Doreen's New Way of Life (comments are welcome)

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe!
Well, how did your Monday turn out? Good I bet!!:teeth:
Way to get back to your program! And how nice that it feels good to you and comfortable. THAT is progress. That you'd rather this way of living than the old way. Good for you!:smooth:
Have a nice evening. I hope it is peaceful and relaxing for you!
TTFN-
Sharon :sunny:

[Auntmeme]

Hope your Easter went well! You'll be fine. You are such a strong woman, look how far you have come. Hugs to you:hug:

Hvae a great day, here's some sun ( since we're not getting the real thing) :sunny: to brighten up your life!

[DoeWDW]

I had great intentions yesterday, and they lasted until early afternoon, when they were overcome by the voices from the EVM. :rolleyes: I am DEEP in the D-Zone and I've been off plan. This usually adds up to big trouble for me and now is no exception. I ended up having a major chocolate binge throughout the afternoon and evening yesterday. I just CRAVED it - no other way to explain it. I'm guessing my seritonin levels are very low and my female hormones are running amuck prior to my period (sorry Dax! :cool: ).

In months past, this whole situation would have me panicked. I would wonder if I'll EVER get back on plan, will I just be out of control and gain back all the weight I've lost? Now I know that this is a temporary thing that will only last a few more days. My job is to minimize the damage and ride the wave :boat: .

I also know that it is very easy for me to feel overwhelmed at this time. I think that played into the binge yesterday. I WANTED to be back on plan but I was fighting an uphill battle - once I slipped, I lost all hope and gave up on all my goals. Today I'm going to do what works for me - I'm going to scale back my goals and celebrate the baby steps I take in the right direction.

Therefore today's revised goals are:
1. Meds and vitamins - I need them!
2. Water - 5 mugs to fight the bloating I've got right now!
3. Food - eat reasonably well and NO BINGE!! I won't be counting carbs but I won't be overindulging either.
4. Exercise - I haven't done any yet and it's a yucky, rainy day outside again. I know this would help but I'm not making any promises, because too many goals will just overwhelm me. How about if I make an effort to take more steps than usual today - take the long way to where I'm walking, use the stairs a little more, etc. That sounds reasonable.

A few more days and I'll be feeling fine and in control again. Right now, I've got the blue funk and painful water retention to deal with. Scaling back my goals seems like a good compromise - it's gotta be better than throwing in the towel and eating chocolate at every turn yesterday! :p At least I haven't lost my sense of humor. I'm not feeling totally sunny but I'm not as down as I've been in the past at this time - we'll call me partly cloudy! :teeth:

I'll do what I did yesterday - do some work and then reward myself with a peek into a few WISH journals! Journal therapy is really great for me around this time - if I focus too much on myself, I tend to spiral down. If I visit with my journal friends, I can encourage them while taking my focus off myself and avoiding that downward spiral.

Onward I go! :boat: :boat: :boat:

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I think you are definately doing the right thing scaling back on your goals for today. Meds and water are the most important thing at the moment. Break things down to what is managable and avoid stress today. I hope that work is just routine today. Take care of yoursself today. I'll be sending:goodvibes your way, andd I'll even thow in a prayer or two.

:sunny: :sunny:
Beth

[sharoncity]

Good Luck on your journey today Doe! I know how much you have struggled with this in past months. I like your goals and ideas for today. I think you have set very realistic goals for yourself. Here's hoping you have smooth :boat: today!
I don't have any :sunny: to send you, but lets pretend I do!
here's some :sunny: for your Tuesday!
Have a great day! Take GOOD care of you!!:teeth:
TTFN-
Sharon

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! The D-zone sucks and makes you feel like you are doing this ->:yo-yo: But you will get through it and we will be back on our way! Really by realizing the D-zone and taking action really puts you in the driver's seat rather then the EVM. Have a great day today Doe! Remember to take deep breaths and do something good for yourself today!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Beth, Sharon and Amanda - :grouphug: It's posts like yours that keep me goin'!! Thank you all! ::yes::

I've taken my meds & vitamins, had 1 mug of water and had a little oatmeal (w/ some raisins & a little brown sugar) and an apple w/ PB for breakfast. I've enjoyed visiting some journals and now I'm going to do some actual WORK! :p Sure wish I could DIS all day, though! :sunny:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doreen,
I'm sending some more positive vibes your way to get through they day without a binge :goodvibes . It sounds like you have a great plan in order to get you through this rough time which is so important. Just reading about how you handle these things makes it easier for me to handle it in my own life so thanks for sharing :hug: .

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Just remember baby steps are a good thing. Slowly getting yourself back into the groove will help you rather than jumping full fledge back in, a little chocolate doesn't hurt either. Just eat it in moderation. I don't keep any in the house, along with soda. So in turn I do not consume them as much. Hope this helps. Stay in good spirits.

[gadizlover]

Hey Doe-
I just have to say how amazing it is that you can keep up with so many journals- you are a ray of sunshine in my day when you post. :sunny:

So sorry you are going thru this "challenge". I mean come on- its bad enough you are craving chocolate- but then the EVM is actually calling you over? What is up with that? I think that is a VEVM. And not just one voice but many voices? The nerve. Just a warning- be careful when you answer back that you are by yourself, people may start to talk .:earseek:

Seriously though, you know this will pass, just try to tread water for a little longer, you will be back in the driver's seat again. (Gee, could I put a few more cliche's in there?)

Thinking good thoughts for ya

[lulu201]

:hug: and :sunny:, :hug: and :sunny: plus many, many :goodvibes are being sent your way on this rainy Wednesday! You're doing a good job of riding the D-zone wave, Doreen; I'm back to the WISH and adding my support!

You're right to take things in those little baby steps. Could you tell me, though, who came up with the idea of having your D-Zone right next to the visit from the Easter Bunny??? Now was that nice?!?!

Still, it sounds like you're doing your very best to :boat: along and ride this wave. You can do it!

Put up your :umbrella: and walk bravely into this new day. Make your goals small and manageable; there's nothing that you can't do!

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

:grouphug: I can truly feel all of you gathered around me and it's really helping me ride this D-Zone wave. I'm grateful for all of you! :grouphug:

Yesterday was definitely a step in the right direction. Lunch was a burger (no bun) w/ mayo & mustard followed by a piece of Trident gum to ward off the munchies. The munchies did get the better of me in the afternoon and I ate almonds and baby carrots - more than I should have - but no chocolate! I consider that a small victory!! We had errands to run last night and didn't get home until 8:30 - the rest of the family wanted pizza. I had 2 slices of thin crust loaded with veggie toppings. Then I gave in and had 2 breadsticks and 5-6 small pieces of Easter chocolate. At least I wasn't having an out-of-control binge! Believe it or not, this was MUCH better than the previous days! :p Baby steps.....

Today I'll take more baby steps toward my healthy living road. I brought an EAS Carb Control Rich Chocolate Fudge shake with me for the afternoon chocolate cravings!! Don't know why I haven't tried this before but I think it will do the trick! ::yes::

Goals:
1. Meds & vitamins will be taken with breakfast.
2. Water - only had 4 mugs yesterday so I'll be working hard to drink all 5 today.
3. Food - sensible eating and no binging! Try to bring my carb level lower than yesterday.
4. Exercise - I did good at adding extra steps in yesterday so I'll do that again today. Can't wait for the sun to come back out tomorrow so I can walk outside - it's been raining every day for the past week here! :umbrella:

I'm feeling my usual D-Zone exhaustion and blue mood but, as Julie posted, I'm going to tread water for a couple more days. Let's hope TOM is on time - I don't want to spend any more time than necessary in the D-Zone! :p

I'm putting on my sunny smile, sticking my tongue out at the VEVM, banking on my secret weapon (my chocolate low-carb shake) and moving into the day! :sunny:

[Strings]

Way to plan Doe,

Hey, if you can't beat the chocolate craving trick it with something that is on program. That is an awesome idea. I might steal that one.

Your plan for the day looks sound. I'll send you some :goodvibes and :wizard: just to help you stick to it. I say you can kick the EVM today when noone is looking.

:sunny:
Beth

[septbride2002]

I hope your shake is really yummy! DH and I found some of these the other day and are thinking about ordering some - but so far we have put it off.

Those chocolate cravings are crazy aren't they? I had one on Monday and indulged in Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream - one word - delicious! They just seem to come out of no where and won't let go until they are satisfied.

You are doing great so don't let the EVM get in your way today! Just :moped: right over him and don't look back!::yes::

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

So far, so good!!
1. Meds & vitamins taken. :D
2. Water - finishing my second mug - gotta start chuggin'! :eek:
3. Food - B = apple w/ PB, L = burger w/ mayo & mustard, piece of Trident to ward off the afternoon munchies for as long as possible. My afternoon snack will be my low-carb chocolate shake that is chilling in the fridge. Hopefully I can put it off until 3 or 3:30. Dinner - not sure - may have to stop by the store on the way home to pick up ingredients for mexican chicken a la Amanda or tuna salad. At least I'm home tonight - no running around for me!
4. Exercise - I've been walking down 5 floors using the stairs - have done this twice today already.

I'm even getting some WORK done at work! :p

[honeymo78]

Hey Doreen - lots of :hug: to help you through the d-zone. I'm so proud of you for taking the stairs and getting in some extra exercise. I am such an elevator user so to hear about you using the stairs even when you aren't feeling 100% is amazing to me. Here's to sunny days both literally and figuratively. I'm tired of this rain!

[luvmy2sams]

Hi Doe! :wave:

***:wizard: and lots of :hug: to help you battle through the D-Zone!

You're doing a great job with your goals, and I'm so proud of you for taking the stairs at work! What a great way to get in the exercise. Keep up the good work!

~Angela :wave2:

[Samandmom]

Ok, sorry but I am horrible at these abbreviations. What is the D-Zone? :crazy:
Doe, great job on taking the stairs. :sunny:

[Carol36]

Doreen...thanks for writing in my journal. Believe me, I need all of the support that I can get! I have not read all of your journal, but you seem to be doing really well!

Keep up the good work!!!


Carol

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: Good morning, Doreen!:sunny: :sunny: I just heard the weather--we're supposed to dry out and get some warm temperatures. If this keeps up we'll think we're living in Florida!:rolleyes: Yeah, well, maybe. . .

Here's a big :hug: and some :wizard: for your day. Keep walking those stairs and stay away from the ole EVM. I'd stay here and chat longer, but I have to get DD off to school and I have to pack a truckload of food to get me through the day.

I miss you and our fun walks.:(

Have a good day, princess: Doe-Doe,

Erin

[Strings]

Hello Doreen,

I'm sending you some :sunny: for the day. I know you will win this battle with Dzone today. I'm sending extra strong :goodvibes :wizard: your way just in case. How did the chocolate shake do with your cravings yesterday? Is there another one packed for today?

Have a good day princess: Doe,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Good morning!! :sunny:

Beth, the shake yesterday tasted kind of yucky - won't be buying those again! It was way too sweet with not enough chocolate taste. It DID keep me away from the EVM yesterday afternoon, so it wasn't a total waste. :p I think the idea is a good one - I'll just have to find a shake I like better.

Last evening, I had 2 slices of cold veggie pizza for dinner but then the Easter candy called me. I stopped after about 10 pieces. :rolleyes: I've GOTTA break this addiction at some point but it will be easier when the D-Zone is over.

Samandmom, you asked about the D-Zone. I'll explain it in case anyone else is also confused. For the 2 weeks - 10 days before my period, I have intense food cravings, fatigue, blue mood / depression, bloating, etc. Someone (Erin, I think) started calling this the D-Zone - short for the Danger-Zone - because that's when I'm most vulnerable to going off my healthy habits and making some unwise food choices. Many women only find this a problem for 3-5 days prior to TOM (time of month, period) but I've been blessed :rolleyes: with an extra long D-Zone.

So here we are at Thursday:
1. Meds & vitamins already taken.
2. Water - finishing my first mug.
3. Food - B = apple w/ peanut butter. L will probably be my burger w/ mayo & mustard unless I stroll to Subway for a wrap. D - here we go again with no firm dinner plan. This is definitely becoming a bad habit. I don't have any snacks with me either - I see a problem with this too!
4. Exercise - I'll be working more steps into my day and I'm planning to walk the puppy tonight - the SUN is out!!!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

I'm off to do the best I can. :sunny:

[luvmy2sams]

Good morning Doe! :wave:

Your goals are shaping up really well this morning! You and I are having the same problem, though. No plans for dinner and no snacks to ward off those evil afternoon munchies! I'm heading to the grocery store this morning to stock up on some healthy alternatives so I won't get stuck in the rut of eating the same old (usually not the best choice) food night after night. It's so hard to break those bad habits!

I hope that you have a fantastic Thursday! Have fun walking the puppy!

~Angela :wave2:

[Samandmom]

Doe, the D-Zone sounds like me right now. I have not been on plan since last week on Good Friday. :rolleyes: That TOM guy really bugs me. Hopefully he will come and be gone soon. ::yes::

[DoeWDW]

Well, yesterday was yet another day that started out filled with good intentions and ended up with me and the Easter chocolate. :rolleyes: I can't wait until that stuff is gone! I have no willpower this week - I may as well admit it!

So today I'll start again with good intentions and then I'll just give up and be cranky and eat all the stuff I know I should be avoiding. I think PMS stands for my Primarily Miserable Self!!

The good news is that this will end - hopefully in another 2-3 days. The transformation in my outlook, my attitude, my willpower is just amazing.

I read Erin's journal today and I can sympathize. I'm also carrying around the proof of my good-timing. Confession time: the scale read 135 this morning. I think I like Erin's idea though - I'll give myself a week and then I'll claim whatever my weight is in my siggie. I'm not going to change my siggie or my WISH clippie for now - I think it would send me over the edge into yet another chocolate binge.

I haven't even been meeting my simplified goals most days. Maybe I should make them even simpler.
1. Meds & vitamins must be taken with breakfast - fortunately I've been meeting this goal every day.
2. Water - I've been trying for 5 mugs but have only been managing 3 or 4. How about if I strive for 3 today.
3. Food - all bets are off!
4. Exercise - I did walk the puppy last night - YAY! I'll be walking a little extra today.

Tonight is the big concert! I've been wanting to see Martina McBride for ages and she's opening for Alan Jackson tonight. My DH got us tickets in the 16th row! I'll get plenty of walking from the parking lot (out in the middle of a field) to the arena in Hershey where the concert is being held.

Now I'm off to get some work done and to try not to inhale too many carbs today.

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I'm sorry you have been having such a rough time at the moment.
You've done the right thing, making your goals managable today. You don't need any extra stress. Have a great time at the concert. It will be good for you to get out and relax. I noticed your clippie. You will be in the world in less than 2 months.

:sunny:
Beth

[LAinSEA]

Doreen: I'm so sorry that your suffering. It looks like you've got the monster back on the leash, so to speak. Maybe chocolate should be by perscription only...a refillable perscription. I've had my share this week too.

Please have a happy Friday and a restful weekend - do something for YOU!

-Laurie:sunny:

[myhandd]

Hey Doe, I hope you get to feeling better...I am however going to have fine you one demerit for a TOM mention with a man lurking around....me!;)

Just so you know, I don't for one minute believe you when you told me there were two other men around here. I mean, I have no tangible evidence of them....I've never heard from them...and obviously you are continuing to talk as if there are no men here!:tongue:

Anyway, for this reason I will be changing my nickname, 1 of 3 is history! I will take this evening and pick another.

Keep your chin up!

The former 1 of 3 signing off!

Dax

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: Good morning, Doreen!:sunny: :sunny: How was the concert? Was it wonderful? I hope you had a GREAT time!:Pinkbounc

So, we're in this together. Now you said that you need a couple of more days. . .should I bring the wagon to your house on Monday morning and then you can jump on? We'll ride together?
Just think about it. . .

princess: Doe-Doe, you know that I know what you're going through to some degree. In a few more days you'll be feeling more like yourself, just continue to ride the wave, eat up the chocolate :p , and prepare for re-entry. We know that we can do this together.

Last night I dreamed we were in Florida for the half marathon and I'd only walked a mile for my training. :eek: Guess that's my subconscious telling me I'd better get with the program. Hopefully I'll get outside to walk after DD and I get her room THOROUGHLY cleaned.

I'm on my way to teach my new Saturday students.:D

:hug: and more :hug: for you, my friend.
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Thank you to everyone who has stopped in here to offer me support, encouragement and smiles! You are all very much appreciated! :grouphug: Each one of you, in your own way, helps me to keep going through the tough days.

The concert last night was wonderful! DH and I had a great time together. Alan Jackson was good. However, my real reason for going was to hear Martina McBride live for the first time. She sounds just as amazing in person as she does on her recordings, which is very rare these days! I'll be treating myself to one or two of her CDs in the near future, because her music just lifts me up!

Today is Saturday. I did get to sleep in until 6:30 - heavenly to me, since I'm usually up at 5:30 every morning. :p I need to take DD shopping for something to wear to the band concert tonight. The kid who has refused to wear anything but pants now wants a skirt for the concert. :rolleyes: Of course, she only tells me 2 days ago and this is the first chance for us to go shopping. She's so 14 but I love her anyway. :teeth: Worst case, she'll just have to wear her black pants again. Oh well.

Hey, if I have to go to the mall anyway, I might as well pick up a Martina McBride CD, right??? :p

The band director always picks such wonderful music so I'm really looking forward to the band concert tonight. DD plays clarinet and DS is playing the bari sax. My parents are coming also, so I'll have to clean up the house a bit, ok, a lot! :p

I'll be busy, but it will also be a fun day. Tomorrow I help with Sunday School at church but the rest of the day is free for laundry, cooking, and relaxing.

I think it's going to be a good weekend and hopefully by the end of it, the D-Zone will be over AND the Easter candy will be gone! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
The concert sounds like a lot of fun. I'm glad you enjoyed it :D . Hearing you talk about taking your daughter shopping makes me wish I had a dd of my own. It really sounds like you guys have a great relationship ::yes:: . Maybe my dh will agree to a second child some day...;)

Well, I hope you have a great weekend and a wonderful time with your family at the band concert :sunny: !

[Castillo Mom]

Ooh, up at 6:30. I'm still snoring at that time. Sounds like you have a very enjoyable weekend planned. Sending pixie dust your way for the effects of Easter to be swished away!

[Carol36]

I am glad that you had a good time last night at the concert. Martina McBride is a wonderful singer. I really love that song "Broken Wings". That must have been awesome to be there and so close at the same time!

I know that my times are coming when I will be in a rut and find it hard to get out! You just have to hang in there. Once this is out of your system, then you will get right back on track! ::yes::

I hope that you have a wonderful day tomorrow!

Carol:wave2:

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: Good morning, Doreen!:sunny: :sunny: Let me be the first to wish you a happy, healthy Monday! Today is the first day of the rest of your life! Uh, can't exactly take credit for that line, but it does seem appropriate for Monday mornings!

Let's ease into this day with a healthy mindset. I'm right here with you, Doreen. Put on your sunglasses because all the :sunny: in our forecast is going to send the Munchie Monster, the EVM, and all the leftover Easter candy running for cover!

"Let the :sunny: in!"

Erin

[DoeWDW]

The weekend was a good one. DD & I spent Saturday at the mall and found a great outfit, shoes & jewelry for her to wear to the band concert on Saturday night. She looked beautiful and I think she FELT more beautiful than she has for a while. Sunday was spent with DD laying out in the sun working on our tans. I got a little sunburn but nothing too bad. It sure felt like heaven, though, to lay in the warm sun with a good book!

So after the great weekend, you'd think I'd be feeling well-rested and on top of the world. My blue funk remains. I'm feeling overwhelmed with all the things on my plate. It's hard to tell if this is the tail end of my monthly blue funk or if I'm truly feeling overwhelmed. Either way, I've spent some time in prayer and have told Him of my feelings and asked for His help and comfort. I don't have to do this alone.

Today is the day! I NEED to get back on the healthy living wagon and get rid of my extra poundage - it is adding to my blue feelings so it really must go. Erin set up goals for the rest of the month of April and I think I'll do the same. There are 12 more days in April so:
1. Meds & vitamins - 12/12.
2. Water - 60 - 70 oz per day - 12/12.
3. Food - 60g carbs or less - 10/12.
4. Exercise - one mile of walking or 15 minutes of aerobic exercise or Pilates deluxe - 10/12.

Here we go, onward and downward! :sunny:

[lulu201]

OK, Doreen, we're in this. We're going to stay cheat free and live a healthy lifestyle 'til noon. We can do it!:Pinkbounc We'll worry about the afternoon later:p .

princess: Lulu

[DoeWDW]

:cool1: :cool1: Walkin' the walk with Erin 'til noon! We can do this!

So far:
1. Meds & vitamins taken. :D
2. Water - 16 oz down and I'm headed to the cooler for a refill. :D
3. Food - B = apple w/ PB (19g).
4. Exercise - none yet.

I've got a good start on the day! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

You and Erin are certainly making me smile today! It is good to see that I am not the only one climbing back on the wagon. It sounds like you had such a nice and relaxing weekend - good for you!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Those goals you set look wonderful. I was thinking that you may want to set up 2 sets of monthly goals. The regular and the TOM goals. That way the goals don't overwhelm ou during TOM. Who needs extra stress during tom? You are off to a great start today. I'll send an extra prayer for you.
:jester:
Beth

[lulu201]

Well, it's about 11:30. . .how are you doing? I'm on my way to weigh a grapefruit.

Seriously.

I'm going to weigh a grapefruit!:crazy: I know how nutsy that sounds, but there's a point difference if it's a certain size and I need to know the weight of my grapefruit!

I think I've fallen in love with Beth's suggestion to have different sets of goals for those of us who are TOM-challenged. What do you think? It's like when Lisa C. said to me--rather matter of factly many months ago--something like "you know this is going to happen to you. Plan for it and don't be surprised." It was a light bulb moment!! Why do we continue to struggle so vehemently against our own bodies the way we do, Doreen????? I say we have some "self-care and pampering" goals in place next month to nurture ourselves in a positive way. Definitely a plan that incorporates exercise, water, and peanut M &Ms!:p

I'll be back to check in after I know how much my grapefruit weighs.

Erin

[DoeWDW]

I like the idea of separate goals for the D-Zone! I'll have to think about what my DZ goals should be.....

[lulu201]

OK, so it's after twelve. Are you still in the game? ::yes:: I know you are. What are your plans for this afternoon? For dinner? Keep on walking the walk, Doreen. I'll check back in with you tonight after I get home from work. Hang in there.

PS I know you were wondering: a 1/2 grapefruit weighs 8.5 oz. and gets 1 point.

:D Erin

[DoeWDW]

I'm still in the game. Just got back from my 15 minute walk outside.

1. Done
2. 32 oz down - halfway there and working on another mug
3. L will be a burger - practically no carbs. D will be tuna salad or chicken breasts roasted in the oven.
4. 15 minute walk at lunch - done!

I think I might actually make it through the day! :sunny:

[Strings]

Goals need to be personal, but my suggestions would be...
1.) Meet your water goal to keep the bloat fairy at bay.
2.) Pray or count your blessings to keep in mind that He has a plan for you.
3.) Not to binge. I'd probably relax the carb count, but specify no binging.

You are doing great today. Keep up the good work.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

I've hit a bit of a snag, but I'm NOT going to let it derail me. I did not have enough $ for a burger at lunch. :rolleyes: I got a pack of trail mix from the EVM (18g which makes 37g total so far today). I have a small can of tuna in my desk which will be fine for my afternoon snack. If I really get desparate I can eat a spoon-full of peanut butter. I'm determined!! ::yes::

EDIT: 8:20 PM
I ate my tuna in the afternoon. I had chicken for dinner. I also had a couple bites of ice cream, but I stayed within my carb limit for the day! YAY!!! I met all my goals!

I also went to the store and picked up some food to help me, so I'll be on track tomorrow. Things are looking up! :sunny:

[lulu201]

princess: Doe-Doe, you've treated yourself in quite a royal fashion today. Congratulations! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Erin

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen! You have done a great job! I find that it's hard to keep quick food for on the run, at least the right kinds. Planning ahead helps me, but sometimes that's impossible! I got my first clippie! Thanks for helping me do that!!!

Keep on going!!!!:Pinkbounc

Carol:wave2:

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning, Doreen. The :sunny: is shining on YOU!:sunny:

Well, it's Tuesday and a perfect day to treat yourself right with some healthy eating, lots of clear, cool water, and some exercise!
You're going to feel great today because you're going to take good care of yourself. Right? C'mon now. . .right??

Thank you for all you did yesterday to help me stay on track. I feel so good because I made it through the day on program. Let's do it again today! My only problem, though, is that this will be my only check-in with you on the WISH until I come home tonight around 8:30-9:00. I'll stop in then, though, to see how you made out. Go onward and downward, princess: Doe-Doe, we princess: -types can't be feeling "tubby!"

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday was a success, but I forgot to post my stats. I made all my goals so I'm 1/12 on each of them! Why is the first day so hard??? Once I have one day under my belt, I feel so much more confident!

Today:
1. Meds & vitamins already taken.
2. Water - 64 oz, I'm working on my first 16 oz mug.
3. Food - under 60g carbs, B = apple w/ PB (19g), L will be a burger (if I can get $ out of the ATM - the kids got the last of my $ for lunches :p ). Afternoon S will be an Atkins bar (3g). Dinner - maybe a Wendy's salad.
4. Exercise - 15 minutes of walking while I'm at work today.

Tonight, DD has a mini-recital at the baton/dance studio. I'll get home from work and rush out the door, and we'll get home late, with a stop at Wendy's to pick up dinner.

Work is heating up as well, so no rest for the weary. I'm feeling overwhelmed so I'll spend extra time planning and prioritizing this morning.

My TOP priority today is to take care of ME!! My healthy lifestyle has to come first.

princess: Doe-Doe signing off and boldly walking into the :sunny: day!

[septbride2002]

Just do one thing at a time and it will all get done! LOL! I know what you mean about overwhelmed - I'm starting to get that at work as well. Your menu looks good - don't you hate those evenings when you have to run out the door? I haven't Wendys in a very long time though - yummy!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

It's 1:30 PM and I'm doing very well. I hear the EVM voices off in the distance but I am NOT throwing away a day and a half of no cheating!!! :mad: EVMs are EVIL!!

I've stuck to my food plan so far and I walked at lunchtime. I'm finishing 32 oz of water so I've got another 32 oz to drink in only a few hours - I'd best get moving on that goal! ::yes::

I think I'm starting to feel like the "old" healthy me again! :sunny:

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe!:wave2: Looks like you are doing a great job getting back OP! Good for you!
BACK AWAY FROM THE EVM AND NO ONE WILL GET HURT!!:mad: I am fighting the same fight today. I am hungry! I'm off to lunch now so I don't get into the wrong stuff. ;) Hang in there Doe, I know you can do it!!!:Pinkbounc
Have a great day!
TTFN-
Sharon :sunny:

[septbride2002]

BACK EVM! BACK! crack of bull whip STAY AWAY FROM OUR DOE!

~Amanda
"EVM tamer"

[Auntmeme]

Hang in Doreen! You are super woman- the EVM is no match:p

Keep the faith and you'll make it through all your goals. Today is gorgeous so make sure to get out and walk. How's the pilates going? I was thinking 2 gallons wasn't enough water but sometimes I'm forcing that last glass before bed and then have to get up halfway through the night to tinkle. I'm going to try to have most of it down by the end of dinner. Are you able to drink it all each day?

I know it's been tough for all of us lately, most be a full moon or something. Anyhow, have a great Tuesday:wave2:

[CourtasanSatine]

thanks for checking in on my journal,I'm just leaving a :hug: and will be back once I call DBF

[honeymo78]

Just stopping in to say hi. Keep up the great work. I'm so glad youre out of the d-zone and back on the healthy track.

[lulu201]

So, how'd yesterday go, Doreen? With Amanda around, that EVM doesn't stand a chance, you know. She certainly has many talents!:p Call her today if that EVM looks at you funny.

How are things at work? Are you taking your tasks one by one? If we can take our healthy living goals one by one each and every day, we'll be feeling good and accomplish all that we've set out to achieve. Let's do it today, Doreen! We'll worry about tomorrow later. . .all we have to try for is this moment.

Here we go, onward and downward, together.:happy1:

I'm going to blow dry Mickey's paws. . .:p

Erin

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning World!!! :sunny:

Yesterday:
1. Pills - 2/12
2. Water - 2/12
3. Food - 1/12
4. Exercise - 2/12

I'm going to celebrate since I met 3 of my 4 goals yesterday. I evaded the EVM thanks to Amanda! However, when I got home, things went awry. I had a good plan (Wendy's after the recital) but we ended up not going to the recital, which threw everything off. They do the same recital 2 weeks in a row and DD wanted us to skip last night and go next week, so we respected her wishes. I was very tired and feeling overwhelmed and there are too many goodies in the house at the moment. I caved in with ice cream and potato chips. :rolleyes:

I'm moving on - it was one slip in an otherwise very good day. The scale is down a pound to 134 (it was up to 135! :eek: ). I need to manage the stress better somehow.

Today:
1. Meds & vitamins taken.
2. 16 oz of water almost gone - 48 more oz to go.
3. Food - B = apple w/ PB, L will be my burger w/ mustard & mayo, S will be an Atkins bar, D - here we go again! :rolleyes: We have to get hair cuts tonight and then DS goes to play rehearsal. Where does dinner fit in?
4. Exercise - walk 15 minutes during lunch hour.

I'm feeling overwhelmed in practically every area of life at the moment. I am through the D-Zone for the month, and usually I feel my spirits lifted by now, but I'm still struggling. This is a common pattern for me during this time of year. I MUST spend some time making lists of tasks in each area and breaking things down to a manageable level, even down to putting each task on the calendar, so I know that I can get it all done. I think I may do that during work hours today (gasp!!). At this point, I'm paralyzed and not getting ANYTHING done, so this will help me be more productive at work and everywhere else. I can also look for things to delegate to my DH and kids. There is no reason for ME to do it all. They'll help if given specific tasks, but without direction from me, they don't seem to even know how to help me.

I'll be back later to report how it's going. I have a plan. In the past I would have been sucked into the black hole of depression and when I'm there, I am not capable of creating a plan to help myself. So, I'm coping better now than I have in the past and that thought alone is giving me comfort and confidence.

I'm also not giving up on my healthy living goals. Even yesterday, when I didn't meet my food goal, I did succeed for most of the day and only had one "meal" that was not healthy. I'm still in the game!

I am down, but at least I can see a ladder to climb back up! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[lulu201]

I am here for you; you are here for me. Doreen, you and I will never give up on this lifestyle change because we both know that it's much more for us than weight management--it's part of a big picture of wellness and wholeness. We will do this because we just plain have to.:hug:

I'm going to email you from work during the day just to see how things are going, so check it if you can. Take today in those baby steps, princess: Doreen--you can do it!

:sunny: and blessings on you, dear friend--
Erin

[septbride2002]

Morning! I fell through as well Doreen - but lets now concentrate on the past and just look forward to today. We can do it! I know we can! I'm sending lots and lots of vibes your way!

~Amanda

[luvmy2sams]

Good morning Doe! :wave:

I'm going through the same thing right now, Doe! At least you've got your plan going for pulling yourself out of the funk. Bravo to you! ::yes::

Don't beat yourself up over one blown meal. Today is a new day, and you'll kick those bad habits to the curb! I know you can do it!

Have a great day!
Angela :wave2:

[DoeWDW]

It's 1:30 PM and I just got back to my desk. I went to the EVM and kicked it. Yes, I literally kicked it. The voices have temporarily stopped calling me. I've threatened to go back and stick my tongue out at it if they start up again.

Do you remember how I said I'd spend time planning out all my tasks today? Well, I've changed my mind. I'm still planning....I'm planning to run away! :p I just got another project put on my plate, along with everything else I have to get done. I wish the people around here didn't see me as a competent professional. :rolleyes:

The extra project was the catalyst for those EVM voices to start up. However, I went to the cafeteria and got my burger. I have not indulged in any comfort food. I know if I start, I won't be able to start. I was supposed to have my protein bar for an afternoon snack but I ate it around 11 AM - I was hungry! Now I don't have an afternoon snack. This could be dangerous. I will prevail though. Evil carby sugary food will not help me get any of my tasks done so why medicate myself with food that will only make things worse!

I wonder if all this stress will cause my body to shut down? I am concerned about this, but I guess there's nothing I can really do about it. If it happens, I'll just have to take the day off and give myself time to recover. I should have walked at lunch but didn't get a chance to - the new project meeting cut into my lunch hour. Hopefully I'll get a chance to do some exercise tonight. Burning off some stress would do me some good.

Enough babbling. I've GOT to try to do some planning. I'd rather DIS, though! ::yes::

[gadizlover]

Oh Doreen-
Good for you - way to tell the EVM who is boss! I feel for you, I really do- I've been there with that stress at work. (and probably will again before this month is over). I used to do the same thing -reach for the chocolate. But even though it felt better, the work was still there! Can you maybe slip away from your desk for about 5 minutes? Go outside and just stamp your feet and yell if no one will hear you? Trust me, its a great stress reliever:teeth:

That way you won't be beating your self up later for letter the EVM have control!

Take care of yourself and don't let the stress win. Take slow deep breaths, take a good long stretch and know that we are here rooting for you to make it thru the day!!

[Strings]

So tell me Doe, how did it feel to kick that EVM? Was it satisfying? I bet it was, and security didn't even show up. I'm so proud of you. I know that you will get through this day intact. You have achieved so much. I know you will hadle all of these projects. Baby steps, and DIs for venting will get you through. Take care of yourself and try some deep breathing exercises.
:hug:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Beth, it WAS satisfying to physically KICK that EVM!! I may do it again! Of course, I didn't kick it hard enough to hurt me or leave a dent in it, but the symbolism was wonderful!!

I did not give into the EVM yesterday afternoon! I went home and decided that I was going to eat sensibly but not count carbs. I ended up having a PBJ sandwich, an apple, 10 potato chips and, later, 6 bites of DD's mac & cheese. I didn't binge!! I was proud of myself!

I think I may just have to stop worrying about the carbs for a week or so until things calm down and I feel more in control of some other areas of my life. I plan to eat sensibly and stay pretty low-carb but not obsess over the numbers. I tried this before and didn't do so well but I'm going to try it again.

My goals today:
1. Take meds & vitamins.
2. Drink water - at least 48 oz.
3. Eat sensibly and no binges!
4. Walk 15 minutes sometime today.

I wanted to hide under the covers today. However, I decided to face my fears and feelings of being overwhelmed and underconfident. It's OK to be uncomfortable and unsure and still keep moving forward and do the best I can. I'll be taking baby steps at work and doing the planning I should have done yesterday (before they overwhelmed me with yet another major assignment!).

Beth, I'll be taking your advice and doing some deep breathing exercises. I think I'll set up my PC to remind me every half-hour to stop and do some deep breathing and conscious relaxing. Thanks for the idea!

Here I go, boldy into the day! :sunny:

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
Way to go on kicking that EVM! I bet that felt really good.::yes:: Your plan for this week sounds like a good one. You can always start counting carbs again when everything else settles down. You did a great job with your food choices after coming home from work! No binge there! Way to go Doe!:Pinkbounc


I hope you have a wonderful day today! :hug: for you princess: Doe!

Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

That sounds like a great plan! I know that when my life feels like a tornado that I have to not concentrate so much on what I am eating. As soon as things calm down - I'm right back to plan. Well maybe not right back but you know what I mean. :happy2:

Your plan sounds great today - I'm afraid if I do deep breathing exercises at my desk that I will fall asleep ;)

Have a great day princess: Doe!

~Amanda

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe,

It's been a while since I checked on you. It sounds like you have a lot (okay too much) on your plate! I am sending you some good vibes ----- {{{{{good vibes}}}} ----. I hope you are able to take some time for yourself today to get your plan together. I absolutely hate feeling out of control. It makes me fearful and anxious and other negative feelings. You are so wonderful to see what's happening around you and have the presence of mind to make a plan to get yourself up and out of it all.

I always consider you to be one of the ladies on this board I look up to the most. I know you will find a way to take back control of things at work, home and with your diet and exercise. :)

[DoeWDW]

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support! They mean more than I can say.

I've just posted a thread on the main WISH board announcing a WISH Walk in Doylestown PA on May 8th. If any of you are interested in meeting and strolling together, please post to that thread. Erin (Lulu201) and I will definitely be there but we'd love to see lots of WISHers! This will give me something to look forward to - a day of fun and laughter with some of my best friends!!

So far I've eaten my apple with peanut butter for breakfast and taken my meds & vitamins. I'm on track! :sunny:

[CheapMom]

That EVM had it coming- You're doing great. Good luck this week!
Mary

[Auntmeme]

Thanks for the walk info. I'm checking my calendar and really hope to make it. We were just in Doylestown last week, I now know where starbucks is.

Looks like you are doing great, keep it up to go down!

Did you reserve a room for the walk? did Erin? and are your families going? I didn't get the info but emailed Kamy twice, still waiting to hear.

Have a great Thursday:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

I'm feeling better this afternoon - a little less stressed. I think not worrying about my carb counts is helping. I had my apple with peanut butter for breakfast, a 2g protein bar for lunch and trail mix (22g) for a snack. I haven't had nearly enough water though - will have to work on that this evening.

Time for me to head home. I have planned a relaxing evening of laundry, playing & walking with my puppy, and catching up on some reading. Cross your fingers and hope no major crises appear! :p

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,
I'm glad you are feeling less stressed. I hope you can rest over the weekend. I think it is awesome that you and Eroin are organizing a get together walk.

Take care of yourself,
Beth

[lulu201]

:Pinkbounc It's Friday, Doreen! :Pinkbounc It's Friday! :Pinkbounc

You made it through the work week, and while your weekend is going to be busy, at least it's not work-busy, you know what I mean?

Here's some :sunny: and some:flower: for your day.

Lots of love:flower3:,
Erin

[Strings]

Hey Doe,

I just wanted to pop in and say hi. :wave: I know you can make it through today. IT"S FRIDAY! I hope you have a good weekend.
:daisy:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

WARNING: This journal entry will be long and tedious. I'm using it primarily for myself, although anyone else is welcome to read it. I'm feeling way overwhelmed and I'm trying to "write" myself through it. You've been warned. :p

I'm so fatigued and I feel so overwhelmed with everything at work that I can't focus on any one thing and get it done. My mind is racing, my breathing is shallow, my heart is beating too fast - is this what an anxiety attack feels like??? Beth, I keep remembering your reminder to do deep breathing exercises, and I'm trying. I just have to get myself calmed down enough to get some of this stuff done so I can feel better. Any ideas???

I'm already taking Effexor (anti-depressant). The stress at work is (hopefully) a temporary thing but it will stay this way well into August. Then I think it will get better, unless the powers that be shove another project my way.

At home I'm not getting anything done - very little cooking or cleaning. I crash when I walk in the door. I want to escape into something mindless like a good book or a computer game.

This has happened to me before but I didn't recognize it. I eventually felt so bad that my body and mind shut down and I stayed in bed for a few days. Then everything was worse because I still had all the same tasks to do but less time to do them. Home isn't a problem - the family will help. Work seems to be the reason for the anxiety. My workload should be manageable and a few years ago, these same tasks would not have bothered me.

I'm sorry to dump all this here. I just need to get it out somewhere. I just have to hang in there until vacation (only 51 days until I'm with Mickey for 2 weeks!).

I know I need to break things out into baby steps and small tasks. I've been wanting to do that for the past 2 days but every time I start, I get another anxiety attack where I can't think. I'm going to try again right now for just 5 minutes. After 5 minutes, I'll be back here to check my sanity.

EDIT:
After 5 minutes I have 7 pieces of paper, each with a major area that I have to work on. Then on each paper, I've written the next steps that need to be taken, along with any deadlines that are imminent. I feel better.

I think limiting myself to 5 minutes really helps me. Anything more seems overwhelming but I can do almost anything for 5 minutes, right?

OK, what's the next step? I'll take each sheet and give each task a time estimate - how long will it take me to do this?

I'll be back in another 5 - 10 minutes.

EDIT:
I've got time estimates on each task. Next I'll set some loose priorities for what needs to get done now and what can wait.

First I'm going to take a 5 minute walk to clear my head. I've worked hard to get to this point and I deserve a quick break. Then I can come back with some fresh perspective.

I'll be back in about 20-30 minutes. I'm starting to feel a little more in control. :sunny:

[Strings]

:hug: Doe,

I sent you a PM. I'll check in before I leave. I'm thinking about you.
Beth

[septbride2002]

Oh Doe I'm sending lots and lots of :hug: and :goodvibes and :cheer2: your way. I think you are doing great with taking 5 minutes to just make list. I find list to be very helpful. I tend to make one every morning when I get into work - I ususally write them down by priority and then I just make my way down the list. It helps me to be more focused on what needs to be done instead of getting invovled in the little things.

Question (from the business student in me) is there anyone you can delegate some task to? I know you are a department head (or something similiar) are you taking on to much yourself that you could delegate to someone else?

Another thing I need you to remember - this is work. This is not your life, it is not what is really important. Making yourself stress out about it isn't helping anyone that loves you and cares about you. It is just a job. :)

Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. PM me if you want to talk more. I'll be checking up on you later today. Just picture yourself wearing your Princess hat (which should make you smile) and work your way down the list - you will be okay!

~Amanda

[disneygoof]

Hi Doreen,

Hope you don't mind me responding.

When I was working full time, I used a system, the Franklin Planner system, to keep myself organized, but more importantly, stress free. The seminars are expensive, and day long, but it's worth it to make the time, and I was able to get work to pay for it by arguing it would increase my productivity, and it did.

The main thing is when you have big projects, break them down. Then once their broken down, categoize them by A must do today, B should do today, C could do today but can wait til tomorrow. Anything that doesn't need attention today, gets moved to tomorrow's calendar, that way you can forget about it, knowing that the calendar will bring it back for you tomorrow.

I still use it at home when the house, kids, schedules, and part-time work get overwhelming. And the part about pushing off til tomorrow what you truly don't need to think about today really helps with stress. They have software so you can keep the calendar on your computer as well.

Good luck with everything going on at work.

Take care,
Disneygoof

[DoeWDW]

Beth, Amanda, Goof, thanks so much! :grouphug: I've just spent 10 minutes walking outside, praying, singing (well, inside my head anyway :p ), drinking my water, stretching - I'm feeling more calm and centered. The worst of the anxiety is ebbing away. I think writing out my feelings here in my journal really helps and knowing that there are caring people out there who are praying for me, sending me good thoughts, etc - well, it makes a difference. It's like the :grouphug: grouphug smilie - I truly can "feel" the presence of good thoughts and vibes from all of you around me. I feel very blessed to have each and every one of you in my life.

Beth, I responded to you via PM. :hug:

Amanda, I don't have anyone to delegate to at the moment, although I have to interview someone via phone in 45 minutes who may be hired to help me in some areas. Thank you for reminding me that this is only my job, not my life. I do need to remember that! ::yes::

Goof, I've actually taken the Franklin Planning course and found it very helpful. I do appreciate your reminder about prioritizing - I'd forgotten, since it's been quite a few years since I took the class. I used to carry the large planner book with me everywhere until my DH took pity on me and bought me a Palm IIIe. Prioritizing will be my next step, now that I'm thinking a little more clearly.

I'm ready to take 10 - 20 minutes and prioritize my tasks. Then, like Amanda does, I can just work the list. I'll keep the tasks in MS Outlook on my work PC and just go down the list, one by one. I can do this!!

I did have a quick chat with my boss and let him know how overwhelmed I was feeling, and he's such a great guy to work for - very supportive and understanding.

I'll be back! I sound like Ah-nold!! :crazy:

[vald1977]

:hug: Hi Doe,
Anxiety stinks. I know from experience. I'm so proud of you for working through it. I know you can do it ::yes:: . Just remember we all here rooting for you :grouphug: . I'll be thinking of you and I'll check back later today to see how you're doing. Hang in there :hug: .

[DoeWDW]

OK I SAID I was going to prioritize and then I got wrapped up in the DIS! I LOVE to DIS!! I'm REALLY going to work now!! I'll be back around 11:30 with progress to report. :p

EDIT:
I've used Disneygoof's suggestion with the As, Bs and Cs. I've put the As at the top of my MS Outlook task list and I'm ready to get started! It didn't take as long as I thought it would to get things prioritized! I should be able to get through the As today and then can prioritize for Monday (getting to some of those Bs). I'll consider today a success if I can get through the As!!

I'm feeling better by the minute. Thanks to all who have encouraged me this morning. I spent the last two days at work just paralyzed and overwhelmed. I'm making much more progress today! ::yes::

EDIT: 1 PM
It's after lunch now. Half the day is finished - YAY! I feel much more in control of things now - thanks to all who helped me get through my anxiety this morning. I'm glad to know that I can work through those horrible feelings when they hit, instead of being forever paralyzed by them. What a relief!! I still have lots to do but I'll make it.

I've finished 2 of my 3 A tasks. Now I'm off to do my 3rd A - the one I've been putting off. I'll be back! :sunny:

[Auntmeme]

Looks like you were alittle stressed for a while.:crazy: I'm so happy you were able to push through. I predict a great weekend for you - remember to put on your hat princess: those troubles will soon blow away. Have a wonderful friday night and I'll check back tomorrow:wave2:

[vald1977]

:D I'm happy to read your latest update, Doreen. The day is almost over and soon you get to go home for the weekend ::yes:: . Hope you have a great one :sunny: !

[DoeWDW]

MeMe & Val, thanks for the kind words!

I've sent the last A task off to someone else for input. I've been spinning my wheels and it's sometimes hard for me to ask for help. Well, not today!! All my A tasks are off my desk for now - two are done and one is someone else's problem until he gets some answers for me. :p

I've got a few minutes left at work and I'm going to use them to look at the Bs. I'd like to lay out what I want to get done for the first hour or two on Monday morning, so I don't have to face these horrible anxiety feelings again.

Through all of this, I didn't binge! I'm very proud of myself for not running to the EVM to medicate myself with Peanut M&Ms!!! Actually I was feeling sick to my stomach with all the anxiety so I wasn't all that hungry for "real" food. I had my apple with peanut butter for breakfast and trail mix with extra cashews (28g) around 3 PM.

Thank you to all who've helped me successfully get through this anxiety and turn my day into a productive one. I truly do feel much better now. :grouphug: I'm heading home to enjoy my weekend! ::yes::

[LAinSEA]

Doe: Gosh, what a week you're having! :hug: Don't forget your first priority is YOU!

You have so many responsibilities - work, home, church, volunteering - WOW - I'm overwhelmed just reading all about them. You manage them all so well. I hope those around you appreciate all the effort you go to everyday.

I think you've gotten some very good advice and given yourself some very good advice also. Now you need to give yourself permission not to be perfect and just manage what needs managing. No one will accuse you of not putting in your best effort. That which does not destroy us, makes us stronger. You are so strong. Now it's time to let those around you get some experience and become stronger too - DH and DD included!

Have a very good weekend - whether it is just spent relaxing or catching up on work or catching up around the house. Puppy's probably waiting for a good long walk. :sunny:

take care,
Laurie

[lulu201]

:hug: Oh, my gosh, what a day you had yesterday. Bad and Good all at the same time. The goodness and strength of the wish really came through--it was powerful to read your journal entries and responses from yesterday and see what blessings came to you in the midst of a bad time.

I hope you don't mind me saying this, Doreen, but if you know that you're going to have a large work load through AUGUST, it's time to look around and to clear your plate a bit where you can. As Laurie said, you've got lots you're doing outside of work, too--maybe some of that can be tabled for now so that you can care for yourself?

Let me squeeze into the group hug :grouphug: you know we're all around you.

Enjoy your time this morning at K of P--
Erin

[myhandd]

I love MS Outlook! I just wanted to check in and say hey Doe.

I have arrived at another signoff after agonizing for a week!

So here goes!

The incredible shrinking one!

Dax

[DoeWDW]

Laurie, your words are very wise! I'm making more of an effort to let my DH and kids become stronger by handling more of their responsibilities. Thanks!

Erin, you're right! I thought things were going to let up within the next few weeks at work but now that I've been assigned a new project, it will probably be hectic into August. I think I will spend some time today looking at strategies to reduce the workload elsewhere. Thanks!

Dax - LOVE the new signoff!! ::yes::

Friday night seems so long ago - can't even remember what I did! :p Yesterday DD and I were up early and spent hours with her best friend & friend's mom at King of Prussia. The agenda was bathing suit shopping for 2 14 yr. old girls. :rolleyes: Hours later my DD had one bathing suit and one camisole. DD's friend had one pair of shorts. Through it all, we had a lot of fun and laughter and girl-time!

We got home just in time for the dinner theater at church. Dinner was delicious and the play - WOW!. They did a phenomenol job - including my DS (can't help a little brag :) )! Then we came home, DD packed a couple things and we ran her to her sleepover. I came home and crashed - boy, did I sleep good!!

Today, I'm helping during Sunday School. Then my parents are coming to see the play performance this afternoon. DS has the cast party afterward. I'm going to do NOTHING this evening! :teeth: I'll have a few hours to recharge my batteries for the work week ahead.

Goals? Hmmm, I know I've HEARD of healthy living goals but I certainly have let them slide this weekend. I'll stop by the grocery store later to stock up on healthy food for the week ahead. I've gotta plan ahead to make things easier for myself this week. I also see a puppy walk in my future. I've been taking my meds faithfully and I DID get lots of walking in at the mall yesterday so I guess I'm not doing too bad. :sunny:

I'm off into the day! I think it's gonna be a good one!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Sounds like a busy weekend. DH and I have decided to shut the phone off tonight and just be lazy around the house and enjoying the quite. We've had a busy weekend as well.

I hope your batteries get all recharged for tomorrow!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm back, and just got caught up on your journal. I am so proud of you. You should reread Friday's posts. You started out overwhelmed, figured out a plan, started executing that plan, and even organized for Monday morning. You did it without binging too. WTG! You did an amazing job of recovering your day. Shopping sounds like ou had a great time. You needed to laugh some. What play was your son in? You have every right to brag. You are a proud Mama. I hope tonight is very relaxing.

Have a good one.
Beth

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

I also just got caught up on your journals. You really had it rough and you did work through all of the stress and handled it well!!! There have been times when I have been so overwhelmed! Take good care of yourself!!!::yes::

Hope you have a better week!:sunny:

Carol

[lulu201]

:flower: :daisy: :flower: :daisy: :flower: :daisy:
:flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1:

Good morning, Doreen! Here are some flowers to brighten your Monday morning. Have a great day and know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. . .

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Thank you all! :grouphug:

Yesterday was a good day. I helped out during Sunday School and then stayed for church (haven't done that for a while). I enjoyed the sermon about God's abundant love! If we give up control, He often gives us PLENTY of what we need - not just enough but an abundant amount! It was uplifting for me to worship with my church family.

In the afternoon I attended the second performance of the play that a group from church (including my son) was performing. They did C.S. Lewis' The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. DS played Edmund, who is rather nasty and betrays his siblings. Fortunately he's back on the good side in the end. The entire cast did a wonderful job and I remembered how much I enjoy theater. My parents also came and while DS went off to the cast party, my parents, DH and I went to Subway for dinner and a chance to sit and chat.

I also found time last evening to finish the last of my library books - so nice to just sit and read!

Today is going to be a good day! I did wake earlier than usual and, boy was I productive!! I washed & dried a load of towels. I did a very brief upper body workout with some exercise bands (from a class I took a year ago). I hardboiled some eggs for the week and got most of the tuna salad made (just have to add onion tonight!). I felt good about all I got done - a very positive experience and not drudge work at all. Most mornings I can't muster up this much energy but today I breezed through it all!

Now I'm at work and feeling like I can handle things today. I'm much more at peace than I was on Friday! I'll be doing what I did on Friday - prioritizing and then working the list. On Friday, I felt like I was climbing Mount Everestt but today it seems like an invigorating stroll in the park. :sunny:

I've already had 2 of my 5 mugs of water. I'm ready to have my apple with peanut butter, meds & vitamins for breakfast. I have a protein bar and/or trail mix for a snack. I'll have a burger for lunch. Dinner will be tuna salad - yummy!

Here I go, into Monday with a genuine smile on my face and feeling quietly confident! :sunny:

[Strings]

Wow Doe,

You are so motivated today. You've also gotten more done already then I will all day:p I can feel you determination. You will shine today.:sunny: Enjoy your Monday.
:wave:
Beth

[PAdisMOM]

WOW! What a great attitude for a Monday!! I wish some of that would have spread my way today!

Keep it up and have a great day!:Pinkbounc

[septbride2002]

Can I just have a smidge of your happy smile and energy? I feel like I've been sucked dry. LOL! Wow you got a lot done this morning. I love it when I have productive mornings or evenings - just makes you feel like you've taken a load off your mind. I'm hoping my evening will be productive like that - especially since there is nothing on TV tonight.

Good Job on the exercise! I really need to get back in the habit of working out - I haven't picked up weights in a month!

I hope you have a great day Doe!

~Amanda

[CheapMom]

I teach Sunday School too- this Sunday was the last class for the year. Mass was inpiring and comforting to me also this week. I have lots to be thankful for.
Keep up that positive attitude- you are doing great-
Don't overindulge in Turkish Delight!!!!

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
I love your positive attitude! I hope that you have a wonderful, blessed day today!!:sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[disneygoof]

Doreen,

Happy to read it sounds like you're back on track! When I was working, my office actually sent me to a second Franklin seminar as a refresher. Sometimes you need to re-commit, just like dieting.

Take care,
Disneygoof

[Eyore4Ever149]

Hey There Doreen!

My morning/day went similarly to yours- and it was pouring here- must be something in the air I think! Although I wouldnt excited about tuna for dinner- LOL- Im not a lover of it.

How great it is to read that someone is upbeat! Congrats on a successful day today!

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: It's a sunny day! May sunny thoughts and sunny moments be yours this Tuesday, Doreen. :sunny: :sunny:

Talk to you later,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Yesterday I ended up with a sour stomach so my food plans didn't work out. I had a pack of crackers for lunch - bad carbs but they helped settle my tummy! All in all, I didn't do too bad and there were no binges.

Now on to today!! :sunny:

The usual goals:
1. Take meds & vitamins.
2. Drink 5 mugs of water.
3. Food - no binges and relatively low carb.
4. Exercise - 15 minutes of something aerobic.

The sun is shining! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: HOORAY!! I'm at work and I hope to be productive. I'm a little anxious but I'm sure once I get some things done I'll be feeling better.

Tonight will be busy - DD's mini-recital at the baton studio - so dinner may be a Wendy's salad. No worries! :sunny:

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

You sound so grounded today. I know today will be a sucuess. I hope your stomach is feeling better today.
Beth

[ZerasPride]

Doreen,

I'm just checking in on you. Thanks somuch for stopping by my journal and spreading your usual sunshine all over my day! You sound very positive and upbeat so I hope this sunny disposition stays with you throughout your busy day! Take care of yourself! :)

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

I hope that you are feeling much better and that you have a wonderful day! Keep on with that positive attitude!!:sunny:

Carol

[CheapMom]

I ended up with a sour stomach so my food plans didn't work out. I had a pack of crackers for lunch - bad carbs but they helped settle my tummy!
Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do. I hope you are feeling better- Stay positive and hang in there-
Mary

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

Good morning, Doreen! I hope that you're feeling better and find yourself living the healthy life! Today is Treat Yourself Like a princess: Day, so make sure you do something great just for you!

Thank you for being my WISH-sis and for walking this walk day in and day out.:cool1: :cool1:

:hug: and love,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

I did pretty well yesterday. Met my pill & water goals. Food was a little iffy, but not terrible. Never got the exercise in though.

Today - same goals as always - pills, water, food, exercise. I should really start visualizing these as my four foundation pillars. If I don't try hard to keep all 4 strong, my healthy building will become the Leaning Tower of Pisa (pizza?? did someone mention pizza??? :p ). I do need to start taking my food and especially my exercise goals a bit more seriously.

DD's mini-recital at the baton studio went well. I wasn't very hungry when we got home so I ate 1/2 a PBJ sandwich and called it a night.

Tonight, there's nothing on the schedule - whew!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[lizdotcom99]

Clippie party at my place! You are the first to be officially invited!!! Hope your week is going well! Keep up the good work....and if you would like, feel free to drink some water for me....I have been really bad in that area! But I have drank enought diet Pepsi for all of the WISH boards this week....:eek:

[septbride2002]

PIZZA? WHO SAID PIZZA? WHERE IS THE PIZZA WHERE???? Picture Animal from the Muppets as you read this. LOL!

I'm sorry to hear that you are not feeling well - remember to take care of yourself! I'm sending lots of :sunny: your way today!

~Amanda

[honeymo78]

Just stopping by to say you're doing a wonderful job. No matter what comes across your path you seem to be able to get over those hurdles and get moving again. Maybe you'll be able to get some exercise in tonight. I think its a great idea to think of your 4 pillars and not wanting to let your building fall to one side.

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Doe, you are doing a great job! Thank you for your continuted support even though I haven't shown my "face" around here at all lately. Busy busy busy.

Stay positive and you'll do great! ::yes::

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm running late today. I love your pillar visualization. That is very powerful. You are doing a great job with your goals this 2nd half of the month. You should be very proud of yourself. Enjoy your quiet evening.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

It's Thursday! I can see the weekend in sight! YAY!

I had a little nudge last night (thank you Amanda!!) to help me get my exercise in. I walked the puppy and it did us both good to get outside and have a stroll. I was going to be lazy and skip it, but Amanda was kind enough to remind me how much better I'd feel if I walked, and she was right! I think it helped that I wore my princess: hat! :p

Today:
1. Take meds & vitamins w/ breakfast.
2. Water - 1 mug down and 4 to go.
3. Food - I hate to set a food goal, since I've been breaking every one I set. :rolleyes: B will be apple w/ PB, L will be tuna salad on rye crackers (brought from home), S will be nuts from the EVM (hopefully the kind that are NOT coated in chocolate :p ), D will be ??? something.
4. Exercise - I need to walk the puppy tonight. The weather is supposed to be beautiful so no excuses!

When I got home last night, I had a cup of Ben & Jerry's Carb Karma half baked ice cream. It sounded good - vanilla & chocolate w/ pieces of fudge and choc. chip cookie dough. Unfortunately it didn't taste all that great and I had some serious gas last night! I think I'll throw the rest away - it wasn't worth the carbs. Then, since I felt so gassy, I wasn't really into any more food - rather unhealthy.

I've got some deadlines to meet at 1 PM today so I won't be doing journals until much later. Know that I'm thinking of each of you!! :grouphug:

[lulu201]

:flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1: :flower1: Woo-hoo the weekend is in sight!

It sounds like you got some healthy walking squeezed into yesterday! Hooray!:Pinkbounc Today should be beautiful, so maybe you and Maya can get in a walk after work. What do you say?

After you meet your 1 p.m. deadline, have a nice cup of orange green tea (I'll do the same this afternoon as a sign of solidarity:p ), lift your cup and remember all the WISH princess: es out there who love you.

Have a great day, girlfriend.
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I'm just sending some:wizard: :wizard: to help things run smoothly at work, so you can meet the deadline without a problem. Enjoy your :sunny: today. Yesterday it snowed here. Today the high is supposed to be 82. I'll take it.
:smooth:
Beth

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

You are doing a great job!:D I know you felt better after your walk. I hope you meet your deadlines and hope you have a great day!

Carol:wave2:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doreen,
Only one day until the weekend -- yay :Pinkbounc :bounce: ! Wishing you a great Thursday :sunny: !

[DoeWDW]

So far it's been a good day! It looks like I'm getting a consultant for 2 months to ease my workload on my major project. Of course I'll be responsible for training and reviewing his work, but I should have some more free time to do the new project that I've been assigned.

I've taken my meds & vitamin, eaten breakfast and lunch as planned, have no cravings for EVM carb junk and have been drinking my water. I didn't walk at lunch but I did go outside to a sunny spot and read for 20 minutes. :p I have a date with my cute little doxie when I get home for a stroll in the sun and maybe some training exercises.

I've been reading several books on shy / fearful dogs and am ready to start working with Maya to help her cope with the world a little better. We haven't been working on training her to go outside except for a potty stop in the yard before walking her. She has been using her litter pan more consistently so DH hasn't mentioned any more about it. I want to get her enrolled in obedience class again. We took a class 2 years ago but she needs the exposure to other dogs and people in a structured setting. Yeah - one more thing for me to do, but helping her to be a less fearful dog will relieve some of my stress and worry.

Now that I'll be getting a new consultant, I have a million things to do before he arrives on Tuesday (hopefully, if the contract gets through all the legal people :rolleyes: ). He'll need a security badge, an account on several of our computer systems, reference materials, a clear task list - that should keep me hopping for a couple days but in the end he'll save me time and energy and anxiety.

Off I go! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[LAinSEA]

Doe: Remember the consultant is there to assist you - not you are there to assist the consultant! (Having had the "consultant" added to my mix several times over the past 20 years or so of work and having been the "consultant" myself, I can attest that the above statement is very important to take at face value.)

I'm so sorry not to get your journal sooner - but I'm so happy for you that you've had things brighten up around you! My walking has become a source of peace and strength for me lately - it's so easy to enjoy the world around me while moving through and with it. Your puppy will gain more confidence with each venture outside too - I hope.

The weekend is almost here! Keep up your positive outlook!

-Laurie:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Laurie, thanks so much for your advice about the consultant. I do tend to bend over backwards trying to make things as easy as possible for those around me, generally making more work for myself instead of letting other people share the load. You are wise!

Also, thanks for the reminder about walking my puppy to help her gain confidence. With all the reading I've been doing on fearful dogs, they stress that keeping them in the house will only make them more fearful so in spite of the stress of taking her out into the world, I've got to do it. We had a nice walk last night and I'm learning how to help her and understand her more every day. The saying goes that there are no bad dogs, just bad owners, and I'm learning how to be a better owner.

Friday is here! :happy2: I'm tired but I can get through one more day. The weekend looks like a laid back one - nothing planned at all! :eek: I'm going to try to keep it that way, in spite of my tendency to fill up my time with "shoulds" - all the things I "should" be doing. I've got to convince myself that I "should" rest and relax and recharge my batteries!!

Work should be pretty good today - am just getting ready for my consultant to come in next week. I'm only taking a half hour lunch so I can leave a half hour early with my vanpool. Funny how knowing I can leave half an hour early can make me as giddy as a little kid on the first day of vacation! :p

I've got all the usual goals and my food will be the same as yesterday.

Into Friday I go! :flower1: :flower1: :flower1:

[lulu201]

:wave: Good morning, dear princess: Doe-Doe. Here's some more:sunny: on top of all we have on this glorious day! You can never have too much, right?

Doreen, thank you for all your encouragement this week. As always, your kindness lifted me up and helped keep me going. Of course that Energizer Bunny :wizard: didn't hurt either!

If you ask me, I think you should have a Pajama Day this weekend. No housework, no running around, no phone--just total R and R. Even if you can't do it for a whole day, a Saturday morning spent just goofing off with the family has amazing energizing properties! :p Maybe invite DD for an at-home spa day! Do nails and facials and put your feet up with a chick flick. . .
let the guys do home maintenance or something. :p (Uh, please don't tell DH that suggestion came from me!)

Will you get a chance to plan ahead for Monday today? That strategy seemed to work well last Friday and gave you some peace at the beginning of the week.

:hug: and :D and a Friday Hip Hip Hooray!:cheer2:
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

Sounds like you have the perfect weekend planned to recharge your batteries, and you get an early start.:p I also like Erins suggestions, especially the menfolk doing all the work. I hope your weekend is a great one.
Beth

[CheapMom]

Hi Doreen- Today should fly by and then into your weekend of no plans you go. Sounds heavenly. Take care of yourself and do some quality relaxing for me. :D
Thanks for always having such kind, encouraging words for me on my journal- I was considering having a SECOND bowl of cereal today when I got a little pop-up "DoeWDW has replied to your thread CheapMom takes the WISH challenge" I clicked on it and read it and I said- 'breakfast is now OVER'- onward and downward.
It really made a difference- thanks!

[Mom of Sleepy, Bashful and BabyDoc]

Your plans sound wonderful because YOU HAVE NO PLANS! :tongue: :smooth:

How wonderful! Glad you get to leave work early. I remember what that was like. I must admit, I don't miss it. Now I just run around my house like a crazy woman instead! :crazy: ::yes::

Have a great one! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning, Doreen! :sunny: Just popped over to wish you a happy Saturday. Enjoy the weekend and the :sunny: and get in some quality "Doreen Time."

:hug: for you and yours,
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doe,
So how's the weekend going? Are you relaxing, or did you get sucked into doing a ton of things? I hope right now, you are curled up with a great book or watching a chick flick. Take care of yourself.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

WARNING: Long rambling post

Today has been wonderful! The guys (DH & DS) went to my parents' house to do some work for them. DD & I have had the day to ourselves. We've definitely been relaxing all day. We worked on our tans and watched 2 different chick flicks among other things. I've walked the puppy twice. It's nice to spend a day with no to-do list, no agenda, just veg time!

I am a bit pensive today - basically means I've been doing a lot of thinking. April has been a total wash for me - I'm heavier now than I was at the beginning of the month. Laurie posted a thread on the main WISH board about how we have to be able to come to terms with giving up certain things if we want to lose the weight and become more healthy. I've been giving in to more temptations that I'd like to admit lately and exercising less than I should be. I guess I haven't been willing to make the sacrifices necessary to lose this weight and now I've managed to gain quite a few pounds back.

I start out in the mornings with the best of intentions and as the day goes on, I get less and less concerned with doing the healthy thing. It scares me that I went from 142 to 127 (at one point) and then maintained around 130 - 132 for weeks and now am at 136. I can feel the old me coming back and I feel almost powerless to stop it.

I do have to say that I'm much better about taking my meds & vitamins like clockwork every day. The water, food & exercise though have not been what they need to be. I do manage to eat a healthy breakfast and lunch every day so that's a plus.

I don't have any answers yet. I am still thinking about all this and wondering where my motivation went. I'm not eating everything in sight but I'm not being as good as I should be and it's showing. The pounds and inches are creeping back on and I'm afraid. I haven't totally given up though.

I haven't wanted to post to my journal - always a sure sign that I'm feeling unhappy with my behavior. I can't do that - I'm afraid if I ever stop journalling, I'll also stop trying and I don't want to do that. So here I am, putting my feelings and fears into words. I figure just writing about the problem may help me sort through it.

The solution requires work - meal planning, exercise planning. I'm tired - I just don't want to plan anymore. This is a vicious cycle though - no plan, blow off the goals, feel horrible, gain weight, lose motivation, no plan, etc. I don't want to spiral down and give up - I've still got some fight left in me. So I'm taking it day by day and trying not to put too much pressure on myself.

Those are my totally disorganized thoughts at the moment. Sorry to ramble but that's what I felt I needed to do.

I'm down but not out. I'm not giving up. I WON'T gain all my weight back.

Enough rambling - be back tomorrow.

[DoeWDW]

Well, I'm back for more introspection. Feel free to skip this post.

I've been looking at why I'm feeling unmotivated. It involves lots more than my healthy living goals. I feel like I'm not living up to my potential in every area of my life. This has been an ongoing thing with me and I'm trying to recognize WHY I feel this way.

I've got to break through this in order to truly be happy in life. I'm still working on it. In the meantime, I'm going to try to get some food ready for the week, take some small steps toward my healthy living goals. I can't give up.

The scale was at 134 this morning - thank goodness! Movement in the right direction is heartening. I have all day today with no agenda, no obligations. I can take some small steps in the right direction, while I continue to try to get at the heart of this matter.

I see a small bit of :sunny: .

[septbride2002]

Doe I could have written your post! I just wanted to stop by and give you a :hug:

~Amanda

[R_Judy]

Hiya Doe,
I have just been catching up on your journal. April has been up and down for you. I wish you an up May. (or down on the scale) It is nice to read about old friends. So here is some :sunny: for tanning. Have a great Sunday.

[DoeWDW]

I'm back for more rambling thoughts. :D

I've had a couple therapy sessions with some very dear friends via IM this morning and they have helped me sort through more of my thoughts and feelings.

I have a long list of "shoulds" in my life. I am a wife, mother, dog owner, employee, church member, community member, etc, etc. All these many roles add to my list of "shoulds". Then there are the "shoulds" I put on the list for myself, concerning healthy eating, exercise, water, etc.

I tend to place more importance on the "shoulds" that impact other people - those are the things that must get done. Then, I try to accomplish the "shoulds" for me, like healthy eating and exercise. However, when it's time to be good to myself, I'm exhausted. I take the best care of me that I can considering how tired I am - I grab food that's handy (but usually too carby) and I allow myself the rest I need instead of exercising. The pounds and inches creep on. I feel horrible but also feel powerless to stop the vicious cycle.

I don't know what the answer is - I'm still working on that. But at least I feel like I'm getting closer to the heart of the problem.

Now I'm off to the store for some healthy food to make my week easier. Maybe I'll wear my princess: hat! :p

[lulu201]

Just stopped by to say good night and sweet dreams, WISH-sis.
Sleep well.

:hug: ,
Erin

[lulu201]

Well, I guess if I'm going to say "good night" it's only right that I come over to say "good morning." It's time to wake up and start your day, Doreen!:flower2: :flower2: God's love is new every morning and even though we might not feel new ourselves, it surrounds us and will shelter us through whatever our day may hold. Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers as you begin your Monday.

Lots of love to you, my WISH-sis,
Erin

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I'm just checking in on you. Will you be able to DIS while training the new assistant? Good example and all that. I hope today runs smoothly for you, and the assistant is nice and competent. Here's an :umbrella: for the rain.

Have a good one,
Beth

[septbride2002]

Good Morning princess: Doe! I know that wearing my princess: hat makes me smile like this -->:teeth: So I hope you did wear it to the grocery store and it made the day more enjoyable to you. I love wearing it when I go walking!

I hope you had a great day yesterday and an even better day today! Remember there is nothing wrong with putting yourself first!

~Amanda

[sharoncity]

:hug: for you Doe! Sounds like you've really been struggling with a lot of issues. This WOL is HARD! There is no sugar coating it. It is a struggle and fight all the time. Sometimes we'll win, sometimes we'll lose. But as long as we get back up and fight again, we are doing fine!::yes::
I have found that in my life of shoulds and does, when I plan and prioritize and organize, I do MUCH better. For example, if I get lunches and snacks ready the night before as well as the coffee pot set-up, I do SO much better in the mornings. It takes the same amount of time regardless of when I do it. But by having it done in the evening, my whole morning just goes much smoother. That means I go to work with a much :sunny: demeanor. So my work day gets off to a good start. I get more done, so I go home feeling like I done a good days work. So then I am :sunny: with my family in the evenings. Which then makes it easier to take the time to fix the lunches and snacks the night before again! It is a cycle that works very well for me. Because if I don't get the energy to do those things in the evnings, my day goes MUCH differently. And I admit, I don't always do it in the evnings, but once I start that cycle, it becomes so much easier to stay with it when I see all the benefits. So I guess my message is Plan and Organize. It will make your journey a bit easier, which in turn will make your overall life :sunny: . I know, I know, easier said than done, but worth the effort!
So enough preaching from me! I hope your day is going well and that you did your shopping yesterday so that you have the ingredients available for a stress free week!:smooth:
Have a wonderful Monday Doreen!!
TTFN-
Sharon:sunny:

[CheapMom]

Hey Doreen- I hope your week is off to a good start. I think the time you spent reflecting on everything was time well spent. I hope aren't feeling down today. Congrats on the weight loss!
:D Mary

[DoeWDW]

Not much time for posting today - am getting ready for the new consultant to start tomorrow. He now has a desk to sit at, a PC with all the appropriate software, and accounts on the 2 different computer domains he'll be using. I still have to get all the reference materials together for him - he'll be here at 8 AM tomorrow! :eek:

I've taken my meds & vitamins. I'm finishing my 3rd mug of water & hoping to get a 4th in before I leave. I had a protein bar for breakfast, another for lunch, an apple w/ PB and some trail mix for afternoon snack - still a pretty low-carb day, with no binging! Exercise will be after work - a stroll with Maya the ferocious doxie.

I never made it to the store yesterday but hopefully will get there tonight. DH was working at my parents' house again and came home with a fever of 101, muscle aches, queasy stomach and a killer sinus headache. I went to Wendy's to get him a Frosty - the only thing that sounded good to him - and to the video store to rent him some movies for today (he stayed home from work). He was heading to the doc's today.

I'm feeling a little better - still have lots of questions but that's OK. Thanks for the support and encouragement you all so freely give. :grouphug:

[Strings]

Hi Doreen,

I just wanted to send some :wizard: :wizard: :wizard: for DH. Be sure to tell him that he doesn't need to share. Are you taking Vitamin C? Take care of yourself, and enjoy your walk with Maya:dog:
Beth

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe!

When you do make it to store don't forget your princess: hat so everyone will know who you are!

I just want to say that your posts lately have been so insightful to me. Like you (and I suspect many of us) I wear many hats and tend to put the things that impact other people first. I don't want to disappoint, anger or frustrate other people. Even though most seem to have no problem doing those things to me. :)

What I have been doing the past five months is putting, Lisa's needs first. If it means bringing my own food to a party, I DO IT. If it means getting up extra early in the morning to get my work out in, I DO IT. I make taking care of ME a priority. At first I felt so guilty. I mean the guilt was eating me up. But I realized if I fell out dead from being so fat or stressed out, then where would everyone be that "needed" me so much? They would survive!

I don't know if my wacky rambling is helpful at all but I do think as women many times we tend to put other people's needs ahead of our own. As you reflect on what the answers are to get yourself motivated, remember the Alicia Keys song "Baby you know I'm worth it!" You are so worth the effort to get to your goal weight. We are all right here to help you get there.

P.S. You posted on my journal that you are 40. I'll be 37 in a few weeks so I guess there goes the "motherly" image. From now on I'll just refer to your kind nurturing "sisterly" image. Big big :hug: from me to you!

[lulu201]

:sunny: Morning :hug: and :wizard: for your day, princess: Doe=Doe. :sunny: I hope that you and The Consultant ;) have a good day together--he/she should feel quite welcomed after all you've done to get ready.

:drinking: Here's a toast to a great Tuesday,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Thanks, all, for stopping by. Lisa, your thoughts are good ones. I'll be looking at how I can put ME first. Sharon, I love your idea of getting things ready the night before to ease the morning craziness - I'll be looking at that too.

I only have a moment or two before Ron, the consultant, gets here. I handled food well until I got home last night. Never made it to the store. DH is still home, but on antibiotics now so hopefully he'll be feeling better by this evening.

I did walk the puppy and we saw 2 other dogs on our walk. She is scared of other dogs but she believes the best defense is a good offense - she barks her little head off to let the other dog know that she is ferocious and not to be messed with. :p Unfortunately, this fear is one of the things I'm trying to combat, so now when we see another dog, I'm supposed to take her mind off her fear by running with her past the dog. We did that twice last night and now I know how I'll be getting in shape for the marathon! :p It does help her though. :sunny:

I'm going to have another good day at work! I'll be good with my food, drink my water, take my pills. Tonight I'll do the best I can.

[sharoncity]

:wizard: and :goodvibes for your day today princess: Doe!
I hope everything goes smoothly with the consultant.

Make it a priority to get to the store so that you have food choices that are OP for the rest of you week. :teeth:

Hope you see plenty of :sunny: in your day today!
TTFN-
Sharon

[Strings]

Hello Doreen,

I hope Ron the consultant takes some of the pressure off of you. Today will probably be :crazy: bringing him up to speed, but after that :boat: . Who knows, maybe he is nice and looks like Hugh Jackman to boot.:earseek: Just kidding, but it would be nice.

Enjoy your walk with Maya,
Beth

[septbride2002]

Good Luck princess: Doe! Have a great day and just worry about today!

~Amanda

[CheapMom]

Hey Doe- I hope the consultant turns out to be a God-send for you. It really was a great idea. Yes, Lisa (ZerasPride) really heard what you were saying about giving so much of yourself to others you hardly have any strength, time... left for Doreen. I think that probably resonates with MANY of us here. Many women and mothers have that same trouble. I don't really know what to do about it- in my case- at least while my children are small- I think that is the way it has to be. It is easy to say- put yourself before your work, or nobody's last words were "I should have spent more time at the office" but realistically we all need our jobs. We can't really say, sorry boss, I know I have a deadline but I need a little "me" time. So just manage the best you can and try to be good to yourself.
Life is gonna pull you in all sorts of directions so limber up and try to be flexible.
Have a great Tuesday!- Mary

[DoeWDW]

:grouphug: to all of you! I truly feel blessed to have such wonderful support around me!

The day is going well! Ron is doing a great job and is easy to work with so far. I feel more at ease and am confident that he will be able to handle the tasks that I've assigned to him. Beth, he doesn't look like Hugh Jackman :p but maybe that's a good thing! :crazy:

I had an apple w/ PB, a protein bar & my pills for breakfast and a Subway low-carb wrap for lunch. I've been busy and very productive - am feeling good!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[Auntmeme]

Sounds like a great day! glad to see you are doing well and the consultant seems to be working. Who does he look like???????:wave:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doreen,
Just stopping by to wish you a good night :D !

[lulu201]

:sunny: Can you believe it? It's Wednesday already!! :sunny:
We're almost to our weekend and our WISH walk! :hyper:

I hope you and Ron have a good day together and get a lot accomplished. Do you pretty much have to stand over him and provide info at this point, or can you set him loose to achieve on his own?

:hug: and :sunny: and :flower: for your day, Doreen.

Lots of love,
Erin :flower3:

[DoeWDW]

It's Hump Day - Wednesday!! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Last night I had 2 hot dogs w/ cheese and half a cup of ice cream for dinner. Later I got out the potato chips, ate 4 and decided that I really didn't want or need them. This is a major victory for me - I stopped myself from my pattern of mindless eating! I don't think I'd call the day totally OP but it's the closest I've come in a very long time!

I didn't get to walk the puppy but I did manage a trip to the library and a small trip to the grocery store and picked up DD from dance team rehearsal. Tryouts are tonight and she's nervous. She says they dance "sexy" and she's just not used to dancing like Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera, plus she says she has "nothing to shake"....LOL!! She's built tall & thin while most of the other girls are more curvy. I have mixed feelings about the whole thing but she really wants to try out so I'm supporting her. What fun having a 14 yr old girl! :rolleyes:

Today, I'm back at work. Ron the consultant is doing his own thing for the most part but I'm still fixing issues - file permissions, etc. - for him as they come up. Both projects that I'm on are heating up - it looks like things might get a little crazy for a while. Both projects demand that I do more "thinking, planning, researching" type tasks. I liked the old days when I was a simple computer programmer and it was easy to tell if you were doing a good job or not. Those were the days..... :p

Breakfast was a protein bar and my pills. Lunch will be a burger w/ mayo & mustard. Dinner will be Chicken a la Amanda - YUMMY!! I finally got all the ingredients at the store last night and I'm looking forward to dinner!! ::yes::

Sorry I'm not getting to journals - am just too busy at work and home right now. I'm thinking of all of you though and wishing each and every one of you the best!! :sunny:


EDIT: 2 PM
I'm doing fine today. I had a snack of trail mix, a lunch of my burger and will have an apple w/ PB before I leave work. :sunny:

[Auntmeme]

Looks like a great wednesday - yeah:Pinkbounc Good job putting those chips away:Pinkbounc

A 14 year old daughter who needs to dance sexy, I don't think I could watch. I hope she makes the tryouts :cheer2: :cheer2:

Hope to see you on saturday, where do you park? how long do you think it will take? I have a wedding at night and it will take much time to get ready:crazy:

[LAinSEA]

Doreen: thanks again for your kind word and support in my journal - it has really helped me through the work day.

I was on drill team in high school - we did jazz (quite sexy for the early '80s) and high-kick routines and got best in state. Its the one thing about high school that I wish wouldn't have ended - I'd go back tomorrow if they'd let an old, overweight limit gal with a few grey hairs back on the team. The very best of luck for your daughter. It's things like performing Friday nights that keep you interested in high school and maintaining a good GPA to stay active on the team.

I really hope Ron the consultant helps to share the load you've been carrying. Now, no excuses for not walking and getting a decent meal on your lunch hours.

Yeah for Maya - I'd bark at those strange doggies too!

-Laurie:sunny:

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen. :flower: It sounds like you've got plans for your meals--that's a good thing. Friday's almost here--that's a good thing, too. ::yes::

Take care, WISH-sis,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

MeMe, she doesn't really like all the moves they do, but she wants to be on the team. She's not the athletic type so she isn't involved in sports. This is one activity that has piqued her interest.

Laurie, I'm glad you had such a good experience with drill team! I know marching band and all my other musical pursuits kept me interested in high school!

I checked the weather forecast for Saturday and it looks like there will be light rain in Doylestown. :( I was hoping for good weather for our walk. Now things are up in the air. Maybe the forecast will change?? :confused:

I fell apart with food last night. Tonight's schedule is much calmer so I'm hoping to get that chicken ala Amanda made! ::yes::

Breakfast was a protein bar & my pills. I've been drinking lots of water. Lunch will be another burger, I think. Dinner will be chicken ala Amanda. At least I have good intentions. :p


EDIT: 2:30 PM
I have 2 projects going right now. The consultant is helping greatly with one - he's working out very well and needs very little of my time. The second project is just starting and I'm in charge. I had turned it into a big scary monster but after talking with my boss on the best way to approach things and what tasks are involved, it is seeming much more manageable. I'll still be quite busy but at least I know what the scope of the project is and where to start. This is a huge relief and I feel like a large weight has been lifted from my shoulders. YAY!!

[wilderness01]

Good luck to your daughter on making the team. I was on a dance team and LOVED it! :D

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I'm glad Ron is wirking out. I'm also glad that the new project is now sounding manageable. You certainly don't need MORE stress. My DH feels the same as you. He misses being a "simple "programmer as he puts it. The weekend is almost here. It doesn't matter if it :umbrella: or :sunny: on Saturday. You will all have a great time on Sat.
Enjoy your evening,'
Beth

[DoeWDW]

My evening consisted of a visit to the chiropractor - boy, did that adjustment feel HEAVENLY!! - and making chicken. I made McCormick bag & season chicken breasts in the oven and had yummy chicken ala Amanda for dinner. I also boiled quite a few chicken breasts. Tomorrow I'll shred them - some for chicken tacos, some for my chicken waldorf salad and some for Maya's training (she'll do ANYTHING for boiled chicken! :p ).

I haven't had this much energy during an evening for weeks!! Maybe I'm turning a corner and getting my groove back?? I hope so! The work stress has been getting to me and now I feel like it has lessened to a manageable level. Happy me!! :Pinkbounc

Now I'm off to read a bit before I fall asleep. Tomorrow's Friday!! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:rockband: Everybody sing: Today is Friday! :rockband:

We made it and we're grooving right into Saturday! Hooray!

princess: Doe-Doe, you're feeling good about taking care of yourself--that's what it's all about! ::yes:: Oh, and Maya's feeling good that you're taking care of yourself, too--as long as you pass her some boiled chicken, that is. :p

PMed you right back about the walk--keep me posted.

Erin

[CheapMom]

Doreen- glad to hear you are feeling so energetic. Here is a little:wizard: so that it will last!
Here is hoping we Mid-Atlantic WISH chicks have a beautiful weather weekend!
:sunny:
Mary

[DoeWDW]

YAY FRIDAY!!! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Work is absolutely crazy - a million things to do, fires to fight, insanity reigns! :rolleyes: I am so looking forward to leaving here precisely at 4:10 PM!! If I weren't low-carbing AND meeting some WISHers tomorrow, I'd consider some "margarita therapy" tonight. :p I'll have to settle for a walk with the puppy. It's payday for me so I'm feeling extra good about that too!

DD is on pins & needles about dance team - they won't post the names of who made it until this afternoon.

The walk tomorrow in Doylestown has been moved from 2 PM to 1 PM so we can try to avoid the forecasted late afternoon thunderstorms. I can't wait! Just the thought of the exercise and good company is lifting my spirits!! :sunny: Afterwards, we're headed to Ruby Tuesdays and I can try something from their low-carb menu!

Breakfast was a protein bar, apple w/ PB and my pills. Lunch will probably be another burger - I really like them! Dinner - leftover chicken a la Amanda - tastes yummy and I only have to reheat it! I'm on my 3rd mug of water. I'll be walking the pup for exercise.

I've got to get back to the grind - lots on my "to-do" list today!

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! How do those chicken in a bag w/ seasonings work? I might have to pick some up and try it some time. I'm always looking for ways to make chicken so that it doesn't get boring.

I hope you have a great day today and a really relaxing weekend!

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

Glad to hear you are in the groove again:cool1:

Oh a margarita would be fantastic, you have been reading my mind. I'm going to try to stay home and focus on my plan. Hope to see you tomorrow at starbucks at 1, if it's raining then what? no go?

I hope the dance results are positive

::yes::

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Just checking in on ya. Glad to see you are feeling better. Here's some mroe :wizard: for ya.

[DoeWDW]

Well, I made it through yesterday! It wasn't cheat free but, oh well.

I'm so excited about the WISH Walk in Doylestown today!! There's almost no chance of rain and 60 degree temps are perfect for walking!! There will be 6 WISHers and assorted family members - how fun!! It will be the highlight of my weekend!

Of couse, the travel will make my eating plan more difficult. I'll have breakfast at home. We'll be leaving the house at 9 AM to take care of some errands on the way. We meet everyone at 1 PM for the walk - guess I should eat between 9 AM & 1 PM. :rolleyes: After the walk, we plan to head to Ruby Tuesdays so I'll get a good low-carb dinner before we head home.

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

EDIT: By the way, DD did not make dance team and she's fine with it - her friend didn't make it either so that helped!

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
WISHing you a wonderful walk today, full of friendship, fun, and :sunny: !

I'm sorry that your DD did not make the dance team. I tried out for cheerleading in 7th grade and didn't make it. (My brother gave me chicken pox and I missed all the practices.:mad: ;) ) However, I did tryout again and made it in grades 8-12. :cheer2: So, if she is really interested, maybe she can try out again next year.

Have a great day today!

Tracy:wave2:

[LAinSEA]

Doreen: I'm so sorry your DD didn't make the dance team. (Our drill team was 30 members - and could have been up to 50 - it was hard not to make it.) She has a whole year to take dance classes if she wants to and try again next year. Or maybe she'd rather do cheer instead.

I hope the weather cooperates for you walk. I got mine in this morning before the thundershowers began.

Have a very nice weekend!
Laurie:sunny:

[Strings]

:wave: Doe,

I hope you had a wonderful time with your WISH sisters. The weather sounds perfect. How was dinner, and do you have any good gossip?;)
Sorry to hear that DD didn't make it on the dance team. I am glad she isn't too dissappointed. I am impressed that she tried out.

Have a good evening,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

What a wonderful day!!

I'm tired physically but I am mentally and emotionally happy and refreshed.

I'll write a walk report, complete with pictures, tomorrow. :sunny: Suffice to say, I had a wonderful time walking and talking. I hope everyone else enjoyed themselves as much as I did. We had a great group of 6 WISHers, 1 DH and the most adorable toddler / tour guide.

I actually ate on plan today! I had a protein bar & my pills for breakfast and a Subway low-carb wrap for lunch. After the walk, DH & I along with Erin, her DH and her lovely DD, went to Ruby Tuesdays and I had the low-carb Church Street Chicken, creamy mashed cauliflower & fresh steamed broccoli, along with a slice of their heavenly low-carb cheesecake for dessert. Of course, I DID say that I ATE on plan but I didn't mention that I DRANK on plan. I've had plenty of water all day, but DH & I did share a very yummy margarita at Ruby Tuesdays! :p

Now I'm headed to bed. I think I'll sleep very well! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:flower3: Good morning and Happy Mother's Day to you, Doreen. :flower3: I can't believe we talked yesterday and I never found out what your plans are for today! Whatever you do, I hope you enjoy yourself.

Didn't we have fun yesterday? Thanks for all that you did to organize it and see that it all ran smoothly. It refreshed my spirit, too.

:hug: for you, WISH-sis,
Erin

[vald1977]

:daisy: Happy Mother's day, Doe!

[DoeWDW]

I'm still tired from all of yesterday's fun but it's a good tired! :p

Breakfast was a protein bar & my pills. I've had several mugs of water already.

We're taking dinner & dessert to my brother's house this evening. My mom & dad & grandma will be there. Thank goodness my brother and I have figured out what works for us on these occasions - he cleans up his house and I bring all the food. That way, no one gets stuck with all the work. :p

DS is making the desserts for tonight. He has already baked a cake (from a box mix) and the brownies just came out of the oven. He'll have to frost the cake later.

I have to figure out dinner. I think I'll make lots of low-carb tuna salad and low-carb chicken waldorf salad so I can bring the leftovers home to eat for lunches this week. Then I'll pick up some deli turkey and all the fixin's and some side stuff at the store so everyone can make their own sandwiches / low-carb wraps. Fortunately, my family is just happy to get together - they don't expect a lavish home cooked meal. :p

I've spent the morning looking for the cable to help me upload the pictures from the digital camera. I wanted to post them, along with a walk report. Oh well, it will have to wait. :rolleyes:

[Auntmeme]

Thanks so much Doe for setting up the walk yesterday, it was fabulous:sunny:
Sorry if my stroller held anyone back, hard to get away without my ds. Vary happy to meet you and your dh and all the other wishers. Looking forward to the next one. I see you had a margarita, yummy, I went with a cosmo(hopefully less carbs:D ) And I did have the cake - Oh it was chocolate chip with the most unbelievable buttercream icing:tongue:

Have a wonderful day:wave:

[Strings]

Happy Mother's Day Doreen,

looks like you will be busy today. Sounds like you and your brother have worked out a great compromise. Enjoy the time with your family.

:daisy: :daisy: :daisy:
Beth

[wilderness01]

Happy Mother's Day.

[nancyj_pa]

Doreen,
Thanks so much for organizing the walk. I had so much fun but I was really sore last evening. I had to take two advils and go to bed early! This morning I felt great.

I loved meeting all the WISHers and hope we can get together again soon.

Nancy J

[gadizlover]

Happy Mother's Day, Doreen:daisy:

Haven't been good about checking journal's lately, trying to catch up with everyone.

Sounds like you have some positive things going on, that consultant sounds just great, hope he continues to be a great help. You can almost "hear" the relief in your posts!

The "Wish-er" walk sounded wonderful, I bet you all had a great time, so nice to put faces to the names.

:wizard: to keep your week stress-free and OP.

Have a great week!

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

You sound like you have had alot going on lately! You Wishmeet sounded like lots of fun. I know that meeting others that want to get healthier helps keep you on track. Keep up the good work!

Have a nice day!

Carol

[lulu201]

Good morning, Doreen! Here's some :sunny: and a :hug: for your day. Can you believe it's Monday already???? Where did the weekend go? It was a fun-filled, that's for sure.

DH, DD, and I all had fun at Ruby Tuesdays after the walk. It was great to see you and DH again.

Promise me that today you will do everything you can to treat yourself in a healthy way. We're going to be cheat free together!

Love you, WISH-sis,
Erin

[Strings]

Happy Monday Doreen,

I know you have a ton of things to do at work. I just wanted to pop in and say :wave2: . Here's some :wizard: for your week. Remember you are a princess: in disguise.

:sunny:
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
I hope you have a wonderful week! :sunny:

Take care,
Tracy:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

I spent yesterday doing stuff for my mom & grandma. Today I woke up so exhausted that I could not even keep my eyes open. DS was feeling a bit queasy and that's all the excuse I needed to declare today as my Mother's Day!! I took the day off from work, took DD to school, came home and went back to bed. I just woke up (it's 11 AM!! :eek: :eek: ). I really needed the rest.

Of course you all know me too well! I justified the day off thinking I could accomplish a ton of things - am I predictable or what! :rolleyes: I'm glad I slept until 11 AM - now I can be a bit more realistic about my expectations for the day. :p I'm going to write my to-do list on paper and make sure it's realistic and still leaves some more "rest" time for me - maybe laying out to work on my tan??

Erin, I like the idea of getting back on plan today. I'm embarassed to say that I had leftover cake for breakfast this morning. The evil voice inside my head is trying to talk me into using that as an excuse to be bad the rest of the day, but I know I should fight it. I feel huge, bloated, uncomfortable. I've been way off plan for way too long. I'm scared to step on the scale or take my measurements, but that hasn't been stopping me from over-indulging. :rolleyes: Am I ready to jump back on the bandwagon, truly commit to being healthy and MEAN it??? What's been keeping me from walking the walk?? Maybe I'll think about all this while I'm working on that tan.

I'm off into the day! :sunny:

[wilderness01]

Doreen,

You'll get back OP when you are ready. I know you said you feel huge, but how huge can you be at 122? Am I reading your weights wrong? Is that your goal? Still your starting weight doesn't seem that bad either. Be kind to yourself and you will be back on track before you know it. :D

[lulu201]

Confucious says: "Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall." I can live with that, can you? We're going to get up and try our best today, Doreen--just try our best. You'll be in my prayers as you go forward into today, trying to treat yourself in a healthy way. Is there a lot of work waiting on your desk? If there is, just take it baby step by baby step.

Don't forget to drink your water and take your meds.

Hugs for my WISH-sis,
Erin

[CheapMom]

Hey Doreen-
I hope you a great Psuedo Mother's Day yesterday. Sleeping till 11:00am (or 10:00 or 9:00)- is a fantasy of mine I am glad one of us got to do it!
I know what it is like to feel huge and bloated but realize that it is more of an internal feeling than reality. We should all do affirmations- like Stuart Smalley on Saturday Night Live- where you look in the mirror and say I am a beautiful, valuable person. (Touchy, feely crap- I know) But I think it is true that if we look in the mirror and our inner voice says- "ugh, fat" then we really start to think that way about ourselves. It doesn't do any good at all. It really isn't motivating or productive to look in the mirror and say- "I'm Fat". I think it is more of a motivation to say, "I am worth all this hard work- I deserve to be healthy and to feel beautiful."

Doe- as Stuart Smalley would say- You are good, enough, smart enough, and doggonit- people like you!
(If you don't get that reference it is from an SNL skit where Al Franken plays a disfunctional touchy feely guy who is addicted to 12 step programs and self help books- it's pretty funny)

[septbride2002]

Hiya Doe! I hope you had a great Mother's Day on Monday! That is the Mother Day for Mexico - so Hola! LOL! Like I told Erin I've been thinking about you a whole lot lately! You are such a great friend and I am so happy you are in my life! I can't wait to see you again in January at the marathon! I've been scrapping pictures from our trip in February and I'm working on the page from our night in front of Casey's - makes me feel like I'm right there!

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

hI dOE-dOE:sunny:

I love Erin's quote and have faith that you'll be right back on plan when you are ready. I hate when those negative feelings creep into my brain. You are great and look fabulous. Put on that princess hat and do a strut in front of the mirrorprincess: See how lovely you are:D

Hugs to you :hug:

[DoeWDW]

I'm home again today. I've been tired and had an acidic tummy both days. Yesterday, DS stayed home - he too was fatigued and had an acidic tummy. Today he went back to school but DD is home with back muscles that are very tight and causing her pain. Our chiropractor has adjusted me, DH and DS monthly for years but DD would never let him touch her - it's become a bit of a running joke. Well, today she asked to see him - she must really be hurting. We leave for his office in a few moments.

Now, why did I stay home 2 days in a row? Neither child was so sick that they needed me. I've been doing lots of soul searching. This may sound crazy but I believe I'm making myself sick over the stress at work. On Saturday, it was so easy to stay on plan (well, except for the margarita ;) ). I enjoy my low-carb food. It seems like I start to eat badly on Sunday, in response to the fact that Monday means work again. On Monday morning I feel tired & sick from the carbs and from the thought of work. Yesterday, since I was home with DS, I pretty much grazed through the kitchen all day, making myself feel physically even worse. :rolleyes: So of course I don't feel like going to work today when I feel so terrible.

I have spent lots of time napping and catching up on rest. At least I'm not as tired, but the depression is focused on work and my responsibilities there. I know I must face this. I must go back tomorrow and dig in. There are lots of complicated reasons why I'm causing myself to feel bad....but need to detail them here. The fact remains that I must gather my strength and go forward with work, at least for the next 7 years and 8 months. I must find a constructive way to deal with these feelings without hurting myself, using junk food and non-exercise as weapons or as comfort.

I'm not giving up - do I ever? I'm the eternal optimist and I will continue to look for things that will help me through. ::yes::

OK, I've rambled enough. I've been so self-involved that I haven't gotten to anyone else's journal. I'm sending a :grouphug: to all.

Now it's off to the chiropractor w/ DD and then she goes to dance & baton lessons. With the recital only 2 weeks away, she can at least sit and watch so she doesn't forget the routines.

[deelam]

Hi Doe,

I'm fairly new to this, but I read a bit of your journel today. It's so big, so forgive me on coming in the middle without knowing the whole story, but I went to your last post and felt that I just have to comment.
I have a dear friend who suffers from bouts of depression, and your posting reminds me of her.
Please don't take outside stresses, like work, to heart. You have to be strong, and I don't mean about weight loss. You have to be strong about everything. Remember You are very important and needed by the people around you.
Think, is it your depression that is altering your feelings about work, or is work making you depressed? Whatever the reason, you must overcome and defeat the feelings. And if work is truly the problem, think constructively, what can you do to make it better. You have to be possitive, force yourself to look at the bright side.

Good luck,
Dee

[wilderness01]

:hug: Here's hoping that you feel better about everything soon. Hang in there.:D

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

Sometimes life gets us down! Just hold that chin up and keep going, taking one day at a time.:sunny: Your career is a big part of your life and you really need to be happy! maybe there is a way to look at your work in a different, more positive way. I know this is easier said than done! Just be strong! You can do it!

Carol:wave2:

[lulu201]

:D Well, what can I say except : It's Hump Day! :Pinkbounc If you're going back to work today, promise me that you'll take it all in slowly and you'll look at your tasks one by one--you have what it takes to do your job and do it well, Doreen. You know this! Baby steps will get the job done.

Today we're going to treat ourselves right, but we're just going to manage it all bit by bit--those baby steps again. One day, one meal, one minute at a time.

You're in my thoughts and prayers--as always.:flower3:

Erin

[Strings]

Hello Doe,

I know that you are headed back to work today, so I'm sending you some:wizard: .Know that we are all sending you :sunny: and :goodvibes . You can get through today, step by step.

How is your stomach feeling today? How is DD's back?

I hope today is a good one,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

I am sitting at my desk at work with tears of gratitude in my eyes. I feel you all around me and I can't tell you - each one of you - how much your words, your thoughts, your feelings have surrounded me with light and love this morning. Thank you for making a difficult day brighter and better. :grouphug:

I am back. Erin, your words of wisdom are right on the money. I am ignoring the list of new emails for now and am taking the first half hour to breathe deeply and affirm that I can handle all that comes my way if I take it in little bits. I'm spending time in prayer, asking for God's help and strength and guidance, and thanking Him for all my WISH friends (both the posters AND the lurkers).

My anxiety symptoms are here. I took an acid reducer for my tummy this morning and it's helping. I had the chiropractor adjust me last night. I'm doing my best to recognize when my breathing becomes shallow and my heart starts to race and my brain refuses to focus - these all indicate that I'm over my threshold and need to take a moment to get centered and focused on one small task again. Baby steps will get me there or at least further than allowing myself to shut down completely. I'm learning how to face these symptoms, acknowledge them for what they are, center myself on one manageable task, and then slowly move forward again. I can do this, but I need to focus more on me and helping myself to stay within my comfort level. I have to learn to put my feelings first and forget about what others are feeling about my work for now. If my work is good enough for me, then it will surpass everyone else's expectations so I don't really need to worry about them.

DD had a full workup at the chiropractor yesterday afternoon including x-rays. They were nice enough to develop the films right away and had her back in last evening for her first adjustment. No wonder her back hurt - those x-rays showed quite a stressed and curvy spine!! She's back at school today and goes for another adjustment this evening.

I'm off to get some work done in small bites. I think it will turn out to be a good day if I can monitor how I'm feeling and keep myself below my anxiety threshold.

:hug: and :sunny: to all my WISH family,

EDIT: 8:45 AM
Breakfast - am working on a protein bar, took pills, am working on 3rd mug of water.

[lulu201]

:wave2: Just wanted to say: :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes :goodvibes.

Keep on keeping on, princess: Doe-Doe.

[CheapMom]

Doreen-
Do something nice for yourself today. I know the pressures and obligations of work and family tend to dominate your schedule but try to carve out a little time for yourself in there somewhere.
If work is piled up on your desk from your days off try not to stress out too much while playing catch-up. You are human and can only do so much.
Good luck, today! -Mary
PS- I hope DDs back is feeling better soon.:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Thanks, Mary! Actually, I'm allowing myself little bits of "me" time in between my work tasks. If I concentrate on a task and accomplish it, then I allow myself some time to catch up on WISH journals or take a 10 minute walk outside.

I have to walk to the credit union to make a deposit over lunch hour and I'm going to treat myself to a Subway wrap - YUM!

[septbride2002]

Hi Doe! It is amazing what we can accomplish when we focus on one task instead of on every task. Just remember that it will all get done in due time. Your lunch sounds fabulous - enjoy your walk and your wrap! I'm going to be home today so if you need me just PM me!

~Amanda

[sharoncity]

Doe - :hug: , :goodvibes , :earboy2: are all sent your way. When things get too overwhelming, allow yourself a moment to daydream about your upcoming trip! That would certainly help put me in a brighter mood!
I hope your day goes well and you get much accomplished. Here is some extra :sunny: to help you through!!
TTFN-
Sharon

PS I hope DDs back is feeling better soon!

[Auntmeme]

Quick hug to say i'm thinking of you and sending good vibes:goodvibes

[tlgoblue]

Hi Doe!

It's been a while, and I was just kind of glossing over your journal and wanted to say HI! You are such an inspiration to me, and I thank you for your encouragement and strength to continue through thick and thin. Hope your week has improved, and will continue to do so!

Keep the Faith!
Tracy

[DoeWDW]

It's quitting time and I had a pretty good day! I didn't get as much done as I would have liked but it was enough. Besides, I have to leave SOME stuff for tomorrow! :teeth:

I've eaten on plan, drank at least 5 mugs of water, took my meds & vitamins and walked at least 30 minutes total outside during the day. Hopefully I can keep it together this evening at home! ::yes::

[LAinSEA]

Doreen: It sounded like you needed a couple of slow days to re-energize. Don't apologize, ever, for needing to re-charge.

Stress is a killer - and I don't think that we've been taught enough coping skills to deal with the mounting stress in our lives. Our lifestyles have become push, push, push - do more, do more, do more.

Maybe we should take work - life - in smaller bites. Easier to chew and digest. Much like staying on plan with our eating and excercise - maybe that to do list we make each day should be divided by 3 (the "must do" today, the "would be nice" if competed today, and the "sometime this week") and only bite off the "must do's" and 1/3 of the "would be nice's" and make progress on just one of the "this week's" on a daily basis. I'll give it a try and see if it works.

Thank you so much for your kind words and advice in my journal - giving me permission to grieve and take the time to deal with my feelings - a big heartfelt :hug: to you.

-Laurie:sunny:

[wilderness01]

You sound like you are doing great today. Good for you.:D

[nancyj_pa]

Hi Doreen,
The "lurker" says hello and hopes you have a great evening. I was just thinking about our walk last Sunday, and what an organized, cheerful, and thoughtful person you are. I told DH he has to walk with us the next time so your DH isn't the only male! He loves to walk anyway as long as he isn't golfing.

I've been riding my bike (and passing MeMe's house now that I know where it is). Here's a big smily face for you. :) I'm not creative enough to figure out the other cute attachments.

Nancy J

[DoeWDW]

Laurie, you are so right about stress being so hard on our bodies and minds! When you told me not to apologize for needing time to recharge, I realized that I was feeling guilty about it, like somehow I needed to justify that time and to apologize to those around me for needing to take a break before I collapsed. It sounds silly when I write it now. Thank you for giving me the affirmation that I needed that time and I should not feel guilty about it.

Laurie, you're also right about learning to take life in smaller bites. My other problem is that I make myself "responsible" for so much. My son is going on a 3 week trip this summer - no one else seems to be worried about what he'll pack, if his luggage will be over the weight limit, etc. I think if I weren't there, he and DH would be doing everything at the last minute. I'm also getting ready for our 2 week trip to Disney - no one else is getting ready yet, making packing lists, making a reservation at the kennel for our dog, etc. DH & DD & DD's friend get to just "show up" but I do all the work ahead of time. Then there's the usual stuff - cooking, cleaning, buying groceries, the errands, walking the dog, etc. etc. Even if I delegate these chores, I am ultimately responsible for them and have to check to see if they got done. This is definitely an area I need to work on!

Nancy, you are such a sweetie!! Thank you for your kind words! DH would love to have another guy around for the walks, although he had a good time on Saturday - he can chat with just about anyone. He's a wonderful guy and I'm very lucky to be married to him.

Thanks to everyone else who stopped by! You all help me keep going!! :grouphug:

Last evening DH & I walked the puppy for 45 minutes!! The weather was so beautiful and we both enjoyed our walk & chat. I'm not sure Maya enjoyed it as much, since she's such a scaredy-pup - we'll know when I try to put the collar and leash on her tonight. :D Dinner - we all just fended for ourselves. I didn't have any healthy food around so I did the best I could.

Today, I'm back at work - taking things slow and trying to avoid my anxiety symptoms. Breakfast was a protein bar & my pills. I've had 2 mugs of water so far. I hope to walk later for exercise. I'll do the best I can today.

[lulu201]

:wave: Good morning, WISH-sis, how are you today?:wave: It sounds as if you're moving forward with baby steps--that's all we can do, sweetie.

I think that we often forget that as women who are working full-time outside of the home that we're really do TWO full-time jobs. The fatigue and exhaustion is so understandable, but we don't often want to accept that we have limits!::yes::

:hug: for your day, Doreen.
With lots and lots of love,
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Doe!
:hug: for you this morning. It sounds like you are very, very busy. I hope that you are able to find some time for yourself with all that is going on. ::yes:: Just think... pretty soon you'll be relaxing and having a great time with ::MickeyMo!

Don't you just love a relaxing walk with your spouse? My DH and I have had some wonderful, heartfelt conversations when we walk. Of course our conversations are now interrupted by two adorable, little munchkins, but I wouldn't have it any other way.:teeth:

Doe, I hope that you have a wonderful, blessed day today. Take good care of you!

Tracy
:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

I was at the edge of the abyss, and I stepped back!! The translation: I was craving Peanut M&Ms, I went to the EVM, I KICKED the EVM (lightly), I went back to my desk and dug out my last piece of Trident gum. I'm pretty proud of myself for this one - it was hard to not give in. I kept thinking about the scale (the number is NOT pretty - my signature is not accurate) and about the way my clothes are fitting (like they did when I started last August!) and I stopped.

So far today, I'm on plan. I'd like to stay that way. I've just gotta stay strong through 7 more hours, right? It doesn't sound so hard when I think of it that way.

[tlgoblue]

:cool1: :jumping1: :cool1:

You Go Doe! I'm so proud of you! Baby steps sweetie. That's how we all get there! A win is a win! I'm taking your story with me through my day and may even pin it to my shirt come about 6:30 when the wine starts calling me! :teeth:

Keep the Faith!
Tracy

[Strings]

:cheer2: WTG Doreen:cheer2:

You did a great thing resisting temptation. Did you also stick out your tongue? I bet it felt great. Make sure to bring more trident tomorrow. Keep up the great work!

:goodvibes
Beth

[LAinSEA]

GIVE THAT EVS A GREAT BIG KICK FOR ME TOO!

I'm so proud of you for taking care of you and not letting the munchie monster win.

My hero!

-Laurie

:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

:rockband: "I don't want to work...I just want to bang on the drum all day" :rockband:

:flower1: :flower1:IT'S FRIDAY!!! :flower1: :flower1:

I'm throwing a Friday party!! YAY!!! :jumping3: :jumping3: :jumping3:

Last night involved way too many errands and no time for me to eat healthy. I was thinking about it this morning and realized I'm practically following the Carb Addicts' eating plan. You eat 2 low carb meals (no snacks) and then during your reward meal you can eat pretty much anything you want for 1 hour. It's a little more complicated and stresses balanced meals but that's it in a nutshell. Maybe I'll just do that and stop worrying about the evenings so much. I'll just confine my indiscretions to that one hour period. That's my plan for today.

Breakfast is my protein bar, an apple w/ PB and my pills. Lunch will be a burger. It doesn't really matter what dinner will be! :p I'll make it low-carb if I can, but if I can't I'll do my best, and that's good enough. ::yes::

I am happy to report that my 5 pound clippie doesn't have to be returned. :sunny: For the better part of this week I've been at 138 but my extra walking and eating right during the day have brought me back to 137. I'm at Day 28 of my cycle so I'm deep in the D-Zone and retaining water. I'm hoping I'll get back down to 135 very soon. For Day 28, I'm feeling pretty good!

I brought some music CDs with me to work so I can put on my headphones and tune out the rest of the office. I've got 2 Diamond Rio CDs if I want that sweet harmony (and Marty Roe's wonderful voice!), a Celine Dion hits CD, and Mendelssohn & Mozart if I'm feeling classical. :p I'm going to make it a happy and productive day! ::yes::

Signing off for now,
princess: Doe-Doe :sunny:

[lulu201]

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: You are so sunny, you're blinding me, girl! :cool: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: You're going to scare the Munchie Monster and the EVM power out of the state with your light this morning!

I could sense your relief in your post about tonight's dinner plans:
"It really doesn't really matter what dinner will be! :p " It must be great to cross that worry off your list of things to think about!
I also LOVE the idea of the headphones and music--what a great way to honor YOU in the midst of today's work.

Yes, Friday is here. I'm :Pinkbounc at the Friday Party! We're celebrating Friday the 14th AND princess: Doe-Doe's 5 lb. clippie!

Oh, can I sing "We Are Family" now? :rockband: "We are family. I got all my sisters with me. . . Have faith in you and the things you do, you won't go wrong--this is our family jewel."

You're going to :boat: through the day AND the DZone, your Royal Highness. Enjoy this day!

:hug: ,
Erin

[Strings]

:cheer2: WTG DOE!:cheer2:

You definately have the right attitude to get through the day AND DZone. The music sounds like a great idea. If you feel your energy or sirits dragging put on something upbeat. That should help get you through the last workday of the week. Wit hDzone, remember to:drinking: :drinking: :drinking:
Happy Friday Doreen,
Beth
:daisy: :flower1: :daisy: :flower1:

[Auntmeme]

I love that song, haven't heard it in a long time but so motivating for a friday - you go girl :rockband: I'm right there with you!

[septbride2002]

I miss being able to listen to music at work. Our computers use to have speakers on them and we could play CD's but now we have flat screens with no speakers. Some people bought some and hooked them up but I'm not interested in doing that. And unfortunantly we are unable to pick up any radio stations in the building. Might explain why I'm a bit crabbier in this building.....I'll have to think about that a bit.

I like you plan for today! I have a friend following the Carbohydrate Addict plan and she really likes it. She feels a lot less pressure due to that one hour of not having to worry about what she eats.

I'm so proud of you for your walking and for keeping your 5 lbs clippie!

~Amanda:hug:

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: :sunny: I'm having a sunny day!! :sunny: :sunny:

It could be the release of not worrying about dinner tonight or that I'm very focused and getting lots done at work today. Maybe it's listening to good music while I work. It probably has a lot to do with the WISH Princesses trip to the tropical island in Erin's journal. :p

Whatever it is, I'm enjoying it! I feel thinner, lighter, happier. I feel very positive and uplifted.

In the words of Celine Dion, I dedicate this song to all my WISH buddies who have stuck with me through the dark times in the past and who will continue to walk with me on this journey:

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


:grouphug:

[LAinSEA]

What a great idea, Doe - bringing in some really great music to get you through to the weekend!

I'm getting through by watching "Low-carb and Lovin' It" on FoodTV...part of the perks of working at a TV station is you can watch TV all shift and not be in any trouble. The low-carb pizza looks great - recipes on foodtv.com too.

Keep the D-Monster on that short leash and stay sunny for a great weekend!

-Laurie:sunny:

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Thank You for stopping by my journal. :sunny: Some sunshine for you hope you have a GREAT weekend. ::yes::

[septbride2002]

Amanda, I loved both the Hobbit (and the Lord of the Rings trilogy) and all the Harry Potter books! Lately, I've just finished How Stella Got Her Groove Back and The Deep End of the Ocean and I've started The Pilot's Wife. Angels & Demons is definitely on my list to read - hope you like it!

I've read the Pilot's wife and it is a sad story - but also very good.

The Hobbit is good - very visual but I don't see it as being a book I'll want to reread and reread again and again. Meanwhile the Harry Potter books I tend reread often.

~Amanda

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Doreen! I'm stopping by everyone's journals tonight to let you know that I'm still here and still having in there. I've been here in spirit, just on the other boards trying to get this trip together. I hear what you're saying about having all of the responsibility of planning and making sure things go as they should. Our work is never done! Try to take it easy and take things a little at a time. Take care!:D

[Mom of Sleepy, Bashful and BabyDoc]

Have a great weekend, Doe. Thanks for stopping by my journal and giving me some encouraging words. You're a sweetie, there's no doubt about that. :hug:

[DoeWDW]

I stuck to my Carb Addicts plan yesterday and felt much more relaxed!

I'm going to do it again today. I'm also going to drag out the book and skim through it for a refresher.

Lots to do but there will be time for fun and relaxation too. It's all good!! :sunny:

[lulu201]

29 days, Doreen--just 29 days and you're going to be relaxing for TWO WEEKS in WDW. Ahhhh, I'm ALMOST willing to give up my cabana boy to live in the fantasy of your trip for a minute. . . .

Sounds like you have a nicely balanced plan for today.::yes:: Please be good to yourself as far as family activities, cleaning, etc. go; YOU have to take care of YOU, especially in the D-Zone.

Too bad we're not neighbors, we could've had a nice morning walk today. Will you and Maya go out?

:hug: to you and yours,
Erin

[Auntmeme]

Good am Doreen:sunny: Sunshine today let's be sure to enjoy it. Glad you're feeling good, keep it up. Less than 30 days till paradise ya-hoo:flower1: I hope you two are sharing the cabana boy:p

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

I just wanted to stop by and wish you a wonderful day! Keep planning ahead and your success will continue! I really appreciate you stopping by my journal.

Carol:wave2:

[sharoncity]

Hi Doe! Just popping in to WISH you a happy Monday!!:teeth: The :sunny: is out full force here - how about you?
I hope you had a nice weekend and your batteries are recharged and you are ready to face a new week! Just think, it will bring you 1 week closer to that 2 WEEKS of vacation with the mouse! ::MickeyMo I am SOOOO jealous!
I'm sending you :wizard: and :goodvibes that you stay OP today and meet all your goals. ::yes::
TTFN-
Sharon:sunny:

[DoeWDW]

:wave2: Hi all and Happy Monday!!

I had some of my anxiety symptoms last night and into this morning but not nearly as bad as last week. I'm at work and have been productive this morning. I'm working on a 15 minute presentation that I have to give on Wednesday afternoon. My consultant, Ron, won't be in until tomorrow so I only have to work on one project today - always easier than juggling two projects at a time.

The scale is back to 136 and my rings are getting loose again - a good feeling! I successfully stayed on Carb Addicts this weekend with not much trouble. I do get hungry on this plan but nothing unbearable so far. I'm going to continue with it for at least this week. It takes all the pressure off for dinner - such a relief! You'd think that the freedom to eat ANYTHING would make me want to binge but I find I eat less because I know I can always have the forbidden food tomorrow night - I eat until I'm comfortably full and then I really don't want any more. Last night's dinner was a PBJ sandwich on whole wheat and a half cup of ice cream. Doesn't sound like much food but I was full.

Off I go into the week. It will be a busy one, with work and lots of stuff to do at home but I'm trying to stay calm and keep my anxiety levels from getting out of hand. I brought my breakfast and lunch stuff so I'll be on plan. Dinner will take care of itself. I'll stroll with the puppy for exercise. I'll take a deep breath and I'll pray if I start to feel overwhelmed. I can do this! ::yes::

[septbride2002]

I must admitt you sound MUCH better on this plan then you did on the previous one. I can tell that the pressure is off you and you are making better decisions - and that is all that counts my friend!

I'm sending you lots of :sunny: and :goodvibes for the day!

~Amanda

[ZerasPride]

Hi Doe,

You sound so much happier your posts. This new plan obviously is working well for you!

I know you'll have a wonderful trip at the Beach Club Villas. Are you DVC? I just love my Disney timeshare and can't wait to stay at BCV someday but right now Hilton Head and Old Key West have my heart.

Anyway, you are doing well and always bring sunshine to my day when you post on my journal so I just had to see how you are doing. Take care sweetie!!!

[lulu201]

How did yesterday go, Doreen? You sounded under pressure, but like you were floating on top of things. Do you know what I mean?

How did your CA plan hold up last night? It sounds like where you need to be right now.

I'm off to get DD ready for school. :hug: and :goodvibes for your day,

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Erin, you're right - I'm under pressure but floating on top of it and keeping things light. I'm doing my very best to take good care of me, have reasonable expectations and do the best I can with everything around me. I'm trying to :boat: through the pressures and the busyness and the "shoulds".

I did fine last night - had a reasonable dinner and didn't eat outside the one hour time limit. I also took the puppy for a short walk. I spent time pampering myself. I also have started spending 15 minutes each night with each kid focused on their room, their laundry, their homework, trip planning, etc. trying to help them plan their days and tasks and help them take more responsibility for their own stuff.

I'm feeling like there's lots to do but I'm not feeling frantic about it.

I've got a meeting in half an hour so I'll be back later - gotta run! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Congrats Doe on having a successful evening! And for taking 15 minutes for yourself - that is so important!

I know you are going tohave another great and fabulous day today! I'm sending lots of :sunny: your way.

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

Hi Doe, sounds like you are doing great, so glad to hear! Keep your focus and

HAVE A GREAT TUESDAY!:sunny:

[lulu201]

Just stopping by with some :sunny: and some :hug: . You know that I'm thinking of you with lots of love on this happy hump day
Wednesday. Keep on :boat: --the other side of the DZone is right around the next bend in the river.

:wave2: Erin

[Carol36]

Hey Doreen!

I am glad that you are happy with your new plan! That makes all the difference!

Children keep you busy, don't they? I have four and stay busy. Those days when we can just stay at home, without having to pick-up or take one of them somewhere, are great!

You are doing great! Know that you can reach your goal!:sunny: Have a great week!

I will not post anymore until I return from my trip. Keep up the good work and I will be back in a couple of weeks!

Carol:wave:

[Strings]

Hi Doe,

I am just paying a flying visit. It sounds like you have found the plan for you. You sound much less anxious and under less pressure. Keep up the great work.. Dzone is almost doen. Have a great Wednesday.
Beth

[Auntmeme]

Happy Wednesday Doreen:sunny: Be sure to enjoy this sun before the clouds hit us again. Hope all is going well:wave2:

[vald1977]

:wave2: Hi Doe,
Stopping by to wish you a great day :sunny: !

[DoeWDW]

WARNING: WHINING AHEAD! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

I'm at Day 5 of my cycle - supposed to be feeling pretty good again, right? WRONG! I felt the beginnings of a cold yesterday and BAM! it hit me last night! :mad: I went to bed early, doped up on cold meds. Woke up at 3 AM and took more. Woke up at 6 for work and got here in a fog. I have this major presentation this afternoon, it isn't finished, my consultant needs more direction from me, I feel like crap, the office is freezing, I'm eating whatever will get me through. The good news is that I'm drinking tons of water and hot tea and popping lots of menthol cough drops with extra vitamin C. Oh, I know I'll get through it but at the moment LIFE SUCKS! Bet you all never thought you'd find THAT in my journal!!

All right, time to wrap up the pity party and get back to work. :rolleyes:

:rolleyes1 :rolleyes1 "The sun'll come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be sun." :rolleyes1 :rolleyes1
(It's good that Andrea McArdle, the original Annie on Broadway, isn't here singing - I might slap her in the mood I'm in!)

[CheapMom]

Hey Doe-
Mama said there'd be days like these!
Good luck pushing through this day. Hope you are feeling better soon.
Mary:D

[2bemarried]

:hug: whine away girlfriend...I had mine last week and did the same thing. p.s. the sun will come out tomorrow :duck: :p

[septbride2002]

As you once said to me - you know I'm laughing with you and not at you right? Oh my God! I could totally picture you slapping Annie around. HEHEHEHE! Thanks for the image! Take care of yourself, do one thing at a time, and get lots of rest tonight when you get home!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Thank you, ladies. :p As miserable as I am, you all managed to make me smile, and I truly appreciate it. ::yes::

The presentation is in 20 minutes. It's finished but it isn't my best work - and I don't care. :p I'm going to get through it and then go home! I'm doing NOTHING tonight! I'm going to take more meds and fall asleep with my puppy snuggled up beside me. :faint: The family can find their own dinner. ::yes::


EDIT: 6:30 PM
The presentation went well. I'm home and in some comfy sweats. I'm going to take some put-me-to-sleep meds.

Good night. :wave2:

[LAinSEA]

Doreen: I'm so glad you survived your presentation - Good Job!

Get some much needed rest! and that is an order!

:hug:

-Laurie

[lulu201]

Hi, princess: Doe-Doe. I'm glad the presentation went well; hope you got some good rest. You know I'm thinking about you--

:hug: ,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

I'm back at work. I got lots of rest last night. I'm not feeling great but I'm better than yesterday! ::yes:: I don't feel the need to whine or to slap Andrea McArdle anymore :p , so that's an improvement! :teeth:

I'm going to take it easy today - drink lots of water and hot tea. I'll work on getting better. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Yesterday, my personal forecast was gloomy, today it looks more like mostly cloudy with short periods of sunshine and I'm betting that tomorrow will be mostly sunny again! :sunny: