Paula's Wish Journal.......

[DISNEYFANRI]

Today is the day that I have decided to join WISH.

Background:
I am 47 yrs old - hate exercise and a junk food junkie. Fortunately I have no major health issues although kidney disease does run in my family.
I am @ 5ft 1in. .....stepping on the scale....fuly dressed no shoes 126 - the highest I have been in a long time. I know it may not be that high but for me it is a very uncomfortable weight and I have never felt so old and frumpy.

I'm one of those classic "start the diet on Monday" people and it's over with by Tuesday afternoon...hate to use the cliche but yes I have no willpower. I'm looking for support and encouragement - tell me what to eat - make me accountable!!

What I do eat (and yes - I know all of this is bad but don't know how to fix it on my own):
Breakfast: Coffee ( 2-3 cups with light cream)
If I do eat breakfast it is something sweet (and of course by 10am I am hungry again).

Lunch: Sandwich and chips - diet soda

Dinner - sensible meal - small portion

**** bad times of the day that I want to snack:
4pm (I have coffee then too)
9pm - always looking for a snack.

Weaknesses - coffee, chocolate

**** I hate fruit

I am a work from home mom of 2 teens - I work nights and very rarely go out during the day (I let the kids take my car to school) -I have no activities or hobbies outside of my home.

Need to know what to buy at the market this week so Monday can be a "real DAy #1" for me.

[DISNEYFANRI]

What I hav eaten so far today:

Breakfast:
3 cups of coffee
Post cereal bar (cranberry)

before lunch - munchies
3 jelly beans
handful of garlic and butter croutons (bad,bad,bad!!!)

Lunch
peanut butter and banana sandwich
glass of milk

[lizdotcom99]

Hey Paula,
You are in good company here!! And a great big Welcome too!!! You will be happy to know there are some Yaya's here too....Lily, Kristy and mysef!! This is a great bunch of people who are here to help support you ......and give you a good kick in the pants when ya need it!!

I am sure you will get LOTS of healthy eating tips.....what kind of plan are you looking to follow....given that information, people will be able to help you with things that have helped them.....I personally go between Weight watchers and Atkins/Southbeach.....they seem to be the best for me...and I can stick with it easier.....for me, this is definately a lifestyle change..not a diet. I am quite surprized though....here is is almost Apil and I have stuck with it since the beggining of the year! If I can do it.....anybody can!!!

Don't be a stranger here!!! Come back often!! You can do it! I know you can!! :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Thanks so much Liz - that is exactly what I am looking for a lifestyle change!! I am hopingto find a way to be ehalthier - fel ebtter without being a slave to a diet.

Thinking positive thoughts..... :sunny:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Afternoon snack...

coffee and 2 oreos - gotta find a healthier sweet snack.....

[Lesli54]

Paula,
WELCOME to the WISH boards! :wave:

I think that you will find it is easier to change the eating habits when you write down what you eat. It sure helps me and I am becoming aware of why I eat and when. Read some of the other journals as you have time and you will find some others that have the same concerns as you. You'll probably also find some great tips on how to curb the refined sugar crave. Have you tried all fruits? Is it that you don't like them whole or do you not like them mixed in anything?

Good luck on your lifestyle change. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Can't say that there is any fruit that I hate but it is an effort to eat it - I can't be bothered - I know that sound wierd - I honestly can't ever remember as a kid having to eat fruit either.
But - I will try.

[pearlieq]

Welcome to WISH! :wave:

You're doing a great job with journaling and it really does help! One tip that might help would be to eat a bigger breakfast. I know--no ever tells you how to lose weight by telling you to eat more, but it's really helped me. A good breakfast gets your metabolism going first thing in the morning and can help you stay energized all day. I see you've got some cereal bars--that's a good start. Maybe try adding a string cheese, some yogurt, or even a handful of nuts to beef it up and give you some protein for staying power.

Good Luck! :banana:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Today is day #2 - still feeling optomistic.

For breakfast I had 1 slice of wheat bread - with peanutbutter and 1/2 banana - 3 cups of tea with 2% milk (no coffee - now that's something).

Going to work outside in the yard today.

Spaghetti and meat sauce for lunch.
Baked chccken breast and salad for dinner.

and lotsa lotsa water.

[Lesli54]

You're off to a great start today! :banana: Breakfast is a big key to getting the day going right.

I find that it is easier to get in fruit or veggies if I cut them up when I get home from the store and put them in baggies or storage containers before putting them in the fridge. Such as celery, cauliflower, melons, etc. Of course, you can't do it with everything, but it sure does cut out the hassle of preparing them when you want a snack.

Keep up the good work and water is excellent for you! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[pearlieq]

I find that it is easier to get in fruit or veggies if I cut them up when I get home from the store and put them in baggies or storage containers before putting them in the fridge. Such as celery, cauliflower, melons, etc. Of course, you can't do it with everything, but it sure does cut out the hassle of preparing them when you want a snack.


This is a great tip. I don't know about you, but I'm kind of lazy by nature. If something's in front of me, there's a good chance it's going to get eaten. So, if you can outsmart yourself and have the fruits and vegetables all ready to go and right in front of your face, there's a much greater chance that you will reach for them when you want a snack as opposed to something not so healthy.

Make sure you put them front and center--right at eye level--in the fridge. Let them be the first thing you see.

Hope you had a great day!

[DISNEYFANRI]

That is a great idea - I will try that!! Marketing tomorrow - hopefully I will make healthy choices.

:flower:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Had another revelation - I am definitely not eating the right type of foods - they are not filling me up - hence the need to snack - then snack on bad things which don't fill me either.

Hmmm.....maybe I should take that Dr Phil book out and read it again.

Anyway - today was another good day - ended up eating Schwans Pasta blend with tuna and no fat italian dressing (and a handful of croutons).

Dinner is cooking now and I an starving....posting instead if "picking" .

Only had 2 cups of coffee today.

:flower:

[sarahsmom73]

Welcome Paula! :sunny:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Day #3 here
Last night - had the 9pm hunger attacks again - trying to figure this out - am I really hungry or is it psychological??

If I'm really hungry it's because I'm probably not eating enough to fill me up at dinner - if that's the case need to find a healthy 9pm snack.

If it's psychological then it's because I'm sitting at my desk (I work nights from home) and things have quieted down so I am just bored and a snack picks me up to be able to work till 11pm....

Could be either - will have to think more on that.

Went out to breakfast with a friend this morning - scrambled eggs - toast - ate less than 1/2 of the home fries - no meat....way too much coffee!!!

Till later.....

[lizdotcom99]

Paula, a little tric I learned a while ago...Protien, protien, protien!! I notice that if I eat mroe protien and fewer carbs, I feel so much better!! The most amazing revalation for me was cutting out white flour and sugar. Some days are better than others for that, but I find that when I carb out....I am often tired and hungry.....so I try for more protien.....It is not unusual fo rme to eat a left over chicken breast for breakfast....that really seems to hold me till lunch. I also find that peanut butter on a whole grain bagel does me a world of good when I have it with a light and fit smoothie! Ya just have to make choices.....for me, often I pick the higher calorie more protien item.....and find I end up eating less of the "bad" stuff later in the day!! Just my $.02. Sounds like you are doing great! Keep up the good work!!!

Oh, and one more thing that has really helped me.....walking! I never thought I would be the one to say I am traing for a 1/2 Marathon...but I am!!! The walking has totally changed my attitude on SO MANY things! It has also made me feel better about myself in SO MANY ways!!!

One day at a time, one step at a time!!!

:teeth:

[Lesli54]

You're doing good! :banana: Trying to figure out why you are eating at varoius times is a HUGE step in the right direction. I found that my late night snacking was from boredom and to keep me working on the computer later. Now I am going to bed earlier (which not everyone can do) and I try to break up the computer work by taking breaks to work on other projects. It keeps me from snacking because I am not bored. It has only been a few weeks, but now I don't have that voice in my head late at night that says "go munch".

Also, drinking lots of water througout the day helps. Self awareness is a good thing! Keep up the good work. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Ok - I think I'm getting the hang of this - normally on days that I go out for breakfast I would have it in my mind - big breakfast/no luck - which really meant snack all afternoon.
I stopped to think - I didn't have that big of a brakfast - I guess when you notmally don't eat breakfast anything would be considered big - I had 2 scrambled eggs - 1 1/2 pcs toast and about 5 bites of home fries - that's not too bad - here comes lunch - I must be a "clock eater" because I'm hungry - first thought just have a snack - but I didn't - ate 1 pc. cheese pizza and 10 grapes - big glass of ice water - feel very satisfied!!!!!

Maybe I'm finally "getting it".

[Lesli54]

Your getting it! :banana: :banana:

Keep up the good work. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - laast night was a bad night -a fter doing what I thought was pretty well all day - no one wanted to eat - I ended up at my desk and eating shack mix (Munchies).

Thsi morning - had 3/4 onion bagel for breakfast

Just ate lunch - 1/2 of a leftover subway chicken ranch sandwich - no chips (small steps)

Confession - I made brownies for the kids - only ate 1/4" square.

Marketing wasn't great - I didn't buy chips that is a good think buit lettuce was $1.99/head and I could not bring myself to buy that.

Till later...

[DISNEYFANRI]

my day is going ok....had my afternoon coffee and 1 small brownie - if i can l limit myself to that 1 sweet per day I will be getting somewhere.

Dinner is venison loin. baked potato and cole slaw (small helping).

I was thinking today how being brought up in the 60's and 70's I seem to equate "diet" with not eating instead of with eating helthy.
In order for this to work it has to be a lifestyle change for me - it would be great it I could eat healthier foods - feed better and still not deprive myself of anything.

STill feeling positive....

[Lesli54]

It does take time to throw out that 70's mentality of dieting. I was too young to diet then, but watched the adults in my life eat like birds or not eat at all when they were dieting in the 70's. Until you mentioned it, I didn't really stop to think that I had gotten the wrong ideas of dieting from that. Interesting. :scratchin

A lifestyle change takes time, but it really feels great! Keep up the good work. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Just a quick post - I thought I was going to have to write off yeterday as a total wash....but I stepped in the scale this morning and I lost 2 pounds!!!!

:cool1: Woohoo!!!!!!!!

Tried to all the Summer challenge Icon to my Sig but it's not working...

[Lesli54]

All right! :banana: 2 lbs down is great!! :banana:

Keep up the good work. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Feeling good again today - I actually had cereal for breakfast - a small bowl of rice chex with cut up strawberries- who knew that would be so good????

Having turkey casear alad for lunch - replacing my "crunch" craviong with a hard fat free pretzel.

Trying to cut down on the afternoon coffee....

hmmm...exercise - still not into it but - exercise is movenemt - right?? So at the very least I will hang 3 loads of laundry on the clothesline and will work out in my garden for at least 1 hour - it's a start...

[lizdotcom99]

Paula!!! Sounds like you are doing great!!! Keep up the good work!! So glad to hear about your 2 pound weight loss.....2 down is way better than 2 up, that is for sure!!!!

And putting laundry on the line....I used to watch my grandma do it...and quite frankly, that looks like A LOT of exercise to me!!

Have a great day and keep up the good work!!

:teeth: :cheer2: :teeth: :cheer2: :teeth: :cheer2:

[Lesli54]

Well, we all have to start our exercise somewhere and if that means you get a few chores done then all the better. ;)

You are doing well and you'll soon figure out an exercise routine. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Just a quick morning post- seems like I am doing something right because my impulse eating has lessened - I am really limiting myself and feeling well. Had cereal with fresh strawberries again for breakfast - cut doen to 2 cups of coffee - starting today going to try to cut out the afternoon coffee.

I did hang laundry yesterday - 3 loads - I guess bringing them up from the basement - out to the back yard and hanging counts for something - I also worked on my flower garden for about 1 hr - have to limit myself due to back and neck problems - sore this morning but still glad I got the exercise in and planning on doing it again today.

[DISNEYFANRI]

It's been a couple of says since I posted - questioning whether or not I am doign ok - part of me feels like I am eating better - another part does not think I am accomplishing anything at all - .....

not steping on the scale till Monday.

Need to grocery shop- no food in the house- may be cereal and fruit for lunch.....

Gardening may be good for the exercise but it's definitely not good on my neck - .....now what to do??? Resting today to see if that helps.

Till later...

[pearlieq]

I hope your neck feels better soon!

With regards to eating, the best thing you can do it keep at it! Any effort you make to eat better, however small, has benefits. Do the best you can and don't give up. You can do it! :cheer2:

Have a great weekend! :flower:

[Lesli54]

Hang in there, you are doing great! There will always be times (especially in the beginning) when you just aren't sure about all this. But it is worth it. Don't just think in terms of weight, but also think in terms of energy, and attitudes.

Sorry to hear about your neck. Take it easy on the exercise until your neck feels better. Have a great weekend! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - I have to admit - I was scared to weigh myself today so I decided to do it every 2 weeks.
Weekends meals - eh..could have been better - but snacking is down - didn't even have to indulge my 9pm snack craving tonite.

Today I had a Slimfast bar for breakfast - turkey caesar salad for lunch and a little bit of snack mix but now that's gone - dinner was a hamburger and a few chips - not bad - tomorrow will be even better.

The only exercise I was able to accomplish was hanging laundry - neck and shoulders still bothering me alot (of course that means I should be off the computer).....

Till tomorrow...

[Lesli54]

Don't worry about weigh in, you'll be fine. You are watching what you eat and getting in some exercise (even if it is laundry). Before long, you will be feeling better and moving alot. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

I feel like I have gone completely off track today - ate small meals but cheated too...

Shoulders and neck still sore so not exercising alot- hope tomorrow is a better day....glad I have till Monday for weigh in.

[Lesli54]

You can get back on track, I just know it! :cheer2:

Hope weigh in goes well. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

The weigh in went better than expected - I loss 1 more pound - down 3 so far - feel like I am eating way healthier but still need to do better - still feeing positive about all this though.

[Lesli54]

:cheer2: :cheer2: Another lb. has left the building! :cheer2: :cheer2:

You are doing GREAT! Remember, it takes time, but I think you have come along way already. Keep it up. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

good news - I tried on a pair of Gap jeans that I bought around Christmas but have been afraid to wear fearing the would be too tight....they fit!!

bad news - the jeans are low-rise - not liking what the belly skin looks like....

guess I have to try exercising.

Still haven't picked a definite diet plan yet = did Slimfast today....

[Lesli54]

At least the jeans fit! :banana: That always makes me feel good. Keep up the good work and you will look good in them in no time. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Wow!! It's been way too long since I posted - I weighed myself this morning - down another pound which puts me at 6 pounds for April.

I still don't feel like I've manager to get into a diet and exercise routine......

But.....still feeling very positive - just signed up for 5 for May challenge!!

[Lesli54]

YEAH! Another one bites the dust! :cheer2:

Time to claim that 5lb clippie! Keep it up and you will be at 10 in no time. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[mking624]

YEAH!! 6 pounds for April!! Way to go girl....go claim that 5lb clippie!! :cheer2:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Not sure what is worse - typing skills or math skills - that would be 4 ofr April - not 6.....oh well - 5lb clippie is just around the corner!!

[Lesli54]

A little bit of a bummer, but take the 4 and run with it! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

STill trying but desperately need to pick a diet plan - "cutting back" is just not doing it for me....need to be more disciplined.

I know I can...I know I can....

[Lesli54]

Maybe you should go to the bookstore and just start reading a few of the different plans before you buy the book. That should help you get an idea of which one will best fit your lifestyle. Good luck on picking one. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

I actually have the Dr. Phil book....I think I'll start reading it again.

[Lesli54]

Sounds like me. I love his book, my problem is finding enough time to get it finished. Maybe, I can read it on the plane in a few weeks. :scratchin

Have a good weekend. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[mking624]

Paula, one thing that helped me is that when I found a plan that worked, I typed out sample menu plans and put them on my fridge...that way I saw it right away when going to the fridge and I knew what I could expect for food. And for eating out, I keep a list of different foods for a variety of places so I know ahead of time what I can get so I'm not drooling over the menu once we get there. It's little things like that which have helped me stay disciplined in this because I'm working ahead of time as opposed as to waiting until the "heat of the moment" to work on cutbacks or choices or something. Anyway, just thought I'd share. I hope you're having a terrific weekend!! :)

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well....I'm back......thought I could do this by just "cutting down" - yeah right!! Time to restart journalling and get serious.

my new "promises":

1. cut down on caffeine (my weakness)
2. drink water - no soda
3. write down everything that I eat
4. weigh in every monday morning
5. try to exercise (see my previous posts regarding back and neck injuries) - even if it's just stretching

6.do something good for me every day
7. find ways to releive stress that do not involve food

I feel good about restarting this - posters and support welcome (thanks Lulu for getting be to start again!!).

[DISNEYFANRI]

Forgot to list:

8. I will start taking vitamins
9. I will try (really try) to eat fruit.


breakfast today was english muffin with peanut butter and butter - prob should have skipped the butter even in a small amount - I'm learning....
2 cups of coffee with light cream.

[Lesli54]

Welcome back Paula. :cool1:

I can't count the number of times that I feel like I am rededicating myself again, coming up with new goals and reestablishing old ones.

Have you talked to your dr. about what exercises you can do given your neck and back problems? A friend of mine has some back problems and her dr. showed her a few exercises that she can do while lying on the bed. Some are similar to those that most do on the floor, but the bed gives her back the added "cushion" it needs. Laying on the floor would be a big mistake for her. I think that your dr. would know best how to help you in this area since he/she would know the extent of your injuries.

Good luck on kicking the caffeine. You can do this, I have faith in you. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Thanks Lesli,
I am going to ask both my MD and Chiropractor about exercising.

[Cruise04]

:wave2:

Good job at making those goals for yourself. I tend to die out in my weight loss when I don't have goals because I get bored. Another thing to go along with the writing everything down that you eat - make sure you measure everything out. That is also very important!!!!!

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[DISNEYFANRI]

Official day #1 - weighed in and recorded.

Breakfast - 3/4 cup Special K cereal
no coffee!!!!!

Have to grocery shop today - salad and roast turkey for lunch.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Went to the grocery store and was really careful about what I bought - had a big green salad for lunch - 2 slices of turkey breast and a small handful of croutons - low carb caesar dressing. i did have crackers with it - Peppridge Farm sesame - my favorite.
No dessert.

Have drank 20oz of water so far today.

**** also very well behaved at the dairy farm - only bought 2% milk and light cream for coffee - no treats.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Still on track....

no snack this afternoon - bought my self a DD iced coffee and only drank 1/2 (save the other 1/2 for tomorrow)

for dinner I made 3/4 cup pasta shells - 1 sm (single service) can of tuna - hard boiled egg and 1/4 cup peas - mixed with 1 tbs. Moracle whip..also had a fresh cucumber *scant salt
Not a bad choice since I am home alone - I would normally do a sandwich and chips...

for dessert - 10 red grapes.

2nd 20 oz bottle of water on my desk right now.

No exercise today though....
the iced coffee was the "me thing" today - and read a bit of my Dr Phil book.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Onward for another day....

Special K cereal again this morning with a small glass of orange juice. No coffee - iced DD from yesterday still in the fridge for me to sip on - gotta get my water bottle ready.

Thinking of buying a new scale today....

Maybe some shopping with the kid - that will be walking at least.

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula!!

Glad to see you got your journal jumpstarted again! Now you gotta stick with it... or I'll have to come over and give you a kick in the pants, and you know I'm close by enough to do it! hehehe!! :goodvibes

Looks like you are getting off to a good start. I saw you posted a few months back that you were looking at different plans and considering getting Dr Phil's book, anything come of that? I am just curious! (Oooh, I was subtle there, no? Just getting you thinking! hehe (I saw your post about wanting a diet mentor, not sure I am cut out to mentor anyone but I sure can tell it like it is! hehe)

Hope you are doing well and having a happy night!
Mike :flower:

[Cruise04]

Looks like you are on the right track with the right mindset. Keep on working at it and you'll see great things!!!!

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[DISNEYFANRI]

Uh-oh - Mike knows where I live - hahaha.....I have both Dr Phil books - Ultimate weight loss and weight solution food guide - rereading them slowly - they make good sense and I am enjoying them - working on becoming more disciplined.

Today ws pretty good - lunch was the rest of my pasta/tuna/egg salad - had crackers with it - done with them - not buying any more.

dinner - not great - ok I guess - onion bagel - 2 slices of turkey and fresh green beans....little bit of butter - gotta cut that down.

yikes- just realized no water yet today.....1 iced coffee.

Going to get a big glass of ice water.

Did dorm shopping with my DD today - got some walking in that way.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Bad day today.....got to sleep in - but ended p workong for 2 hrs so had a 1/2 iced coffee and skipped breakfast - then had to take DD to meet her BF - no time for lunch - had Sour Patch Kids in the car - came home @ 4pm had 3 cups of coffee and a Debbie Snack - feeling very guilty and not too great right now.....

Not even sure what's for dinner.....too hot to think about it....I know I don't want what DH is making - Sausage and beans - yuck!!

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula!

Sorry to hear that you didn't have the best day but the night is ahead! See those not so good choices you made as just that, individual choices, and acknowledge that you have the right to make better choices to make a healthier you! :) Focus on the moment, not on the journey, I find that helps me through tough moments, YMMV! :goodvibes

I do hope to hear that you had a great & healthy night which will springboard you into a healthy Thursday!!

Mike :wizard:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Better choice for dinner - was tempted to just gine in and have a sandwich and chips - but didn't!! Made myself a turkey caesar salad - bread - no butter.

Resisting the 9pm munchies - going for water now.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Not sure if I am off to a good start today - lotsa work stress going on .....

so far today had small glass orange juice....3 cups of coffee....pieceof bread with peanut butter.


Gotta get out of the house for a while - more later....

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula!!
Sorry to hear you think your day didn't start the best, I hope it has gotten a lot better!!!

Have a great night!
Mike :)

[Lesli54]

Great job on choosing a better supper than the old standby. I have a friend who could live off sandwiches as well, but she has found that if she tries to balance here meals more she is actually losing weight. So it can be done and you can do it. :banana:

I am about 1/2 way through Dr. Phil's book, now. Boy the reading is slower than I thought. Lots of things to contemplate and think about, but it is helping. I do want to advise that you actually do all the written exercises that he recommends, it will really help you to go back and discover some interesting facts about yourself. Personally, I need to go back and do a few since I did them mentally when I wasn't near paper and pen while reading the book.

Check out his food guide as well. There is a 14-day Rapid Start in there that lists the types of foods that you should have and when. If you want specific meals, then he has included a menu for the 14 days as well. I have made a few changes to it when I wasn't able to get the items that he suggests, but stay with a similar type of food. As soon as DD18 is leaves next week, I am going back to that menu. Just too hectic to cook much now.

As far as the 9pm munchies, you can get past them. I did and I haven't had those munchies in months and months. Every once in awhile, I get a really late supper and I have eaten some popcorn with the family a few times, but most of the time, I don't even miss it. Every day gets easier. Try reading a book, brushing your teeth early, do a hobby, needlework, puzzles, scrapbooking, late night walk (whatever you can tolerate). Anything will help.

Hope you have a good evening. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Mike - my day did get a little better - thanks. Ate a normal dinner - just small portions.

Hi Lesli - thanks for the encouraging words - I too have a DD18 leavig for college on the 26th. Reason for my 9pm munchies is mostly because I work at night so I'm just sitting at my desk. And I work from home which makes it even easier to munch - so I will just try to avoid the kitchen - as long as I can get thru the 9-10pm hour I'm usually all set. I also tend to get the 4pm munchies but I know that is because I drink coffee at that time and want something sweet so I have cut down on the coffee. Dr Phil definitely makes sense when he says to replace one behavior with another.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hurray - it's Friday - made it thru the week better than I thought.

Getting much better at resisting the 4pm and 9pm munchies...cutting down on afternoon coffee helps.

Today I'm going to visit a co-worker that had surgery - I will bring dessert but will leave it there for her. I know she said she is making chicken caesar salad for lunch.
Haven't eaten yet today - just orange juice and coffee so fr.

Feeling good - thinking of coming up with a walking plan....gotta relieve work stress - I work from home so seems like I am working 24/7 - need ways to get me out of my office.

More later....oh - haven't bought the new scale yet.....my old one is definitely dead.

[Lesli54]

Great job at making it through the week and beginning to recognize some of the things that trigger the overeating. That is a big step in the right direction. A walking routine that you are comfortable with should be a big help.

I hear you on working from home. Sometimes, I think I never leave my office. Today, I am going to start eating in the kitchen and leave the office. That way, I am not eating and working at the same time.

Is your DD18 as excited as mine is to go to college?

Have a good day. ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Lesli - my DD is not excited at all - she is very nervous. She is such a serious girn - she knows that she has made the decision but is still very afriad.
She will be about 2 1/2 hours from home - does not know anyone going to her college. Right now she is still on denial mode - spending every precious moment with her bf - hasn't received roomate info yet.

[Mykelogan]

Lesli - my DD is not excited at all - she is very nervous. She is such a serious girn - she knows that she has made the decision but is still very afriad.
She will be about 2 1/2 hours from home - does not know anyone going to her college. Right now she is still on denial mode - spending every precious moment with her bf - hasn't received roomate info yet.

Hi Paula!

Good plan to leave the dessert behind at your co-worker's home!!

Sorry to hear that your DD is nervous about school! It will be a huge step and risk for her, but one with soooo many benefits. I left home for a University that had 30000 students and was 6 hours away from home. I was terrified at first but within the first 48hrs, I felt like I had found a great new home away from home. Now every student's process is different as they adjust but I am sure she will find her place and a whole new slew of friends. Of course I would tell you to encourage her to make good contact with her Resident Assistant/Advisors (RAs!) as they are students there whose job it is to make everyone feel like an involved member of the community. Especially if she does feel isolated at first. The hall staff is trained to look our for students that might not be adapting immediately and will definitely be caring people. Also, a great way to get acclimated is to get involved right away, all sorts of clubs will have new member meetings and the Office of Student Activities will definitely be on the look out for students who want to get involved. I don't know what school she is going to but these things are pretty much universal constants. For me I told myself that as shy and alone as I might have felt I was going to step out of my comfort zone and reach out to people in my Res Hall and on campus. At the end of the Fall semester I had gone from afraid to leave my room to Freshman Class President! hehe! I may seem loud & outgoing on here but at that point in my life I was not, College definitely opened my eyes a lot and made me a more open/communicative person! I am sending her good vibes and hope that she has a blast! She will never get to live this year over again, so I hope she makes the most of this excellent experience! :goodvibes

Have a great day!
Mike :flower:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Thanks for the encouraging words Mike...by the way - she is going to SUNY - Albany.

Ok - baring my soul here - I cheated....I went to the dairy farm for milk and bought desserts for the kids.....and could not resist 1 slice of cake for myself...had 1/2 slice last night and the other 1/2 today - now I'm over it - at least I didn't buy the whole cake...

So far today 1 1/2 pcs cold cheese pizza and 1/2 slice cake...lots of water - dinner is left over barbacued chicken and corn on the cob.

Looking forward to a better week next week.....going go an outdoor concert/cookout tomorrow - my goal is to just watch my portions.

More later - hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

[Lesli54]

I think you did great with the cake. Definitely a step in the right direction. You didn't devour it all in one sitting and you didn't buy the whole cake. Great job at changing the habit of HOW you eat one piece. No one said you couldn't have a treat from time to time, you just don't want to do it all the time.

Sorry to hear that your DD18 is nervous. Mike has a lot of good points. After a few days, I am sure she will be fine.

Have a good day! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[Mykelogan]

Thanks for the encouraging words Mike...by the way - she is going to SUNY - Albany.

Ok - baring my soul here - I cheated....I went to the dairy farm for milk and bought desserts for the kids.....and could not resist 1 slice of cake for myself...had 1/2 slice last night and the other 1/2 today - now I'm over it - at least I didn't buy the whole cake...

So far today 1 1/2 pcs cold cheese pizza and 1/2 slice cake...lots of water - dinner is left over barbacued chicken and corn on the cob.

Looking forward to a better week next week.....going go an outdoor concert/cookout tomorrow - my goal is to just watch my portions.

More later - hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

Oh cool Paula, Albany is a pretty cool city. I went to Cornell in Ithaca and used to drive through/bus through Albany often. Many times I'd find myself at the Albany bus station with a long lay over so I'd explore a bit. hehe!

I agree with Lesli, you did great with the cake!!! You are right, you did not buy a whole cake... you did not have a whole slice at once even! Good job, that is meeting one of your goals, portion control!!

Good weekend so far hear thank you! Hope yours is good as well!
Mike :goodvibes

[DISNEYFANRI]

Yesterday was definitely a "munchie" day - feel like I sweat off all the bad foods and alcohol that I consumed at the concert.

Feeling stressed today - work stuff - my daughters loans have not come thru yet - etc!! So far small glass of OJ - 3 cups of coffee and 1/4 of a magic cookie bar (at least limiting portions).
Looking forward to a turkey caesar salad for lunch.

More later if my mood improves....

[Cruise04]

Sorry you are stressed today - you did great the other day with the cake. If you don't have a little something once in a while then it will eventually get you and you will give in and then regret it. So you did very good!!!!! BRAVO

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula!

I hope that your mood has been able to improve!! If not, I am sending the bananas to help you out...

:banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana: :banana:

Have a better night!!!!
Mike :goodvibes

[lillygator]

Hi there - hope you mood turned around...I think we all go through those darn munchie periods....I know I do!

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi-ho!! My mood improved - thanks to all of you ....and the bananas!!!

But I really caved with the diet today - munched all afternoon - gave in and made a quick sandwich and chips to eat while I am working ...paying for it now - feeling yucky!!!

Looking forward to a better day tomorrow.....

New resolution - not to list what I did wrong but to celebrate what I do right!!!

[DISNEYFANRI]

Today is a new day!!

Today I ate salad and drank water - no sweets so far....

Substitute good activity for bad (instead of sitting in front of the TV I wrapped coins for Sept. WDW trip!!).

[Mykelogan]

Today is a new day!!

Today I ate salad and drank water - no sweets so far....

Substitute good activity for bad (instead of sitting in front of the TV I wrapped coins for Sept. WDW trip!!).

Hi Paula!!

Glad to hear you are in a better mood and are having a "new day!" That is awesome!

Have an even better tomorrow on me!
Mike :goodvibes

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - I made it thru the day - with only 1 cookie eaten!! And did not have afternoon cofffee!! and did not butter my bread with dinner. And did not eat any of the desserts that the kids got at the bakery (didn't even look in the box). Eating a few crackers now - and diet pepsi.

[Cruise04]

Celebrating what you do right is a GREAT thing!!!!!

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[Lesli54]

Your mood definitely sounds lifted. I think posting the things that you do right is a great way to go. Thinking about all the wrong decisions can really make you think that you are not making progress when in fact you just might be.

Hope you get the college financing done. I know how stressful that is. Still waiting for some confirmations on loans myself.

Have a great day! ::MickeyMo ::MickeyMo

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - here I am - been quite a while since I posted - had a few setbacks - been obsessed with the scale not moving - and 2 weeks ago - jsut as I was gettinh back in track with my Walk Away the Pounds video....I broke my tail bone!!! I also have some personal usies that I know are causing stress right now - so just trying to do the best I can....

Breakfast - 1/2 cinnamon raisin bagel - oj - coffee.

Here's to a good day!

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula,

Just wanted to check in and say hi! I hope that you are doing well with your injury and personal stress!! I am sending some goodvibes your way!!

Mike :goodvibes

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - I feel like I'm creeping back with my "tail between my legs" - had a good taste of reality last week - went for my annual physical - all is well ectect that in the past year I have gained 8 pounds and in the past 7 yrs - 20 pounds - not good in my book.
So - I bought a new scale - dial type - will weigh in every Monday morning - again trying to just limit portions - if that does not work will move on to more "hard core".
Also got the OK to start exercising again - orthopedic dr says tail bone is healing fine - MD says walk 1 mile 3x week - I can do that - in fact I'll start this afternoon!!

So far today - 1 cup OJ - 2 cups coffee
**** have to buy vitamins and calcium supplements this week.

Lunch - tuna sandwich - no chips in the house so no temptations.
Dinner - unsure.......any suggetions??

*** also gave up afternoon coffee - switching to herbal tea - not sure what I have but I will buy new this week and make sure it's caffeine free - bought those new 100 calorie snack treats - that will be my afternoon snack.

Still need suggestions for 9pm munchies.....I work till 11pm so definitely need something at 9......

Not ready to sign up for any challenges yet - hopefully soon.

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula!

Welcome back and congrats on being able to exercise again! An injury like that has to be a big damper on your motivation!
As for the 9pm munchies, what about something like a string cheese? I know the fat/protein usually satiates my hunger with just that small serving. Plus it gets some dairy in to ya! :)

Have a great day, you can do this!!
Mike :goodvibes

[DISNEYFANRI]

Thanks for the encouraging words Mike - sending you a PM.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hurray for me - had a tuna sandwich and carrot sticks for lunch - water to drink.

Also did 1 mile WAP!!!!!

Still unsure about dinner......leftover shepards pie in the fridge but don't even want a small portion of that......may have to run to the market later......

[DISNEYFANRI]

Having a good afternoon - 3pm snack was a cup of Republic of Tea - Pink Rose Greeen Tea and 100-calorie Oreo Crisps.

Still thinking about dinner - maybe stirfrying brocolli and carrots over pasta??

Too dreary - didn't feel like going out to get anything.

[DISNEYFANRI]

Dinner last night ended up being steamed brocolli and carrots - with chicken and pasta - didn't have any low salt terriaki sauce on hand so I made my own which came out very salty - took my portion before adding the sauce - just drizzled low fat honey dijon dressing on it.

Snack was a cup of decaf cinnamon spice tea and 2 hersheys nuggets at 7:30pm.

For today....

Coffee and juice - pretty hungry not many choices here so I'm going for 1 slice bread with peanut butter.

Lunch - undecided

Dinner - fish, stewed tomatoes - white rice.

More posting later...

[Mykelogan]

Go Paula!!!

Keep up the great work! You are doing awesome!

Mike :goodvibes

[DISNEYFANRI]

Friday and yesterday were definitely "could have done better days"

Friday - out to breakfast with my dad - opted for scrambled eggs - toats - home fries - only ate 1/2 the home fries.

Later AM - dad wanted a snack - went to Dunkin Donuts - iced coffee (cream- no sugar) - could not resist - got a maple frosted donut.....only ate 1/2.

dinner was french bread cheese pizza - snack - 11pm.....at my desk working - decaf tea and granola bar

Yesterday.....breakfast - OJ - coffee - eng muffin with peanut butter

Lunch - large DD coffee and jelly stick....(not good - I was out and about shopping)

Dinner.....chex mix- didn't feel like cooking.....

Today so far - OJ - coffee - DD blueberry muffin......hungry now - going to make a cup of herbal tea........hoping to cook a "real" dinner tonite.....

[lulu201]

Hey, Paula. Thanks for stopping by my journal today. :goodvibes

Are you trying to give up afternoon coffee, too? I find that when I have green tea--even though it has caffeine--I'm revved up, but in a much "softer" way, if that makes any sense. :p Still have to have the coffee in the a.m., though, even if it's only 1 mug.

Have a good day--
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Glad the weekend and all of it's temptations are over......

Realized that I need to cook more on the weekend - if not I end up endlessly snacking.

I allowed myself dessert lat night - made pudding *chocolate - cooked - gotta have that "skin" with 2% milk and....the bad/good/bad part......home-made whipped cream. It was delicious.

Back on track today - coffee and juice for breakfast - lunch was salad - well actually just lettuce - boneless chicken breast - craisins - few croutons - lite honey dijon dressing - few tortilla ships (gotta have something crunchy) - diet coke to drink.

snack later will be herbal tea and 100-calorie orio crisps.

Dinner - a Rhode Island dish - dynamits - think sloppy joes - with red pepper but no chili powder - served in torpedo rolls - will try to avoid chips....

[DISNEYFANRI]

Eating habits not great this week but I still don't feel like I totally bombed - no more afternoon coffee - really limiting snacking doring the day and I hve found that I am eating smaller portions. Started taking a multi vitamin and calcium supplements.

Haven't done any walking yet this week - will try my best to get some in today.

[lulu201]

Hi, Paula! Let's plan on another coffee-free afternoon, OK? We can do it! :goodvibes I don't know what your weather is like in RI, but here in PA it's :sunny: and bright. I hope you can catch a couple of rays to boost you through the day!

:flower: Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Not really wanting to post what I ate yesterday ....but I'll fell us - I guess a jelly donut and a cookie is not really considered good dinner food.

Having some worries - let junk food comfort me...didn't really work - today will be a batter day. Going to the mall to get some walking in and clear my head.

[lulu201]

Uh, nooo, Paula, a cookie and a jelly donut are not components for a healthy dinner, but hey, I've been there, too, and sometimes it's just what you WANT!

Hang in there and just try for a healthier day today!

Erin

P.S. Have a nice, cool, refreshing glass of water this afternoon, OK?

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - I took a good stroll around the mall today - more for my mental health than physical - good nontheless. And resisted the urge to get something at DD on the way home fromt he mall.

Ok - fessing up to the bad part.......Candy bar coupon sale" at JC Penney - ate that (got 30% off coupon inside though) - then...went to godiva - bought small box of halloween candy to mail to DD - bought 1 - just 1 maple walnut truffle for me.....very decadent.

Bad part is that's all I've eaten today.......

Having a large glass if ice water right now - stomach growling - help...........

[Mykelogan]

Hi Paula,

I am gonna have to stake out your house and take all that junk food away! hehe Good job on no afternoon coffee and your portion control, especially in Godiva!!! :) Mmm dynamites!! Haven't had those in at least 10 years, what a sense memory, so yummy. hehe :)

Hope you are having a great day!
Mike :goodvibes

[lulu201]

So, how's today going for you, Paula? I hope you're treating yourself well by eating lots of HEALTHY things. How 'bout a piece of fruit this afternoon? I'll have decaf tea if you'll have an apple or banana. . . :p

Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin....

I had a banana today (big for me - I hate fruit) and afternoon cup of herbal tea.....trying to fight off the 9pm munchies now.

[Cruise04]

Just checking in to see how you are doing. Keep up the work - I know it's hard but will be so worth it in the end. Hang in there...

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[Mykelogan]

Hey Paula!

I hope all is well! Thanks for visiting my journal! :)

Have a great night!
Mike :goodvibes

[lulu201]

Good morning, Paula! So, are you going to have another banana today? :p Sounds like you're making fruit a regular part of your life, you wild thing!

Hmmm, 9 p.m. munchies. . .are you watching TV when you get them? Getting ready for bed? What? Maybe you could try a hobby--like crocheting or needlework--to keep your mind and hands entertained? Just a thought, Paula. . .

Have a good one--
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Chris - thanks for posting!!
Hi Mike - Happy Thursday!!
Hi Erin - no banana yet today but I did have a bowl of rice krispies with fresh rasberries - still had a few left on the vines - picked them last night - quite yummy.

As far as the 9pm munchies - I am working - sitting at my desk......so technically my hands are occupied typing - ......
Last night - at 9pm....munchie time......took 1 teaspoon full of ice cream and ate it - I was happy - and proud of myself too!! Small steps!!

[Cruise04]

That is a good step Paula - 1 spoonful is better than one bowl full (or more)!!!! Good job!

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[DISNEYFANRI]

2pm.....hungry.......I know there is a Hershey bar in the fridge......been tehre since Sunday - I''m not giving in - had glass of orange juice - 1/2 pb sandich and banana.

Trying really hard to make good choices.....

[Cruise04]

You are doing good combating that bar that's been in there a few days - leave it there!!!!!

Keep up the good work.
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

Just curious, Paula--why do you have the Hershey bar in the fridge? Is it there to test your willpower? As a special "reward" for not eating other junk??
To curb a chocolate craving? I need to know why it's even there! Either eat it and celebrate it's deliciousness or throw it out and be rid of the torture!

You didn't ask for it, but I've been know to give my opinions free of charge. :teeth:

Hang in there, Paula. You're making some GREAT choices. You're succeeding at this! I can't believe you had that teeny tiny bit of ice cream and then ended it--I couldn't have done that in a million years. I'm too much all or nothing. I guess that's why I see a candy bar in the fridge as almost unbearable! :p

Enjoy your Friday!
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Erin - hahahahha - your question really made me laugh - actually my husband bought it last weekend - boy scouts were selling them - I am shocked by my willpower too - maybe I am trying to prove something to myself....

Anyway - no sweets at all this week - may treat myself tomorrow or Sunday.

Hope you are having a good day.

[lulu201]

Good morning, Paula. Thanks for filling me in on the candy bar. . .I can relax now. :p

:cheer2: Go, Paula! :cheer2: You've done a great job this week. Let me know what you do as a treat. . .my sweet tooth can live vicariously through yours.

Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Well - last night DH went into the fridge and said "I don't know how come this has been here all week and not opened - I'm eating it" - aka the Hershey - he gave me 1/2 - less guilt.

I bought low fat yogurt for 9pm snacks this week - we'll see how that goes.....

[DISNEYFANRI]

Novenber 1st - new day - new month - new attituude.

got on the scale this morning - not ready to "fess up" - lets just say I'm at square 1.....have 15 puonds to lose.....sounds easy.....

So far today:
Orance juice - vitamins - coffee with light cream.

Lunch - chicken caesar salad.
Dinner - possible Pizza.

Afternoon snack - herbal tea
9pm munchie snack - lo-fat yogurt.

Will dring water today.
Will do WAP today!!!!!!

[DISNEYFANRI]

Quick post - did fairly well today.

Lunch: chicken honey/dijon salad/few sesame crackers/green apple
afternoon snack: rose herbal tea/granola bar
Dinner (not so good) - pasta and sauce - corn - very very small piece of steak and 4 mozzarella sticks
9pm Munchies snack - fat free vanilla yoplait cup

only drank water today.

WAP - 1 mile

[Mykelogan]

Sounds like you had a great day Paula!!! Go you!!! :)

Mike :goodvibes

[lulu201]

Hey, Paula. :wave2: How's it going today? WAY TO GO ON THE YOGURT SNACK! Honey, you have come a long way in a very short time. Are you sure this is the same "junk food" Paula that started this journal? :teeth:

Keep it up, Paula, and you'll see the results!

Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Mike!!

Hi Erin!!

Thanks for posting - been a busy couple of days here - as you know I normally work from home but we posted for available positions so I have been in the office yestrday and today. Had McD's for lunch today.....have to admit it was a nice treat.

Still no afternoon caffeine!!

Going to Albany to visit my daughter this weekend - hubby and I - out son has to work so he cannot join us.

Have a good weekend!!

[Cruise04]

Just checking in and hope you are doing well.

Take care
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[DISNEYFANRI]

I have not weighed myself in a couple of weeks - last time it had not moved.

Can't say that I really over ate during the holiday weekend.

Happy to be Christmas shopping - even walking in the stores is better than nothing.

Note - quitting the afternoon caffeine has paid off - this years mammogran was negative and ny ultrasound needed!!!!! Woohoo!!

No food yet today - just OJ and coffee.....here's to a healthy eating day....

[DISNEYFANRI]

The Prodigal WISHER has returned.

I can hardly believe that almost 2 months has passed since my last post. In that time I have done alot of soulsearching and self searching and now I'm ready - for the first time in my life I feel like I can be in control. I need to learn th think about me - take care of me and be happy with me. My life has revolved around doing whatever it takes to make everyone happy - most times at my expense.

That said - it's back to healthy eating ..and we bought a Gazelle and I have been using it.

Small steps for today -

Breakfast - small bowl of cereal - Cranberry crunch - OJ - coffee.
Lunch - Healthy Choice Sesame Chicken meal and 3 sourdough hard pretzels (getting away from chips - slowly)
Afternoon snack - herbal tea and slim fast snack bar

*** took vitamins - calcium and fiber supplement

Did 20 minutes on the Gazelle.

More later......

[DISNEYFANRI]

Didn't do so grat last night - thought we were having chicken soup for supper but hubby didn't feel like making it so he made me a cheeseburger instead - so of course I HAD to have chips...had a fat free jello pudding to curb the 9pm "hungries".

So far so good today - coffee and banana bread for breakfast - took vitamins and supplements - lunch was Lean Cuisine Fettucini Chicken - carrot stick - 2 hard pretzels .

20 oz of water so far.

Feeling pretty good so far - not ready to step on the scale yet - need to get my self confidence in a good place so I don't give up.

Hanging in there......

[DISNEYFANRI]

Happy Thursday.....

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Went to the market and bought some frozen weight watchers meals - I really do like them for lunch. Dinner was chichen soup - and crackers - no evening snack.

So far this morning - vitamins - OJ - coffee and banana bread - off to Gazelle.

More later......

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hurray for me - I'm down 3 pounds!!!!!!