Renee's (wiskband) 2006 journal...A brand new way...come and visit me......

[wiskband]

Well..................
today is january 11th............it officially starts my new year! I say this because, I just got back form WDW last night and finished that darn 1/2 marathon in 3:01:30.

Today I am beginning a new year and need to get back on track. I lost a total of about 63 pounds but gained back about 10-13....... I noticed this when I got to WDW and pack my summer clothess that just did not fit like they did last summer. After meeting my WISH buddies and going through it all........ I decided that my focus has been too much on the marathona nd not enough on my eating habits, I think I became very comfortable losing that weight and began to think that the work was over!

not!!!!!!!
so like I did last year on january first I am going to begin to journal all my food so that I may see where things go wrong as well as when and where my weakness' are. Reporting I think may also help me not to mess up.......

Like last year another goal I would like to to quit smoking.
I went through a strange moment this past week.
I woke up for the marathon and began to worry ( yes actually worry) that I ewill not be able to smoke for a few hours. OUCH! I hate to be pressure that way and have anything in my life restrict me! As I left my hotel room, I had a ciagrette lit and saw some other marathoners walk my way behind and in front of me. I was so embarassed. I mean I normally dont care what other think but in this case, I guess that was a good feeling. I quickly put it out.
I had another cigarette and lighter in my fanny pack for once the race was over! Unbelievable huh! when I was done I didnt even want to smoke or actually I should say I did but how would that look! Turns out I realized on the trip home yesterday, that I only smoked one pack in two days! What I mean is I usually smoke about a pack a day!
I bought a pack at WDW satuirday evening and just finished it last night. Well with the marathon and the drove home which I cant smoke in the car. I managed........
unfortuanetly this morning I opened a new pack and have already smoked about half of it........ thanks to those darn good carolina prices, I bought a carton on the way home.
anyWHO......... smoking has got to go this year.........
I am going to try and wean myself to ten a day once I am comfortable with that, I will try something more drastic........
so far its 1:30 I have not eaten becuase I am too busy unpacking and getting back to reality!
I will post this evenign and try my very hardest to post every evening!
to you all love you and thanks for the support,.,,,,,,



be sure to drop by and comment.


renee

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Renee,

You can do it!!!!! You can kick the habit I know you can :cheer2:

I was a pack a day smoker. I quit in 1989. The good news is: the cravings WILL go away, I promise. It may take along time but they will go away.

Glad to see a new journal on the horizon :flower1:

Once again, congrats on the great marathon time and completion!!!

Sundie

[DoeWDW]

Renee, it was so wonderful to meet you in "real life" on Saturday evening! Your little guy is adorable - a keeper for sure!

I'm so glad you're coming back to the Journal board! I missed you!

Now about that smoking habit....
When you're at home, I bet you just light up out of habit at certain points during your day. If you think about it, you can probably identify those times, like right after breakfast or after dinner, etc. It was easier to smoke less at Disney because you weren't doing your regular routine in a familiar place like home. Now that you're back in that routine, you'll miss those cigarettes. Try replacing one cigarette a day with a new habit. Then move on to replace another cigarette with another new habit. You can do it!! Just start slowly, one cigarette at a time.

Hope you have a great day!! :sunny:

[Tera]

Hi Renee -

Welcome Back!

If you could lose 63 pounds and keep most, if not all of it off, you can quit smoking. I know it's going to be tough, but you sound like a strong willed woman and I bet you can do it. My neighbor is also quitting and he's taking one day at a time. Have plenty of low calorie snack available for when you need them, they say that's when you gain weight.

Good Luck

[wiskband]

HI all and thanks for stopping by. So I have decided that this will be my last carton of cigarettes! I was reading over my thread and decided that this will have to be it! thats very hard for me to even say! UUUUGH!
enough about that for now..........
Food not a good day.........
I am just so overwhelmed with housework etc........
I just didnt eat much period!
I had nothingb ut water till about 5:30 then ate two very small burgers w/cheese pickles,onions and a small amount of ketchup! I snuck about 5 fries in but seriously forgot! then I stopped.........hard to get back into a groove when I have been eating whatever I want since august.
I had small salad......and a diet coke.
I was going to eat a LC ice cream bar but Ill save that for tomorrow..... I am just so tired!

I did go food shopping today and have bought all my old kinds of food ( LC ). So whether or not I like it, Ill eat it! can;t waste it! I plan on making some artichoke and spinach dip and some chicken quesidillas on LC wraps. I bought some cold cuts and plan on making some LC pizza.
I am craving some cheese cake so Ill get back on LC friends and find that great recipe this week............
till tomorrow

renee

[wiskband]

HI all and thanks for stopping by. So I have decided that this will be my last carton of cigarettes! I was reading over my thread and decided that this will have to be it! thats very hard for me to even say! UUUUGH!
enough about that for now..........
Food not a good day.........
I am just so overwhelmed with housework etc........
I just didnt eat much period!
I had nothingb ut water till about 5:30 then ate two very small burgers w/cheese pickles,onions and a small amount of ketchup! I snuck about 5 fries in but seriously forgot! then I stopped.........hard to get back into a groove when I have been eating whatever I want since august.
I had small salad......and a diet coke.
I was going to eat a LC ice cream bar but Ill save that for tomorrow..... I am just so tired!

I did go food shopping today and have bought all my old kinds of food ( LC ). So whether or not I like it, Ill eat it! can;t waste it! I plan on making some artichoke and spinach dip and some chicken quesidillas on LC wraps. I bought some cold cuts and plan on making some LC pizza.
I am craving some cheese cake so Ill get back on LC friends and find that great recipe this week............
till tomorrow

renee

[wiskband]

Hi all..........gotta post quick, I have been on this board all day posting about the marathon, I havent gotten anything done!

BK: about 12 had a egg bacon and cheese sandwich on LC bread.......
Snack 2 pieces of LC hershey candy!
Dinner: 1/2 a LC tortilla with artichoke spinach dip and a cx quesadilla on LC wrap..... along with a salad with LC dressing........
Drank about 125 oz of water and 2 huge cups of decaff.

Its late now, I think I will have that LC ice cream I have been waiting for all day!

No excersie yet, my feet still hurt.......
I will begin that in a few days.

overall, a good day!

renee
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[wiskband]

Hi! had to be another fast post, go to get to bed! Or I'll eat!

I kind screwed up just alittle.
But here goes..........

BK: two eggs bacon and a slice of LC toast.
The other slice I had with cream cheese and sugar free jelly.

No time for lunch! Not intended.

Dinner: a cheesburger with onions pickles and mayo and a dot of ketchup ( habit) and a salad with a diet peach snapple.

Now for the screw up! I had two bit size famous amos cookies! Ouch it was like instinct!
Not that bad but I relaly was tiring to screw up in the slightess.
Anyway, its now 10:30 and gonna watch a little tv and go to bed, I am contemplating a LC ice cream bar but I probably won't cause of the cookie incident! lol.
I may howver have a LC wrap with some artichoke and spinach dip!
till tomorrow


renee
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forgot to post, I drank about 125 oz of water and some decaff about 2 larger cups.

[Valentine]

Hi Renee... Seems that you are off to a great "re" start! Good luck!! And as far as the smoking goes... you can do that also... really!! I have been there like you... and I am now smoke free since Christmas Eve 1997. It is a difficult thing to do.. but if you can lose the weight.. you can kick that habit! Takes the same determination which you seem to have!

Good Luck!

Kathy :wave:

[Princess Michelle]

Hi Renee!

You are already a success, losing 63 pounds and keeping 50+ of it off is fantastic. I have no doubt you will take off the small amount that you gained!

Best of luck to you in reaching your goal and in quitting smoking! You are going to be one healthy lady this year! ::yes::

[wiskband]

thanks you guys but, I am almost ashamed to post yesterday's meals.
Urgggggg.
see the thing is hubby is home form work for a few days and I am completely, out of sync! ARRRRRRG!
I hate to rationalize but we need excuses ! lol
Anyway, I had eggs bacon and LC for BK
Lunch I had a LC wrap with hame and cheese
then it happend!!!!!!!
the famous amos cookies were challenging me. I gave in.
Had a small bag ( snack size bag)
I said ok I wont let this get in down............
while my family ate hot dogs and fries, I had a hot dog on a LC wrap and some spinach dip.
The when no one was around...............
OMG! I had a bowl of lucky charms OK two bowls.
Late night the " I already meesed up came into my mind" and had yet another bag of cookies..........
So upset by this, I drank one more bottle of water and hit the sheets before I did anymore damage.




Today is a new day. I ate my usually BK.........
eggs bacon and LC bread.so far I have had 2 bootles (24oz) each of water..........I think after I post I will go to curves, I am no longer a member but they have since moved to a larger facility and I ran into the owner, she invited me back to try it out again.

SO I am off.................
till tonight.
renee
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[DoeWDW]

Renee, you are really starting to get some of your healthy habits back! The amount of water you drink is AMAZING!! I struggle to get 64 oz in a day!

I'm discovering that on days when I follow my usual routine, it's much easier to stay on plan. Weekends are TOUGH! Maybe a routine would help you too? Seems like you have a breakfast routine down - good for you! ::yes::

You go, girl!! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

SO! i went back to curves........I really do like them there. It turns out according to their scale I weigh 162! OUCH!
My scale says 156. so I think I may rejoin.not sure yet however............
doe, you are absolutely right! I am a routine person and when that gets messed up, I mess up!

anyway Ill post tonight.............till then
renee
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[DoeWDW]

Renee, to adjust your ticker, you have to go back to the site and redo it with the new weight. Sounds like a pain, but it only takes a couple times until you can do it really fast.

Not sure how many are thinking of the Philly half. Registration doesn't even open for quite a few months, so we have lots of time to think about it. I'll keep you informed!

Good for you for making it to Curves!!!

[wiskband]

thanks doe.
renee
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[wiskband]

Oh wait doe..........
did I need to save that address at the top of the page in order to back to my ticker? I hope not, I didnt. or do you just start a new one?

renee
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[DoeWDW]

Just start a new one. :)

[wiskband]

Thanks doe...........
Ok so today...............
menza menza...............
I ate good
Bk eggs bacon LC bread
Lucnh tuna on a LC wrap! diet snapple
Dinner Cheese burger with a salad.
This eveing my kids made homemade cookies!!!!!!!!!
Ahhhhhhhhhh how could I say NO.
But thast it I swear just 3 cookies.
Moderation Moderation.............
In my old way, I would have said ah I messed up already so I go all the way.......
kinda like I did yesterday! lol
I went to curves I may rejoin or may just take advantage of my free 8 weeks at ballys.
not sure yet but a small step in the right direction.

till tomorrow

renee
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[wiskband]

Renees new ay is not going well.............
here goes...........wow I feel foolish even posting today but I swore to no matter what ANd I am............


started out good, I had no bk cause I woke up and had to get going. Had to help a friend out with her son's BD party.
THE MOVIES!!!!!AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

not the movies......... I got past it! had no popcorn, nothing but water and a coffee!
Can't believe I got through that. We headed over to her house and then she got pizza. Before I got there, I bought wings from kfc. I asked the girl if they were breaded and she says NO! WRONG!
I wrestled with the breading and ended up with a total of maybe one big wing. SO I went to for pizza. Ate one slice then ate the cheese off of another. Then the cake came out............ you have to understand it was now 4 oclock, I was starving! SO I had a slither.........really it was thin.
I get home still hungry and hubby has made brownies!
O MY! had one brownie with ice cream and to my surpise he also made cookies...............
jesus~! I screwed up big time............
had one meal and all junk! I swear to eat nothing else tonight and try and begin once again tomorrow..........
I really need to stop rationalizing!
I tell myslef "well I only had one meal all day the brownie will take the place of two" the thing is that the brownie has about 3/4 days worth of carbs!

ARGGGGGGGGGGGG!
screwed up but at least I can come here and be honest!
Till tomorrow ( plan on going to the gym)
renee
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[septbride2002]

Okay now take a deep breath and go back and reread your post. The cards were stacked against you my friend! Even when you tried to plan a low carb meal it backfired on you. We've all had it happen to us - the best thing to do is wake up this morning drink some water, get in a good workout, and shrug it off. One day is not going to ruin the week or the month or the year. Have you made any decisions about Curves?

~Amanda

[wiskband]

HI amanda and thanks for the post! That really kept me going right about NOW (midnight), as I was just thinking how much I would love a famous amos.
OUCH!
I actually decided against curves. I went to ballys ( I have this 8 week free pass) and really liked it ALOT they have a pool!!!!! that is so cool I love swimmimg! then ivisted my friends gym ( we were planning on working out everyday at 2 during her lunch) that did not work out no baby sitting during those hours. There is just so muchmore at ballys things I think I may nned now that curves doesnt offer. Think I need to step it up a notch. Anyway gona rideout this pass see how much I go and if I like it.


Today food wise was great!
BK had eggs bacon LC bread.
no lunch
dinner had tacos in LC tortilla.
snack..LC tortilla with spindip!
About 75 oz of water and one cup of coffee.
tomorrow, gonna hit the gym!

thanks again.


renee
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[toystoryduo]

Hi Renee!

Thanks for your post to my question on the WISH boards. I really appreciate it! :hug:

I worked out at Ballys when I was in college and I loved it! I never used the pool, but I enjoyed the cardio room and the weight room a lot. I did aerobics there a lot too, but I'm sure a lot of that has changed since 1996. :blush:

Have a great Tuesday!

[wiskband]

Duo,....... yup ballys is a really nice gym, think I am gonna stick with it!


Anyway I woke up SICK today! O MY thank god hubby was home, he got the kid off to school and I slept till 1 in the afternoon!
I didnt eat till about 6 oclock, I had two slices of toast with some tuna salad. drank alot of water and coffee. I think this evening I will have another slcie of toast LC that is. or some sort of snack.
Perhaps a LC ice cream bar.

any way no exercise today, was feeling to yucky!


til tomorrow folks..............
renee
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[Princess Michelle]

Renee, I'm sorry you aren't feeling well. :hug:

Yay, another person is going to Bally's now! LOL I'm using my 8-week pass too and everytime I hear there is another WISHer going it gives me even more motivation. :)

[DoeWDW]

Renee, there's a thread on the main WISH board about the Ocean City half. It's on April 16th, so I'm not sure much of the tourist stuff will be open, if you're thinking of combining it with a vacation. The pace requirement is a lenient 17 minute mile - that gives us 3 hrs. 42 minutes roughly.

If it's too soon (only 12 weeks away!), you may want to look into the Philadelphia Jefferson Distance Run in mid-September. There are quite a few of us who are planning to do that one also.

[wiskband]

Michelle.. iwent to day for the first workout! I was totally overwhelmed! Big time.
Didnt know how to ue the machines and ther were so many!

But I didnt get intimadated I did it!

I started with 3 arm machine 3 sets of ten each
then 3 leg machines..............3 sets of ten
then 3 ab machines...............3 sets of ten.

I headed up stairs to the cardio and did 4 miles on a life cycle. and finally to the pool...........
WOW swimming hard when use for exercise.
I did 6 laps and I was beat! Then i went into the hottub. and I was done!


I then headed over to the dentist....where I went for 3 fillings. routine? HUH so I thought.

about 4 oclock, the novacaine began to wear off and then

it hit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the pain was so bad! right up there with labor! seriuosly..........
after some frantic phone calls to my dentist they finally tracked him down and he called. He said I was having some post op hypersomething or other. And that the cavity was deep and I may need a root canel. the root canal part doesnt bother me I have had 3 but this pain is bad! he prescribe some vicodine! Now I really really hate taking these kinds of things but I seriously have no choice.

ANYWHO....
eating was okso far........... didnt eat before the workout not intensionally, I just didnt have time. but after I was feeling jittery so had to stop at mickey dee's to plan DD bday bash, I had something there. I ate 2 double cheese burgers NO BREAD. and get this..lol........... I took more than half the fries out threw them in the garbage BEFORE I sat down so I had about 10 fries. and of course, A diet coke. the earlier this evening once the vicodine kicked in,
I ate some roasted cx and a salad.

Had 1/3 of my LC hershey and am planning on some LC nachos if I dont fall asleep.
I drank about 50 oz of water. and some decaf.................so till tomorrow.
renee
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[wiskband]

WOW! what a week so far!
You people are gonna start thinking I am a hypercondreact.
(not sure of that spelling lol). So it began the other day when I woke up with a sore throat, and then yesterday with a toothache, today it was my belly! actually, I shoudl say tonight! I toothache worked out well. I woke up and was fine. FINE all day did lots and lots of housework! I did not get to the gym body is sore from yesterdays workout. ABout a hour ago my tummy begins to feel yucky! Makes sense DD had it saturday and DS today he was home from school. Good thing is, it seems to last less than 24 hours! Thank goodness, cause when it comes to my belly I am a big baby! When ever I vomit, I cry and need someone there with me! lol. Even all those morning sickness' of hubby wasnt home my oldest would run to the Br with me. TO rub my back hold my hair! I just can;t handle tummy thingys.

Anyway, today was a great eating day, until now lol. I cant eat which I guess could be a good thing, although, I was looking forward to a snack but I really just don;t want it!

BK had eggs bacon and LC bread........
DN had 2 slices of LC bread with tuna on it and a ranch salad.
I usually dont eat 4 slices event hough its LC but, I was lazy and had worked so hard today!

I drank all my water and had some decaf.

Anyway, today I did lots of research on hotel ressies for the marathon. I am expecting a call from WDW with the specifics. I got so excited, because my long time dear friend tara has decided to do the marathon with me next year. She moved down to FL last year so I dont get to see her often. This past january she came with us to WDW during the marathon but did not do it with me. I am so siked about this. We are now planning a fews days there and then the marathon. I told her all about WISH and sent her links to us. I hope she lurks then joins.

anyway, i ought to go lay down, kids are sleeping and hubby is working so if I get sick, I am on my own (we can't have that now). With some luck, it'll pass in my sleep.

till tomorrow.
renee
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:love: join the valentines day challenge :love:

[Princess Michelle]

Renee, don't feel bad, I felt the same way the first day I went to the gym. Completely overwhelmed! I was seriously considering not going back because I felt so helpless but I just walked around and tried different things and by the end of the day I had more confidence about being there. I don't know if your's is like mine but all the weight machines at mine have instructions for use on them and most have a diagram of what muscles they work, etc. I've found them extremely helpful!

I'm so sorry you are still not feeling well. Sending prayers your way for a quick recovery. :hug:

[wiskband]

I am not in bed yet! Nope not sick, although, i still feel it, I just managed to eat a lc PIZZA. but I just realized about an hour ago that my carton of cigarettes is just about gone! I promised that this would be it for me! As I write, my last cigarette is burnig in front of me. I had to post so it could be somehow ceromonial. I wrote down a few thins in my own journal that I carry around with me, I hope it will help at times of need. Threw all teh ashtrays away and got some patches for the next few days........ I think I am ready! So off to bed I am... as I now put out my last cigarette. night all
wish me luck!

renee




renee

[geetey]

Hi Renee!
Good for you for giving up smoking! I know with your determination you can do it!! Just think how much easier running will be! ::yes::

GOOD LUCK! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

HI all, didnt post last night, had company and it got late I fell asleep!
Anyway, I wound up going off plan.! I wont blame it on the quitting smoking but I think it had a little to do with it!
my friend came by and rather than cook we decided on chinese food, I haven;t had that in so long! So had some rice and cx that was breaded. We then rented some movies so I had some raisinettes as well as some swedish fish. She kept rationalizing ahhhhhhhh! you quit smoking slurge a little! exactl what I didnt want to do. Anyway besides, that meal , while out with my dad all day runnign around, we had BK just a whopper no bread a few onion rings!

So far, today I ate my bk. eggs bacon. and have had a few left over swedish fish, but, just because I meesed up already, I wont continue to do so.
anyway, until later

renee
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[lizdotcom99]

Renee, hope all is going well for you!! I ahve been thinking about you and your new cigarette free life!! It is hard, but you can do it!!! :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: I know this, because I quit too...and I was a 3 pack a day girl!! Ihave quit for 7 years and if Ican do it....anybody can do it. I have NO willpower whatsoever!!! So good luck to you!! I know you can do this!!

Liz

[wiskband]

ashamed to even post! Too much to list! :earseek:

Hope tomorrow night will be better!

renee

[CarolA]

Always remember. Tomorrow is a new day.

"Never let yesterday eat up tomorrow"

[lmhall2000]

You are doing so MARVELOUSLY!!!! Can you just give yourself a pat on the back for what all you HAVE accomplished....all of us have bad days....just don't let ONE bad day turn into TWO...or a week...or a month...or a year like I did!! I gained almost 15 pounds last year! UGH! So now I'm off to re-lose those same 15 then lose another 25-30...I'm right here with you!!!

You're such an encouragement to everyone...keep on staying strong and thinking good thoughts...you're a success and time will be on your side!!
Tara

[Princess Michelle]

Renee, I'm sorry that you're having a rough weekend. :hug:

I know you don't want to use the quitting smoking as an excuse but I'm sure that it is rough on you.

Just remember that tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to get it right. I'm sure that you will get back on track. :sunny:

[NCRedding]

Good luck with the smoking--realize this is just a temporary setback, and try to focus on one thing at a time--set your mind to quitting, just like you set your mind to finishing the 1/2 marathon, and you'll do great. You will get your eating under control.

[wiskband]

Well...... today was a better day for me!
food wise anyway, I have been real cranky, I think TOM may be coming for a visit tomorrow!
Anyway I got up so late that I didnt even eat BK.........
I drank some coffe and really didnt eat anything till dinner.
Then, I had two slices of toast with tuna on them. I am just out of it today! Anyway, I think perhaps this evening Ill have a LC pizza and maybe and LC ice cream.
Not sure whats wrong just feeling real crappy!
I think its just a combo of TOM, not smoking, and cabin fever ( I have been in this house for almost 5 days!)

anyway, till tomorrow.
renee
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[lizdotcom99]

Renee......feel better!!! I totally understand that funk..you are not alone there with that. It seems to have found me as well. So glad to hear you are still smoke free! What a HUGE accomplishment!!! Just want to echo what others have said about the eating.....ya just gotta deal with one thing then the other.....get rid of your smoking and don't beat yourself up about eating. Of course if you can replace your smoking habbit with a new productive one....all the better for you!!! Keep it up...YOU ROCK!!!

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[Alysa]

Hi Renee -
Congratulations on the start of your journey - I think you are doing great - keep on trying!

BTW - my brother was a tet baby too! He was born without a valve and needs a replacement every three to five years. He is a handsom, funny 30 year old 6'3" goalie and brilliant computer programer. One of the nicest guys I know. He had ground breaking surgery at Sick Kids in Toronto that your little Andrew (what a cutie!) probably had.

Anyway - I'll be rooting for you! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

Hi Renee -
Congratulations on the start of your journey - I think you are doing great - keep on trying!

BTW - my brother was a tet baby too! He was born without a valve and needs a replacement every three to five years. He is a handsom, funny 30 year old 6'3" goalie and brilliant computer programer. One of the nicest guys I know. He had ground breaking surgery at Sick Kids in Toronto that your little Andrew (what a cutie!) probably had.

Anyway - I'll be rooting for you! :cheer2:


A goalie??????

I kid around with my family saying that someday andrew will be a goalie, football player, or even wrestler! Something that involves hard core contact. Pass my web site along to him. There are many parents who love to hear from adult TOF survivors. It gives us hope, you know alhtough most of these babies end up fine, we tend to be so uncertain about the future. Well, if he has some time, So may parents including myself I am sure would have a ton of Q's for him!
take care,
renee

[wiskband]

Ok so no more excuses!
Today make one week I have not smoked.......... that part of my life is now overwith! Had a crazy week, emotion and food wise but, now its time to get back to business! pirate:

I havent posted the past few days cause I have just been so bad, yesterday however, I got back on my Tm and did 4.30 miles in 60 minutes and it was actually easy, wasnt gasping for air. etc. I actually feel the difference already!

Right now, it about 2 in the afternoon, I havent yet eaten, I have been busy cleaning the house and had to get on the TM while baby is alseep, I did another 4:30 in 60 minutes and still have to so some crunches. I plan on eating in just a few minutes, anyway, until later

renee
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[wiskband]

OMG! I dont even know where to begin! Its late saturday night, I am soooooo emotional, I still havent smokined but I seriuosly cant stop eating! its horrible. I get so temptig sometimes to just have smoke, but I know so many ( most importantly my kids) are so happy for me. I am just so stressed out. I should go to bed.
till tomorrow
renee

[lizdotcom99]

Renee,
Reread yhe part in your journal about being smoke free for a week!!! :banana: :banana: :banana: That is HUGE!!!!! Way to go!!! You did it!! You quit smoking!!!!!!!!
Give yourself some credit girl!!

Now, just take it one step at a time.....it is still a HUGE adjustment that your body is going through. Do what ya need to get through. Maybe getting some healthier snacks would help too. Celery with cream cheese is a favorite LC snack of mine!! Lots of crunch and tasty too!!

You will get through this!! We are all here to help!!!! Wishes of continued success and a beter week for you!!

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[wiskband]

TY LIZ!!
Celery and cream cheese sound good! Anything sounds good to me these days!
lol :rotfl2:
Anyway, I was talking to hubby WHO sometimes is like talking to a wall! lol I told him my situation and that I needed his help! He keeps telling me look at all the things you have accomlpished you can do this! Now hes right and thats very nice of him to say but I am just weak these days! and I need help! So we chatting and he insisted like many other WISHERS, that I get on the TM every time I have to urge to eat. I saya s yea, its such a headache to pull out everytime I need it. SO we simply took it out and it is set up pluged in a ready to go at an given moment! lol. We also thought that perhaps, I should get up early in the morning and exercise. Perahps changing my routine around a little! SO I am off to bed and setting the alarm for 6 I am so NOT a morning person, but I may have to become one!

ANyway, starting over again tomorrow.

renee
:cool1:

[wiskband]

WOW! what a day!Illt ryit in a nut shell. Got up at 6 this morning hit the TM did 4.5 miles in hour. tried to get dressed I really mean tried! NONE f my pants fit! really no exageration! they really did not fit ...........ended up wwearing my onyl pair of strechy ones! YIKES great wake up call. I stayed OP today, had bacon and eggs for brunch
this evening had some Cx and brocoli.
Drank some decaf and ate some sunflower seeds. Smoking was barely even thought of today!

Anyway, got to get to bed, lots to do tomorrow.
renee


:cool1:

[Alysa]

4.5 miles in an hour is so great! Good for you for getting up so early and sticking to your plan!
:cheer2:

[wiskband]

Hi all, another great day!
With grim reality! I went back to work today, that was good, the bad news is when I tried to get dressed for work none of my clothes fit! Seriuosly! I must have gained alot! But I did get up this morning at 6 and stayed OP all day.
Had no BK but was out around noon time, stopped at BK had a whopper no bread and a few ORings.
This evening at work, I had a ceasar salad and a few slices of steak........ Ipicked on some sausgaes thru out the evening. I also bought some sugar free lifesavers, i had about 6of those and layed off the sunflowers seeds by alot today! I am going to leav them by the computer only now. I think the layer of skin on my mouth and on my tougne, are beinning to grow back! lol. the salt has eaten awway at it!

anyway drank lots of water and had some coffee.
till tomorrow
renee
:banana:

[lizdotcom99]

Renee!!!! I am so proud of you!! You are awesome!!!! I am so happy you are smoke free and geetingyour eating back in order....and in such a quick amount of time!! Be proud of you!!! :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: It won't be long and your pants still won't fit,casue they will be too big!! Keep up the great work. Hope that your mouth skin grows back....salt will do that.....it will also make you retain water!!! Hope work is going well for you. again, I am so proud of you!! Keep on keeping on!! You are doing great!!!

:cool1: :cool1: :cool1:

[wiskband]

Thanks liz...........


well another good day to add to my list! that makes 3 consecutive ones! horray!

Anyway, I was not able to get up this morning to go on the TM. You see TOM is visiting and the backpain hit me HARD this morning, I actually did get up at 6 to run but my back hurt too bad. SO I went back to bed after I took some advil. Woke up around 7:30 and got the kdis ready for school. Went to work about 11 and ate a cx ceasar salad at about 2:30. By this time, I had drank 2 24 OZ water and had a few cups of decaf. After work had to run over to DD daisy's meeting then take DS to bday party. During the party , My Older DD and I did some clothes shopping. I resisted temptation to eat out and waited till we got home. We arrived home about 7:30 and hubby ran out and bought some cold cuts. I then had ham and cheese with mayo on a LC wrap. DUring the day, I did have about8 sugar free hard candies! As much as I would not like to still be eating these, they are a diversion from smoking. This evening I hit the sunflower seeds again, I have decided that this will be my last bag! Got to kick the habt before it gets bad! lol.
Anyway, all in all it was a good day!


till tomorrow.

renee
:banana:

[Alysa]

GO RENEE!!! :cheer2:

[lmhall2000]

Renee!! You are doing an amazing job!!! I'm just sooo proud of you for stopping the you know what...don't even want to mention the word! And WOW 4.5 miles in an hour...that's busting it! :) Sorry, TOM is visiting...I hate that back pain and bloated feeling...I feel like 12 weeks of the year you should just knock those off...I can't seem to control my eating at TOM and the exercise just makes my cramps worse...ick! Here's to a quick recovery from TOM and a good losing week for you!

You can do this!!!!!
Stay strong!
Tara

[MelanieC]

Renee,
Great job on quiting. You are doing fantastic. Definately get rid of the sunflower seeds unless you can control only eating a few at a time. They are definately addicting.

[wiskband]

thanks girls!
Yea, I gave up the seeds too! they were addicting! I had none today..............

For the most part, I had a good day,
this morning, I had 2 slices of LC bread with butter and a decaf coffee.
Met my friend for lunch @ wendys and had a cheese burger with mayo and a side salad and DPepsi.
This evening while at work I did not pick ! thats a first, I had a small bowl of homemade soup ( no pot/ noodles) just CX and veggies.
The before I left I had a cx ceasar salad.
Now I had a really hard time @ work everyone there smokes... I was so depressed comign home, something Had to give so I ate yeat another meal however not to bad....when I got home, I had a ham and cheese sandwich on LC bread. I hate to eat all the bread even though it is LC but it could have been worse, I also had about 3 mini famous amos cookies.,
I almost bought candy at blockbuster (and all they have are big size bags) vbut i didnt, so I screwed p but wasnt too bad!

Anyway, till tomorrow.....
oh yea, I didnt exercise either but hubby used the Tm and didnt pu tit away........ its in the way that means and I will get on it tomorrow!lol
renee\

[crzy4pooh]

Renee - you are doing great on the quitting! :cheer2: And congrats on no sunflower seeds!!! :flower: I hope your back is better soon! And like Liz said, your clothes will be fitting in no time, and will be too big soon! :banana: I hope you have a great weekend! Sending lots of exercise vibes your way :wizard: (and mine, too!) ;)

--Lynnda

[NCRedding]

Hi Renee--great job on not smoking. I see you're doing the 1/2 next year--I am still on the fence about trying again. I looked at the pics, and really want to have one of me at the castle, but I just don't know.

[wiskband]

Thanks Crzy..... Please send that vibe... i seem to be always strong i one dept rather than the other.......
In other words I am either exercising alot and not eating right, or eating right and not exercising


that was the case this week, I only got on the TM twice but ate good all week. that is, until tonight, had friends over and made a lanagna and some G bread..... afterward, had some homemade cookies...........
Well tomorrow, I am back on track with some exercise.


NC..........
I do hope you go next year! I am thinking that enxt year, will be more WISH orientated. You know now that we kinda know eacho ther better, we may spend more time together, I know I will! I cant wait to go! I hope you decide to. anyway, got to go all! I am needing some sunflower seeds!lol
just a few


renee :cheer2:

[geetey]

What is it about sunflower seeds? Both of my brothers used to chew tobacco and both used sunflower seeds to kick the habit! Of course, both were going through lots of seeds too! Finally my brother got the idea to put big handfuls in his mouth at a time, pack them in his cheek, and then eat them. That much salt was too much for his mouth and he kicked his seed habit. You are doing GREAT with not smoking so I wouldn't sweat seeds just yet. :)

Keep up the great work, Renee!

[wiskband]

Thank you!

This weekend well, I have mixed feelings about!
As much as I would like to really say i am done smoking, I had a tough time this past weekend. I did not smoke but it was like I just quit again, it is so hard at work everyone I work with smokes!

Anyway food wise, I kept screwing up!
Saturday, started out good, I had my usual breakfast, no lunch then went to work. There I managed NOT to pick all night and when I was done working, had some chicken pizziola. No starches in that meal! However, this was the night, I was having difficulty not smoking so I got home and then had a boo boo. I had a sandwich on LC bread that was not tto bad although, I was suppose to be done eating. And when i was done with that, I had a ringding!

Sunday, woke up to eat some chocolate chip cookies, I began to set myself up to fail for the day cause we were having my daughters mc donalds bday party! I stopped quickly eating the cookies and had a slcie of LC bread with butter. At Mickey dees, I had my usual 2 double cheese burgers with no bread, but I did splurge on the fries and had some. A few hurs later, we went and had our taxes done. After that my hubby who never wants to go out to eat, wanted to go to fridays! I said sure, they have a LC menu. That went right down the drain when we arrived. the plan went out the window there. I had nachos and shared his app. then had a JD steak and mashed potatoes, we skipped dessert~! UNTIL that is, we got home! The he made ice cream shakes! Of course, I rationalized my whole evening. He has been woking day and night for a few weeks and will be doing that again thsi week. so whynot have a good time and eat everything!

today, I am off to a better start. I did finish the nachos I brought home a few hours ago. Not good but that is all I had so far, this evening we are off to a friends house to have a long time planned Breakfast for dinner! lol. So this evening, I will be having breakfast. My favorite LC meal of the day! I just finished 2 miles on the TM it took me everything I had to get on the TM. I am going to have to leave that darn thing out and in the way so that I get up on it more! lol.

Anyway till tonight!
renee
:banana:

[wiskband]

Boy did my day just spiral downward! ouch not sure why.
I go to my friends for our breakfast for dinner meal and Dont know what came over me, I had toast and pancakes and regular loaded with sugar ice tea! I was craving a cigarette like you wouldnt believe, and I had a whole box of raisnettes!
MY GOODNESS...... I am so uncomfotable right now! Mypants fit me tight and I had to wear my hubby shirt ( mine are too tight) I am seriuosly thinking that I may have to smoke! I know it sounds dumb but it has to be the reason my weight has gotten this bad! I am a mess! Dont know how I didnt buy a pack on my way home, I just concentrated in getting home. I may have to put this quitting smoking thing on hold for a while, I really cant afford to gain anymore weight! I seriuosly have no clothes left tpo wear!

I dont know, I am so feeling dumped right now!
I am actually tired, I should just go to bed before I screw up even more.

Ill write tomorrow.
renee

[Alysa]

Renee! Don't give up - you are doing so great! Send DH out for sunflower seeds and treat yourself to a new shirt so you feel pretty. It could be a treat to reward yourself for all your non-smoking. Once you have stopped smoking for a while it will get easier and those pounds will just fly off again. You can do it - I'll be rooting for you!

[lizdotcom99]

Renee, you have come to far to turn back now!! Give yourself a HUGE pat on the back.....then get back on the treadmill!! We are all :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: for you!! You can do this!!! And just for some encouragement... :banana: :banana: :banana:

[wiskband]

Hey all! today was another weird one. I did good food wose and exercise but I slipped up on the smokes.
Actually, last night I did, I smoked a cigarette and then evening, smoked another. Been a hard day. Food wise, I had some italian sausages for lunch and for dinner, a burger with cheese and a salad. I ate 2 pieces of hard candy and a few pieces of gum, my water, and some coffee. I feel really bad for smoking, got to put it behind me and forget.
Anyway, I got on my TM and jogged 4.70 miles in one hour. I worked up a sweat, it was ncie to have jogged that far. anyway, I am tired, till tomorrow.

renee
:banana:

[wiskband]

Yesterday was great! I started out with a egg ham and cheese on a LC wrap for BK........
At work, I had CX pizziola and when I got home I had a snack, chedar cheese and salami.
after that, I had a sugar free jello! Drank all my water and some decaf...... had af ew sunflower seeds and about 3 sugar free hard candies.

I got on the TM but was on the phone so I ended up just walking a half hour and did about 1.75 miles. Not what I wanted to do but at least it was something.



Its about 11:30 am here now, I plan on putting baby down for nap, eating BK then running for an hour.

This evening, I do not work I have defrosted steaks So, ill have that and a salad.

Ill report tonight.
Smoking thing is going great too! none since I slipped up!

RENEE

[wiskband]

Second post of the day, good day except for the exercise, I put baby down ate then as soon as I got on the TM he woke up! And trust me,. there is no running while he is up! SO I never did get that done.
food wise I did great!
this morning, I had two eggs scrambled with sausage and chees on a LC tortilla.

no snack then and for dinner, I had some sausage pizziola ( sauce leftover form the night before) and a salad. I also toasted half a tortilla with garlic and ate that with my dinner. Its baout 10 now, everyone has just settled down, I plan to sit ont he coach and have a snack (perhaps some cheese and pepperoni and maybe a jello)

I did buy some more sugar free candies, so I had about 4 of them as well as some sunflower seeds ( not too many and I bought some that didnt have too much salt) tomorrow, I am suppose to be going out with hubby, so that will be a challenge.

ANyway, till tomorrow.
renee
:banana:

[septbride2002]

what is a pizzola? :)

~Amanda

[wiskband]

Pizziola is a type of sauce ( like fra diavolo ) but has lots of olives, capers, etc..... it is very chunky! Funny thing is, I hate green olives and capers except in this sauce. Believe it or not Pizziola is usually served with salmon. SOunds strange I know but it is so good, we just ran out of salmon the other night and used cx.


renee

[septbride2002]

Thanks! For some reason I was thinking it might be a low carb pizza product! :confused3 Guess I'm just craving pizza :guilty:

Have a great day!

~Amanda

[wiskband]

HI all. Just got back from my Vday date with my hubby! gotta beat the crowds lol. I did alright! could have been worse.
Ill start off with my whoel day though,
This morning hit the road with errands didnt eat till noon. stopped at Bk had a whopper no bread or ketchup but, had a few Orings.
GOt home and baby would not go to sleep, sooooooo rather than use that as an excuse to not work out ( you know TM running and 2 year old running around equals danger! ) I set him up in the living room where I could see him and hit the TM....... I knew I had to be fast so this inspired me to run real fast for as long as I could or as long as he'd let me! lol. I walked for one minute then ran ( fast 5.5 mph) till I hit two miles! YES! thats right I ran the whole two miles! non stop! a first for me. It took me 23 minutes then I walked last 7 minutes! about 6 oclock, we sat to eat, I didnt cook so we ended up having cold cuts. I splurged and had it on LC bread and not a wrap. I ate a ham and cheese sandwich ( no chips! ) BY now, I had drank all my water had some coffe and of course a few of those sugar free candies.
This eveing we left about 9:30 and headed to houlihans. This is where I began the bargaining and cheating! but I never go out! rrrrgh! So I had mushrooms ( they are breaded) one potatoe skin ( these actually didnt have much of the potatoe and more skin) and some wings. For dinner, I had a piece of my hubby steak and ordered a side of the faux mashed potatoes. We also shared a salad.
no dessert, it was movie time. Here once agian, I splurged. I ate some rasinettes. but I swear, that was all! Anywa, it s late now, have to hit the hay! till tomorrow when I plan to be all the way back OP.

renee

[wiskband]

hmmmmmmmm.w ell today was alright, I had no BK until about 3 oclock, I just wasnt hungry. I had a wrap with egg ham and cheese, Got on the TM and ran 2 miles straight took me 21:30 minutes. then walked till I hit 30. Went to work where it was really busy, that was lots of exercising. See working in a restaurant is hard while stayng OP. Its hard physical work and then theres always food that is sent back or the wrong food made, etc. When that happens, my boss puts it out for all to eat.soooooooooo
the fried calamarie was made by accident and of course we ate it. good thing is there is about 5 of us and you have to be in the kitchen when the mistake happens or you get none! LOL, I was int he kitchen so I cheated there. After work the only thing left to eat was left over buffet from a party in the bar, only left was pasta so I passed. I did however hit checkers, I was starving! SO I ate cheese burger no bread and half a small fries. I am now eating sunflower seeds and plan on a small cup of lc ice cream, I have been planning all week.!

well, till tomorrow

renee

[wiskband]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh today was a SO/SO day, I kow atl east one thing, I am learning that when I mess up not to go nuts and ruin it completely!I began with breakfast, one egg one slice of LC toast and bacon, I also had to have french toast but I had one piece, and it was on LC bread with sugar free syrup.
On my way to work, I bought a LC bagel t the bagel store,
Ate half of that when I got to work about 2 oclock.
We ate a salad and a few pieces of calamarie at work about 5 and the other half of my bagel. This evening, I had mussels in red sauce with spinach and a small piece of bread. I got home and had to run out to buy my sons chips for his class party tomorrow, I couldnt resist, and I bought a small bag of raisnettes.
I was not able to exercise I worked all day, but My place was real busy today, so I pretty much exercised at work.

Besides that not such a bad day!
I am very tired and have to work tomorrow, I am off to bed.

till tomorrow
renee

[wiskband]

HI all, didnt get a chance to post yesterday,I was soooooooo busy.
Anyway started out good thats for sure,I had no time for exercise, literally a busy day. I ate my first meal at about 4 oclock on my way to work, stopped at BK had a double whopper no bread or ketchup and a few Orings. WORK was BUSY! so after work about 10:30 I had a cx ceasar salad with mushrooms.
Then I get home and hubby has cards flowers and of course chocolate! After seeing all those couples at work and serving all thsoe desserts, plus we gave out chocolate covered strwberries, I gave in and had about 8 mini peanut butter cups! ouch!
I then went to bed.
Today I am off, I plan to exercise, I am going out this evening to eat in another restaurant that is owned by the owners of mine. SO tonight, will be a challenge.

Till then
renee

[septbride2002]

It sounds like your job keeps you on your feet and moving - so I would not worry about the chocolate - you probably burned a lot calories at work. Slip ups happen - we just have to learn from them and move on. Have a great day today and try to enjoy dinner tonight!

~Amanda

[wiskband]

thank for visiting amanda!
Dinner didnt go to great! opppppps!
I ended up just eating whatever, however, didnt go overboard.
I actually didnt eat all day this was not done intentionally just ended up that way. Anyway, I had one piece of fish ( yes breaded) and took only a few fries fromt he plate and passed it on. and had a quesadilla (yes white floured!) yikes! loaded with carbs but portion control! if I need to rationalize! Now this place is primarily and ice cream shop OH NO! :earseek: Not to worry this is where I didnt go overboard, normally, I would say to myself ahhhhhhh I screwed up already so may as well. nope, I did not do that, I did have some ice cream but about 4 spoonfuls of baby's.
SO.......tomorrow, I am back on plan as usual! with the exercise! till then

renee

[wiskband]

HI all, been a few days! A few long crazy days! I may as well cut to the chase with my confession........ I am smoking again! I know I feel like such a failure and I wont make excuses but I really had a minor breakdown about 10 days ago! I did fine for about 20 days then I just lost it! One night, as I was trying on my work clothes which I hadnt wore in a month (restaurant was closed from jan. 1 till feb 3)Soooooooo, the clothes I wore on new years eve did not fit! I mean really not even close. Shirt and pants. This totally freaked me out! I convince myself that it was because I quit smoking and I had ONE! Next day turned into 2! and so on and so on! However, i did just buy a 3 week patch system I plan on started soon.
I just dont think I can tackle two things at once, and I can't, I can't I just can''t gain anymore weight! I am smart enough to know whats more important really, but, losing weight is not easy either so I think I am just gonna tackle the weight loss first. I really do feel horrible, I know so many of you were rooting for me. Ok so my past few days.
Craziness, began on wednesday night, my daughter ( bean 6 ) woke up about 4in the am screaming like crazy that her stomach hurt. I rushed her to the ER.At first, they thought Urinary infection but urine was fine so because she had a touch of asthma ( which I had under control) and her white blood cells were high fever, etc, they took a chest xray and determined she had nomonia. So they admitted her. I knew though somthing was not right. She was not sick not like that anyway. I know my daughter better than anyone, And I have been dealing with her asthma for a long time, no way she had this. I called her pediatricain and insisted he come that evening to see her and look at the xray! He confirmed, I was right! and we left late thursday night. During all this, i ate pretty bad, I hit the vending machine a few times both for her sake and mine. Howver, when the cafeteria opened in the am I did good and made good choices. I had tuna on a whole wheat wrap. and later that evening a ham and cheese on a spinach wrap. but then had mickey dees on the way home.
Today is sunday, I have been so good since friday, no cheating at all! This evening however, I will have ahouse ful and I am making lazagna! so I will probably go with that but I will not have nayway sweets after ward. In other words, just becuase the lazagna is not in myplan, I will not just say ah the hell with it lets do it up good!
Anywa, I have to go, I have to go shovel and hit the supermarket!
till tomorrow

renee

[Alysa]

Sending you hugs and good luck wishes for your patch system. Hope your DD is better soon!

[wiskband]

thanks very much alysa!

renee

[wiskband]

WOW havent been on in two days.
Dont have much time but here goes,
Yesterday< did great had egg bacon an cheese quesadilla.
for dinner had cx pizziolo with a LC wrap toasted with garlic.
I did mess up alittle last night during movei time here at home, I had a few rasinettes, just a few and late night had a mozz string chz.
today I did good as well, I had bk for lunch double whopper no cheese or ketchup no bread. and about 6 Orings. this evening, at work had a cx ceaser with mushrooms.
AND< I am eating a LC ice cream bar as I type this. I did not exercise, tomorrow, I plan to. till then
renee

[wiskband]

Hey all day 2 of starting over again and I feel good.
I ended up falling asleep early last night which is why I did not post.
I am also feeling a little under the weather. so yesterday I hit the Tm and did 2 miles straight @ 5 mph which took me 24 minutes then I walked the rest (8 minutes) Then I did about 40 crunches, I really do need to get more crunches in perhaps Ill do them before bed. I did not eat good yesterday, I mean not enough (for a change). I didnt eat till dinner time about 5 oclock, I had one hotdog on a hlaf LC wrap I did nto enjoy it at all so I used the other half of my wrap and had ham and cheese with mayo. I snacked on 2 slices of american cheese and one 1/4 of a LC chocolate bar. I drank lots of coffee (decaff) and drank 100 oz of water.
ANyway, its only 12 40 now, so Ill post tonight.
till then
renee

[wiskband]

HI all, it is now 8 20! wohooo I did good agian no cheating!
Bk had a LC atkins shake
Lunch more like a snack, some cheese and salami.
for dinner, I had a salad and tuna on a LC wrap.
This morning, I did 2 miles on the TM in 22 minutes then walked the last 8 and did 40 crunches. I am off to bed now but not before I do 40 more crunches.

anyway busy day tomorrow, got to hit the sheets, till then
renee

[wiskband]

Have no time to write BUT............ I have been good.
Wednesday, I ran 2 minles in 22 minutes walked 8 then did 40 crunches. I ate the following : for lunch, a ham and cheese on a LC wrap and for dinner a cz salad fillet mignon with spinach (won a contest at work).
Yesterday, thursday, I did not have a moment to get on my Tm but ate good. Had Bk for lunch a double whopper no ketchup, no bun and exactly 6 O rings ( I live them so I splurged). For dinner I had a ham and cheese on LC wrap and as a snack, 2 slices of salami a 1/4 LC chocolate.
It is not friday, about 3 oclock. I have not yet eaten, I have been so busy on the phone ( dads house issues ) but even though tom came today and I really was so close to not getting on TM I did. I walked it though 22 minutes at 3.5 mph. I won another contest at work, do I plan on having a steak and spinacah again this eveening, I am trying to get something in now before I leav probably a LC shake.
till tonight,
renee

[sarahsmom73]

:wave: Wiskband!

[wiskband]

HI sarah!




Yesterday I continued to follow plan. I got to work, I was so busy, had no time to eat, however I did pick at about 3 fried calamaries. Not too bad when I was done for the night, I had a ny sirlion with spinach............ it seems I have gotten past my sweet tooth.
anyway, I have to go Ill post tonight.
renee
OP for6 days

[sarahsmom73]

Great Job staying OP! :cool1:

[wiskband]

thanks again sarah.
I had another great day yesterday! I took the kids out to lunch BK and had a double whopper no ketchup no bread and again exactly 6 Orings. I then went to work, and at the end of the night, I had a cx ceasar salad. I did pick last night during work. I had a bout 6 clams , they did have alittle breading on then, I tried to take most of it off. I also had a stuffed mushroom. Besides that I was good. I also had planned monday on having some LC ice cream saturday night but I got home and didnt even feel like having it, I was looking forward to that all week too! Anyway I will post again tonight. but, so far today so good. Today is my LC bagel day! now this, I wont pass up.

till then
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Happy Monday Renee!!! :cool1:

[wiskband]

Hi again sarah. thanks for stopping by!

Sp past two days have been good. yesterday (sunday) was my LC bagel day! I had that about noon time and then ate again after work about 9. Chicken rina....chicken stuffed with asparagus and gorgonzolla chz. when I got home I rented a movie and then had some popcorn and rasinettes. Not good I know but once in a while is ok, I guess. anyway today I had a busy day,We began construction on theoutside of our house. Windows to be more specific. Anyway I didnt get to eat until about 5, I had the other half on my Cx rina and a salad. this evening howver I had yet some more rasinettes. I wen to the movies with a friend and brought some sunflower seeds so I skipped the popcorn but couldnt resist the rainsettes. We saw be cool....it was horrible! Anyway, its late got to hit the sheets.
till tomorrow where I will report some sort of exercise.
renee

[wiskband]

wow! had a bad binging day yesterday! Big time,
I did fine till about 1 oclock then I hit the cookies and not just one! had a pack ofwafers then 3 chocolate chip.
I then had dinner and just went with the cheating thing! I had bread and mashed potatoes. after dinner I had yet some more cookies and finally a bowl of cereal. ok ok so thats inthe past and now I am working on today., I am home today so I will definitely hit the TM probably will double up and do 4 miles to try and make up for the damage I cause yesterday!
Till tonight.
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Burn those cookies away! :cool1:

[wiskband]

today is monday.............I have been a bad bad girl! O my too much crap food to list....... finally closed on my dads house today! thank goodness......... got to think positive now.,......... make better food choices..... anyway, cant write more now lots to do! till tomorrow.
renee

[sarahsmom73]

A new day is a new start! Go for it! :cool1:

[wiskband]

thansks so much sarah glad to know you are looking out for me!
I have just had a few hectic days this past week. I am off of work till friday so its nice to be home and be able to catch up with things.
I have just been thinking that perhaps the LC is nmot working for me anymore. I think I may look into WW, I have the books here think I am gonna give that a try! I really need to do some portion control! big time. of course, I gottan to get my exercise in as well. I plan on getting on the TM this evening before bed. Its to late now and baby will beup before I finish. SO till tonight.
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Try to take some chill out time for yourself if you can! :grouphug:

[wiskband]

So yesterday was a disaster! I eat some lazagna with garlic bread and then a small piece of cake, that was it for the day! I attempted the TM but could not find the key!!!!!!!!!! I still havent found it! I am actually ready to do it and I cant! Today I ate once again also, I met a friend for lunch at BK had a D whopper no bread or ketchup and a few O rings. At brownies, I had a few G scouts cookies and just now had the cheese of a slice of pizza. Not great but I havent over done it! Anyway, off the clean my room and hopefully find this key!
Till tomorrow.
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Hang in there!! You can do it! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

PAst two days have been good. I managed to stay ON plan thank goodness, however, I have not yet gotten on the TM.
Although, I cant find the key, to be honest, I havent looked for it! OUCH! the truth hurts. lol.
Today is saturday, I am feeling good today, Although the scale doesnt agree, I feel good and strange as it may sound, feeling a light again. My pants are very snug on me but, I got them hanging over my bedroom door as a remiender that I would like to wear them by next friday!
That has become my mini goal for the week! stay tuned....
to see if they fit! lol
till tonight.
renee

[wiskband]

its now late saturday night! I havd a great day, for BK I had LC toast with bacon and eggs............ havent had that in a while. I was so busy today then had to work so I didnt get to eat till late this evening, at work, I had a cheese burger no bread and a salad. drank lots of water and coffee. no tM but I really had no time for it.

till tomorrow.got to watch SNL now.
renee

[wiskband]

Its now sunday night. I did alright today, I did stray off plan a little but I didnt over do it like i normally do on days like this. This morning I had bacon and eggs with LC bread, When I got to work, I had a CX ceasar salad. after my shift, I had a dish we serve at my job .......shrimp and scallop fetucine with out the fett. so just the shrimp and scallops in a cream sauce. Durin the night, I had a piece of italian bread and this evening while watching a movie, I had some rasinettes. So as I said, I did stray but my usual pattern when I cheat is to wayyyyyy over do it. I left half a bag of rasinettes adn stopped at just the one piece of bread, Feeling good and my clothes is starting to fit me better. I am very tired however, SO I will write again tomorrow.
till then
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Hih renee! Happy Monday! :sunny:

I think hanging your pants where you can see them is a great motivational idea!You can do this! We are all cheering you on! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

My goodness, I am feeling so foolish this evening.............
I ate so horribly today, I cant even keep track of all the sweets I have had in one day! I have this horrible bonging disease! My goodnees, once I eat something bad I just go all out all day! It began this morning whle out with dad.he wanted an egg Mc muffin, I said lets go thru the drive though bbut he insisted on going in! I just couldnt resist sitting there and not eating anything and it just spiralled out of control under this evening. I have intruded on the sealed easter candy bag that has been in my closet for about 2 weeks! hlaf is gone! I keep procastinating this saying Ill mkae it up "starting tomorrow". I am beginning to think it will just never happen. anyway, I think perhaps, Ill post a thread and maybe get some insight, I think perhpas I need something to click!
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Been there.. Done that! Don't beat yourself up! Pick yourself up! :cheer2: come on! You can do it! :cheer2:

[wiskband]

oing good doing good.! I got back on the Tm today not for long but a start. its been about 10 days....found the key and got back on I only walked a mile....... Food wise doing good as well..........I have my very important breat exam appointment this evening, my min dis preoccupied with that!
Anyway, Ill write later. till then
renee

[sarahsmom73]

Renee! I hope you have a wonderful Easter and a great weekend! :sunny:

[wiskband]

its early saturday morning, I got to run but wanted to check in and write that I have been OP! Have not cheating in a few days, My only goal today, is to get ont hat TM. till later
renee

[plutosmyfav]

Way to Go!!!!!!!

Your doing fantastic!!! :cheer2:

Sunny

[sarahsmom73]

Keep it up! :cheer2:

[sarahsmom73]

Just checking in on you! Hope you have a great day!!! :flower:

[wiskband]

HI! wow its been a few days or rather a week or so. I have not been on line having internet issues but I am back and doing good. this past week has been good I did have a few slip ups.........but more good days than bad. I have been hitting the treadmill.......... anyway today so far, I havent yet eaten, I plan on eating when I get home from D softball practice........... till then I will write tonight.




Sarah thanks for keeping up on me. I will be sure to post!

renee

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Renee,

Glad to see you back and reporting great progress! More good days than bad days is pretty much my plan! I've long given up on all good days :rotfl:

Sunny

[wiskband]

Well today was an OKAY day! I did only eat one meal and had a few snacks inbetween.
I ate about 4 mini chocalate cookies and had two munchkins with my coffee.......... Oh! yea and about 6 doritos chips. BUt, I didnt over do it. I ate a ham and cheese quesadilla for dinner. best of all, I hit the TM I did one of the programs it comes equiped with so there was up to an 8 in incline. It was a nice workout. Tomorrow, I will do the same. It lasts about 20 mintes and does a little over a mile but it was quick and I didnt get bored. I drank lots of water today and had only one cup of coffee. This evening however ( right about now) I am looking to snack. Gonna have to brush my teeth and call it a night.
till tmorrow
renee

[wiskband]

Hi again............ today was another just OKAY day! the snacks got to me again. I had breakfast this morning which I will try and do from now now one egg bacon and one slice of LC toast. this after noon I had a quater of a ring ding and this eving had another quater.......... so according to my calculations, thats makes HALF a ring ding. anyway for dinner I had two LC wraps with tomatoe sauce and mozz cheese. and then once agian this evening watching the met game, I had about 4 mini cookies. I have had to stop myself from going all out bingning. I did hit the TM again did the program the Tm provides boy that up hill incline is not easy! Tomorrow, I plan on trying out another one a bit harder and longer. I go back to work tomorrow so eating will be easier. lots of salads at work etc.
till then
renee

[wiskband]

O my! its been like 20 days since I have been on. I really need to commit again.........
Catching u, I was doing good before I left for vaca. I decided a while back not to weight myself anymore just use my clothes as measuring tools......... so as far as weight! hmmmmmmm not sure of the numbers. But I was (past tense) fitting comfortably into all my clothes and then I went to FL............ I use this (vaca) and other functions as a toll to cheta and be bad and thats exactly what I did! I ate whatever I wanted for about 8 days and boy did I pay for it. I got back sunday and went back to work yesterday ( tuesday ) and my clothes did not fit! I was so uncomfortable at work I got depressed! I turned that into a positive thing and got back on my treadmill.
I think perhaps, I have finally realized that must work and this. I am going to exercise everyday and I am gonna have to compromise my food intake. What I mean is that instead of trying to be so strict I will allow myself treats, once in a while! see the thing is that because I am so strict (o r at least try to be) once I cheat, I go all out! and way over do it! thsi is it now this is gonna be my life........
there is no getting to goal and then eating whatever I want.
I got it now.


renee

[wiskband]

ANOTHER good day! yippppeee..........
I had Bk for lunch double whopper no bread ketchup etc. and had some onion rings! I knwo carbs but cant resist them!............
came home got on my treadmill did my 30 minutes with incline. this evening, I went to work then afte my shift had a CX ceasar salad. got home and had 4 very small cookies.
drank about 6 cups of decaf and 74 oz of water.............

till tomorrow.
renee

[wiskband]

today was day 3 of staying OP. I had no time at all to get on my TM however. this afternoon I was yet again stuck in a fast food situation. I had two DB chz burgers no bread or ketchup and some fries today. Today is andrews b day so I had a half of a piece of cake. This evening at work, I had cx pizziolo and a salad. I just ogt hoem and had 3 small famous amos cookies. I drank 50 oz of water and some coffee. I feel like I am getting back inthe groove of things but must commit more to the exercise.
till tomorrow.
renee

[wiskband]

Im back! I m back! Havent forgotten about my journal....I have been so busy working this weekend! this weekend, I did alright, didnt get to exercise but eat fine..... I went a little off plan saturday but was back on track on sunday!
Its now late monday night, I did fine today and got back on my TM............. got to go for now till tomorrow.
renee

[wiskband]

Another great day here! I ate good and got on my TM......

its late once again but Ill post tomorrow.
renee

[wiskband]

UGGGGGGGGGGHhhhhhhhh I screwed up today!
I ate bad did no exercise!
till tomorrow
renee

[wiskband]

Hmmmmmmm not sure where my food intake in headed to, I have been feeling more and more that I sould stop doing LC and start something new! Which is why I had a bagle today actually, A bagel and a half!
hat was my dinner, this morning I got sucked into Mc donalds for BK, my dad loves it and insists we sit on Md and eat........otherwise, I would hit the drive thru and not order. But anyway I did double up on my exercise. I hot to M twice both times, 30 minutes, I am really trying to finish this may challenge...........well we/ll see, I go back to work tomorrow and those are my off days.
anyway, till then
renee

[wiskband]

didnt have a chance to post yesterday! I ate way off plan and lots of carbs but I think I am trying to steer away from a LC life. Anyway today is saturday, I plan to hit the TM today. and post tonight hopefully, if I dont get in to late.
till then
renee

[wiskband]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH work!
I never have time to journal or exercise on work days!
Have not been on my TM since friday and had 3 chocolate shakes this weekend!
ANyway my goal for the week, is to get in 6 TM times this week.! and of course to eat good no cheating!
anyway got to go till tomorrow.
renee