Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[septbride2002]

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

Sending lots of extra sunshine your way! I'm glad that you got extra rest last night and that your presentation went well. Ya know you can't sweat the small stuff and with work it is all small stuff if you ask me!

Have a great day princess: Doe!

~Amanda

You are my 1000th post! :teeth:

[DoeWDW]

Amanda, so sweet of you to share your 1000th post with me!! :sunny: Funny how posting here has become part of my life - what did I do before DIS and before WISH?? Oh, I remember - I ATE more! :p :p :p I'm thinking that I could consider my computer time as a weight loss plan! :crazy:

:sunny: :sunny: It's Friday!! :sunny: :sunny:
I'm only working 4 hours today and taking the afternoon off. I deserve it after going in while I was sick this week. ::yes:: Not sure what I'll do with the extra time but I'll think of something!

The scale is stuck at 136 which is understandable since I haven't been working very hard at this healthy living stuff lately. I'm going to get my attitude back in order and get down to business. I'm looking forward to my Disney trip because I find it pretty easy to lose weight when I'm there - all that walking and we tend to eat pretty lightly. Besides I have no stress so there's no stress-binge-eating! :teeth:

I'm off to get ready for work - gotta get the kids movin'!

[lulu201]

:hug: and :goodvibes to you this morning, dear Doreen. WE MADE IT THROUGH THE WEEK!:jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1: Can you stand it? It's Friday! Should we sing over here in your journal, too?

What are you doing this weekend? Beginning with your plans for this afternoon, I want a full description--I love hearing what people are going to do! (Is that kind of weird?) Will you and DH have a chance to go out together? There's a restaurant near us called Dos Amigos and I'm thinking I'm going to grab DH and have him take me out tomorrow night for fajitas and margaritas. Are the kids busy this weekend? How's Steph's back? How's your cold? Maybe you should go home this afternoon and sleep for the rest of the day!

When you go to WDW for two weeks and you go as often as you guys do, do you make plans or do you just kind of wing it? What are you looking forward to the most? Somehow I think it might involve DH and some quality hot-tub time. . .:D

Have a great day, Doreen. :hug: to you,
Erin

[septbride2002]

LOL! Someone needs to switch Erin to decaf! LOL! I will agree though that it is great that it is FRIDAY! Enjoy your afternoon off and keep me in mind as I slave away a full 8 hours today. I know you are going to be back on the healthy living train after your relaxing afternoon off. Just concentrate on accomplishing one meal or one snack at a time. :teeth:


~Amanda

[lulu201]

Uhh, Amanda, like, uhh, just so you know: coffee is my friend.:p
:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

[septbride2002]

;) I know coffee is your friend - it is mine too! For someone who claims to be dragging you sure are peppy this morning. I am picturing you like this at your computer --->:jumping1:

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Nothing like journal buddies to keep me laughing!! :teeth: You guys are a HOOT!! :hyper: :hyper: :hyper:

Erin, I'll try to answer all your questions but I do have to do SOME work while I'm at the office.....LOL!! First off, we can ALWAYS sing in my journal - I LOVE to sing! How about
:rolleyes1 I can see clearly now, the rain is gone. It's gonna be a bright, bright sunshiney day! :rolleyes1

Today I'm leaving work around noon. I like your idea of a nap, Erin, and I think that's what I'll do with my afternoon off. This cold has really sapped my energy so some extra snooze time with my puppy curled up beside me sounds heavenly!

This evening, DS has a birthday party to attend. That leaves DH, DD & I at home. I've been invited to a girls' game night but I think I'll pass - don't want to infect anyone else and just too tired. Hmmm, not sure what we'll do.

Tomorrow morning we have some errands to run. Tomorrow afternoon DH & I will attend a friend's wedding. I have NO IDEA what I'll wear - it's outside in a park so I don't want to get too dressed up but I don't want to go too casual either. I'd go shopping but I'm broke. :rolleyes: I'll find something in the closet. Besides, no one is going to care what I'm wearing.

Sunday's schedule is blissfully empty! I do need to take DS shopping for some items for his upcoming trip. I also need to start packing for Disney - I can pack the "kitchen" bag with all the miscellaneous stuff. We're leaving in 3 weeks. DS will be staying 1 week with my parents and then he'll be leaving for his trip, so I have to pack twice for him - the stuff for his week at Grandma's and the stuff for his trip to Australia / New Zealand.

Steph's back is better - she's back to normal with only a twinge now and then. I think when school's out and she stops lugging that 30 pound backpack, she'll be feeling much better!

I have very little planned for Disney. We just show up and wing it. DD and her friend Kim are taking a surfing lesson at Typhoon Lagoon and I'm spending a morning playing with a Segway at Epcot. Those are the only things that are booked. We don't even do PSs at restaurants. I'll usually call a day or two ahead while we're there if we decide to eat at a specific restaurant.

I'm looking forward to margaritas at the Mexico pavilion and strolling around World Showcase with DH after dark with the torches lit. The hot tub is a close second - I'm usually in it twice a day. :p We always meet the nicest people at the hot tub and spend time chatting there about DVC and Disney and life in general. So many things to look forward to but we kick back and take things very slow and relaxed when there. Of course, we have to find some of our CM friends that we've made over the years - Tammy at the Jungle Cruise, Darlene at the Tower of Terror, Darlene at Beaches & Cream, the DISBoards' own Stepharoonie who starts her Disney career tomorrow at the AKL front desk, etc. For us, Disney is more about the people than about the attractions. We often strike up conversations with people - both CMs and guests.

Enough for now - I have to get back to work! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:cloud9: Ahh, for a moment I'm in WDW with you guys just living the life. Thanks for sharing. :D

I'm off to work. Thanks for sharing my Friday mania with me. :p

Love ya, WISH-sis,
Erin

[septbride2002]

Did someone say margaritas?:drinking: I'm there! LOL! Oh Doe can I please come too! Please! Todd won't mind will he?

Ah I can just picture it - hanging out at the hot tub enjoying a Pina Colada :drinking: and relaxing in the sunshine. Sweet Bliss :cloud9:

Instead I'll be stuck in St. Louis doing this --->:bored:

I've been wanting to use these smileys for awhile can ya tell?:idea:

~Amanda

[LAinSEA]

actually sound like plans for a real vacation - a real restful, relaxing vacation - no stress, nothing but fun!

Now that it is getting so close - those days will fly by quickly.

How exciting for your son to go to Australia & New Zealand. My 18 year old cousin Matthew spent a year ago Christmas and all last summer with family in Australia and is now spending time after graduation with family near London. Those travel experiences will stay with your son for the rest of his life. They are well worth saving for.

Have a very good weekend. And please feel better.

-Laurie:sunny:

[wilderness01]

Your vacation sounds wonderful. For a moment I was walking around the world showcase with you. Thanks for the nice picture in my mind! Too bad we won't be there for a while. I agree, I love meeting the people and talking with them. Have a great time.:earsboy:

[myhandd]

Hey Doe,

Just stopped in to show you my new clippie!:wave:

The incredible shrinking one!

Dax

[DoeWDW]

Saturday really blew by! The wedding turned out beautifully. The heat and humidity made it hard for me to breath (still getting over my cold) so after the ceremony (standing outside for 2 hours), DH & I snuck off to Red Lobster for lunch. Then we went back to the reception for a bit to chat with everyone. We stopped by Target to get some things for DS' trip and headed home.

Today, I'm doing my laundry for the week. Then DS & I are going to work on packing for his trip. I'm sure we'll head to the mall to pick up anything else he needs. Once he's packed, I'll feel so much better!

Hopefully I'll find some time to get to journals - I'm really missing everyone!!

[Strings]

I'M BACK!
Hi Doe,
How are you feeling today?:hug: Is your Sunday still unscheduled? I hope so,so you can get a nap in. I can almost see the World Showcase in your description. I miss WDW. I remember a few months ago you were trying to figure out how you would make it to your trip, and now you are packing for it. It sounds exactly what you need. I hope you're feeling better.

Have a good Sunday,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good Morning!! :sunny:

I'm easing myself into Monday. Part of me has the usual feelings of anxiety as I start back to work - lots of projects and deadlines. However, another part of me is feeling confident that my best will be good enough. At the end of last week I was making good progress at work and I'll be taking things one step at a time and working through them.

I'm going to take a page from Erin's book and declare today sugar-free for myself. My only other goal today will be to treat myself well. By now, I know how to do that. It isn't a burden - it's like giving myself a warm hug all day.

Tonight I'll be helping DS to finish all the laundry for his trip so we can get his suitcase packed and weighed. He's only allowed one bag that weighs 40 pounds and one carry-on that weighs 11 pounds. His trip is only 4 weeks away. We have his daily itinerary and list of accomodations where he'll be staying - looks like the group will be go-go-going non-stop and staying in very nice places - truly a wonderful trip.

Once DS' bags are packed, then I can move on to packing for Disney. DH has been very nice about taking the pressure off for our trip. He keeps telling me that there are plenty of stores in Florida - if we forget anything, we'll just go shopping for it. He's a sweetie! With a washer / dryer in our villa, I don't have to worry about taking a lot of clothes and with a full kitchen & a Winn-Dixie nearby I don't have to worry about taking food or food-prep stuff. When I start to get tense and worried, I have to breathe deep and remember all this. ::yes::

Here I go, into the day. I'm going to make it a good one! I'm going to treat myself kindly, and calmly work through things at work and at home. It's time to put me and my sanity first - no rushing or fussing.

Peace to all! :sunny:

[CheapMom]

Hey Doe- Hope your weekend left you refreshed and ready for the week. You and your husband are too funny- sneaking out of the wedding recep for a Red Lobster lunch.

Was the wedding Cicada infested? We are in the peak of the cicada onslaught. They are so loud and they are everywhere. Gross. Anyway if you don't have them yet you will soon as you are just a bit north of us.

Hope your week is off to a great start
Mary:sunny:

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Looks like you have a solid plan for the day. Here's an extra :hug: for good measure. Looks like you'll be able to do lots of relaxing in WDW. It's almost here. You can make it.
:sunny:
Beth

Oh as far as forgetting things goes, check out my tag. It took 10 minutes to buy more.

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! I hope you are surrounded in :sunny: today since that just makes the day a whole lot better!

Wow! You are doing a lot of packing - but isn't vacationing fun? Have a great time, and Todd is right - don't stress! Things can always be bought and replaced!

~Amanda

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
It sounds like you are surrounded by positive thoughts!! I can't believe your trip is almost here. I'm starting to get jealous. It'll be at least another year for me.

No cicadas in these parts yet. I wonder if they're coming here at all. I'll let everyone know if I see any.

I hope your Monday was a good one at work. My first day back after vacation was really hectic, but I got a lot accomplished. Now I have to go back to cooking dinners again after being so spoiled for the week. Yuk!!

NancyJ

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I just read your post to my journal. :hug: You have nothing to apologize for. I know how much you have on your plate. I do read your journal after all.:p I alos know that you send :goodvibes :goodvibes daily. Please don't stress about how frequently you can post to mine. I am fortunate that my schedule and laptop allow me to WISH frequently. I know you do what you can, and that is a ton.
Please know that you are one of the people I look to for inspiration. And I just said no added pressure.
:hug: and thank you,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Tuesday! :sunny:

I did pretty well yesterday. I accomplished some stuff at work. I got the majority of the stuff into DS' suitcase - it weighs 41 pounds. :Pinkbounc The carryon should be well under 11 pounds. I feel better now, knowing he'll be ready for his trip. There are a few little things to finish but the vast majority is out of the way.

I also made some tuna salad last night. I had some for dinner and just had more for breakfast - I really do love that stuff! My stomach has been feeling horrible for the past few weeks and has been getting steadily worse over the past week. I need to get back to what works - low-carb without the bars and cheats. All the anxiety I'm feeling is contributing too but hopefully eating the right foods will help. I got up extra early this morning and made egg custard - I'll eat some for lunch.

Usually all this anxiety paralyzes me but I've been more proactive this time. I'm accomplishing things at work - slowly but surely. I'm doing my best to eat better. I'm also looking at what's weighing on my mind - like packing for DS' trip - and trying to take positive steps to alleviate the worry.

I know this will all help but it takes time. My goal is to make things a little better each day so I can avoid one of my total shut-downs. I've decided that my healthy eating is priority number one. Doing things to alleviate anxiety at home is priority number two. Getting things done at work is priority number three. Maybe it isn't fair to my employer but if I don't take care of me first, I won't be able to function at all.

Today is a new day. I've already made egg custard, unloaded & reloaded & ran the dishwasher, and brought my breakfast & lunch to work. I'm wearing jeans that are comfortable instead of my work pants which are getting snug these days, in spite of the 10 AM meeting I have to attend. I'm taking the best care of me that I can.

Oh, and I did meet my 2 goals yesterday - I was sugar-free (except for 1 cough lozenge) and I treated myself as well as I could. I think I'll keep these 2 goals for today!

Time to get down to work! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[Strings]

Congratulations Doe on a sucessful day. I'm glad to see that you are being proactive about your health. Your vacation will help. You will be able to rest and relax and no housework. I know that preparing for a vacaation adds stress, but boy is it worth it.

Looks like your plan for yesterday worked, and I think you are smart to continue with those goals. I'll be sending :goodvibes your way to help you through your day.
:hug:
Beth

[septbride2002]

Great work yesterday! I don't think it is unfair to your employer at all that the company is listed 3rd on your list of priorities. Remember when the going gets rough it will be home and family that are there for you - not work. :)

Good job on taking care of you!

~Amanda

[lulu202]

Hi, dear WISH-sis. I've missed you and our WISH buddies so much the last few days. How are you doing? You sound like you're really taking care of you. :hug: While things are tough and hectic, it sounds like you're being realistic at what you can manage and just doing what you can while honoring yourself.
Good for you, you princess: you; good for you.

I'm sending :goodvibes and prayers your way.

Love,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Doe,
Thanks you so much for the words of encouragement that you left in my journal. You have no idea how much I needed to hear that. Thank you so much!:hug:

I hope today is a wonderful day for you! :sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

Beth, you are so right! The vacation coming up - 2 weeks of just "being" with no to-do lists - is what's keeping me going. I can make it!

Amanda, I love the way you worded your thoughts in my journal - when things get rough, it will be home & family that I can count on. It really puts things into perspective!

Erin, that's just how I feel - like I'm honoring myself by putting ME first. Your hugs and prayers are most appreciated!

Tracy, hugs back to you! That's what friends are for.

I'm sending out a big :grouphug: to all my WISH buddies - these journals are my lifeline at times. Enough of that before I get too mushy. :love:

My stomach is feeling better. I'm eating strict low-carb with no bars and no cheats and my body is thanking me for it. I'm also less bloated and feeling thinner. The scale said 135 this morning - down a pound - hopefully the number will stick around for a while because I'm REAL tired of seeing 136. :p

I succeeded at my two goals again yesterday - I remained sugar-free (thanks for the idea, Erin!) and I took the best care of me I could. I think I'll do the same again today - if it's working, why change it, right? ::yes::

Now I'm off to do some work. I'll get around to more journals later.

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! You sound bright and :sunny: this morning. I agree sometimes our bodies need a break from the bars and substitutes and just eat some good wholesome whole foods. Good for you for realizing that and steppin up!

I'm glad you liked my post yesterday. I think all of us get wrapped up in our jobs from time to time and we need to remember that it is just a job. I know the last thing I want on my tombstone is "She was a hard worker" *BLAH*

Have a great day today princess: !

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

Looks like you have everything under control today. Looks like those goals are really working for you. I'm glad your stomach is feeling better. Have a good day Doe.
:sunny:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

It's Thursday.....my feelings are ranging from :faint: tired to :mad: angry to :D moderately happy.

I am tired - the week seems to be dragging on forever and I'm really ready for the weekend.

I am angry - there's a huge situation blowing up at work. I did my best to make things work out but obviously I didn't do enough. I didn't hold everyone's hand to make sure they did their jobs. :rolleyes: Oh well, there will be time for blame later but at the moment we're scrambling to make things right and move forward. Next week will NOT be any fun for me. I see a major case of work anxiety next Monday evening through Thursday close of business.

I am happy about the scale - it said 134 this morning. My tummy is (well, WAS until I got to work :rolleyes: ) feeling a lot better and I'm feeling thinner. Of course, I also got my hair cut last night so that might contribute to some lost weight. :p See, I haven't lost my sense of humor yet. :sunny:

Tonight will be a relatively quiet evening at home. DD has rehearsal for her dance / baton recital tomorrow night but another Mom is doing the driving tonight.

17 days until Disney.....that's the only thing keeping me going. ::yes::

I suspect I'll feel better later today as we iron out some of the work issues. I love my job, I love my job, I love my job - I'll keep saying it and some day I'll believe it! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

EDIT:
I almost forgot!! I was sugar-free yesterday and I ate low carb. That's 3 days in a row!! I'll work toward another good day today!

[lulu202]

Good morning, honey. I'm glad you went over all of these emotions and feelings here in your journal. It's good to have a place to let it out, isn't it?::yes:: I'm also glad that you're seeing and feeling some of the results of choosing to be sugar-free and low-carb--it sounds like your body is loving you for it! :p

You know, a lot of stuff is out of our control. This whole work thing sounds like it's an example. You can't possibly be handling every little detail for every single person--heck, aren't they paid to be responsible for themselves??????????????????:mad: I think it's good that you've focused on solving the problem at hand.

Uh-oh, I just heard the chime on our clock. I'm going to run over to my journal and then head over to the preschool. Please know that I'm thinking of you today--just like always. :D

Erin

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I am sorry that you have so much to deal with over the next week. Ugh, one of the things I find most fustrating is when I am dependent on others to do their jobs for me to get things done. I feel I am competent, and expect others to be as well. It is what they are paid to do, so do it.:mad: I am sure that things will be resolved, and you can make sure that it doesn't happen again. You are a Mom, you can be scary when necessary.

That being said, CONGRATULATIONS! You have een lc/sugar free for 3 days. Despite stress, despite work, despite family obligations. You have been good to yourself, and you are feeling better for it. Congratulations and you should be very proud of yourself. I am proud of you.

I also wanted to thank you for your support over the last few days. It has helped me more than I can say. Thank you.

Here's a :hug: and :wizard: for your day. Always remember that you are a princess: .
Beth

[septbride2002]

:rolleyes1 Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do you do we swim, swim , swim! :rolleyes1

I hope your day gets better Doe. Just :boat: on the wave of emotions and take each hour for what it is worth and move on to the next.

I'll be thinking about you and sending you lots of virtual :hug:

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Erin, it would have been easy to let the anger overpower everything else, but you're right - writing down ALL my emotions was helpful. It wasn't all doom & gloom this morning. :p I'm always looking for the bright spots. :sunny:

Beth, your comment "You are a Mom, you can be scary when necessary." made me laugh out loud! I really needed the giggle too! :teeth: Made me imagine sitting everyone down and towering over them giving them a lecture and shaking my finger at them. :crazy: Also thanks for reminding me that I've been lc/sugar-free in spite of everything else. Maybe I really can do this!! You're always such an inspiration to me - you seem to stay with your eating plan and exercise no matter what. Hopefully your good habits are rubbing off on me! Thanks!!

Amanda, my grandma & great aunt call me Dory, so your quote from Finding Nemo really hit home. I've just gotta keep going and this too shall pass.

I'm happy to report that I'm feeling a bit better already. The crisis is being handled and not by me! :teeth: I'm just doing the best I can and that's good enough.

I'm still low-carb & sugar-free, in spite of the urge to drown my morning anger & sadness in chocolate. I'm proud of my 3 days of success and don't want to blow it now, especially since my body is feeling better. I'm going to find a healthy lunch and make the afternoon a happier one! :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Lunch yesterday was some trail mix - not the best choice but sugar-free and fairly low carb. Afternoon snack was some egg custard. Dinner was Chicken a la Amanda - so good!! I was low carb & sugar-free for the 4th day in a row!! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Today is going better at work. The problems are getting resolved - YAY! I still have some hurdles to face next week but that's life. I'll face them and by Thursday afternoon, things will be back to normal.

Breakfast was an apple w/ PB and my pills.
Lunch will be a burger or a Subway lc wrap.
Dinner - probably Chicken a la Amanda leftovers - YUM!

My daughter's dance / baton recital is this evening - un-air-conditioned school auditorium. :rolleyes: Tomorrow evening we'll have dinner with my brother and go to the movies together. Sunday - no plans. Monday the kids are marching in the local parade (wool uniforms - ugh!) and then we're off to a picnic for my niece's high school graduation. I have lots of packing to do for the various trips coming up, but there's also plenty of unscheduled relax time in there! I have a couple bushes & flowers that have to get planted too.

I'm feeling pretty peaceful and content. Physically I'm feeling healthy and thinner. The scale still says 135 - fine with me.

Gotta run - have work to do! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[Auntmeme]

Hi Dory:wave:

Sounds like you are making it through and today its's FRIDAY:Pinkbounc Stick to your plans and smile smile smile, life is good! Soon you'll be skipping thourgh the delightful world of mickey & minnie

::MickeyMo ::MinnieMo

Hope the weather stays cool for you:sunny: Have a great weekend!

[lulu202]

Hey, Doreen. I'll be back to posting early next week (with my weird lulu202 user name), but at least when I'm at home I can always read what you write to me. It sounds to me like you've got a busy weekend, but your head seems to be in a good place and you sound ready to take it all in stride. Good for you!

While I know we won't be able to IM, you've got my number if you're in the mood for a chat this weekend.

Love to you and yours,
Erin

[DavidandDenise]

Doreen, You are doing so well. You WILL conquer this week and you have so much to look forward to. I hope DD's recital is going well. Yay for you on being LC and SF for four days! That's great! Take it easy and take advantage of those little times of relaxation as they pop up! :sunny:

[LAinSEA]

Doreen:

Congrats on 4 full sugar-free days!

I know that eating low-carb/atkins you're suppose to lose your cravings for sweets...but for me, that has never happened. And sugar alcohols just don't like me much - even a little is sometimes too much.

I admire your effort to avoid the sugar...I sure hope that you are feeling well. Not letting life's stresses run you down.

DH and I were sitting on a bench waiting for Old Faithful and munching on sandwiches we'd picked up in town. Jeff said I should watch out for the "sugar buzz" after eating the whole wheat bread on the sandwich - when I hadn't had any bread for nearly a month. A lady overheard us and asked if I was on atkins. She asked if I still craved sweets, because she still craved sweets (she'd been eating low-carb for nearly 3 years). She told me her doctor told her that she is "insulin resistent". She looked great - must have been at or near goal weight - but she said that even a small baked potato was enough to give her "the shakes" about 20-30 minutes after she ate it. I wonder if I'm that way too...

She said that insulin is like a drug...your body can build up a tolerance to it just like any other drug...and become addicted to it as well. She said the sugar cravings are really insulin cravings. Oh, and just like an dry-alcoholic, one "drink" can knock you totally off the wagon and aggrevate the cravings. She also said that "insulin resistance" can indicate a pre-diabetic condition. (I think I remember reading something in Atkins book about this.) I'm going to investigate this further.

Enjoy DD's recital and hopefully a stress-free weekend!

-Laurie

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe,
Congratulations on 4 days sugar free!:Pinkbounc

It sounds like you have a fun, but busy weekend planned. I hope you can find some time to relax and enjoy that extra day off.::yes::

I'm glad that work seems to be slowing down a bit and things are getting resolved there step by step. :D

Thank you for the encouragement that you left in my journal. I will definitely be passing that on to my DH. :hug: Thanks!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Tracy:wave2:

[CheapMom]

Wow Doe - 4 days sugar free. That's impressive. You are doing great- keep it up. I am sending you a pm.
Mary:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

:grouphug: to all of you!!

I made it 4 days but that was it for my sugar-free / low-carb marathon. I had 1.5 cups of ice cream Friday night. Saturday I had 1 cup ice cream. I WAS feeling really good but I now know that ice cream makes my stomach feel bad! This is valuable information because it will make resisting the urge easier. Laurie, your comments were right on the money, too. A little sugar just makes me crave more and the more I eat, the more I want.

Therefore, today will be the first of many sugar-free days for me!! There really aren't too many treats that are worth it when my stomach feels horrible for days afterward. This could be a big turning point for me and I'm excited about it! I actually WANT to be sugar-free, not because I want to be thin and I have to temporarily give up sugar and deprive myself, but because I love the way I feel when I feed myself food that nourishes me instead of making me sick.

DD's recital on Friday night was wonderful - the girls all did a great job! Yesterday was a lazy day. Last evening was dinner with my brother and a movie. We saw "Day After Tomorrow" - my brother's choice - I give it a C with an honorable mention to Dennis Quaid who is pretty easy to look at, if you like that distinguished look. ;)

Today, I've spent the last 3.5 hours working on our 2 home computers. This one is up and running now, but the other one is still being fixed. :rolleyes: Then it's on to cleaning, laundry, etc. Since I was lazy yesterday, I need to get the chores done today.

Now I'm off to check on the other computer and to find some breakfast. :D It's going to be a good day! :sunny:

[DavidandDenise]

I am so excited for you and your turning point. It's strange how little things can change us. A little change in though can give us a whole new attitude. Here's to the new sugar free you! :bounce: Have a wonderful day and stay happy! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[wilderness01]

Congrats on your turning point. I feel the same about sugar. It just doesn't make me feel right and totally not worth it. That's not to say I will never eat another piece of cheesecake again but the times I do will be few and far between. Have a great day.:D

[septbride2002]

We went and saw "The Day after Tomorrow" last week ( we got a sneak preview) and we thought it was only okay. The special effects were great but the story line was a bit weak.

Glad to see you are doing good on giving up sugar! Way to go! I may have to give that a try once I get myself remotivated. Have a great Monday before it is back to the grind tomorrow!

~Amanda

[CheapMom]

Doreen- You sound like you have a renewed commitment to being healthy- that is great. It is wonderful to hear how excited you are to be sugar-free- I know you will be successful.
Yes- I agree with the statement about - If your body has sugar then your body just wants more sugar-
You will do great!
Mary:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Happy Monday....er....Tuesday!! It feels like a Monday at work. :p I'm at a different location helping with a training class so I can only WISH over lunch for the next 3 days. The training is going well so far - I'm only support staff and I have about an hour that I must preside over each afternoon, so it isn't too bad.

I've been battling a sour stomach over the past few days. I'm living on water and Wheat Thin crackers - not exactly low carb but it's what my stomach will tolerate. I'm doing some research to figure out what the problem is and have a dr. appt. next Monday. If I need to reschedule for sooner, I will. I keep hoping I'll feel better on my own.

The good news is that I've been sugar free - since I really can't eat much. :p

I'll check in later.

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doreen,
Feels like a Monday around here today too ;) . Sorry to hear you're feeling under the weather. Hope you feel better soon. Good luck with the training :D :wave: .

[Strings]

hi Doe,

Looks like your training this week isn't too bad, except WISH withdrawl. I hope all goes well. You have been battling that sour stomach for awhile. I hope you can get some answers at your appointment next week. Have you tried any yogurt? It might help coat your stomach.

Have a good afternoon,
Beth

[DavidandDenise]

Hey, Doreen. I hope you start feeling better very soon. Don't worry about what you're eating, just eat what you can. We're all thinking of you and hope you get well soon. Take it easy and take care of you. ::yes::

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hey, how are you doing? I hope you're feeling better or at least getting some answers from your research. Hang in there and know I'm thinking about you and praying for you. Love, Erin

[DoeWDW]

The training classes that I'm helping with are going well. My stress level is no longer sky-high, just moderately high now. :p I have one more day of training to help with tomorrow - I'm enjoying the laid back pace.

My tummy is starting to feel better. I've graduated from Wheat Thins to potato soup. :rolleyes: I hope to be back to low-carb by Friday. I'm sure the stress had a lot to do with how I was feeling.

Tonight DD has an awards ceremony at the baton studio. It will be long but I'm going to eat a snack before I go and skip the refreshments. Not many kids are brave enough to start dance and baton lessons at the age of 14, so I'm very proud of her accomplishments this year!

My days are getting sunnier!! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Did you just say potato soup? Did you? I love potato soup - now the stomach is growling! MUST RESIST! ;)

~Amanda

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
I'm glad you're feeling a little better. There seems to be a lot of "blahs" going around. Your soup idea sounds great. I'm going to check my new low carb cookbook and try to find one for me this weekend. DH will be away on a golf outing.

When you and Erin feel better I'll post my low carb Margherita recipe so we can all have a virtual one at least.

NancyJ

[DoeWDW]

Last night's awards ceremony went well. They gave out trophies for everything! DD is old enough to know that a trophy isn't as meaningful when EVERYONE gets one or if you get one just for showing up. There were no special awards given out - very politically correct.

I haven't been eating low-carb and the scale is definitely showing it - I was greeted with 137 this morning. I know I've been sick but I don't want to lose my 5 pound clippie! This morning's breakfast was a couple saltines and a handful of almonds. At least I've been able to take my anti-depressant today and yesterday - I think I missed 4-5 days with my tummy out of whack.

Gotta run - training starts!!

:sunny:

[lulu201]

:wave2: Good morning, Doreen. How are you feeling today? I hope your belly handles those nuts and crackers OK. Did you know that tomorrow is Friday?::yes:: I think Nancy should post her Margherita recipe so that the celebrating can begin!:Pinkbounc

You went 4-5 days without your meds? Can your body really handle that instant withdrawal? Hmmmmm, just concerned about you, WISH-sis.

I hope training goes well today. Thinking about you. . .

Erin

[septbride2002]

Good Morning princess: Doe! I'm glad to hear you are starting to feel better and that the scale is moving in the right direction. I hope your training goes well today!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

So hows the last day of training going? I'm glad to hear you are feeling a bit better. Don't worry about what you eat at the moment. Stay SF, and your body will thank you for taking good care of it.
:hug: :wizard:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Whew!! Training is over! It was a success, as far as I could tell from talking to the participants. My stress level is decreasing now that it's over.

I'm back in my office and am going to catch up on email & phone messages and try to bring some order to my desk for the rest of the afternoon.

Tonight the family heads to the chiropractor for our monthly adjustment. The rest of the evening is free - YAY!!

I had a turkey sandwich and a little soup for lunch. I'm trying to cut back on the carbs and add in proteins at each meal. Hopefully I'll be back to low-carb tomorrow - under 60g for the day. I need to make some tuna salad & some egg custard tonight so I have food to bring to work tomorrow.

I also need to walk the puppy tonight - I need to get back to exercising. I think it will help me feel better. My asthma (which has been acting up the past few weeks) and my tummy are feeling better so it's time to get back in the groove with lc eating and exercise.

Now I have to get some work done. I'll try to stop by journals tonight or tomorrow.

[septbride2002]

Okay the difference between a taco and a fajita:

Tacos are typically made with hamburger meat in taco sauce or seasonings and are in a hard shelll although you can also put them in soft shells. Toppings include cheese, sourcream, and refried beans (if you are my dh).

Fajitas are made with grilled steak or chicken with fajita seasonings. The meat is grilled with green peppers and onions. Then you load it all into a tortilla wrap - or in my case you just put it in a bowl. Toppins are sour cream, cheese, and salsa.

[lulu201]

YAY! :Pinkbounc It's Friday! :Pinkbounc Nancy, bring the margaritas to Doreen's--we're all waiting here!:Pinkbounc

I hope that you have a great Friday and a relaxing weekend, Doreen. Take care of YOU, ya gotta it?

:flower:, :hug:,and :sunny: --
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Amanda, thanks!! Your explanation is great! Now I'm hungry for mexican food - YUM!!

I'm feeling like my old healthy WISHer self today! I got up early this morning, made egg custard & tuna salad and cleaned up the kitchen. I think I'll set some familiar goals for today - I'm feeling up to tackling them!

1. Meds & vitamins - just took 'em! :D
2. Water - 5 mugs at work (60 oz) + more during the evening. I'm working on the first mug now.
3. Food - I'm ready for a true low-carb day. I'm having tuna salad on fiber rye crackers for breakfast and egg custard & an apple w/ PB for lunch. Dinner will be a jerk chicken salad at a local restaurant - my vanpool driver is retiring and the riders are having a surprise party for him. If I have any in between meal cravings, I'll have a piece of Trident gum.
4. Exercise - Tried to walk the puppy last night & she didn't want to go. I've got to stop taking my cues from her and get my walk in no matter what. I think I'll walk 1 mile during lunch today.

I'm headed toward the D-Zone - I'm at Day 21. I avoided the scale this morning - afraid of what I might see. I'm going to try to have a healthy eating & exercise weekend and then get on the scale. I do want to weigh and take measurements this weekend because I want to compare the numbers before and after my Disney trip. I really think I'll come home thinner but I want hard numbers to prove it. :p

I'm ready for the day! :sunny:

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!!!
You sound bright and :sunny: this morning! I hope you have a wonderful day today!!!:Pinkbounc

Wow! Your WDW trip is right around the corner. I hope you have a wonderful, relaxing time where you are treated like a princess:.

Take care!

Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

Doe I was reading through journals last night and I just HAD to point out to Brian that you and Todd are leaving in a little under 10 days. :duck: I told him we have to get the DVC to which he replied, "Amanda I think you and the DVC would be a dangerous combination." LOL!

I'm glad you are back to your princess: Wish-sis self! Just be ready to :moped: through that D-zone!

~Amanda

["Ginger"]

Hi Doreen, sounds like you've got a great plan going. YOU GO GIRL, You go girl, you go girl..... Have a great day.

[CheapMom]

Hey Doreen- you do sound ready to tackle the day! You have a good plan so half the battle is over. I hope there really is a possibility that you can come home from WDW lighter. (I am not holding my breath on that one though) We will have to compare notes when we get back.
Have a great low-carb day.
:sunny: Mary

[Auntmeme]

Hi Doe:wave2:

Only 10 days - wahoo:Pinkbounc Sounds like your weekend will be great with your positive attitude - healthy eating - exercise - what more do we need?

And I've tried low carb margaritas and can't give it the thumbs up, have you found one you like? even made my own and have to give them a big YUCK! Let me know where a good one is and I'm buying::yes::

[wilderness01]

Wow, your trip is right around the corner:mickeybar. Have a wonderful time.

[Strings]

Hi Doe,
I now see SINGLE DIGITS on your countdawn. I'mstarting to get jealous.;) I'm glad you are feeling better. :worship: you if you come back from the World thinner.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

It was a good day yesterday!! I met ALL MY GOALS!!!! What a nice change from the slacking I've been doing! :p OK, I really wasn't slacking - just giving my stressed out self a break from some of my "shoulds". It's time to get back to putting me at the head of the list and resuming those healthy habits!

It's always harder to meet my goals on the weekends. I miss the routine of my work day. That routine reminds me of my healthy habits - get to work, eat breakfast, take the pills. Without that routine, I tend to let things slip. Maybe I need a weekend routine? I'll think about that one after vacation! :p

1. Meds & vitamins - gotta eat breakfast soon & take them.
2. Water - need to keep a mug with me all day. If it's with me, I'll drink it!
3. Food - low-carb! Egg custard, tuna salad - these are made and waiting patiently in the fridge. Such a relief to have food available & ready! ::yes:: I'll have to make a store trip for dinner food.
4. Exercise - a tough one today. I'd like to walk but it's cold & rainy here. I either have to brave the yuck with an umbrella or do my Pilates. Gotta get this bod movin' again!! ::yes::

My other goal is to pack for Disney. That will definitely reduce my stress! I'll be in my jammies for a while til all my clothes are clean. Then I'll put the clothes for Disney aside and hope I have enough other stuff to get through next week. I've already warned people that I may wear the same outfit 3 days next week! :teeth: ;)

My tummy's a little queasy. I was feeling good yesterday - eating small meals of low-carb food. But last night's dinner - a big salad with jerk chicken, walnuts & a little pineapple - undid it. It was good and it was pretty low-carb, but I just ate too much at one sitting. I've gotta learn when to stop. I should have asked for a take-home box and put half the salad in it before I even started eating.

It's gonna be a good day!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
I hope you're recovered from your dinner last evening and can enjoy the weekend. I'm a little late sending the Margarita recipe from my new low carb cookbook, but here it is...I haven't tried it yet because I don't normally keep juices in the house.

" Although it's not super low in carbs, it's considerable less sugary than the commercial stuff" or so says the author.


1 1/2 cups lime juice, fresh or bottled
1/2 cup lemon juice, fresh or bottled
1 1/2 cups Splenda
2 cups water
1/2 teaspoon orange extract

Combine all ingredients in blender for 1 minute, and pour into a clean bottle. Refrigerate until ready to use.

*To make a margarita, combine 2 ounces of tequila with 6 ounces of margarita mix, and either put through the blender with lots of ice, or simply serve it in the rocks.

YIELD - about 1 quart. This whole recipe has 54 grams of carbs (SO DON'T DRINK THE WHOLE THING!), so figure about 10 grams in each 6-ounce serving of the mix.


This sounds easy. I hope it's better than the ones MeMe has tried.

NancyJ

[DoeWDW]

Nancy, thanks for the recipe! I'll have to get the ingredients at the store and give it a try, for the sake of all the WISHers! I'll experiment for all of my wonderful friends! ;) :teeth:

I actually weighed and measured this morning. It wasn't pretty. I'm going to post it in spite of my embarassment.

Weight = 137 down 5 pounds from 142
Bust = 39.5 the same as when I started last August
Chest = 33.5 the same as when I started
Waist = 32.5 1.5 inches less than my start
Hips = 40 the same as when I started
Thighs = 40 1 inch less than my start

There it is, the ugly truth. There's no denying it - the numbers speak for themselves. I can beat myself up over those numbers or I can choose to move forward and work to change them. I have the power to help myself feel better instead of the heavy bloated feeling I have now.

Sad :( but moving on. Please pass the margaritas! :p

[LAinSEA]

Doreen, you are so brave - getting out the tape and getting on the scale after tummy trouble all week.

I climbed on the scale today too - knowing all too well that my tummy trouble wouldn't have made it move in the right direction either...you'd think it would, but instead I think it just makes me the "incredible human sponge." (BTW, I'm blaming bad take-out BBQ and a full moon for all the distress...I can't blame hormones, even though my skin is sure acting like it.)

Congrats on getting through your training week and all that stress - and staying away from the sugar!

Thank you so much for all your prayers and positive thoughts for Jeff - hopefully he'll advance through the hiring process (and I'll lose my personal 24/7 chef.)

Enjoy your weekend - I'll still waiting for mine (and some good weather!)

-Laurie:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Well, I ate low-carb for MOST of the day yesterday. :rolleyes: I even ordered a bacon cheeseburger w/ no bun at Ruby Tuesday's - it was delish!! DH wanted a margarita - so we got a very large blue one :eek: and I think that started me on the wrong path. I was picking fries off DS' plate & DD's plate and then we ordered one dessert for the 4 of us to share. At least I limited myself to about 7 bites. So today the tummy trouble is back. I know better but I was just so disgusted with the weight and measurements yesterday and I'm in the D-Zone - just another weak moment for me! :rolleyes:

Today's a new day. Do I dare set goals?? Will I just blow them off like I did yesterday - forgot meds, didn't drink water, blew low-carb food at dinner and no exercise.

The weekends are tough without a set routine to remind me when to accomplish my goals. I suppose I should set the same goals and try, try again. If I never try, I'll never succeed.

I'll half-heartedly set the same four goals - meds, water, low-carb food and exercise. Today might be the day I actually meet them, right?

Onward and possibly downward! :sunny:

[BeamsofLight]

Hi Doreen :wave2:

I just finished reading your journal (ok, I split it over two days, I mean .. 105 pages .. lol!) All I can say is 'Wow'. What an amazing journey you're on. Your honesty and candid entries throughout are so inspiring. I feel I couldn't just 'lurk' away without giving you a hug. So .. :hug: Hope that's not over the line. ;)

Thanks so much for sharing your experiences online. I hope you have a wonderful trip to the World.

Cheers,
Caroline

[DoeWDW]

Caroline, thanks for the hug and the encouragement! They mean a lot! I think I'll go back and re-read my journal - it might help to see where I've been.

I've taken my meds & vitamins. I've had 1 glass of water. I've eaten tuna salad on rye crackers, and some egg custard with blueberries - definitely low carb so far. I've walked a mile with my DS and the puppy. That means I've met 2 goals and am on the way to meeting the 2 others.

Now I'm off to pack for my trip! :sunny:

[lulu201]

Here's a hug :hug: for you, dear WISH-sis. You were so brave to take your measurements. My hat is off to you. Your goals for today are achievable and I know that you can do them! :drinking1 and :drinking1, Doreen. You know it's good for you and you'll feel it's positive effects.

Doreen, I think Caroline's post was well-timed. You DO need to go back over your journal, to reflect and to regroup and to see how far you've come the last several months. It's been quite a journey, and I feel so blessed to have been on it with you. Maybe next week, when you're sitting and relaxing in the hot tub, you can take a few moments to just think about it all.

You asked what my training plans were for this coming week, and my plan is to keep it small. Five 2-mile walks between 6/7-6/13. The following week I'll go back to a long walk 4-6 miles on one of the days, and the week after that I hope to go to 5-7 miles. That's the plan. . .

You're going to meet those goals--unless you have another blue margarita.:p Oh, when I was talking about :drinking1 , I meant WATER!!!:teeth:

Lots of love,
Erin

[gadizlover]

Hi Doreen-

Just checking in on ya, I don't know how you do it all, reading your journal makes me feel tired!:hyper:

Get that tummy all better, you gotta feel good on your DW trip! Sick is for work. (just kidding-well maybe not!;) )

Hope you have a great time, probably won't be relaxing :teeth: but maybe you can shoot for stressfree?

Thanks for checking in on me- I appreciate the support :D

Have a great week.

[vald1977]

:wave: Hi Doe,
I hope that tummy of yours has stopped giving you trouble. Doesn't it know there is a :mickeybar in it's near future :teeth: ? This week is going to fly right by, I'm sure. Have a great night :D .

[wilderness01]

I hope your stomach is feeling better. You are very brave to weigh/measure and then post. You are doing a great job, don't forget that! Have a wonderful trip.:D

[DoeWDW]

Thanks for making my morning journal visit a good start to my day. I can feel the love and warmth in each post and I am truly grateful to be surrounded with such wonderful people. :grouphug:

I have discovered simethicone!! My digestive troubles have led me to try many over-the-counter remedies and none seemed to help until now. Simethicone is the active ingredient in Gas-X and many other anti-gas over the counter meds. Being cheap, I bought the store brand but the ingredients are the same and it has truly helped get rid of that bloated feeling. I can highly recommend it. I still have a drs. appt. tonight for a check on my other meds and will talk with him about it, but at least I can relieve the symptoms!

DS & I went to see the new Harry Potter movie yesterday and I had popcorn. Believe it or not, it settled my stomach and I felt much better! This was before my Gas-X discovery! :p

Today is a new day! I'm ready to take it on! I met 2 of my 4 goals yesterday but today I'm hoping to meet them all! I've already taken my meds & vitamins. I'm working on my water. I'll be eating healthy and I'm going to try to get 2 miles of walking in during my work hours today. I can walk a mile during morning break (if I get one) and a mile at lunch.

Wishing :sunny: to all!!

[septbride2002]

Did you like the movie? I have to admitt that the 3rd book is my favorite of the three and the movie left me so empty and disappointed. It was kinda sad.

I'm sending you lots of :sunny: and :teeth: - make sure you have a plan for food so that you don't stray, and try to get in some exercise today - you'll feel better for it!

~Amanda

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: Good Monday Morning to you, dear Doreen!:sunny: :sunny: I hope that you're feeling :smooth: even in the midst of the DZone and are ready to take on the week. WDW is looming large for you--keep your eyes focused on it and you'll be there before you know it!

Have a fantastic day. You're inspiring me to stick to my goals and to FOLLOW THROUGH (something I've had a little problem with lately:rolleyes: ). Blessings to you,

Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I'm glad to hear that you found something that works for your tummy. Simethicone is the same thing as mylicon drops for babies. I swore by those drops for Katie. Hope the doctor's appointment went well.

Take care,
Beth

[lulu201]

:sunny: and :flower: to you this morning, princess: Doe-Doe. How did you make out at the doctor's? I hope things went OK and you felt like he really heard you.

We've been blessed with a new day, Doreen. Let's glide into it with a sense of peace and gratitude for all the love that surrounds us. Oh, and be sure to drink your water.:drinking1 :p

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

The doctor's appointment went well. We agreed that I'll handle things with OTC meds for now and will visit him again after vacation if I'm not feeling better. I just love that man!! He puts up with all my questions and research and we really do work well as a team. I always feel like an equal partner with him - rare for a doctor!

We also discussed my son's depression, which has us both concerned. I'll be monitoring him closely and for now, DS has agreed to take a multivitamin daily and to exercise daily. After all the trips are over, I'll be taking him in for some bloodwork to rule out any obvious causes. Because of my experiences with depression, I truly feel I'm much more able to help DS - a blessing for a mom. If he can learn some of the lessons I learned at 40 when he's 16, he'll be so much better off!

Yesterday I took my pills, drank MOST of my water, and got my exercise in (a long walk with DH & puppy). I failed miserably on the food, but can trace it back to not eating a healthy filling lunch. Same goals today, but I'll be sure to eat that good lunch, even if I'm not overly hungry at the moment.

I'm feeling good, in spite of the D-Zone. I'm feeling very happy and positive. Could it be the thought of a long vacation buoying my spirits??? :p

It's all good! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

HI princess: Doe! I'm glad to hear that your Dr.'s appt went well yesterday. Sounds like you had a good day despite the eating choices. But at least you didn't make excuses to not exercise and get your water in and that is what really counts. I hope you and your Dr. will be able to help out your DS with his depression.

~Amanda

[toystoryduo]

Doe,
I am glad to hear that your doctor's appointment went well. It's really nice to have a doctor that is on the same page as you are. My DH and I do not have such a doctor, but my girls do and for that I am very grateful.::yes::

Did I read your countdown correctly? Only 5 days left until WDW?!?!:Pinkbounc Woohoo!! I hope you have a fun and relaxing time with the ::MickeyMo. Our trip seems so far away so I am living vicariously through others' trip reports. Can't wait to hear about your trip when you get back!!

Have a great time in Florida!!:sunny: :sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu201]

Hey, girlfriend. Glad that you made out OK at the dr. I'm even happier that you can talk to DDr. about your health and DSs. I think you're right when you say that DS can benefit from your experiences.

So, it's a new day, and I'm wishing you all the best. May you find peace and joy in the ordinary and light and love all around.

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Wednesday - halfway through the week!! :Pinkbounc

Yesterday's wrap up - took the pills, drank the water, ate low-carb for the most part ;) , and walked a mile. That's the closest I've come to meeting my goals in a long time! :sunny: I must extend a thank-you to Amanda, who convinced me via IM to eat a low-carb dinner! Amanda, I had half a Subway wrap and the cheese off one slice of pizza - a perfect low-carb dinner! My only slip-up was a small handful of potato chips when I got home from work - not that many carbs and I stopped before it became a binge.

Today I'll do the same healthy living stuff:
1. Already took my pills.
2. 1 mug of water down and 4 more to go.
3. Low-carb food - B = an apple w/ PB and a string cheese, L = half a Subway lc wrap and an lc yogurt, S = a string cheese and some baby carrots, D = ? something LC.
4. I'll walk 2 miles.

I'm at Day 26 - deep in the DZone, but I truly feel sunny! There's a little less patience and a little more crankiness but honestly, I feel great! This is such a nice change for me!

:rolleyes1 I hear Martina McBride singing :rolleyes1
Oh watch me go
I’m a happy girl
Everybody knows
That the sweetest thing you’ll ever see
In the whole wide world
Is a happy girl

Have a great day, all!! :grouphug:

[CheapMom]

Doreen- you are doing great.
Good luck with your goals today.
:sunny:

[septbride2002]

Good for you Doe! I'm very proud of you ::yes::

I'm deep in the D-zone myself and I can feel the crankiness starting to creep up on me. Something I've taught myself to do is take deep calming breaths and try to focus on emptying my head of all the cranky thoughts that are plegging me. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't - but it is worth a shot!

~Amanda

[lulu201]

:D Hi, Doreen, you Happy Girl.:D Your journal entry and your supportive words to my journal made me smile, too. :D I hope you have a nice afternoon.

Erin :cool:

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

You sound :sunny: despite the Dreaded DZONE. Could it have to do with the fact that you will be in WDW in less than a week? Just think Dzone will be ending befor your trip.

Have a great afternoon,princess: Doreen.

:sunny: ,
Beth

[LAinSEA]

Doreen:

Thanks for your sunny posts in my journal...It helps so much having your support.

Don't take that dreaded D-monster with you to WDW...not even on a short-leash! That wonderful, relaxing vacation is coming just at the right time for you. You deserve this break!

I think you are right about helping your son deal with depression. Maybe there really is a reason for everything that happens to us...your experience can help you to reach out and help your son deal with the same things. Blessings come in pretty strange packages sometimes.

Your post about your dream of teaching in my journal made me smile. Mostly my dreams about being in a high school involve nightmares (still) about forgetting my locker combination and being "found out" about the extra help I got from my friend John regarding math tests...he programmed my calculator to help me get through the tests! In that nightmare, I'm made to go back to HS and retake the math classes at my age!

My mother went to college as a freshman at age 40. She had worked as a teacher's aid for 15 years and was tired of having the teachers tell her what to do when working with students. She's now been teaching first grade for about 12 years and loving it! If she could accomplish 5 years of school after age 40, I can get through 14 months! She's taught me through experience that life is a series of journeys, not a place to get to and coast.

Have a wonderful, relaxing time at "home".

-Laurie:sunny:

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen! I hope that today finds you in that :sunny: place you were yesterday, but if it doesn't, know that my friendship and :hug: are here to help lift you up. How are you feeling?

You're almost on your way, Doreen. Just a couple of more days. . .I hope the stress of getting ready is small and manageable (or is that "managable"?). Every day I'll be thinking of you and wondering what you're doing. How's DS doing? Is he ready for his big adventure?

Well, dear WISH-sis, I'm wishing you all the best for your new day. Take care.

Erin

[DoeWDW]

I am still feeling :sunny: ! I can feel the DZone trying to overtake me but that pre-vacation giddiness is winning at the moment! :p I must say that the Bloat Devil is workin' overtime on me this month - sure wish I could banish him, but time will take care of it so I'm trying not to stress about it.

Yesterday was nutty at work. Of course there are major crises popping up everywhere and I'm in the middle of it all. I just keep reminding people that they'll have to figure it out without me since I'm gone the next two weeks. :p My reputation as a competent employee may be suffering but I think that's a good thing - they'll stop piling stuff on me!! :p

Of course all the stress led to some major food no-nos yesterday - let's not talk about it! ;) Let's concentrate on the good things I did yesterday - I took my pills, I drank all my water, I ate low-carb until early afternoon and I walked a mile. When I look at it that way, it doesn't seem like such a bad day after all!

Today will be another fun day of work. I'll do what I can do and try not to stress. I'll try for my usual goals. I'm glad I journal them because I had forgotten about my pills until I was typing this - I just took them! :teeth: I'll drink my water and eat low-carb for as long as I can. I'll walk a mile.

Tonight we'll be at my brother's house for my niece's 4th birthday party. My niece LOVES my dog. In fact, my brother's wife & my niece just got back from 10 weeks in Russia. The first thing my niece said when she got off the plane this week was "Where's Maya?". :teeth: My brother is highly allergic to dogs but Maya has been invited to the party! :crazy:

It's going to be another good day!! :sunny:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doreen,
You sound bright and sunny today :sunny: . It must be that counter at the bottom of your sig ::yes:: ! Hope you have a great day today :sunny: !

[Strings]

Hello Doreen,

It sounds like you are centered today. I see you :boat: . I hope I am right. Enjoy your party tonight. I'm sure Maya will eat up the extra attention.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Well, I WAS having a good day! :mad: The stress at work has intensified and I'm being pulled in too many different directions. I did talk to my boss (who is just as insanely busy as I am!) and we agreed that we'll have to tell the powers that be that we are just too busy to accomplish one project within the timeframe they've given us. Of course I have to spend an hour coming up with supporting documentation and laying out an alternative timeline before we can drop the bomb on them tomorrow.

I've gone through 2 bags of peanut M&Ms from the EVM - pure stress-eating. I'm not proud of that, but if I don't write it down, I'll head for MORE! :scared1: :sad2: This way, maybe I can stop eating for the afternoon. I have some string cheese in the fridge if I need it, but NO MORE SUGAR!!

I'm so glad I have this journal to vent in and to be honest in. It does help me to take a moment and acknowledge my feelings, to process them. After I've written it down, I generally feel calmer, more able to take a couple deep breaths and center myself again.

I just need to make it through 2.5 hours today and 7.5 hours tomorrow and then hopefully I can forget about work for 2 solid weeks.

All my WISH-buddies talk about taking time to pamper ourselves and I think I've outdone it this time. I called and scheduled DH and I for massages during our trip.

[Auntmeme]

Hi Doe-Doe:wave2:

Sorry to hear about the last minute stress at work - oh those evil m&ms:sad2:

So happy to see it is only 2 days before lift off :space: to HAPPY HAPPY LAND! And way to go with the massage appointments!

Keep your focus day to day and you'll be fine, we can only do so much and we know you are doing the best you can. Hope the party was fantastic, did maya get cake?

[wilderness01]

Sorry about the stress at work. Soon you will be on vacation and having a wonderful time. Don't worry about the m&m's. At least it was only 2 bags and not more. You will walk it off down there. Have a great time.:D

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I hope tomorrow is better. You did your best, and it is done. I think you did a great thing scheduling those massages. You definately deserve one.
Beth

[LAinSEA]

Two snack size from the EVM...not good,

Two pound size bags from Costco...definitely a problem!

Things can always be worse, I'm so glad your dealing with the D-Zone and still staying sunny and optimistic. If a vacation is really that great of medicine, then I think it should not only be prescribed but also paid for by insurance! At least it should be tax-deductable!

Doreen, only one more day! Don't forget to pack the sunscreen!

-Laurie:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

I'm sending a warm :grouphug: to all my WISH-buddies. Thank you for helping me feel better this morning, and for helping me put those M&Ms in perspective. I'm out of work at 4:05 PM today - I can make it through!

I'm sick to my stomach with the stress of this job. I'm going to take some deep breaths and pray about it. Then I'm going to intersperse a little work and a little trip planning throughout my day. I will not let my job make me miserable the day before vacation! ::yes:: And I WILL take the time to clean off my desk and vanquish the dust bunnies this afternoon, so I can come back to an orderly, clean desk. I deserve it!

Tonight - all those last minute details!

Tomorrow morning we take the puppy to the kennel and take DS to his last meeting before his trip. They are having a picnic & I'm supposed to bring our place settings, a cold dish to share and a dessert. :rolleyes: Would it be terribly rude if we forgot all about that and picked up meals from Wendy's on the way??? I mean, if I don't eat anyone else's food, then they won't miss mine, right? My mom says that I should take food to share - I figure we'll never see these people again and we're leaving for vacation right from the picnic. I suppose I could compromise and stop by the grocery store on the way and pick up something. What to do? :confused3

We'll hit the road and be around the North-South Carolina border when we stop late tomorrow evening. We should be at Disney by 5-7 PM on Sunday evening.

I got the laptop working so I may post to my journal every couple days. Now if I could just find the software to help me upload the digital camera pictures....another detail to take care of tonight. :p

Here I go, calm and centered for as much of the day as I can manage. :sunny:

[Strings]

Just a few more hours, and you are on Vacation. :Pinkbounc :bounce: If things get rough today, just keep repeating "This time tomorrow, I'll be headed to Disney World." You can do anything for 1 day. You definately deserve a clean desk upon return from vacation. As for the picnic, I'd stop by the store and pick up some potato salad and a tray of cookies.

Doreen, have a wonderful and safe trip. Enjoy every minute and live in the moment. You definately deserve a relaxing vacation after the last few months.::yes::

Have fun,
Beth

[lulu201]

:hug:, :hug:, and more :hug: for you this morning, Doreen. I'm just catching up on your journal and see that yesterday was TOUGH!:( Today, though, is a new day, and you are on your way to WDW--nothing can overshadow that!::yes::

Doreen, I agree with Beth. Stop by the grocery store and pick up something quick--that way your conscience will be assuaged and you won't have to even wonder if you "should have." Cross that worry off your list.

Clean that desk so that you can come back to a peaceful scene. Put a pack of Trident in the top drawer so you have something to chew on when you get back--just in case you're feeling a wee bit stressed upon re-entry.;) Remember, Doreen, you're in the midst of the storm before the calm. In a matter of hours you're going to be singing "Zip-it-dee-do-dah" down the highway!

You know you and yours will be in my prayers as you travel. Soak it all up while you're away--the sunshine, the peace, the happiness that radiates around WDW, and the feeling of stress leaving your body as you get your massage (what a good, healthy move that was, WISH-sis!). Have a wonderful time!

With love,
Erin

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! Sorry I wasn't here for you yesterday - sounds like you and I work in the same office ;) I hope your evening was somewhat restful. When it all starts to be to much just pictures yourself in Disney World. My favorite is on Main St. but DH prefers to imagine he is on the monorail ;)

Have a great trip and soak up all the WDW magic for us okay!

~Amanda

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
You're almost there! :Pinkbounc Before you know it, you'll be walking down Main Street with Cinderella's castle looming before you and saying, "Job? What job?" :teeth:

I pray that you and your family have a wonderful vacation. A wonderful time to reconnect and relax and enjoy the magic of Disney. Have a safe trip there and back! Can't wait to hear about your trip!!!:hyper:

WISHing you a wonderful, happy, safe, relaxing, and enjoyable vacation,

Tracy:teeth: :wave2:

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,

Well, it's getting CLOSER...CLOSER...CLOSER. You're almost there!

Have a wonderful, relaxing trip and send some of the magical dust our way. You deserve this vacation and don't even think about work. It'll all still be there when you return.

Be safe, be happy, and say "hi" to the Mouse for me.

Nancy J

[Strings]

Doe,

I just wanted to let you know about Olive Garden's new entrees. They have parmesan coated shrimp and chicken dishes. It comes with pasta, but you can substitue broccoli or grilled veggies. Thought I'd let you know in case you pass one on the road. The chicken is yummy.

Have a great trip.
\Beth

[DoeWDW]

Beth, THANK YOU!!!! DH LOVES Olive Garden but I have been avoiding it! Maybe I'll treat him to a nice dinner there while we're on vacation! :sunny:

It's almost 3 PM. Work has been insanely busy but I have put a couple things to rest so I won't have to worry about them. I have one more assignment to do and then my desk to clean and only an hour to get it done.

In spite of it all, I'm feeling pretty good, although it may just be a sugar-buzz - yep, I caved into the EVM again! :rolleyes: It's OK - life will be less stressful very soon!

Thanks for all the trip well-wishes! I'll be taking all of you along in my heart! :grouphug:

[wilderness01]

Doe,

Have a great trip!princess: I just love that castle.:Pinkbounc I agree with Beth, stop by the store and pick up a tray of cookies/maybe a fruit platter. I'm sure if these people knew you were leaving straight for vacation they wouldn't expect you to bring anything. You're almost out of work, good for you. Leave all that stress behind and have a great time.:cool:

[DoeWDW]

:rolleyes1 Now it's time to say good-bye to all our company. M-I-C See ya real soon!! K-E-Y Why? Because we LIKE you!! M-O-U-S-E

Sending up prayers and sending out best wishes to all my WISH buddies! :grouphug: I'm taking each and every one of you with me in spirit, for you are all a cherished part of me now.

I'll check in when I can!

Love to all!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

We had an uneventful drive and arrived at WDW yesterday around 2 PM. Since our room wasn't ready, we strolled into Epcot, got lunch at the food court in The Land, let Kim taste Beverly :p , and rode Imagination. We got back and moved into our room at the Beach Club Villas. We spent a few hours swimming at Stormalong Bay and the girls made a great sand sculpture of Mickey Mouse's face! Bedtime was early.

Today, we woke up at 5 AM - the girls had a surfing lesson at Typhoon Lagoon. They LOVED it and both were standing and surfing the waves by the end of 2 hours! They paid for this themselves and both agreed the money was worth it! DH & I watched & took pictures. We stayed at Typhoon Lagoon for 2 hours - riding the lazy river, etc. We ate lunch at Beaches & Cream. The girls have headed out to MGM while DH & I took a nap!

The weather has been great until this afternoon - now we're having thundershowers. I'm just glad the girls had beautiful weather for surfing - sun & blue skies, truly perfect.

Food-wise, I'm doing mostly low-carb. I had a burger for lunch - no bun, but I did have a couple sips of DH's chocolate milkshake. I'm starting to feel thinner and am enjoying all the walking.

Love to all! :grouphug:

[wilderness01]

You sound like you are having a good time. :Pinkbounc How are the crowds so far? Good for you that you survived Beaches n Cream without getting a Mud Slide! :thewave: I don't know if I will be that strong! Have a great day.:D

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
I didn't realize you would be able to check in with us while on vacation. How cool is that :smooth: ? Sounds like you all are having a great time. Hope tomorrow goes just as well :sunny: !

[Strings]

Wow Doe,

We don't have to wait for a trip report! Sounds like a great time. I love Typhoon lagoon. Have a great time. I hope the weather cooperates.

:umbrella:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

So far the crowds aren't bad. We went to MGM Studios last night to meet the girls. It was raining lightly but steadily - didn't stop us! :p We played Millionaire, rode Tower & rode Rock n Roller Coaster several times. We took the boat back to the hotel and ate a snack in the room.

This morning, we slept in. We're off to the grocery store in a bit. DH & I have massages this afternoon. Not sure what else the day will bring.

[septbride2002]

Doe be sure to have a Dole Whip for me - you have to - you just HAVE too! Sounds like you guys are having an amazing trip so far - I am green with envy my friend. Suck up the :sunny: and the ::MickeyMo magic ::MinnieMo for all of us so you can send it out to us when you get back!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Sleeping in and a massage.:cloud9: :cloud9: :cloud9: Sounds like heaven to me. Enjoy every second of it. I'm glad the crowds are cooperating.

Beth

[DoeWDW]

After the grocery trip and the unpacking of the groceries (did we REALLY buy all this???), we ate lunch & vegged a bit. DH & I went for our massages while the girls napped. We headed over to Epcot for the evening - rode Mission:Space & the ride at Mexico, got one of our coveted margaritas & strolled World Showcase. The girls had a great time stopping at practically every shop. They were trying on various hats and making us laugh! We watched Illuminations and then let the crowd walk by. We finally strolled around World Showcase when it was practically empty - ahhhhh. We made a trip to the hot tub and finally crashed around 12:30 AM!

DH & I just got up - the girls are still sleeping. The only solid plan for today is E-ticket night at the MK. I'm a little worried because MK is open until 11 PM and then E-ticket runs for 3 hours - 2 AM!! My bedtime at home is usually 9 or 10 - will I make it??? I think I'll try to catch a nap this afternoon!

Yesterday's food was good until I got the nachos & margarita in Mexico, but we're doing lots of walking and I'm staying on plan for the most part.

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
It has been so much fun reading your posts while you are at WDW! It sounds like you are having a fabulous time! Enjoy every minute of it!!:Pinkbounc Say hi to ::MickeyMo for me!

Take care,
Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

Dole Whip:Pinkbounc Dole Whip:bounce: Dole Whip:Pinkbounc Dole Whip:bounce:

You are going to be in MK - I just know that you'll be going through Adventure Land to the Aloha Isle stand and will relish in the soft serve Pineapple Dole Whip as you make your way to Pirates of the Carribean of Jungle Cruise. I can just picture it. Ahhhhhhh.............................I wish I could just :teleport: right there..............:cloud9:

Have I mentioned how freaking jealous I am!!!!!!

~Amanda

[wilderness01]

I love both e-nights AND dole whips! :Pinkbounc Glad you are having a good time.

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

Hope you are having a great time. I am so jealous. When we went in April, the MK closed at 6-7PM on three of our nights for grad nights, special events. It would be heaven to be able to stay there until 11. And 2am??? Lead me to Space Mtn. baby!!!:Pinkbounc

[lulu201]

Ahhhhhhh, to be leading your life, Doreen. It all sounds fabulous. Did you enjoy your massage? (Dumb question, right?:p ) Where did you go for it? I'm guessing there's a spa right there at BCV?

I think one of my favorite WDW times and places is Epcot after the fireworks. . .warm air, flickering torches, perfect atmosphere. . .add a margarita and a DH and it's almost heaven.
Did I happen to say, "ahhhhhhhhhh"?

What are you doing today?

Glad you're enjoying yourself. Give a :wave: to Todd, Steph, and Kim.


:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday afternoon we headed over to Animal Kingdom. We rode Primeval Whirl, the girls rode Dinosaur, and we explored the Maharajah Jungle Trek. Then we headed to Animal Kingdom Lodge for dinner. We had an hour to check out the lodge - spent some time watching the flamingo flock and the giraffes - and then we had dinner at Boma. I've always wanted to try Boma and the food was good, but I've discovered that my family and I are not very adventurous eaters. We enjoyed it but I doubt we'll go back. Then we headed back to the room. DH & I took a nap while the girls went to play tennis. By 9:15 we were headed to the MK. We watched Wishes (LOVE that fireworks show!) and then parted ways with the girls. DH & I shared a Dole Whip, watched Spectromagic and strolled and rode a couple rides. We met up with the girls at 2 AM and waited forever for a bus back to BCV. It was a good day!

DH & I woke up around 9. I have laundry running and we'll take it slow today. Kim wants to go out and get a card for her father for Father's Day and get it mailed, so that's first on the list. We don't have any other plans yet. Life is good and I'm feeling relaxed.

Erin, we got our massages at the Beach Club's health club....ahhhhh.

[toystoryduo]

Good morning princess: Doe!
It sounds like you are having a fabulous time! Was that the first time you had seen Wishes? I can't wait to see that fireworks show! :Pinkbounc

Thank you for the trip updates! ::yes:: It makes me WISH I could be there at WDW too. Only 6 more months now.......:Pinkbounc

Have a great day at WDW!::MickeyMo ::MinnieMo

Tracy:wave2:

[ZerasPride]

Good morning Doe!

Reading about your fun time reminds me of my trip. I wish I was still there. Speaking of "wishes", isn't that just the best fireworks show? I had read about it here on the DIS and I thought I'd enjoy it but boy was I not prepared for how much I loved it! My sister was so impressed as we watched the show from our room most nights at the Grand Floridian.

I just can't wait to go back and even though it will be a while, I'm writing a trip report (I took extensive notes) and will have my memories and other people's trip reports to keep me going!

Have a wonderful time!!!:sunny:

[Strings]

I lovedWISHES. We saw it 3 times on our October trip. Sounds like you know how to do WDW. Go for 2 weeks and relax. Now if I could just convince DH. Amanda will be glad to hear that you had a dole whip. Have a fabulous day!
Beth

[Auntmeme]

Thanks for keeping us informed - it makes us all soooo happy :goodvibes

Sounds like a fantastic trip so far - great food, lots of walking & in the hot tub with the dh - life is GRAND :flower1:

[septbride2002]

:sad: I want to go!:sad:

But I'm very happy for you - I hope today was fabulous for you!

~Amanda

[TigerBear]

I can't think of a more fun place to walk than Disney!!! I'm so glad you are having a fun and relaxing trip!

[LAinSEA]

I'm almost there too - your trip is sounding Heavenly so far.

I can't think of a better place to get a walk in than EPCOT after Illuminations or was that MK after dark or that trail in Asia with the Tigers right before closing....we saw the tigers go for a swim! Oh please keep posting the trip reports!

-Laurie:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Let's see, where did I leave off?? We got up late yesterday and lazed around. DH & I walked around Epcot & picked up a card for Kim to send to her father. We got back & the girls were STILL sleeping! They finally woke up around 1 PM.

The girls & I went to Blizzard Beach & rode quite a few of the major slides. DD braved Summit Plummet and loved it!! DH headed for Downtown Disney & saw a movie. The girls & I returned to the room for a snack & then they headed to the pool for a swim.

Today we all got up pretty early and headed to MGM. DH & I went one way & the girls went another. We met up at 50s Prime Time for lunch and now we're back at the room for a mid-day break. I had the chicken sandwich / no bun and I swapped out the fries for the sauteed green beans. It was a perfect low-carb lunch!

I'm feeling thinner!

[DoeWDW]

Let's see, where did I leave off?? We got up late yesterday and lazed around. DH & I walked around Epcot & picked up a card for Kim to send to her father. We got back & the girls were STILL sleeping! They finally woke up around 1 PM.

The girls & I went to Blizzard Beach & rode quite a few of the major slides. DD braved Summit Plummet and loved it!! DH headed for Downtown Disney & saw a movie. The girls & I returned to the room for a snack & then they headed to the pool for a swim.

Today we all got up pretty early and headed to MGM. DH & I went one way & the girls went another. We met up at 50s Prime Time for lunch and now we're back at the room for a mid-day break. I had the chicken sandwich / no bun and I swapped out the fries for the sauteed green beans. It was a perfect low-carb lunch!

I'm feeling thinner!

[wilderness01]

How have the crowds been? I heard it is very hot and humid there right now.

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

Sounds like the disney magic continues. You are doing a great job with eating lc, just treats here and there. I'm impressed. You sound so happy. Enjoy the day.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday afternoon, the girls wanted to try the health club. They just wanted to use the treadmills but they'd never been in a real health club before so I had to show them around. I thought of Sharon as I taught them to use the evil steppers!! They did use the treadmills also. Then I showed them the steam room and the sauna, and explained the difference. They loved it!

Last night we stayed in. Kim's family always makes their own pizza on Friday night - it's a tradition - and Kim brought the recipe. The girls took over the kitchen while DH & I sat on the balcony sipping wine and reading. :) Pizza isn't low-carb but I had to eat it - only 2 slices. We watched the Illuminations fireworks from the balcony - can only see the high ones but we can hear the music! Then the girls fell asleep and DH was nice enough to clean up the total disaster in the kitchen - great guy!!

DH and I also worked on a stroller that we're babysitting. The DIS has a stroller swap going and the stroller is passed from family to family. We had to babysit it for 5 days while it was between families. Well, when we finally found it (bit of a challenge), it was filthy and broken. We washed the parts we could, DH got some cleaner and paper towels from Housekeeping and wiped down the rest of the parts and Maintenance was nice enough to bring some new screws to help with the repairs. It's looking good and ready to roll! We turn it over to the next family tomorrow. It's nice to be able to give back a little of the pixie dust we've received from the DISBoards.

This morning we did lots of laundry and lazed around. The girls have headed off to the pool and DH went to the movies. I think we'll eat dinner in the room tonight and then stroll over to Epcot to see Illuminations.

The weather has definitely been hot and humid. The crowds are manageable - typical busy summer. DH and I agree that we just don't care about the rides like we used to. We're content to stroll around and soak up atmosphere.

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday the girls returned from the pool and decided Downtown Disney sounded good, so off we went! We strolled through the shops and DH met us after his movies. He saw "Around the World in 80 Days" and "Terminal". Then the girls wanted to pop into Disney Quest for a bit. After that, we headed home and ate a quick dinner in the room. At 8:30, the girls decided that we all "needed" a Kitchen Sink from Beaches & Cream. I was doing great on low-carb until then....LOL! Afterward, DH and I strolled around the lake to walk off all that ice cream while the girls went back to the room & crashed.

This morning the girls slept in. I went for a swim - had the quiet pool all to myself for an hour - ahhhhh! DH got some coffee and is headed for a long stroll to MGM & back. The girls want to be at Disney Quest when it opens today at 11:30, so we'll drive them there and then head to Saratoga Springs (the new DVC resort) to look around. DH wants to watch the NASCAR race this afternoon so the girls can take the bus home when they're finished.

Life is good! :sunny:

[toystoryduo]

Ahhhh... it sounds like you are having such a wonderful, relaxing time at WDW! ::yes:: Please let us know what you think about Saratoga Springs. We hope to tour that resort while we are there in December. Have a great day today and please tell DH we said , "Happy Father's Day!"

Take care,
Tracy:wave2:

[Strings]

If Icould only convince DH to invest in DVC. I'm so glad you are enjoying your trip. It sounds like you are having lots of quality time with DH. I love the pools in the morning. They are always deserted. Nascar sounds like a good Father's day for DH. Wish him a happy one for me.
Beth

[vald1977]

:wave: Hi Doe,
I have to tell you, you really know how to do Disney! It sounds like you manage to have all the fun and find time to relax as well ::yes:: . I hope your dh is a Newman fan and he was happy with the race yesterday. I hope you have a great day :sunny: !

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday the girls enjoyed Disney Quest all day and managed to find time to see The Stepford Wives at the movie theater. DH and I strolled around Saratoga Springs - it's nice but my heart belongs to the Beach Club. We did pick up salads there and brought them back to the room to eat during the race. DH watched while I napped. :) Then DH & I strolled around Epcot (another margarita and some yummy cinnamon glazed almonds!!). We watched Illuminations and then met up with the girls. We stopped at the ESPN Club to pick up dinner and took it back to the room.

This morning was my big morning to tour Epcot's World Showcase on a Segway!! DH went along to take pics and they had a cancellation so we snapped up the spot for DH! Those Segways are so much fun!! Then we met the girls in Italy for lunch - I had the chicken parmigiana and some chianti. We all shared some desserts. We really enjoyed this meal!! The girls want to go back there again. Now we're back at the room. DH is napping, and I had a swim.

In an hour or two we'll head to MGM. DD befriended a Tower of Terror bellhop 5 years ago and she promised to ride the Tower with DD & her friend. She was on vacation last week but she'll be working tonight. The girls want to see Fantasmic - don't know if I'll make it that late, but we'll see.

When I get home it will be time to start training in earnest for the half marathon. We have a little over 6 months until the big day - time to get serious!

[cinmell]

Hi Doreen,
It sounds like you are having a great time! Have a great day today and enjoy your vacation. :D ::MickeyMo ::MinnieMo

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi! Have a great day, WISH-sis!

Erin

[septbride2002]

What a fun morning on the Segways! I was just telling DH about those and we might be interestedin doing that one of these days. :)

Glad you are having such a great time!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

We had a great time at the Tower with DD's CM friend. She was so thrilled that we came to see her. She says she's been there 10 years and we're the only people who have ever come back to see her, and it just broke my heart - she's such a sweetie!! She did ride the Tower with us and we got the picture to prove it! The girls decided they NEEDED autograph books and they got autographs from Tigger, Eeyore, Rafiki and Timon. We skipped Fantasmic - it was standing room only. We'll go back tonight for the second (and always less crowded) show.

Today we slept in. DH & I have massages (yes, again!) this afternoon. Not sure what the girls will do.

[toystoryduo]

Hi Doe!
Those massages sound heavenly. ::yes:: I bet you and DH are on :cloud9: . Have a great day today!

Tracy:wave2:

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
Your adventures are so enjoyable! Thanks for posting and keeping us informed. I really wish I were there too.

Maybe fewer rides and more massages is the way to go. It sounds like you're having lots of time to relax.

Talk to you soon.

NancyJ

[gadizlover]

Hi Doreen-
I am really enjoying reading your DW posts. It's the next best thing to being there! :sunny:

Sounds like you and your family are having a fabulous time. I am more determined now to get a trip in this year. And those massages sound heavenly. We always try to fit everything into a few days, your way sounds sooo much better. :teeth:

[LAinSEA]

Doe:

Having two whole weeks to enjoy WDW is very relaxing! The way you can just go with the flow and not commando here and there is impressive. I have to find a way for my vacations to be that relaxing!

The trip reports are fabulous - I'm really enjoying your vacation too through your words!

-Laurie:sunny:

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

I am Disneying vicariously through you Doreen, thanks for the ahhhh wonderful TR!!!::MickeyMo ::MinnieMo

[DoeWDW]

DH and I enjoyed our massages - aaaahhhh!! We spent a little time at the health club's hot tub afterward. The girls finally got off their butts and went to MGM. DH walked over later. I opted to stay in the room and do laundry and figure out my training walks for the half marathon. I have every walk in my palm pda from now until race day in January and I just have to follow through. I used the plan on www.halhigdon.com and made some modifications, repeated some weeks, etc. I also want to start doing weight training at the health club 3x a week when I return home. I'm feeling better, knowing I have a plan. I did have a couple glasses of wine and enjoyed Illuminations from my balcony. :)

Tomorrow we're off to Downtown Disney to do all the shopping. I get a discount at the World of Disney store and a couple others there. Not sure what we'll do in the evening.

I'm starting to look forward to heading home. I miss my puppy and my own bed. I'll be ready to leave on Friday morning.

[CheapMom]

Hi Doreen- you sound like you are having such a ball. You sound fully decompressed!
Have a great time.
Mary

[Strings]

I completely understand about being ready to go home. Of couse, as soon as our plane takes off, I'm can't wait to go beck. It sounds like you are having an incredible time. Thank you for sharing your adventures with us.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Today we shopped at Downtown Disney. I was thoroughly exhausted!! We went to the Perkins at Crossroads for lunch - good food at a good price! Then we came back to the room for naps. We're headed to Magic Kingdom tonight for another E-ticket night.

For those who are interested, we saw Ally the Beach Club's gator this morning in the canal. She's doing fine. She's been here for at least 2 years and is probably about 5 feet long. There were 5 snapping turtles too and lots of fish. It's illegal in Florida to feed gators but some family was throwing bread in.

I've realized that my journal entries talk about what we did each day but not about the most memorable moments of the trip - all of our interactions with wonderful people. We've talked to so many nice people, both cast members and guests, and that's what I usually remember most about my trips. Often we'll be somewhere in a park and remember that we talked to a really nice family from Israel here or a wonderful cast member there.

I also realized that in all the shopping today, I've bought things to take home for family, souvenirs for the girls, a shirt for DH even, but nothing for me. On one hand, I feel like I should get something but on the other hand, it's all "stuff" and do I really need more "stuff"?? Not sure if I'll pick up something for me or not - decisions, decisions. :)

Enough pondering for one day. :sunny:

[lulu201]

Good morning, WISH-sis! OK, here's my two cents about buying something for yourself. . .I don't think "stuff" is the way to go UNLESS it's something that reflects what was extra special about this particular trip.

As an outsider looking in, I'd have to say that this trip was a time for you to rest, relax, and rejuvenate, so maybe bringing home something you buy at the spa would be a nice souvenir? A thick, cozy bathrobe or a big, thirsty towel or some fragrant massage oil? Maybe you want something that supports the Jock Athlete Princess in you--like a new jogging suit or a journal that you can record your exercise in? Any of these items would bring to mind this vacation that did so much to restore your spirit.

Thank you for sharing your trip with us. It sounded just amazing!
Have a safe trip home tomorrow; you'll be in my prayers. Love to Todd and the girls--

Erin

[CheapMom]

Hi Doreen-
I like lulu's ideas-
I myself am anti-stuff also- the best souveniers to me are definately memories and photos. So to me a cute photo frame or similar would be good. The cutest thing they are selling at gift shops now are those little charm bracelets and charms- you could add a charm for each trip you take. (maybe on the last day of each trip with some signifigance to the memories you made on that trip)
I am glad that you are able to take this nice break with your family- you SO deserve this R&R.
Enjoy yourself-
Mary

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I love the ideas that you have been given. If you get the massage oil, you and DH have an excuse to make time for yourself.

Enjoy your last day of your trip. I will be praying for a safe trip home for you.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Thank you all for your wonderful ideas!! You've got me thinking about what has been truly special about this trip and what it has meant to me. I did break down and buy a crystal to hang in my kitchen window - I'm hoping the sun will catch it and make rainbows all over the room and rainbows always fascinate me and make me smile. It was less than $10 but I'll enjoy it. :)

Last night we were back in the Magic Kingdom for another E-ride night. I just love being in the MK with so few people, watching the castle change color and seeing Main Street all lit up, strolling with DH.

This morning we were slow in getting up. I spent an hour at the pool while waiting for the laundry to cycle through. The girls are finally waking up and getting ready. We're heading to MGM (pic with Mickey and a t-shirt for DS), Typhoon Lagoon (DD wants a picture frame) and Downtown Disney (DD saw something in the crystal shop she wants and DH wants to see a movie). Tonight I will probably take one more stroll around the World Showcase at Epcot. I'd like to find a bench and enjoy one last margarita while thinking about all the wonderful times we've had on this trip.

We'll also be packing the van for the trip home. We'll be leaving early tomorrow morning to avoid Orlando rush hour traffic. We're going to play the drive by ear - we could make it in one day but if any of us are getting too tired of the car, we'll stop and finish the drive on Saturday.

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe! I just caught up with the last few pages of your journal. I had to laugh to see you thought of me and the evil stepper!!!:teeth:
Your vacation sounds absolutely divine!! How wonderful that you had 2 whole weeks of relaxation. That's the problem with Americans, we don't take enough time to relax and unwind!! I am so happy you had this opportunity. We have a few camping trips this sumer for 8 or 9 days, and I know that those extra few days make ALL the difference!!::yes::
Have a safe trip home! Just sit back and relive all your beautiful memories!
TTFN-
Sharon :sunny:

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe,
I know that you are probably on your way home now, but I want to WISH you a safe trip home. Thank you so much for sharing your trip with us! It sounds like a wonderful and relaxing time was had by all. Sending prayers your way for a safe trip home, an easy transition back to home life post-vacation, and for lots of :sunny: to hit that crystal you bought so that you can look at it and remember this wonderful trip.::yes::


Tracy:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

I'm home!! :sunny:

We left the Beach Club Villas at 5:40 AM yesterday and were home by 9:20 PM last night. The drive went well but we didn't stop much. My puppy was happy to see me when we picked her up at the kennel, but she got a bath promptly when we got home! :)

This morning we called DS in Australia to see how he's doing. He has been suffering from depression and he's doing his best to have a good time. He said he hasn't made any special friends in his traveling group so he's feeling down about that. He likes the food and most of the activities have been fun. DH and I were a bit down after talking to him. I guess we were both hoping to hear him talk about what a great time he's having and it's hard to hear that twinge of sadness in his voice. However, we both agree that the schedule is crazy so he's probably tired and we're hoping that he'll look back on the trip as a good one. We asked if we should call him again next Saturday and he said yes.

Being a parent is tough. DH and I think that DS is spending too much time just aimlessly sitting around so when he gets back we'll help him pass his driver's test and get the job he so badly wants. It will give him a sense of purpose and responsibility. We also talked about encouraging him to go back to martial arts which he really enjoyed. If these things don't help, then we agreed that counseling is the next step.

I woke up this morning and felt all the old "shoulds" coming back to me. I have resolved to not get back into that old trap. During vacation, I woke up feeling light and sunny and hopeful every day. I think I deserve to feel that way every day (or MOST days) out of the year! I'll be working on taming my "should" monster and enjoying every moment of my day, even those moments when I'm tackling chores and taking care of those "shoulds".

I weighed in and took measurements - it was a mixed bag. My weight is a staggering 139 - only 3 pounds less than when I started WISH last August and 2 pounds more than when I left on vacation. However, some of my measurements have gone down and most of the others have stayed the same. I'm not going to change my signature - I'm going to give it a week or at least until July 1st.

I could ponder on but I'm hungry - haven't eaten breakfast yet! :) I want to get to journals but will be concentrating on getting my disaster area.....ummm.....house back in order. I've already decluttered the kitchen and DH says he'll clean it. I'm going to unpack bags and declutter and clean today and tomorrow so I can start the week with a decent looking house!

[wilderness01]

I'm glad you had such a nice trip. I usually get the post-trip blues so maybe that is why you are having some trouble with the "shoulds" today. Give it a few days and hopefully the "shoulds" will be gone. I'm sorry that your son is feeling sad. It is hard to be away from home. :hug:

[Castillo Mom]

Doe, I just finished catching up with your joural. When you PM'd me the other day, I didn't realize you were still journaling. What a wonderful way to chronicle your trip and share your thoughts and experiences with us. After reading, I'm even more excited about our trip in about 6 weeks! Thanks again Doe and welcome back!:D

[LAinSEA]

Doe:

On fighting the "shoulds" - I'm having difficulties dealing with the "shoulds" too. I should be pulling weeks and cleaning house, I should spend more time on my classwork, I should be more thorough at work, I should be exercising more, I should be eating more on plan, I should be spending more time with family, I should, I should, I should! It seems the more "Shoulds" the more stress and the "shoulds" multiply until I'm losing what little sleep because I'm getting worrying about more "shoulds".

If you have found a way to deal with the "Shoulds" please, please share.

Again welcome home - I really enjoyed your trip posts. It was almost like being there.

-Laurie

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
Welcome home. I'm glad you had a safe and happy trip. You must have been so exhausted from that long ride home. I know when we drive home from South Carolina it seems like forever!

I'm sure your son will get more used to things and make some friends this week. Some kids take a little longer to socialize. Your idea of helping him get his license and a job sound really good. We have a lot of young people working at my supermarket, and they seem to enjoy themselves, like the extra money, and are developing a sense of responsibility. They mostly work about 12 to 16 hours per week and that seems enough for most of them.

Have a great Sunday. I'm going to visit DS and his wife this afternoon. I've been spending so much time at DD's that I'm going to enjoy this visit a lot. I won't be painting and hanging wallpaper!

Talk to you soon, Nancy J

[DoeWDW]

I've been sharing my feelings of being overwhelmed with "shoulds" with my DH. He and I are both working hard to stay sane, knowing that our work will be very stressful over the next few months. We talked yesterday about how much housework is enough for one day, setting our daily goals for that day and then letting the rest go, guilt-free. Knowing that we are both struggling with "shoulds" and that we are setting reasonable daily goals together is helping.

Today my goals are going to Sunday School & church, which I enjoyed, getting to the store for groceries and walking the puppy as part of my half-marathon training. I do not have to feel bad about all the rest of the shoulds - they'll get tackled on other days. I know that DH will not be feeling resentful if the bathroom is not spotless or the weeds aren't pulled, since he agreed on these goals with me. By the way, DH thought about lots of goals for his day, but says he just doesn't feel motivated. We both agreed that he should take the day off, without feeling guilty about it.

I haven't been to the store yet, so my food choices are pretty limited. I didn't get a chance to eat before going to church and I had a PBJ and a handful of chips for lunch. I've been drinking my water and took my meds. I am down to 137 - my pre-vacation weight and my measurements are heading down as well. I think yesterday's stats were due to vacation bloat! :) I'll be feeling much better in a few days.

I'm feeling lighter and happier. I am dreading work tomorrow but I am going to try to do the same kind of goal-setting that I'm doing at home. Accomplishing 2 small goals is better than wallowing in all my shoulds and getting nothing done! I'm going to try to hang onto this relaxed feeling!

Work will be crazy and I'm limiting my computer time at home, so I'm not sure when I'll get all caught up on journals. Please know that I'm thinking warm thoughts and sending good vibes to all of you!

[Auntmeme]

WELCOME HOME:wave:

I also enjoyed your vaca posts, need to catch up on the lastones. I guess the time flew by:(

Sorry to hear about all the stress but your plan with dh sounds just perfect. Hope Sunday was very enjoyable and today is a better day for you:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

I finished all my goals on Sunday! I went to church, got groceries at the store and walked the puppy for 45 minutes!

I'm at work. I just got through all my emails and have to revisit some to follow up. So far, so good! I've got a smile on my face despite the sick feeling in my stomach (stress-induced). I keep giving myself positive self-talk and breathing deeply and consciously relaxing my muscles. I'm going to take baby steps through my day.

My goals for today - get through my work day, walk the puppy, and make a decent dinner of chicken parmigiana (with low-carb sauce & low-carb pasta). The rest will take care of itself in time.

I'm keeping my sunny attitude! :sunny:

[lulu202]

Good morning, dear WISH-sis!:wave: Sorry I didn't have this post waiting for you when you got to work. I decided to sleep in.:rolleyes: For the first time in months!:p

It sounds to me like you've got things under way. . .you're taking those baby steps and you're inching back into the work world. The first day back is always so brutal, but you seem to be taking it all in stride.:boat: Put yourself on cruise control, honey.

Did you take your meds and vitamins? Very necessary, Doreen. Don't forget. Also, include some mugs of water in your plan. You can do it, and it will help with the stress. Hey, if DD isn't home, I have to mother someone!

:hug: for you on this busy Monday!

Erin

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe,
WISHing you a bright and :sunny: day at work today. Just remember that baby steps are the key to getting through your first day back.

I like how you and your DH are working together to come up with your daily goals. ::yes:: That is such a great idea! :Pinkbounc I think my DH and I are going to try and follow your example. My husband and I have a tendency to set goals and then not follow through with them. However, with a "goal partner", there will be more accountability for each of us and we can focus together on what is important and what can wait. This is a great idea Doe!! Thanks!:teeth:

I hope you have a wonderful day today! :sunny: Take good care of you!

Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

It is easy to become overwhelmed after a vacation. We have put off real life for so long that it all backs up on us. I think you and Todd are doing a great thing by agreeing to daily goals and then forgetting the rest. Concentrate on the NOW and not the shoulds.

I'm glad to hear the vacation bloat is gone. And that you are going to be :boat: on the back on track boat with Erin and myself. The three of us need to get back into :cool1: walking the walk! I know we can do it! I know I feel stronger knowing my fellow princess: are with me!

~Amanda

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
I hope your morning is going well for you. Baby steps are a good thing ::yes:: . Just keep moving forward a little at a time and before you know it, it will be time to head home and unwind :D . Wishing you a great day :sunny: !

[DoeWDW]

Thanks, all!! Your posts are making me smile! It's great to have all my buddies around me - I can feel the good vibes! ::yes::

Erin, I did take my vitamin but left my meds at home - I'll take them when I get home this afternoon. I'm drinking tons of water! I'm glad you're here to mother me! ::yes:: :hug:

Tracy, setting goals with DH has been a real blessing this weekend. I'm only setting 3 per day - I have to remember that I'm not Superwoman! ::yes::

Amanda, it looks like you and Erin and I will be the 3 Mouseketeers ::MinnieMo with our recommitment to healthy living. I'm going to walk the walk today!! ::yes::

Val, those baby steps are so important to me! Thinking in terms of baby steps helps me to avoid feeling overwhelmed! Whenever I start to feel anxious, I know I'm thinking too much and I take a deep breath and focus on the one baby step I need to take next.

Ladies, I'm going to do it!! I'm going to have a day on plan with my eating! I've had an apple w/ PB for breakfast and a string cheese for snack. Lunch will be tuna salad. Afternoon snack will be an Atkins raspberry yogurt. Dinner tonight will be chicken parmigiana with a small amount of low-carb pasta & sauce. I'll also be strolling at lunchtime and walking the puppy tonight so I'll get my exercise in, even though today is a rest day on my training schedule.

Today is the first day of the rest of my low-carb healthy living life!
:sunny: Hopefully I can resist the retirement cake at work today!! :p

[CheapMom]

Thanks for sharing your vacation with us through your journal- I am glad the scale swung back down for you. There will be a lot of catch-up at work I am sure and just like the housework- remember it can't be conquered all at once. You are not superwoman- but I think you are pretty darned close:D
Have fun getting back into the swing of things-
sending good thoughts your way for your DS.
Mary:sunny:

[lulu202]

:crazy2: Oooh, YUK! Did you say "retirement cake?" I've heard that's just the absolute worst dessert in the world! Stay away from that--the stuff is gross. What's the lousiest thing about it is that it looks kinda pretty and everyone who has it says it's really good and that you should try it, but don't fall for it, Doreen. They just want you sharing in their misery. ::yes:: Promise yourself a lowcarb treat after work, but whatever you do, WISH-sis: STAY CLEAR OF THAT NASTY CAKE!!!!!

Hey, isn't it cheesecake-for-breakfast-season? I think it's time we started having it again. What do you say: ya wanna make one this weekend? You, too, Amanda. The more the merrier!

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Erin, you are so right about that cake!! Your post made me think of the Beverly drink at Ice Station Cool in Epcot! YUCK!! The cake is gone and I did not have any of it! :Pinkbounc

Cheesecake......yum!!! I think you may be right - time to make some low-carb cheesecake this weekend!! ::yes::

I've stayed true to my plan - had my tuna salad for lunch and then walked a mile outside! Nothing is going to ruin my healthy living day today!! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Can somone send me a cheesecake ;) Sounds yummy!

Doe you are doing awesome today! And I know when you go home tonight you are going to be feeling so great about yourself that your evening will be a breeze and you will wake up tomorrow feeling sensational!

~Amanda

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

Hi Doreen,

Welcome back!
I can SO sympathize with you about the "shoulds"...I love your plan of 3 attainable goals a day, and that's it, the rest can wait. I'll have to try that.
I'm so glad you didn't eat that crappy cake at work. When we get cakes like that at work I try to avoid them. If I really wanted cake, I'd go to the bakery and get some nice treat or bake something myself.

Hope you are slowly easing back into the real world...
Jean

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm so happy to hear that you are getting a handle on your shoulds. I needed to learn that lesson myself. I'm still working on it. Believe it or not, I just pulled a cheesecake out of the oven. When I read your journal, I had to :p Great minds. I will add your son to my prayers tonight. I you did an awesome job staying OP. Congrats on getting through that 1st day intact.

:sunny:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Good morning, all! :grouphug:

Yesterday was a success in my book! I handled my 3 goals. I had a good day at work - not too stressful. I made the chicken parmigiana for dinner with help from DH - turned out good but I ate a little more low-carb pasta than I should have. I was going to walk the puppy but when she heard her leash jingle she hid, so DH and I walked without her. :p

I ate on plan yesterday but I did indulge in a bit too much pasta last night and I had about 20 cherries before bed. I did NOT binge - hooray!! I'm counting it as an on-plan day!

My only regret is that I forgot my meds yesterday. I also don't have them with me today, so I wrote a note and put it in my tote bag so I remember them tonight.

Today's 3 goals - a successful day at work, helping my Grandma move to her new apartment tonight, and balancing the checkbook.

I'm still doing the usual stuff - took my vitamin, will be drinking lots of water and eating on plan, will be walking for exercise. These things are becoming second nature and are now little things in my day.

The children's sermon at church on Sunday confirmed my idea of setting 3 goals for each day. The leader put sand in a jar, then added small rocks and then tried to add a large rock. Of course the large rock didn't fit. Then she put the large rock into the jar, followed by the small rocks, followed by the sand and it all fit.

I'm putting my 3 big goals into my day first, and then the smaller things seem to fit in around them. If I write a long list of "shoulds" it usually includes lots of the smaller things and then I feel overwhelmed by all I have to do - my jar is too full. By putting my 3 big goals into my day first, I feel lighter and less pressured and somehow I have time here and there and I fit the smaller things in almost effortlessly. It's working so far!

I've had my apple with peanut butter and my vitamin for breakfast. I have tuna salad for lunch. I have string cheese and Atkins low-carb yogurt for snacks. Dinner will be on the run - maybe a Subway low-carb wrap.

I'm feeling sunny and positive! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! It sounds like you and Erin both had great days! I over indulged a little - so my 1st day back was not as successful as yours. But I am more determined today to get moving.

Have a fabulous day today - and I think your idea of just making 3 big goals for the day is a good idea - you'll get everything else done in time.

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday was a successful day! I took my meds & vitamins, drank lots of water, ate on plan as best I could and walked the puppy. I accomplished my goals - had a decent workday and balanced the checkbook. I didn't have to help Grandma move - they finished early.

Today is Wednesday! I got up late & didn't have time for a shower - yuck! But I'm not going to let it throw me. I've finally remembered to bring my meds to work so I'll be taking them and my vitamin with my breakfast of apple with peanut butter. I'll get a Subway wrap or a burger for lunch. I have string cheese & yogurt for snacks. I'll be drinking water and I'll be walking this evening.

I haven't figured out my 3 goals for the day yet. Work is one - I have to write a section of a report. Haircuts tonight are another. I think the third will be menu planning for the next week and a half - I need to have low-carb food in the house so I don't have to struggle with staying on plan or worry about what to make for dinner.

I stayed off the scale this morning. I'm really thinking about putting the scale away for the month of July. I want to FEEL myself getting thinner. I want to pay more attention to how my body feels and how my clothes fit. I don't want to be distracted by the daily ups and downs of the number on that scale.

I've rambled on enough! I need to jump into my day and get this report written! I'll feel so much better when it's finished!

[lulu202]

Good morning, Doreen! :sunny: I'm sorry that I missed you yesterday. . .I didn't plan my time very well, I'm afraid.

I appreciate your :D tone to your journal. . .it's feels uplifting as I feel the pull of the D-zone. I like your idea of "feeling" your success; I'm going to think about that one today. I don't know if I can put the scale away though.

Have you ever read Stephen Covey's book "First Things First"? I think it opens with the rock in the jar metaphor. Reading it in your journal made me smile--I sure spend a lot of time with the little rocks and then have to try to cram the big rocks in here and there. I'm going to think over my day today and see what my big goals are.

Well, Doreen, I hope your day has moments of calm and joy and that you're able to take some time after the report to savor them.

:hug: ,
Erin

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! Great job on yesterday!:cheer2: :cheer2:

I know what you mean about having to have low carb options in the house - it gets hard when all you face is carby stuff. Try to make some time to head to the grocery store and pick up some items for you.

Goals look good for the day! Don't forget to go for a walk this evening if you have time. I recently read a book that said when you are stressed out the best thing you can do for yourself is to exercise for 30 minutes - and the book suggested walking. It helps relieve stress, gives you time to think, and best of all pumps all those happy endorphins into your body. This works for me! DH and I were down in the dumps last night after doing the bills but honestly after our workout we were in a pretty good mood!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

You did a fantastic job yesterday, and your goals for today look good. I hope the report goes smoothly. Have a good one.
Beth

[myhandd]

Doe,

Your posts are so wonderful! I think that it is a great idea to put the scale away and just diet without it for a while. I may join you on it!

Just checking in !

Dax

[wilderness01]

Your goals are great and your attitude so:sunny: . Good for you in taking little steps. We all put so much pressure on ourselves to get it all done. I know I am my own worst enemy.:rolleyes: Have a great day.:D

[DoeWDW]

Hi all!!! :wave2: Thanks for stopping by!

I took my meds & vitamins yesterday, ate on plan during work, drank lots of water and exercised. My food plan fell apart when I got home last night, but that's in the past.

I met 2 of my 3 goals - work went well and we got haircuts. I splurged and got my hair highlighted - a first for me! It came out lighter than I was prepared for - looks like I was on the beach all summer long - but it's done and I'll get used to it. I didn't get menus planned - oh well. :p

Today - same stuff, different day. :p I took my meds & vitamins. I'll drink my water, eat on plan and exercise tonight. My 3 goals for the day - work (another section of the report), laundry (2 loads), and the menu planning I blew off yesterday. Maybe the thought of planning menus for a week & a half was too daunting so I'll strive to plan menus for just the next few days.

I'm still feeling sunny! :sunny:

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
It sounds like the three goals a day idea has really done well for you. ::yes:: I'm still working on mine.;)

I hope you have a wonderful day today! Keep up the good work!:sunny: :Pinkbounc

Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

Hiya princess: Doe! I am really really bad at menu planning. How do I know what I will be in the mood for next Tuesday? :crazy: Good Luck to you!

Maybe instead of planning a hard menu - you could just buy different menu items and that way you know that they are in your fridge. :)

~Amanda

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
I see you're still going strong with you goals -- WTG :Pinkbounc :bounce: ! I've been considering the idea of getting some highlights done to my hair. Haven't decided just yet. I agree with Amanda that it's hard to plan menus too far in advance. I like her idea of making sure you have some healthy options on hand ::yes:: . Have a wonderful day :sunny: !

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Looks like everything is :sunny: today. As for the menus, I'd probably plan through the 4th. That way,everything can be on hand, and you won't have to go grocery shopping on a aholiday weekend. Enjoy the rest of your day.
Beth

[CruisingCA2005]

Doe:

I love the positive outlook to your journal. I think I'll have to incorporate your idea of daily goals into my journal. I just wanted to let you know that your optimism is an inspiration to some of us at the WISH boards.

Keep up the good work!

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! I hope it is bright and :sunny: where you are and that you are :D .

~Amanda

[CheapMom]

I would say that vacation did you a world of good- you got back home and back on track without missing a beat. You are inspiring me to "snap out of it" and get back to the business of taking care of myself.
I hope you meet all your goals easily and your holiday weekend is full of fun and relaxation.
Mary:sunny:
By the way- I don't know if you realize this but I consider you the queen of this board. Thanks!

[DoeWDW]

It's Friday AND it's pay day AND it's the start of a long holiday weekend - YAY!!!! Does life get any better?? :teeth: :teeth: :teeth:

I'm in a very contemplative mood so if this post is long and rambling - feel free to skip it. :p I just need to get some of these ideas into my journal so I don't forget them.

I've been back to work for a week now after my relaxing vacation. I'm getting back into my routines, which is causing me to see those routines with a fresh perspective on what parts of those routines are helping me and what parts are not helping me. This has been a real eye-opener - a good chance to take stock, improve things, and affirm what is working well.

In the mornings, I don't eat until I get to work. I love my breakfast foods! I have absolutely no desire to eat carby stuff for breakfast - I don't miss it at all. I love having an apple with peanut butter, yogurt, or when I've been cooking, egg custard or low-carb cheesecake. I look forward to breakfast. I find it satisfying and it usually holds me until lunch if I eat enough protein and fat. I don't need to make any changes here.

I also start drinking my water as soon as I get to work. I have no problem drinking water all day in the office. Again, I truly enjoy it and I don't go anywhere without my mug. I've been getting a cup of ice in the cafeteria and it lasts until lunchtime so my water is nice and cold, just the way I like it. Again, no changes - this part of my routine is working just fine.

I take my meds and vitamin with breakfast. As long as I have them with me, it has become so routine that I don't forget anymore. This is working great!

At lunchtime, I also am not tempted by carb stuff. I'm content with tuna salad or other low-carb food from home, a burger with no bun from the cafeteria or a low-carb Subway wrap. I like my lunches. This is working well.

In the afternoon is when I feel the urge to go to the EVM (unless the morning is REALLY stressful! :p ). I can always trace it to those days when I'm feeling stressed, when I feel like I'm not doing a good job or getting enough done. This is truly emotional eating because I am always still full from lunch. I know this and yet I feel almost powerless to stop it when it hits. I've tried eating more low-carb stuff, waiting it out, going for a walk, drinking extra water - none of this helps. By the time these emotional cravings hit, I think I'm emotionally too far gone to be satisfied with anything healthy. This seems so self-destructive and punishing to me and I'll have to explore the emotional feelings that get me to this point. This needs to change! On the days when I feel good about my job and confident of the work I'm doing, the EVM and all other carby junk do not even look good to me.

When I get home, I tend to cruise the kitchen for a snack. Again, my emotional state on the job tends to determine whether I'm happy with a healthy snack or if I'm prone to grab for junk.

Dinner is a pain! It is truly the meal most likely to throw me off, and it also seems to be determined by my emotional state. If I've had a bad day at work I could care less about "healthy" eating - I want comfort food! I also am generally tired by this time of day and have very little energy or motivation to cook even the most basic foods. I do best when my only activity that evening is making the meal or when I have used the crockpot. This tiredness in the evenings is minimal on Monday and gets progressively worse through the week. By Thursday or Friday, the chances of me cooking are slim and none! I should just accept that and plan for it. I can plan to use my crockpot more at the end of the week or cook more during the early part of the week and plan for leftovers for later or plan a meal from Wendy's or some other restaurant. I need to accept this pattern and use it to my advantage.

Once dinner is over, I have no desire to snack. Evenings are easy for me. Of course it helps that we don't eat dinner until about 7 or 8 PM and I'm in bed (on a good night) by 9:30 or 10 PM.

Exercise has not found its home in my routine yet. I've been going for a walk in the evenings (with DH, if he's around) but this can get derailed if there's some other appointment that evening. I think that I should start looking at my calendar for the week and putting exercise appointments at specific times each day. I already list what I need to do for my marathon training, but I haven't assigned any times. For a while, I did well with Pilates in the mornings but I got out of the habit. I got too depressed and tired to get up early and do it. Now that I'm back from vacation, I may want to consider this again for at least 2x or 3x a week. This needs to be scheduled too - not just hit or miss or "when I feel like it". :p

The idea of setting 3 goals per day has been working moderately well. I'm happy that on a work day, I list work as one goal. This takes a lot of physical, mental and emotional energy and I'm right to acknowledge that. If I'm cooking dinner, then that gets listed as another goal. This does not come easily to me. It costs me a good deal of time and energy to prepare a good meal. I know some people cook effortlessly but I'm not one of them and I may as well admit that to myself up front. Then I need to fit exercise in there and household chores and appointments and errands. Now I see why I become overwhelmed! ::yes::

Nevertheless, I like the idea of 3 goals a day and I'm going to continue using it. DH and I have not talked much about our 3 goals a day this week - I'd like to change that and our evening walks are a good time to do that, when we get a chance to walk together. At least the 3 goals keep me focused on the really big things that need to get done during my day.

Yesterday, 1.5 of my 3 goals were met. I did work. I only did one load of laundry instead of 2. I never did do the menu planning. I seem to have a real block in this area at the moment! Still, the important stuff got done and I'm proud of that.

Today, I'll stay with the routines that work. I've taken my meds, have started on my water, have had a healthy breakfast, will have a Subway wrap for lunch and who knows about dinner. Exercise - today is a rest day, but I didn't get my exercise in yesterday so I'll be walking during lunch and at home tonight.

My 3 goals today - work, checkbook & bills, and shipping a package to a friend. These are all reasonable. The heck with planning menus! I'm giving myself a day off from thinking about them! :eek: :p

I'm tired but I'm still feeling sunny! :sunny:

[lulu202]

:hug: to you, dear WISH-sis! I loved reading this post! I'm glad that you've taken some time to think about what is really realistic and attainable for you on a day to day basis. I think it's extremely important that you've acknowledged the HUGE chunk of energy that work takes from you. When you look back at all that you were doing before your vacation--the dance performances, the packing, the prep for Chris' trip, the work stresses, the healthy living demands--it's amazing at what you got accomplished while keeping your sanity, isn't it? ::yes:: I think you should pat yourself on the back for what you did, but now move forward into creating a manageable life for YOU!

I love the idea of Wendy's or the crockpot on Thurs. and Fri.! Think of the load that takes off the end of the week! We're always so beat by Friday night--especially during the school year--that making a meal is almost impossible. It sounds weird to say that, but it's true. I know, like you, that there are women (and husbands) who work a long day and come home and open their cookbooks with delight, but I'm not one of them. The trick for me is to eat in a healthy way when I'm out, but I've been out with you and you always make good choices (except for an occasional blue margarita--but now that I think about it, that IS a good choice!!:p ).

I have to go with DH now to Lowes to return a light fixture that isn't the right color or I'd stay and ponder the life of the working woman some more in your journal. Guess we'll have to do it when we get together to walk.

Remember if you ever try to pm me, you have to send it to Lulu202. My original identity is lost somewhere in cyberspace until the webmaster's help me find it. :badpc:

Have a good afternoon,
Erin

[Strings]

HI Doe,

It eems like you've got it figured out. The 3 goals thing really is a great idea. I'm really proud of you for looking at your life objectively and making a plan that works for you and what you want to accomplish. You are one of my inspirations.
Enjoy your walks today,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

My day yesterday was pretty good. I survived work. I shipped the package I wanted to ship. I did not get to the checkbook but I did spend some time working on the finances.

I ate on plan except for some yummy fresh cherries last evening. I did not do any binging or craving! HOORAY! I took the meds, drank the water, ate well and exercised.

My DD, who is going into 10th grade, has decided to try out for the tennis team at school. She has no clue how to play tennis, but I suppose she'll learn. :p DH and I took her to the courts last night. DH and DD hit the balls back and forth while Maya and I were the ball girls! :p It wasn't my usual walking but it sure was exercise! ::yes:: It was also a lot of fun and nice to do something together.

I tried to call DS in New Zealand this morning but their group's itinerary was changed. I have the number of the hotel they'll stay at on Monday, so I'll call him then. I'm bummed - was really looking forward to talking to him - but I'm sure he's fine and I'll talk to him in a couple days.

Today's goals - exercise, checkbook / bills, and laundry. My day is blissfully free of obligations so I can relax and take my time getting things done.

[toystoryduo]

Hello Doe,
Ahhh... a day without obligations sounds like heaven! I bet you are on :cloud9: today. Relax and enjoy because you deserve it!princess:

Tennis is a fun sport! I bet that your DD will learn the "ins and outs" quickly.::yes:: It sounds like you and Maya had a great time being ball girls. What a fun way to exercise!!!:teeth:

I hope you get a chance to talk to your DS on Monday. ::yes::

Have a Happy and safe Fourth of July weekend, Doe!

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu202]

:hug: and :sunny: for your new day, Doreen. Have a good day!
Any special plans? Whatever you do, treat yourself right!

Love,
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Sounds like a perfect weekend with so few obligations. Good planning. I know that you are anxious to talk with your son. I know you are worried about him, but I am sure he is fine. I hope he has made a few friends, and is feeling better. Have a great day.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Thanks Tracy, Erin & Beth! You all help me keep going! :grouphug:

Yesterday I took the meds and drank lots of water! We won't talk about the overload of carbs and lack of exercise. ;) I met 1.5 of my 3 goals - did the checkbook and did half the laundry.

Today we have 2 picnics to attend. Two of my 3 goals are the picnics and the other is my training committment for the half marathon - I need to walk 3 miles. That should be plenty easy for me but I don't have a pedometer at the moment so I guess I'll just walk briskly for an hour.

I'm working on getting the replacement parts ordered for my eliptical trainer. DH helped me figure out what parts it needs. That will be one more way I can exercise when the weather isn't good for walking outdoors. I'm looking forward to using it again - it's been over a year since it has worked. :p

I'll be back on plan today, minimizing those carbs! :sunny:

[CruisingCA2005]

Have a Happy 4th of July Doe!

Hope you have fun at the picnics while staying on plan! I know it's hard but you can do it.

[wilderness01]

Hope you have a nice time at your picnics.:D

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday's picnics went well - I stayed on plan for the most part. I didn't get my exercise in but have all day today to do it.

This morning I finally caught up with my DS in New Zealand. He was happy to hear from us. Their itinerary was changed because of snow - it's winter there. He's having a good time and sounded much better today, but he says he's ready to come home on Friday. We pick him up Friday night / Saturday morning around 2 AM.

Today's agenda - nothing!! DH & I have off. DD will be doing volunteer work at the community playground from 9 to noon and then playing tennis with a friend. Nothing else is planned but I'm sure we'll find stuff to keep us busy.

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

Hi Doreen,

Just wanted to say that you're doing great on the day to day healthy choices. Sounds like you're doing your best at keeping some order and control in your life, while allowing for the flexibility of the " unknowns" and "unexpecteds". That's about all we can do. Great job and very inspiring to read about. I'm always thinking of you guys while I'm pouring sweat on the Nordic Track!

Glad you heard from your DS. My DS had a wonderful time in DC last week; now he's down Cape Cod with my parents...all the dress clothes are sitting on his floor waiting to be done.:rolleyes: At least he doesn't need them for a few weeks when we drive off to do college visits and interviews.

Where in PA do you live? I am a big student of the battle of Gettysburg and travel there every year to visit with an Internet group. I just love the area and I'm seriously thinking of retiring somewhere within an hour of the battlefield. My son is going to interview in August at Gettysburg and Dickinson Colleges, 2 of the 9 we are going to visit in 2 weeks!

I hope you have a great day!
Jean

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
I am glad that you got a chance to talk to DS. ::yes:: I can't believe that their itinerary was changed due to snow!:earseek: I tend to forget that our seasons are switched with theirs.;) I bet that he is looking forward to coming home on Friday. :bounce:

Your post about tennis the other day inspired us to find our rackets and hit a few balls around yesterday. The girls had a great time chasing balls and even got a chance to hit a few. Thanks for the fun idea!::yes::

Have a wonderful, relaxing day today!:sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[wilderness01]

I'm glad you had a nice time at the picnics. You must be excited that your son is coming home this weekend. Snow.....I almost forgot about that word! I guess it wouldn't be that bad seeing it now knowing I was leaving it in less than a week. Glad his spirits are up and he is having a good time. Have a nice day.:D

[lulu202]

Hee-hee! Snow!!! The world's an amazing place, isn't it?:D
I know that hearing his voice must've done your heart a world of good, Doreen. Soon he'll be safe and sound at home.

Glad you had fun at the picnics. Enjoy your day to hang around the house. A nice little nap, some reading, sitting in the sun. . .I can think of lots of suggestions in case you have any trouble on your own!:p

After my walk today, I started re-thinking our mileage goal for our next walk. . .why was it I thought 10 miles was a good goal for us???!!!! Oh, yeah, I know: 'CAUSE WE'VE GOT TO WALK 13.2!!!
:eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek:
Just a moment of panic there.

Oh, gotta run to the grocery store with DH. . .

Talk to you later,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday was a lazy day. I did walk for an hour and 10 minutes. I took Maya and we both were pretty hot so we took some breaks to sit in the shade along the way.

I looked up some beginner tennis drills online for the girls and spent an hour on the court with them last evening. There are 6 tennis courts at our local college and no one else was there. We closed all the gates and let Maya, the ball puppy run loose! :p She was a happy but tired girl!!

Today is a new day and I've got some changes to make! :sunny:

First, I will not be getting back on the scale for a while. I committed to the "no scale challenge" with Lisa (Zeraspride) and others on the main WISH board. I haven't been on the scale for a week (I started early!) and I have no desire to get on because I don't feel very thin at the moment and I'm afraid I wouldn't like the number I'd see. I'll be paying more attention to how my clothes fit. At this point my "heavy" pants are snug - not good but it means I'll be able to feel a difference soon! ::yes::

Second, I'm changing the way I journal food. I am not going to write down my plan anymore. I hereby promise to myself that I will journal every morsel that goes into my mouth and WHY I think I'm eating it. I can have anything but it must be listed here. If it's purely emotional eating then I'll try to identify that and acknowledge it. If I NEED stuff from the EVM, then fine, but I have to journal what I ate and why.

I've been doing a lot of mindless destructive eating lately and this is my way of owning up to it and being honest with myself about it. There is a difference between a planned indulgence and mindless binge eating and here I'll have to be honest about my motivations.

So, there will be one post for each day's food and I'll just keep editing it. I know that's a pain for others who read my journal but it's the only way I know to keep good records for me.

Third, I won't be around to everyone's journal for a bit. I tend to hide in journals when I have an uncomfortable work assignment that I want to avoid. I'm behind in writing my report for work and would rather ignore it but I'm going to be a mature adult and face it! I'll be back to journals when I'm caught up on my work.

It's going to be a good day! :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

7:45 AM
Apple w/ peanut butter
Meds & vitamin
- This was breakfast, eaten at work. I'm feeling a bit queasy - stress related I'm sure. I have a report to write and I'm one section behind on it. I'll have to be careful about binging today.

10 AM
24 oz water so far today
- No more food so far but I've been focused on my report for the past hour and its coming along! :sunny:

12 noon
1/2 pound cheeseburger WITH the bun and some mayo
- I'm off to donate blood and wanted the extra carbs. Anyone know why they push carbs (like OJ and crackers?) after blood donation? I can't figure out why taking a pint of blood would cause my blood sugar to plummet???

1:30 PM
36 oz water so far today
Large fig newton courtesy of the blood donor center - they said it would keep me from feeling faint after donation. I really wasn't hungry but I have a history of feeling faint afterward so I picked the lowest carb thing there - only 19 carbs.

3:30 PM
48 oz water so far today
1 string cheese so I'm not starving when I get home.
- I got lots done on my report and am almost caught up - definitely in better shape than this morning! I was so focused on the report that I didn't have any cravings - YAY!

6 PM
more water
2 handfuls of honey roasted peanuts

8:30 PM
tortilla chips (a few) w/ salsa (a LOT!)
2 Dove dark chocolates
Carb Options Klondike ice cream bar
lots more water

Exercise: 1 hour brisk walking

[lulu202]

Good morning, Doreen! A new plan for you, I see. You're thinking about what will work for you and then blazing a new trail. Good for you!::yes::

So, you've got a new job as tennis coach! It sounds like fun! A new summer interest is good for DD, I think.

Get that report done right now. You'll feel better and more in control.

:hug: ,
Erin

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! I like your plan :teeth: ! I try to always recap my days if I went away from my plan but I will admitt that I don't always count the 2 or 3 french fries that I eat off of DH's plate. :o

I know what you mean about work to - I tend to think that being on Journals is my work. Hmmm...somehow I don't think my company is really paying for that! :crazy: We understand if you can't get to journals everyday - do what you can, when you can.

~Amanda

[Strings]

hi Doe,

I like your new plan. We all know what we should be eating, but it is what actually goes in our mouth that counts. Don't worry about journals for now. Get work caught up, and a ton of your stress and need for binging will go away. That is what I would prefer. A relaxed Doreen over a post in my journal anyday. I'm glad you were able to talke to DS. You will probably feel much better once he is home though. Have a good one.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday went well! I got lots done on my report - still a bit behind but I'm catching up! :Pinkbounc

Today's 3 goals are work, exercise and my nails (they're getting too long and it's hard to type!! :p ).

Water so far: 36 oz

7:45 AM
apple with peanut butter
meds & vitamin

10:30 AM
1 string cheese

12:45 PM
minestrone
1 pack of peanut M&Ms
- I have managed to avoid work all morning. This has made me uncomfortable and anxious. It is amazing how I am able to sabotage my own success. :rolleyes: My food at this point is comfort food, anxiety-medicating food. I am recognizing it and accepting it. I am also recommitting to working on this dreaded report!

2 PM
another pack of peanut M&Ms
- definitely anxiety-driven but I AM working on the report and making progress!

5 PM
2 Dove dark chocolates
4 handfuls of honey roasted peanuts (Maya helped me eat them :) )
Carb Smart Klondike ice cream bar
- "grazing" through the kitchen - definitely emotional eating, but I tried to make lower carb choices :)

7:15 PM
cranberry margarita
- DH & I were sitting at Outback, waiting for our take-out order to be prepared :) - emotional and social drinking

8 PM (Outback food!)
1/2 bbq'ed chicken breast w/ bacon & melted cheese
1/2 salad
a couple pieces of their bread with butter
7 - 10 bites of DD's mac & cheese
- more emotional comfort food. I didn't need to eat this much - was too full in the end - but it was comfort food.

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm glad that the report is moving along. Keep going, and it will be done before you know it. Take care of yourself today.
Beth

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe!

I'm dropping by to see how you are doing and as usual your journal entries have something to teach me! How true of me that when I'm at work and have a project I'd rather not work on, I tend to read journals and do other on-line stuff knowing I have work related projects that need my attention. Thanks for the reminder.

I also like the fact that you will be journaling not only all the food you eat but WHY you are eating it. Very good way to see what the real motivation behind unscheduled eating truly is.

You started the stay off the scale challenge a whole week early? Good for you!!! I hope we both do well with this challenge! Take care and have a sunny Wednesday!

[septbride2002]

Why have you been avoiding work. Now Doe (make way for Mom Amanda) you did so well yesterday concentrating on your report - with that taken care of you should be in the okay zone. Take deep breaths and concentrate on one thing at a time.

~Amanda

[LAinSEA]

Doe:

That is so great that you are playing tennis with your daughter. Great exercise and now it will be an activity that you and she will share for a long long time.

You sound like you are doing great staying on plan and meeting your goals. Stay away from that EVM! Pick up some drawer snacks instead and drop those coins into the vacation fund!

-Laurie

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday was a destructive eating day. Looking back over what I ate and why, it is so clear that I spiraled out of control. I am truly my own worst enemy.

I definitely have a real problem with procrastination and with doing all I can to avoid tasks I'm uncomfortable with. This report at work falls under that category.

I am supposed to be using my expertise and research to make recommendations on where my organization should go next in terms of data warehousing (an area within the IT / computer realm). I am uncomfortable with this for several reasons.

First of all, I am the only person in my agency who has had any training or experience with data warehousing. I feel very inadequate to set future direction and lay out plans for getting there. However a consultant would take 6 months to gather the same knowledge I already have of the organization - we don't have that kind of time to wait. So I really am the only person who can do this in the required timeframe.

Second of all, I am going to make some recommendations that will not be popular. Our organization is not equipped to embark on a full-blown data warehousing effort. We are lacking some key foundation pieces (like a centralized data administration function) and we are lacking a culture that sees data as belonging to the whole agency rather than to the business area that enters that data. Of course once I say that, the next question will be "how do we change those things" and the answer from me will be "I don't know but it will take time". These are not things that change overnight and there is no clear progression of how to change them, at least in my mind.

Writing all this out is helping me but I apologize to anyone else trying to follow along. :D I suppose what I need to focus on is the short term - what can we accomplish in the next year or two, given our culture and organizational limitations. Also what steps can we take to make sure that effort is not wasted in the long term - we won't want to re-do it down the road if/when our organization and culture DOES move in the right direction.

I think I was just making the scope of my report too large. I need to pare it down to what I put in the paragraph above. Also, I have to remember that I am not the one making the ultimate decision. Even though my recommendations will be given a lot of weight within the organization, I will not be the one committing people, time and money to this effort. If what I have to say doesn't make sense or resonate with clarity and realism, then the powers that be will hopefully recognize that and deal with it accordingly - get another opinion, etc.

All I have to do is my best. This is not a report that will be used to make a life or death decision. This is a well-reasoned attempt on my part to use what I know to say how I'd move forward in the next 12 - 24 months if I were the one in charge. That's all anyone is expecting of me.

OK, I think I'm ready to write another section of this report. My due date for the whole thing is close of business on Tuesday the 13th - next week. I just have to keep myself from getting overwhelmed and from making the scope of my effort too big.

I'll know if I'm on the right track by my food choices. :)

I've printed out the above information and will use it to guide me today. I'll reread it if I become uncomfortable, start craving nasties and start avoiding my work. I've got to stay focused and to do that, I've got to stay comfortable and not get overwhelmed or frightened of failure.

The good news - I got a new pedometer last night. I've got it on and I'm excited to start adding up those steps today!

I'll start another post for my food for the day - I've gotten awfully wordy! :teeth:

[DoeWDW]

Water total so far: 48 oz

8 AM
apple with peanut butter
meds & vitamin

10:30 AM
1 string cheese
1 Gas-X tablet :rolleyes: :teeth: (TMI??)

12:45 PM
1/2 pound sirloin burger (no bun) w/ "secret sauce" :p
- my secret sauce is lots of mayo with a drop or two of mustard and a drop or two of ketchup, just for flavor

2 PM
1 peanut M&Ms
1 Hershey bar with almonds
- definitely BMR (Big Monster Report) related stress eating but I'm OK with that as long as I get the report done

8 PM
1/2 bbq chicken breast w/ bacon & cheese
1/2 baked sweet potato
small portion of spaghetti w/ parmesan cheese
- no binging - I felt pretty relaxed!

[septbride2002]

:eek: No wonder you feel overwhelmed! That is a big report you are working on sweetie. But ya know what - you can do it. You are really great at your job and they wouldn't have asked you to make these reccomendations if they didn't think you were the best person to do it. And your right - you can make the best reccomendations but it is up to them to make the final decision. Just do the best you can (which will probably be more then enough) and take it slow and steady. When you start to feel overwhelmed take a step back and clear your head of all the self doubts and focus on some positive thoughts.

You Can do this!
You are up to the Task!
You are a hardworking individual!
You know what you are doing!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

OK it's almost 11 AM and I have successfully avoided doing ANYTHING on my report - can't I just DIS all day????

Seriously, I am closing this window and I'm only coming back to post food.

I WILL BE WORKING ON MY REPORT NOW! :teeth: :crazy: :wave2:


EDIT: 11:50 AM
I've gotten a good solid hour of work in - YAY! I'm feeling better - not quite so overwhelmed. Thanks for cheering me on, Amanda!

[lulu202]

:crowded: Wow! Do you have a lot on your mind or what?!?! You've got tons of mental energy invested in this report and you want to do a good job--no wonder you procrastinated a bit. Here's a hug, dear WISH-sis. :hug:

Promise me that sometime today you'll pause and take some deep breaths. You'll drink a tall, cool glass of water and reread what you wrote and printed from your earlier post. You'll remember all of us WISHers who love you and are thinking about you as you sort through your thoughts and write this monster report (hereafter known as the BMR--bit monster report). At the end of the day, before you go home, you'll have another cool glass of water and shake off the dust from all this BMR work, and you'll clear your head for a relaxing evening at home.

You can do this. You're not alone.

Erin

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I know this is a daunting task, but obviously your company believes you are up to it. I do too. You stated yourself that you have the knowledge. You are used to responsibility, you are a mom. Your ideas may not be popular, but they are necessary. Management always needs a kick in the behind to realize they need change. In the end they will be thankful for your honest report. Do your best, and that is enough.

Please know that I am praying for you. I know this next week will be very difficult for you. Try to leave the report at the office. Try to get adequate sleep and go for your walks with your puppy. Read if that relaxes you. If necessary have a margarita.::yes:: try to take care of you. We will be here to listen and :cheer2: :cheer2: you on.

Remember you are a princess: .
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Thank you, Erin and Beth! Instead of working through lunch, I got something to eat and took a walk to clear my head. I've just re-read my earlier ramblings and I'm working on another wonderful cool glass of water. I can feel all my WISH buddies around me :grouphug: and it's great to know that work is just work - not my entire life. My life is filled with wonderful people who are all cheering me on. I feel like I've put things back into perspective!

I'm ready to tackle another piece of my BMR (Big Monster Report :teeth: )!

[myhandd]

Good luck Doe! It seems sometimes that reports take on a life of their own and can be very demoralizing at times. Don't let it get you down!

Think how great it will be to be complete with it!

Dax

[lulu202]

:rockband: STRIKE UP THE BAND because it's FRIDAY!
:cool1: :cool1: Let's dance some calories away, dear WISH-sis!

Get that BMR started right now and then FORGET ABOUT IT for the weekend! Are you able to leave a little early today? Whatever your plans, have a great day, sweetie.

:hug: to you. Treat yourself right!

Erin

[CheapMom]

Have a great weekend Doreen-
Wishing you lots of quality R&R!
Mary

[DoeWDW]

I made it through the workday with some help from medicinal chocolate yesterday. :p I'm OK with it though and may do the same this afternoon if I feel I need it, guilt free. Once this report is finished, then I won't need to indulge anymore.

My pedometer had approximately 7200 steps on it for yesterday.

Today - more work on the BMR (big monster report :p ).

Water so far: 40 oz

8:15 AM
about 1.5 scrambled eggs & 4 slices bacon
meds & vitamin
- I'm feeling a little anxious about the BMR and I looked at all the carby stuff in the cafeteria, but in the end I went with low-carb and I'm proud of that!

12:15 PM
1/2 pound sirloin burger w/ secret sauce & no bun

1:30 PM
1 pack peanut M&Ms
- This was not a binge OR anxiety driven, I was in a meeting and my blood sugar must have been awfully low because I was falling asleep. I ate these very slowly.

[wilderness01]

Oh my that does sound like a big project. Think of how good you are going to feel when it is completed.:Pinkbounc Good luck with your work today.:D

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Doe! Thanks for chatting with me last night and helping me to get some things off my chest. It felt good to get some things out in the open so that I could examine them better.

Have you been watching DS's flight this morning? :)

Have a great day at working looking busy! :)

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

For those who don't know, my DS is on his way home from a 3 week trip to Australia and New Zealand. His flight from Christchurch NZ to Auckland NZ went smoothly. His flight from Auckland to Los Angeles left on time and is in the air now - he should be landing in LA in 2-3 hours.

Then there's a flight from LA to Pittsburgh and another from Pittsburgh to Philadelphia, and a bus ride from the Philly airport to Lancaster where we'll pick him up around 2 AM tonight. :p

Gee, do you think he'll be tired??? :teeth: :crazy:

EDIT: 3:10 PM
The flight from Auckland to LA arrived an hour late but they still had 2 hours to change planes in LA. The next flight from LA to Pittsburgh is scheduled to leave on time at the moment

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

It is almost the weekend, and DS is coming home. You will be :cloud9: tomorrow. I hope you have a nap planned to combat the late night. Take care of yourself. Have a great weekend.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

My DS is home!! :bounce: :bounce: :bounce:

We picked him up around 2 AM and were talking until past 4 AM! He had a good time and learned a lot about himself. All is well! Today I'll be running around to get his pictures developed!

The only plan today is to enjoy having DS back! It's been a month since we've seen him!

[nancyj_pa]

I'm so glad DS is home safely with you. I'm sure you'll relax and enjoy your day off hearing about his adventures.
:bounce: :bounce:

[Strings]

Hi doe,

I hope you have had a relaxing day with DS. How bad is his jet lag. I hope you took a nap.
Enjoy your Sunday,
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Oh Doe,
I am so happy for you! Your DS is home!:jumping3: :hug: I love it when you said that your only plan for the day was to enjoy having your son back. What a great and fun plan!!!::yes::

I hope that you were all able to get some sleep and are enjoying your weekend!

Take care,
Tracy:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

DS' jet lag is pretty bad! :p I'm trying my best to get him back on our schedule but his body just hasn't caught up yet. Another few days and he'll be fine.

Last night we all went to see Spiderman 2 at the movies - everyone enjoyed it. I'm not even thinking about the carbs in the popcorn! :p

Today, DH DS & I went out for breakfast and I was on plan. I ate half my omelette and bacon and brought the other half home for tomorrow. Then we stopped by the drivers' exam site so DS could check out the parallel parking part of the course. He'll need some more work on that one! :teeth:

I'm working on my BMR today and have made a lot of progress. I still would like to spend another 3-4 hours on it today. I'm feeling better and better about it now. I just needed some time to sift through my thoughts and get it organized in my head.

Life is good! :sunny:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
Glad to hear DS is home safe and sound ::yes:: . Enjoy your Sunday.

[DoeWDW]

TOM has arrived - oh joy! :mad: My back is killing me and I have a headache - I'm hoping the Aleve kicks in SOON! I'm feeling crabby, can you tell??

I'm at work and have been plugging away on the BMR. I've made significant progress but will have to hustle to finish by close of business tomorrow. No journals for me today or tomorrow - I miss you guys!!! :( I'll be around as soon as this report is finished.

Water so far: 28 oz

8:15 AM
apple w/ peanut butter
1 string cheese
meds, vitamin & Aleve :rolleyes:

9:30 AM
more water, more Aleve

11:30 AM
1/2 omelette w/ ham, cheese, green pepper, onion, celery - YUM!
2 strips bacon
more water
- I'm starting to get the chocolate cravings. Am wishing this report would write itself faster. :p

1:15 PM
1 pack peanut M&Ms - stress eating :rolleyes:

[lulu202]

:hug: and :sunny: for you, dear WISH-sis. Rainy days and Mondays and TOM. . .ugh! I'm on my way to the studio to work on music theater stuff, so just a quick wish for :D happiness for you. I know you'll be smiling as soon as the BMR is off your back.

Take care, Doreen,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

My eating and exercise plans fell apart last night - oh well. Moving on....

Today I have one and only one goal - finish the BMR! I did get up early and throw a roast into the crockpot so at least we'll have that for dinner. :p

Off to work! :sunny:

7:30 AM
apple with peanut butter
meds & vitamin

11 AM
string cheese

12:30 PM
1/2 pound sirloin burger w/ secret sauce

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
I am sending you lots of :wizard: :wizard: :wizard: :wizard: to help you finish that BMR! I hope that you have a good day today.:sunny: Dinner sounds yummy!!!

Take care,
Tracy:wave2:

[Strings]

Doe,

I am sending major :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :wizard: :wizard: :wizard: to help you with the BMR. You can get it finished, and then you can celebrate.
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Hey Doe! I've got it.....:idea: I can see the commercial now.......


Doreen.... you have just finished your BMR. Where are you off to next???

DISNEYWORLD!!!!!:jumping1:

It sounds like a great plan, right??? Hey, if Super Bowl champions can do it, so can we!!!::yes:: Have a great day, Doe!!!!:Pinkbounc

Tracy:wave2: