Lulu201's Healthy Living Journal--Just trying my best to walk the walk! Come on by!

[DoeWDW]

Hang on for a few more days of that DZone roller coaster and you'll be home-free!! I'm impressed at your willpower! You're sticking like glue to your plan and we both know that pays huge dividends.

:cheer2: You Go, Girl!! :cheer2:

[lulu201]

October 13. 2005

Good morning, friends. :grouphug:

Yesterday I was able to stay on track. :Pinkbounc I had to pray for strength a couple of times, but I made it through. Even took the vitamins. :)

Today's plan:

1. Devotions :)
A Time to Think:
Let no one come to you without leaving better and happier. -Mother Teresa
To Act:
Always look to the good you can do in every situation.
To Pray:
Lord, thank You for the wise words of others that help me be a better person.
That prayer immediately made me think of all my friends on the WISH; your wise words have influenced my life in so many ways.
2. Vitamins--will do
3. Water--will drink lots
4. Exercise--might take Mickey out for a walk
5. Food--The plan is for oatmeal surprise for breakfast, a lunch with protein, and a dinner w/pb sandwich, apples, and veggies. Carb snack before bed.
6. Scale--I so happy without it right now. . .I feel so much better just following the program that I'm afraid if I know my numbers, my emphasis will shift and I'll measure my success on the scale--rather than on how I feel.
7. Caffeine--had my a.m. mug and a cup of green tea mid-afternoon. What can I say, it was a long day! I might, however, have green tea this a.m. just to see how I feel without the "hard stuff."

I'm on my way to the drs. office for some bloodwork. Have to have the blood sugar numbers checked. Next Thursday I'll go for the follow-up consultation with the doc.

I'm going to hop in the shower and get going. Later this a.m. I'll pick up DD from a friend's sleepover--they don't have school today--and then I'll head to work. Can't wait to come back home to my jammies at 8!

I don't know if I'll get to anyone's journal today, but know I'm thinking about all of my WISH friends! :grouphug:

Erin :flower:

[DoeWDW]

Erin, that quote from Mother Teresa in your devotions today is one of my all-time favorites and one that I do try to live by. :goodvibes

You've been doing an outstanding job of taking care of yourself through this DZone. Your food choices and your commitment to getting the rest you need are inspirational to me. :flower:

Sounds like you've got a busy day on tap. :boat: Sail on through, sweetie!

:love: and :hug:

[septbride2002]

Morning Erin! You sound ready to tackle the day. Keep up the great work and let us know what your Dr. says.

~Amanda

[DISNEYFANRI]

Morning Erin....you have inspired me to start posting to my Journal again.

Good thoughts coming your way for your doctors appt.

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Erin,

Way to go staying on track yesterday! :cheer2: Mark that down as a VICTORY! :cheer2: Woohoo! :jumping1:

I hope you have a wonderful day today! :sunny: Take care! :hug:

[lulu201]

What do you know? It's Friday! :cool1:

I need to take a moment for a sunshine break: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: It's been raining every day for over a week and my soul needs to see the sun!
From what the weathergirl says, it's supposed to come out tomorrow afternoon.

Yesterday was a "stay on track" kind of day. It wasn't easy. . .by 6:30 the Reese Cups from the candy sale were calling my name, but I just couldn't give in. . .it wasn't worth it. I knew it was just going to encourage a roller coaster of cravings if I gave in and that I would lose control of my eating over the next few days (I'm at Day #30 and waiting for that TOM to finally roll in and out). As it was, I had a high-carb pizza lunch and by 3:30 I was feeling tense, tired, and miserable--the first PMS symptoms of the month (besides some cramping and fatigue). It's important for me to journal all this so that I can see how good I feel when I'm conscientious about my food. If I can eat 3 meals a day with protein and have my high carb late night snack, I just plain feel better. It's been amazing for me to learn the impact lousy eating has on how I feel. It's funny how something as basic as eating properly can be so hard to do, but when I take what I've learned in "The Highly Sensitive Person" and "Potatoes Not Prozac" I feel like I'm getting a handle on who I am and what's good for me. Finally. :goodvibes

So, here's the plan for today:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins--I can't forget!
3. Water--I'm also noticing that when my energy begins to slide during the day that I'm getting dehydrated and need some H2O refreshment!
4. Exercise--it's still raining, but I took Mickey for a little stroll around the block.
5. Food--oatmeal surprise for breakfast :p , lunch will be a salad, and I'm not sure about dinner.
6. Scale--I felt OK about getting on it today. I was back to 185.
7. Caffeine--This morning I'm having green tea for breakfast instead of coffee. Just seemed right today.

So, that's the scoop. I'm hoping for a quiet night at home tonight when work is done at 6:30. :cloud9:

Love to all,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

You are doing an amazing job of kicking that DZone to the curb this time around! :cool1: Your ability to stay on track is awe-inspiring! :Pinkbounc

Yay for that scale!! :cheer2:

Thanks for your words of encouragement in my journal. :hug:

[lulu201]

OK, so today I hit the ole perimenopausal wall. TOM is here with a vengence. I'm sitting here on the floor seeing stars spinning around my head! :p Oh maybe it's not that dramatic. . .but I still feel kinda like a dishrag as my hormones come crashing down all around me.

Still, I gotta smile. The :sunny: is out, the air is cool. . .it's a Fall day, that's for sure. As far as healthy living over the weekend goes--I have to admit I tanked. Fell off the wagon and then was run over by it. No vitamins, not enough water, sugar--you name it I ate it. Came back off of sugar yesterday, though, and with God's help, will abstain again today. I know I have to make to Friday if I'm going to properly "detox."

Anyway, here's the plan:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins--must do this today
3. Water--must drink
4. Exercise--must walk w/Mickey for a least a little while
5. Food--oatmeal surprise for breakfast; will eat protein at every meal
6. Scale--didn't go there, won't until Friday
7. Caffeine--had my mug this a.m. I can't make any promises about the rest of the day.

I'm going to go cuddle up with the pup for awhile and then try to get on with the day. How's that sound for enthusiasm? ;) I know, though, that this too will pass. . .

Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

HI Erin - just wanted to offer a :hug: - I'm right there with ya in "perimeno" land.....

You have a wonderful positive outlook for today - that's all that matters!!

Hugs,

[septbride2002]

Sorry to hear that you are bit under the weather. Take it easy today and let that body take a rest! :)

~Amanda

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin - yes - like you I am trying desperately to give up my afternoon cofee addiction - I work nights so I have a habit of drinking 2-3 cups of coffee at 3pm - thankfully I like flavored teas so I have bee opting for those - decaf...

Hope you are having a good day....

[keenercam]

Hi, Erin! I was just reading your journal and am so inspired by how you are doing! I have taken so much from your daily quotes and your scripture verses. Thank you so much for sharing them. :goodvibes:
Don't worry about a couple of "off" days; you are so good at this that you will get right back on track.
Have a great day!

[lulu201]

Hey, everyone! :wave2: Today is Tuesday, October 18, 2005, and from where I sit, it looks like the sun just might be out again today! :sunny:

Thanks for all the encouragement yesterday. I really felt like something stuck to the bottom of someone's shoe! :p :rotfl: As the day went on and I got myself to work (and out of my self-pitying mode) I felt better. Went to bed with a nasty headache, though. Darn TOM!

ANYWAY. . .it was a healthy living day for the most part. I didn't feel like eating much (now that's a switch!), so I had a multigrain bagel with cream cheese for dinner and a cheesestick. Took my vitamins and drank water, though, and avoided overt sugars. It's a start. . .

Now for today:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins--will take; they're out on the counter
3. Water--will drink tons
4. Exercise--will take Mickey to the park in a few minutes
5. Food--lunch will be an apple, some veggies, and a tuna sandwich. Dinner will be a saladworks salad?
6. Scale--Friday's coming
7. Caffeine--made it through OK yesterday without tea or coffee in the p.m.

Everyone's doing fine here; lots of busyness yesterday and today promises more of the same.

:grouphug: to all,
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Good morning Erin - enjoy your day!!

[toystoryduo]

ANYWAY. . .it was a healthy living day for the most part. I didn't feel like eating much (now that's a switch!), so I had a multigrain bagel with cream cheese for dinner and a cheesestick. Took my vitamins and drank water, though, and avoided overt sugars. It's a start. . .Erin

Erin,

I read your post 3 times this morning before I got this. The first time I read that you had eaten cheese steak, the next time I read it, I thought I read cheesecake, and the third time I read it, I finally read cheesestick. :rotfl: I think this flu bug I have has me seeing things. :blush: (Of course, I'm seeing foods that I would love to eat... if I could keep them down. ;) )

Hope you have a wonderful, no-headaches allowed day today! :goodvibes

[lulu201]

Yeah, I WISH it were cheesecake. . .or a cheesesteak. . . :teeth:

It looks like another :sunny: day today. Mickey and I will be out walking in just a few minutes. :cool1: Yesterday went OK though I'm not sure if I took my vitamins or not. I think I forgot? :confused3 I did try to drink lots of water, though. I messed up and had a muffin that someone brought in for me, but I DIDN'T follow it up with with a reese cup. That's good, isn't it? :p

Today's plan:

1. Devotions--done :goodvibes
2. Vitamins--gotta remember today
3. Water--will drink lots
4. Exercise--a quick walk around the block with Mickey will be about it for today. I've got to get into work around 9 (it's a 9 to 8 kind of day :rolleyes: )
5. Food--I don't feel like planning a thing, but I think I'll make myself a sandwich to take to work for dinner this afternoon. Lunch will be a McDonald's salad or--if I'm feeling particularly rebellious--chicken strips and french fries. NO SUGAR though. No muffins, no candy, NOTHING. Even if Santa Claus himself comes to give it to me--NO!
6. Scale--actually feeling OK, not TOM bloated anymore. I have to go to the dr. tomorrow so I'll probably have to face the scale then.
7. Caffeine--I'm enjoying my mug now. That'll be it for the day.

Lost is on tonight! I've become a huge fan of the show even though I'm playing catch up by watching last season on DVD. Last weekend we watched at least 8 episodes! And Amanda. . .if the question is Jack or Sawyer, I have to definitely say Sawyer. :blush:

I guess that's it from here. I'm tired and in need of some extra sleep, but there's nothing new about that! :p If truth be told, this TOM rollercoaster ride has gone better than most. I'm thankful for that.

I'm moving onward and looking Upward--
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Good morning Erin - looks like you have a long day ahead of you ....but with some very posivite thoughts - good way to start the day!!

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin - we have sunshine here too!! Crisp and sunny - my favorite time of year!!

No excuse not to get outside - even if I just walk around the yard.

[DoeWDW]

:hug:, dear WISH-sis! You did a wonderful job this month with your DZone / TOM roller coaster ride! You resisted sugars most of the time and I think you felt better for it. We both know how one little bit of sugar can put us on a downward spiral and you never let things get totally out of control. Good for you!! :cheer2:

I'm keeping Saturday open, just in case, but will not be upset if you have to cancel to get ready for Sunday's festivities. Truth be told, I knew that might happen. ;) Hey, I've been there myself. ::yes::

Keep up the great work. Hang in there during your long day and know that I'm sending :goodvibes and happy :wizard: your way, along with sending up prayers on your behalf.

Love ya, :love: & :hug:

[Strings]

Hi Erin

I think that you did really well with TOM this month. You sound like you have it together. I hope that your long day went well.

Take care,
Beth

Sawyer is definately the hottie of the show.

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: :goodvibes :sunny: Sending some warm and happy thoughts your way this morning.

Have a happy Thursday! :flower:

:hug: and :love:

[DISNEYFANRI]

Good morning Erin!! :sunny:

Happy Thursday - hope you have a wonderful day.

***** I didn't make it on the no caffeine in the afternoons yesterday - stressful day - bought an ice coffee.....poor excuse - will do better today!

[lulu201]

October 20, 2005

Well, I just came back from seeing both my primary dr. and my ob-gyn, and guess what they both said? I need to exercise! :rotfl: Sorry, to laugh, but that's about as profound a statement as "I need to lose weight." Tell me something I DIDN'T know, ladies! :teeth:

Seriously, I love my primary and she's noticed my increased poundage, so it really was the nicest way she could point it out to me. To be exact, her question was "do you exercise?" And I said, "Six months ago I was walking 20-25 miles a week, but I'm not doing that now." Her reply, "Yeah, I noticed you've gained some weight here," as she tactfully pondered the chart. The OB-GYN said that exercising the week before my period, the time when I start to feel like a dishrag, will help me a lot--that instead of a dishrag I'd feel "like a nice fluffy towel." :rotfl: See why I like these women? :goodvibes

And I know that I've got to do this exercise thing. I don't want to. I want to just stroll slowly around the park with Mickey. But, I know I have to, so. . .

I'm signing up for a marathon. :rotfl: No, just kidding. What I'm going to do is follow a program in a book called "Your Perfect Weight" published by Prevention magazine. It has a year-long program to fitness that starts with walking 10 minutes a day. I know that I can get on the treadie and do that.
Over the course of 52 weeks you slowly and steadily work back into a healthy level of fitness--nothing dramatic, just 3 miles a day 6-7 days a week. That should be manageable for a former Jock Athlete Half Marathoner Princess like myself, right? princess:

I know that with God's help I can do anything, so I'm going to try to follow my no sugar, less caffeine program and incorporate the exercise. Pretty boring--no flashy diet plan or anything--but one I can manage day to day.

Here's how it's looking for today:

1. Devotions--I'm on Day #12 of the Purpose Driven Life. For the remainder of the program (28 more days), I'll post the thoughts for the day.
2. Vitamins--forgot them yesterday. I've got to fill those little pill boxes; that's the only way I remember.
3. Water--have to get started. Did a good job with it yesterday.
4. Exercise--I'm going to stroll around with Mickey since it's :sunny:. I've already showered and done myself up for the day, but tomorrow I'm hitting the treadie. Early.
5. Food--breakfast was peanut butter on wheat toast. Dinner will be a tuna sandwich, some veggies, and an apple. Lunch will be something with protein.
P.M. snack will be my english muffin
6. Scale--can you believe I had to get on the drs. scale TWICE today? I closed my eyes for the first one, so I don't know what that said. The second--after breakfast, fully clothed, and with a full bladder--didn't count. :teeth: Tomorrow I'll find out the real number.
7. Caffeine--had a cup of decaf at the cafe in the wellness center (where my primary is). No caffeine this afternoon. Come on, Paula, we can do it! :Pinkbounc


That's it for today!
:cool1: Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin!!

Thanks for posting to my journal - taking our advice - I hav a extra large glass of ice water sitting on my desk right now!! And I resisted the temptation to turn the car to DD on my way back from the mall today.

took a good enjoyable stroll around the mall - really cleared my head....ok ....coming clean ......in that stroll included a pit stop at Godiva.....bought small box of chocolates to mail to DD at college...and......1 - just 1 maple walnut truffle for me....oh yeah - candy bar promotion at JC Penney - ate that too .....and that's all I have eaten so far today......yes - I know not good......I think I need some serious taking to.....

Anyway - I enjoyed the walk.....hope you are having a fun day......

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Erin,

Stopping by to WISH you a most happy Friday! :sunny: Sounds like your doctors' appointments went well and that you have a good plan in place. You CAN do it, Erin! :cheer2:

Have a great weekend! :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Best wishes for your visit with the scale this morning. I had the courage to step onto mine, because I knew my WISH-sis would be facing hers today. :hyper2:

:rockband: :jumping1:
I'm letting the Friday party spill over from my journal into yours today! :cool1: :cool1: In fact, I think LOTS of Friday partyin' should be goin' on here on the WISH Journal board!

Sending :goodvibes your way, dear WISH-sis, and hoping that you're feeling calm, cool and collected today. I hope any worries or anxieties are far away and that you are feeling centered, peaceful and hopeful. :hug:

[lulu201]

October 21, 2005

:sunny: It's not raining yet, but from what I hear in the forecast, I'll need to make my own sunshine today. :sunny: Wish I had a lightbox like Doreen. Anyway. . .

OK, so I didn't exercise yet, but I will. I promise. I'm slow to wake up today, I'm afraid, even though I went to bed at 9:30. Couldn't even stay awake to watch The Apprentice.

Here's the scoop for today:

1. Devotions: Day #13 of the Purpose Driven Life
Point to ponder: God wants all of me.
Verse to remember: "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength." Mark 12:30
Question to consier: Which is more pleasing to God right now--my public worship or my private worship? What will I do about this?
2. Vitamins: Forgot AGAIN yesterday, but have them out waiting today.
3. Water: Haven't started yet, but I will. I drank a good amount yesterday.
4. Exercise: Day #1 of my year long training program! I have to do 10 minutes on the treadie. Hey, I'm up for that! :Pinkbounc
5. Food: slice of whole wheat toast w/pb, a couple of strawberries, coffee w/milk. I'm not sure about the rest of the day, but I do know this: no overt sugar!
6. Scale: Not pretty, but I faced it. It was, happily, 4 lbs. lighter than the drs. office. :) 188. I don't feel that heavy, though. Clothes still fit the same. I think it's just from eating late at night when I get home from work.
7. Caffeine: Had a cup of green tea yesterday, but no coffee. I'm ok with that.

I'm going to do some cleaning this a.m. for my in-laws visit on Sunday. . .but as the weekend comes closer, I'm finding my desire to clean and straighten is decreasing. I'm just not in the mood. Now going to K of P? That I'm in the mood for! HAve to check with DH and DD, though, to see what everyone's plans are.

I'll try to stop around later. . .
Erin

[DoeWDW]

You know I'd be happy to come and help clean. It would be lots more fun with some upbeat music and a friend to clown around with. ;)

[septbride2002]

Morning Wish-sis! You sound so positive this morning. That 188 might just be a little extra water weight which might explain why you don't feel that heavy.

Good Luck on the cleaning - I don't feel like doing mine either.

~Amanda

[lulu201]

Hey, it's Sunday, October 23, 2005

Had a nice time at K of P with Doreen and Todd. I love talking with Doreen. . .she's such a sweetie. Anyone who lets me talk about my extended family like she does deserves a medal. :p

Let's see, what's on the plate for today: church, cleaning, in-law visit, choir practice for DD, walk on treadie. That about sums it up. I took my vitamins yesterday, and tried to drink more water. I guess I accomplished that, I was up twice in the night. Biggest healthy living achievements yesterday? Eating right at the mall (no yummy treats), no donuts even though I bought them for "Donut Day" at the studio, and no dessert when we went out to eat. I feel good that I didn't have the junk! I also did my planned walk on the treadie for 15 minutes.

Today my lower back is giving me a little grief; I'm going to take some ibu after I get home from church. The plan is pretty much the same as yesterday:

1. Devotions
2. Vitamins
3. Water
4. Exercise--20 minutes on the treadie before the day is over
5. Food--no sugar (not even birthday cake!)
6. Scale--188
7. Caffeine--none after this a.m.

All right, I've outlined my objectives for the day and I'm my quest for a day of healthy living. :cool1:

:grouphug: to all,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

I enjoy hearing about your extended family, believe it or not. :hyper2: I have a good feeling about today. :goodvibes Know that I'm with you in spirit, sending positive thoughts your way and surrounding you with love. There are many people in your life who think you are wonderful, who wouldn't trade you for anything in the world. If there are a few others who don't feel the same way, it's their loss. ::yes:: They obviously are not good judges of character. :teeth:

Take today in stride, dear Erin. :love:

[lulu201]

:hug:, Doreen. Thanks for all your good thoughts. They helped a lot: the day was very nice. My niece and nephew wanted to learn how to crochet (!) so I spent a good chunk of the afternoon teaching them. By the time they left they had plans to take their work into show and tell (they're in 2nd grade) and to use their chains on the Christmas tree! It was nice. As far as the little pokes and jabs that came along with the day. . .well, I tried to remember that some of the discomfort that I feel is not intentionally created by them--it's my degree of sensitivity. Don't get me wrong, some of it is intentional :p , but they just have a different way of operating and you'd think after 25 years of involvement with the family I'd get it! :p Eventually I'll learn!

So, let's see about today. Yesterday I woke up with some back pain; I decided not to take any ibu but rather "watch" the pain and see what made it better or worse. From what I observed yesterday, moving and cleaning helped loosen things up--I felt better all afternoon. When I woke up again this morning, however, I was stiff and tight and sore. I'm trying to stretch out. I'm going to walk on the treadie at 8 a.m.; I think I need to move toward physical activity rather than away from it when I have this discomfort.
I'm pretty sure I know what it is--I have some degenerative disc disease (like my mom and my sister)--and I think it's aggravated by the extra weight I'm carrying.

Speaking of weight :rolleyes:, I didn't get on the scale this morning. For as "good" as I was on Saturday, I was doubly "bad" yesterday. I had pizza, wings with blue cheese, veggies with sour cream dip, and TWO pieces of German chocolate cake (Hey, it was a birthday party!), one when my in-laws were here and one after they left. Today, though, I'm back to no overt sugars. . .I even told my "muffin man" friend--the one who likes to bring me blueberry or coffee cake muffins that he had to stop. Looking at me, he knows why! :p

Even though I'm "big" right now, there are times I feel OK about how I look. Yesterday I got lots of compliments on a fitted blouse I wore--DH said it's one of his favorite outfits because it shows my curvy features. :blush: The sweater I wore on Saturday, Doreen? Well, that didn't get high marks from DH--too baggy he said. I appreciate his comments--at least after 21 years he's still looking! :p He surprised me, though, because he usually doesn't comment too much.

I have a prayer request, WISH buddies. . .it's for my dear friend Dora (also known as Dorene :) ). She's taken in her brother's daughter who is 16 and very troubled. She's assuming financial responsibility as well as emotional responsibility for this young girl and it's draining her in so many ways. The whole family situation is such a mess; she needs to be lifted up. Thanks.

OK, now to the business of today:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins--on the counter; they're next
3. Water--have to drink gallons today!
4. Exercise--today's a 20 minute day on the treadie. I didn't get on yesterday. :rolleyes:
5. Food--I'll try to cut waaaaay back today.
6. Scale- :rolleyes:
7. Caffeine--nothing in the p.m.

I'm off and into the world, looking Upward and moving forward!
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin!!

Today is a new day - look to it with a smile!!

Thinking good thoughts for your friend - what a kind gesture for her to take responsibility for her neice.

No caffeine this afternoon!!! Promise!!

hugs,

[DoeWDW]

Sending you a PM. :hug:

[lulu201]

OK, here's my journal entry today:

I am in one baaaad mood. My back aches and had me up in the night. It's raining cats and :pug: outside. We've got some sadness going around here on the WISH :guilty: . . .ugh.

All right, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to get to the bank and to the DMV to get my picture taken for my driver's license (which expires TOMORROW). I'm going to teach all my classes and students, go to Old Navy for some shoes DD wants, and THEN I'll walk on the treadie. I'm not doing it this morning, though, out of respect for my deep, blue funk. ;) I'm going to try not to think about how darn fat I am and how it's my own stinking fault because not only did I have sugar yesterday :mad: , I had the left over chicken wings and a BEER before going to bed! How many ways can I bloat myself?!?! :mad:

The plan:

1. Devotions :) (ok, got a little smile in there)
2. Vitamins--laid out on the counter
3. Water--have had a little
4. Exercise--20 minutes on the treadie when I come home tonight NO MATTER WHAT
5. Food--let's just forget about this, shall we???? I had an English muffin w/pb for breakfast, a couple of pieces of banana and a couple of walnuts. Coffee w/milk. Lunch will be a tuna sandwich and some s.f. apple sauce. Dinner will be salad. Major detox today
6. Scale--I don't need to get on it, I know how bad it'll look.
7. Caffeine--I may have overdosed on sugar yesterday, but I remained caffeine free!?!

All right, the Blue Meanies and I are outa here. :umbrella:
Erin

[DoeWDW]

:bday: to you, princess: Erin!!!

I know the day is looking bleak and you're feeling blah, but this world has been a better place for so many people because you are in it!

Today I'm celebrating (even though I'm feeling a bit bleak myself). You've inspired me in my quest for healthy living and in all the other areas of my life. I'm grateful to God for getting us together. I'm grateful to you for the wonderful friendship we've shared.

I'm going to do something healthy for me in honor of you, dear WISH-sis! Not sure what it will be just yet but I'll post back later and let you know.

I hope today has some pain-free, wonderful moments in it for you.

:hug: and :love:

[toystoryduo]

:bday: to you, princess: Erin!!!

I know the day is looking bleak and you're feeling blah, but this world has been a better place for so many people because you are in it!

:bday: Erin!

I agree, Doe! :goodvibes Erin, you have brought so much kindness and :sunny: to my life. My world is definitely a better place with you it in! ::yes:: I appreciate you and pray that God blesses you in His abundance in the year ahead and always. :hug:

I hope your day gets much better. ::yes::

:bday:

[DISNEYFANRI]

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A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ERIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[WickedQueen26]

:bday: Happy Birthday! :bday:

Have a wonderful birthday Erin!

~Amanda

[Strings]

:bday: :bday: :cake: :bday: :cake:
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy birthday Dear Erin,
Happy Birthday to you

Wearing a bit of red always makes me geel better when I am feeling blue. I hope that today brings happiness and a few positive surprises. Happy Birthday princess: Erin. You have brought much happiness and comfort to my life.

I will certainly pray for your friend Dora.

Be good to yourself today,
Beth

[lulu201]

:grouphug: Your love and kindness sure brought :sunny: to my day. How blessed I am to have you all in my life.

Yesterday I cried. It's the first birthday that I can remember that challenged me so--turning 30, turning 40? No problem. This one, though, hit me hard.

I think it has to do with the physical condition that I'm in now. I'm watching the scale climb ever upward, I'm having lots of back pain (and it's related to this weight I'm carrying), and I'm feeling my age! Fat and 44 is not how I want to be.

On the other hand, I've learned so much the last 6 months about who I am and what makes me tick--it's been an emotional growing experience. Now I have to figure out how to be emotionally healthy and physically healthy at the same time! :p

So I look at yesterday as another new beginning. My 44th year--the one that started in tears--is going to be a journey that carries on my commitment to wellness. I know what I need to do and I'm going to proceed in a slow and methodical way, trying to grow in steadiness as I go.

Today I've done my devotions. "Share each other;s troubles and problems, and in this way obey the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2
Today I'll take my vitamins. They're lying on the counter.
Today I'll drink 6-8 glasses of water.
Today I'll walk 20 minutes on the treadie.
Today I'll follow the menu plan that I've written down. I had a protein-rich breakfast.
Today I got on the scale. I weighed 190. :guilty:
Today I'll abstain from overt sugars. I may have a cup of mint green tea after lunch.

Nothing earth-shaking, nothing profound. I'm just going to get back to the basics.

I've started another journal on another site, but now that I've actually got it, but I'm not sure how I feel about leaving my journal here on the WISH. I think I'll become clearer about that as I go.

Thanks again, dear friends, for your TLC. :grouphug: I'm grateful for it every day.

Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

:hug: :flower3: :hug:

Good morning Erin......I understand your tears - sending you good thoughts for a smile today.

[toystoryduo]

:hug: Erin,

I hope today is a wonderful day for you! :sunny: Sending some :goodvibes , :wizard: , and prayers your way. Take care! :hug:

[lulu201]

Hey, girls, it looks like the :sunny: might shine here in PA. I'm all for that!

October 27, 2005

With God's help, I stayed on track yesterday. I looked temptation #1--a bag of homemade chocolate chip pumpkin cookies made by Mikey, age 2, and his mom--straight in the eye. I thankfully accepted them and when they'd left I passed them to DH and told him, "I don't eat cookies anymore." That was empowering and filled me with relief. Getting over every hurdle like that will only make me stronger, right?

I wrote this yesterday in my other journal:

"I guess I have to say it out loud (even if it's just into cyberspace):
I'm done with overt sugars for the next year. I have to do this. I
can't be wishy washy. Even though I know that I'm the type of
black/white personality that is great at starting things and lousy at
finishing them. . .even though I know I can get caught up in the moment
and commit unrealistically to things. . .even though I know I'm often
passionate about something to a fault. . .I have to do this. I have to
take this step to improve my life and it can't be a grey area any more
than an alcoholic can have a grey area about alcohol."

And that's my commitment to myself: no more refined sugars until next year.
I won't say "never," but I want to give myself a year to see where I go with this. A year to help myself find a place of wellness.

Now don't get me wrong. I'm not thinking I'm going to find a place in my life that's stress-free and ducky everyday; I know that that's not going to happen with a teenager in the house! :p But this commitment is like a gift to myself and I know it will help me to grow. (hopefully smaller! :p ) And wellness--well, I see that as a place of balance, where I'm grounded in my faith and in my healthy habits and not swept away into unhealthy habits (such as overworking and compulsive eating) when life's stresses show up on my doorstep. A place where I can weather the storm.

Geesh, I'm getting deep this morning! :p See what turning 44 will do to ya?

So here's the agenda for today:

1. I'm going to do my devotions. Today I'll read the daily passage from "My Utmost for His Highest" and Day #19 in The Purpose Driven Life.
2. I've taken my vitamins. :)
3. I'll drink 6-8 glasses of water. I've already had one.
4. I'll walk on the treadie for 20 minutes and do 10 minutes of strength training. You know what? I really hate strength training!
5. I'll eat the menu I've planned for today. Breakfast was oatmeal surprise. Lunch will be a chicken strip salad. Dinner will be a tuna sandwich. I'll have a serving of triscuits for my evening high carb snack.
6. I'll pass on the scale today.
7. I'll have some herb tea this afternoon; my a.m. coffee will be my only caffeine.

Moving onward, looking Upward--
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin!!!

Happy Thursday - kudos to you for graciously accepting the cookies and passing them forward.
I really think we should celebrate what we do good every day.

[Cruise04]

Erin - I have to say you have been one of the inspirational people for me. You have looked things straight up and have made commitments that I wouldn't even think of being able to make. You are doing great and I thank you for that inspiration!!!!!!

Keep up the good work.
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

Let's see. First of all, I have to do a little Friday dance. :cool1:
Second of all, I have to recap on yesterday:

Did all that I set out to do except weight train. Yuk, I hate that. Maybe today I'll force myself to do it? Maybe not. ;) Also, when I got home from work I had more to eat than just my triscuits. . .what can I say? :confused3 I was hungry! Today I'm going to try to fill out my diet with more veggies. I didn't lose focus in the kitchen, I just had to suppliment with some other whole grains.

Now, let's look at today: Day #3 of Operation Sugar Freedom.

1. Devotions: "Do everything possible on your part to live in peace with everybody." :) OK, some of you who know my in-law situation can stop snickering now. I'm gonna try to be better, I really am! :p
2. Vitamins: I'll take them soon.
3. Water: I'll drink 6-8 glasses.
4. Exercise: 20 minutes on the treadie is the plan. Anything else is a bonus.
5. Food: I had two eggs w/a bit of cheddar cheese, a slice of rye toast w/I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray. Coffee w/milk. I still have to think through the rest of the day.
6. Scale: OK, it's 190. You wanna make something of it?? :mad:
7. Caffeine: Done for the day. Had herbal tea yesterday and plan the same for today.

I found out that some meds that I'm on have a side effect: weight gain. :rotfl: Now I have even more motivation for sticking to O.S.F. and my "Your Perfect Weight" exercise program.

:grouphug: to all my friends: here, "there", and everywhere--
Erin

[Cruise04]

Sounds like you have a great plan laid out for today. Hope that the day goes well for you and that it's a good one.

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

Quick recap of yesterday: :) . That pretty much says it all; I did a good job of meeting my healthy living goals. Let's celebrate! :Pinkbounc

Quick plan for today:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins :)
3. Water--have had my 1st of 6-8 glasses
4. Exercise--20 treadie minutes planned. Maybe :rolleyes: some weight training.
5. Food--I had steel cut oats for breakfast this morning. Hmmm, very interesting, very high in protein.
6. Scale--I won't post anything until Tuesday, my official weigh-in day.
7. Caffeine--a.m. coffee only

DD is spending the night at a friend's house; have to go get her before work. Halloween recital this afternoon; guaranteed to be adorable. Seeing little witches, "50's girls", and Darth Vaders sitting at a Steinway is just too precious, I'm telling you.

This afternoon I'm going to do my exercising; I might even do a bonus walk in the park with Mickey if the :sunny: is shining. Doing wash is also at the top of the list. Oh, and I have to pick up a few groceries. Looks like it's going to be a good day! :goodvibes

Love to all, :grouphug:
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin....

Best of luck on the recital.....can't wait to her about it......have a wonderful day.

[lulu201]

:wave2: It's Sunday, October 30, 2005

It was a nice day yesterday. The kids did a nice job at the recital and they all looked so cute. One little boy had on this terrific clown outfit with big huge feet--I don't know how he managed that pedal, but he did!

Anyway, it's a new day-- :sunny: here in Pennsylvania. This morning DH and I will play in church, then I'll take my Purposed Driven Life class. DD and I are going to work out when I get home, and then she'll head out for an afternoon concert at a farm nearby (doesn't that sound like we live in the country!). Tonight she has choir practice at 6 p.m., and after that the day is done. I hope to squeeze in some wash and thank you note writing in the midst of all that.

Today's Day #5 of Operation Sugar Freedom, and except for my back pain, I'm feeling good. One of the things they stress on radiantrecovery.com is the amount of time it takes to become "stable." They continuously emphasize the need to master the seven steps one step at a time. I can see why--you feel so much better from just doing one step that you are motivated to challenge yourself even further--it doesn't seem like punishment or denial, it's what you WANT to do to help yourself. And once you start feeling good, you don't want to go back!

One thing that I have to admit, though, is that I don't like not losing FAST. I know that this back pain could be reduced if I dropped 10 lbs. (or more, of course) in my usual "diet" mode. Maybe it would take 3 weeks if I was extra diligent??? I know, though, that it would only take 2 to gain it all back, and I'd be back on that rollercoaster again.

No, I have to do this slowly. My goal for the week is to maintain or to lose a lb. I think how great it would be if I consistently lost a pound a week--I'd look and feel amazing by my next birthday! Who knows, though, what my natural healthy weight is?? :confused3 That's what I'm going to find out this year! :flower:

So, today's plan:

1. Devotions--will do
2. Vitamins--will take
3. Water--will drink tons
4. Exercise--will walk on the treadie for 20 minutes and MAYBE do some lifting.
5. Food--steel cut oats w/pb, coffee and milk. Lunch will be soup, cheese, and a couple of whole grain crackers. Dinner's up in the air at this point.
6. Scale--steady
7. Caffeine--none in the p.m.

OK, that's the wrap up for today. I've got to go out and grab some of that morning :sunny: !

Love to all,
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin - Good Sunday to you!! I'm already up and working - glad to heat that the recital went well.

Enjoy your day.

[lulu201]

New day here: October 31, 2005

All right, let me tell how things really turned out: I didn't walk or workout at all. By the time I got home from church and doing a little grocery shopping, DD was ready at the door with her list of requests: could I pick up this friend, could I pick up that friend, etc., etc. By the time she got it all worked out, we had to leave to start picking up the girls! After dropping them off, I came home and did some laundry and picked up a bit, but didn't get much else done 'cause it was time to go get them again! Ick. I was glad to help DD out, but honestly, it wasn't my kind of Sunday. Such is life.

Today I've got lots of chores to do before work. It'll be a short day because most of my "clients" :p will be dressed as little goblins and ghouls by dark, so DD and I are going to hit the mall to get a few things. We don't get any trick or treaters on our street, so there's no reason to sit home with a pile of candy in front of my face!

Today's plan:

1. Devotions: :)
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
Let nothing disturb you, let nothing frighten you; everything passes away except God; God alone is sufficient. -St. Theresa
To Act:
Calm someone else’s fears and maintain a serenity of your own.
To Pray:
Dear Lord, help me to trust Your answers, even in the most challening times.
2. Vitamins--on the counter
3. Water--I really want to push it today.
4. Exercise--I'm taking Mickey to the park for some a.m. sun and will get on the treadie for a few minutes.
5. Food--yesterday I changed my menu as the day went on, but I stayed OP. Today I started with my steel cut oats, banana, and walnuts, cinnamon coffee w/milk. Lunch will be a sandwich, I think. Dinner will be a salad.
6. Scale: looking good
7. Caffeine: I think I'm free from my afternoon addiction. I still enjoy my morning cup of the real deal, so I don't see going decaf in the a.m. in my future. Yet.

That's the story for today. I'm headed out for a walk in the :sunny: . Please know that you're all in my thoughts and as I walk I'll pray for everyone and your special needs. Even if I don't know them, God does. :)

Have a good one, everybody! :grouphug:

Erin
O.S.F. #6

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!

Sounds like you are ready for the day ahead! :sunny: I know yesterday didn't go quite as planned, but you stayed OP and that my friend, is a VICTORY! :cheer2: Way to go! :banana:

Have a wonderful day today! :sunny:

[lulu201]

It's November 1, 2005 A new month! New Goals! No. . .no new goals--as a matter of fact, my goal this month is to have no goals! :p I just want to keep walking the sugar free walk and see where the road takes me. I want it to be slow and steady journey.

Yesterday was tough with all the candy and chocolate around. No, I shouldn't say "tough" because I didn't experience any SEVERE cravings, but I did notice all the candy around and could easily remember the smooth, silkiness of chocolate. :cloud9: Fortunately, I was able to see around that thought to what comes AFTER I eat sweets--the binge eating, the blood sugar ups and downs--and I knew it just wasn't worth it. Phil. 4:13; Day #6 of O.S.F. completed!

So, I'm celebrating a Halloween victory this morning and looking forward to a month of stability--blood sugar-wise and exercise-wise. My plan is to continue abstaining from sweets and to follow my Prevention exercise program: 1.5 miles a day for 5 days this week.

So, here's what I've got going today:

1. Devotions: :)
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
The earth has music for those who listen.
—William Shakespeare
To Act:
Be sensitive to the messages of hope that greet you.
To Pray:
Lord, help me not to make life more difficult than it really is. (This is such a good prayer for me!)
2. Vitamins: :) done
3. Water: :) working on glass #2 or 3 already
4. Exercise: :) Walked Mickey .5 mile for our sunshine walk in the park, and then got on the treadie for another 1.5.
5. Food: Breakfast was two hard-boiled eggs with a whole grain english muffin topped with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray. Lunch will be a turkey and swiss cheese sandwich on wheat bread and fresh fruit salad (strawberries, raspberries, and grapes), dinner will be something quick at Taco Bell--probably two beef taco supremes of a burrito. Snack tonight will be triscuits.
6. Scale--188 for the 2nd day in a row. I'm happy about that. I think, though, that I'm going to stay off the scale until Friday. It's a tricky thing, that scale. . .I don't want to start obsessing about the number. If I get on every day, I'm going to start working my program just to see the # go down. If I get on once a week, I'm going to be disappointed if I don't see it go down, as well. So maybe the happy medium is just a couple of times a week to see if I need to adjust portions? :confused3
7. Caffeine--Had my a.m. cup. Will continue with herbal tea in the afternoon for a special treat. New favorite: tangerine orange zinger.

Have to run out this a.m. and get DD a new straightener; hers went on the blink and then officially passed away this morning, right in the middle of the a.m. school rush. Tough morning for the poor kid, but she got it together and made it to the bus on time. Gotta get something for her this morning, though, so she can do her hair tomorrow morning.

Long day today--work until 6:00 and then choir from 7-9. Lots of fun stuff, so no complaints here.

A big group hug to all my buddies,
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin and Happy November....

I am sharing in your positive outlook for a new month - small positive steps!!

Who makes the tangerine tea?? Sounds yummy!!

[lulu201]

November 2, 2005

:wave2: Hi, Paula. That tangerine tea is made by Celestial Seasoning. It IS yummy. :)

OK, yesterday the chocolate cravings were more intense. So intense that I took DD to Baskin Robbins for some chocolate chocolate chip sugar free ice cream with sugar free nonfat hot fudge (what could it be made of???). It tasted a little funky, but it did the trick. It's good to know I can have that as a back up plan. Maybe someday I'll give up all sugar substitutes, too, but not now. One thing at a time.

So, today is Day #8 of O.S.F. God knows there are times when it's challenging, but with His help, I'll keep plugging along. Slow and steady, right?

So, today's plan:
1. Devotions: :)
Point to Ponder: There is a purpose behind every problem.
Verse to Remember: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
Question to Consider: What problem in my life has caused the greatest growth in me?
2. Vitamins: :) Yep, took them.
3. Water: 6 to 8 glasses to go! I'm trying to drink a liter bottle after every class.
4. Exercise: :) walked Mickey in the park for .5. It is another beautiful, sunny day. I'll get on the treadmill for another 1.5 in a few minutes.
5. Food: oatmeal surprise for breakfast. Lunch will be tuna on wheat and some applesause. Dinner will be a bagel w/cream cheese, I think. Maybe a lunch meat roll up or two. P.M. snack will be triscuits--I didn't eat them last night. Had s.f. ice cream instead.
6. Scale: day off. I'll weigh in on Friday
7. Caffeine: had some diet pepsi last night. Oh well.

I'm tired this morning. The fresh air and sunshine helped boost me some, but if truth be told, I'd like to go back to bed. My back hurts. Still, once I get to work I'm sure I'll feel better. It's a long day, but it'll be fun. I've got two classes and a bunch of students--lots of music to be made.

Take care, everyone.
:hug:,
Erin

[DISNEYFANRI]

Hi Erin - good sunny morning!!
Thanks for telling me about the Tea - I'll definitely get that one this week - I have been drinking Celestial Seasonings "Candy Cane Lane" this week - a nice mix of peppermint and Vanilla. Funny how I always wanted a sweet with my afternoon coffee but with flavored tea I don't.

Again - I applaud your postiive attitude - it's contageous!!!!!

Have a wonderful day!!

[lulu201]

Oh, my gosh, Paula, that Candy Cane Lane sounds amazing. I want that! I'll have to go looking for it the next time I'm in the grocery store tea aisle!

So, it's November 3, 2005 It is such a beautiful fall day, I can't even describe it! I went for a nice long stroll with Mickey, and it gave me such a lift. I think, like Doreen, I'm "solar-powered." The walk was relaxing, but left me energized.

I'm beginning to lose track of what day I'm on in Operation Sugar Freedom--let me count for a minute. . .oh, yeah, this is the start of day #9. (Duh, I can just look back in the journal!). Already today I passed up a donut that a friend wanted to give me--nope, no more of that for me.

I was thinking this morning about going to my mom's for Thanksgiving, and what it would be like to celebrate the holiday sugar-free (no pumpkin pie!). I thought about how EVERY time we visit her, I allow myself cookies, brownies, etc. and then have to FIGHT afterwards to get myself back on track. I understand now why I couldn't go away for the weekend, allow myself the treats, and then immediately get back on program--the sugars would just take over my cravings! No, this time, I hope I can enjoy the upcoming holidays without the obsession and worry over whether or not I can control myself. With God's help, I'll meet the temptations head on and just cruise through to a peaceful, healthy place.

You know, life can be so weird. Anyone who reads my journal knows that I think and overthink things (so be warned before you read this :-)), but I feel like I'm at a special time in my life right now. So many things are dovetailing together--my personal work on recovery from anxiety/depression/burnout, a new eating program based on the research of Kathleen DesMaisons, and our church's study of the book, "The Purpose Driven Life." Yesterday's devotion was entitled "Transformed by Trouble" and today's is "Growing through Temptation." I think of my whole O.S.F. as a step in faith that I couldn't achieve without God's help. . .I mean, seriously--me? give up sugars, candy, etc. for a WHOLE YEAR???? I have NO IDEA how I'm going to do this, but I know that by taking things day by day and by looking Upward I'm going to get through somehow. Oh, I'm not saying I won't slip--it could certainly happen, but if I do, I'll learn from that, too. Right now--at this moment in time--I feel on solid ground. And coming from where I've been lately food-wise, well, that's a good place to be.

So friends, this is what you have to do: about a week from now, when I'm deep in the DZone and I want to eat every chocolate thing I see, would you please remind me that there IS solid ground????? rotf!

Enough deep thinking now, let's get down to brass tacks.

The day:

1. Devotions (from dailyguideposts.com)
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
At first dreams seem impossible, then improbable, then inevitable. -Christopher Reeve
To Act:
Remember that all glory comes from daring to begin.
To Pray:
Dear Lord, help me to stretch beyond what is comfortable. Help me to be my best.
2. Vitamins--check
3. Water--will drink lots
4. Exercise--walked Mickey in the sunshine for 1.25 miles. I'll do my 1.5 on the treadie later.
5. Food--will log it into Fitday. Thanks, Doreen, for the reminder that Fitday exists. It's fun to see the little pie charts!
6. Scale--day off
7. Caffeine--a.m. only

That's it for now,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Erin,

I love reading your deep thoughts! ::yes:: You often get me thinking about my own life and encourage me by what you say. Thanks for sharing with your WISH buddies! :goodvibes

Have a great day! :sunny:

[lulu201]

It's Friday, November 4th. Here's my little happy dance: :cool1: Thanks for your kind words, Tracy, and for taking the time to visit when you have so much that you're dealing with right now.:hug:

Yesterday was a great day! I took some time in the morning to relax and then was able to focus and enjoy my students the rest of the day.

Here's the scoop on today:
1. Devotions: :)
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
As the sun makes ice melt, kindness causes misunderstanding, mistrust, and hostility to evaporate. - Albert Schweitzer
To Act:
Be ready to find joy where and when it surfaces.
To Pray:
Lord, help me to understand that I can be joyful at all times and in all situations because I am Your child.
2. Vitamins: Done :)
3. Water: Drinking some now :)
4. Exercise: Walked 1 mile with Mickey in this beautiful sunshine; will walk at least another mile with a friend around 9 a.m. :) This is, my 5th day of exercise in a row! I've accomplished my exercise plan for the week! Officially I'll be "off" on Saturday and Sunday, but since the weather's supposed to be nice, I just might do some walking purely for pleasure.
5. Food: Today's a little complicated. We're going to a party with some church friends, and there's going to be all kinds of goodies there. I'm bringing an apple walnut pie! I'm not concerned about eating sweets really. . .I know I don't want any of those, but I am concerned about my resolve. I don't think I can have any wine--too much of a beta-endorphin hit (excuse my biochemistry talk ;) ) and I think I'm going to have to avoid all white flour things. I think I'll also bring some sparkling water. At the moment (who knows how I'll feel about this later), I'm feeling like this could be a fun challenge: can I stay OP at an "event"?
6. Scale: Got on the thing this morning. It's showing me I'm on the right track.
7. Caffeine: nothing in the p.m.

All right now, that's the scoop on today. I'm ready to tackle DAY #10/O.S.F.! :cheer2: Phil. 4:13 :cheer2:

Hugs to all,
Erin

[lulu201]

Hey, it's day #12, O.S.F. and I feel like I'm holding on by a thread. It started with that darn (but fun) party on Friday night. I stayed sugar-free, but I had a lot of salty, fatty, yummy stuff I don't normally have. I ended the evening feeling bloated and round. :p Saturday I got up and had my oatmeal, then a sandwich and FFries when out with DH for lunch. Just too much food.
In the evening I had some pizza and 2 s.f. tastee cake things--again, just too much. By this point, I'm feeling "off," kind of yukky and not as great as I've been feeling lately. So, this morning, do I turn it around? Do I intentionally stay away from white flours? No, I don't. I BUY pretzels at the store and have some with chips for lunch!???!! What the?

So I'm happy to be here at my journal where I can look this turn-around in the eye and set myself back on track. At this moment (about 45 min. post-
lunch), I am exhausted. I came home from my morning at church feeling energized and positive, but now I'm in a white flour coma. All I want to do is lay down and take a nap. Maybe I needed my little relapse to remind myself why I'm trying to walk the healthy living road! I'm going to go downstairs and throw the pretzels away. I'm not accepting this junk for myself!

I'm also experiencing some scale-weirdness. I got on the darn thing on Friday morning and was down 2 lbs. from Tuesday (to 186). All of a sudden I became numbers-obsessed and worried about gaining it back at the party, wondering what I could allow myself to eat, wondering what size I could be in by Thanksgiving, etc., etc. Ugh. I do NOT want that kind of mentality. So I think I'll weigh in on Tuesday morning and then put the scale away until we leave for my mom's house in a couple of weeks. I'll just have to use how I feel and how I look to guage the success of my program. No numbers--though I do love punching them into fitday. My goal, if I have one, is to live a healthy life, not to be scale-directed to the point of obsession.

So, I'm fighting to stay awake and to do the laundry. I did get the kitchen straightened and our bathroom is almost done. . .still that laundry hangs around my neck like an albatross!

We've had a nice weekend. I worked yesterday morning. . .one of our teacher's told me she has to quit. Now, that certainly isn't nice, but I was able to talk to her about her decision in a supportive way that let her know we are on her side and will support her in her efforts to do what's best for herself and her family work-wise. DH, DD, her friend, and I went to the mall in the afternoon. DH and I went to lunch and to Kohl's while the girls shopped around. Afterwards we took DD's friend home, then bummed around the house in the evening. Oh, DD and I went back to Kohl's for some more shopping after dinner.

This morning, DD sang a solo with her youth choir and 2 of our 3 church services. She did such a great job. DH and I probably glowed with happiness for her.

After the services, I went to my 40 Days of Purpose Class. Our group came up with some great ideas of how to minister to two of our group members--a couple who have two autistic teenagers. They just joined our church a couple of weeks ago; now we're trying to surround them with a community of support which will allow them (the mom and dad) to find some time to nurture themselves.

Now I'm home fighting to stay awake. It's a beautiful sunny day--from what the weather man says the temps are going to stay high for a few more days.

That's it for now,
Erin

P.S. As a Philadelphia Eagle fan, let me just say, "Go Andy Reid! I support your decision to boot T-O 100%" Do you think he might just be reading my journal? :p

[lulu201]

Monday, Nov. 7

Ok, I'm trying to look at the bright side: I didn't eat any overt sugar. I did, however, end the day grazing around the kitchen. I threw away the pretzels. I did, however, have four more before I trashed them. I walked Mickey this morning in the sunshine. I won't, however, get my walking on the treadmill in. . .I don't want to be rushed this morning.

So, there were some ups and some downs from the weekend. What I learned: my routine is important to me. Next weekend I'm going to make a conscious effort to stick with it. The obstacle will be the DZone, though. I'm going to work hard to not let that be an excuse to overindulge or to throw my program to the wayside.

Today's plan:

1. Devotions:
Point to ponder: I was shaped for serving God.
Verse to remember: "God works through different men in different ways, but it is the same God who achieves his purposed through them all." 1 Cor. 12:6
Question to consider: In what way can I see myself passionately serving others and loving it?
2. Vitamins: done
3. Water: will start soon
4. Exercise: Walked Mickey in the sunshine for 15 minutes.
5. Food: had oatmeal surprise this a.m.; need to think through the rest of the day. I'm not hungry at all and would just like to skip thinking about it, but that sets me up for more problems as I work my way back to the wagon.
6. Scale: no way am I getting on it this morning.
7. Caffeine: I'm going to try and avoid it this afternoon.

I've got to get to the church this a.m. to work on some needs of our "adopted family." After that I have a 10 a.m. meeting with local piano teachers; that'll last until about noon. At 1 p.m. I'll be in the studio doing what I love to do!

DD has a hectic schedule today--afternoon rehearsal until 3:30, and then has to go back to school this evening for more rehearsals. It means a lot of driving around for DH. He'll leave the studio and then pick her up from school (about 40 minutes away from work), then come back to the studio to teach, and then will have to drive back home to get her and take her back to school. At 8:30 he'll drive back to school AGAIN to get her. . .good thing we don't drive gas guzzlers!

Still working on the laundry, but I see a light at the end of the tunnel!

Hugs to all,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin,

Stopping by to WISH you a wonderful Monday! :sunny: I hope it is a great day for you and your family! :grouphug:

[lulu201]

I've just come from Doreen's journal. . .she made healthy choices yesterday. Mine were so so. No overt sugars, so I'm still chugging along with O.S.F., but I didn't stick with my plan like I like to. I let myself cave with my hormones and sadness.

I'm sad because DH lost his part-time job. Like most employment situations that end like this, it's long and involved, but the bottom line is that they found someone cheaper to do the same job, and so he's out after 3 years. I'm sad for him because he really liked the people he worked with; I'm sad for me because my first impulse is to work more--take more students, etc., and I know that that's not the best thing. This, in combination with losing a teacher soon, is just plain discouraging.

There are times in life, though, that are discouraging, and from where I am in the DZone I'm trying to allow myself to just feel it. I know that that sounds weird, but I've learned that I spend a lot of time in denial--trying to convince myself that "it'll all be OK," "let's get a positive attitude," etc., etc., instead of just recognizing that sometimes things are hard. Today's a day where I just need to take things slow, maybe shed a little tear or two, walk in the sunshine, and shuffle along. My back is sore and annoying, too, doggone it. I'm not overwhelmed by all of this and desperately worried--we'll manage--but I am bummed, and I'm just going to be that way for today if I need to. I have a lot of energy I have to give out to a lot of people today, so I'm just going to conserve it where I can.

Last night I came home from work and had some potato chips, left-over paella, and a s.f. tastee cake.
It was more than I like to eat, and I know it was just emotional eating. Crocheting would've been better.
I didn't get on the scale this morning; I was dressed before I even thought about it. Tomorrow I'll face it.

Here's how today is looking:

1. Devotions: did it.
2. Vitamins: gotta take them
3. Water: none yet
4. Exercise: I'll shuffle around with the dog
5. Food: ww english muffin w/pb for breakfast, tuna sandwich for lunch, salad for dinner
6. Scale: forgot
7. Caffeine: none in p.m.

That's the plan.

I hope everyone has a great day.

Erin

[lulu201]

It's kind of grey and cloudy here. . .I wonder if we're expecting rain today. . .

Anyway, it's Wednesday, November 9, 2005

Yesterday I made some good food choices; today I hope they'll be even better!

The plan:

1. Devotions: Day #32 of the Purpose Driven Life. Today's devotional talked about using your "shape" to serve God. We all have different personalities and have been molded into different shapes--all just right for different kinds of service.
2. Vitamins: took them yesterday, but haven't taken them yet today.
3. Water: drank a lot yesterday, but haven't started yet today.
4. Exercise: I have to admit, I'm dogging it this week. I'm going to walk Mickey and then do 10 minutes on the treadie.
5. Food: breakfast was oatmeal surprise. Lunch will be tuna and some fruit.
Dinner will be something light; snack will be triscuits. I'm praying to stay on track.
6. Scale: 188
7. Caffeine: none in the p.m.

That's about it. I'm tired today, but not as negative as yesterday. Just wish I could go back to bed for awhile!

Sleepily yours,
Erin

[lulu201]

Today is FRIDAY, November 11, 2005. I feel like a smilie celebration!
:cool1: :rotfl: :rotfl2: :banana: :flower: :Pinkbounc :cheer2: :wave: :wave2: :bounce:

Sometimes ya just gotta let loose, you know?

It's been a good week. Considering I'm deep in the DZONE and my husband lost his part time job, I've been managing. Still sugar free and feeling good because of it! I did have those problems over the weekend with some white flour, but I hope I've learned from that and can make it through this weekend feeling sound and strong.

Today's plan:

1. Devotions :)
2. Vitamins--soon
3. Water--soon
4. Exercise--yesterday I walked Mickey 1.25, today I might do the same if the weather holds out. I'm definitely going to get on the treadie.
5. Food--breakfast was eggs and toast. Lunch will be tuna on wheat, yellow pepper strips; dinner will be pizza w/chicken. I'm really working to get in the right amount of protein! Evening snack will be my triscuits. My plan calls for a potato, but I just can't get that down at that time of night.
6. Scale--steady at 187.
7. Caffeine--none after 12.

I'm :) today and it feels good. No plans for tonight--probably just some movies with the family. DD is trying to arrange something with her friends for tomorrow--that means DH and I could have a quiet night tomorrow, too. I'm in a mood to crochet; I'm working on a baby afghan for my nephew and his wife's new baby. Need to do some housework this weekend, but overall, I'm hoping for a relaxing "time at home" kind of break. I might head over to the library and get a new book. . .

All right, everyone, I'm moving into the day. I'm looking Upward and walking onward.

:grouphug: ,
Erin

[WickedQueen26]

I'm working on it! I swear I'm working on it.

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

:cool1: Lovin' the smilie party!! :cool1:

Could it be that you've figured out how to navigate a DZone without the huge ups and downs of the usual roller coaster ride?? :flower1: YAY!!! :flower1:

I'm hoping and praying that this new knowledge will work for you and will help you for as long as you need it. I was going to say 'for many years to come' but I, myself, am praying for an early menopause. :rotfl:

:hug: for you, dear Erin! You are doing beautifully this month! Keep it up! :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2:

[lulu201]

It's a bright and sunny :sunny: Monday morning in Southeastern PA! If I didn't know better, I'd think that we were in the end of September or beginning of October instead of getting ready for Thanksgiving NEXT WEEK!

Well, my dear Aunt Flo arrived late yesterday, but she seems to have left some of her usual baggage behind! :cool1: You're right, Doreen--maybe I'm on to something here. It's only taken, oh, let's see, 30+ years for me to figure it out!?! :p

Last night I had a church-related dinner to go to; the desserts came rolling out--the caramel apple walnut pie that I brought, a carrot cake birthday cake, and a homemade butter cake--and I wasn't even tempted. Seriously. Does everyone understand the hugeness of that statement???? It's the deepest darkest day of the DZone, and I'm not in the tug-of-war with food!! :Pinkbounc I feel some semblance of order and control in my life! It's downright amazing!! :Pinkbounc

Today is day #20 of O.S.F., and at this moment I feel a huge sense of gratitude that God has led me safe thus far! It's only through faith that I ever stepped off the side of the cliff and took on this challenge; it's only through faith that I can be conservatively optimistic that I'm going to keep going another day (or 345!). One day at a time, right? And I know that if I fall tomorrow. . .if by some chance I make a bad choice. . .the last 20 days have shown me what a difference maintaining a stable blood sugar can have in the way I feel. I'm grateful for that.

So, what's today's plan?

1. Devotions: :)
2. Vitamins :)
3. Water--enjoying the first of many glasses
4. Exercise--have to get out and walk in this sunshine. Also have to get on the treadie and walk out some back pain and cramping that I've got.
5. Food--multi-grain english muffin w/pb, coffee w/milk, 1/2 banana. Need some high protein foods for lunch and dinner along with some complex carbs.
6. Scale--didn't get on this morning.
7. Caffeine--nothing after noon. Last night there wasn't anything s.f. to drink except diet coke, so I let myself have one. . . at my usual bedtime my eyes were wide open. :earseek:

Today's a busy day. I have lots of phone calls to make, housework to do, children to teach. I'm going to pace myself and get things done the best I can; there are many things going on this week. I have students performing Fri., Sat., and Sun., plus I teach at the preschool on Thursday morning. The good news is that NEXT WEEK I'M ON VACATION FOR THE ENTIRE WEEK! :Pinkbounc Woo-hoo!

:love: and :goodvibes to all,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin,

Thank you for your support! It means a great deal to me to know that so many of my WISH friends are praying for us and helping us to get through some challenging times. :goodvibes

I hope you have a wonderful day today! :sunny:

[lulu201]

Hi, Tracy. Thanks for stopping by!

Today is Tuesday, November 15, 2005! :flower:

Here's the plan for today:

1. Devotions--will do
2. Vitamins--will take
3. Water--have had one
4. Exercise--none; I should get out on the treadie this a.m.
5. Food--2 slices of wheat bread, pb, coffee w/a little milk
6. Scale--didn't look at
7. Caffeine--none after this morning

Well, I now know when my official hormonal crash is each month; I hit the wall last night. It started with yesterday afternoon--I decided I could have some reg. coffee instead of decaf 'cause I was feeling, well, you know, kinda tired and draggy. :rolleyes: Then I started thinking about chocolate and candy. Now I stayed s.f., but I decided I "needed something" and went to Acme on my way home from work. I bought grape nuts and pretzels. As innocent as they sound, they are highly potent carbo triggers for me. And I bought them. I had a few pretzels on my way home in the car and then a big bowl of cereal before I went to bed. As I write this, I'm overwhelmed at how I sound like an addict. I knew my body was asking for this stuff. . .I know all the chemical reasons: low estrogen, low serotonin, etc., but I don't know if it was right or wrong to supply myself with this.

I'm not trying to be overly dramatic--I know that grapenuts aren't illegal substances :p --but I have to think this through: so my body is craving carbs. I reach for the quick fix--white flour (pretzels) and complex carbs (grapenuts). (I stopped short of drinking a couple of tall glasses of o.j. which my body wanted. That's progress.) I know, though, that when I haven't had carbs or sugars, my body upregulates (?I think that's the term) and makes more receptors for the sugars in these products. . .it loves and responds to them quicker and deeper than before O.S.F. (according to radiantrecovery) so my reaction to them is more intense. Slipping up like this is harder then to pull away from; it's harder to get back on track.

So, was it worth it? In the short term, yes. I felt a deep craving, I gave in, and it felt good. But in the long run, no. Now I have to detox again. Not to the extent that I had to detox last month, but I'll still have to get over this hump. Now today my blood sugar is going to be wacky. This morning I feel jumpy and tense; there isn't a peaceful centeredness there. What would have been a better coping strategy? Well, I could've allowed myself to feel the craving and just lived with it. I could've come home and picked up my crocheting so I had something relaxing to do. I could've come to the WISH and journalled. I could've prayed. I could've had my high carbo nighttime snack and reminded myself that I'd feel better in the morning. I could've analyzed my foods and see if I'm getting enough protein.

OK, I think I've processed this experience. I've learned a few things. Now I have to put up with the discomfort today and not give in to unhealthy foods.
I have to realize that the time pre-TOM isn't as difficult as the first couple of days Aunt Flo is in town.

Geesh, can't I just have some Reese Cups and forget about this healthy living stuff??? :p

I'm moving onward through the day. I'd better look Up; if not I'll have my hand in the candy jar!

Erin

[lulu201]

After yesterday's ramblings, today will be short and sweet:

It's November 16, 2005

Today's plan:

1. Devotions :)
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
No one has ever become poor by giving. --Anne Frank
To Act:
Reach out. Be aware of the smallest opportunity to make a difference and act on it.
To Pray:
Father, may my gifts to others reflect Your timeless love.
2. Vitamins--have to lay them out
3. Water--haven't started yet
4. Exercise--might walk Mickey around the block, but haven't been back on the treadie.
5. Food--whole grain english muffin w/pb, 1/2 banana. Lunch will be tuna sandwich and green peppers. Dinner will be something similar
6. Scale--still avoiding it
7. Caffeine--none in the p.m.

It's a new day and I'm going to try again.

Moving onward and looking Upward,
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I'm sorry I didn't respond to your PM. I appreciate you help and support. Thank you. I wasn't in a place that I could verbalize what I was feeling.

I love your analogy of laundry to the albatross. That is exactly how I feel.

You are doing amazing! The SF thing seems to be working. Your posts are sounding much calmer. The pretzels and grapenuts are going to be out of your system soon, and DZOne will too. Hold on and ride the wave. You've been successful before.

I am sorry to hear about DH's ptjob. I will pray for your family.

Take care,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: The sun is back out!! :sunny:
Yeah, the cold weather has come, .... but the sun is out!! :sunny:

Can you tell I'm working really hard to see the positive side of things today?? :teeth:

Dear princess: Lulu, I wish you a wonderful day, filled with happy :teeth:, many :goodvibes , lots of :sunny: , a :hug: or two, even a good :rotfl2: . I'm blessed immeasureably because you are in my life! :flower:

[lulu201]

:sunny: It's so nice to have friends drop by. Hi, Beth! Hi, Doreen! :sunny:

This has got to be quick--I've got to be at work by 8:30 and I still haven't showered or picked out what I'm going to wear!

Yesterday was better--stress-wise and food-wise, but I've got that same holiday fear thing going that Doreen does, even though I keep telling myself "this year will be different." Just the keeping up with the day to day is enough for me!

I forgot to take my vitamins yesterday, but I did drink lots of water.

I've got things on track for today; I had a nice breakfast full of protein and complex carbs.

On my way into the day--
Erin

[Cruise04]

I have to tell you that I really like to read your devotions comments and when you post daily thoughts. Those are so inspirational to me, especially when I'm having a bad and hard day. Thank you. I'm sorry to hear about your dh's job. I hope things work out.

Hope you enjoy your vacation time. Sounds like it will be much deserved!!!!

Take care
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning! It's Friday, November 18, 2005 :sunny:

I'm hanging in there. Yesterday I ate too many carbs at the end of the day, but I did have a couple of protein-rich meals. Today I'll strive to do better. Here's the plan:

1. Devotions
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
To love what you do and feel that it matters -- how could anything be more fun? --Katherine Graham
To Act:
Open your arms to beautiful moments and they will come to you.
To Pray:
Lord, help me to see the extraordinary achievements of everyday life.
2. Vitamins--I'll finally put them in the little pill box. What kind of vitamins do I take? How long ya got? No, seriously here's what I take: a female-friendly multi-vitamin, fish oil, flaxseed oil, alpha lipoic acid, vitamin 3, vitamin c, and calcium. My husband's really into suppliments; I let him research and then I decide if I want to take it.
3. Water--I don't really think I had enough yesterday; I'll drink more today.
4. Exercise--I'm beat from yesterday's long day. The sun is shining, so I may get out and walk Mickey, but I won't start back on my regular walking until the weekend.
5. Food--oatmeal surprise this morning; probably chicken and salad for lunch, tuna for dinner.
6. Scale--190 this a.m.
7. Caffeine--none this p.m.

Not overly bothered by the scale. . .I'm bothered, but not, you know, BOTHERED.
I'm on my way out of the DZone now and I think my attitude and energy levels will just keep improving. When I add exercise back in and drink more water, I hope to flush those extra lbs. right outa here. I'm just happy that I've made it 24 days without overt sugars. That's an accomplishment.

I hope everyone has a good weekend; I'll try to get around and visit journals during the next few days.

Erin :shamrock:

[Cruise04]

Good job on keeping away from the overt sugars. That IS a great accomplishment, as you said. Keep up the good work and I think you are right, once you are out of the DZone you will be able to flush those pounds away!!!!!

Have a good weekend
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!

Stopping by to WISH you a wonderful day and a Happy Thanksgiving! :goodvibes Take care! :hug:

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I'm just checking in to see how you are doing. I hope you have a wonderful and memorable holiday.

Take care,
Beth

[Cruise04]

Happy Thanksgiving!!!
Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

Good grief! It's been almost 10 days since I posted here at the WISH! Silly me! Time is getting away from me.

I've been fine. Had a great Thanksgiving with family, have the Christmas tree up, and now I'm ready to enjoy the Christmas holidays. We've got tons of musical commitments at church--it's going to be a fun season. :goodvibes

Tomorrow I have to get on the scale. Right before Thanksgiving I was at 188; I lost 2 lbs. last month. My new goal is to have lost 3 more by Christmas. To do that, I'm going to have to tow the line, but with the exception of Thanksgiving day, I've been true to Operation Sugar Freedom, and that has helped me tremendously.

I'm going to go read a few journals.

:grouphug: to all,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Erin!

I'm glad to hear that you are doing well and that you had a nice Thanksgiving. :goodvibes I missed you over those 10 days! ::yes::

Thank you so much for your post in my journal. :hug: My DH has been trying to tell me the same thing. :blush: Thank you, Erin! :hug:

Have a blessed week! :sunny:

[lulu201]

November 29. 2005~~Tuesday

I'm tired today. Too much running around the last couple of days, I guess. I'm getting all the cues from my body that I need some down time, so I'm going to take my time today and move through the day with baby steps. It's going to be a long day--rehearsal after work, so I probably won't be home until 9 or so.

Today:

1. Devotions--will do
2. Vitamins--will take
3. Water--drank a lot yesterday, will drink more today
4. Exercise--if I listen to my body, I won't do it. My body says rest. I think I need to push against this, though, and do some moderate exercise. Walking on the treadie at my 3.3-3.8 mph pace sure is going to hurt me! I need to do this to take care of myself
5. Food--oatmeal surprise for breakfast. Yesterday I came home and overate.
Today I want to beef things up with more fruits and veggies.
6. Scale--not today
7. Caffeine--nothing after lunch

Not exciting, but such is life.

Erin

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I am sending some prayers to help you through your long day. Those baby steps can take you miles, WISH Sis.

I am going to be carrying you with me in my heart as I walk around the World Showcase.

Take care of yourself,
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin,

Thank you so much for all of the encouragement and support that you have given me over the past few months. Your posts have brought so much happiness and wisdom to my day. I thank God for you! :hug:

I pray that you have a wonderful weekend! :sunny: See ya when I get back from Disney! :cool1:

[lulu201]

It's Monday, Decemeber 5, 2005, and outside my window today it's a Winter Wonderland!

It was a nice, relaxing weekend. Saturday we all went to work (DD included) until about 11:30, then in the afternoon I did a little stocking stuffer shopping. We went out to eat and then to Target and Kohl's and called it a day. Yesterday was chuch, produce shopping, washing and napping, and then our program at church (which was really nice). This morning it's back to the laundry and some more house cleaning before I go into work around noon.

The weather channel is calling for some snow tonight--wonder what will come our way? DD has an evening rehearsal; it might be canceled if the weather's not good.

As far as healthy living goes, I didn't do too badly over the weekend. I stayed sugar and binge free. I didn't exercise or take my vitamins. I got lots of rest.
I'm ready for a new week!

Today:

1. Devotions
A Time to Think:
In necessary things, unity; in disputed things, liberty; in all things, charity. -Anonymous
To Act:
Be patient, have faith and work towards what you desire.
To Pray:
Dear Lord, help me to open myself up to the happiness that is mine today
2. Vitamins--OK
3. Water--one glass done
4. Exercise--30 minutes on the treadie; 5x this week is the plan.
5. Food: oatmeal surprise for breakfast. Lunch will be a tuna sandwich on a roll, an apple, and some veggies. Dinner will be something along the same lines.
6. Scale--not today.
7. Caffeine--done for the day

So, that's the scoop. I'm happy with my plan and looking forward to the day!

Erin

[lulu201]

Hey, everybody. :wave2: It's nice to be here.

It's Tuesday, and I'm ready to slowly take on the day. Yesterday I was in my TOM blue funk, but today at least my blueness has some spark to it! :flower: (blue flower, get it?) Anyway, I'm going to bypass ALL overt sugar today; I caved a few days ago. Today, though, I'm ready to rise above the Call of the Sweet and treat myself in a healthy way.

Here's what I'm gonna do:

1. Devotions :sunny:
2. Vitamins :sunny:
3. Water--already started
4. Exercise--15 min or so on the treadie is better than nothing
5. Food--NO SUGAR
6. Scale-- :rolleyes: Haven't gone there in a few days. Tomorrow for sure!
7. Caffeine--a cup of green tea in the p.m. if I'm totally dogging it.

I'm off and running!

Erin

[lulu201]

Today is Wednesday, December 14, 2005

First of all, I'd like to ask for prayers for my friend Diane's son, Drew. He's a juvenile diabetic and is having an endoscopy today to determine if he has Celiac's Disease. Secondly, my brother-in-law's father is having open heart surgery today, and I know that the family would really appreciate any prayers for Charlie. He's such a dear, sweet man.

People are dealing with so much in this world, and what's my biggest "problem" of the day--how fat I am! Seriously, I got on the scale this morning and then jumped off so fast, I almost fell down! Such is my life. . .the battle continues.

So, what am I going to do for myself today?

1. Devotions--I read a beautiful devotional this morning by John Fischer at the Purpose Driven Life.
2. Vitamins--I took my meds this morning, but forgot about the vitamins. . .as soon as I'm done here.
3. Water--yesterday I drank loads of decaf and not enough water. Today will be different.
4. Exercise--yesterday I walked about 17 min. on the treadie. Today I'll do the full 30.
5. Food--oatmeal surprise for breakfast. Lunch will be a salad. Dinner will be a sandwich and fresh veggies.
6. Scale--194.

Still feeling kind of headachey, but I know this too will pass. It's not a big deal. Otherwise, I'm feeling good.

Yesterday's biggest victory was getting back on the s.f. wagon. We had three class parties filled with munchkins, brownies, chocolate-covered pretzels, etc. I was able to refuse them all. Knowing that all those goodies just make me feel yukky helped me to stay strong. You live and you learn, right? Today there are two more parties--I'm hoping to stay on the right path.

That's all for now.
Love to all,
Erin

[lulu201]

Gosh, it's been awhile since I've been here, but it's always good to be back!

I'm working at keeping my weight from ballooning any more by counting calories on fitday and by exercising 5x a week. Just got to keep on keeping on, you know what I mean?

I'm going to try to stop in to visit more regularly. . .maybe a new journal title for the new year? I think I like the sound of that. . .

Erin

[Cruise04]

Happy Holidays Erin!

Sorry you had "scared" yourself on the scale. Hope you continue to keep on keeping on because that's important!!! Keep up the good work - you ARE doing great by just sticking with it! Hope you have a great holiday.

Keep on :banana: :banana:
Chris

[lulu201]

It's December 23, 2005

Only 2 days 'til Christmas! And I'm still running around! Today I have to run out and get DFIL a frame for a picture of him, my DMIL, and DD that we're going to give him for Christmas. I also have a teeny bit of wrapping to do, but at this point it's all fun. The Christmas cards have been mailed. . .life is good. All the meals have been planned for the weekend; seems like we've got a plan. Nothing I like better than a good plan!

It looks like it's going to be a mild day here. I've got to get Mickey out for a walk--we both need the sunshine and fresh air.

Here's the scoop on today:

1. Devotions:
Daily Thoughts:
A Time to Think:
The heart goes home at Christmas, across the miles and years. -Alice Leedy Mason
To Act:
Remember to value people before things.
To Pray:
Lord, teach me today to let go of the past and experience Your love.
2. Vitamins:
3. Water: have started the first of MANY glasses
4. Exercise: walk Mickey and walk on treadie for 30 min.
5. Food: all logged into fitday. Estimated calories for today: 1628, with 33% protein and only 30% fat! I'm liking those percentages!
6. Scale: steady at 190
7. Caffeine: none after noon
8. Sugars: I'm saying this again: no overts, please. Thanks for the reminder, Doreen, about "treat day." I think I'm going to plan that day for the deepest, darkest day of the DZone! Last night on the way home from work I was already thinking about what I was gonna have!

OK, that's the plan (ya know I love a good plan!). I'm moving onward and looking Upward!

:hug: to all,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Merry Christmas, Erin! May God bless you and your family now and throughout the year. :goodvibes

[lulu201]

It's December 31, 2005 The end of another year. . .

It's been quite a year~one with it's usual highs and lows. In 2006 I'd like to:

~read a devotional book each day called "My Utmost for his Highest" and have a regular prayer life
~exercise 5x a week.
~weigh myself every day
~reach my weight loss goal and MAINTAIN a healthy weight
~abstain from overt sugars
~take my vitamins on a daily basis
~drink lots of water
~record my food and exercise at fitday EVERY day
~read more and watch TV less and, just for the heck of it, keep a list of the books I read
~outline a simple housekeeping routine that I can follow on a daily basis
~simplify my life by cleaning out clutter from my closets, drawers, cupboards, etc.
~organize our family photos
~spend a lot of time in the sunshine
~spend less; give more
~laugh a lot; love even more

I'm going to print the above list out and put it in my appointment book so I can see it on a daily basis.

I'm sending everyone my best wishes for a Happy New Year.
Erin

[lulu201]

:flower: It's January 1, 2006! Happy New Year! :flower:

Here's my day so far:

1. Devotions :sunny:
2. Vitamins--in a minute
3. Water--am on glass #2
4. Exercise--have plans for the treadie
5. Food--three meals with protein and a high carb bedtime snack
6. Scale--196 this a.m. Hey, I ate really late last night! :rolleyes:
7. Caffeine--no more today
8. Sugars--this will be tough--it's day #1 of detox
9. Housekeeping--I signed up with flylady.com; I'm a flybaby who needs to clean her sink!

I'm off and into the day!

Erin
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Hi Erin,

Your goals for 2006 look wonderful. You CAN abtain all of them. I can help with the reading goal. I just got sucked into a book called Good Grief. It is a fictional story about a 30 something widow, ad how she deals with it. Sounds depressing, right. It is very funny, and she is so honest. I am considering it one of the top 10 books I have read.

How is sugar detox going? I'm feeling pretty wiped out myself. I know that we've gotten through it before, and we can again.

Take care,
Beth