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08-26-2003, 03:11 PM
Hi All! I'm new to the WISH board but I'm up for the challenge!

I'm 39, with a hubby, 2 kids (DS 15 and DD 14), a mini dachshund, a house and a full time job.

Three years ago I lost 20 lbs by following Atkins and other low-carb plans. I did a great job of keeping most of it off until this past spring. I was diagnosed with depression and have been taking medication. Unfortunately, when I'm depressed, I don't make very good choices with food. Now I've gained back 10 of those 20 lbs.

So, I'm here to lose those 10 lbs again, help relieve my depression by eating right and exercising, and boost my self-confidence. I know this won't be easy, but few things in life worth doing are easy.

I wanted to start a journal so that I could record my ups and downs on my depression, weight loss and exercise goals. I don't mind having others read and post here, but I'll primarily be writing for me and trying to be brutally honest.

When others ask "how are you?" I tend to put on my happy face and act as if my life is just fine, even when I don't feel that way inside. Most people in my life say they would never guess I'm depressed, but that act takes so much energy to maintain! It's gotten to the point where I think I'm not honest even with myself about how I feel.

So, today is day 1! Breakfast was 2 sticks string cheese and macadamia nuts. Lunch was a salad with lots of ham & cheese on top for protein. I'm not sure what we'll have for dinner, but I'll make sure I eat low-carb. I've had LOTS of water so far today.

I want to get a pedometer and do the 10,000 steps program. You have the pedometer on all day and let it count all your steps and you try to get 10,000 steps each day. I have to get the pedometer SOON because I really feel like I need more exercise.

Enough for now!

08-26-2003, 07:51 PM
:bounce: WELCOME TO WISH :bounce:




08-27-2003, 08:20 AM
Welcome, Doreen, and best wishes on your new healthy lifestyle!
You're sure to find lots of support and fun on these boards. We're all in it together! Have a great day. . .

08-27-2003, 08:52 AM
Feebee & Lulu - thanks for your words of encouragement!! It truly does help me feel not so alone and I'm sure we can meet our goals if we just keep supporting each other.

Last evening's dinner was a chicken breast, followed by 3/4 cup of ice cream. OK, so the ice cream wasn't exactly low carb, but it only had 30 g carbs and I ate it right after the chicken, which should have helped to prevent an insulin spike. OK, do I truly believe this is OK or am I just making excuses for bad behavior? I'm not sure, to be honest.

All in all, yesterday's total carb count was about 45 grams, so I did pretty good. I'm not doing Atkins induction level so 45 grams is probably acceptable. I'll have to see how the scale reacts to know if it's an OK carb level for me to still lose weight.

I drank lots of water yesterday. I did not get any exercise but I did run to KMart to get a pedometer. They only had one type and it didn't count steps so I'm still looking. If I was smart, I'd just order one over the web from Amazon instead of waiting until I get to a store that sells them.

I took my meds yesterday but not my multivitamin.

This morning I woke up extra tired. I have some critical meetings at work today and tomorrow. I guess I don't feel totally prepared for them. Feeling overly tired is sometimes caused by my body wanting to avoid stressful situations and shut down rather than face life - that's one way my depression shows. However, I have dragged myself to work and will get through today's meetings and prep for tomorrow's meeting (which I have to run).

Breakfast was the usual - 2 cheese sticks and some macadamia nuts. It doesn't sound like much but it's really filling. I took my meds this morning too. Lunch will be a salad with ham & cheese again. Dinner is a ham that is cooking in my crockpot as we speak - I'm patting myself on the back for getting the crockpot started this morning so that my evening will be simpler!!

08-27-2003, 08:52 AM
I'm obviously hitting the wrong keys this morning!

08-27-2003, 08:53 AM
OOPS - double post, sorry!

08-27-2003, 10:56 AM
Good luck and I'm here watching and rooting for you!!! You've done it before, so you probably have some idea what level of carbs you can have and still lose!

Be careful of all the ham...those salty products tend to cause you to retain water, which will keep the scale from moving as quickly as you might like!

Welcome to WISH and I hope you have a great day today!!!

Karen :smooth:

08-27-2003, 01:10 PM
Karen, thanks for the encouragement and also for the reminder about how salty ham is. I just wasn't thinking about that!

I had a taco salad for lunch. The problem is.....it was served in a BREAD BOWL!!! I can't believe the bread bowl actually looked GOOD to me. I practically wolfed down the salad as fast as possible and almost RAN to the trash can with the bread bowl before I could change my mind.....LOL!!!

Note to self: don't put yourself through this again. I'm sure I could have requested another type of container. The good news is - I had a chance to cheat, and I walked away from it. It will get easier as the days go by and I stop craving carby stuff.

The meetings I was so stressed about today are over and went well. I will spend this afternoon prepping for tomorrow's meeting so I can wake up and face the day feeling good, instead of wanting to hide under the covers.

08-27-2003, 02:46 PM
Great job with the bread bowl!!! I can picture you running to the trash can...I can see myself doing the same thing! :)

I feel good about rolls now, I am now pretty able to take whatever I'm eating out of them and chuck the roll. I don't like wasting food though...but sometimes it's not practical to ask for no bun. (Mc'D's) I do get a little angry when the bun hijacks my cheese, however! (someone stole my cheese!!! :) )

I ordered a double cheeseburger at Dixie landings (POR) the other night and asked for no bun...well since there was no bun, they kept giving away cheeseburgers to others until I finally reminded them of mine! :mad:

I'm glad to hear your meetings went well, I know nobody starting out on a new way of eating needs any added stress!!! :eek:

Keep up the good work!

Karen :smooth:

08-28-2003, 06:43 AM
Good morning, Doreen! YOU GO, GIRL!!!:Pinkbounc Throwing away the bread bowl is major! Geez, only those of us who have had to mentally and physically do battle with food would get that, huh? At one of my WW meetings several years ago--I think it was Attempt to Lose the Weight #678:rolleyes: --a woman told of being at McDonalds and pouring some of her soda on the french fries she didn't want to eat so she wouldn't be tempted.
How can a string potato (or bread bowl or candy bar or . . .)have the amazing power over us that it does???:confused:

Anyway, you're doing great this week, and with all that's going on at work you're still hanging in there. That's where I have the problem--when work gets hectic, the food starts going in!

I'll be in Wellsboro for a few days (are you familiar with this little town in upstate PA) visiting my mom, but you'll be in my thoughts as you persevere. Take care--I'll check in with you next week.

08-28-2003, 12:38 PM
Karen and Lulu - thanks again for your encouraging words! Now that I know people are reading this, I am more committed than ever to making good food choices and not giving into temptations! If I succeed, much of the credit will go to you and others on this board who are holding me accountable - thank you!

That bread bowl yesterday was EVIL! I heard it talking to me, telling me how just one little bite wouldn't hurt....very scary!

Dinner last night was lots of ham - it was delish!! I also had 4 small bites (about 1/3) of a biscuit. My son made them himself - a few carbs was a small sacrifice to see the smile on his face when I told him how good they were. However, when the rest of the family had ice cream later, I did not. I was actually really full from the ham, so I didn't feel too deprived.

I finally found my tape measure so here are the stats I'll be working to lower!
Bust 39.5
Chest 33.5
Waist 34
Hips 40
Thighs 41
My scale was back up a pound to 142 this AM - where I started on Tuesday, but I'm guessing Karen was onto something when she reminded me about how salty ham is. It is probably fluid retention and nothing more. I'm not going to stress about the scale each day as long as the long term is a downward trend.

Breakfast was the usual - string cheese and macadamias. I took my meds too! Lunch was a salad with ham & cheese on for protein. Afternoon snack will be some cashews. I'm not sure about dinner tonight. It's always dangerous when I leave dinner planning til the last minute. I'll have to make more of an effort to get stuff in the crock-pot or thawed out. I used to cook a lot on the weekends and then freeze it so we had stuff to just thaw and heat during the week - hmmm another good idea to get back to.

My big meeting is over and it went well. I'm feeling really good at the moment - not in the clutches of the depression monster for a change. Could it be all this healthy eating??

08-28-2003, 09:59 PM
Welcome Doreen

You're doing pretty good considering those stressful meetings:D

You know you can do it and we're here for you! Did you find the pedometer?

I have a better week/day when I plan each meal and keep prepared items in the fridge. Get some sf jello & whipped cream to have when the family has icecream, just a thought.

08-29-2003, 11:33 AM
Meme, I finally got so frustrated about waiting to find the pedometer and wanting to get started.....that I finally just ordered it from Amazon yesterday! As a treat for being good for my first couple days, I also ordered some of the WATP DVDs. So many people here use them that I thought it would be great to try them.

Of course, after treating myself I fell off the wagon last night...LOL! Hubby and I went out to dinner and I had chicken quesadillas, which are ok for me except for the flour tortilla part. Then I....gasp....went ahead and ate them! I also took a few sips of hubby's drink (a Hurricane). I'm guessing I ate about 70 extra grams of carbs that I really didn't need. In my old carby days that would have been nothing but now, it's a lot.

Anyway, I'm back on track this morning. It's a new day and a new beginning. I'm trying really hard to not beat myself up over my cheat.

I keep having these angel - devil conversations in my head, you know like the angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other.
"You really blew it and you did it WILLINGLY - you'll never succeed!" "You didn't really blow it that much and you're back on track this morning so why worry about it?" I'm finding this more stressful than the actual cheat! Why can't I just let it go and move on?

The scale stayed the same this morning, so I'm happy that I didn't gain.

I had a string cheese for breakfast. Lunch will be leftover ham. I have some cashews for snack this afternoon. I didn't plan for dinner tonight but I WILL have a gameplan before I leave work!

I'm taking next Tuesday and Wednesday off. I'm hoping to plan some cooking sessions so that I can stock the freezer with things that will help me out of this predicament. I hope to make 6 low-carb cheesecakes and freeze them - I LOVE having this for breakfast! I also hope to do 6 low-carb meat loaves, 5 or 10 pounds of cooked taco meat (chicken or beef), etc. so even on those days when I don't plan for dinner, there will something appropriate in the freezer. Also hubby is picking up some Atkins bars today so if I really get into a jam, I can have one of those.

Tomorrow we're heading to a Penn State football party at my parents' house. I think I'll pick up some of that SF jello and take some other healthy snacks for me. I can do this!!

08-29-2003, 11:54 AM
Great you are back on track, try to keep track of cheat free days, this has helped me I'm up to 8, can't believe it myself:p

I love how you're preparing all those meals, maybe I should plan a cook session too. Are those recipes on the atkins site?

Downward we go:Pinkbounc

08-30-2003, 09:07 AM
MeMe, thanks for the encouragement! The recipes I use are not from any website - just from low-carb experience. If I get a chance, maybe I'll post them to the low-carb recipes list on the WISH board.

Well, it's Saturday and the start of a long weekend! I'm hoping to get things caught up at home and on the food front (making stuff to have in the freezer) over the next 5 days.

I ate a Wendy's mandarin chicken salad last night - had to eat fast to get to the football game. I have 2 kids in the marching band and last night was the first show. They looked so adorable in their uniforms - hardly babies anymore! I threw away the noodles that came with the salad and put on extra almonds but I'm sure the mandarin orange slices were carbier than I needed. I'll have to check Fitday to see if I need to take them out in the future. Knowledge is power!!

Haven't eaten yet this morning but the scale says I've lost 2 pounds. I'm sure it's water weight, but I'll take it! I think my "official" weigh-in and measure day will be Sunday, so we'll see how I'm doing tomorrow.

I'm feeling better and more in control of my life. The depression monster has been kept at bay for the past few days - a wonderful feeling!! Maybe this eating healthy stuff is helping! Just imagine when I add in the exercise!!

Onward and downward!

08-31-2003, 08:51 PM
I've decided that Sunday will be my official weigh & measure day so here are the stats.

Weight: 139 - started at 142 -3 pounds
Bust: 39 - started at 39.5 -.5 inch
Chest: 33.5 - started at 33.5 - no change
Waist: 33.5 - started at 34 -.5 inch
Hips: 38.5 - started at 40 -1.5 inch
Thighs: 40.5 - started at 41 -.5 inch

In addition, my moods have been better. My depression feels like it's lifting. I can only hope that eating low carb will keep my moods elevated for the long term.

I am thrilled with my progress. I know that this is mostly water weight but I'm happy it's gone. Now the real work begins.

I've done fine the past 2 days. I won't list all my food, but I've made wise choices. I've had some carbs but always a small amount of carbs after having a good amount of protein to slow their absorption. I have not done any binging. I've definitely been in control.

I hope to start exercising this week. I don't have a definite plan yet but will work on that.

All in all, I'm very happy with me!!

09-01-2003, 07:26 AM
Good for you, the inches are coming off:Pinkbounc

Start exercising this week and you'll see miracles. Stay with the good choices and have a great Labor Day!

09-02-2003, 03:07 PM
You are doing terrific Doreen! I noticed from a previous post that we live VERY close to each other. I did a search and seen you list your town in an old post. I'd rather not post the town I live in here on the boards but if you email me I'll fill you in! Excersize has been a downfall for me too. Maybe we could 'meet' for some walks every once in awhile to get both of us motivated.
It looks like we even have kids close in age. My son is 14. I also have a daughter who is 20.

09-02-2003, 08:03 PM
Gosh, Doreen, it sounds like you're doing great! Keep up the good work. Exercise is a great mood lifter for me. . .let me know how you feel after you work out a few times this week.

Onward and Downward!:Pinkbounc :bounce: :Pinkbounc
(three bounces to celebrate your three pound loss!)

09-03-2003, 01:29 PM
The bad news is....that I fell off the low-carb wagon yesterday.

The good news is....that I learned a LOT!!

I felt so good after doing low-carb for a week. My depression was MUCH better, I had lots of energy and I was down 3 lbs. Well, after yesterday's carb-fest I felt AWFUL! I was so tired that I only wanted to sleep. My face has a zit forming. I am bloated and the scale says I've gained a lb since yesterday (I'm sure it's water weight). I feel like I have a hangover!

I am back on the wagon again today. I've eaten an Atkins bar for breakfast, taken my meds and am drinking lots of water. I went to the store this AM and stocked up on low-carb groceries. I've boiled 5 lbs of hamburger and 5 lbs of chicken breasts and put them in packets in the freezer. I got the ingredients to make low-carb cheesecake and that is next on the list. I like it for breakfast - I'm not a big egg eater!

I will be prepared with good healthy food from now on. If eating carbs does such terrible things to my body....and apparently it does...then I have to stay on the ball and give my body food that makes it feel good.

I do not feel bad at all about my slip up yesterday. It has been an eye-opening experience. I know exactly how to get back on track and how to keep it from happening again.

I have not gotten to exercise yet. I am looking forward to wearing my new pedometer all day to see how much walking I do in a normal day. Then I will slowly add in more walking, like at lunch-time when I'm working, etc.

So, onward and downward!

09-04-2003, 07:35 AM
My gosh, Doreen, you're doing so well! Your comments are so helpful for me this morning. . .I'm feeling down about a lot of things--seeing my DD back in school, work problems, my lack of will power after another bad day yesterday--and your words are making me think maybe my high carb eating of late is adding to my misery! I'm determined to eat better today and see if that helps my stress level!

Where did you get your pedometer?

09-04-2003, 09:09 AM
Lulu, I ordered my pedometer from Amazon.com since I just couldn't seem to get to a store that had one. It has shipped and should be here by early next week.

I made so much food yesterday and have most of it frozen. I should have plenty of low-carb stuff available in a pinch! I ate low-carb cheesecake for breakfast this morning - YUM! I always feel like I'm treating myself when I eat it. I don't remember how many carbs it has - I'll have to recalculate the fats, proteins and carbs for that recipe.

I am feeling better this morning. The scale is still unhappy with me but that will come along in its own good time, as long as I eat properly. I'm back at work (after taking Tues. & Wed. off) and have found it to be stressful. However, I will try to break all these big assignments down into little tasks and tackle them one by one. I can do this!! At least I'm trying to convince myself of that...LOL!!

Livin' la vida lo-carb!!

09-04-2003, 11:01 AM
I figured out my cheesecake using fitday. I wanted to post it here so I don't forget it.

1/6 of a cheesecake = 1 serving
462 calories
fat = 44 g = 77% of calories from fat
carbs = 7 total - 2 fiber = 5 digestable carbs = 4% of calories
protein = 25 g = 20% of calories from protein

From my prior low-carb days, I find I do best when my day's calories are in a ratio of 70% fat, 20% protein and 10% carbs. I know everyone is thinking this is SO unhealthy, but I did it under my doctor's supervision (although not with his blessing...LOL). He did blood tests after a year and my cholesterol, triglycerides, etc were easily in the normal range. He said to keep doing what I was doing as it obviously agreed with me and I lost the weight I wanted to lose and maintained the loss for a couple years.

Therefore, for me, this cheesecake seems like a near perfect food. A piece that is 1/6th of the cake seems to really fill me up for hours and I feel like I'm treating myself! In my cooking frenzy yesterday, I made 4 of these cheesecakes with 1 in the fridge and 3 more in the freezer, so I'm set!!

09-04-2003, 01:23 PM
You go Doreen, back on track:D The cheesecake sounds so delicious, I'll be right over:p

Keep it up to go down - you can do it!

09-04-2003, 02:49 PM

The Peanut M&Ms in the vending machine are CALLING me! I swear I can hear them!

However, I will stay strong. I ate 2 string cheeses and my emergency Atkins bar. I'm still thinking about the bad stuff, but I figure if I post here, then I'll be accountable if I decide to give in.

I know if I don't stay away from the yucky refined carbs, my cravings will just continue. If I can hold out for a few days, those cravings SHOULD be gone forever! I REALLY don't want to start over trying to rid my body of those cravings!!

I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it! I can make it!

Okay, I'm stalling for time and trying to occupy myself - I admit it!

I'll check in before I leave work today and hopefully I will not give in!

3:45 PM UPDATE: I'm soon leaving work. I have NOT given in. I have been drinking a TON of water. The real trick will be when I get home, but I have some low-carb yummies to help, like egg custard or fresh strawberries & real whipped cream, in the fridge and ready to eat. I'm gonna make it!!

7:30 PM UPDATE: I'm home and not sure what's for dinner. It's OK though - the worst of the cravings are over and I didn't give in! It's nice to know I can just wait it out and the cravings will eventually go away.

09-05-2003, 06:33 AM
I've figured out what triggered my cravings yesterday - WORK! I do not like the job I'm doing now and don't feel very confident or competent while at work. Yesterday I was really floundering. I could not focus and was not getting anything done, while watching my deadlines move closer and closer. This all made me feel anxious and I wanted to do anything BUT work. This seems to be when I crave nasty stuff. I felt better once I left work.

So today I have to find a way to make it better at work. When I feel on top of things, the time at work flies and I don't even think about food. Emotional triggers are so hard!!!

I did behave yesterday. In fact it was my first CHEAT FREE DAY!! I'm just about ready to leave for work today and I have my food all packed to take along. I want to make it 2 days cheat free!

9:15 AM UPDATE: I've been at work for 1.5 hours. I have prioritized my different projects. Then I took the first project and broke it down into 10 minute tasks. I know I can spend 10 minutes in each area without feeling overwhelmed. I won't be finished in 10 minutes but I can make progress. Baby steps are fine!!

I ate a slice of low-carb cheesecake for breakfast and feel full. I'm drinking lots of water and will take my meds right now before I forget. I can do this! I want to leave work today feeling like I've accomplished the work I could do and also eating the food I should be eating - NO CHEATS FOR ME!!

09-05-2003, 11:12 AM
Doreen, your hugs yesterday helped so much, so here's some from me {{{{{{{{{you}}}}}}}}}}. You must feel so proud that you made it through a tough day cheat free, and it sounds like you have an awesome strategy for today! Don't forget, Sunday and weigh-in are coming--I have a feeling your going to see some positive results for your efforts. And if you don't. . .well, at least you'll know that you're doing all that you can do.

Your emotional-eater pal:(

09-06-2003, 06:48 AM
Lulu, thanks so much for the encouragement - it really does help! Yes, the emotional eating thing is hard to combat, but it isn't as hard when I can identify that the cravings are emotionally driven. Then I can work on why I'm feeling bad emotionally and fixing THAT problem instead of pigging out and then STILL having the emotional problem AND the guilt of pigging out.

I was good yesterday - cheesecake for breakfast, egg custard and some cashews for lunch, cheeseburger & a little of a baked sweet potato for dinner. No cheats for me - made it through day 2 and have updated my cheat free star clippie. Isn't it silly how a little clippie can motivate me????

The scale is back to 139 - yippee! That was my weigh-in weight last Sunday. If I'm good today, maybe just maybe it will go down one more pound for tomorrow <crossing fingers>. Even if I stay at 139, at least I've recovered from my cheating weight gain and I'm on track again.

I got a fair amount of work done at work yesterday so I was feeling better and not craving junk.

No exercise yet - am still waiting for my pedometer to be delivered - but I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I've been working really hard at changing my food habits and I'm happy just making one change at a time. All in good time!

09-06-2003, 08:45 AM
You go Doreen, on a run now and you got the cheat free clippie-wow! I couldn't find it but I've made it to day 16. Here's a wish for at least 1 lb to disappear:p

09-06-2003, 01:41 PM
Great job, Doreen!!! It sounds like you're doing well and have a great attitude!!!

I had to laugh...never in a million years would you expect to see the words, "I was good yesterday - cheesecake for breakfast..." on a dieting board!!! LOL Gotta love it!!!

Keep up the great work and have a wonderful weekend!

Karen :smooth:

09-07-2003, 08:57 AM
Karen, I never feel deprived when I can say I'm eating cheesecake on a regular basis...LOL!! I love low-carb!!

MeMe, your good wishes for my weigh-in this morning were answered! I'm at 138 - down a pound from last Sunday!!

Weight: 138 -1 lb from last week
Bust: 39
Chest: 33.5
Waist: 33 -.5 inch from last week
Hips: 39 +.5 inch from last week but -1 inch from start
Thighs: 40.5

Considering my antics this week, I'm happy that I've lost anything!! In addition, I have that lovely 3 day cheat free star clippie in my siggie!! I cannot believe the motivation and willpower that little clippie has given me! I have passed up some serious threats to my way of eating just because I knew I'd have to take down my star clippie & start over...LOL!!

I'm feeling good. My moods and depression symptoms are so much better when I eat low-carb - it really is amazing. It's getting easier to pass on the carby stuff that will make me feel bad again.

Now I'm off to put a lovely roast into the crockpot so I can eat a healthy dinner and have leftovers to take to work this week.

09-07-2003, 09:48 PM
You go girl:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Great job I'm so happy for you. Keep it up to go down!!!

Where do I get the cheat free clippie? I get lost trying to find it, please help.

09-08-2003, 07:54 AM
Hi, Doreen. Welcome to Monday! Here's a bounce for that one pound you're missing!:Pinkbounc Congratulations!

I'm going to get myself one of those cheat free clippies (if I can find the darn thing) tomorrow--I want to be cheat free until our cruise.

Did you have your cheesecake for breakfast? That's my baking project for next weekend. Do you use the recipe in the WISH low carb file? Do you have to use a spring form pan? I hope so, because it'll show DH that I do, indeed, use it!

You're doing a marvelous job, Doreen. Keep it up!

Lean and Mean by Halloween!


09-08-2003, 12:23 PM
It's Monday!! I must admit that my motivation to come to work was NOT GOOD this morning. I am really not liking my job at the moment, but it pays so well and the benefits & pension are great and I only have 8.5 more years until I can retire with my medical insurance paid for life for hubby and I..... I really must resolve to have a more positive attitude about this job if I'm not willing to change it! All this griping is not productive!!

The scale was still at 138 today - no change from official weigh-in yesterday, which is fine. I FEEL thinner though??

I did not eat healthy yesterday, even though I stayed low-carb and didn't cheat. I slept in and ate a piece of my low-carb cheesecake around 11:30 AM. Then around 7:30 PM I had an Atkins Advantage bar. That's all I ate yesterday! Food just did not look appealing. Unfortunately, I only took in about 700 calories for the whole day. I did drink my water though!

I have more food with me at work today and I tend to eat more at work anyway. I had cheesecake for breakfast and some cashews around 11 AM. I have a 3 oz can of tuna for afternoon snack and an Atkins bar if I get desparate. Dinner tonight will be chicken.

After reading this, I notice that I have not been getting my veggies in. Now, I admit that I HATE veggies, but they are an integral part of eating healthy so I MUST make more of an effort! Maybe I'll have a small salad at lunch in addition to my small can of tuna.

All in all, life is good! I've been at this about 2 weeks and I'm seeing results and feeling better, so I must be doing something right!

09-09-2003, 11:54 AM
Doreen, you ARE doing something right. . .actually MANY things right!!! Your outlook is so positive and the support you give to all of us is so helpful. You're a first class sweetie!:)

Yep, you need to eat better. Hope you ate what you said you were going to yesterday. Aren't Mondays hard sometimes? It can be tough going back to work, especially after that gorgeous weekend that we had, but you did it, and you're one day closer to retirement and those fantastic benefits (you lucky girl! I love being self-employed, but the perks aren't in the benefits, let me tell you!). Maybe looking for the job's one bright spot each day
will help? It sounds like you have a high-energy, deadline driven kind of environment; try to take a moment at a specific time this afternoon to just shut your eyes for a second, take a deep breath and regroup--give yourself a mental pat on the back for all you do there, Doreen!

Thanks for helping me with this clippie business. I'll try to check back in tonight to see if I can get it. And this weekend. . .cheesecake!

Smiles to you:)

09-09-2003, 01:08 PM
Lulu, you are so right!! There are bright spots to this job of mine but I've been so busy griping that I've been ignoring them. I like your idea of a minute or two to regroup and think about what's going RIGHT. Thanks!!

I did eat better yesterday - definitely got more calories in.
B - cheesecake
L - cashews
S - Atkins Advantage bar
D - Wendy's mandarin chicken salad (NO crispy noodles tho)

Today, I'm doing well so far
B - cashews (on my way to a meeting!)
L - 3 oz can tuna and some macadamias
S - cheesecake
D - I have a yummy roast in the crockpot cooking while I'm at work! Hmm, will have to find a veggie of some kind....

I'm so very proud of my 5 days cheat free clippie - I'm on a roll!

My pedometer should be delivered today - I can hardly wait!! I want to incorporate more movement into my days. Why, you ask? Because I WANT A 5 POUND CLIPPIE!!!! The scale is still at 138 and I only need one more pound to claim the coveted clippie. Hopefully by Sunday's weigh-in, I'll be there.

09-09-2003, 08:00 PM
Glad to see your eating better and that your feeling more positive.

Work can really stink sometimes but we have to do what we have to do and that retirement is closer each day:D

I know you'll get that clippie this week, I'm sending you a big WISH!

And now for me - where is that cheat free clippie???????I just found it thanks to your message, where was it hidden? I won't make the 100 days honestly, cause when I'm on our vaca I plan to have a few treats. But I promise to be cheat free till then and when I come home I promise to begin again.

09-10-2003, 05:52 AM
Oh MeMe - that cheat free clippie looks so good!!! If you want to know how to resize it or any other questions, just PM me! Even if you don't make it to 100, just look at the progress you've made! You're making healthy eating a part of your life! I'm up to 6 days cheat free - who would have guessed I could make it that long!!! That little clippie is so motivating for me! Also MeMe, thanks for your kind words of encouragement!

I am.....drumroll please.....down a pound this morning!! I won't claim my 5 lb clippie until official Sunday weigh-in because we all know that weight can fluctuate from day to day, but it was wonderful to see 137 on the scale this morning!!

Can you tell I'm excited today by all my exclamation points!!!

My pedometer came yesterday, along with some of the WATP DVDs. I have my pedometer clipped on and I just finished the 1 mile Get Up & Get Going WATP. I already have over 2900 steps in today and it isn't even 6 AM! I will have to calibrate the pedometer to make sure it's counting the right number of steps but it's great to know I've got a good start on the day.

I don't have food planned for today except for leftover roast beef from dinner last night and possibly an Atkins bar. I WILL be good though because I love my 6 day cheat free clippie.

Today will be a good day at work and I will stop and savor what's going well for me there (thanks Lulu!).

09-10-2003, 05:56 AM
One Pound Happy Dance!:Pinkbounc Good going, Doreen!
Keep us posted on how that pedometer works. . .I see one in my future!

It's cheat free for you and me!


09-10-2003, 07:50 AM
Oh, Doreen, did you happen to get my PM about the clippie? I have the picture that you sent, but no code. As you can see, I've messed up my whole signature and have no idea how to get it back! I doubt that you even got my PM; I was having so many online problems yesterday. If you have a minute and you can give me advice, I'd appreciate it.



09-10-2003, 08:49 PM
Love the pedometer idea, what watp dvds did you get? the 2 or 3 mile?

The cheat free clippie is amazing motivation, can't quite understand why but it sure works:rolleyes:

Keep it up and I know that 5 clippie will be yours.

09-11-2003, 06:15 AM
Good morning, Doreen. How many steps did you get in yesterday? I'm fascinated with your pedometer! I've heard that if you walk 10,000 steps a day you'll really be doing something wonderful for yourself (and those pounds will fall off)! Hope you're having fun with it.

Let me say thank you again for all your clippie help. I really was a woman obsessed with clipart yesterday! Your kindness helped so much!

I can't wait until you start wearing your new clippie! Looking forward to Sunday and seeing how it looks. Remember now, no donuts, chips, or tootsie rolls 'til then. Only healthy, taking-good-care-of-yourself eating!

Just wondering. . .do you, Doreen, or any the WISH gang out there, take vitamins? I'd be interested in knowing what you take.
I take a multivitamin, vitamin e, fish oil, calcium, and vit. C. I wasn't so sure in the beginning, but I think it makes a difference. What's your opinion?

Today's bound to be an emotional day with it being 9/11. Take care.


09-11-2003, 07:59 AM
Thanks MeMe and Lulu! I really appreciate you posting to my journal. When I find your notes, it really warms my heart and encourages me!

I was floored by my pedometer yesterday! I got 2000 steps during the WATP 1 mile walk in the morning. At the end of the day my pedometer said I walked about 10,300 steps!! I had no idea I walked that much - but since I drink so much water, most of it was probably between my desk, the water cooler and the bathroom at work....LOL!! I have it on again today and I've already done the WATP 1 mile this morning. I also checked it before and after my commute to work. The roads can be a bit bumpy and the pedometer registered 80 extra steps. All in all, I don't mind wearing it and it's fun to see my everyday activities translated into "how much did I move today." I think it's really going to help me.

I did OK with food yesterday, in spite of a queasy stomach.
B - 1 scrambled egg & 1 sausage patty
L - Atkins Advantage bar
S - 1.5 ozs cashews
D - nothing - the tummy was just not up to it

I know I didn't eat enough, but I didn't cheat, so I'll add another day to my cheat free star clippie. Now, when I look at the vending machine goodies, I think "is it worth giving up my 6 day cheat free star clippie for THAT?" I noticed all the star clippies aren't working this morning - maybe the host site is down.

I'm feeling great lately. The depression monster has been staying away. Of course, I'm still taking my anti-depressant and will for another 6 months, but I'd like to eventually lower the dose or get off it altogether. It seems like low-carb eating really helps and the exercise I'm adding will help even more. I'm getting more done at work and feeling better about it. My confidence is coming back. Improving my emotional state is the most important thing to me, but the weight loss is certainly a wonderful side effect!!

Lulu, I take a multivitamin every day (or at least on the days I remember ;) ).

Enough for now - I'm at work and I really should be working!

Edit: 12:30 PM
Weight: steady at 137
B - 4 slices bacon & Atkins Advantage bar
L - 1/4 lb hamburger, mayo, lettuce

My star clippie is working again - HOORAY!

Edit: 9:15 PM
D - chicken w/ peppers, onions, taco seasoning - YUM!
Pedometer: 12,300 steps - hubby & I just got back from a lovely walk.

09-12-2003, 07:38 AM
Wow, Doreen, you had another great day yesterday! Yippee!:Pinkbounc :bounce: :bounce: :Pinkbounc
You're taking such good care of yourself--way to go!

Oh, my gosh: 12,300 steps!
:eek: You're a walking MACHINE, Doreen! Congratulations! Keep telling us how you're doing, OK? Sounds like that half marathon could be in your future!

It also sounds like you're feeling a sense of light--that your days and moods are brighter and you're feeling like you again. I'm so glad. You're seem to be doing so many wonderful things for yourself and treating yourself in a kind and healthy way!

Well, you're moving onward and downward, Doreen. Stay on the path this weekend!


09-12-2003, 08:26 AM
IT'S FRIDAY!!! (and PAY DAY!!)

This has been a better week at work. I truly am starting to feel more like my old positive perky self again. I'm getting more done at work - not back up to my usual standards but certainly better than I've been doing for a LONG time. I am still taking Lulu's advice to stop every now and then to take a deep breath and focus on the good things about my job - it really is helping!!

The scale is steady at 137 - I'm hoping it stays there for Sunday so I can get my 5 lb clippie. I'm also excited about taking my measurements on Sunday - I just FEEL thinner.

I did not do WATP this morning, and that's OK. I have my pedometer on and I'll work in more walking all through my day. As long as I get my 10,000 steps, I feel like I've gotten my exercise for the day.

B - 1 Atkins Advantage bar & 4 pieces bacon

Edit: 1:15 PM
S - 1.5 oz cashews
L - leftovers from last night, chicken, green pepper, onion, taco seasoning

I walked 1.5 miles at lunch which added over 3000 steps to my pedometer - I'm almost at 6000 so far today.

I'm working on a project that is making me emotionally uncomfortable. It's big and I'm trying to break it into manageable pieces. Still, I just don't like the project and have been trying to avoid it. I can feel those emotional cravings starting up but I will not give in. The best cure is to finish this project, so I don't have these feelings of inadequacy in the first place. I will just have to put up with being uncomfortable for a little while - it doesn't have to trigger a binge!

Edit: 2:45 PM
I'm hanging in there but am still craving. I even went through the bottom of my purse, looking for enough change for the vending machine. Then I got a bit scared - I'm like a junkie who would scrounge for that last dime to buy drugs!! I WILL NOT STOOP THAT LOW! Fortunately, I don't have enough change. :confused:

Edit: 6:45 PM
I made it home without cheating. I'm still craving. I did have 2 pieces of Dove dark chocolate Promises - only 10 carbs though so I don't consider that a cheat. I'm still well within my daily carb limit. Don't know why I'm feeling so down....really no good reason. It's good there's no Ben & Jerry's in the house!!!

09-13-2003, 07:22 AM
Originally posted by DoeWDW
Edit: 6:45 PM
I made it home without cheating. I'm still craving. I did have 2 pieces of Dove dark chocolate Promises - only 10 carbs though so I don't consider that a cheat. I'm still well within my daily carb limit. Don't know why I'm feeling so down....really no good reason. It's good there's no Ben & Jerry's in the house!!!

Good for you for not cheating, that's not easy to do! Cheer up, you're doing great. I can't believe all of the walking you are doing, that's wonderful and you are a real motivator for me after reading your journal :D. Keep up the great work, it's not easy but you can do it!!!!

09-13-2003, 08:54 AM
Thanks for the kind words, Cindy!

It's Saturday morning. I'm still not my cheery self but that doesn't mean I have to eat yucky foods. There will be times in life when I'm down and I have to learn to wait them out without turning to food.

I watched Dr. Phil last night. The biggest lessons I took away were that I make the choices - I'm NOT a "victim" of food or circumstance. I have to make the choice to eat healthy and exercise on a regular basis even though I may not "feel" like it.

I had a Wendy's chicken BLT salad for dinner last night and nothing else. I didn't cheat, even though I felt like it all evening (and still do, in fact!). I kept my beloved cheat free star clippie!!!

The scale is still at 137 today, which is a bit disappointing but understandable with all the walking I've been doing. My muscles are getting quite the workout! I finished last night with 10,100 steps. The last few hundred were marching in place in the living room while talking to my DS about a friend of his who is having troubles. I just didn't feel right going to bed without hitting 10,000 when I was so close....LOL!

I'm off to make some low carb egg custard which is a healthy treat for me (3g carbs per serving) to rid myself of these cravings.

09-13-2003, 08:54 AM
{{{{{Hugs}}}}}} to you, Doreen. Stress is so tough when it makes you want to eat, isn't it? Look at how well you dealt with it, though. You only had two little Dove candies and you knew the carb counts!:) You gave yourself a little treat, but you didn't cave! (hey, it was good you didn't have change, wasn't it!:p )

This is is our real life--temptations and challenges on a daily basis--and we've got to learn different ways to deal with them. Our old, preferred methods (food being our drug of choice) have got to give way to new coping strategies. Will we always be successful? Nope, but we'll always be learning and striving.

Doreen, good work in the struggle to live a healthy life! Today you won a battle!:Pinkbounc

Can't wait to hear how things go at tomorrow's weigh-in!

Good luck!:)

Castillo Mom
09-13-2003, 05:11 PM
Doreen, where do I start? I guess that I should first say welcome to WISH. I've read your posts to my journal and your words have been very encouraging.

Since you've already visited my journal, you know I'm doing Atkins as well. I started about five weeks ago and have lost over 10 lbs. I started at 224 and last time I checked I was down to 213 and will weigh in on Monday. Lulu made me wait until then!

I've been really busy lately with work, kids going back to school, etc. but I had been meaning to read your journal from beginning to end and today I've finally done it.

I can really empathize with how it feels to go through bouts of depression. Although I've never been officially diagnosed, I think I've been struggling with it most of my life. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone. Fortunately we lead busy lives and have children that keep us going. Without the kids, I think we'd wallow in our sorrows more but who has time when you have them to look after and brighten your day with their smiles.

You don't need me to tell you how much support you're going to find on this board, you've already experienced that. And you should pat yourself on the back for giving encouragement to others as you've given to me.

Well, my time is short today. Just wanted to let you know that I've added you to my circle of WISH friends. I'll check in with you tomorrow or Monday. Have a good weekend Doreen and watch out for those evil carbs!:)

09-13-2003, 06:59 PM
Hey, Doreen, I decided to stop in and say "hi" before I go over to my journal and write in the food of the day, and your comment about Dr. Phil caught my eye! I'm interested in his new book, but I haven't bought it yet. (The truth is, I don't want to spend the money!:p I'm waiting to get it on half.com.) Dr. Phil always seems to tell it straight, and this book sounds like it's no exception. I've heard that one of his keys to success is to create a network of support. We sure have one here, don't we?

Sometimes this whole business of the healthy life is TOUGH! I'm glad you're sharing the journey with me. Please know that I'm here for you and cheering you on day by day. Oh, and whatever you do, DON'T LET BEN AND JERRY IN YOUR HOUSE! THEY'RE BAD MEN!

These cravings you're having. . .are they TOM related? Mine get wicked, the bloating is miserable. . .maybe you're building muscle from all that walking and retaining a little water?

Have a good night, Doreen, I'm going over to my journal. . .

09-14-2003, 08:25 AM
All of you WISH journal buddies are the BEST!!! Your encouragement and support mean so much to me and I really don't think I would be this successful without all of you. THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart!!

I am feeling better today. I think I was stressed because of preparing for my mom's birthday party - finding a present, figuring out the menu, cooking, transporting it all to my brother's house, etc. Of course I left everything until the last minute which stressed me out. Why do I put myself through this? From now on, I will look at the calendar for the next 2 weeks and plan ahead. This stress is more under my control than I'd like to believe and I can minimize it if I choose.

We had the party last evening and it went very well. Of course, I stayed on plan because I cooked low-carb stuff for dinner...LOL! That was a blessing!

I ended up with 11,600 steps yesterday, including 4000 from the WATP 2 mile.

Now, down to business! It is official weigh and measure day!
Weight: 137 -1 from last week, -5 from start
Bust: 38 -1 from last week, -1.5 from start
Chest 33.5 and holding steady
Waist: 31.5 -1.5 from last week, -2.5 from start
Hips: 39.5 +.5 from last week, -.5 from start
Thighs: 39.5 -1 from last week, -1.5 from start

I'm losing pounds and inches. This really is working!!

I'm off to relax and look over my calendar to see what I can do now to make my week less stressful!

09-14-2003, 08:47 AM
Belated hugs out to you:D Sorry I didn't check bbefore looks like you had a bit of stress last week, glad to see others were there for you. You did give me a chuckle about the change in your purse :p

Lulu's words are right on - life give us temptations & challenges and we must learn how to manage in a healthy way.

Happy to see you're planning your week and here's a :Pinkbounc for another 1 lb loss.

Go Doreen!

09-14-2003, 04:24 PM
Oh, my gosh, Doreen!:) Congratulations on a FANTASTIC weigh-in!:Pinkbounc :bounce: :Pinkbounc :You are melting away inch by inch! :)

Geez, you had the stress of a family birthday party? YIKES! Add that kind of thing to the regular day to day and it has me craving more than Ben and Jerry's!:rolleyes: My in-laws (one of my strongest binge inducers, I'm ashamed to admit) are coming next weekend for a round of family celebrations. . .after reading your post, I'm going to have to come up with some kind of plan to take care of myself like you did.

You know what, Doreen, you're looking mighty fine in that fancy new clippie. Wear it with pride, honey, you earned it!

09-15-2003, 08:29 AM
Here we are at Monday again! Someday, I'd like to solve the case of "The Disappearing Weekend" - everyone's greatest mystery!! :p

Weight was steady at 137 this morning.

Yesterday my depression was really bad (don't know why :confused: ) and I sat around all day doing practically nothing. Hubby came home from helping his dad with a roof and I casually remarked that I ought to walk since it was 7:30 PM and I only had 1800 steps for the day. My sweetie jumped up and encouraged me right away and went for a long walk with me (like an hour and 20 minutes!). 9000 steps later, we got home and I had my steps in for the day! He really is wonderful and cares about me so much!! My total steps for the day = 11,300.

My food went pretty well in spite of my depression.
B - cheesecake 14 carbs
S - slice of mozzarella cheese
L - chicken salad 3 carbs
S - 2 Dove dark chocolate promises 10 carbs
D - italian sausage soup 10 carbs
cheesecake w/ no sugar added cherry pie filling 20 carbs
Total carbs for the day = 57 which is ok on my plan (I try to stay under 60 carbs per day).

I handled my sweet cravings while still staying on plan.

Today will be a good day! Even though I'm feeling down, I'm putting on a smile and am ready to take on the world!

Thanks for sticking with me, everyone. I couldn't make it through the low points without you!!

Edit: 9:30 AM
B - Atkins Advantage bar & lots of water!

09-15-2003, 10:23 AM
{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}} to you this Monday a.m., friend. I was thinking about you this morning as I was getting ready for work. I was wondering, "How's Doreen doing on Monday morning? Mondays, yuk!" I don't know about you, but Monday is my day of highest anxiety. I look at all I'm supposed to be doing at work, all I'm supposed to be doing at home, and I tremble!:( Sunday nights I get what I call Sunday Night Stomach--this knot that hits me everytime that I remember the next day is Monday! Add to that this rain we're having and the hurricane that's on its way. . .I gotta give it a double yuk!

Doreen, I think you've got yourself a sweetie of a DH there. . .my husband loves me, but he wouldn't walk like that with me! I hope, though, you don't think you have to get in 10,000 steps EVERY day--you've got to rest sometimes!:) Do you feel that the walking helps with your depression, though?

I WANT A PEDOMETER! I'm going to start shopping around for one soon so I can have it at WDW in a few weeks. I'd love to know how many steps we do while visiting Mickey!

Hang in there, Doe-Doe. You know that we're all here for you, the good days and the lousy ones.

Facing Monday morning with ya, honey--

09-15-2003, 11:08 AM
Erin, you're such a sweetie! I'm in one of those states today where I cry very easily and your post got me started. Actually, it's good, because I seemed to need a good cry...if that makes any sense. :confused: I'm feeling a little better now. :D

Yes, I have been obsessing about getting my 10,000 steps in EVERY day. Why is that? Is that a healthy way to look at exercise? I checked out some of the half marathon training info and I'd really like to do it, but part of me is afraid to commit to it and then fail. Another part of me is afraid I'll succeed and more will be expected of me. I just don't make any sense sometimes.

I forgot to put my carbs down earlier.
B- Atkins Advantage bar - 2 carbs
S- 1 oz cashews - 6 carbs
L- chicken salad - 6 carbs
total = 14 carbs so far

I've been thinking about all this Dr Phil stuff, especially about setting a specific goal with a date. I think I'd like to lose my last 10 pounds by my Disney big 4-0 birthday trip in February. I checked the calendar and I have 20 weeks to lose 10 pounds. It would be cool to hit 40 at my goal weight! More importantly I want to be wearing size 10s comfortably. I'm barely into my 12s now - they're fitting better every week, though.

I keep debating about buying Dr. Phil's book. I hate to spend the $ but I'd love to read it. Maybe I'll talk hubby into checking at Sam's (a wholesale club) to see if they have it cheaper....

09-15-2003, 07:54 PM
Ahh, how sweet your dh is. You are one lucky woman. Sorry you are feeling down. My scale didn't move either, and I'm really mad about it. Well, here's to a better week.

:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Castillo Mom
09-15-2003, 08:45 PM
Hi Doreen! You posted to my journal today and I just wanted to hop on over and say a quick hello and see how you're doing.

It's so great that your husband is supportive. It's so important to have that from your spouse. We need all the help we can get!

Sorry to hear you were feeling blue. Hopefully you'll feel better tomorrow. You need a good cry every once in a while to relieve that pent up stress. We're here for you Doreen whenever you need us, ok? :D

09-15-2003, 09:05 PM
Thanks for your support, all!! It helps so much - who would have believed I could feel so encouraged and motivated by people I've never met??

Yes I am blessed with a wonderful husband. He truly is the love of my life. We've been married 18 years already!!

I ate a Wendy's BLT salad for dinner = 17 carbs. Add that to the 14 carbs from earlier and I've had 31 carbs today. Yay!!

My pedometer reads 16,100 steps - WHEW!! I walked at lunch today and then I walked to the local high school for Parents' Night tonight and traipsed around to all my kids' classes.

Sweet dreams, all!!
Doe-Doe :wave:

09-15-2003, 11:03 PM
Hi, Doe-Doe, Lulu here.:p Are we silly or what?

You were in my thoughts all day. . .sometimes it's just plain hard, isn't it?! I'm sorry that you cried, but it sounds like you needed to do it--it's good to just get the emotion out! It's cleansing, as they say. Sometimes we use up so much energy just trying to keep ourselves up, it's a relief to crash for a minute!

Why do we do the things we do to ourselves? I completely understand what you're talking about as far as the marathon goes--it's an issue that surrounds the whole weight loss situation for me! I have failed so many times that I can't believe that I don't have to be perfect to succeed. I have dieted successfully and then suffered the humiliation of watching the pounds--and more--creep up! I've said to myself COUNTLESS times, "Oh, I'll lose 20 pounds by such and such a date," and I've watched the date come and go and I've felt helpless to change what's happening to me (as I stuff potato chips into my face!). Then when I'm successful, I wonder how long I'll have the energy to keep it up forever! I've always felt that to lose weight or to be healthy I have to dig deep into some secret place to muster up the courage and willpower to do it, but I've never been able to keep the energy up when the demands of real life surround me! This time, though, I feel very different. I feel like this time, I probably will fail--if failing is eating some yummy food I've chosen not to eat on a regular basis again. I will lose my cheat free clippie, and I definitely see some buttered popcorn, chocolate peanut butter brownie, and a big plate of chicken wings and beer in my future! It's OK, though, because this time when it happens, I'll dust myself off and get back in the game. When the weight comes off, it'll come off because I've making a bigger choice to take care of myself for the long haul. That's one of the things that I read in the intro (or first chapter) of Dr. Phil--if you've felt like you have to get willpower to succeed at weight loss, you're wrong. Instead you have to figure out how to succeed when you DON'T feel like being a WW or Atkins poster girl!

I've worried about the marathon, too. I've thought, "gee, if I say I'm going to do it, and I bomb out, everyone will just chalk it up to another one of my failed attempts." So, I'm just going to let myself TRY. I'm going to TRY to do the beginners training walks and if I don't feel it's right for me, I'll stop. I'd hate to disappoint anyone, but trying is all any of us can do in this life, and I think from what I've read from the WISHers, all you ladies can handle my bagging if I have to!

That's one of things I like most about these boards--the honesty.
We're able to share the good and the bad and the happy and the sad--and the silly and the crappy--and we accept each other as we are.

One things, though, that I have to question about Dr. Phil--and I haven't read enough of the book to get this whole thing--is this
"set a date and a goal weight" idea. I know that just will put too much pressure on me! I'm already number obsessive! Originally, when I started the WISH challenge, I had all kinds of numbers in mind--25 pounds by the cruise, 35 or so by the end of the year. . .I'm letting them all go. When the lbs. fall off, they fall off. Don't stand to close to me--they may hit you when they fall!:p

Oh, gosh, I think I've rambled on too much, Doreen. This is what happens when I hit the boards at the end of a long day! I just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you and then I wrote a novel! One last thought, though. . .be good to yourself. You're one person trying to be a great mom and employee--let your weight loss journey be something you do just for YOU because even though I've known you just a short time, I know you're special.


09-16-2003, 01:27 PM
Hey Doe,

I just wanted to drop by to give you some encouragement. I don't usually have time to post much but you always find time to care about everyone else's progress. I think you are doing great and you have such a great support system on this WISH board. I think it takes a lot of work and courage to stay on track like you have. I caved today but will be back strong tomorrow. It's hard when you only want those 10 pounds to disappear because they are the hardest to lose. I caved because I saw a big loss the 1st 5 days and since then have gained 1/2 pound while following stricter than ever. Induction is hard! I wish I had your strength. Chin up and stay focused. You are doing terrific!


09-16-2003, 08:57 PM
Hi, it's Lulu here, missing my friend, Doe-Doe. I know that we can't be on-line writing every minute of every day, but just the same, you should know that I was thinking of you today and sending you all kinds of warm hugs and fuzzies.

Onward and downward, sooner or later, day by day:)


09-17-2003, 09:00 AM
Here we are at Wednesday. Ladies, I gotta admit, I'm really struggling this week. The hurricane is coming our way - we expect 50 mph winds and 2-4 inches of torrential rain from Thursday evening through Friday. Then, of course, we'll have beautiful weekend weather to clean up...:p The rational part of me knows that I have planned for this. I have the extra food & water and dogfood and lots of candles & matches in case we have no electricity or water for a few days. However, there's an irrational part of me that is feeling a LOT of anxiety over this.

I took off work today - will be calling in sick - because I have made myself sick over this. My stomach is in knots and my whole digestive track is messed up. My depression is really kicked into high gear and making me so tired and anxious that I just want to hide under the covers. Of course, I have to hide a lot of these feelings for the sake of my 2 teenagers. We have prepared them but they are as nervous as the rest of us and I don't want to add to their stress. They don't need to worry about the hurricane AND Mom falling apart. I have told them that I am a little more anxious than usual because of my depression and they understand that.

Through all this, in spite of wanting to eat everything in sight, I have stayed on plan - I have no idea how. It has been a moment by moment choice at times. Ben & Jerry have been CALLING me!! I was at the store this morning and I wheeled my cart very quickly past the ice cream freezers!! So far, so good.

I am down a pound this morning. I only walked 7200 steps yesterday but I made a conscious decision in the morning that, because of my anxiety, I would take a rest day. I made no effort to get extra steps in, especially since I'm feeling so tired at the moment.

I'm holding steady, girls! My husband has been a real gem and helps me so much. I really feel I could face anything if he's with me. I also feel like I can face anything with all of you cheering me on! These down feelings will pass. I'm expecting a TOM visit next week so I might not feel better til then, but that's OK - it will pass. I just have to keep on going until it does. And if it doesn't, then my doctor and a counselor can help me. It's good to know that this isn't a never-ending downward spiral that I have to face alone.

In the meantime, I will continue to eat healthy, because my poor body and mind are dealing with enough, without me eating poison food to make me feel even worse. I will scale back my steps a bit, until the tiredness passes but I'll try to get at least 7000 steps a day.

{{ Hugs }} to all of you for being here for me and caring about me. Together, we'll all be fine!!

09-17-2003, 09:08 AM
Doreen -- I feel your pain! Hold tight neighbor -- I'm sure we will weather thru this storm just fine! I've picked up any stray items in the yard, have extra water on hand, ALWAYS seem to have extra food on hand, etc. I am an anal planner and worrier ALL the time -- so I'm usually prepared. I am one of those people that bought the duck tape and plastic during the terror threats --- and my car is usually stock full in case we need to evacuate for one reason or another! I know, I am pathetic! :rolleyes:

I am not too worried about here at home. My thoughts have been sidetracked to our family vacation home which is right along the waters edge in Delaware. My father is down securing what he can and moving the boats to higher ground. I will be sitting watching the news 24/7 beginning mid-day tomorrow.

09-17-2003, 01:33 PM
Hi Doreen

you are always so encouraging to me, I found the time today to read through your journal and I have to say that you are doing great! All those "steps" add up---I think I will buy a pedometer too! Actually, I bought one a few months ago but lost it before I used it! It is probably with my camera that I also lost.....I am soooo unorganized!

I hope that doggone hurricane just dissolves into nothing before it hits the coast! I can imagine how scary that is, I would get myself worked about that too! It sounds like you are prepared, even for the cleanup, so that is a good thing!

Okay, I am off to study and do that dreaded housework.....:rolleyes:

Take Care and good job!

09-17-2003, 01:59 PM
Chin up. Glad to hear you took off a day for yourself. You are doing good, keep it up. Great job giving Ben & Jerry a wave as you cruised by them:p

Don't know what town you are in however you are doing the right thing by being prepared. Being prepared is the best you can do right now. If you can handle it, stay updated at www.nhc.noaa.gov. I work for the Red Cross and must stress to you not to use candles(cause of many fires) but to use battery operated flashlights. It sounds like you have already begun your preparing and now it is a wait & see. We can only pray that it falls apart as it travels closer.

I'll be thinking of you;)

Mom of Sleepy, Bashful and BabyDoc
09-17-2003, 11:22 PM
Hey Doe,
Just wanted to send along a prayer for you and your family. As you know, my mom (sister and her family, too) is down there with you, so I'll have you on my mind a lot in the next day or two. We are expected to get heavy rain on Friday....3-4 inches. Yuck! Last month when we got heavy rain, we had a damp basement. I hope that doesn't happen this time.

Anyway, you seem to be doing well program-wise. I'm proud of you. Keep up the good work and try to stay dry!:D

09-18-2003, 08:10 AM
I'm feeling better this morning. I was going to go back to work, but DS isn't feeling well so I'm staying home with him.

Pedometer yesterday = 9600 steps
Weight this morning = 135 - down a pound from yesterday.

We're all prepared for Isabel. The kids have school today but I'm guessing they'll be off tomorrow. Hubby is bringing work home so he can work from home tomorrow. I'm not going into work tomorrow - will take a vacation day if necessary.

My mood is much better this morning. I think taking a day off yesterday really helped. My anxiety is not nearly as bad. I'm still eating on plan in spite of all kinds of temptations in the house so my cheat free clippie has been updated to 14 days!

I think today will turn out to be a good day!! :D

09-18-2003, 08:22 AM
Enjoy your mother/son time today --- as you probably WILL have a houseful tomorrow as we batten down the hatches here in PA.

It DOES sound like we are not getting the weather they had originally thought. Calhoun is calling for 30-50mph winds and 1-4 inches of rain ---- that really doesn't sound TOO bad. I do notice the breeze picking up here already!

Hang on TIGHT!:eek:

09-18-2003, 09:25 AM
Good morning, Doreen. First of all, let me tell you that you're in my thoughts and prayers as you all brace yourselves for this bad weather. It sounds as if you've really prepared and done what you can to get ready. Hopefully ole Isabel will be in and out of your area without too much damage. Hold on, friend.

Doreen, I can't tell you how you inspire me. Hey, a hurricane and PMS? If that ain't stress, I don't know what is!:p Look at all the wonderful choices that you've made in the last two days to care for yourself through it all! You're watching what you eat 'cause you know those bad carbs do more harm than good, you're recognizing that you're in a stressful situation, and you've lowered your exercise standards to honor how you're physically feeling right now. Sounds like you're not only looking after your family's needs, you're looking after your own, too (and that sure isn't easy sometimes). Way to go, Doreen!

You give so much to others (I see how you lift up so many folks on the boards); you need to make sure that TLC comes back to you. It's all about "mothering ourselves." I don't know about you, but I know that if I'm going to wait for someone to tell me I need a day off, I could be waiting a VERY long time!:p It's in nurturing ourselves that we can nurture others, right? Maybe that's the lesson that you get as you give yourself this permission to stay home before the hurricane. . .

I'm going to find us a volksmarch to do sometime before it gets too cold. What do you think? Are you up for it? We'll get MeMe and hit the trail!

Waiting for your PM--if you sent it, it never got to me. If you didn't, whenever you get around to it is OK.

Thinking about you as the winds pick up. . .


09-18-2003, 09:27 AM
Oh, my gosh. . .you're two weeks cheat free!

:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc


Wear that clippie proudly! Also read how those pounds are falling off you! Good going!

:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc Two pound Happy Dance!

Castillo Mom
09-19-2003, 02:45 AM
Hi Doreen. Sorry it's been so long since I last paid you a visit, but it's been a busy week. I hope all is well with you and that you and your family are safe and sound.

I'm happy to see you're feeling better. You're doing wonderfully with watching what you eat and the walking. I just haven't had the time to exercise. I really admire that you're able to fit it into your busy schedule and still keep your sanity!

I'm apologizing to all of my WISH friends tonight for making my posts so short, but my pillow is calling! I hope to be able to check in with you all tomorrow or Saturday morning at the latest. Take care!:D

09-19-2003, 09:28 AM
Hi, Doreen!

Thanks again for helping me through the Chocolate Cake Crisis. My hips and I sure appreciate it! Got on the scale this morning (I know, I said I was going to put it away, but I got it back out again) and found that not giving in to the cake was a good decision!

About the walk in Ridley Park. . .I looked at the dates, and I think it's 10/11 and 10/12. I don't want to be a party pooper, but I have to be perfectly honest here. . .I don't think I can do those dates. That's the weekend that we're back from our week in FL, and I know that I'm going to have to spend those days doing wash, helping DD meet the challenges of overdue homework, grocery shopping, etc. so that I can face the next week as a sane person. Let's try to find another date, OK? I'll look over things and get back to you. I'd love to go for a walk with you and your DH!

Have you weathered the storm? Our schools are closed today, but the storm is long gone except for some winds. The sun is shining and it looks like the start to a lovely weekend. We found out that there was no school last night at 6 p.m., so we were able to sleep in until 8 this morning. Boy, did that feel good. Anyway, I hope you didn't have any damage or power outages.

Eat right and exercise today. It's an onward and downward kind of day!


09-19-2003, 08:58 PM
Hurray! We survived Isabel!! We did not have any power outages at my house but a few blocks away they are still without power. Our cable was out and since I connect to the net via cable modem, that meant no internet or TV today. I'm thankful that the loss of cable was the only problem we had - I'm not complaining in the least. No school today (although I didn't find out until 6:30 AM this morning) and I stayed home from work - the kids, especially DD 14, were a bit freaked out. We were still having tropical storm force winds this morning and lots of rain.

Through it all, I did not get much exercise - only 4500 steps on the pedometer yesterday - a new all-time low :p but that was the least of my worries. However, I did stay on plan with my eating. The scale was up a pound this morning but TOM's coming to visit next week so I'm not worried about the scale.

My mood is much better! I'm beginning to feel like my usual perky self again.

Erin, don't worry about the walk! I'm sure we'll find something that works for both our schedules. I'll keep my eyes open for something over your way!

Enough for now, since I must go and check up on all of you!!

Mom of Sleepy, Bashful and BabyDoc
09-19-2003, 10:56 PM
Way to go, Doe!:D

Glad you didn't stress eat. Also glad to hear things weren't quite as bad as they expected. My mom said the biggest problem at her house was raking all of the leaves OUT of the street. She said she had to rake them because they were all from her trees.:rolleyes: Gotta love her!

Don't worry about one low day on the walking. I know you are committed, so one day doesn't hurt anything. (Although, 4500 steps sounds good to me, what is a high number??) I always say, it is what you do 90 % of the time that matters, not the 10%. If only I had lived by that when I was fighting a weight battle at 145 lbs. :D :rolleyes:

Have a great weekend. Onward and downward.:Pinkbounc :cool:

09-20-2003, 05:34 AM
Glad to hear you made it thru the hurricane safely and that you stayed on plan with eating. Keep up the great work!

09-20-2003, 08:18 AM
Hi Doe-Doe,
Happy to hear no damage at your place:D You handled everything like the strong woman you are. I agree with Lulu about taking time off, no one is going to tell us to it, so we need to just do it. We are the mom, the wife, the maid, the cook, the shopper, the sex slave(did I say that?), you know what I mean. We have sooo many hats to wear that when is it our time just to be us, only on those days that we take for ourselves.

Happy happy dance for your 1 or is it 2 pound loss:Pinkbounc

Looking forward to our walking meets. Have a great healthy weekend!

09-20-2003, 01:44 PM
Hello all!! I'm enjoying looking at the sunny weather from my window - was getting a bit tired of clouds and rain. :D

I haven't been posting my menus lately but I have stayed on plan. I am going to try harder to post them from now on!

B/L (got up late) - Atkins bar & water
D - chicken quesadillas without the flour tortillas and a rum/diet Coke

B - Atkins bar & water while I took DS to the doctor.
L - cheesecake - YUM!

Pedometer yesterday - another new low of 3500. I WILL get back on track today. No more hurricane excuses - it's time to get off my butt. I've had a couple days off so now it's back to business.

Weight is still 136 and holding. If it stays the same for tomorrow's official weigh & measure day, I'll be down a pound from last Sunday. I'm hoping I've lost some inches though!

Ta-ta for now!

09-20-2003, 03:35 PM
Hi, Doreen!:) Sounds like you're having a good day. I know that I'm a whole lot more cheerful now that the sun has come back out!:cool: Isabel was getting old. . .

Well, I have my new cheapo pedometer clipped on and I don't like it one bit. It was the deluxe version at Wal-Mart, and still I think it is too cheap! I can't get it to record all my steps! I'm going to toss the darn thing in the trash! IF I get a new one, I'm going to get one of those $30 models instead of the $8.93 one. So MeMe, if you're going out to get one, think top of the line or it just isn't worth it! At least that's my experience. . .

Doreen, you had a good dinner out last night! What good choices you made! I told my DH this afternoon that when I'm on that boat I'm going to have myself the yummiest pina colada in the Bahamas! Now that is worth losing my clippie for!:rolleyes:

My in-laws are coming tomorrow, so I'll be spending the day getting ready for the October birthday party (uh, slightly early because we're going away). There are four of us who have our bdays in Oct., and because three of them are the members of my family, I'm the hostess. No objections from me, but I always get frazzled getting ready. Maybe if I entertained more I wouldn't be such a basket case! If I don't check in, I'll still be thinking of you as you get on the scale. Good luck! Whatever the number, you know that you've been running the good race with strength and perseverence.

Take care,

09-21-2003, 01:13 PM
Erin, you'll get through the day just fine! I know what you mean about getting frazzled when entertaining. I get the same way! In fact, the ONLY time hubby and I fight is when we're getting ready for company...LOL! Now we recognize the pattern, so we can actually laugh about it! :p

Pedometer yesterday = 8900 steps, including walking my dog.

Official Weigh & Measure Day Results!!
Weight: 135 -2 last week, -7 from start
Bust: 38.5 +.5 last week, -1 from start
Chest: 33 -.5 last week, -.5 from start
Waist: 31.25 -.25 last week, -2.75 from start
Hips: 39.25 -.25 last week, -.75 from start
Thighs: 40.5 +1 last week, -.5 from start

I'm a happy camper! I'm losing slowly and steadily and I'm getting more exercise in. I'm sorry, Erin, that you're unhappy with your pedometer. It took me a couple days to warm up to mine. I spent $15 on it at Amazon.com.

Onward and downward, all!!

Edit: 5:45 PM
B - slept in late so I missed it <giggle>!!
L - flour tortilla w/ cheese, bacon, mayo 17 carbs

09-21-2003, 06:20 PM
:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc Yeah Doreen! Way to go, you are doing fantastic. I will be looking into a pedometer, curious to see how many steps per day.

Funny how me & my dh argue also right before company comes in the door. Seems to be the rushing around no matter how many days before you start preparing:p

Keep it up:Pinkbounc

09-21-2003, 08:11 PM
Doreen, I'm doing the two pound happy dance for you!:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc Good-bye, Two Pounds, we never want to see you again around Doe-Doe!:p

You're success is such an inspiration to me, Doreen. Your attitude is so positive and strong. Can't wait to meet you and DH in person on the 25th!:)

Gotta go talk to MeMe about those nachos. . .

09-21-2003, 09:02 PM
OK, ladies, it's confession time! I wasn't feeling well all day - I'm suffering from Erin's day-before-going-back-to-work-itis :p with my stomach all in knots.

I posted my lunch but guess what I had for dinner?? The only thing that sounded like it would sooth my stomach was - ice cream! I measured it out and ate 30 carbs worth of ice cream (3/4 cup!).

That makes 47 carbs for the day, which is under my 60 carb limit, so I'm keeping my cheat free clippie!

My depression has been great for the past few days but now it is back in full force because of the work thing. I'm doing two different projects and I despise both of them. I don't feel like I am doing them well at all. Since I was off 3 days last week, now I'm behind on both of them, so I'll really have to kick butt tomorrow. My goal for tomorrow is no internet playtime at work! Usually when I am trying to avoid work, I find excuses to be on the net. Also, I'm taking tons of low-carb snacks because the anxiety at work WILL cause me to want to eat.

I'll work on a time for the Doylestown walk - gotta check how long the drive will take us. My gut feeling is probably 10:30 or 11 AM to start the walk and then hubby and I will have to find a restaurant in the area for a late lunch afterwards. Once we've decided on a time, we can post an invitation on the WISH board.

I am excited about meeting you all! However, I can already feel the insecurities creeping in - will they be disappointed in me once they meet me in person?? It doesn't matter - you have all been wonderful to me and I have no reason to worry about meeting you in person! I'm guessing I'll be a nervous wreck on the way there and once we meet, we'll have a wonderful time!

Time for bed - I'll post tomorrow evening since I will not be playing on the computer during the work day! ;)

Castillo Mom
09-22-2003, 12:52 AM
Hi Doreen! I know the feeling, I'm not really looking forward to tomorrow.

Wow, you had ice cream and still stayed under your limit. That's great! I don't expect that I'll be able to have any ice cream until vacation next year and that's a long way off.

I hope everything goes well with you and the projects you have scheduled. I understand the difficulties of work place pressures, deadlines, etc. Just remember that you're human and an only do what you can. I don't know if you're able to get away from the office on your lunch break or not, but if you can it allows you to get away from that environment. Maybe read a book or meditate during lunch after you eat. If I can't get away, I just close the door to my office I don't take any calls.

Too bad I don't live in your state, I would love to meet you all in person. Maybe we can post pictures of ourselves and meet that way. I'm still shopping for a digital camera, but when I finally buy it, the first thing I'll do is post my before and after pics.

Talk to you soon Doreen, keep your chin up!:D

09-22-2003, 07:36 AM
Hey, Doreen. . .I only have a minute 'cause I gotta get to Jersey this a.m. for a teachers' workshop, but I wanted to send you some Monday morning {{{{{{{{{{{hugs for DoeDoe}}}}}}}}}}. Take a deep breath, and remember you can only do one thing at a time.

Talk to you later,

09-22-2003, 08:47 AM
Good luck on your projects this week.

You are doing a wonderful job of staying within your carb limits and the success is that you are losing! That's fantastic!!!

Keep up the good work!


09-22-2003, 12:57 PM
It's lunch time so I'm squeezing in a quick post!!

Pedometer yesterday = 2600 steps "how low can you go??" I can hear the limbo music!! I'm way ahead of the game today so I'm making up for it.

Food today
B - Atkins bar
S - 1 oz macadamia nuts
L - 1/4 lb burger, lettuce, mayo, mustard

Carbs so far = 4 (17 - 13 fiber!) according to Fitday.

Work is going OK but I keep getting pulled into meetings so I can't catch up on my projects :rolleyes: This afternoon will be better and I'm gonna do GREAT!!

Edit: 5:30 PM
S - Atkins bar - 3 carbs (total so far today = 7)

I survived work - turned out to be a decent day. I walked during lunch time which put extra steps on my pedometer and got me away from my desk.

The scale was back up a pound this morning - TOM visit on the horizon, so I'm not worried about it. Maybe I'll stay off the scale until Sunday's weigh in.

Edit: 6 AM next morning
I wanted to fill in yesterday's food.
D - small bowl of chili - about 25 carbs

Today's total carbs = 32

09-23-2003, 05:56 AM
Pedometer yesterday = 11,000 steps including 1.5 miles over lunch and evening walk with DH & puppy.

Just did 3 mile WATP (without the weights) while I had a load of laundry in the washer.

I'm feeling good today!! More later!

09-23-2003, 06:18 PM
Looks like your getting in those steps, but 2600 I hear that limbo music too. Wasn't 4000 your lowest? well a new record- moving on.
A puppy? were you holding back from us?

Hope your work week calms down. Stay focused and stay off that scale till Sunday;)

09-23-2003, 09:36 PM
Yeah, what's up with this puppy? Give us the details, Doreen!

Thanks for getting the walk on the boards, it looks like we're getting some interest. How fun!:Pinkbounc I'll look into restaurants in Doylestown, but what kind of places to you lo-carbers like? Steak houses? Sushi? Let me know what you're into.

You're going gangbusters now, honey! Keep it up! I'm jealous of your motivation! No, that's not right. I just want some to rub off on me. I appreciated the hugs you gave me. . .that mental picture of me in the Bahamas with a pina colada is carrying me through the week!

Will check in again tomorrow a.m.


09-24-2003, 07:43 AM
I'm on my way to the treadmill and thought I'd drop in and wish you smiles:D for your day. It looks like the weather is going to be beautiful--hope it's nice like this the day of the PA Wish Walk!!
Hey, that makes me wonder. . .what if it's raining that day? Is this a "rain or shine" event or will we have a rain day? Something to think about. . .personally, I don't mind walking in the rain--if it's not a hurricane ;) --but I wouldn't want you and your DH driving for hours and hours in it. :(

I'm excited and nervous at the same time whenever I think about the walk. It'll be great meeting you all, but what if I'm shy?! If that's the case, I guess I'll just have to get over it pretty quickly, because I know we're going to have lots of fun!

Have a super day, Doreen, and remember:

It's onward and downward, day by day, pound by pound!


09-24-2003, 08:53 AM
Here's a pic of Maya, my ferocious dachshund!

<img height=200 src=http://www.boomspeed.com/icerakurei/doe/Maya.jpg>

She's 2 years old so she really isn't a puppy anymore but she only weighs 12 pounds so she'll always be a puppy to me! :p

Here's a pic of me and my DH, Todd, so you'll be able to recognize us in Doylestown!

<img height=200 src=http://www.boomspeed.com/icerakurei/doe/DoeandDH.jpg>

Anyway, pedometer yesterday = 10,800 steps including 3 mile WATP before work.

I'm still hopping on the scale but am not obsessing about the numbers, because of TOM's visit this week.

Food was good yesterday - had chili for dinner with lots of ground beef and only a few beans so I'm sure I was well below my 60 carb goal.

Gotta go - work is calling!!

Edit: 2 PM
B - cheesecake - 14 carbs
L - taco salad (this time I ordered it WITHOUT the bread bowl!!)
don't know the carb count - I'll guess 25 just in case
S - sunflower seeds - 4 carbs
total so far today - no more than 43 (probably less)

I figure we'll post a thread on the WISH board a day or two before the walk to see if everyone's still coming and to check out the weather. Should I put a hold on my calendar for the next Saturday, November 1, just in case the weather's too bad to walk? Hubby & I will walk in a drizzle but the thought of driving home in sopping wet clothes is not appealing. :p

As far as restaurants, we're not picky. We can make just about any menu fit our low-carb eating. I was thinking of either a Wendy's or Subway kind of fast food place, a Fuddruckers where you order at the counter and then pick up your own food or possibly an inexpensive sit-down restaurant, like a local diner or something. We'll probably take the turnpike in so we probably won't want to head more than 1/2 an hour out of the way to eat. Even a mall food court or a sub shop would be fine.

09-24-2003, 08:42 PM
Oooooh, Doreen, what a great surprise! Seeing you and Todd and Maya was an unexpected perk for today! You're such a beautiful couple and look so friendly:) I know I won't be shy now!

Thanks for posting your pictures! When I can figure out how to get one of mine on-line, I will.

Sounds like you had a great day, and oh, your restaurant suggestions will give me something to go on. There are lots of choices around.

I'm going to run over to my journal and report my 24 points.:)

Have a good night,

09-25-2003, 04:59 AM
Good morning all! I'm up early doing laundry and about to start a WATP workout.

Pedometer yesterday = 9600 steps, including a walk with the ferocious doxie! She thinks she's a Rottweiler! :teeth:

D - grilled chicken breast w/ tomato sauce & provolone cheese and a diet Coke/rum - I'm guessing about 15 carbs tops, if that
Total for yesterday = 58 carbs

Glad you enjoyed the pix Erin! We are definitely friendly people and I promise we won't bite! :teeth: I have some nerves regarding meeting everyone in Doylestown also, but I think once we get there we'll have a great time.

I got Dr Phil's book yesterday. Sam's wholesale club was selling it for about $14 (the inside cover suggests $26!).

More later!

09-25-2003, 11:04 AM
Wow you guys look great! What a ferocious looking beast :p
I think a rain date for the next week is fine. There's a couple of diners you can choose from right on Rt611. I don't really like pictures of me so I'll skip posting but now I know who to look for.

Let me know what you think about Dr. Phil, lots of people are talking about it.

09-25-2003, 01:22 PM
Hi MeMe!! Don't worry about posting a picture - I'll get to see you in person soon enough. Besides, I already like what I've "seen" in your posts - you can change your outside appearance but I like the real you inside that shines through!

Hubby and I are planning to get to the start point - Kenny's Newsstand - around 10:30 so we can fill out our volksmarch start cards and be ready to go when everyone else shows up. The rest of you don't have to fill out a card - I'm only doing it so I can get credit for the walk in my volksmarch books.

B - cheesecake - what else? 14 c
L - Atkins bar 3 c and cashews 14 c
Total so far today = 31 c

I'm feeling good now. I had a 2 hour meeting to run this AM and got through it without too many scratches!! :p No more meetings this week - hooray!! :bounce: :bounce:

The kids have band rehearsal tonight and I'm hoping it doesn't rain so DH and I can take the ferocious doxie for a walk while they're rehearsing. I know she looks cute but she's quite a scaredy pup and very fear aggressive. I have to keep her away from small children, which is why she's staying home instead of coming to Doylestown! :p

Work is starting to feel better overall. I'm beginning to feel like I can accomplish some of my duties. I am uncomfortable at times and I definitely think of food binging to medicate my anxiety at work, but I know it's from feeling bad about WORK so I just try to get something small done on one of my projects so I can feel better without eating food!! Now, we'll see if this lasts or if my depression will rear it's ugly head again!!

Edit: 7 PM
D - 1 slice bread, ham, 1 slice monterey jack cheese, 3 bread & butter pickle chips, mayo = 25 carbs
Total for today = 56 carbs

Castillo Mom
09-26-2003, 02:05 AM
Hi Doreen! I was so happy to see that you posted a picture of you and hubby. You two look like such a happy couple.:D

Don't have to much time tonight. I just wanted to see how my WISH friends were doing. By the looks of it, you're doing great and staying on track. Keep up the good work! I'll try to drop by tomorrow. Good night!

09-26-2003, 07:56 AM
Good morning, Doreen! If you read this work, HAPPY FRIDAY!:Pinkbounc :bounce: :Pinkbounc :bounce: You're on your way to the weekend, girl!

OK, so we start our walk at Kenny's Newstand! Neat! I'm going to send my A.V.A. papers in today--do you think I'll have my little book by the time we do the walk? We're going to have such a fun time! Like MeMe said, there are some diners on route 611--there's also Ruby Tuesdays, Chick-Fil-A, and lots of chain restaurants that have gone up as Warrington has become more built up. There will be lots to choose from.

Do you have any plans for the weekend? DD has a friend sleeping over tonight and wants to do some birthday shopping this weekend which translates into many hours at the mall. I want to get lots of packing done, the docs filled out, the house cleaned, all the laundry done, my own shopping taken care of, go to church--gulp, can you see my hair standing up from where you are?!?:eek:

How many steps did you get on the pedometer yesterday? You didn't say. I always like your Step Report! I've given up on mu ped., though I may put it on at WDW. It was too frustrating for me to walk to the mailbox, come back to the house, and see no change in the numbers. Cheap thing:mad: . I'm waiting for some walking CD's I got at amazon, though--from Shape Fitness. I ordered intermediate and advanced walks with lots of upbeat, makes-you-want-to-walk music. They should get here next week.

Have a good day, Doreen, and treat yourself well. Take a minute this afternoon and remember that I'm thinking about you and cheering you on!


09-26-2003, 08:18 AM
Thanks for stopping in to check on me, Lisa! Since you see all from California, I bet you saw me prowling the kitchen last night, contemplating a large cheat! I wasn't really hungry - just looking to munch on bad stuff. I resisted the temptation, though, cuz I couldn't find anything yummy enough that would be worth starting over on my cheat free clippies!! It still amazes me how motivated I am by CLIP ART!! Am I nuts???

Erin, let me know how you like those upbeat walking tapes. That sounds like a good idea to help me walk over my lunch hour! I'm sorry your pedometer isn't working out :( because mine has helped me so much.

I'm sure you'll have AVA books by our walk. Hubby and I just walk for credit so it only costs a few bucks for the two of us. I have books for my kids too, but now that they're teenagers, they just don't enjoy the walks as much. We did lots of walks as a family when they were younger. Thanks for the restaurant tips - sounds like there are enough around that we won't have to worry about picking one until that day.

OK, back to business!
Pedometer yesterday = 10,300 steps, including WATP 2 mile before work and .5 mile at lunch time.

Today's food plan:
B - cheesecake - 14 c
L - Atkins bar & cashews - 10 c
D - ??? kids have an away football game so it's just DH & me, but I'm sure we'll find something low-carb

The weekend looks pretty clear but my house REALLY needs cleaning. I've let it go way too long. :eek:

More later!

09-26-2003, 08:35 AM
Doe-Doe, I meant to ask you--how are you liking Dr. Phil?

09-26-2003, 08:18 PM
24 carbs earlier
S - cashews - 7 c
D - ground beef w/ taco seasonings (leftovers) - 4 c
S - 2 Dove dark chocolate promises - 10 c
Today's total = 45 carbs

Pedometer so far today = 6100, including 1 mile at lunchtime

Erin, the Dr Phil book is an interesting but tough read so far. He really makes you think deeply about your self-image and about your relationship to food. I guess I'm being forced to face things about myself that are not positive and will need to change. It's not just another fluff diet book - "eat this, don't eat that, weigh once a week". Granted I'm only through the first couple chapters but I'm finding that I don't want to read more than a few pages at a time. If you're ready for some serious self-examination, then this is the book for you!

Feeling down today and would LOVE to binge but I'm going to post this and then do something that is not compatible with eating - don't know what it will be yet - maybe WATP. That would boost my steps for the day AND keep me from eating! :D

Edit: 9:15 PM
I did one of the older WATP 2 mile walks (before Leslie discovered weights :D ).

Now my pedometer reads 9800 steps for the day - YIPPEE!!

09-26-2003, 09:59 PM
Doreen, you sure inspire me. Thinking through your desire to binge and deciding to do something "incompatible with eating"--what a healthy way to re-direct yourself! I was telling DH tonight that now that I'm 18 days on the other side of a binge, I realize how self-destructive and how totally psychological most of my eating has been in the past. I also believe that around the TOM that hormones can really lead me down the wrong path if I'm not careful!

Dr. Phil. . .hmmmm. It seems to me that you have a good handle on this book--taking it in small doses so that it doesn't overstimulate you, so that you can process it in bits and pieces. Sometimes it's better to take things like personal inventories and self-examination slowly.

We just got home from DD's trip with a girlfriend to the mall; I'm ready to hit the sack and she's ready to pull an all nighter! What's happened to me?!:p

Good night, Doreen,

PS Meant to ask you, what instruments do your kids play? What about you and DH? Are you musicians, too?

09-27-2003, 05:35 AM
Revisions to yesterday:
1. Pedometer at bedtime = 10,300 steps
2. Never did eat the Dove chocolates for my evening snack so total carbs yesterday = 35 g

Erin, would love to take credit for the idea of doing something incompatible with eating but that was a Dr Phil idea from his show a couple Friday evenings ago. :D I thought it made a lot of sense and after exercising, I really didn't have the desire to eat.

DS 15 plays the alto and baritone saxophones. DD 14 plays the clarinet. I like to sing and can play the flute. DH likes to listen - claims he has no musical ability :p

I'm feeling good about my choices lately. Even when I've wanted so badly to binge, I've recognized the emotional element driving it and have spent time examining those emotions without medicating with food. Will I always succeed at this - probably not. But I know I've saved myself from 6-7 binges in the last two weeks where previously I'd have eaten some VERY unhealthy stuff!

09-27-2003, 10:02 AM
Gosh, Doreen, look at you--23 days cheat free now. Over three weeks!!! Here's a bounce a week: :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc What a terrific accomplishment. I hope as you go through today you'll be able to celebrate all the wonderful things--the exercise, the good food choices, the journaling--that you're doing for yourself. You're a great example for your kids and for all of us here.


09-27-2003, 09:50 PM
It was a good Saturday!

My son was playing with the high school pep band at the local goat races, so of course hubby and I had to go along and see! Only in small town America can you get thousands of people together to watch goat races. :p

After that, we stopped at the local farm market and I bought WAY TOO MANY apples! They were seconds - Hurricane Isabel was pretty rough on the local crop so there are LOTS of seconds for cheap! I spent the rest of the day making applesauce. I don't use any sweeteners - just apples, water and cinnamon. I only got half of them done today, so we all know what I'll be doing tomorrow! :p My family loves homemade applesauce for holidays, birthdays and very special occasions!

Despite walking at the goat races and being on my feet doing applesauce, I did not have many steps in for the day, so I just got back from walking the puppy. Even so, my pedometer only says 6200 steps but I know I expended LOTS of energy so I'm not worried about it.

B - hot dog, 1 tbsp sauerkraut
L - Atkins bar
S - a fresh peach - YUM and worth the 11 carbs!
D - 1/2 sandwich, turkey, mayo, bread & butter pickles and 2 Dove dark chocolate promises
Fitday says all this adds up to 50 carbs but I was sweating when I was entering it all - I thought sure I was over 60! I was very relieved to see I get to keep my cheat free clippie!!

I'm feeling strong and after peeking at the scale this morning, I think I'm going to be happy with weigh-in tomorrow! :D

09-27-2003, 10:05 PM
Hey, Doreen! Looks like we both had the same idea on this Saturday night, and after reading your journal, it looks like we both enjoyed a good day.

Homemade applesauce--yum! I'm headed to our local produce market tomorrow after church and now I know what I'm going to try tomorrow afternoon. I've never made it, but my mother always did it just like you--just the basics, no sugar.

Goat races.:) I grew up in Tioga County, PA--very small. One of our claims to fame is that we're the hosts of the PA Laurel Festival. Does your local HS march there? Or have you ever been to the Grand Canyon of PA? That's another famous landmark. Oh, anyway, in a nearby town they have a yearly rattlesnake hunt where everyone gathers to look at a pit full of snakes that have been captured! Me? I'd take the goat races any day!

It sounds like you had a good day eating-wise, too. I'll be thinking of you as you bravely face the scale tomorrow morning. It's hard to believe another week has gone by so quickly. . .

Good night,

09-28-2003, 08:22 AM
Official Weigh-In and Measure Day Results:
Weight: 134 -1 from last week, -8 from start WOW!
Bust: 38 -.5 from last week, -1.5 from start
Chest: 32 -1, -1.5
Waist: 31 -.75, -3
Hips: 39.25 same, -.75
Thighs: 39.5 -1, -1.5

I'm really happy that I set an official day each week to weigh and measure. These measurements are keeping me going! Am I losing fast - probably not - but am I seeing results - OH YEAH!! I've been doing this for about a month now and having those weights and measurements to look back on proves to me that what I'm doing is working!

Erin, Tioga county sounds like fun! We've driven through there (up route 15) on our way to Niagara Falls a few years ago, but have never stopped to admire the scenery. The Grand Canyon of PA sounds neat, but I think I'll skip the rattlesnake hunt in the adjacent county... ;)

Today I have to process the rest of the apples into applesauce. I got about 6 quarts out of 1 bag of apples, so I've got the same amount to do today. I have also not touched the housework in ages! It's time to get down to business!

09-28-2003, 09:12 AM
Wow Doreen! What an inspiration you are! Keep up the good work!!!!

Applesauce.. yum!!!

How do you prepare it?


09-28-2003, 11:35 AM


All those inches that you can see disappearing. . .wow! Have you seen a size difference? You must!

What was I thinking last night when I said I wanted to make applesauce?! What I meant was I want to EAT applesauce!!:p
My head is spinning with all I want to get done today, so I'd better forget my culinary experiments and get to the laundry.

Congratulations again, Doreen. You're doing a terrific job at treating yourself with TLC!


09-28-2003, 08:33 PM
Well, I fell off the wagon. The whole situation conspired against me. I won't go into details but let's just say it involved about 150 carbs that I knew I didn't need but I ate them anyway. My cheat free clippie has disappeared until I have a cheat free day. I am going to do my best to make that day tomorrow.

Oh well, it's in the past and there's no changing it. I'm disappointed in myself but I'll think about the situation and try to figure out how to keep it from happening again. It was definitely emotional eating, which I've been doing well with avoiding. I won't beat myself up over it, though, unless it starts happening again on a regular basis. Of course, that's what I just wrote, while inside my head, I can hear that internal voice berating myself for how stupid I was to give in, etc. etc. Stopping that internal dialog is so difficult!!! It's one of those angel-devil conversations going on again. How do I quiet those voices????

I'm sorry I let myself down and I feel like I let all my WISH friends down also. Maybe I'll have a good cry and then try to move on.

09-28-2003, 11:17 PM
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs for you, Doreen}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
and if I could send one, a tissue, too. I know that you're disappointed in yourself, but try not to beat yourself up too much--there's too much to learn in the situation.

First of all, you know it was emotional eating. Hey, it's going to happen. What you have to celebrate is that it hasn't happened for TWENTY-FOUR DAYS!!! That's wonderful! Still, I know that you're hurting because you feel like you've failed in some way, but really you haven't. You haven't let any of us down--we're not expecting you to be perfect. . .but, Doreen. . . were you expecting that of yourself? I know that the rational side of yourself would say, "no, of course not, who could be perfect?" But what does your small, inner voice say? Now, make that other voice--that strong one, the one you listen to!

I don't know what emotional issues you were dealing with, but I do know that it's Sunday, and from our few weeks together, I know that Sundays can be rough for you what with the work week coming and all. Maybe you need to cut yourself some slack on Sundays? Maybe since you weigh in in the morning, you could give yourself permission to go off track a bit if you feel like it later in the day? Not that every weekend should be a major carb fest of nachos and popcorn (oh, those are MY favorites--lol), but surely you could relax your standards a bit if you wanted and get back on track on Monday. . .

This is real life and a very long haul. We cannot deny ourselves and be so strict and rigid that we set ourselves up for failure and negative feelings. Look at all that you've accomplished this last month--those pounds, those inches, the walk you've organized, the pedometer walking, the positive attitude you've been trying to establish at work--huge steps in an upward direction. Heck, and you went through a hurricane besides!! Don't let guilt or disappointment or negative feelings touch all the good that you've done for yourself.

More hugs {{{{{{{{{{{{Doreen}}}}}}}}}}}}}} and a sympathetic tear:( for a friend in need.

Tomorrow is a new day--everything is new with the morning.


09-29-2003, 08:46 AM
Erin, thank you so much for being my "voice of reason". Somehow, you seem to write just what I need to hear. I can tell myself all the same things, but it doesn't make the same impact until I hear it from someone else. :confused:

You are right, of course, in everything you wrote, especially the part about some part of me expecting me to be perfect. Why is it that I can easily understand and support everyone else through their small bumps in the road, but I have such a hard time cutting myself some slack and admitting that I'm less than perfect???? Part of me totally understands and tells myself all those things that you wrote - look at the 24 days I didn't cheat and all the wonderful changes I've made and how much better I'm feeling. Then that OTHER voice kicks in - why do I even listen to it??? Dr. Phil talks about this in his book and this was one of the parts that was hardest for me to read, because I knew it was one of my weak areas. Obviously, I need to go back and reread it and do some work in this area. I'm not treating myself in a loving way when I listen to that negative voice and let it negate all the good things that I've done.

Yesterday's pedometer was only 4200 steps but I was on my feet most of the day and was VERY tired last night, so I expended more energy than the pedometer showed.

Carbs for the day yesterday:
B - scrambled eggs with bacon, onion, green pepper - no more than 10 carbs
L - EAS AdvantEdge bar - 4 carbs
D - 6 chocolate chip cookies - 150+ carbs

I really set myself up for this cheat. I had not taken the time to eat a proper dinner, which meant that I was very tired, hungry and vulnerable. Actually, I should probably be happy that I stopped when I did. :eek:

Today will be better! I'll be walking at lunch and taking the puppy for a walk tonight to get my steps in.

My food plan for today:
B - Carb Solutions bar - 3 carbs
L - whole wheat tortilla with ham, cheese, mustard - 25 carbs
D - pork roast that I put in the crock pot this morning and green beans - probably no more than 15 carbs
S - sf jello and whipped cream - 0 carbs

I've been watching MeMe eat the sf jello & whipped cream and have never tried it so this will be a LEGAL treat for me! :D

I WILL make good choices today!!

09-29-2003, 09:19 AM
Doreen, you're back in the game already!:) Your plan for today is inspiring me to do the same--will have to sit down and think about what I'm going to eat, because it's going to be a run around kind of day.

I think your insights about how you set yourself up were right on the money--your lite lunch and missing dinner put you on the path for falling under the cookies' mysterious powers!:p

Here's a thought, take it or leave it. What about planning for your next "cheat"? Here's what I'm thinking: I know that I'm not going to be On Program while I'm on vacation, so I'm working to stay cheat free until then. In order to help myself get back on track, I'm planning to have 10/10--my first full day back, be my first new cheat free day. I hope to go cheat free until my birthday and then I'll have something I totally love--like chicken wings or nachos, something with so many points I can't count 'em. In my opinion, this is kind of me giving myself that permission to not be perfect while at the same time I have lots of short-term goals. For example, after my birthday, I want to make it to Thanksgiving. I don't know if this kind of thinking will work for you, but I just wanted to share what I'm hoping will work for me!:)

OK, I've written two weeks worth of lesson plans this a.m. and now have to move away from the computer and out into this gorgeous day.

Hang in there, Doreen.

09-29-2003, 09:33 AM
I WILL make good choices today!!
I know you can Doreen. If you feel tempted, just think of your friends here. Instead of grabbing your sin food, grab a keyboard and visit. Someone will rescue you! I'm going to keep busy today, but will be checking in periodically for anyone who needs some support. After all, it is Monday :rolleyes: , the most difficult day of the week. We all need a little boost, even if we did well over the weekend.

Keep the Faith!

Castillo Mom
09-29-2003, 11:35 AM
Good morning Doreen!:sunny: :sunny:. Just wanted to let you know I'm still around and to say that you're doing great job. You have a great attitude and believe it or not, I'm learing from you. Sorry I haven't been around too much, but I'm still putting in a lot of extra hours at work and it looks like it'll be that way for the next month or so. Have a great day!:D

09-29-2003, 11:56 AM
OH no the attack of the chocolate chip man, where was I? You and LULU didn't invite me ( I should thank you girls:p )

On to another day. We all have agreed that we can have treats now and then and we will be back on focus the next day. For the record my whole vacation will NOT be cheat free, I may even have to go into the negative numbers :p

Well I can see you are back on track and hooking up with Dr. Phil, wahoo. Please share his insights, as all my $$ is going to the mouse.

Starting back at 1 is no big deal, I know from experience and look I'm at 7 already. So I know you can do it again maybe your next goal should be 25 days? Us women have to have chocolate every now and then, right????

09-30-2003, 07:07 AM
It's a brand new day, Doreen. I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts and tons of encouragement. . .best wishes as you go forward to make this a great Tuesday.:)

I hope to stop in tonight--

09-30-2003, 08:27 AM
It's a beautiful day in Pennsylvania!! The sun is shining, the sky is so blue and the air has that crisp fall feel to it. How could I have anything but a great day???

I ate my Carb Solutions bar yesterday for breakfast and felt nauseous for the rest of the day (still am a bit sick this morning). I'm guessing something in their ingredients does not sit well with my body. So here's what I ate yesterday:
B - Carb Solutions bar - 3 carbs
L & S - 3 oz cashews - 21 carbs
D - pork roast, SF jello & whipped cream - 1 carb

I know I didn't get enough calories but I was so sick, I didn't care! The pedometer only had 5200 steps for the day.

Today is a new day and I will be feeling better soon!
B - oatmeal with about 10 raisins - 31 carbs
L - the whole wheat tortilla w/ ham, cheese & mustard that I was supposed to eat yesterday but didn't - 25 carbs
D - leftover pork roast & sf jello w/ whipped cream - 0 carbs
Total for the day = 56 carbs

This will put me close to my 60 carb limit but oatmeal is the only thing that sounds good for my sick tummy. If I don't have the raisins, I could take 6 carbs off....hmm.

Onward and downward!! :cool:

10-01-2003, 07:52 AM
Good morning, Doreen. :wave2: Are you enjoying this fall weather? It really is great, isn't it? How are you feeling, though? Has your stomach settled down? Please take good care of yourself.

Things are hectic, as you can imagine. I'll stop in, though, before I go tomorrow night.

Take care,

10-01-2003, 08:09 AM
Yesterday I added 2 oz. of cashews in the afternoon and skipped the pork roast for dinner - just had sf jello. I was over my 60 carbs for the day but not by much. I was still feeling sick.

Today I'm still a bit queasy. I thought it was from the Carb Solutions bar but yesterday my son was off school because he felt terribly sick to his stomach and he still isn't feeling right. I guess I got some bug and now we're going to pass it around the family. :p

The pedometer had 9500 steps on it yesterday. I walked a good bit during lunch hour.

I realized yesterday that I missed 5 days of taking my antidepressant meds. Maybe that's one reason that I've been so tired lately and have been fighting a down mood. So now that's a major priority for me - to make sure I take those meds every morning.

I just ate an Atkins bar for breakfast. Now it's time to get some work done in preparation for my 10 AM meeting!

Edit: 1:45 PM
B - Atkins bar - 3 carbs
L - 1/4 lb burger, lettuce, mayo (no bun, of course) - 1 carb

I walked at lunch time, even though I didn't feel like it. Dr. Phil says that you don't have to like it, you just have to do it. He's right. Even on the days I don't feel like moving, my body still needs to move, to raise endorphins & other "feel good" hormones, to work my muscles, to burn calories, and to release stress.

I don't know what's for dinner - always dangerous.

I really wish my clothes size would change. I started out wearing my 12s even when I truly should have been in 14s. Now my 12s are comfortable, but I'm not small enough for 10s yet. I know I've made progress, but I just want to see the smaller sizes on my clothes.

I peeked at the scale this morning and it said 133, although I'm not claiming the lower weight until Sunday. At 132, I can change over to a 10 pound loss clippie. Will I get there???? More importantly, can I stay there once I do get ther???? Will I ever see 127, which is my ultimate goal? I'm on the right track, so why do I feel so down?? Maybe I'll just chalk it up to not taking my antidepressants for days and it will pass.

I will not binge!!

10-01-2003, 10:01 PM
Hi, Doreen. It sounds like you had a good day healthy-living wise, even if you didn't feel the best stomach-wise. Did the queasy feeling pass? Sounds like you've got something going on at your house!

OK, Doreen, I won't bug you about this too much--I can't,'cause I won't be here--but I need to have you promise me that you're going to be more careful about taking your medication as prescribed. Even though you may forget and/or even though you might feel good and not feel like taking it, you really shouldn't play around with your body chemistry like that! If you hadn't mentioned that you're not the only one at home feeling sick, I'd say that maybe it was because you hadn't taken your meds! Stay on top if it, girl! You owe it to yourself.

I like Dr. Phil's advice about exercise--you don't have to like it! That's how I felt this morning. . .almost talked myself out of it, but was glad I did it when I finished. Glad you walked, too.

Oh, gosh, I have to check in quick with MeMe and Lisa and then say good-bye until next Friday. I'm glad to be going and all, but I'll miss you and our little on-line talks!:chat:

Keep going onward and downward, Doreen--you'll be size 10 before you know it, you lucky duck!


10-02-2003, 08:01 AM
Erin, you'll be happy to know I just took my pill! :D I promise I'll be good and take them every day. They really do make a difference for me.

Pedometer = 8500 steps yesterday - a respectable number. I walked over lunch hour.

B & L = 4 carbs
S - Atkins bar - 3 carbs
D - Wendy's mandarin chicken salad (no noodles) = 40 carbs
Total = 47 carbs

Two Atkins bars in one day is not a good idea but it was better than binging on junk. The second one was definitely emotionally motivated. I need to find another activity to replace that emotional eating - maybe no snack until I've walked one lap around the building or something. If I could just fall in love with my job again.....have to work on that!

It's gonna be a good day!

Edit: 2:15 PM
B - Atkins bar - 3 carbs
L - sunflower seeds - 4 carbs
S - 1/2 Carb Solutions bar - 2 carbs
I really must start to eat REAL food again. I've been neglecting to keep real food handy and have been relying on bars to keep me going. I'll work on this.

10-03-2003, 08:08 AM
It's Friday!! :bounce:

Yesterday for dinner I had a grilled ham & cheese sandwich and half a peach. It's higher carb than I usually eat but I was not binging. I was very tired and it was late and that's what I was making for the kids so I decided that it would be fine for me as long as I don't make a habit of it. I gave myself permission to be flexible, and I think that's healthy as long as I'm in control of the situation and not binging.

Pedometer = 8600 steps yesterday.

Today, I took my meds. I also did WATP 2 mile before work this morning. I really feel great when I get up and exercise in the AM. I also think I eat better all day when I've exercised. I'm more alert and ready to take on the work day. I think I'll make it a goal to get up on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays and do WATP for the next 2 weeks.

Lulu is off on vacation and MeMe is getting ready to go. I'm so excited for both of them - I just know they're gonna have a great time! I'll stay here and hold down the WISH fort. I want to be good and get my 10 pound clippie to surprise them when they get back. I only have 2 pounds to lose so I can do it. That will keep me focused!!

I also am working on a new set of cheat free clippies. I want to do a set with colors that change every day. I like the 100 day challenge star clippies but then I feel like I'm supposed to make it to 100 and that's not my goal. I don't think that's realistic for me. So I'll make my own set of clippies without the challenge part and use them. Who knows, maybe other people will find them useful too! :D

Onward and downward!!

Edit: 1:45 PM
B - 1/2 Carb Solutions bar - 2 carbs
S - yogurt - 20 carbs
L - salad - 20 carbs

10-04-2003, 11:34 AM
Pedometer yesterday = 12,000 steps, including 2 mile WATP before work.

Food yesterday was not good. I was just picking at stuff because I had not planned ahead of time and I did not have good choices on hand. I will need to plan better if I'm going to ever have another cheat free day.

Weight this morning was the same as last Sunday's weigh in. Looking back over my week and how poorly I've eaten, I'm lucky I haven't gained. I need to rely less on bars and more on real food. I need to plan my meals and snacks and have appealing food choices on hand. My menus are getting very boring so it's time to try new things and liven it up a bit.

I can do this. It will take a little more effort on my part but it's important to me so I'll work harder at it. I can lose weight, get more fit and eat yummy food as long as I plan ahead and set things up for success!!

10-04-2003, 02:04 PM
Pedometer yesterday = 12,000 steps, including 2 mile WATP before work.

OMG --- Look at Doreen GO!:moped: 12,000 steps -- that is AMAZING Doreen! With all of that extra activity your body MUST have been hungry - no wonder you were 'picking'. With a good plan in force and low carb foods prepared ahead of time I bet you will do just FINE the next time around.

I can do this. It will take a little more effort on my part but it's important to me so I'll work harder at it. I can lose weight, get more fit and eat yummy food as long as I plan ahead and set things up for success!!

I really like YOUR attitude Doreen!:D

Mom of Sleepy, Bashful and BabyDoc
10-04-2003, 04:42 PM
Way to go, Dor...........all that exercise, man, I need to do that. You are so inspiring. I seem to have the eating plan most of the time, but I still haven't gotten my bottom moving.:rolleyes:

Oh no...do you think I need yet another challenge...I don't think I can fit anymore on my signature. Heeheeheehee :teeth::p

Good job, girl. Keep goin'.::yes::

10-05-2003, 09:19 AM
Official Weigh-In and Measure Day Results:
Weight: 134 same as last week, -8 from start
Bust: 38 same as last week, -1.5 from start
Chest: 32 same, -1.5 from start
Waist: 31 same, -3 from start
Hips: 38.5 -.75 from last week, -1.5 from start
Thighs: 39.5 same, -1.5 from start

I did not eat the way I should this week. However, I did not gain - YAY! I lost a bit in my hips - must be all the walking I'm doing!

Pedometer yesterday = 10,000 steps, including 3 mile WATP using soup cans as weights.

This morning I got out my exercise bands and did a very quick upper body workout. I haven't used them for 6 months so I want to start slow. I did 8 reps of each exercise. My goal is to do this 3 times per week - probably Sun. Tues. & Thurs - and do WATP on Mon. Wed. Fri. and Sat. I'm gonna lay my exercise clothes out the night before so I have no excuses.

Food yesterday was good, although I don't remember exactly what I ate. I know I was under 40 carbs for the day so I finally earned a 1 day cheat free clippie - YAY!!

Now it's off to church - more later!

Edit: 12:15 PM
late B - egg custard - 3 carbs

Edit: 6 AM next morning
D - 1/4 lb burger, cheese, salad, chicken cacciatore soup, cantaloupe - at Hoss's restaurant

10-06-2003, 05:58 AM
It's Monday morning and I've already done my 2 mile WATP!! Had my exercise clothes laid out last night - it's so easy to jump into them when I wake up.

I thought I stayed well under my carb limit yesterday, despite eating out last night. However, the scale is up a pound. That restaurant food can be so tricky with extra salt or sugar that I'm gonna hope it's water weight.

Pedometer yesterday = 9,700 steps, including a 3 mile walk with the ferocious dachshund and my son.

Today, I'll have egg custard for breakfast - 3 carbs - but I haven't figured out lunch and dinner yet.

Edit: 11 AM
B - egg custard - 3 carbs
S - 1/2 protein bar - 2 carbs

Took my meds and am drinking lots of water - I feel GOOD today!

Edit: 1:15 PM
L - salad w/ italian dressing - 25 carbs
S - protein bar - 3 carbs
Total so far - 33 carbs

Spent part of lunch hour meeting Mickey88 and seeing his Mickeymobile - very cool!!!

D - egg custard - 3 carbs
- homemade applesauce - 10 carbs
- 2 Dove dark chocolate Promises - 10 carbs
Total for the day - 56 carbs

Castillo Mom
10-06-2003, 02:47 PM
Well hello there Doreen! Long time no see! I see you're still hanging in there. Didn't have time to read everything I've missed on your journal since the last week or so, but I did notice that you lost inches even though you had no weight loss. That's great! You know the saying, muscle weighs more than fat, so with all the walking you've been doing, I'm sure you're doing just fine and will see the scale move soon. Just wanted to see how you were and say a quick hi and let you know I'm still on the wagon with you. Take care of yourself!

10-07-2003, 08:52 AM
Lisa, thanks for stopping by and for your words of encouragement!

Pedometer yesterday = 11,900, including 2 mile WATP and walking the puppy.

The scale is stuck at 134, which was my official Sunday weigh-in weight. I will not get discouraged, though. I need to eat more real food and stop eating bars. However, I probably won't get a chance to make good food until Saturday. I will get through this week the best I can, keep exercising and hope that I stay the same weight.

I got up this morning and did a light lower body workout with my exercise bands.

B - egg custard - 3 carbs & took my meds :)
L - Atkins bar - 3 carbs

10-08-2003, 08:27 AM
Pedometer yesterday = 8,200 steps, including a walk with my hubby and puppy. I also did a brief lower body workout with my exercise bands - boy, can I feel that today!!

Food yesterday - well, I can't claim a cheat free clippie but I tried to minimize the damage. :( On really hectic nights when the kitchen isn't stocked with easy low-carb food, I am really struggling!! I need to cook more on the weekends and use my crockpot during the week. I also need to plan my meals. Payday is Friday, so I'll be able to do some heavy-duty stocking up, meal planning and cooking ahead this weekend.

Today is a new day and I'll do my best!! The scale is up a pound but I think that's from poor food choices and mostly water weight. Also, now that I've started using my exercise bands again, I'll start to build more muscle so the scale may not move as fast but I should still drop inches.

Edit: 9 AM
B - 1 scrambled egg and 4 slices bacon, took my meds :D
Fitday says 2 carbs, 74% fat, 23% protein, 2% carbs

10-09-2003, 10:24 AM
Yesterday went downhill fast after I posted that healthy breakfast! :rolleyes: This week has been crazy and hectic and I did not plan ahead for my food. I'm really learning this lesson - planning is NOT an option for me - it's a NECESSITY!!

I did get to meet a beautiful WISHer last evening. Here's a picture of WovenWonder - Jody!

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That's Jody on the right. She is as wonderful and gracious in person as she is on these boards! We had a nice chat and I hope we can get together again soon!

Pedometer yesterday = 16,100 steps!! WOW!! My daughter was marching in her first parade with her baton studio's group, so we did a lot of walking to drop her off with her group, meet Jody, get a bite to eat, find a spot to watch the parade, meet DD's group at the end and walk to the car. If I had more days like that, I'd be at goal already! I really did enjoy all the walking.

Today is a new day. I'm going to try to eat sensibly but not necessarily low carb. By Sunday I should have all our meals planned for next week and low-carb food stocked up at home.

10-09-2003, 11:48 AM
I am so glad that I got to meet both you and your DH, Doreen! We will have to get together again sometime when we have MORE time to chat! Thanks for taking the picture.

10-10-2003, 09:37 AM
Can we just forget yesterday?? :rolleyes: Food = not healthy. Pedometer yesterday = 5100 steps. Let's not look back - how 'bout we just move forward?? :tongue:

This morning I did not get on the scale (see paragraph above ;) )

B=1 egg scrambled, 4 slices bacon

I WILL have cravings today - such is life. I will NOT give in - at least for the next 5 minutes! :p I think I may take the whole day in 5 minute intervals! It's easy to be good for 5 minutes, right?

Onward and downward! :sunny:

10-10-2003, 10:41 AM
:wave2: Hi, Doe-Doe, I'm back in town! Read over your journal and was struck by your positive attitude. Sometimes we just have to do our best and let it go at that, and it sounds like what you've been doing with your healthy lifestyle program.

I'll try to check in later this weekend--in between working and doing laundry and nursing my sunburn!

Looking forward to my next adventure--our Doylestown walk in just two weeks!


10-11-2003, 12:39 PM
Well, yesterday was NOT a good day food-wise. I've been in a slump for the past few days (week?). I posted a thread to the WISH board and have gotten some wonderful support and great ideas, so today I'll be rethinking. I'm going to plan my menus, head to the grocery store and stock up on good low-carb foods.

Pedometer = 3800 steps. I've been so tired this week - too hectic and running every night and getting to bed late.

I slept in this morning - AHHHHHH!! It's 12:30 now - time to get dressed and get out into the beautiful sunshine and take my puppy for a walk. While I'm walking, I can think of menu ideas.

Today's a new day. :sunny: I am NOT going to obsess over doing the food and exercise thing perfectly. I'm going to just try not to binge on bad foods and be good to myself.

10-13-2003, 05:15 AM
Official Weigh-In and Measure Day Results:
Weight: 134 same as last week, -8 from start
Bust: 38.5 +.5 from last week, -1 from start
Chest: 32.5 +.5 from last week, -1 from start
Waist: 31.5 +.5 from last week, -2.5 from start
Hips: 39 +.75 from last week, -.75 from start
Thighs: 39.5 same, -1.5 from start

Well, I can see the results from my slump week. I FEEL fatter. I can see that I'd better get back on track or I'll erase all the good progress I've made. I find it interesting that the scale stayed the same but the inches are coming back - proof again that the scale does NOT tell the whole story!

Pedometer yesterday = 9800 steps - a "step" in the right direction of becoming more active. :D

10-13-2003, 08:14 AM
Good morning, Doreen!:wave: It's a brand new week and the sun is shining in PA:sunny: It's Monday and I'm thinking of you getting back into the work force this a.m. Ease into it as much as you can.

I'm excited about meeting you and DH in two weeks, too! I received my AVA stuff, so now I can make this my first official walk--my first official 10K!:Pinkbounc

Be good to yourself today. Take your medicine, walk your steps, and drink lots of water. If you can eat some healthy food--that's good, too. Sometimes, though, when we're in a bit of a slump in the healthy-living game, it's better to just focus on one thing at a time. Think about where you want your ONE focus to be TODAY.
Maybe just walking more and not worrying about the food so much would be a good place to start? You walked so much yesterday, you're not far off the mark!

Have a good day, Doreen.


10-14-2003, 06:57 AM
I'm skipping work today. I'm exhausted and I'm really fighting my depression. My body and mind want to hide under the covers. However, I'm going to stay home and force myself to make something positive out of this day. I've already done a Denise Austin Pilates video and I've measured out my first 32 oz of water and have started drinking it. I have 2 loads of laundry that are in process. I'm doing pretty good and it isn't even 7 AM! Maybe I just need to refuse to give into my depression?? We'll see if this approach works. I figure I'll burn out by lunch time but I should be feeling good about what I accomplished up til then. :D

My pedometer must have fallen on the garage floor - DH ran over it this morning. :( I will get a new one because it was really helping me move more.

I'm looking at the Winsor Pilates DVD workout package. With shipping and handling and taxes it costs about $50. I think this may be a reward for me. I haven't figured out the goal yet, but I'll think about it.

On to a new day!! :sunny:

10-14-2003, 07:58 AM
:hug: for you this a.m., Doreen. Your morning sounds amazing already--you've done so much!

Sorry about your pedometer:(--it sounds like one of those things that adds insult to injury on bad days.

Glad to hear you're drinking your water. What about your medicine--have you been remembering to take it?

I'll be thinking about you today. . .


10-15-2003, 08:01 AM
Yesterday went pretty well as far as exercise. The Denise Austin Pilates video is working ab muscles I never knew I had...LOL!!:p
I'm still not concentrating much on food and am overindulging in carbs but I'll get back on track in time.

Today I'm back at work and I'm feeling pretty good. I've started drinking my water for the day. I'm ready to jump into my different projects and put some of the tasks behind me.

I can't stay here - I've got WORK to do! :sunny: I'll check in later after I've accomplished some of my stuff. I think DISboard time might be a good reward!

Bye for now! :wave:

Edit: 9:30 AM
I'm very focused this morning. I'm getting work done and am feeling good.
B = 4 slices bacon

Edit: 12 noon
I have been choosing to be good to me today! I chose to do my Pilates workout this morning. I chose to eat bacon for breakfast with no carbs. I chose to take the stairs down instead of the elevator. I chose to eat a low-carb taco salad for lunch. I chose to enter my food into Fitday and my ratios are looking GREAT so far. I chose to drink 32 oz of water so far today. I'm worth it!!
L = low carb taco salad

Edit: next morning
I felt so nauseous yesterday afternoon - don't know if it was the taco salad or the bacon, but I was NOT happy! I didn't eat properly for dinner - had a small sliver of pumpkin pie - it's the only thing that sounded like it wouldn't make me sicker. :rolleyes:
D = 1/16 of a 9" pumpkin pie

I entered everything into Fitday.
Calories = 1031
Fat = 73g - 65%
Carbs = 42g - 7g fiber = 35g - 14%
Protein = 52g - 21%
Water = 40 oz

My calories were low but my ratios were great - a good day considering how I felt!

10-15-2003, 08:06 AM
Hi, Doreen! You know that I admire anyone who does ab work.
You're my hero for today!:Pinkbounc

Sounds like you're on the onward and downward track for this Wednesday. . .hang in there and make it your best Wednesday yet!

Take care,

10-16-2003, 05:33 AM
Yesterday went well! I edited yesterday's post to include all my food and water, etc.

Today, I'm feeling better, although I haven't eaten anything yet. :D My scale, after hitting a high of 137 over the weekend, is back down to a 134 - which seems to be the weight my body likes at the moment. My rings are loose again, so I've gotten rid of lots of water weight.

I've been extra tired, so I'm not working out this morning. I was practically falling asleep yesterday afternoon at work, which usually means I've been pushing too hard. I still got up at the same time - want to train my body to roll out of bed at 5 AM so when I DO exercise (at least 3x a week) it won't be so hard to get up. I have training all day at work, so I figured I'd better catch up on the DIS now.

I have not been taking my medicine like I should because I ran out. I have to get it refilled at a specific pharmacy chain (Rite Aid) and the closest ones are at least a 20 minute drive in areas that we don't normally get to. :( Last night, though, DH took me out to get my meds refilled so I'm good for another 3 months! I've already taken my pill this morning and am drinking my water for Jody's water challenge.

I'm off to have another great day!!

10-16-2003, 08:06 AM
You ARE off to another great day, Doreen!::yes:: Hooray for you and all the great choices you've been making. One thing I was particularly impressed with was how you let yourself be tired this a.m., still get up, but not work out. It's so important to listen to our bodies. It's thinking like that that makes eating a small piece of pumpkin pie when that's all that sounds good totally OK!:D

I'm glad you've got your prescription filled; your DH is sweet. I can't wait to meet you all next weekend.

Your encouragement means a lot to me, Doreen. I'm looking forward to my treadie walk now. . .I can hear you chanting me toward it: TRED-DEE, TRED-DEE, tred-dee, tred. . .

Continue to be good to YOU today!:D

10-17-2003, 08:26 AM
It's FRIDAY!!!! Can ya hear the excitement through the computer, can ya??!!! :bounce: :bounce: :bounce:

Yesterday's totals came to:
Calories = 1525
Fat = 61g - 37%
Carbs = 178 - 17 fiber = 161g - 43%
Protein = 76g - 20%
Water = 70 oz
Meds = yes

I didn't overeat calories. My carbs were definitely higher than I'm used to, but my tummy was still queasy. The scale this AM said 135 but I'm not worried about.

I did my Denise Austin Pilates workout this AM and it's getting easier. My abs don't hurt as much either. I'm hoping that my abs will be stronger by the time I get the Winsor Pilates DVDs. I haven't ordered them yet - gotta find money in the budget - but I think they'll help me with my tummy pouch and my heavy thighs and hips.

I just finished yummy low-carb cheesecake for breakfast - mmmmm! This morning I took the last one out of the freezer, so it's time to make another 4 or 6 and have them ready when I need them. I've taken my meds and I'm drinking my water.

I'm getting really excited about the Doylestown walk. I'm not as nervous about it - I think we're gonna have a great time!!

Erin, thanks for stopping by my journal and encouraging me. I really missed you while you were away - it was too "quiet" around here, if you know what I mean. :)

Onward and downward!!

10-17-2003, 08:34 AM
I'm excited about our walk, too, Doreen. I'm thinking that we'll meet and feel like old friends being reunited! :chat: I think it'll be hard to walk 'cause we'll be talking so much!

This may sound like a strange question, but what should I wear?
It's not that I'm fashion conscious or anything, but will be walking leisurely so a sweatshirt and jeans are OK, or will we be power walking so that I should wear some kind of exercise clothes? Am thinking too much?

Doreen, you are back in the game, honey. ::yes:: You're eating right, keeping track, exercising, drinking water, taking your meds. . .it doesn't get better than that. In honor of your achievement, I officially dub you today's Princess of Good Healthprincess: ! Wear your title with pride!:p

If I don't check in this weekend (I have to work tomorrow), enjoy the cheesecake bake-a-thon--you're doing something yummy and good for yourself!

Off to paper work and then the treadie. . .

10-18-2003, 03:42 PM
It's another good day. I'm feeling a little tired but overall, good!

DH and I just got back from our reconnaisance mission to....you guessed it....Doylestown! I wanted to check out where to park, where the start point is, get a copy of the trail map, etc. It was such a pretty day today and the town is such a neat place. It will be such fun to walk with some WISH friends next Saturday! I hope the weather is as beautiful next Saturday and the fall foliage will be in full color!

The trail loops around one side of town and then comes back to the middle of town and loops out to the other side, so if anyone gets tired and wants to stop halfway, it will be easy for them to get back to the start point.

By the way, Erin, I'll be wearing my usual fall gear - jeans, sneakers, a turtleneck, sweater and light jacket. I find layers are good for walking. I know we'll be chatting so I'm sure we won't be power walking. I'll put the bare essentials in my belt pack so I don't have to carry a purse. YIPPEE - we're gonna have FUN!!

Okay, I'm off to get ready for a church dinner tonight. I get to help serve and clean up. I'm such a klutz - let's hope I don't spill too much on too many. :teeth:

10-19-2003, 09:03 AM
I survived the church dinner last night - didn't spill or drop anything! :p

I did step on the scale this AM. Between pre-TOM gain and not eating right lately, it reads 136, which would be a 2 pound gain from last week. However, I'm not going to worry about it. I'll do an official weigh and measure day next Sunday and just skip this week.

B = a wonderful piece of my yummy low-carb cheesecake, lots of water and my meds. :D I'm starting the day right!

Gotta run - time for Sunday School and it's my job to walk around taking attendance and counting the offering. I like it because I'm helping the church AND getting some exercise! :sunny:

10-20-2003, 09:12 AM
Hi, Doreen!:wave2: Are you reading this at work? I hope you have a great day. Take a breather or two throughout the day to find, as I call it, your "happy place.":p That place inside yourself where you're not sweating the small stuff, you know what I mean?

I'm on my way to take the puppy to get his hair cut. He's looking more like a sheep dog and less like a Westie these days. Just wanted to wish you well, though, as we all start a new week.

Are you up to thinking about cheat free clippies? I will if you will!
How 'bout it: cheat free 'til Saturday?

Talk to you soon,

10-20-2003, 02:41 PM
I've been avoiding this journal today - always a sure sign of something wrong. :( My depression has been steadily building over the past week. Today, I could have stayed home under the covers, but I came to work anyway.

I cannot get back to eating right. It just feels overwhelming at the moment. I need to scale back my expectations for now, so no cheat free clippie for me at this point. I am trying to minimize the damage though and not totally carbing out, except for that pint of Ben & Jerry's last night :rolleyes: (what was I thinking!!).

I made an appointment to see my doctor this Friday. Hopefully he can suggest a change to my meds or something that will help me. I feel like I'm only functioning at 50% of my former self and there are days like today when I can barely get through the motions of a day. How can I feel relatively good one day and then feel like crying at the drop of a hat the next day?? The swings in mood aren't big enough to be manic-depressive, but I do notice a 4 week cycle that seems to be tied to TOM's comings and goings.

I've had such good intentions for the last week and just can't seem to follow through on them - no energy and no willpower. I guess it's back to square one for me, again......

10-20-2003, 09:58 PM
:hug: , Doreen, I'm sending you a private mail, so pick it up, OK?


10-21-2003, 08:02 AM
:sunny: :sunny: It's a brand new day, Doreen. Ease yourself into it. :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: I'm sending you lots of bright sunny thoughts and prayers for a good day. It doesn't have to be a great day. . .just a decent one, you know what I'm saying?

Your journal is where you can come to honestly talk about what you're coping with, and, maybe, get a little support from your friends. You don't have to prove anything here or be a perfect eater or water drinker. . .just dropping in and being here is enough.:D If you can't be here, for whatever reason, your WISH friends will be here with open arms.:wave:

Take care, Doreen, and hang in there.
One day at a time.


10-21-2003, 09:13 PM
I'm finally checking in for the day.

I was feeling so bad yesterday that I took some meds (prescribed, of course) to help me sleep. Well, sleep I did, straight through all last night and most of today! I'm looking forward to seeing the doctor on Friday to see what my options are, since the meds I'm on don't seem to be doing the job.

I'm also really looking forward to the Doylestown walk on Saturday. I checked the long-range weather forecast and so far Saturday looks beautiful. YAY!

Food today was NOT good but it's in the past and tomorrow is another day.

10-22-2003, 05:32 AM
Today is a new day! I just finished a WATP 1 mile walk. I thought about doing the 3 mile, but realized that was more to punish myself for being bad than out of a desire to get healthy. The one mile walk is enough to ease me back into the exercise routine.

I still have a headache and am not feeling too great but I don't feel the utter exhaustion that I felt during my "crash" the past few days.

I'm not going to say I'll eat perfectly today but I will try to make healthy choices. I have cheesecake in the fridge for breakfast - YUM - and I'll probably make a salad at lunch time. I have some chicken to use up for dinner but we have to run tonight - my son has an interview to see if he is accepted on the People to People Student Ambassador trip to Australia and New Zealand next summer. It's a 3 week trip of a lifetime and I'm so excited for him!

I don't think I'll be perfect today but I'll definitely be more on track than I've been!

10-22-2003, 06:28 AM
Good morning, Doe-Doe:p It's Wednesday a.m. and instead of writing my goals for today, I'm thinking going back to bed would be a better choice. Too bad I can't do it! Maybe my morning cup of coffee will jolt me into focus.:bounce: Anyway, have a good day and drink a glass of water for me.

:D Erin

10-23-2003, 06:40 AM
Hi, Doreen. Totally on the run this a.m.:hyper: , but wanted to drop in and wish you all the best for this new Thursday. Only two days until our walk! Saw the weather. . .it's looking like the warmer air will be back for our stroll in D-town. Can't wait!

Take care of yourself today.


10-23-2003, 10:13 AM
I'm still here and I'm not giving up! Even if I'm not totally on plan, I'm still gonna post daily to my journal.

I'm off work again today - am just so tired. :( I changed my doctor's appt. to this afternoon so hopefully he will change my anti-depressant meds to something that has a chance of working. I hate the idea of changing meds but I really think it's what I need to do.

I'm within a day or two of TOM's visit and I notice that I feel the worst the 2 weeks before TOM. My eating has not been helping but I am not going to beat myself up over it. I'm just going to note on my calendar when my danger zone is going to hit next month and I will be prepared with healthy food.

My ultimate goal has not changed. I do want to be healthier and fitter and slimmer. Even if I get derailed now and again, I am not giving up on that goal - no matter what!!

I ate cheesecake for breakfast. I'm off to drink some water and take my meds. I'll be feeling better in a few days when the hormones are done raging for this month...LOL....and then it will be so much easier for me to get back on track.

I really need the walk on Saturday. I'm excited about going!

10-23-2003, 02:11 PM
Just got back from my doctor's appointment. Bye-bye Celexa - hello Effexor SR. The doctor said the next week is gonna be horrible - withdrawing from one drug and building up another. I'm ready for horrible - how much worse can it get?? At least I can have hope that in a week or 2 the Effexor will kick in and I'll be feeling better.

I'm feeling better already, just knowing that I'm trying something different. He did order some blood work (a CBC and a TSH) just to be sure but my blood work has never shown any problems in the past so he doesn't think it will now. I go back in 4.5 weeks to check the dosage on the Effexor.

10-23-2003, 09:53 PM
Doreen, thanks for checking in and letting us know how things went at the dr. I hope that this brings about some positive changes for you. . .are you sure you're going to be feeling up to the WISH walk? :confused: I hope so--but you need to be caring for yourself, too, you know.

With a hug,

10-24-2003, 05:36 AM
Erin, I'm DEFINITELY up for the walk tomorrow! It's been the one thing keeping me going this week! :D

I'm feeling great this morning. I put my exercise clothes out last night so I could hop right into them. I just finished my WATP 2 mile workout. Today is "be good to me" day! I'm going to choose things that are good for my body, like healthy food and a little exercise.

I'm off to have a great day! :sunny:

10-24-2003, 08:31 AM
You GO, girl! Can't wait to see you tomorrow! :Pinkbounc I can't believe that we're going to walk 6.2 miles! This will be quite an accomplishment for me! If I have questions, will you guide me through my AVA registration? I'm going to look through it tonight and make sure I'm ready to go for tomorrow.

See you around 10:45 or so. . .

10-24-2003, 10:05 AM
Don't worry about the AVA stuff - I checked everything out on my reconnaisance mission last weekend. It's really easy. Now I just have to remember to bring our books....(note to self)!!

Edit: 12:45 PM
B = cheesecake
L = salad w/ ham & cheese, yum!

I'm craving something sweet but after the past week I can understand that! I'll just have to work through it. If I do actually eat something sweet, it will be low-glycemic.

I'm fighting off my afternoon sleepy slump! It could be that I'm tired or it could be the new meds or a hundred other reasons. I'm gonna hang in there!!

10-25-2003, 06:11 PM
Oh, Doreen, I had such a fun day today at our WISH walk:p ! It was so great to meet you in person--and Todd, too, of course. I felt as if I'd known you for years. I'm glad Melanie came--she was so nice, too. And of course, there were our new friends Al and Ron. . .I have a feeling we'll be seeing them again sometime!

I came home, changed, and went out with Mike to a little Mexican place around the corner. I had a Birthday Margarita to celebrate my accomplishments today and the gift of beginning another year, but tomorrow I'm going to try to be cheat free. . .I've got to get in shape for our next walk!:hyper:

Now I'm in my sweats and ready to crash. I know I'm going to sleep well tonight!

Thanks for all you did to make today such a good time--

10-26-2003, 05:41 AM
Erin, what a great time we had!!! I also feel like we've known each other for years. I'm so grateful that we got to meet and am humbled that you shared your birthday with us!!

The scale says 137 today, which is not surprising after the miserable way I've been eating lately. At least I get to keep my 5 lb loss clippie! I'm glad we walked yesterday cuz the scale said 138 yesterday morning and I would have had to give up my clippie if it were an official weigh-in day! :(

Meeting Erin and Melanie was inspiring! I will start today to be cheat free and earn back those lovely stars. I'm working on a set of cheat free clippies for myself (and anyone else) to use but they are not ready yet, so I guess I'll use the stars for now.

My new meds seem to be helping a lot and the joy of our wonderful WISH walk yesterday has lifted me up. I am confident and feeling more like my old self again.

I didn't take my measurements yet - will do that later today and post them. I'm looking at today as a new start to a healthier me!

10-26-2003, 11:24 AM
Yesterday was so great, wasn't it? You're such a lovely person, Doreen, and I'm so glad that we've been able to get to know each other. To have fun on such a beautiful day and then to have lost a pound to boot! Success for you, Doe-Doe!!:Pinkbounc I'm glad you're keeping that clippie!

So where did you and Todd end up eating lunch?

I'm glad you're feeling some success with your meds. Remember to take them every day, OK?

Laundry calls. . .will be in touch again soon.

10-26-2003, 02:06 PM
Erin, YOU were our inspiration for our snack stop after the walk! :teeth: DH has been craving Dunkin' Doughnuts and all that talk about Munchkins....well....the van practically drove itself there! :p Then we scurried home and ate leftover Subway subs. I figured I'd start my cheat free life today so I had to get the cravings and leftovers out of the way....right?? :teeth:

Now I'm back on track and have been cheat free so far today. The problem is that I don't have much low-carb stuff in the house so I have to go to the store, but I'm STARVING!! Always bad to go to the store hungry - you never know WHAT might jump in that shopping cart!

I'm off to find a cheat free snack, plan some menus and go food shopping.

10-26-2003, 03:01 PM
:rotfl: Hee-hee! I inspired Munchkin snacking! I love it!! Does this mean that I have to confess my after-the-WISHwalk snack attack? Ok. . .on my way back to the car (!) I took a wrong turn and ended up at that little ice cream parlor I told you about, Coffee and Cream. Well, it was my birthday, after all you know, so a single scoop of peanut butter ripple on a sugar cone--just to sustain me until I got back home, mind you--wasn't too bad, was it? I didn't have any cake or anything. . .REALLY!!

On to better choices: guess I have to start my cheat-free day today, just like you, since we're not having chicken wings. Waiting to tomorrow will only make matters worse--gotta put an end to my wandering-around-the-kitchen-eating-whatever-strikes-my-fancy. There's no time like the present, right?

It looks like it's going to rain soon. I'm going to put another load in the washer, grab Mickey and his leash, and head out for a quick walk.

We're going to make this our first cheat free day, Doreen.
WE CAN DO IT!:Pinkbounc :bounce:

10-26-2003, 09:46 PM
Erin, we did it! Our first cheat free day together!!

B - shredded mozzarella cheese, 2 tsp peanut butter - 10 carbs
L - egg custard (2 servings) - 6 carbs
D - cheeseburger (no bun), small baked sweet potato w/ butter - 40 carbs
TOTAL = 56 carbs!

I'm under my goal of 60 carbs per day - YAY!

DS and I took the ferocious dachshund for a 45 minute walk, so I got some exercise in.

I'm feeling good. Now that I have one cheat free day under my belt, I think it will be easier tomorrow, because I don't want to lose that lovely star clippie. I'm also going to get up early enough to do my Denise Austin Pilates tape. I ordered Winsor Pilates - it should be here in a week or two. We'll see if you really can lose inches in your tummy, hips and thighs in just 20 minutes 3 times a week! :sunny:

10-26-2003, 09:49 PM
YAY, DOREEN! WE DID IT! :Pinkbounc :bounce:

We're going onward and downward, one little day at a time.:D

'Night, Doreen!

10-27-2003, 08:21 AM
Here I go on day 2 of my cheat free journey!

B = 2 servings egg custard - 6 carbs

I did my Denise Austin Pilates workout. It was tough to get started this morning but now I'm so proud of myself!!

It's gonna be a :sunny: day in spite of the rain outside!! :p

I forgot to mention - my scale said 136 this morning - 1 pound down from yesterday!! :bounce:

10-27-2003, 08:40 AM
One pound happy dance for you, Doreen!:Pinkbounc

This Denise Austin workout has the abs in it, right? You know I admire you for that! You're my Workout Role Model for todayprincess:

I'm going to send you a PM about our next walk:D .

Have a good Monday, Doreen. I'm thinking about you.:hug:


Onward and downward, day by cheat free day. . .

10-27-2003, 10:56 AM
B = 2 servings egg custard - 6 carbs
S = trail mix - 23 carbs - 9 fiber = 14 carbs

Edit: 1:15 PM
L = small hamburger, packet of mayo, 3 large lettuce leaves = 1 carb

48 oz of water at 1 PM today.

Took my meds.

Even took a vitamin! (I was inspired & reminded by Erin's journal - THANKS!!)

I'm feeling good! All I have to do is get through an afternoon snack and a low-carb dinner and I'll have another cheat free day!!

Edit: 3:15 PM
S = sweet & salty mix - 30 carbs - 6 fiber = 24 carbs TOO MUCH!

Total carbs so far today = 45 carbs
15 carbs left for dinner - I'll be very careful!

10-27-2003, 12:32 PM
Hey, Doe-Doe, looks like you're doing great so far today! Did you take your meds like you are supposed to?

Got your PM; let's see how things go this weekend, and if they go as planned, count me in for 11/8. And as far as the Mall Walk goes. . .we'd better not wait until I get close to goal--I've still got 29 pounds to go!!!:eek: It could be years before we do that walk!:rolleyes:

Wow! It's raining quite hard right now. Maybe it's getting it out of its system so Todd can work on the roof on Sat.

'Til later,

10-27-2003, 10:09 PM
Oh, no, I'm filled with suspense? Doreen, did you make it? Did you eat 15 carbs or under for dinner?

If you did: then YAY for you! I knew you could do it! Watch out for those trail/snack mixes, though. They sound like they might almost be poisonous.

If you didn't: then {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}} for you. Don't worry about it. . .tomorrow's a new day. Besides, it's not your fault. You have to blame the poisonous trail mix.

OK, now that I have the bases covered I can go to bed. See you on Tuesday!


10-28-2003, 07:57 AM
Erin, I did it!! I had one piece of fish - 15 carbs - for dinner!! Notice my lovely cheat free star with the big 2 in the middle??!!! I noticed yours - we are on a ROLL!!!

I'm headed to the store tonight to get healthy snacks that are not as poisonous as trail mix :p !! Erin, you are right, trail mix is too carby but I was desparate yesterday and had to resort to the vending machine. The trail mix was MUCH better than anything else in there! ::yes::

I had a meeting at church last night and I was proud of myself for saying NO whenever anyone tried to push more work my way. I love to help at church, but I've served on the church board for 2 years and I'm feeling like I need to focus less energy there and more on myself and my family for a while. I have to get healthy and taking on more work and stress will not help my depression or my weight. Besides, I still help during Sunday School every other month and I send out the church bulletin and prayer chain via email all the time.

The bloat fairy has FINALLY left!! The scale is back to my low weight again AND I found my tape measure, so today is an Official Weigh-in and Measure Day!! I skipped last week so here goes:
Weight = 134 same as 2 weeks ago / -8 from start
Bust = 38 -.5 from 2 weeks ago / -1.5 from start
Chest = 32.5 same / -1
Waist = 32 +.5 / -2
Hips = 38.5 -.5 / -1.5
Thighs = 40 +.5 / -1

I am getting smaller but I wish I were losing inches faster. Of course, if I keep going with my cheat free clippies, I'll have a much better chance for success. It seems like the next 2 weeks will be the right time during my cycle to lose weight and feel great. The 2 weeks after that will bring PMS & TOM and maybe I shouldn't expect to lose during those weeks.

I met all your goals except the coffee one yesterday, Erin. :p I like the idea of drinking green tea once or twice a day, especially with the cold weather coming up. I'll have to pick up some decaf green tea at the store tonight. I like Celestial Seasons Decaf Mint Green Tea with one packet of Splenda - YUM!

This morning I've taken my meds, had 6 carbs for breakfast (more egg custard) and have started drinking my water.

Okay - enough already - looks like I'm writing a novel instead of a journal entry!! :tongue:

More later!!

10-28-2003, 08:04 AM
Doreen, here are a couple more bounces to celebrate your
EIGHT POUND WISH LOSS!:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc Goodbye, Bloat Fairy!:p

Yes, I definitely feel the same way--the next two weeks are good ones, and then I enter the DANGER ZONE. Maybe we can come up with some good coping strategies for PMS and TOM. . .

Sounds like you are well on your way to having a GREAT day. The
:sunny: is shining here. Hope you're seeing it, too. Enjoy!:cool: It's supposed to rain tonight!

Catch up with you later,

10-28-2003, 01:48 PM
B = 2 servings egg custard - 6 carbs
L = salad, cheese, tangy tomato dressing - 10 carbs

Water so far today = 64 oz and I'm still drinkin'!! Don't think I'll need to exercise - I'm wearing out the carpet at work walking back & forth to the ladies room and the water cooler! :p

Just took my vitamin.

I'm really feeling good and am getting a decent amount of work done today at the office. Maybe all this work misery is tied to my depression and when I'm feeling better, the work goes easier and doesn't seem too bad. I'll have to keep my eye on this!

Edit: 9 PM
S = crackers & cheese - 12 carbs
D = not really hungry but I ate an ounce of mixed nuts - 4 carbs

Total carbs today = 32
I feel good but I don't think I ate enough calories. :(

I stocked up on snacks at the store so I'll do better tomorrow.

Time to change my star clippie and head to bed.

10-28-2003, 10:19 PM
I'm on my way to bed, too, Doreen, but I had to stop by and see how you did. AND YOU HAD A FANTASTIC DAY!:Pinkbounc I'm happy for you!

I was glad to hear that you set some comfortable boundaries for yourself at the church meeting. If you're the kind of person who likes to help, it's hard to say no sometimes, but it's something we all have to learn how to do if we're going to respect our limits.

I'm ready to fall into bed!

PS Your water drinking has inspired me for tomorrow. I'm going to drink gallons!

10-29-2003, 07:59 AM
Good morning, Doreen. I'm sending a sprinkling of pixie dust your way:wizard: to make today an easy cheat free day! Try to eat enough today, OK? Oh, and don't forget your meds and your vitamin.:D

Looks like Todd will have a good weekend to work on the roof if those are still your plans. New Hope here we come?


10-29-2003, 08:19 AM
Thanks for the pixie dust and the reminders, Erin! :D They really do help....I just found my meds in my purse and have taken my pill. :sunny: I also found my vitamins and put them out on the desk where I'll see them at lunchtime.

Did my Pilates tape this morning. Had string cheese and nuts for breakfast - 5 carbs. I feel really full!! I brought my new decaf green mint tea to work and will have it for my 10 AM break this morning.

This is all feeling easy at the moment - almost too easy. I'm hoping that it's a cycle thing - that these two weeks I'll feel really motivated and on the ball. Then when the tough times hit, if I know it's only going to be tough for 2 weeks, I can do my best to be prepared and push through it. If this pattern holds true, it will be a real breakthrough for me in understanding why I sometimes am so motivated and sometimes struggle so much. I will be able to stop beating myself up for these changes as if I have a character flaw and just accept them as my body's normal rhythm. That would be such a relief and a real boost to my self-esteem!!

I think I'll go back through my journal and see if I can identify this pattern in my past entries.

I really didn't mind coming to work in the rain - I had my Mickey umbrella to make me smile! It's the black one with the Mickey face and the ears that stand up! ::MickeyMo I'm just crazy enough to use it and not mind if other people find it odd! :crazy:

More later!

Edit: 2:15 PM
Have had 36 oz water and 12 oz green tea - can we count the green tea as water??? I took my vitamin with lunch. I had to force myself to eat because I really wasn't hungry. Had a small salad for lunch with cheese, ham, olives, etc. and I figure it was under 20 carbs so I'll count it as 20 just to be sure.

Total carbs so far today = 25 - I'm doing good!!

I'm off to refill my Disney refillable mug with more water!! :D

Edit: 8:15 PM
My total water was 56 oz + 12 oz green tea = 68 oz - not bad!
D = ham, baked beans, SF jello, whipped cream - 18 carbs
Total carbs today = 43 - way under my limit!

I did pretty well today but I'm tired so I'm going to bed early - right after I update my cheat free clippie! :teeth:

10-29-2003, 09:07 PM
Hi, Doreen. You're tired like I'm tired. If you read my last journal entry you'll see I wrote "to go to go." Too tired to correct it. You wrote that Tuesday is a long day for me--and it is, but Doreen, today is Wednesday!;) Isn't it?????

Sounds like you had a good day. In weight watchers you can only count a liquid as water if it's decaf, but your green tea is decaf, isn't it?

Re: "the cycle thing.". .would you be interested in hearing my PMDD/PMS story? If you are, I'll PM you with it (it may take a couple of PMs!). It's nothing earth shattering or newsworthy, but I can tell you what I learned about my own cycles and how it changed my understanding of myself. Let me know.

OK, I'm off to watch "THe Bachelor.":rolleyes: I just can't help it. I have to have a dose of mindless television sometimes!

Talk to you tomorrow.
Cheat free and loving it,

10-30-2003, 06:19 AM
Doreen, have a great cheat-free day. It doesn't sound like you're finding it to be hard right now--at the moment you're sailing smoothly through the zone! You go, girl. You're getting closer to that 10 pound clippie every day. I can't wait to see it in your signature.

Take your meds and vitamin and keep drinking that water. You are truly inspiring me every day. Remember to eat enough, though. You don't want to sabotage your losses by not eating enough!

It looks like we're over the rain hump and headed toward sunny skies. YAY! Maybe Mickey and I can get out for a walk tomorrow?

Have a good one--

10-30-2003, 08:26 AM
Erin, I'd definitely be interested in hearing your PMDD/PMS story! This whole idea of tying my depression to my cycle is new and intriguing to me. I have started going through my journal and marking a calendar for the days when my moods were low and/or I was really craving. I want to compare that with my cycle and see if there's a pattern. I'll post the results when I finish so I can remember them. This journal is awesome for helping me remember! You never know if I might pick up some clues about me from your story! Let the PMs begin - but make sure you save it until you have some extra free time. So many of your days seem awfully full already!!

You are right about me being tired last night...LOL!! Don't know what I was thinking :confused: !! I actually went to bed before 9 o'clock!

This morning I've had an EAS AdvantEdge bar for breakfast - 4 net carbs, and I've already had 12 oz water. I'm off to refill my mug and take my meds.

I have my vitamins out on my desk again - it's so easy to remember to take them with lunch when they're in such an obvious place!!

I'm feeling pretty good today, although a little tired. I think I'm getting stressed about the party at my house tomorrow evening. We're celebrating my brother's birthday and taking my niece trick-or-treating. Of course I have plenty of cleaning to do this evening - it may be a "stash-n-dash" night - don't think I can get it all done properly :p !! The kids each cleaned a room last night so that was a big help - they wanted to stay up an extra hour to watch "Angel" and were willing to work for the privilege :p . They cleaned and I went to bed!!

Today will be another good day!! I have to walk at lunch because I did not get up and do my Pilates workout. I've been crocheting an afghan at lunchtime but I didn't even bring it along to work today. I didn't want to be tempted to sit and crochet when I really need to get a good walk in. Exercise must be a priority or I'll never drop this extra weight.

More later!!

Edit: 1 PM
Had 1 oz mixed nuts for a snack - 4 net carbs, and 3 oz ham + my vitamin for lunch - 0 carbs. Total so far = 8 carbs today, and I feel stuffed!!

Water - 48 oz so far today.

I did NOT feel like walking at lunch - had a case of the lazies - but I made myself go outside and walk 1 mile. I feel better now that I've done it. Sometimes I have to really kick myself in the butt to get going!!

Edit: 8 PM
D = Wendy's Chicken BLT salad - 17 net carbs
Total for today = 25 carbs - WOW!!

Drank 64 oz water - pretty good

Time to update my clippie, pick up the kids from band rehearsal, clean a little and then in bed by 9 PM!!

Castillo Mom
10-30-2003, 06:47 PM
Hi Doreen! Good to see you're still hanging in there. Stopped by to say a quick hello, still working long hours. Say, when you get a chance, I's like to hear more about Pilates, sounds interesting. Take care!:D

10-31-2003, 08:04 AM
I've made it 5 days without a cheat! Today will be tough with all the candy around but I don't want to lose my star clippie. Hopefully that will help motivate me to stay away from the poison!

I'm having string cheese and nuts for breakfast as I type, and of course I'm drinking water and getting ready to take my meds. I have my vitamins out on the desk so I remember them at lunchtime.

I'm tired today - I think it's the stress over the party tonight. I'll do fine, though. The house is clean (mostly thanks to DH and the kids) and the little food I had to make is already finished. My mom is bringing the rest of the meal and coming early (before I get home from work) to get everything set up. It should be an easy evening but I'm sure I'll be sleeping in tomorrow morning! :D

On to a great cheat-free and fun day!! :sunny:

10-31-2003, 08:17 AM
Goooood morniiiinnng, Doreeeeen! (That's my singing voice!:D )
Happy Halloween to you! I hope you're taking a moment to celebrate your Lean and Mean by Halloween status! Your goal was to lose 5 and you lost 8!!!:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc
Even when times were tough and you gained a little back, you lost it and went on to victory!!! I'm so happy for you today!

I'm feeling tired myself. It's Friday. That's usually how I am by Friday. . .I always need the weekend. It sounds like you have the party plans under control, but I'd be stressed out:crazy2: You sound like things are under control. Does your mom live nearby?
Will she spend the night?

Look for my PM soon.

Be good to yourself today, Doreen. It takes work to treat ourselves right, but we know we're worth it!


10-31-2003, 08:28 AM
Erin, if my parents were spending the night, I'd be well beyond stressed and into totally freaked out!! :laughing: My mom was born clean and organized and I was born cleaning-impaired and disorganized! :P They live an hour away and my brother, his DW and DD live half an hour away. My parents are bringing my grandma too, who lives 45 minutes away. They are all very sweet and I'm sure we'll have a good time, as long as they don't venture into my bedroom where all the laundry got dumped....LOL!

Edit: 2 PM
B = 2 oz string cheese & 1 oz mixed nuts - 5 carbs
L = 3 oz can tuna - 0 carbs
Water = 64 oz so far

I have the munchies. I'm doing my best to resist them though because I know they are emotion-related! My tummy is actually feeling quite full but my mouth just wants something to keep busy....:p I'm doing so well today that I am NOT going to let emotional eating derail me!

Besides, I got a "have you lost weight?" comment from a coworker today - my first since joining WISH. My jeans are loose and I had to move my belt over one notch. I'm looking forward to Sunday's weigh-in and measurement check because I think I've made some serious progress this week. Today the scale was at 134 - my usual - but it could move in 2 days. At least I'm pretty sure my measurements will show some inches gone!

10-31-2003, 03:53 PM
Oooh, a compliment!:Pinkbounc I wonder what kind of reduction in your measurements you're going to see on Sunday? Only two more days 'til you find out!

It sounds like you're meeting the challenges of the day as they're sprung on you. Keep drinking that water to minimize the stress-munchies. (I always have them when my in-laws visit, but it happens to me after they leave for some reason.):confused: Are you allowed sugar free gum or celery sticks on low carb? Some-times the chewing motion of those helps me.

I hope you have fun tonight. Remember, these people who love you are happy just to be with you, and you're quite kind and generous to have everyone over at the end of a long work week!:angel:

I hope you'll be able to grab some Doe-time for yourself tomorrow.

Take care, friend,

10-31-2003, 08:45 PM
Carbs so far today = 5
S = 1.5 oz. ham - 0 carbs
D = 3 oz chicken, spaghetti sauce, 3 bites spaghetti pie, green beans - I'm going to overestimate 20 carbs, just in case
Dessert = sugar free pumpkin custard, whipped cream - again I'm going to estimate 20 carbs, just in case

Total carbs today = 45 or less?
I estimated high since my mom made the spaghetti pie and the pumpkin custard. She told me the ingredients so I know I estimated high.

I had no candy and didn't really want any! Today I can honestly say that the candy wouldn't taste as good as thin feels! I'm feeling incredibly strong and positive.

The party was fun and not very stressful at all. My 3 year old niece had on her sweatpants and coat, and on top of that she had a grass skirt, little top, lei and flower bracelet - she was the cutest little hula dancer!! :D She got a lot of comments on how original her costume was and how cute she looked! I unfortunately didn't get a picture. :(

Now, everyone is gone and things are cleaned up. We're hanging out until 10 PM when we have to pick up the kids. They had their last football game tonight (an away game).

Tomorrow I'm sleeping in and DH is going to his dad's house to finish that old roof! We are both hoping to be in New Hope next Saturday! ::yes::

I'm off to update my lovely cheat free clippie - I made it through Halloween!!

11-01-2003, 05:32 AM
You Did It! :Pinkbounc You made it through Halloween and kept your cheat free clippie, hooray!:bounce:

It sounds like you all had a nice evening together; you niece and her costume sounded adorable. Now I hope that you can rest today and recharge your batteries. I'm going to pick up DD from a sleepover at 6:30 a.m. and meet a friend to go to a super huge outdoor market at 7:30--we're going to try to jump start our holiday shopping, so I'll recharge my batteries this afternoon with a nice little nap!

Good going, Doreen. You went to a lot of effort to ensure your success and it paid off--another day CHEAT FREE!

Tell Todd to be careful on the roof!

:wave2: Erin

11-01-2003, 08:21 AM
Here's to another cheat-free day today!! :bounce:

I slept in until 7:30 - sounds early but I'm usually up at 5 AM. :p

My scale likes me - said 133 this morning!! I will be good all day so it will say 133 again tomorrow and I can count it as another pound officially GONE! I can't wait to take my measurements tomorrow!!

It's a beautiful day! I plan to kick back and relax! The kids and I will probably go see Brother Bear, I'll take a nice long stroll with the puppy, and I'll work on my afghan. Those are the 3 things I want to do today. The rest of the cleaning, etc. can wait!

I'll update my food as the day goes on, but you can bet I'll be cheat free!

11-02-2003, 06:38 AM
Official Weigh-in & Measure Day Results!
Weight = 132 -2 / -10 (clippie for me!!!!!)
Bust = 38 same / -1.5
Chest = 32 -.5 / -1.5
Waist = 31 -1 / -3
Hips = 39 +.5 / -1
Thighs = 39.5 -.5 / -1.5

My clothes are feeling looser. Measuring hips consistently is tough so I'm not worried about the increase there.

I had a good day yesterday with my food. Ate a protein bar (3 carbs), string cheese (0 carbs), leftover chicken in spaghetti sauce (10 carbs), pumpkin custard w/ whipped cream (10 carbs).

Total carbs yesterday = 23

I seem to be doing better at a lower carb level. Maybe I should be trying for under 40 carbs per day? I think I'll leave my goal for cheat free at under 60 carbs but I'll aim for under 40.

The only thing I did yesterday was work on the afghan - I ignored everything else (except for 3 loads of laundry). I was just so absorbed in it and moving along at such a good pace. I got a lot done! I will have to get some things done around the house today and truly must get the puppy out for her walk!

Today is a new day and I'm feeling strong! I'm off to update my clippies!!

11-02-2003, 06:49 AM
YIPPEE for a CLIPPEE!!!!!:jumping1: I KNEW TODAY WOULD BE YOUR DAY!!:Pinkbounc :bounce: :Pinkbounc

When I woke up, I thought, "ooh, I wonder if Doreen's been up and posted yet--today could be the day," and sure enough, IT IS!

You're only 5 pounds from your goal, Doreen! Celebrate your accomplishments today by treating yourself right!

Sharing your joy,

11-02-2003, 04:17 PM
Today I've had a protein bar (2 carbs), string cheese (0), and half a grilled cheese sandwich on dark bread (19).

Total carbs = 21 so far.

I really must eat some veggies and meat for dinner!!

Saw Brother Bear with the kids - I liked it but not as much as I liked Lion King or Little Mermaid. I do LOVE the vivid colors they used - they always look so awesome on a large movie screen!

Edit: 9:45 PM
Dinner was fish and green beans - 24 carbs.

Total for today = 45 carbs.
Took my meds and vitamin.
Water = 56 oz.

All in all, it was a good day, in spite of a nasty headache. I didn't go to church or to my church board meeting so I'm feeling guilty about that. I'll have to really think about why I'm avoiding it.

I'm off to update my cheat-free clippie. The next week should be another good week for me and then I'll be in my 2 week danger zone. I think during my danger zone, my only goal will be to not gain or to only gain 2-3 bloat fairy pounds. I also must get back into my daily exercise routine. I haven't been walking as much without my pedometer so I see another one in my future.

I did get a lot more of my daughter's afghan done today. ::yes::

11-03-2003, 08:48 AM
:wave2: Hi, Doreen! Here's a {{{hug}}} as you start a new week. Are you feeling any better? How's the headache? Hopefully this :sunny: day will chase the pain away.

You didn't feel well, so you stayed home from the meeting. I don't think you should feel guilty, but you think you were avoiding things? Maybe it was because you felt like they were going to be asking you to do more? Sometimes the thought of knowing you're going to have to say "no" is tough. Maybe, though, you were just taking care of yourself? Maybe you just needed a weekend "off." A pajama day?

I can tell from my journal writings that I'm in serious need of a Pajama Day; actually, my whole family is! We need to just crash, stay in our pajamas all day, and order out a pizza!::yes:: Too much stress the last weekend. Actually a lot of it is because DD is feeling a serious crunch because it's the end of the marking period and she has tons of projects due and is STILL making up things from our vacation (she's just been having problems getting it all together). But those are my issues, not yours!:rolleyes:
Anyway, scheduling a pajama day is OK, I think. As long as it doesn't turn into a pajama week or a pajama month!:p

Anyway, you know I'm thinking about you today. Take your vitamin, drink your water, and take your meds.


PS What do you think about New Hope? Should we leave it alone
or make a tentative plan? You decide what's best for you guys.

11-03-2003, 08:50 AM
Here we are - another Monday morning! I could have stayed in bed today but I talked myself into coming to work. :D Now that I'm here, I'm feeling good and I think it will be a good day!

I actually FORGOT to get on the scale this morning! Breakfast was some pumpkin custard & whipped cream - 10 carbs.

I'm drinking my water and have taken my meds.

Edit: 10 AM
S - 1 oz mixed nuts - 4 carbs
Total = 14 carbs

Edit: 1:45 PM
L - salad w/ stuff on it <grin> - 16 carbs
Total = 30 carbs

11-03-2003, 10:14 AM
:hug: Extra hugs for you, Doreen. Thank you for being such a great friend and for always giving me such encouragement. You're such a special person and such a light in my life.

You're right, you know. Maybe I should take a Pajama Day next Saturday. . .:faint: before I flop! Just knowing I have a little space in my life will help my present attitude. My sister-in-law called yesterday and would like us all to get together and have an early Thanksgiving!:scared1: I'd better not even go there today. Re: New Hope. . .who knows, maybe I can get DH to just walk around New Hope with me? It'll depend on the weather.

As you can see, I haven't left for the workshop yet. . .better get a move on.

I'm lifting you up today in my heart and in my prayers.

11-04-2003, 06:09 AM
Good morning, Doreen. Happy Tuesday!:wave: I just wanted to stop in and wish you well as you go forward into this new lo-carb day of yours. Remember that you're working toward a healthier, happier you, and it's a step by step, day by day kind of thing. We can only do what we can do, just trying our best.


11-04-2003, 08:12 AM
I had a Wendy's chicken BLT salad for dinner. I never eat the grape tomatoes and it looks like they are the carbiest (is that a word??) thing in the salad. Wendy's website says I should count 16 carbs but I bet it's less.

16 dinner carbs + 30 earlier carbs = 46 carbs for the day.
I did take my vitamin and drank only about 48 oz water.

Today I'll drink 64 oz water before leaving work. That's 4 of my 16 oz mugs - so 1 mug every 2 hours.

I'm feeling tired but my moods have been pretty good.

Edit: 9:30 AM
16 oz water, meds taken, B (string cheese & nuts) = 4 carbs.
Thanks for reminding me about my clippie, Erin! You're so sweet to be looking out for me!! ::yes::

Edit: 12:45 PM
48 oz water total, vitamin taken, protein bar for lunch - 4 carbs so my total so far is 8 carbs, walked 1 mile during lunch - beautiful sunny day!!

Edit: 3:30 PM
70 oz water total - WOW!
Nothing planned for dinner - always risky....

Edit: 8:30 AM the next day!! LOL!
D = 1/2 PBJ - 16 carbs and pumpkin custard with whipped cream 10 carbs
Total for the day = 34 carbs.....YAY!

11-04-2003, 08:18 AM
:earsgirl: Hey, girlfriend, don't forget to change your clippie!
You're cheat-free again!:jumping3:

11-04-2003, 12:25 PM
Hi, you lost 2 lbs- fabulous:Pinkbounc :bounce: Only 5 lbs from goal - wow you are a true motivating force! I've read part of your journal and great! You are doing so well and with the added stress of family - yikes:rolleyes:

Isn't it wonderful when someone notices that we look better? I got the same question yesterday and it made my day. I'm so happy for you. You deserve it, you are keeping to plan, cheat-free and all- and no candy - awesome:wave2:

11-05-2003, 06:31 AM
So, Doreen. How did it turn out? Did you have a good dinner? I bet you did, because you, girl, are on a roll!::yes:: You're really doing a great job; lo-carb is so challenging (where's the candy?!?) and you're doing it!:Pinkbounc

Oooh, I like your new clippie. You KNOW I have to copy you now and trade in my old cheat-free star. This one is just more appropriate since I don't have any aspirations to go 100 days without counting points. I'll have to go get the clipart from the boards when I get time.

Doreen, stop and smell the roses today at work and rejoice: it's hump day!:Pinkbounc

11-05-2003, 08:43 AM
Erin, I see you found the cute little bear clippie! I'm proud of you - you are becoming a clip art PRO! ::yes::

Total carbs yesterday = 34 so I have updated my little bear buddie. Thanks to Jody (Wovenwonder) for designing the adorable new set of cheat free clippies!! :D This little guy makes me smile! :teeth:

Thanks to both of you, Erin & MeMe, for your support and encouragement. You are making this road easier and definitely more fun!! I can't wait to check in every day (sometimes more often!!) to see how you are doing. I also work harder at staying on track because I have to come here and report in. I know you will stick with me either way, but it's much more fun to report being good than being naughty :tongue: because then I usually also get to report that the scale went DOWN!!

Speaking of the scale, it's happily holding at 132, and I'm content with that until Thanksgiving. Sometimes maintaining for me is tougher than actually pushing for a couple days to lose. No more yo-yo :yo-yo: scales for me!!

Today is gonna be a good one!! I'm physically tired but my moods have been so much better the past 2 weeks. I really started feeling good the day of the Doylestown WISH Walk and I think it was the fun and the good company. Well, maybe it had something to do with switching my anti-depressant medicine around the same time too. :p For whatever reason, I'm feeling better and I'm grateful for that! Now, we'll see what happens over the next 2 weeks during the "downer" part of my month.

I'm feeling happy and strong. My clothes are fitting better. I'm proud of the way I've been taking care of me and losing some of my extra weight. Life is good!! :sunny:

Edit: 10:15 AM
32 oz water so far, meds taken, 1 oz nuts - 4 carbs

Edit: 1 PM
48 oz water so far, vitamin taken, protein bar (2 carbs), total carbs = 6

Edit: 1:45 PM
poisonous trail mix with half the M&Ms removed (19 carbs), total carbs = 25

Edit: 5:45 AM next morning
D = fried chicken breast - YUM! 10 carbs
Total carbs = 35

11-05-2003, 01:53 PM

Way to go Doreen! 10 Days
CHEAT FREE! Woo Hoo Girl!

11-06-2003, 05:49 AM
Yesterday I finished with 35 carbs for the day - YAY! I'll edit my little bear buddie after I finish this post. I've made it 11 days cheat free!!

I pledged to walk a mile last night but things got too hectic at home so I'm up early today. I just finished the WATP 2 mile walk - one mile for yesterday and one for today! :sunny: Thanks, Erin, for helping to motivate me back into the exercise groove!

I'm feeling good again! I have a roast to put into the crock-pot for dinner tonight so I won't have to wonder all day about what's for dinner. I really must plan to do this more often!

The scale is holding at 132 - HOORAY!

I'm off to check on my buddies and update my clippie - more later.

Edit: 9:30 AM
32 oz water, meds, exercise, roast in the crock-pot, string cheese - 0 carbs
Erin, you are welcome at my house anytime, leftovers or not!! ::yes::

Edit: 11:45 AM
64 oz water, vitamin, 1 oz mixed nuts - 4 carbs

Edit: 3 PM
fried chicken breast - 10 carbs, today's total = 14 carbs

Edit: 8 PM
roast beef, 1/2 C instant mashed potatoes, SF jello & whipped cream - 20 carbs, today's total = 34 carbs

I actually fled the kitchen because the kids are eating poison carb food for dessert. I figure posting here will keep me out of trouble.
I'm going to update my cheat free clippie now to reduce my temptation.

11-06-2003, 08:27 AM
Doreen, I wish I could tell you how your sunny:sunny: attitude and warm spirit are helping me today. We've been having quite a struggle with DD and end of the marking period deadlines (mostly because of our WDW/DCL trip), and I'm starting today on the low side. She's such a good kid and a good student, but she's been really having a tough time of it. My schedule during the week doesn't help things. . .Anyway, your posts to my journal and your entry here, though, are perking me up and helping me to smile and get on with things. Thank you!:D

You're exercising again! YAY! Your body is thanking you for it!:Pinkbounc It's particularly important that you do this for yourself as you approach the D-Zone. You--and me both, sister--need as many endorphins (sp?) pumping through our bodies as we can get to ease the hormonal ride that's coming up!

I'm jealous of your roast, Doreen. Can I come over around 8:30 to nibble on your leftovers?:p It sounds like such comforting food on a drizzly gray day like today.

OK, I'm off and out the door to work. Going to stop by MeMe's and give her the training website. DHs gift (the marathon walking book) came yesterday--it's quite motivating!

:hug: , Doe-Doe

11-06-2003, 10:29 PM
Ya gotta love the power of the clippie! It'll ease the temptation of poison carb desserts every time!:p

Congratulations on another cheat-free day, Doreen. Can you believe that we're almost at the two week mark?:Pinkbounc Keep on keeping on!


11-07-2003, 08:07 AM
I avoided the poison carb desserts last night AND I brought a bunch of the leftover Halloween candy (stuff we didn't give out to trick-or-treaters) to the coffee area at work to get it out of the house. I've been good - haven't had even one piece of candy BUT the next two weeks will test me so I figured I'd get rid of the temptations!! My coworkers will take care of that candy in no time! :cool:

On to today! It's Friday AND pay day!! :Pinkbounc

We have NOTHING on the calendar for tonight and all day tomorrow - WOW! We're due for some serious veg time!

8 AM
1 oz mixed nuts - 4 carbs, meds, drinking water

Edit: 11:30 AM
OH NO!! I'm in Munchie Mode! I'm not especially hungry but I feel like eating EVERYTHING IN SIGHT!! Why does this happen?? I've been doing so well. This may be the start of the D-Zone!!!

string cheese - 1 carb, protein bar - 3 carbs, 32 oz water so far, total carbs so far = 8 carbs

OK, I've got to try to hang in there and not despair. This will pass - I am NOT panicking! I'm going to go make myself a cup of decaf green tea. I'm FREEZING at work today - working with my coat on and my fingers frozen. :( Being cold definitely heightens my anxiety level.

One thing at a time - off to make decaf green tea......

Edit : 1:45 PM
16 oz decaf mint green tea, vitamin, nap

I took a nap over lunch hour and slept pretty sound!! I am extra tired so I'll make an effort to get more sleep this weekend. I'm still feeling like munching but I haven't given in yet. The evil poisonous trail mix in the vending machine is calling me.........:eek:

Edit: 2:15 PM
3 oz can of tuna - 0 carbs

Edit: 3:45 PM
Almost done at work - I'm gonna make it cheat-free!! YAY!
64 oz liquid (48 oz water, 16 oz tea) total
Only 8 carbs so far today and I really feel full!
I still have the urge to nibble but so far, so good.

Edit: 8:15 PM
2 pieces pizza w/ veggies on top - 40 carbs
Total for today = 48 carbs
I'm still cheat free!! This was a tough one though!! I'm going to update my clippie before I change my mind and eat poisonous carb stuff!!

11-07-2003, 09:26 AM
Hi, Doreen! I'm doing the Friday Happy Dance!:Pinkbounc Relax and enjoy the weekend--I know I'm going to!:teeth:

What a great idea to bring that extra candy into work! Sometimes it's too risky to have those goodies--oops, I mean baddies--in the house.

I hope you have an easy cheat-free day! I'll be peaking in on you later just to check.:p


11-07-2003, 08:43 PM
Hang in there, Doreen. Be strong! One of us has to be!:rolleyes:
Do you really think we're entering the zone already?:worried:If we are, we're in for a rough two weeks!:p Hide the cookies!!!

Gosh, I wish I could tell you how thankful I am to have you to talk to and to laugh with about all this. :hug: to you.


11-08-2003, 09:59 AM
I survived cheat free yesterday, just barely!

Today the scale says 132 - YAY! I've maintained this week and that makes me happy! Let's hope I'm still at 132 tomorrow for my official weigh-in.

Breakfast for me was some leftover roast beef. Meds have been taken. I'm drinking water. Made lots of poisonous carb food for breakfast for the family & Steph's friend who slept over and none of it even tempted me.

I wish my Winsor Pilates DVDs would get here. I decided to work on one area of my body - my abs. This workout promises to target that area in particular, along with my hips and thighs, which are my other problem areas. I figure if I trim down those areas I should be able to easily fit into size 10s. If the truth be told, I'd rather get into 8s. I really don't believe I can do it though. 10s are the most I can hope for. I guess it's just the way I'm built. :(

Edit: 4:45 PM
L = 2 servings egg custard - 6 carbs

11-08-2003, 12:05 PM
Good morning, Doreen, or maybe good afternoon?! It's one of those days, and I'm loving it!:p Congratulations on making it through yesterday cheat-free. Get today over with and you're at the two week mark--WOW! I know that you'll be strong; tomorrow's weigh-in and you want to see that 132 holding fast and firm. Or maybe lower??

How are you feeling these days? Do you think the med change was a good one, or is it to early to tell for sure?

Talk some more about ab workouts--you know that it impresses the heck out of me.::yes:: If you like the Windsor Pilates, I might have to try it so I can get into my skinny jeans! I showed them to Mike and he said, "are those Elizabeth's?" Keep in mind DD wears a 3 or a 5. . .men, ya gotta love 'em.

Well, I'm off to do a couple of chores and then settle in with my crocheting for an hour. . .or more. . .or less. It's a "whatever" kind of day.:D

Thanks for supporting me through my cheating last night. I know that you understand, but I'd hate to think that you were feeling at any time like I'd left you standing all alone, struggling to be strong. Do you know what I mean?

Have a :sunny: day, Doreen.

11-08-2003, 09:27 PM
Hi, Doreen. Just a quick "good luck" for your weigh-in tomorrow. You should be so proud of yourself: you have really walked the walk this week!::yes:: You've eaten right, taken your meds and vitamins, done some exercising, made healthy food choices, actively worked to reduce temptations. . .you've made taking care of YOU a priority. Congratulations, girlfriend!:Pinkbounc


11-09-2003, 05:55 AM
Well, it's time for me to start over. ::yes:: The question is, do I start over today or tomorrow?? Last night I had 2 snack size candy bars so Mr. Bear will be taking a break. I didn't go too far over my carbs for the day, so I'm not worried about it. I'm just not sure if I want to have some more goodies today or get right back on track. :D

I'll weigh and measure later, after the family wakes up. :p

11-09-2003, 07:12 AM
Good morning, Doreen! What a great attitude you've got going! Yep, you need to think through when you want to get back into the program--only you can decide for sure.::yes:: Were those candy bars yummy? :p Maybe you can allow yourself a little bit of indulging during the d-zone to kind of take the edge off? For example, if chocolate is your weakness, maybe one little snack-sizer a day could be included 'til you've come through to the other side into safety?:D

I'm curious as to what you'll see when you measure today. Keep me posted!


11-09-2003, 10:36 AM
Official Weigh-In and Measure Results
Weight = 131 -1 / -11
Bust = 38 same / -1.5
Chest = 32 same / -1.5
Waist = 31 same / -3
Hips = 38 -1 / -2
Thighs = 39.25 -.25 / -1.75

Well, at least my hips & thighs are shrinking...

B = 2 servings egg custart - 6 carbs

I'm not sure if I'll be cheat free or not today. I'm going to take things as they come. I do know that I'm not planning on a major carb binge but I'm not sure if I'll stay under 60 carbs.

I'm off to play basket bingo this afternoon. It's a benefit for the non-profit child care center that my kids attended when they were smaller. DH is on the board. I've never played basket bingo before but I'm sure it will be fun. My mom and grandma are going with me. They're selling food there, so I may have some soup or something.

Onward and downward! :sunny:

11-09-2003, 11:06 AM
Oh, my gosh, another pound and lots of inches!!:jumping1: Yippee for you, Doreen!

Have fun playing basket bingo; maybe you'll come home with a lovely new basket or piece of pottery!


11-10-2003, 07:57 AM
Yesterday was carby but fun! My DD won a basket - she was SO excited, especially since she really didn't want to go in the first place (we had an extra ticket and I MADE her go :teeth: ).

Today I'm going to try something new and different food-wise. I'm going to do a grapefruit fast for the day. I've been looking into this lately as a way to clean out my system and alter the pH of my blood. Don't know if I'll like it or not, but it's just for one day. Tomorrow I'll be back on the low-carb plan and earning my cheat-free bear back.

I took the day off work, so I could make it a long weekend. Tomorrow is a state holiday so I'll be off then too. I have SOOOO much work to do here that I"m going to set my timer for 10 minutes, work on one room and then reset for another 10 minutes and move on to the next room. I hope to see a big improvement in the house today! I'll check in during my scheduled breaks and post how it's going - that will help me stay on track.

More later!

11-10-2003, 08:39 AM
Good morning, Doreen. The weather channel said that today we're supposed to have "plentiful sunshine.":sunny: It's a good way to start the week, isn't it?

I'm intrigued by your g-fruit fast today. It sounds like a great way to break the monotony of the daily day-to-day; I'd like to hear more about what it's supposed to do to your ph.

Hey, tell Steph congrats on her basket! Do you collect Longaberger? I've received several as gifts from friends and students (ok, I'll admit it, I've bought a couple, too;) ); they're so pretty.

I have to admit, I'm quite envious of your extra-long weekend--it sounds great. Just make sure you take some "me time" in there. Maybe that's what your scheduled breaks are for? I know that when our house is clean and orderly, my life feels more orderly and calm. Too bad my house isn't clean and orderly more often!:p

News from the weekend--my father-in-law fell out of a tree and cracked a vertebrae and my in-laws are coming to our house for the early Thanksgiving my SIL hinted around at!:eek: Actually, neither is quite as bad as they sound!:D My DFIL should be home from the hospital today with a brace to help his healing. We're just grateful it wasn't worse.

OK, we're off to a new week. Onward and downward, girlie!

11-10-2003, 08:54 AM
8:50 AM
Okay, the first hour of work is finished - YAY! I worked 10 minutes each in the kitchen, the main bath, the master bath, and the master bedroom. I just go into the room, start the timer, and look around for what bugs me the most! :tongue: It's working - things are looking better! It also helps to have the radio cranked up - today I'm listening to country music!

Ate my first grapefruit around 7:30. I'm already feeling hungry! Now I remember why I low-carb - I never have this gnawing empty feeling in my stomach! :p Oh well, I'm drinking my water and already took my meds and will get through another hour of work before I decide if I want another grapefruit.

What can I say about blood pH in a paragraph? Your body prefers slightly alkaline blood. Unfortunately, we tend to eat a lot of alkaline food which pushes our blood pH to be more acidic (don't know why it works that way). If you eat acidic foods, like citrus fruit, it will push your blood's pH toward the alkaline side. That's the theory in a nutshell, but I'll try to explain later what an alkaline pH does for your body.

I only have one or two Longaberger baskets. Steph won a pretty nice one yesterday - my mom says it's probably worth about $50.

Next up - DS' room, DD's room, the hall / closet and the living room. Here we go!!

Edit: 10:30 AM
There are 4 more rooms lookin' better! I just finished another grapefruit - my second of the day. I STILL feel hungry but I'll work for another hour. Not sure I can make it all day like this! :D I'm so used to eating REAL food.

I know 10 minutes doesn't seem like much time but at least I can get the room looking better and see quick results. Flylady always says that even housework done incorrectly still blesses your family. I'd love to get back on her regular cleaning schedule but I'm so far behind that I felt like I needed to jumpstart things.

Next up - the dining room, stairs / foyer, family room, and laundry room.

11-10-2003, 01:52 PM
2 PM or thereabouts :D

So much for my experiment! :teeth: I couldn't take it anymore and ate REAL food for lunch. This was after the nap I took because I was so tired. I think I'll stick with low-carb!!

Now I'm back on track and have spent time in the dining room, stairs / foyer, and the family room. I still have 10 minutes in the laundry room to do and that's next on the list. The house is looking better. Of course there's lots more to do but seeing each room just a little neater and cleaner lifts my spirits.

I am getting exercise today - working up quite a sweat trying to race the clock in each room. I also am managing to fit laundry in here and there.

11-11-2003, 06:33 AM
Since it's rainy out today, I'm sending you lots of extra sunshine:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: and tons of good thoughts to carry with you on your weight loss journey today.:goodvibes .
Only FOUR--count 'em 1 2 3 4--pounds until you reach your goal!

Take your vitamins and meds, drink your water, eat lo carb, and be good to yourself!

:happy1: (Doreen and Erin together on the journey).


PS Why is it that I want an alkaline blood??:confused:

11-11-2003, 01:10 PM
Yesterday was good but not low-carb. My splurges of the past few days have cost me - the scale is up 2 pounds to 133. Of course, I'm sure it's mostly water weight so it will disappear by Sunday's weigh-in.

Today I'm back on track. My mom came over to help me do some heavy cleaning. My living room is not just clean - it's "nooks & crannies" clean!! We washed draperies, moved & vacuumed furniture, cleaned baseboards and ceilings, etc.

Now I think it's time for a nap before I have to pick the kids up at school. :teeth:

11-12-2003, 06:36 AM
I'm still trying to get back on track. I'm struggling for some reason. I know I'll get there, but my motivation is escaping me. Today is a new day and another chance to choose healthy stuff for my body instead of junk. I just wish the junk didn't taste so good! ::yes::

11-12-2003, 08:09 AM
OK, Doreen. . .you wonder why you're struggling? Could it be your in the midst of the D-Zone? You know that the goodies taste good, but you also know that eating higher carb foods regularly increases your desire for higher carb foods and a wicked cycle starts. Do you think that this is part of the equation, too?
Look at what's happening in your life--are you feeling particularly stressed by anything and finding comfort in these goodie-baddies? Maybe you're so close to your goal and looking so good that you realize that you don't need to be at 127--you're fine the way you are and you don't need to limit what you eat? Could it be that you've been out of your routine a few days and it's been kind of like a vacation? Lots of questions.:confused:

Overall, how are you feeling? When you're eating lower carb, you say that you feel better. Have you noticed any change in your degree of fatigue? Or have you been too busy cleaning to notice?:p How do you feel about yourself when you look at your eating? I know that for me, sometimes it's OK to overeat--like on the cruise or when I gobbled those chocolate chip cookies last week.:rolleyes: Other times I eat in an unhealthy, compulsive way that makes me feel like I'm spiraling out of control and that the food is the boss!:eek:

Today is a new day, Doreen, and you're woman enough to make it whatever you want it to be. For goodness sakes, if you WANT cookies or whatever--eat it and enjoy--guilt and shame-free, but if you aren't happy with how things are, you are powerful enough to change it. You are strong, you are invincible, you are DOE-DOE of the WISH!:hyper:

:hug: for you for every day--the easy ones AND the tough ones.
We're in this together.:happy1:


11-12-2003, 08:26 AM
Doreen, I just visited my journal, and now I'm back over here at yours to tell you how YOU inspire ME!::yes:: You are such a source of friendship and encouragement. . .and I appreciate it so much! :hug:

Take a deep breath. Don't muster up any more energy to wage the healthy living struggle--ease yourself back into it. It'll happen, I know it.

I'll stop by tonight and see how you're doing,

11-12-2003, 08:38 AM
DOE-DOE of the WISH checking in! :wave: Erin, THANK YOU! I truly needed the laugh that this gave me! ::yes:: How could I ever do this without you???

I am feeling down today. It's probably a combination of everything you mentioned, Erin. I'm back at work after a lovely 4 day weekend - and we all know how I LOVE to be at work. :teeth: I am definitely getting into the D-Zone. I have been eating all the junk food, thinking that I'll have to get back on track soon so I'd better indulge in EVERYTHING now before I go back to being strict again. I have been out of my regular routine, which makes my eating and drinking water more difficult.

Today is a new day! The scale is up to 134 and I don't like it there. I feel bloated and tired and my eating has been out of control. The D-Zone is only going to get worse into next week and if I don't take some preventive measures now, I'll be a real mess by then.

I'm going to take a page from my friend Erin's book and set some goals for today.
1. Take meds AND vitamins - meds already taken, vitamins on the desk so I remember them at lunch time.
2. Water, water, water - at least 64 oz before I leave work - one 16 oz mug every 2 hours. I'm almost finished my first mug!! One of those mugs may be decaf mint green tea w/ Splenda.
3. Eat low-carb and COUNT those carbs. Breakfast was 2 oz mixed nuts = 8 carbs. Lunch will be a salad from the cafeteria. Even if I go over 60 carbs today, it should be with good healthy low-carb food.
4. Exercise to pump up those "feel-good" endorphins. Walk 1 mile at lunch-time.
5. Pick one task at work and FINISH it, so I can be proud of what I did at the end of the workday. It's time to get serious about wrapping up some loose ends around here!

There you have it! Doe-Doe of the WISH has set her goals and will meet them!! I don't have to FEEL like meeting them - I just have to DO it!!

Once again, Erin, you've written just what I needed to read. Words can't express how grateful I am to have you with me on this journey! :hug:

Edit: 10:30 AM
2. 16 oz water & 16 oz green tea so far
3. Snack = 1 oz string cheese - 1 carb. Total = 9
5. I'm all prepped for my 11 AM meeting and have all materials ready. I'm just attending this one - not running it - WHEW!!

Edit: 12 PM
1. vitamin taken
2. 32 oz water & 16 oz green tea so far
3. Poisonous trail mix = 24 carbs. Total = 33. I was in a meeting and literally falling asleep. I was afraid it may be due to low blood sugar so I ate some trail mix. I do feel better and it was the lowest carb alternative in the vending machine.

I'm leaving the office now to take care of 4. - the one mile walk.

11-12-2003, 01:42 PM
Edit: 1:45 PM
I'm doing very well on my goals.
1. Meds and vitamin taken
2. Water - 48 oz so far and soon will finish another 16 oz mug
3. Food - just finished a yummy salad - I'll guess it was 15 carbs just to be safe. Total = 48.
4. Walked 1 mile at lunch.
5. Was prepared for the 11 AM meeting. This afternoon I hope to finish the SAP reporting project plan.

I don't FEEL like donig this stuff but so far I've done it anyway. If I get stressed this afternoon at work, I may allow myself one candy bar but it will NOT turn into a binge and I WILL count and post the carbs. This is much healthier than not posting my foods and not facing up to the amount of carbs I've been eating in a day. I'm taking baby steps in the right direction and trying to build some momentum.

11-12-2003, 01:55 PM
Hello and how are you? seems like you need some strength sent to you so here goes, do you feel it?:grouphug: feel the energy of us all. You've set those goals and now it's time to get motivated. Only a few more pounds and you hit goal. Ahh such pleasure. No more candy or any evil stuff. This is the hardest part and I know you can do it. As Erin says you are a woman. Let's hear you roar, scream at those moments of weakness. I'm not saying you can't induldge cause you know we all have to and I definitely have and we definitely deserve it. However you are so close?

Work is so hard sometimes, why is that? pressure, stress, too much to do and so little pay. I love how you walked a mile at lunch, did you feel great when you returned? Great fall Day

Stay to your mini-goals, remember we are here - reach for the computer not the vending machine (and where is your extra lowcarb bar?).

You can do it. Have a great healthy day!

11-12-2003, 02:07 PM
MEME!!!! You stopped by at just the right time - when I was thinking about the evil carbs in the vending machine.

Ya know what??? I FORGOT about my emergency low-carb bar in my purse!!! You've SAVED me this afternoon.

If I need a little pick-me-up, I'll eat my emergency bar!

WISH buddies are the BEST!!! :grouphug: I DO feel that strength! I'm gonna make it!!

Is it okay if I roar rather softly?? My office co-workers would react strangely if I did a full-out RRROOOOAAARRRR!!!!! :crazy:

DOE-DOE of the WISH!!

11-12-2003, 02:19 PM
Great glad to be of service - god works in mysterious ways, cause I haven't taken lunch yet and decided to check your journal so I know he sent me to give you strength when you needed it- perfect timing & truly amazing:hyper:

I say ROAR as loud as you can - gives a little levity to the stuffy office atmosphere:crazy: I'll have to find my Helen Reddy album and recommit to the women's movement!

Have a great rest of the day!

11-12-2003, 05:31 PM
I survived work. I ate my emergency low-carb bar - 4 carbs.

Total for today = 52 carbs.

I just have to hang in there through the evening.

Huge "thank yous" are being sent to Erin & MeMe - the special WISH buddies that got me through today! :grouphug:

11-12-2003, 09:23 PM
Awww, Doreen, I am so happy for you! You made it through the day! Even if you don't make it through tonight (but I'm thinking you will :D ), you made it through a good chunk already! What's the thread? "Today is better than yesterday because. . ." Well, . . ."because you made it 'til work was through on your program!"

It seems to me that there are times when it seems like we need tons of energy to be good. When I'm tired or weary, I think that I just can't muster up the energy to enjoy the exercise, to resist the poison tootsie roll, to like the selective eating, etc. Maybe I need to think about "just doing it" like you did today. I don't have to be enthusiastic, I just have to slowly and patiently do it. Walk a slower walk, have one cookie:p, and just keep trucking along at it.

I'm off to bed. I'll see you in the morning. I'll be looking forward to hearing about how your evening goes. Whatever happens, Doreen, no worries. Your buds at the WISH are going to be here no matter what.

(Wasn't great how MeMe appeared to give you a hand? Just at the right time, too!:D )


11-13-2003, 08:04 AM
I ate a low-carb dinner last night but had a small sliver of pie for dessert. I didn't binge but just enjoyed a small amount. I was over my 60g carbs for the day so I can't count it as cheat free but I was closer than I've been for DAYS!! I'm counting it as a success! :D

Today I am joining the cheat-free til Thanksgiving challenge with my WISH buddies - DoeDoe, MeMe and Lulu, the 3 WISHketeers!! I can hear the Beatles singing " I'll get by with a little help from my friends ". I'm gonna earn back that little bear and watch his numbers go up while my scale's numbers go down!

Having those goals yesterday really helped, so I'm going to use them again.

1. Meds have been taken and vitamins are on the desk for lunch.
2. Another 64 oz of water and/or decaf mint green tea at work.
3. Eat low-carb, count carbs and stay at or under 60g for the day so I can earn back my little bear buddie.
4. Walk a mile over lunch hour, probably inside so I don't blow away! :p
5. Finish my SAP project plan once and for all at work.

I can do this! I really feel like I'm back on track today and can be cheat-free without going crazy. I think it was MeMe's pep talk because I keep hearing Helen Reddy singing in my ear, along with the Beatles! :crazy:

Edit: 3:45 PM
1. Meds & vitamins - CHECK
2. 48 oz water so far and finishing off my last mug!
3. B=protein bar - 4 carbs, L=inside of turkey sub (no roll) - 3 carbs, total so far = 7 carbs
4. walked 1 mile at lunch
5. practically done with the project plan!

I'm having a GOOD DAY!! :sunny: I'm feeling full but I have a couple string cheeses stashed in the fridge if I get hungry before I leave work. Dinner tonight is up in the air - the marching band is giving it's season closing concert tonight so we'll be rushing around. I WILL make it low carb, though. I feel strong today with no urge to cheat.

11-13-2003, 08:22 AM
Hey, I can hear the Beatles, too!:p Doreen, they're singing our song!! The WISH anthem, we should call it! How lucky we are to have these boards to support us on this journey. I know that this DAILY accountability, giving, and sharing is what makes achieving the goal of changing my lifestyle a real possibility for me.
Once a week, like at WW meetings, is just not enough for my long haul!

Anyway, girl, you have found your way back to the Healthy Living Road. You just took a teeny weeny detour, that's all.;) Truly. In the big scheme of things, you know this was just a tiny blip and all the while you never lost sight of how you wanted to live and feel.

It looks like you have a firm plan in place for today. Have fun checking off each good thing you do for YOU!

The three WISHketeers :cool1: :cool1: :cool1: are going to be CHEAT-FREE TOGETHER! WOO-HOO!

It's onward and downward (even through the D-Zone?!) for us!

11-13-2003, 09:26 PM
I made it!! I've had my first cheat-free day in a week!! YAY!!

I had chicken for dinner - 8 carbs max - and an itty bitty sliver of pumpkin pie. OK, it wasn't low carb but it was so tiny that it could not have taken the whole 45 carbs I had left for the day. Fitday is down so I can't check but I promise to check in the morning.

I'm back on track!! Tomorrow will be another cheat free day for me - I have found my groove again!

The marching band concert was wonderful - a great way to spend the evening!

11-13-2003, 10:06 PM
"How Doreen Got Her Groove Back"-- she found it on the WISH!:p Way to go, Doe-Doe. YOU ARE DOIN' IT!!!

You even share my love of pumpkin pie--too weird! Remember that pumpkin custard or whip or whatever it was you had when your mom was there for the birthday party? Do you think you could tell me where to find the recipe? I'd love to make it for when my in-laws come for the early T-giving. If it's low enough in points I'll save it all for myself to eat through when they've gone!
Nothing like my compulsive after-inlaws eating binges!:eek:

Looking forward to hearing about your day tomorrow and seeing a Day #2 star at the end of it!

:hug: Erin

11-14-2003, 07:34 AM
Erin, my mom uses the recipe for pumpkin pie on the big can of Libby's 100% pure pumpkin, but she substitutes Splenda for the sugar and bakes it in an 8"x8" casserole dish sitting in a pan of water. I haven't figured out how many carbs are in it but it sure does taste good!! I always enjoy the pie filling more than the crust and this way, there IS no crust!! It's SOOOO yummy with whipped cream on top!! However, I always have trouble with portion sizes, so I want to try making it in individual custard cups. Maybe I'll experiment this weekend! :D

I'm going to keep my goals from yesterday - they really do help me stay on track!
1. Meds taken, vitamins on the desk for lunch
2. Drinking my first mug of green tea - warming me up on this cold blustery day!!
3. String cheese for breakfast - 1 carb, lunch is the inside of a turkey sub, dinner ?? - don't know but it will be low carb!
4. Walk a mile at lunch - I HATE doing this but until I can get my bum out of bed to exercise in the morning, I will have to give up half of my lunch hour to get this done.
5. Fix the loading pattern on my SAP reporting project and get it into the repository, work on the agenda for next week's SAP RAC meeting, prep for and attend the 1 PM UAT kickoff meeting. Three goals for work today but they all need to get done. It's OK that no one else understands all this but it will help me focus if I write it down and commit to it as one of my goals - file it under mental health! :p

The scale shows that I've lost 2 pounds of my 3 pound binge gain - YAY! I get to keep my 10 lb clippie AND I've met my Thanksgiving challenge!

Doe-Doe, proud member of the 3 WISHketeers! :cool1: :cool1: :cool1:

11-14-2003, 08:01 AM
:p Doe-Doe, you always make me start my day with a smile! You sound like you've got it all goin' on now, girlfriend. You've set your goals for the day and you're taking charge!

Two of those rude pounds gone!:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc Good-bye!

Thanks for the pumpkin pie/custard recipe. Now I just have to figure out how many points are in it. If I go to fitday will it give me the amount of fat, fiber, and calories? I always feel a bit lost on that site.:confused:

I'm off for my Friday date with the treadie and then I'm on my way to my meeting/luncheon. I might stop by Kohl's (they're open early today) and see if I can find a pair of "transition jeans":teeth: .

We're going onward and downward, Doe-Doe. There's no stopping us!


11-14-2003, 10:10 AM
Erin, check your journal for the nutritional breakdown of the pumpkin pie filling recipe. :D

Edit: 2:30 PM
1. Meds & vitamins - check!
2. 16 oz tea, 16 oz water - need to get chugging!
3. 2 string cheeses = 2 carbs, 4 slices bacon = 0 carbs. Lunch was the inside of a turkey sub - guessing 8 carbs to be sure. Total for today = 10 carbs
4. Walked a mile at lunch time
5. Finished my project and it's in the repository, prepped and went to my 1 PM UAT kickoff meeting. The only thing left is to work on the SAP RAC agenda - YAY!

Just so I don't forget the pumpkin pie filling stats, I'll post them here too. Use the recipe on the back of the Libby's 100% pumpkin can, but substitute Splenda for sugar and bake in an 8"x8" casserole dish in a pan of water, instead of in a deep dish pie shell.

3/4 C Splenda, 2 eggs, 1 15oz can pumpkin, 1 12oz can evap milk.
Makes 8 servings
Calories = 824 / 103
Fat = 40 / 5
Carbs = 97-13 fiber = 83 / 10
Protein = 44 / 5.5

I'm on my way to cheat-free day 2!! :sunny:

Edit: 5:30 PM
Dinner was szechuan chicken - 40 carbs. Total for today = 50 carbs. Looks like another cheat free day for me!! I'm changing my clippie now so I'm not as tempted to cheat tonight!! :sunny:

11-15-2003, 06:22 AM
Wow, Doreen! You had a great day yesterday! Here's two bounces for your second cheat-free day!:Pinkbounc :bounce:

Thanks so much for the recipe and the fitday facts. You're a sweetie!:D

I hope you have an awesome day, filled with the sunshine :sunny: you so freely give to others.

Make it another cheat-free day, girlfriend! Do you have anything nice planned for the weekend? Make sure you take some Doe-Doe time.::yes::

I remain faithfully your
Lulu of the Wish:cool1:

11-15-2003, 06:43 AM
On to Cheat Free Day 3!! :sunny:

The daily goals are working well during the workweek so I'll try it on the weekend too.

1. Meds & vitamins
2. At least 64 oz water.
3. Count those carbs and stay under 60g to earn another cheat free clippie.
4. Exercise - ugh! I wish my Pilates DVDs would get here!!!
5. Make egg custard - I haven't been eating enough fat lately. Find a post office that will take Chris' passport application on a Saturday. Clean out the fridge, before things start biting my hand when I reach in there. :scared1: I think 3 goals are enough!

We have NOTHING on the schedule for today - HOORAY!! - so there's plenty of time for me to work AND play. :sunny:

Edit: 5:15 PM
1. Meds taken, vitamins still upstairs in the cabinet...OOPS!
2. Not enough water but I'm chugging now to catch up!
3. B=2 servings pumpkin custard - still working out this recipe but 12 carbs. L= protein bar - 4 carbs. Total so far = 16 carbs.
4. Not yet....
5. Pumpkin custard, but the recipe still needs work. Passport application finished and turned in, at the local library! Fridge - not yet....

We went to see Matrix: Revolutions - pretty cool! I even stayed away from the theater popcorn that was calling me!! I must REALLY want that cheat free clippie!! :p

Edit: 9 PM
1. Meds-yes, vitamins-no
2. Drank at least 64 oz of water.
3. Dinner was at our local hang-out - chicken quesadillas without the tortillas - SO GOOD!! It's basically chicken, onions, green peppers and cheese. I had 40 carbs left and it definitely was less, so I've gotten through another cheat free day!!
4. Ummm, no exercise. Tomorrow, though, I promise!
5. Did all but the fridge. Tomorrow, I promise! :D

I'm happy with my day. It was relaxed, fun and cheat free!! The D-Zone should be showing up soon but I haven't seen any signs of it yet. :sunny:

11-15-2003, 09:55 PM
Just poppin' in to say good night, Doreen, and congratulations on another cheat-free day. It sure sounded like a good one!

Good luck with weigh-in tomorrow. I'll bet you'll be pleased with the results now that you're back on your program.

Here's a Bravo Bounce for avoiding that poisonous popcorn:bounce: ! You're strong, you know.

Maybe the d-zone will be less intense 'cause you're taking such good care of yourself? :D

Take care, dear Doe-Doe, and post your weigh-in results early if you can--I'll be sending positive vibes your way:goodvibes.


11-16-2003, 06:57 AM
I'm up early to do laundry before Sunday School! :( At least it will be done for the week, which is good. Can't do measurements because I'd need the light and DH is still sleeping, but the scale is holding steady at 131. I'm thrilled that those 3 binge pounds are gone!!

Today I have to do attendance at Sunday School, attend church and then there's a long meeting at church this afternoon. DH is staying home to watch the last NASCAR race of the season and the kids will probably just hang around the house. All in all, it will be pretty relaxing - YAY!

11-16-2003, 07:36 AM
Yay, Doreen! You did it! You've said good-bye to those three pounds:wave2: . I hope you told them they're not welcome back as they were leaving!

:jumping1: :jumping1:

You've had an amazing week! You jumped right in and pulled it all together. Congratulations for making a positive difference in your life!

:hug: for you,

11-16-2003, 12:49 PM
My official weight is 131, but I didn't get time to measure this AM - I'll measure tomorrow. I don't expect any change from last week, which is fine.

1. Meds taken, vitamins - missed yesterday so I gotta take 'em today!
2. Water - I've started drinking but I just don't drink as much at home as I do sitting at my desk at work. Maybe that's OK and I shouldn't worry too much about it, as long as I'm getting 64 oz every work day.
3. B=2 servings pumpkin custard - 12 carbs. L=leftover szechuan chicken & veggies - 20 carbs. Total so far = 32 carbs. Dinner - meatloaf so I shouldn't have any trouble making this a cheat free day!!
4. Exercise - missed yesterday so I've gotta do this. I WILL take the puppy for a walk of at least a mile.
5. The fridge is still waiting for me....maybe I'll set my timer for 10 minutes and just start it - it won't seem so daunting if I only do 10 minutes at a time. I can tackle this!!

I'm feeling GREAT! I have no urges to cheat. The D-Zone is not upon me yet. Maybe Erin's right and it's because I've been taking care of myself. An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure??

I know I've pledged to be cheat free til Thanksgiving, but realistically I'll consider it a real accomplishment to stay cheat free through the D-Zone! After that, it gets SOOOO much easier!!

OK, I think I'll forget about the meeting at church and walk the puppy. It was only to discuss the things coming up at next week's church council meeting and I already understand the issues and how I will vote. I need the exercise more than the meeting.

:wave2: :moped: That's me waving bye as I speed off to spend a nice walk outside with Maya, the ferocious doxie!! :hyper:

Edit: 9:30 PM
Time for bed and time to reflect on another great day!! :sunny:

1. Meds & vitamins taken
2. Drank enough water - not tons, but enough.
3. Stayed under 60 carbs - had meatloaf for dinner w/ pumpkin custard for dessert. Another cheat free day for me!!
4. Took a walk with DH and the puppy - at least a mile, probably more. I miss my pedometer! :(
5. Did 5 minutes on the fridge and freezer. There's actually spare room in there now!! I still have more to do, but it doesn't look so impossible anymore. I'll do another 5 minutes tomorrow.

No D-Zone symptoms yet!! YAY!!

11-17-2003, 06:00 AM
:sunny: On to a sunshine-filled Monday!! :sunny:

I'm ready to take on the workweek! I'm feelin' good!

I had another go at the pumpkin custard recipe last night, so that's what I'll have for breakfast this morning - yum!

1. Meds & vitamins
2. Water - 64 oz at work
3. Food - cheat-free and under 60 carbs
4. Exercise - DONE!!! I got up early and did the 2 mile WATP. Now I can veg at lunch-time if I want to!!
5. I'll figure this one out when I get to work. At home I want to do 5 minutes of work on the fridge. I also need to post the calendar for the next 2 weeks. I have a wipe-off 2 week calendar on the fridge and my whole family has come to rely on it.

The scale was up a pound but I think it's the dreaded BF - it's about time for all that to start. I'm being proactive this week so the symptoms won't be so bad. I'm going to up my exercise and make sure I'm eating right and drink, drink, drink!! No silly D-Zone is gonna derail my progress!! ::yes::

Off I go to get ready for work and to get ready for a great day!!

Doe-Doe of the WISH princess:

(Erin, I LOVE the idea of the princess icon! We really are special, aren't we??)

11-17-2003, 06:06 AM
Good morning, Princess Doe-Doeprincess: ! You are awesome, girl. You're going into the work week confident and ready to take on the world. Way to go!:Pinkbounc It's only 6 a.m. and you've exercised already?! You're awesome AND amazing and my inspiration for today. Thank you for the example you are in my life!

I'm ready to go to my journal and set my goals. . .:hyper: here I go!

Lulu of the WISHprincess:

11-17-2003, 08:54 AM
I'm at work and already working on my goals!
1. Meds taken, vitamins on the desk
2. I'm using a smaller mug this week - it only holds 12 oz at a time. 5 mugs = 60 oz. I'm finishing my first mug as I type.
3. B=2 servings of pumpkin custard - 12 carbs. The new recipe came out MUCH better! This may replace my beloved cheesecake for a while. L will be leftover meatloaf - I'm guessing 10 carbs. Dinner is a pork loin so it will be low-carb too. Another cheat free day in progress!!
4. DONE! Although they say the weather will be lovely at lunch so I may go for a quick stroll just to soak up the sun. :sunny:
5. Prep for and attend my 9 AM status meeting. Finish the agenda for the Thursday SAP RAC meeting. Finalize the critical reports list and send out. That should keep me busy and out of mischief today. :p

I can't believe how good I feel. I've been waiting for the usual pre-TOM depression to kick in but I honestly don't feel it at all. I think some of the credit goes to the new meds I'm on - what a difference!! However, I'd like to think that maybe a LITTLE credit is due me, for working hard to stay on track and get more exercise, eat right and drink my water. Maybe I can truly get back to being my old bubbly self again without worrying about the depression monster??? Too soon to know for sure but I've certainly felt consistently better in the last few weeks than I've felt in a very long time!

I also don't want to forget the awesome support I've received here. It helps me so much more than I can put into words. Erin, there are many times that I "feel" your presence and your positive encouragement. Please know that your support and often just your "being there" has helped me immensely. I owe you, girlfriend!! :happy1:

OK, enough mushy stuff - I gotta get to work!! I have GOALS to meet! ::yes::

princess: Doe-Doe of the WISH!

11-17-2003, 11:09 AM
Doreen, thank you for your kind words--I can say the same things right back to you, because your loving support has held me up over and over again. I'm glad we're friends.:hug:

I'm glad that you're feeling better and you seem to have a good fit with your meds now, but you know what, Doreen? You've got to give yourself more than a LITTLE credit. You have to give your self a LOT!! Who went to the dr. to get a change in meds? Who takes those meds faithfully every day? Who takes vitamins and drinks water? Who gets up and exercises? Who takes a walk at lunch? Who watches what she eats so that she doesn't have to deal with poison carb effects? Who has learned so much about herself and her health that even if (IF) the depression monster were to rear its head, she wouldn't have to be afraid? It's YOU, Doreen! You have made all the difference--YOU!::yes:: The journey that you've taken in the last few months has set you up to not be afraid again--you know too much now to ever go back and be the same again.

You are so kind and supportive to so many here on the WISH--and in your day to day life. Take a few moments to celebrate you
today, OK?

:hug: More hugs for you, Dear Princess Doe-Doe!princess:

P. L. (Princess Lulu!)