evening and maybe ride some tonight. I still don't think I'm getting much out of it but for some reason, it makes me feel better to ride.

Anyway, now its off to read some journals. I'm so behind!!

LUNCH: bagel sammy with grilled chicken, canadian bacon, lettuce, tomato, provolone; 1 fruit salad cup with 2 tbs. whipped cream

Went to lunch with my sister and aunt to Macado's. Since my breakfast fiasco, I was very hungry. Though I love their turkey trot, I opted for the smaller bagel sammy without mayo. I asked for fruit instead of chips and they brought me out this awesome fruit salad in a sundae cup with a bit of whipped cream on top. I know I could have done without the whipped cream but it was just a little and delicous.........and it was on fruit! LOL Better than chips. Food was great!!

DINNER: 1 can homestyle chicken noodle soup, 1.5 servings chocolate fudge brownie frozen yogurt

Wow, it has been such a gorgeous day. I went home, put on my walking shoes and went out for a 1 3/4 mile walk. I have noticed over the past two days though that my right knee starts to feel weak on the walk back. Not painful, just uncomfortable. I may try stretching it out some right before walking the next time.

DN is at the carnival with my dad so I decided that I didn't want a heavy dinner .......... and I would treat myself with the B&J's frozen yogurt. I decided on chicken noodle soup because its quick, easy and always good. The yogurt was even better though. LOL

After dinner, I rode the bike for my standard 20 minutes followed by leg lifts and weights.

Tomorrow should be another pretty day.........looking forward to it!!


Quote of the Day: "Learn as if you were going to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow." --Mahatma Gandhi

[keenercam]

Wow! I am so impressed by how diligent you have been about getting up to work out in the morning, especially on dreary days. I agree that there is something about the :sunny: that makes it so much easier to self-motivate.

Congratulations on doing so well with your meals. Everything you have written the past few days seems very reasonable and "real life" and controlled. So, pat yourself on the back! :banana:

Have a great day! Friday is almost here. I am hoping the sun will come out soon!

[goldcupmom]

You're doing GREAT, Amanda! I'm a morning person and I still can't get up and workout early. KUDOS!!

Hope the trip to MD goes well and you can enjoy!

Your food looks great....I'd say you're well on the way to a new you!

[TPCShauna]

I actually don't mind it being a little cloudy because that usually means that it is cooler here. We are in the midst of a heat wave with temps in the low 90s so I am desperate for more comfortable weather. Good for you for exercising despite the gloom!

[contempgal]

May 27, 2005


Thanks Shauna, Julie and Cam! Your support means a lot to me.

BREAKFAST: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

You can sure tell its Friday because I am completely dragging today. When my alarm went off this morning, I automatically hit the snooze button. When it went off again, my destructive talk kicked in and I started telling myself that I didn't have to get up, I could just not exercise this morning. Then I realized that I had posted in my journal for all to see that I had just changed my routine to ride the bike every other morning and this morning was one that I needed to do. With that, I sleepily arose and was able to ride for 20 long minutes followed by legs and weights. I literally thought I was going to fall asleep on the bike but didn't! By the end of the ride, I felt much better.

I'm having issues with being so tired..........no so much during the day but in the morning and at night especially (and by night, I mean like around 8:00 which is normally very early for me). I've posted before that I'm not too happy with the vitamins I'm taking now and I think as soon as this bottle is gone (or maybe before), I'm going to switch them. Anyone else have ideas for more energy in morning and/or night?

I may try to skim through some journals today but this is my last day at work for a week so I have so much I need to take care of. If I don't get to your journal during the day, I'll try to tonight or tomorrow evening.

LUNCH: 1 can homestyle chicken noodle soup; turkey sammy (2 slices wheat bread, 3 thin slices cracked pepper turkey)

Yes, I'm still on the chicken noodle soup kick. I don't know what it is but I was just craving it. Chicken noodle soup instead of chocolate, that's an improvement. Anyway, I was hungry.

I'm a bit concerned about tomorrow's bridal party trip. We are being fitted for the bridesmaids gowns. To be honest, I don't think they will have one to fit me at the point but that's what I'm working on. Needless to say, I'm feeling a bit antsy over the whole thing. I'll deal though. My treat for doing this -- IHOP! God, I love that place. :love: I will be careful with what I eat but plan to eat what I want.

DINNER: 1 cup basmati rice, 1 serving vegetables with spices, 1.5 servings cherry garcia frozen yogurt

Beautiful weather = nice walk. 1 3/4 mile walk. Again though, my right knee hurt and felt weak. Not sure what is going on there. Also rode the bike for 15 minutes followed by legs and weights.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm not really looking forward to it. I just don't feel it this week. :confused3


Quote of the Day: "In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you." --Deepak Chopra

[goldcupmom]

I'm usually up by 5:30 , tho I don't have to be as I'm a SAHM. Just habit. Then I want to go to bed like 8 - 8:30. I think your body just requires a certain amount of down time. You're doing really good at staying on track and exercising. I know this will work.

Hang in there and have a GREAT weekend!!

[rcyannacci]

May 26, 2005

Quote of the Day: "Learn as if you were going to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow." --Mahatma Gandhi

I love this quotation :sunny: Thanks for posting it.

[TPCShauna]

Good for you for dragging yourself out of bed!!! :cool1: I don't have the strength to do that when I'm tired.

Have a simply wonderful time in Ocean City! Relax, have fun and enjoy your walks up and down that Boardwalk! :moped:

[keenercam]

Amanda -- Isn't this board a great motivator? I know what you mean about having told everyone here you were going to do something and then being motivated to do it because you said you would! :teeth:

So, congratulations for finding it within yourself to drag yourself out of bed to exercise! KUDOS! :cheer2: :cheer2:

Have an awesome weekend. I hope you have fun shopping tomorrow. Just think how great you are going to feel when your efforts are shown off in a beautiful bridesmaid's dress!

[TigerCheer2009]

Nice job on getting yourself outta bed!!!! Kudos and good thoughts to you! Have a great time in Ocean City! It's probably more summerlike there! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: headed your way!

[Lesli54]

Just caught up with your journal. You are doing an AWESOME job with the food and exercise! Congrats on the lost 10lbs.! :banana:

As for more energy in the morning, you might want to try to make your breakfast a larger meal and include some fruits and protein. It should help get you going for the day after the exercise. You may have to play with it a bit until you find what works best for you though.

Have fun on your trip! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[contempgal]

May 28, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 Nutragrain cereal bar

BRUNCH: 1/2 veggie omelet with bacon, 3 medium pancakes with butter pecan syrup

DINNER: 1 slice pepperoni and cheese pizza, 2 pepperoni and cheese breadsticks

Ok, so today was my "treat" day. I weighed myself this morning for the end of week 3 -- down 4.4 more pounds for a total of 14.4!! I'm happy. Good thing, the bridal party thing wasn't great. I ordered a smaller size than I normally wear because that's the largest the gown came in. Now I have to work hard to fit into it. Luckily, the wedding isn't till October so I even hope to lose more than the weight needed! Fingers crossed.

Eating obviously wasn't good today but it was a treat day and I was able to restrain myself -- 1/2 omelet and only 1 slice pizza. It's back on track tomorrow. I'll update then before leaving for my days in OC!! Later!

[TPCShauna]

I hate fittings! I worked on losing weight before my wedding and didn't do well because I didn't have a structured plan. I didn't hardly anything until 2 weeks before the wedding when my seamstress had to take in the waist of my dress 12 inches! Thank goodness I designed it and had it made since she had to take the skirt off twice to re-do the pleats because I was losing so much weight.

Even for a treat day, your food looked awesome! Isn't it nice to take care of cravings. I had a wicked craving for pancakes a few weeks ago myself! :flower:

[pearlieq]

Hi! Glad to hear you had a good day yesterday--treat days are always fun and it looks like you enjoyed some nice things while still staying in control.

I'm sure you'll make into the gown no problem! It's great to have in the back of your head to motivate you!

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!

[contempgal]

May 29, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup, turkey sammy with wheat bread and 3 pieces cracked pepper turkey, bowl of fresh pineapple

SNACK: bowl of fresh pineapple

Today has been hectic trying to get everything ready so, unfortunately, my entry will be short and sweat. I did get up and ride the bike for 20 minutes followed by legs and weights. I then decided to get in my walk so I could focus on everything else later............I only did about a mile on the trail but it gave me a boost of energy for the day.

I'm going to try to get back on tonight and post the rest of my day but if not..........I will be back late on Saturday and will post everything then. See ya!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amanda! :wave2:

Thanks for stopping by my journal! I appreciate your kind words and support. :goodvibes

I haven't had a chance to read through your journal yet, but it looks like you are doing a great job! Congratulations on losing 14.4 pounds!! :Pinkbounc Keep up the good work! :cheer2:

Have a great week! :sunny:

[brandip22]

Amanda- you are awesome! I am so inspired by your journey. I will definately be reading your to help me with my motivation. I'll be going in WDW in September, too, so that's one of my goals as well. Plus, my DS is almost 3. I think we have a lot in common. Keep it up and I will be checking in on you!

[Lesli54]

Congrats on the 4.4lbs lost! :banana:

Keep up the AWESOME work you are doing and you will have no problem fitting that dress. Maybe they will even have to take it in some more. Wouldn't that be an great "treat"? ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[keenercam]

Amanda -- You are doing so great! Sounds like that dress may eventually have to be taken in, if you keep going at this rate! It must feel so good to see your efforts paying off. Thanks for inspiring me! :)

[pearlieq]

Hi! Just checking in on you to see how you're doing.

Hope all is well! :flower:

[TigerCheer2009]

:cool1: :goodvibes Wow!!! Awesome job! Go Amanda!

[contempgal]

June 5, 2005

Well, I'm back!! I have to admit, however, that the trip didn't go as planned on a variety of fronts. Especially my diet! I ended up eating whatever and while I did walk the boardwalk many times, I didn't do it as much as I wanted and certainly not enough to help with my weight loss journey.

By the time we made it to OC (9 hour drive) last Monday, we were all dead and starving. I had done fairly well on my diet during the day, grabbing a pack of 100 calorie snacks in the car and then stopping in Arlington, VA and eating at one of my favorite restaurants - a little hole in the wall called Ravi Kabob. I ate the grilled chicken, rice and dal but also ate the flatbread and cucumber yogurt dip. It was awesome, lol. Anyway, hours later, we make it to OC, checked into the hotel, visited and few friends, walked a bit on the boardwalk and then crashed back at the hotel. We were too busy to go out so we ordered pizza in. I ate way more than I should have.

Tuesday - got up early and took DN to the beach. It was hot and beautiful and I got very, very sunburned. Breakfast/lunch was leftover pizza. We spent most of this day on the beach and boardwalk. Dinner was food from my friends restaruant - chicken cili with rice. Delicious and kinda healthy. I didn't do great elsewhere in the day though as I drank a chocolate milkshake and ate a few bites of a funnel cake with powdered sugar. Oops.

Wednesday - DN was with his dad all day so the girls went to Delaware to the outlet malls. I bought a ring at the QVC outlet and nothing else, lol. Didn't eat breakfast that day but ate nachos and a oriental chicken wrap for lunch. We ended up going back to the hotel and then returned to the outlets later in the day. By the time we made it back to OC, virtually everything was closed and we were hungry. Went through the drive-through at Burger King and I got a chedder ranch chicken sandwhich and fries. Again, not good.

Thursday - walked the boardwalk that morning and then ate a turkey sandwhich thing at Dough Roller. It was good but I don't remember much about it. Weather started getting really bad on this day and rain set in in the afternoon. I ate some candy in the hotel room (uh oh) and then we ordered pizza again for dinner. :umbrella:

Friday - bad day!! Weather was frightful, pouring the rain all day. :umbrella: :umbrella: :umbrella: Completely nasty. DN was back with us so we had to entertain him in the hotel. Not fun. Ate leftover pizza for breakfast and then we took him to the indoor pool. DS swam with him but I didn't get in (not to that letting people see me in a bathing suit stage). We then decided to get his picture made at one of the Old Time Photo shops. He had done this before when he was very little so we thought it would be cute to do it again. The drive to the place was bad as the road had standing water all in it. Did get the picture made (he was a pirate) and then headed to Denny's for a late lunch. Ate a few bites of a buffalo chicken sandwhich, some seasoned fries with ranch dressings, some nachos and then to top off this totally healthy (not) meal, a safari split with chocolate ice cream, strawberries, bananas, nuts, whipped cream and chocolate syrup. Back to the hotel to try to entertain him for hours and ate a bowl of chicken noodle soup for dinner.

Saturday - Drive home day. While DN did very well on the drive up, he hated the drive back. It was hot and miserable and I felt so bad for him. We did stop a few times.....once for lunch at Wendy's. Staying on my not so healthy track - I ate a bacon cheesburger and a few fries. We finally made it home late and I was so hungry and had a headache. We ended up ordering in since we have no food in the house. I had a burrito and chicken quesadilla. Again, not good.

I'm sure I ate more snack things, etc. that I can't even remember.

The only positive thing I can say about this trip in regards to my diet is that I did stay with my no soda pledge. I drank juice and mainly water the whole time.

Needless to say, I'm very embarrassed by the last week. Starting Saturday with IHOP and pizza, I did a downward spiral. Today, I weighed in and I'm up 3.6 pounds. I actually thought it would be more. Of course, this is not what I want so I've started to get myself back on track. Starting today!

I got up early today and rode the bike for 20 mintues followed by leg and weight rotations.

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - lime and pineapple

Ok, so I still have no food in the house and need to go shopping. The yogurt, bread and bagels in my fridge are all old. The fruit and gel cup was all I could find that was good. LOL It actually tasted great though. Liked it.

I plan on going to my parents house today. Hopefully some outside physical activity will take place. It's beautiful and sunny!!

I will be checking in on journals today or tomorrow............again, I need to catch up.

LUNCH: 1/4 portion cavatini, 1/4 portion manicotti, 1/4 portion hot potatoes

SNACK: 4 mini cream puffs, 1 serving sugar free ice cream

Went to my parents house and was outside most of the day playing badminton for watching DN in the pool. Lots of activity and plenty of sun so I was happy. Didn't get home till very late so ate dinner a little later than planned but wasn't too hungry.

DINNER: 1/2 serving pasta shells with sauce and little mozzarella

Though the food wasn't too healthy, the portions were and it was a good step to getting back on track. I feel good about the day.

[goldcupmom]

You're still not all that bad off, as you are getting back on track. The slip ups happen, but it's the getting back down to business that counts!

Kudos on that!

Have a great day!

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi Amanda! Glad you're back! You had an iffy week, sure, but I did too! I'm back on the wagon. Hurry up, get on because we're gonna be leaving soon!

One bad "day" doesn't make for a bad "lifetime!"

Have a better day tomorrow!

[contempgal]

June 6, 2005

THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE JOLT OF INSPIRATION!

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - lime and pineapple

No, I still haven't made it to the grocery store. I actually like these little fruit and gel cups though. They are quite delicious. Maybe I'll make it somewhere this evening..........or maybe I will just eat the fruit and gel cups, lol.

Back to work.......massive amount of things to catch up on. I really hope to read some journals later today.

LUNCH: 1 can double noodle soup, handful of wheat thins

Massively hot in WV.............I'm not sure how we went from somewhat frigid temps to a sweathouse. I haven't been running my air conditioner but looks like I'm going to have to start soon. Way too hot.

SNACK: few tortilla chips and salsa (maybe 4), 1 sugar free ice cream bar

After work, I went home and played outside with DN for a while. No major physical activity but some.

DINNER: 1 serving broccoli with cheese sauce, 1/2 serving garlic and herb turkey, 2 small pieces garlic bread

So I bought this turkey thinking it would be so good.........oh no. Not good at all. It even left this very bitter aftertaste. I had also made some kind of italian veggies but didn't like them either. The garlic bread was really the only thing I liked (of course!). I only made a little so I couldn't allow myself to overeat.

After the sun went down a bit, I decided to get my walk in. After walking 1.1 miles, I was still feeling ok so decided to take a short juant down one of the paths I hadn't been on. I didn't go far but probably walked a total of 1.4 or so miles. Knowing I was already hot and sticky when I returned home, I went ahead and rode the bike for 15 minutes followed by leg lifts and weights. Considering my house felt like a sauna, I consider this a feat.

Anyway, I didn't get to the journals. I almost always have to read them while I'm at work (I know, that's bad) because between DN and my strange computer, I often don't have time at home. I will get to some tomorrow.


Quote of the Day: "Confidence is contagious. So is lack of confidence." --Vince Lombardi

[TPCShauna]

Sure, your week wasn't what you had planned for nor wanted but you have to look it at that you were on vacation. You had fun and ate some stuff that wasn't the greatest but you are back on track so it's all good. I hear you on the no food thing. We have no food in our house and I have no time to go shopping.

Good luck on catching up at work!

[brandip22]

I had the same weekend with all my food, so I understand where you are coming from. But, we are back at it today, aren't we? That's pretty impressive b/c I know a few weeks ago I would have said forget it, I can't do it. But, I can- and so can you! We are gonna be so skinny b/c we keep at it!

[contempgal]

June 7, 2005

Thanks Shauna and Brandi! I do hope to get fully back on track soon. I think I'm pretty close right now. It's never easy but worth it. Brandi - you are so right........before I would have just said, oh well. Now though, I want to get things right.

Forced myself out of bed this morning and rode the bike for 20 minutes followed by legs and weights.

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - lime and pineapple

Notice in yesterday's post, I didn't mention going to the grocery store. Hmmm.........I wonder why. :teeth:

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup, 1 100 calorie snack pack - Chips Ahoy

It was supposed to be sunny and beautiful today but so far its just been dark and dreary. I'm not going to complain though because it's still warm and hasn't actually rained. I'm going to have to watch my scheduling this evening to see if I can get a walk in. I have to meet my mother at my sisters house a little later and then likely cook dinner. I'll see how it goes.

SNACK: 1 dreamscicles pop - sherbet and low fat ice cream, 1 small bag popcorn

I started to get a massive headache about 2:00 so I ate the popcorn so I could take some medicine to try to ward it off. I ate the dremscicles thing a little later.

I went to my sisters house after work and took DN with me. My mother was there helping to plant flowers (I so do not have a green thumb so I watched). DN was a little bit hyper and wanted to get into everything. I had hoped to go for my walk after I left her house since my BIL had said he wanted to cook dinner for everyone but of course, Mother Nature intervened. In the middle of the flower planting session, it started to rain. During one of the small breaks, I decided to take the hyper one on a small walk around DS's neighborhood. This was not a long walk since 1) her neighborhood is small and 2) it started to rain again, so I'm definately not counting it as any form of exercise.

DINNER: 1 small cheesburger, 1.5 servings potato curry with basmati rice

By the time we left, I was starving and DN was cranky so I ran through the drive through at Wendy's in case BIL wasn't done cooking. Mistake yet again. I was so hungry I ended up getting the cheeseburger. I guess the small one is better than the big bacon classic I had last week. When I went home though, BIL was done cooking and I ate 1.5 servings of his wondeful potato curry with rice.

Food choices for the day were not spectacular. Definately could have done without the cheeseburger especially. Could have been worse though so I'll take it.




Quote of the Day: "You gain strength, experience and confidence by every experience where you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you cannot do." --Eleanor Roosevelt

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi Amanda!!!!!!!!!!! Glad to see that you're back on the WISH Wagon after tumbling off. ::yes:: I absolutely love your quotes of the day! It sounds like you're doing great!!

How are those lime jello and pineapple cuppies? Do they taste good? I didn't think that those two would work together, but whatever flips your pancakes!

Have a terrific Tuesday, Amanda!

[contempgal]

How are those lime jello and pineapple cuppies? Do they taste good? I didn't think that those two would work together, but whatever flips your pancakes!




They are suprisingly delicious....but admittedly, I like just about anything with pineapple in it. I've tried the orange with mandarin oranges as well and it is fabulous. I like them very much. :rotfl:

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi again! I like anything with pineapple too. I also love Jello (but not lime). I think orange and mandarin oranges would be awesome! I need to go grocery shopping sometime!

[contempgal]

June 8, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I have a new favorite flavor of fruit and gel cup - this one is awesome! Love it. I could have ate all 4 in the package but decided that wouldn't be the best idea. Still haven't gone to the grocery story. Haven't had time.

I couldn't help but get on the scale this morning.......mainly out of fear that yesterday messed up my "back on track" week. Every time I eat a burger, I feel that way. I'm showing I'm down a little over 1 pound since Sunday but I'm not counting it officially until I weigh in on Saturday.

Did I mention that this weekend is my 10 year high school reunion? I keep thinking of all those movies and shows where everyone wants to lose weight and look spectacluar at their reunion. What's so funny is that while losing weight is a huge goal for me, I've never had those feelings of having to look perfect for my reunion. I went to a very small school and was overweight when I went there, yet I was friends with everyone and no one ever made my weight an issue. I actually cannot wait to see everyone again.

LUNCH: Lean Cuisine cheese canoloni (sp?), 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

Love those cups! LOL

So I intentionally didn't take a lunch hour yesterday so I could leave early and go for my walk. My DN had called (well, he got on the phone when someone else called) and asked me to watch The Incredibles with him last night so I thought I'd get my exercise in a bit earlier than normal. WRONG. Went home at 4:15 to get my walking shoes and on cue, as I walk through the door....thunder. This, of course, was followed by a lovely storm. So, I ate an early dinner...

DINNER: 1 serving potato curry and basmati rice

Ok, so by now DN is busy playing on the front porch so I go outside with my bottle of water and wait for it to stop raining. Finally around 6:00, it looked vaguely clear so I handed DN over to BIL and went out for my walk. I walked fast, hoping to hold off the rain and decided to take the same route I did on Tuesday......the shorter distance and then the "scenic" jaunt because this jaunt is right at the end of my normal route so I could nix it if it was raining. Well, the rain held off, however I should never have drank the bottle of water right before leaving because by the time I made it the normal distance, I was dying for a bathroom. I did ATTEMPT the scenic tour but only made it a short distance before turning around and briskly walking to my car. I guess I walked abou 1.2 miles or so. I did, however, follow it up with 20 minutes on the bike and leg lifts and weight rotations (DN still only wanted to play outside).

SNACK: <1.5 servings popcorn, 5 reduced fat lemon drop cookies, 2 thin mint cookies

The downside of eating dinner so early is that you get hungry very late. We did start to watch The Incredibles --- followed by portions of the Spongebob movie, portions of The White Pony and finally, Finding Nemo, and I got a little snacky. I am ok with those snacks considering the rest of my day so it's all good.


Quote of the Day: "Goals are a preview of future events and experiences in your life." --Victor Hansen

[pearlieq]

Mmm...potato curry sounds so good!!!

Glad to hear you're looking forward to your reunion--it sounds like you a have it in perspective. I hope you have a wonderful time!!!

[TigerCheer2009]

Good luck and have fun at your reunion, Amanda-manda! I'm glad you had such good friends. Those kind of people who look for inner beauty make my heart go :goodvibes !

The potato curry does sound good!

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

[contempgal]

June 9, 2005


Wow, I woke up even earlier than my normal need to ride the bike time, so I was easily able to get up and ride.......20 minutes followed by legs and weight rotations. I still don't think the bike is doing much for me but I still feel like I need to ride it.

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I spoke to my DM last night about possibly doing a short trip to WDW in December. We've been in the spring, summer and fall but never during the Christmas season and we've been wanting to do it. She's looking into it (she actually has all of my Disney connections so it makes more sense for her to look). We try to always do a trip in September and we are this year as well but it is going to be shorter than normal. We believe that as much as DN will enjoy WDW, he will also kill us all down there so we made the trip shorter so we don't overdo it. When we go as a group, we always stay at a monorail hotel because my dad prefers them. CR is our favorite (hence the username). However, if we go in December, it will likely just be me and DM so we'll stay at a value resort. Not sure which one yet. We'll see.

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup

SNACK: 1 creamscicle bar - sherbet and low fat ice cream

About 3:00 yesterday, the skies opened up and it poured rain until about 4:30. I'm beginning to believe this is becoming a ritual........I feel like I'm in Florida. The days are pretty much beautiful and sunny and by later afternoon and evening, the thunderstorms set in. Due to this, I decided to go on my walk immediately after work. I pulled on my walking shoes and headed out to a different trail than I normally walk (the one I normally do requires you to walk across the road to get to the trail and frankly, I didn't want to deal with 5:00 traffic so I took the other route). I walked about .3 miles when it started to thunder and lightening and I decided to go back. It rained the rest of the day. Lovely.

DINNER: 2 servings aloo saag

I don't really think there is actually an Indian/Nepali dish called aloo saag but thats what BIL called it. It was delicous though - potatoes and spinach in spices with rice.

I've realized that I should probably explain my family situation a little more, since I speak of DN often and BIL from time to time but rarely mention DH. As I've said before my DH is from Nepal. I actually have known his brother, my BIL, for much longer than I've know my DH. We were great friends when I initially started college. That is, of course, how I met DH. Ever since we've been married, my DH has traveled and worked in different places. Sometimes he is home, sometimes he is in TN, sometimes MD. Right now, he is in MD. Suprisingly, this actually works for us. I tend to be more of an independent person (now, I didn't used to be) and spend most of my time focusing on DN. Now let me explain that...........A little over 2 years ago, by BIL and DN lived in MD with DN's mother. When he was 18 months old, she left him saying she couldn't handle the responsability. Shortly thereafter, my BIL contacted me in WV and we decided that I would keep DN for the summer that year to help him get back on his feet. Keep in mind that I have NO experience with children and at that time, I was pretty much living alone (DH was in MD as well and DS was staying with me sometimes). My family pulled through tremendously though and immediately fell in love with our little Pooka. After the summer, we were all very upset to see him go back to MD and it wasn't long after before BIL contacted us and said he would like to move back to WV because he needed help raising DN. He ended up moving into the basement apartment in my home. DN, however, pretty much stays with me and my family all the time. While I don't see eye to eye with BIL all the time, we have come to terms with our living in close proximity, lol. Yes, I do believe all of this is a bit strange but my primary focus is DN. My DH and his dad are all the blood relations he has in this country that actually have any contact with him so my family has become his. He even calls by DN "pawpaw" and my DN "mommy." Right now, he isn't old enough to truly question where is mother is but I know that will come in time. Luckily though, he has plenty of love around him. I do hope that explains some things.



Quote of the Day: "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

[TPCShauna]

How exciting about a Christmas time trip to WDW! That's when DH and I are going and I am so excited!!! When do you think you might go?

[contempgal]

How exciting about a Christmas time trip to WDW! That's when DH and I are going and I am so excited!!! When do you think you might go?

I don't know.........maybe the week of the 5th or the week of the 12th. I have to confer with DM some more.

Maybe if we end up there at the same time, we can meet for lunch or something! That would be fun.

[TPCShauna]

Ohhhhhh. It would be fun to meet but I'm not sure if we'll overlap. DH and I arrive around 10:00 am on Saturday, December 17. If you guys go that week, will you be staying that long?

[pearlieq]

I don't know.........maybe the week of the 5th or the week of the 12th. I have to confer with DM some more.

Maybe if we end up there at the same time, we can meet for lunch or something! That would be fun.

Hey! If you make it the week of the 5th, DH and I will be there! Either way, I hope the trip works out for you. It sounds like such a nice time to go!

[contempgal]

Hi Shauna and Pearlieq!

I would actually prefer to go the week of the 5th but my mother is a bit concerned since that is the week the Pop Warner thing is going on.........since we plan to stay at a Value resort (at least at this time) on that trip, we know it will be bombarded with cheerleaders and she's not too keen on that. I'm not either really but we'll see. She's contacting her travel agent today to look into options. It could be that we'll go the next week or maybe go the week of the 5th and stay elsewhere. Unfortunately, Shauna, I doubt we will be staying past the 16th. We want to try to stay within the "off season" pricing and it changes to holiday on the 17th. We're already spending so much money on Septembers trip that this one needs to be short and cheap, lol. I'll keep you both informed though.

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi and Good MORNING, miss Amanda!!!

Our trip in 06 will be a Christmas one too! I'm so excited for you, Manda! POP Century doesn't allow group bookings, so that might be the best. It'll take the overflow, but less to deal with. Whatever flips your pancakes!

Are you ready to start the day with your gel cuppie, spirit and enthusiasm? I sure hope so because it's a brand new day and it's FRIDAY! :cool1: :cool1:

[contempgal]

June 10, 2005

HAPPY 1 MONTH WISH ANNIVERSARY TO ME!!!!

So I have to admit that I'm very proud of myself. This is the first time in a very, very long time that I have committed to something and stuck with it this long. Normally, I will start a diet and quit after a few days or a week at the longest. So, this 1 month committment is truly a feat for me.

Yeah!! :cool1: :banana: :Pinkbounc :cheer2:

BREAKFAST: 1 fruit and gel cup - cherry and mixed fruit

I still haven't gone to the grocery store. I don't know what's wrong with me! LOL Need.To.Go.Soon.

LUNCH: chicken finger salad with honey mustard dressing

Tiger and I must be trading food cravings here............she talked about them so much that I was craving it very bad. It was good and filling. I'll take it.

DINNER: 1.5 servings grilled chicken with cheese and bacon, 2 servings steamed veggies

Outback.......yummy.


Quote of the Day: "Your self-confidence is directly connected to how much you feel you are making a difference in your world." --Brian Tracy

[TigerCheer2009]

:goodvibes Amanda!!!! :) Girl, I am so proud of you!!!!! Keep going because we can't bow out now! We've come too far and I only just started re-looking good! :rotfl:

Keep up the awesome work and get to the grocery store!

[TPCShauna]

:cool1: Congrats on your 1 month anniversary! :cool1:

I so know what you mean about the not sticking with it thing. This is the longest I've consciously worked on a lifestyle change. Before, the longest I got was 1 week. :rolleyes:

The good thing about WDW hotel rates is that if you begin your stay during value season, your cheaper rate extends the length of your trip. For example, Value season ends on December 19 but since we check in on December 17, we pay Value season rates for the entire length of our stay! Let me tell you what a pleasant surprise that was!!

Any time you go will be fun. Have fun planning it!

[goldcupmom]

One MONTH!!! AWESOME!

See, you CAN do this! ONE day at a time!

Now, go to the grocery!

(Now I know where TigerCheer got her craving for gel fruit cups ;) )

[brandip22]

Way to go on the month Amanda! I know you'll be here many more months to come!

[contempgal]

This weekend was so busy so I had no time to actually write in the journal but I will update everything here.

June 11, 2005

Weigh in day – down 6.2 pounds! Yeah…….lost the weight gained from OC and then some. I have realized that I don’t have to kill myself with exercise to lose. If I eat healthy and exercise as much as possible, I will be ok. I don’t want to resent exercise so I’m taking it as it comes.

I need to learn how to say no……..but its rather hard when you get paid good money for saying yes. I ended up rolling out of bed at 6:00 on Saturday when all I wanted was to actually sleep in. What was I doing? Well, I was monitoring an ACT test to high school students at the University. I do this virtually every time a test is conducted at the school but still find that getting up on a Saturday to do it very difficult. It’s super easy though…..I read directly from a book and then watch the students to make sure they don’t cheat. I generally end up reading, as I did on this day (Richard Paul Evans – The Perfect Day).

I didn’t eat breakfast that morning because I can’t normally eat that early. Needless to say, by the time I was done (12:30 or so), I was starving so I went through the drive thru at Mickey D’s.

LUNCH: Grilled chicken sandwich, fruit and yogurt parfait

I was on the run all day…..my 10 year HS reunion was that night and I had to go to a store to buy something to wear (last minute, again). Then I had to wash some other clothes that I needed, take a shower and get ready.

Now, I knew that dinner was going to be served that night but knew I likely wouldn’t like it so I needed something quick and filling to eat before I left to make sure I didn’t starve at the reunion.

DINNER: 1 personal size pizza with pepperoni

This did the trick. Though not the healthiest of choices, it was a small personal size so I didn’t feel too bad about it.

Anyway, reunion time – did I mention how much I loved HS and loved my classmates? Well, I still do. We had a fabulous time…..laughter, embarrassing pictures, hilarious class awards, all the fun stuff. I still miss HS!!

Oh, and dinner was served and I did pick at it a little:

DINNER (again): few bites mashed potatoes with gravy, few bites cole slaw, few bites country fried steak (I think that’s what it was), few bites green beans

DESSERT: 1 slice apple pie with dollap of whipped cream

Afterwards, the whole group went out dancing. Though I didn’t actually dance, I had a wonderful time catching up and having fun with my former classmates. I did finally arrive home about midnight. Overall, a wonderful day.



June 12, 2005

BREAKFAST: short stack buttermilk pancakes with butter pecan syrup, 4 small pieces of bacon

A group from the reunion agreed to meet Sunday morning for breakfast at a little local place. Again, it was nice to catch up and say our goodbyes for a while. We all agreed to keep in touch and not wait 10 years to see each other again. It was funny, after we were done, we all stood in the parking lot for forever saying “well, I guess it’s time to go” yet none of us would actually go. Finally, we realized we had to and all headed our separate ways.

DN was at my parents house so, as with normal Sunday’s, I went there. Our breakfast meeting was late in the day so I didn’t eat for a while. We did play badminton for a bit and I was outside most of the day with DN and the family.

DINNER: 1.5 servings baked chicken, no skin; 1 serving baked mac and cheese, 1.5 servings hot potatoes; 1.5 rolls

Didn’t get home till late and had to wash more clothes and put DN to bed.

Overall, the weekend was fabulous ……. Even though I didn’t get to exercise as much as I’d liked to I am perfectly ok with not doing it all.

[contempgal]

June 13, 2005

Up to date..........yeah. I need to write more on the weekends.

BREAKFAST: 1/3 of fruit and gel cup - orange and mandarin organges

Not really hungry this morning......sure I'll pay for it later.

Today is my aunt's birthday so we are meeting for dinner tonight. I'm sure it won't be super healthy but I will work with it.

So my WDW trip for December is being reevaluated. We may actually end up staying longer in September and opting out of the December trip. I'm ok with either. Though I'd love to visit in December, I can always do it next year. Basically it looks like if we stay longer in September, I won't go in December. If we don't stay longer, I'll be visiting Mickey again in December. I'll keep you posted.

I will be visiting journals at some point today or tomorrow. Sorry!!

LUNCH: About 3/4 of a chicken tender salad with honey mustard dressing

I think I may be getting a little sick as nothing really tastes good to me. I picked around at my salad at lunch and mainly ate the pieces of chicken in it. I know it tasted the same as it always does but today it didn't taste good to me. Oh well.

DINNER: About 3/4 turkey club sammy, 1/2 serving mac and cheese, 2 bites chickent tenders, 1 tiny sliver of birthday cake (most without icing)

We were able to surprise my aunt though I had thought she was on to us. The bridesmaids and the bride for the fall wedding had asked her to go to a shoe store with us to look at shoes for the wedding. We tried on every pair of shoes we could find until her son (the groom) called and said he had broke down and needed a ride. She wasn't surprised at this as he's been having a lot of trouble with his vehicle for some time. So we all bolt from the store saying we wanted to look somewhere else at another time and she checked out a pair of shoes she had bought. I don't think any of us had ever drove as fast as that to the restaurant (where he had "supposedly" managed to pull his vehicle into after it sputtered on the road). The whole family and her soon to be daughter-in-laws family waited outside until she came.

It was funny, on the drive over, she had called her son and told him some things he needed to do and called my dad to see if he could borrow a car. She wondered why no one was answering at home but still didn't get it (her birthday is actually tomorrow). Even when she first pulled in, she didn't get it. LOL

Dinner was ok but not great (still, nothing tasted that great to me) and I had to eat a tiny little sliver of cake but left most of the icing. I had to drive to my parents house afterwards to get something and then all the way back so I didn't get home until after 10:00.........needless to say, no "true" exercise.


Quote of the Day: "Kites rise highest against the wind -- not with it." - Sir Winston Churchill

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amanda! :wave2:

It sounds like you had a great weekend! :cool1:

My DH and I talked about moving our December trip to WDW up to September since they have the free dining then. It would save us a lot of money, but I don't think we'll be able to swing the trip if it's in September. So, we kept our trip for December and the holiday season. Whatever you decide, you'll be at WDW and that is a great thing! :Pinkbounc

Have a wonderful day today! :sunny:

[TPCShauna]

Congrats on your awesome loss! Glad to hear that your reunion was fun. Although I really enjoyed high school, I have no desire to go back and see anyone there. My reunion is this July and I just couldn't care less.

Have fun at the dinner!

[pearlieq]

So glad to hear you had fun at your reunion! It's so nice that you're all still close.

Congrats on the loss!!! :cool1: You're doing really well!

Have fun at dinner tonight! :bday: to your aunt!

[contempgal]

June 14, 2005


BREAKFAST: 1 serving bananas and cream oatmeal

I forgot to bring breakfast to the office this morning so this is all I could find that was vaguely healthy. It will do.

So I have figured out why nothing tastes good to me and I'm so tired....TOM. Lovely.

Today is supposed to be hot and pretty so I hope to get at least a walk in this evening. I was supposed to ride the bike this morning but couldn't get up (TOM strikes and scores!). I have a busy day today but I do hope to get to the journals. Hope. Hope. Hope.

LUNCH: 1 serving spaghetti and meat sauce, 1.5 rolls with butter

Office lunch. Was at least able to control my eating.

Well life just threw me a curveball.......I have direct deposit into my bank account and today was my payday. I receive an e-mail about 1:00 saying I had made a payment for an eBay auction using my Paypal account. I didn't do this.........so I go to my Paypal and see that all but $70 was transferred from my bank account into Paypal and then immediately paid out to someone in the United Kingdom for an auction. The bank can't confirm this because it won't show until tonight and Paypal sent me some paperwork to complete but said it may take 10 or more days to investigate. I feel like I can't breathe. Now I'm going to spend the rest of my day battling with this and have to go again to the bank in the morning.

Needless to say, I won't be reviewing journals today but I'll stop in tomorrow.

DINNER: 4 pieces cheese pizza, 2 small cheese breadsticks with sauce, 4 sugar cookies

Not good.......didn't feel well at all after my horrible day.


Quote of the Day: "There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle The other is as though everything is a miracle." - Albert Einstein

[contempgal]

June 15, 2005

No breakfast.

LUNCH: 1 serving rueben casserole

My day has been/continues to be crazy so I won't be able to add much. Still dealing with yesterday's hacker surprise. Will update soon.

I hate rueben - or corned beef and had to eat this because my supervisor was so excited about it and brought it to me. Yuck.

Anyway, my week is way off track so I hope to work on that soon.

DINNER: 2 servings chicken curry with basmati rice, 1 small pack almond joy cookies

Since I wasn't thrilled with my lunch, I kinda overcompensated with dinner. It was good though (I made it this time)!

Still have not exercised much this week. Between TOM and my Murphy's Law luck, nothing it working out.

[TPCShauna]

Eek! I sure hope you get that whole thing straightened out! Keep us posted!!

[goldcupmom]

WOW! I hope you get the paypal thing straightened out. SCARY!!

Other than that, sounds like things are going pretty well.

Hang in there!

[contempgal]

June 16, 2005

Well, guess what............I checked my bank account this morning and the money is withdrawn. I'm so depressed about this. I called Paypal and they said they will investigate and should return the money. I called the bank and they said they can return it within 30 days if it was unauthorized but asked that I wait to see what Paypal does. This hurts me very much finanacially. I have bills that will be coming through soon that I will have to put money in the account to cover.

No breakfast again today.........don't feel up to it at this moment.

Sorry Tiger, no quote today as well, nothing seems motivational enough. LOL I'm still searching for the bright side to this.

LUNCH: ham and cheese club, 1 bag 100 calorie snack - Chips Ahoy

DINNER: 2 small chicken Philly cheese steak subs, couple pieces of chocolate

[contempgal]

June 17, 2005

Well, after much stress and running it looks like I'm on my way to fixing the problem with Paypal. I kinda freaked out yesterday when I saw that the money had been removed from my account so I spent most of the morning on the phone with Paypal and my bank. Luckily, Paypal approved for the bank to reject the withdrawal and they were able to put the money back in last night. Paypal is still conducting their investigation.

Admittedly, the stress of this week took its toll on me. I feel very blah and very emotional but do feel much better today than I did. I haven't ate quite right and I haven't exercised much. I do hope to get fully back to normal now that this is working more in my favor than in my hackers. I'm sure that between this week and TOM, tomorrow's weigh in will not be good.

My employer has been understanding with my constant running this week. In between time, though, I have kept myself very busy as to keep my mind off of things. I've got a lot of work accomplished today.

LUNCH: 1/2 Subway Italian BMT sub, 1 bag 100 calorie snacks

There is some good news to report.........we have finally decided to stay longer during our WDW trip in September. We will now be there from September 27 - October 4. We are staying 4 nights at CR tower and then 3 nights at AKL. I've never stayed at AKL and I'm very excited. I think my DN will love it as well.

A friend and I are going out to dinner tonight and I hope to finally get some sleep tonight and put to rest this horrible week. Hopefully, the sun will come out tomorrow..............lol :sunny:

DINNER: 1 chicken burrito, 1 chicken quesadilla, 1 large chocolate covered strawberry blizzard

[TigerCheer2009]

Scary Paypal thing. I got your quote right here! Today: "Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, only this time more wisely. Henry Ford" Tomorrow: "It's not the situation, but whether we react (negative) or respond (positive) to the situation that's important. Zig Ziglar" Yesterday: "Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly. Robert Kennedy". Keep on keeping on, dahling! (Can you tell I've been watching a lot of old movies lately?) Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way!!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~:hug::cloud9: :wizard:

Sounds like you need a hug and a cheerleader! Well, I'm here now! (And TOM is evil. End of story.)

[contempgal]

June 18, 2005

Thanks Tiger for your amazing boost of support!!

Weigh in day - I was very suprised to see a 1.4 pound weight loss this week. I'm happy with that because I didn't eat well and didn't exercise hardly any (if any). I'll take it.

After my weigh-in, I thought about this week and realized that I failed myself by letting outside forces hinder my journey. I keep thinking, if I had stayed on track in Ocean City and this past week, I would have lost even more weight than I already have. And while I can't let that knowledge bother me as its in the past, I have to use it as fuel to regain my focus. Yes, it was a bad week and I'm very glad its over but I made it even worse by allowing it to thrawt my journey. Today is step one to getting everything back on track. I may have lost weight last week but if I continue on this path, it will not continue. I know that. There will be good days and not so good days but there will not be any more bad WEEKS.

BREAKFAST: 2 cups baby carrots

Slept in this morning as Saturdays are generally my only day to do this. My very late breakfast consisted of carrots because I need to go to the store. I rode the bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts and weight rotations. A start!

LUNCH: 1 can chicken noodle soup

I keep making the mistake of drinking a bottle of water before walking. I made it about 1 mile and thought I'd never make it to a bathroom. LOL I did get in the mile but wanted to do more.

DINNER: 1.5 servings ground turkey tacos, 1.5 servings sugar free triple chocolate ice cream


Quote of the Day: "Shoot for the moom because even if you miss, you'll land among the stars." -- Col. Rankin

[TigerCheer2009]

Glad to hear you're in a happy dappy mood today! (dappy? I don't know where I get these words from) Good for you on the exercise!

CONGRATS on the downage poundage!!!! I'm so proud of you!

[contempgal]

June 19, 2005

Happy Father's Day!

I have been blessed to have 2 wonderful and loving parents so this day (along with Mother's Day) is very special to me. I got up very early and went to my parents house to help my mother cook while my dad was at church.

ALL DAY FOOD: 1 Nutragrain cereal bar, 1 grilled chicken sandwhich on wheat bun, 2 servings baked macaroni and cheese, 2 servings potato casserole, 2 servings macaroni salad, 1 serving hot potatoes, 2 servings fruit salad, 1 serving sugar free banana pudding

I think that's it. It was a good day and I didn't eat great but could have definately ate much, much more. We did have a huge water gun fight (I lost!) and played badminton for about an hour so I got in some physical movement.

We also played many WDW videos for my BIL and DN who haven't been there before......they are both very excited about the trip in September. LOL

All in all, it was a good day.

[contempgal]

June 20, 2005


I'm a bit proud of myself..........I was able to roll myself out of bed to ride the bike for 20 minutes followed by leg lifts and weight rotations. It was very difficult though.

BREAKFAST: 1 cup black cherry light yogurt

LUNCH: Roasted turkey sandwhich on wheat bread, 1 bag 100 calorie snacks

DINNER: 2 servings vegetable lo mein, 1 servings chicken from sweet and sour chicken, 2 servings broccoli, 2 servings fruit salad, 1 small m&m cookie

I treated myself and DN to Chinese food today. Not that healthy but I didn't better than normal. After, we went to the mall and I got a new cell phone. DN was watching the manager and he (for some reason) took his shoes off and was in his socks..........DN looks at him and asks if his feet stunk. It was quite humorous. Luckily, the manager also found his remark funny.




Quote of the Day: "Impossible is a word to be found only in the dictionary of fools." - Unknown

[toystoryduo]

Way to go, Amanda! :cheer2:

I think it can be challenging to wake up and exercise any morning, but especially on a Monday! :faint: Congratulations on getting your workout in! :goodvibes

Hope you have a wonderful day! :teeth:

[TigerCheer2009]

WHOA! Nice job Amanda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You're so dedicated! You inspire me-I can't get up and exercise in the mornings!

:worship: :worship:

[pearlieq]

Your Father's day sounds like so much fun! Water gun fights are the best--win or lose!

Good job getting yourself up to exercise. It's really been paying off for you!

Keep up the great work! :flower:

[TigerCheer2009]

Hi Amanda!!!! I want to have a water gun fight!

FYI, I bought some gel cuppies! Peaches and pears in cherry gel! Yay!

[contempgal]

June 21, 2005

Thanks to all for the boost of inspiration! I can always use it.
Hope you like the gel cups, Tiger!

BREAKFAST: 1 cherry Nutragrain cereal bar

The start to a long day, I'm sure. Hence, the funny quote for today.

LUNCH: 1 cheese quesadilla, 1 chicken burrito, 10 or so tortilla chips with salsa

Having lunch out is never a good thing, especially at my favorite Mexican restaurant. Not a great job here.

DINNER: 1 serving taco salad with ground turkey, 1.5 servings fruit salad, 1 2 servings sugar free ice cream

I'm just feeling generally blah and can't seem to get out of this funk. I need to walk but between being busy and the weather, I haven't done it. That's not an excuse.....I need to find a way to do it.


Quote of the Day: "My second favorite household chore is ironing. My first being hitting my head on the top bunk bed until I faint." - Erma Bombeck

[contempgal]

June 22, 2005

BREAKFAST: 1 light raspberry yogurt

Another busy day, I'm sure. It's dark and dreary here and its making me want to sleep. It's quite strange how in the winter, I have no problem getting out of bed early to go to work because I know I'll have to clear the car and driver carefully........but then in the summer, I can't get up early for anything!! It sucks.

LUNCH: 2 hot dogs, 1 fat free brownie

Tried a new place for lunch, its called the Lite Side and it specializes in light and WW approved foods. Suprisingly, it was quite delicious. The brownie was fat free and was filled with bavarian cream. Yummy.


Quote of the Day: "All things pass... Patience attains all it strives for." - Mother Teresa

[pearlieq]

What a cool restaurant! I wish we had something like that over here!

Have a great day! :flower:

[TPCShauna]

Restaurant sounds good. So, how are you?

[contempgal]

Well, if you haven't figured it out.......I am struggling big time with my journey. I so did not want to do this. It started with an unexpected trip to one of the University's branch campuses. I didn't think I would be going and ended up staying for a few days in a hotel with virtually nothing to eat but fast food. When I returned, I just couldn't get back on track. I've kinda even relished in not having to watch everything I've ate and not exercising so much. I don't feel good about this.......my back is hurting more now and I just feel blah. I also had a nasty run-in with some idiot who made really negative comments about my weight. That made me just feel worse, instead of motivating me. I NEED HELP.

I've done just 2 things right in the past couple of weeks -- 1) I've not gone back to soda. Though I've went back to everything else, I haven't returned to soda. That's good I guess as I'm sure I would have a very hard time getting myself to stop this agin AND 2) I did buy (but haven't received yet), a device that measures who far I've walked and how many calories burned.

With my admission of relapse, I have to say that I need help getting back on track. I have to lose weight, for my health, for myself, for my trip to WDW.......and to fit into that bridesmaid dress in October.

I think I just need to find that motivation I had before. Slowly.

[TigerCheer2009]

Amanda: Glad you're back! The restaurant sounds awesome. If I can be of any help with you getting back on track, please let me know. You did okay...but excellent going w/o soda! :wizard:

[TPCShauna]

Hi Amanda!

I'm sorry you're struggling. I wish there was something I could do or say but I know what it's like. Just remember, we've all been there and we'll support you no matter what.

Good luck and hang in there!

[brandip22]

Oh Amanda, i am right there with you girl! I've been MIA as well and need some motivation to get back on track. I'll try to find it for the both of us, OK? We know that "nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" right? That can be part of our mantra- it helps me at least. We just have to keep saying it over and over. Plus, for our health- that's way more important than food! And our bodies feel so much better when we get off our butts! Let's make a pact to do some excercise on Wednesday, ok? What do ya think?

[goldcupmom]

Hi, Amanda! I'm just getting back from being gone and catching up with everyone. I, too, am struggling with getting back on track now.

Hang in there and remember each day is a new beginning. We CAN do this!

I'm anxious to hear from you that you are still keepin' on!

[TigerCheer2009]

I'm here if you need to talk, or be inspired, or need a hug, or need anything at all.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[pearlieq]

Hey. I was just thinking about you and wanted to send some :wizard: your way.

Hope you're having a great weekend!