Lulu201's Healthy Living Log (comments welcome!)

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning to you, good morning dear princess: , good morning to you! :sunny:

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

:wizard: :wizard: :wizard: :wizard: :wizard:

I'm sending extra sun, lots of hugs and some d-zone-fighting pixie dust!

Hope you are feeling better soon! It's Friday - you're almost into the weekend! I also happen to know that you have big PLANS this weekend for some serious walk & chat with a friend! :D

Hang in there for one more day, Erin! You're bound to turn the corner on this d-zone any minute now!

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning! It's Friday!:p :sunny:

Well, today was weigh-in, and I stayed the same! :Pinkbounc Now, I honestly have mixed feelings about this--it IS the second week that I've weighed in at 162, but if I look at the cup as half full, I can see that this is the first time that I can remember that I didn't gain during the D-Zone. Seriously. I ALWAYS gain. . .that is, except this time. :p I'm choosing to be grateful and happy and to stay committed to my healthy living program.

Thank you Doreen, Beth, and Marcia, for all your support yesterday. I felt surrounded by your TLC and that made quite a difference. I think that I've passed through the worst of the D-zone now; I'll have the weekend to catch up on some things--like sleep!:o --so I should be OK.

Today's agenda:

1. Vitamins--done. :D
2. Water--first glass done. :D
3. Exercise--the goal is to walk through my old WW walking cassette, approx. 55 min. It's not too strenuous; I'm hoping to get in about 3 miles.
4. Food--b was oatmeal/coffee at 4 today, L will be a salad of some sort, how big and filling it is will depend on what DH wants to do for dinner tonight. (I know you're all thinking "Chinese Buffet," but I'm hoping to steer him elsewhere for a change of pace!)

I'm going to catch up on a few things at home this morning before I head on into work. DD has a sleepover tonight; DH and I are looking forward to some healing quiet time--it's been quite a week.:p Tomorrow I'm doing some Jock Athlete Princess Walking princess: princess: and housework. It should be a pretty relaxed pace this weekend.

I'm going to pop around at journals on and off throughout the morning. . .

E.

[septbride2002]

I haven't been to a Chinese Buffett in forever but I know what you mean about trying to change from going to the same place all the time. DH always wants pizza. A low carbers nightmare!

Good luck on yoiur walk today! Your Jock Athlete Princess Walking princess: princess: sounds like fun!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

It is wonderful that you haven't gained during Dzone. That is a major accomplishment. I'd bet money that you'll see a major Whoosh next week. Sounds like you have your usual busy Friday/weekend. You did say that you were looking forward to quiet time with DH. It is safe to assume that the sleepover is not at your house then. Try to pamper yourself today.
:hug: and :sunny:
Beth

[Desiree]

Hi Lulu!

Sounds like you are doing wonderfully! Keep up the good work and be sure to enjoy that quiet time with your DH!

Desireé

[lulu201]

:wave: Hi, Desiree! Thanks for stopping by! You're right, Beth, the sleepover isn't at our house! That's what makes it such a good idea for DD! Amanda, I only did 2 miles, but that's enough for today. I have other things to do--like make lunch!:p

I'm doing OK so far today, but I'm way behind with getting stuff done. I've had some more water, accomplished the exercise, and am having a big yummy salad with chicken, eggs, blue cheese dressing (:eek: ) for lunch. I'm going to try to eat a lot of filling stuff during the day so I don't have Friday Fall-Apart (make it through the week, get weighed in, then eat everything in sight on the weekend!). I have to be good; I have to give Doreen a food report! :p

All right, back to work, more later. . .

[DoeWDW]

Yep, I'll be checking up on you!

Extra laps if you're naughty!! :p ;)

[lulu201]

Here are the stats from yesterday:

1. Vitamins--12/31
2. Water--12/31
3. Exercise--8/31
4. Food--10/31

Well, DD is away at a sleepover, DH and I can go anywhere we'd like for dinner and you know what I choose? BURGER KING! YUK!
But, yeah, I chose it. It was after 7 p.m., I didn't want to wait at some fancier place because I knew my control would be low, and I wanted a burger, so we ended up at B.K. on our date night!
I had what I wanted, though--a burger and onion rings. After dinner DH and I went to Blockbuster and picked up "Seabiscuit," which I fell asleep in (yep, a romantic night at home:p) and then I had him take me to Dippy Lou's, an ice cream place right next to the movie store. I had a small serving of praline pecan ice cream w/peanut butter syrup (I know, but I gave up chocolate for Lent!).
I came home, and . . . .that was it. No further Fri. night bingeing--nothing.

So, the way I look at Friday is this: I worked hard on my plan through the Dzone all week. I chose a "reward meal" for myself with foods I don't usually eat, but I didn't binge afterwards--I "blocked it in" (a phrase from my "Thin Tastes Better" book). While I don't know what the points are (Doreen almost dared me to figure them out!:p ), it satisfied my desire for red meat and fat!
I know, I'll consider it carb loading for my Jock Athlete Princess Walk! Anyway, I'm back to healthy eating today, and I feel good about last night (except for the part where I fell asleep on poor DH).

So, I'm off and walking today. Doreen and I hope to get in a couple of hours of solid walking before we hit the stores. . .wish us luck!

The plan:

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise and lots of it!
4. Food--22 target plus a number of AP; I'll have to figure this out.

More later. . .

Erin

[septbride2002]

That ice cream sounds delish Erin! You and I both had nights out it seems and neither one of us made the best choices - but ya know what today is a new day! And I know you are going to be racking up some miles with Doe today so you will work off those extra points. :) I'll be thinking of you guys while I do my Firm Tape!

~Amanda

[honeymo78]

Erin have a great time this morning walking and shopping. I can't wait for warmer weather so I can you sometime. Your "date" night sounded great. It's definitely better to let yourself eat those cravings foods in sensible amounts rather than deprive yourself and end up binging.

[lulu201]

Hi, Amanda! Hi, Steph! Thanks for stopping by! Yep, we'll be doing some outside walks when it's warm this spring/summer. We'll keep you posted for these big events!!!!!

Yesterday was a fun day!:Pinkbounc Got a great walk in, had a nice healthy lunch with loads of great conversation--you all know how friendly Doreen is--but now it's time to take a look at the overall picture:

1. Vitamins--did that; ended up 13/31
2. Water--didn't do this--the first day this month! I just couldn't get enough in. I came home and did other things and just didn't attend to this like I should've. 12/31
3. Exercise--this was a goodie. Clocked in over 5 miles on the pedometer. 9/31 I hope to get on the treadie today and get some more.
4. Food--nope, not good. Running around later in the day, no structure, no plan. No awareness of points. . .I'm moving on to a fresh new day. Clippie stands at 10/31.

:sunny: It's a bright new day! I'm ready to make it a healthy one! Bring it on, bring it on! :hyper:

:wave2: :wave2: :wave2:

[DoeWDW]

You sound so sunny this morning! I'm going to soak it up!

Thanks for the wonderful walk & chat yesterday, WISH-sis! :happy1:

Sounds like we both fell off the wagon food-wise yesterday, so today we're back to business as usual, right? ::yes::

Here's an extra :hug: for your day!

[Desiree]

It sounds like you are going to be having a great Sunday! Overall yesterday didnt sound that you did that bad. I must admit I goofed on the water intake yesterday as well. I find it easier to get my water in while I'm at work. I guess I sit around at work more than I do at home and there is nothing much to just sucking down a glass of cool water.

Keep your spirits up and have a great day today! It sounds like you're well on your way!

Desiree'

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I'm just dropping by to say hi. Looks like you and Doreen had a great time as usual. It so awesome thatyou two can get together on a regular basis. You sound ready for the day. Have a good one.
Beth

[marsh0013]

hey erin, sorry you fell off the food wagon, but at least you got in a great day of exercise and had a great time with doe! and you're right back on track today! way to go :)

hope you have a great day today :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Hey, WISH-sis, hope you had a good day today! I'm sending extra :wizard: for your Monday. I hope it turns out to be a day full of blessings and peace.

:hug:

[lulu201]

Sunday, March 14th? :confused: I'm sorry, was I supposed to do anything that day? Eat right? Exercise? :confused: Oh, I know. I was absent that day. Yeah, that's it, I missed that Sunday. . .:rolleyes:

I spent half of yesterday sleeping. The other half I spent munching around the kitchen--a little of this, a little of that. Definitely not good. No vitamins, no water--totally unfocused with no direction. BUT. . .

TODAY I'M BACK!:Pinkbounc Now before you say, "that's what you said yesterday," I want all my WISH-buddies to know that I really am. I've had my vitamins, I've had 32 oz. of water, I've had a healthy breakfast, I've turned this Monday over to God and seen the beauty of a brand new day. . .I'm headed in the right direction. :D Yesterday was just a detour.

So, I want to quickly evaluate where I stand. So far I've lost 5 lbs. toward my goal of 10 lbs. in the April 1st challenge. That's kind of mediocre--I've definitely got to push harder. So, I've come up with some concrete goals for the rest of the month:

*In the remaining 16 days I will take my vitamins every day. That would make my final vitamin goal 29/31 days.

*In the remaining 16 days I will drink at least 64 oz. of water every day. That would make my final water goal 28/31 days.

*Here's a biggie: I will walk at least one mile every day for the remaining 16 days, bringing my exercise goal to 25/31 days.

*And the real toughie: I will stay OP--no cheat days--for the next 16 days, bringing my food goal to 26/31 days.

Whoo, boy, this is going to be tough, but I'm going to remember Phil. 4:13, and just go for it. I know that if I can stay the course I'll be happy with whatever the scale says, but I don't want to reach the end of the month with regrets because I was wishy-washy.

So, here's where I am:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--32/64 oz. Half way there! :D
3. Exercise--The treadie is next
4. Food--breakfast was Cinnamon Almond Banana Oatmeal (made with skim milk) and coffee w/cream=5
Plans for lunch--egg salad on lite bread=7
Snack--yogurt (2)
veggies (0)
1 cup of fresh fruit salad (1)
Dinner--chicken strips over tossed salad=9
s.f. jello

Total for day=24 points; 22 Target plus 2 AP

Day by day,
Pound by pound,
Onward and downward,
No messing around.
:p

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Erin, I LOVE your new poem!!! Girlfriend, whatever happened in the past definitely sounds like it has passed - you sound like you are back in the groove!! :sunny:

I hear a strength of purpose. I hear a no-nonsense attitude. I hear a woman who is out to treat her body and her mind in a healthy way for the next 16 days!! No excuses for her - she's walkin' the walk!!

You go, girl!!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: I'll be right there with you!! :cool1: :cool1:

Let's get it done! ::yes::

[Desiree]

Woohoo! Can you pass some of that inspiration on to me?!?! Wow, what a great attitude you have!!! You seem to be off to a flying start today! Keep up the good work today and have a GREAT Monday!

[septbride2002]

I love your poem! That is going to be my mantra for the day! Sweetie don't feel bad about being absent yesterday we all have those days - especially during the Dzone. Hopefully this will be over soon.

I know what you mean about the April Challenge - I've only lost 3 of the 10 lbs I wanted to lose. I really really want to be in the 140's by May and I don't think that is going to happen.

~Amanda

[lulu201]

Oh, Amanda, that could happen! 140s by MAY?? Definitely! We're all going to do this together, I know it! You've set up the goal-oriented mindset for us, and we're not going to lose steam mid-month! We're going to go for it! And Desiree--you, too, WISH buddy! You're going to keep plugging a long day by day until you make it all happen.

Doreen, you're sitting there on the d-zone rollercoaster, but you're going to manage this, too--just one baby step by baby step.

My water is at 58 oz.--I'm chugging it down! I walked 2.6 on the treadie in 40 minutes, warm-up and cool-down included. I'm going to have to get out and run some errands now, but I'll stop in tonight and hopefully will have time and energy to get to journals. You're all in my thoughts. . .

Erin

Edit: I just turned over my clippie bear. Boy, did that feel good!

I had my appointment with my wonderful doc--she's super--unfortunately I left with a list of tests and procedures I have to have done that's as long as my arm. Way to be Over 40! Some are routine--blood work, mammogram, but some are new for me--stress test with cardiolite (?) [you know what that's about, Beth] and an appointment with the GI guy for a colonoscopy and maybe some other stuff :eek: . I'm a big chicken--I hate all of this stuff, but I'm going to do it. I've been putting off the colonoscopy for two years, but this time I'm going to do it! Yeah, I am. Really, I am. :(

Stuck to my plan for the day! :Pinkbounc Tomorrow I'll figure out where I stand with everything. Now, though, I have to hit the hay. Sorry I haven't gotten around to journals. :(

[lulu201]

It's a new day! :sunny: Here I go w/ the plan of action:

1. Vitamins. So far I stand at 14/31
2. Water. Drank a lot! I stand at 13/31
3. Did my exercise, I'm at 10/31
4. Food--stayed on plan at 11/31.

So, I'm going to get in a quick mile before work on the treadie and I'm going to try to stay at 24 points--22 plus one AP and one flex.

b--oatmeal and coffee=5
l--yogurt and a cheesestick and veggies=4
d--something from taco bell, probably 2 chicken tacos at 10
s--5 points to play with

Gotta go get DD off to school, but I'm feeling confident. God is in control; I'm along for the ride.

Day by day,
Pound by pound,
Onward and downward,
No messing around. :D

Erin

Edit: Did a mile on the treadie, but have to race to work now. I might have to cancel classes because of the snow. :D NO, that wasn't me smiling! :mad: Or was it? he, he;)

[Desiree]

WOW! You sound like you are rarin to go this morning!
(Cancelling classes wouldn't be such a bad idea! Maybe sqeeze in an extra mile on the treadmill?)

Hope your day goes exactly as you planned!

[septbride2002]

I use to love it when classes were cancelled :)

Thanks for the pep talk Erin - I needed one. The 140's seem so far away but then again the 150's seemed far too. :)

Have a great day today and remember to do something for yourself today!

~Amanda

[honeymo78]

Erin - yay for staying on plan yesterday. Be careful out in that yucky weather - I just saw your neck of the woods on the noon news.

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi, everyone! Here's where I am at 6:30 p.m.

1. Haven't taken the vitamins. :(
2. Have had half the water. :rolleyes:
3. Exercise--got in a mile.:D
4. Food--not the best choices, but still on plan. ::yes::

I'm going to correct 1 and 2, and turn over the clippie. Classes did get cancelled; private lessons didn't. Got lots of stuff done today, but still don't feel caught up. Such is life.

Amanda, Desiree, and Steph--thanks for dropping by. You guys make me smile and give me such motivation to stick with the plan. Thank you!

[DoeWDW]

Hey, WISH-sis, hope you're having a good morning!!

I'm thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers today! ::yes::

:hug:

[lulu201]

It's Wednesday. I'm glad about that.

Stats from yesterday:

Vitamins are now 15/31.
Water is 14/31.
Exercise is 11/31.
Food is 12/31.

Haven't taken the vitamins yet today, but have had about 8 oz. of water. I'm getting ready to hop on the treadie. Points should be 22 Target plus 2 AP; I don't want to use any flex today--I see Friday Weigh In coming. I did peek this morning; I'm holding steady at 162--a good thing after the eating indiscretions I had over the weekend. I'm stressed at work, though, and I want to eat in a compulsive way. Last night I had to go upstairs and watch AI--I couldn't be anywhere near the kitchen.

My heart is heavy and I have some worries this morning :( . I'm just going to take the day step by step.

Day by day,
Pound by pound,
Onward and Downward,
No messing around.
None. Zero. Walking the straight and narrow.

Erin

[Desiree]

(((HUGS))) I'm sorry things are so stressful right now.

I'll be keeping you in my prayers today.

Desireé

[septbride2002]

Erin it always seems that you, me and Doe are always hurting or depressed around the same time. This to shall pass sweetie! We just need to get through the day. One foot in front of the other.

~Amanda

[marsh0013]

aw erin, i'm sorry that you have a heavy heart today. big :hug: for you. even through your stressful time, you're doing a great job sticking to your plan. i have no doubt that you can make it to the end of the month and meet your goals ::yes:: . you are so much stronger than you know, just keep that little poem in mind.

hope you have a great day today :sunny:

[Strings]

:hug: Erin,

I'm sorry that you are having a stressful day. You are such a great support for so many people, I hope we can return the favor today. Here's some :goodvibes and :wizard: to get you through the day. Take care of yourself today.

Thank you again for all your support,


:sunny:
Beth

[lulu201]

Yeah, I had a Blue Meanie Cloud hanging over my head this morning, but it disappeared as the day went on. :sunny: Maybe it was because of all the :goodvibes that came from all my WISH friends. From Doreen's pm to the cheery words of Amanda, Beth, Desiree, and Marcia--how could I stay in my little funk? I just HAD to get out.

Ugh, too many work problems and undone housework, but some of that's been resolved--enough to help lighten the load. Everything else is in God's hands and that's enough for me.

He sure helped me live a healthy lifestyle today, that's for sure!

Finished the day like this:

1. Vitamins--16/31
2. Water--15/31
3. Exercise--12/31
4. Turning over the clippie! Food is 13/31.

Tomorrow's a huge long day--I should be in the studio before 8 a.m.; I doubt I'll get a chance to do anything but list the plan in the journal before I have to head out.

Please know that you're all in my heart :grouphug: as I go about my day.

Erin

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: Sending lots of extra energy-giving sunshine for your long day today! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

Thanks so much for helping me get through yesterday, WISH-sis! :hug: I'm so glad we are always here for each other :happy1: . I'll be walking beside you today also, and keeping you in my heart and in my prayers.

The weekend is on its way with the promise of some time to just sit back, relax and catch your breath. If you need a quick break today, just brew up some lovely green tea and take a moment to savor the warmth!

:hug:

[lulu201]

Well, here I am, on the computer and NOT at work. :rolleyes: Guess I'd better make this quick or I'm going to be stressed beyond belief and running around like a chicken for the rest of the day. :tongue: My problem is that I go to do a little post here at my journal, and I end up being nosey and peeking into everyone else's journal. Oy vay.

Anyway, I'm :D again this morning. The sun on the snow is absolutely beautiful and I'm able to see the blessings in the day.

The plan:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--16 oz. finished.
3. Exercise--did my little mile on the treadie.:hyper: It's not much, but that 15-16 min. revs me up and gets me going.
4. Food--B was cinnamon almond banana oatmeal and coffee at 5(I know, totally predictable), L will be a McDonalds salad (10), D will be a tuna sandwich (4.5) and that leaves 3 points or so to play around with. Probably some yogurt (2), veggies, and ?

I peeked at the scale this morning; I liked what I saw. Now let's see if it cooperates tomorrow at weigh-in. I might have to call you guys to come over and beat it up! :p

Gotta run--
Erin

[Strings]

Erin,

I can totally understand. I get stuck ( I was afraid of censor) into the WISH journals daily. I hope your very long day doen't stress you too much. You meal plan looks great. Good for you for getting your exercise in this busy AM. Take care of yourself.

:sunny: and :hug:
Beth

[septbride2002]

You have :sunny: ? Can you send some my way? It has been gray here the last 3 days which is why I think people are in terrible moods!:yo-yo:

Good Morning princess: Erin! I know you are going to have a fabulous day today! I'm trying to think of a theme song for you today.....hold on..... let me think......how about
"I've got Sunshine on a cloudy day! When it's cold outside - I've got the month of May! I guess you say what can make me feel this way - My Girl! Talk about My Girl!"

~Amanda

[marsh0013]

i'm glad to see that you're back in a :) mood today, that makes me :) too :teeth:

i know what you mean about getting sucked into journals! it's so hard once you start to stop! hehe. but girl, you've got a busy day today, so you gotta just get yours updated, and worry about the rest of us later! :p

erin peeked! erin peeked! i'm calling the scale police!!! :crazy: but at least you liked what you saw, that is a good sign for official weigh in day tomorrow ::yes::

i hope that your busy day went well and that your cheery disposition stayed with you throughout the day :bounce:

[lulu201]

You guys just make me smile! :teeth: I just got home a few minutes ago and I'm beat on my feet, but it was a good day, and all your messages just cap it off on a positive note. It's so nice to have you all caring about me. Thanks. :grouphug:

DD is waiting patiently for some Mom-time--or maybe she just wants to continue the "when can I wear eyeliner debate--so I've got to be short. I'm hoping that if there's snow tomorrow, I can get around to see everybody. (I say that every day, don't I?)

Finished the day with 25 points--22 target, 1 AP, 2 flex. I'm good with that.

Stats are:

Vitamins--17/31
Water--16/31
Exercise--13/31
Food--14/31.

:Pinkbounc I made it through another day!

Now I'm off to teengirl conversation. :D

Erin

[DoeWDW]

I'm sending you extra :hug:s, my friend! I hope the conversation was pleasant last night. ::yes::

Today is Friday!! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

I don't know how much snow you got, but be careful if you have to go out in it today.

You did very well yesterday, in spite of all the stress and worries - I'm proud of you, but more importantly, I hope YOU are proud of you. You're truly walking the walk!

Make today a good one, OK? The blessings and miracles are still there - take a moment to savor them and give thanks!

:hug: , dear WISH-sis!

[Desiree]

I couldn't have said it any better than Doreen!

Hope your conversation went well. I'm personally dreading those years when Devyn becomes a teen!!

Hope you have a great Friday and a even greater weekend!

[septbride2002]

I remember having that conversation with my Mom. I hope you child is more.....how do I say.........considerate of your decision. I was always a willful child so even though they didn't want me to I think I started wearing it at 13 or 14 - maybe younger. I just remember not being allowed to wear it at family functions - which was fine with me because I didn't feel like being lectured by my superiour feeling aunt.

I hope the conversation went well! Have a great day today!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

You did a great job despite the stress, and the late start thanks to WISH. Good Luck with your daughter. I remember those days. I'll leave you in the ignorance is bliss category. I am sending :sunny:your way for the weekend. Take care of yourself. Here's some :wizard: for your weigh in.
Beth

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi, everybody! Yes, the conversation was pleasant. I told her that while she may remember me saying she could wear eyeliner at age 14 (did these words EVER come out of my mouth????), but after seeing her wearing it (which she was doing last night) I wasn't sure that it did her justice. I told the truth--I think she has incredible eyes and that the dark look around them actually detracted from her natural beauty. I told her she should wear it around the house some more and I would see if I got used to it, but the jury was still out on the whole 14 thing. She was OK with that.

Life is hard enough for teens and I really feel that I have to pick my battles carefully. She's a good kid with a good heart whose worst fault at the moment is that her room is messy. . .I can't really complain. Oh, she does tend to wait until the last minute to have me sign important school papers, but other than that, there's not much to worry about at this moment. (Knock wood, pray to God.) I'm grateful for that and don't want to make major deals about the little stuff, but maybe if she's wearing eyeliner one day, she'll be asking to ride in cars with boys the next????? :p

All right, enough about her. Today it's all about ME! :Pinkbounc

I did it! I did it! I've lost 40 Pounds! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

"I'm feeling good from my hat to my shoe,
Know where I am going and I know what to do,
I've tidied up my point of view,
I've got a new attitude."

(C'mon, everybody do the Patti LaBelle jive with me)

"ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo, oo. . .
I've got a new attitude!"

I've been sitting on the fence for two weeks and now I've finally lost two. Hip, hip, hooray!:cool1: I'm 3 pounds away from my April Fool's Challenge Goal and my 35 lb. clippie, and I'm going to go for it!

This morning my aol connection was down so I couldn't write in my journal, so I took some time and did some other stuff. I walked on the treadie, had some breakfast, and--here's the big one--cleaned out my closet. Talk about a huge deal for me. I went through and set aside 2 blouses, 5 skirts, 3 dresses, 3 pairs of shorts, 5 pairs of capri pants--almost all the stuff I wore on our cruise in Oct., an evening dress w/glittery jacket, a white beaded pantsuit, 3 or 4 pairs of pants, 3 blazers, and 2 suits--all for a young friend of my mom's who had gastric bypass 7 months ago and has lost 90 lbs. I bagged it all up and have it sitting by the stairs. . .I can't believe I've done it. All of the 16s (except for some comfy jeans that are to ratty to give away) and most of the 14s are now out of my closet. You know what? I'm scared. I'm scared of such a big step--can I honestly say I won't be going back on the :yo-yo: again? Nope, not yet, but I have to take this step in faith. I've relied on God's strength and blessings through this whole journey (and you all are such a HUGE part of his blessings:grouphug: ) that I just feel like I have to keep going forward and the Big Closet Clean Out was just part of that. If my move forward can help someone else on this journey, then it's gotta be the right thing to do.

SO, I'm celebrating today!:jumping1: This 40 lb. mark is big for me, so I've got to find a way to treat myself. What should I do?
I was thinking that tomorrow I'd head over to Victoria's Secret and do some browsing around :teeth: , but I'm open to ideas.
Maybe new walking shoes?? My piano teacher hands don't last too long with manicures. . .I changed my hair cut already. . .maybe flowers? No, probably I'll just have lots of fun thinking about what I'd like and that will be enough. :teeth: What's funny to me, though, is that a food treat isn't even something that interests me. Now THAT's a good sign. :p

It all comes down to the plan for the day:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--57 oz. done
3. Exercise--:hyper: did 4.25 mi. on the treadie in 60:28.
4. Food--have to find out my AP points, but will just add them on to the target and will try to stay limited to those today.

I'm so grateful to have you all at the WISH to share my feelings with--who can better understand all the day to day stuff this journey involves? Thank you for all the goodness you so freely give. Peace to you all,

Erin

[marsh0013]

:jumping1: congratulations erin!!!!! :jumping1:

clippie party time!!! :bounce: :Pinkbounc :bounce: :Pinkbounc
(how could i resist...you know we love those around here :tongue: )

40 pounds, gone. gone forever. i know that you are feeling a little hesitant about getting rid of the clothes that don't fit, but i have this feeling that you will soon get over that feeling...especially when you're wearing even *smaller* sizes than you are now. you may have done the :yo-yo: thing in the past, but i think that this time is different. you are so strong, you have such resolve, and even when you don't feel strong enough, you let your faith take care of it for you. it may be a leap of faith, but i am so proud of you for making that super scary jump :hyper:

you definitely deserve to reward yourself. that trip to vs sounds wonderful. even if you just want to look around and don't end up buying anything, maybe you could try some stuff on, and see how fabulous you look in it :smooth: . that way, you get the satisfaction of seeing how great you look, but you don't have to buy it. just an idea :)

i know you're on cloud nine right now, and i hope that your day continues to go wonderfully for you. you deserve it :teeth:

[DoeWDW]

:jumping3: :cool1: princess: OH MY GOSH!!! WHERE DID ERIN GO??? princess: :cool1: :jumping3:

Has anyone seen the old Erin?? The one that came to the WISH board on August 19, 2003??? She weighed 190 pounds and had pain in her back and hip. She said:
I'm also tired of the constant yo-yoing. I want to find a plan for life that works for me, without paying someone else to tell me what I already know. I want to be inwardly motivated and strong, but know that I can really use a little help from my friends

There IS an Erin here - but she only resembles the original Erin in her kindness and empathy for others. The Erin that lives here now seems to BE all those things the original Erin WANTED to be. The Erin that lives here now weighs less, eats healthy and exercises. She is inwardly motivated and strong. She helps others on their healthy living journey and still lets her friends be there to help her on her ongoing journey.

I love and respect BOTH Erins, but I really don't think the original Erin will ever be back. WISH-sis, you may have lost some pounds but you have grown emotionally and spiritually since last August. I do not think there is any danger of you going back to being that woman. Those clothes that you're hesitating to part with - they were the wardrobe of the original Erin. They served her well, but now it's time to move on and create a wardrobe for the Erin you are right now.

Congratulations, Erin, on all you've accomplished, and best wishes for the rest of the journey!!

You are my inspiration today!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

I LOVE your new attitude and I will be HAPPY to join you in the Patti LaBelle jive!!! ::yes::

[lulu201]

I'm on my way to work, but I had to stop and say thank you to you, Marcia, and to you, Doreen. I'm sitting here crying. . .

I know what my reward is--knowing you both and walking this road together.

:grouphug: Erin

[ZerasPride]

Hi Erin - I just spent some time catching up with you and I want to join the Erin lost 40 pounds party too!!!

:jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1: You have done a wonderful job through ups and downs and I am so proud of you and all your progress!!!!!

I'm sure giving away those clothes was scary but it had to be empowering too. I used to have a list of stuff I wanted to get myself when I reached certain weight goals but honestly there is no greater gift to myself than fitting into jeans that are several sizes smaller than what I used to wear! Whatever you decide to do for yourself, you absolutely positively deserve it! Now let me get my best singing voice together so I can join in the Patti LaBelle chorus to cheer you on!!! Keep up the great work! :)

[DoeWDW]

After we finish with Patti LaBelle, can we do a round of Sister Sledge and "we are family, I got all my sisters with me!" :grouphug: ;)

[DizMare]

Way to go, Erin! Major kudos to you, sweetie! Pretty soon, when you turn sideways, we'll mark you absent!

High five!
Mare

[honeymo78]

Erin - I am so proud of you!!!! 40 lbs is a major accomplishment. Definitely treat yourself to something and then let us know what you did. Since you said a manicure is out, what about a pedicure? Soon the snow will be gone for good and it will be sandal weather.

Good move in cleaning out the closet. I know that it is tough to let those things go but I know you will never be going back to those clothes so you need to get them out of the house.

Have a great weekend!!!!

[lulu201]

Thanks, Lisa, Mare, and Steph, for joining my New Attitude party! I'm still singing this morning:

"I'm in control,
My worries are few,
'Cause I got love like I never knew,
ooo,ooo,ooo,ooo
I've got a new attitude.

I am wearing a new dress, a new hat,
Brand new ideas,
As a matter of fact,
I've changed for good.

ooo,oooo,ooo,ooo,
I've got a new attitude."

:p I love singing at the computer!:p

ANYWAY, I have to get going to work this morning--a super full day ahead. I have to set up for a group piano/party class (tons of fun for the kids), get to the mall, go to DDs concert and then get her to a late night sleepover. I'm :crazy: just thinking about it--but in a good way.

So, the plan remains the same, pretty much:

1. Vitamins--18/31, gotta take them today
2. Water--17/31, I'll bring my big water mug around with me
3. Exercise--14/31, I want to hop on the treadie before the day gets away from me
4. Food--15/31, target plus AP plus a few flex. Yesterday I ended up using 4 flex; that was OK--I still have 13 to go before Monday! The big accomplishment for me will be to get through the weekend without bingeing--I'm trying to keep my focus.

I'm off and running.
Erin

Edit at 10:00 a.m.: Water at 10 oz.
Exercise--3 miles at 44:10
Food--breakfast was cinnamon banana almond oatmeal w/coffee and cream=5
DH and I will have a late lunch/early dinner before the concert at Ruby Tuesdays. Have to plan for that.
Snack will be canteloupe and veggies; it's what I'm in the mood for.

Moving on. . .

[cinmell]

Erin, congratulations on losing 40 pounds!!!!! You're doing a wonderful job, keep up the great work! :D

[lulu201]

Thanks, Cindy. :D I really feel like I accomplished something! :Pinkbounc

I made it through today:

b--5
l--1.5
d--15.5
dessert--9

Total: 31/22 target, 3 AP, 6 flex leaving 7 flex for Sunday. :Pinkbounc

Reviewing the stats for Sat., 3/20, the first day of spring :D

1. Vitamins--19/31
2. Water--18/31
3. Exercise--15/31
4. Food--16/31

Picked up a couple of things at the mall today: a new pair of pants, size 10 :p , a new white Lands End t w/a square neck line (cute), and a new bra a Victoria's Secret :p . Why didn't someone tell me they were going to want to measure me? I let them--and found out I lost one of my Ds somewhere! :p It was worth it to be measured.

That's it for now, I'm going to go turn over my clippie.
Erin

[Castillo Mom]

Hey you!!! Tonight I'm catching up with everyone's journals and you're my first stop. First off, congratulations on the new clippie! You've done a wonderful job and your bright attitude is contagious. I love reading your journal, so much positivity. I'm so happy for you Erin and that glow of yours can be seen all the way over here in California!:D

I read that you cleaned out your closet and gave away some of your clothes. First of all, that's a very sweet thing to do. It's a big step to take and you must have had many things going through your mind as you were bundling everything up. I haven't gotten rid of any of my clothes yet but I'm thinking about it.

Erin, I hope you didn't work too hard today and you enjoy the rest of the weekend.:D

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi, Lisa C. Glad you could stop by! It's always fun to hear from you. I was thinking of you last night when I tried on a tankini. I don't care how much weight I lose, bathing suit shopping will never be fun for me. Ugh. :p

I'm sleepy this morning, though I'm already drinking my coffee. . .yesterday was full and fun, but today I'm going to just take it slow. Church, some produce shopping, light housework, wash, a walk. . .taking the day at my own pace without too much running around. I think, geesh, I should be out getting DD new spring clothes, but it'll happen eventually. Just not today!;)

As usual, this week has had its ups and downs, but I'm happy with my commitment to my healthy lifestyle; I really took care of myself this week. Gotta do it taking it day by day, pound by pound, onward and downward, no messing around!

1. Vitamins--haven't had them yet.
2. Water--haven't had any yet, but today I'm going to have so much I'm going to float into Monday!
3. Exercise--my goal is to do my long WW tape (55 minutes) at a half-marathon pace (about 3.8).
4. Food--b was 5, lunch will be a sandwich and veggies and/or fruit at around 5, dinner will be fairly light, too. I'll eat my target 22, but I don't know if I'll use my AP. I guess if I'm hungry. . .

OK, I've laid it out there, I know I have a solid Rock on which to stand--here I go! :wave2:

Here's a :grouphug: for all my WISH friends whom I care about so much. Make it a great day, everyone.

Erin

Edit: coffee at church=.5, 1 sugar free lemon creme cookie (snackwell)=1, 1 cup popcorn =1.5, baked nacho chips, 1/4 grated cheese, salsa=6, total so far=14/water, 2 glasses

[Desiree]

Sounds like you have a great plan for today! Wishing you lots of :sunny: and happiness today!

[DoeWDW]

Happy Sunday, Erin! Aren't you glad the Lord was kind enough to give us this Day of Rest?? Don't feel one bit guilty for resting today!! Your body needs to recharge!

Looks like your plan for today might have been interrupted a bit - you've used 14 points already and I don't see much protein in there. Be careful, girlfriend! :happy1:

Spring is finally here! The warmer weather will HAVE to follow, right? I think both our puppies will be enjoying more exercise as the days warm up. :sunny:

Have a wonderful, peaceful, restful day, Erin! :sunny:

[marsh0013]

hey erin, your shopping trip sounds like it was a lot of fun, size 10 pants, very nice :smooth:

you've got a great plan set out for today, and i see that so far you're sticking to it. if all else fails, you do have those aps to work with, and a few flex left over. don't be afraid to use them if you need them ::yes::

hope the rest of your sunday is wonderful :sunny:

[lulu201]

:rolleyes: Geez, I can't get away with anything, Doreen. You know me like a book! The truth is, you're right--I've been treading on thin ice today, but I've managed to stay afloat. I just had one of those kind of nibble and munch days, but I was careful not to go over my flex.

The food messiness continued with a snack of a lowfat ice cream cone at McDonalds (3.5), 1 cup of baked ziti w/ parm cheese and grilled veggies for dinner (8), and more little graham cracker cinnamon stix (3) for dessert. I used my flex points, but I'm not too proud of my sloppy eating. . .it just doesn't feel too good. I like following an "eating plan for the day" a whole lot better. Look at all the carbs I had! Risky behavior.

I still have laundry to do. I ended up taking DD out to get her Easter outfit and shoes. We had fun, but it was a couple more
hours of running around, and I am just plain pooped. I haven't exercised, but will get in my minimal walk of a mile on the treadie if I have to do it at midnight. Tomorrow I'll do the WW tape. I'm still chugging the water after DD and I promised each other we wouldn't have more than one glass of our favorite Diet Coke with Lime.

Be back after I walk,
E.

[Strings]

:wave: Erin,

Congrats on those size 10's. You will be looking:smooth: this spring. I hope you can relax this evening. You always seem to be on the go. You take care of everyone else, so remember to take care of yourself too.

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow AM while I'm sipping my coffee with SF hazelnut syrup.;)
:sunny:
Beth

[lulu201]

Now I have to be jealous of you, Beth! You ordered those syrups from some place on-line, didn't you? Should I go to da Vinci. com, or is there a specialty food/coffee store you ordered them from? I'd love just a shot of sf vanilla to start my day! :p

I ready to turn over my clippie and want to put my final stats in print and then call it a night.

1. Vitamins--:D 20/31
2. Water--:D 19/31
3. Exercise--:D 16/31
4. Food--:D 17/31 (this one really makes me smile!)

I walked a total of 8.25 miles on the treadie this weekend! ::yes:: I'd love to go back through this month's journal and see how many miles I've done so far. Maybe I'll do that and then figure it somehow into goals for April. Gotta think about that.:scratchin

Turnin' over that clippie now--
Erin

[Strings]

Hey Erin,
www.davincigourmet.com

You can order 4 bottles for the minimal shipping. I picked up hazelnut, french vanilla, and 3 chocolate. I also use them in my cheesecakes.
:teeth:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Skinny Erin!! Size 10 pants!! You are amazing, girlfriend!! How did I miss that???

Congratulations on sticking to your points yesterday! I know it must have been a tough day as far as sticking to plan. But you did it! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Here we go into Monday. The sun is shining! :sunny: It's officially Spring, even if the temp outside is a bit chilly (it's only temporary - we'll be getting warmer weather any day now!!). We're going to be good to ourselves today!! Why, you ask?? Well, because we're WISH Princesses princess: princess: and we deserve to treat ourselves to healthy living!!

No messing around!! ::yes::

:hug:

[lulu201]

Hee, hee, I know where I'm going to visit on-line next! Gotta check out those syrups! Thanks, Beth.

:sunny: It's a beautiful brand new Monday--as :sunny: as can be, but more than a bit chilly. :sunny: That's the weather report from SE PA.:p

Today I've got to take Mickey the Westie for another check up; should have the results of his thyroid scan to discuss with the vet. I've got a mountain of laundry rivalling Everest in the living room--will tackle that when I get home. My DMom is coming to visit (she really IS dear and quite a pip) in two weeks, so I've got to make a list today of projects around that house that I want done before she comes. She'll be with us from 4/2 until 4/12. I asked her if she'd like me to have anything special in the house for her to eat when she comes and she said, "Erin, I want to eat like you eat." Sure hope she likes oatmeal for breakfast--every day! :p

The plan:

1. Vitamins--will take them when I go downstairs.
2. Water--one glass down, at least SEVEN more to go.
3. Exercise--55 minutes on the treadie doing the WW tape.
4. Food--22 target, plus AP. New bank of flex points to draw from today, but I don't think I'll need to touch 'em.

Just thought I'd pass this on to you WISH buddies of mine--if you want a nice, uplifting way to start the day, visit dailyguideposts.com for positive inspiration. There's always a nice thought and message there.

:grouphug: Let's feel good and feel strong!

Day by day, pound by pound,
Onward and downward--I'm not messin' around! :Pinkbounc

Erin

[lulu201]

Hey, Doreen! :wave2: You popped into my journal while I was writing to myself and I almost missed your visit! Thanks for stopping by, princess: Doe-Doe! I'm going to stop by your journal now to see if you're at home or work. I'm going in this afternoon, but I've got so much stuff to do here at home, it's almost an afterthought!:teeth:

Did you call me Skinny Erin??? :p I'm a likin' that! :teeth:

princess: Lulu

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I hope Mickey;s appointment with the vet goes well. How are his little paws doing. I hope you enjoy your :sunny: . Your Mom sounds like fun. That should be a nice visit. I have laundry to fold today as well. I hate laundry. It is the neverending job. Take care of yourself today.
:sunny:
Beth

[lulu201]

Here's where I'm sitting on 3/22 around noon:

1. Vitamins. :D
2. Water--3 glasses down.
3. Exercise--not yet, but soon.
4. Food--b=5, snack=1 (fresh fruit salad, yum!)

Mickey's on an allergy maintenance program until his thyroid tests come back (which should be any day); dr. doesn't honestly think it's his thyroid after all. No more visits have had to be scheduled. My checkbook is grateful!

I'll edit here later. . .

E.

OK, let's see I'm 4 glasses into goal #2, and just completed 3.64 on the treadie in 55 min. It was a nice comfortable pace; I think the WW tape is nice for middle aged women like me!:p On to make my lunch--a buffalo chicken salad at about 9 or 10 points. Dinner will be a tuna sandwich and veggies. There might be room for another cup of coffee later. . .

Final wrap:

1. Vitamins-- 21/31.
2. Water-- 20/31
3. Exercise--did that 3.64 mi. thing. 17/31
4. Food--stayed at 25 points (22 target and 3 AP). YAY! :Pinkbounc -- 18/31

Tomorrow's meal deal:

b--oatmeal and coffee=5
l--tuna sandwich=5 /veggies=0
d--taco bell, either a fiesta salad at about 15 or 2 chicken taco supremes at 10 and a lowfat vanilla cone from McD at 3.5. I think I'm going for the latter because I'm not going to be able to do much exercise. That'll give me 23.5 (22 target, 1 AP, .5 flex)

I'm heading for bed.

[septbride2002]

Is this considred fashionably late? I can't believe I am this late to a clippie party!

:jumping1: CONGRATULATIONS ERIN!!:jumping1:

And then I read that we are in size 10 pants - you are my hero!

:jumping4: :jumping4: :jumping4:

Seriously girl way to go! At the top of my lungs (and I'll admitt it doesn't sound real pretty) I am singing

"I'm in control,
My worries are few,
'Cause I got love like I never knew,
ooo,ooo,ooo,ooo
I've got a new attitude.

I am wearing a new dress, a new hat,
Brand new ideas,
As a matter of fact,
I've changed for good.

ooo,oooo,ooo,ooo,
I've got a new attitude."

You are just to much for words today! Heh - don't worry about the swimsuit shopping - I don't think it is ever fun for anybody! The next time you go to Vicky's you should pick up something that will make DH's eyes pop out of his head! :)

~Amanda

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!
I hope you don't mind me posting here. I just wanted to take a moment to pop in and say thank you for the inspiration and enthusiasm that I have read in your posts. I have started reading through your journal (and have read your posts in others' journals as well) and I am inspired by your wonderful attitude and words of wisdom. You bring a lot of :sunny: with you to the WISH! Thank you!

I also want to congratulate you on your size 10!:jumping1: That is absolutely fabulous! Keep up the good work.::yes::

Again, I hope you don't mind me posting here... I just wanted to thank you for the inspiration! God's best to you today, Erin!

Tracy:wave2:

P.S. Hope Mickey's feeling better soon....

[lulu201]

:earseek: DH! :earseek:

:rotfl: Thanks, Amanda, for sharing my joy. It means a lot to have friends like you. :D

OK, now back to the party. . .

:cool1: :cool1: :cool1: :cool1: :cool1: :cool1:

"WE'VE GOT A NEW ATTITUUUUUUDE!"

E.

[lulu201]

Wait a minute--stop the music. Tracy's here, too! Thanks for coming, Tracy. You're welcome any time. :wave2:

Thank you for your kind words, Tracy. It's a day to day struggle that we've got, isn't it? The blessings are there, though, if we're open to them, and having your kindness expressed here adds :D to my day.

Take care and God bless--
Erin

Now, everybody sing:

:D "We've got that new attitude!" :D

[cinmell]

Originally posted by lulu201
As usual, this week has had its ups and downs, but I'm happy with my commitment to my healthy lifestyle; I really took care of myself this week. Gotta do it taking it day by day, pound by pound, onward and downward, no messing around!

First off, congratulations on the size 10! I can't wait to buy 10's again. Second, I quoted you from one of your previous posts because you are soooooooo right! We may have our ups and downs but the commitment to make our lives healthier is a major plus to our weight loss plans. I learned early on that it's better to take it day by day than look directly ahead to the goal. You have a wonderful attitude and you are wonderful motivation for all of us WISHers! Have a great day! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning, Cindy. :wave2: What a treat to come to my journal early this morning and there was such a sweet message from you! You jump started my day with a smile!

Oy, yoy, yoy, it's Tuesday and I'm tired! Once I have my coffee I'll be up and running. :teeth:

I've got to lay out the plan in writing and remind myself what this healthy living is about (like I would forget?????:p ):

1. Vitamins--will take them after I eat some breakfast.
2. Water--already sipping from my mug.
3. Exercise--it'll just be a quickie mile today
4. Food--looking at 23.5 points; I might have to use another flex and have some fresh fruit. I guess that's OK!::yes::

It's a brand new day! Here I come!:hyper:

Erin

Edit: 1. Vitamins :D 22 /31
2. Water: :D 21/31
3. Exercise: :D 18/31
4. Food: Finished at 22.5; didn't have to touch the flex. :D
19/31

Pooped! Gotta get in my jammies and watch AI! I saw a little bit before I came up here; have to admit Frank Sinatra Boy did a good job.

[DoeWDW]

No time for me to write a long message. Just wanted to pop in to say two things:

1. Thank you so much for your help and support yesterday!!

2. I'm sending some extra energy :wizard: to help you get through your long day.

Gotta run, but know that you're always in my thoughts and prayers! ::yes::

:hug: for you, my WISH-sis! :happy1:

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I know today is another busy one for you. I'm just here to tell you I'm sending some extra:goodvibes for you today. Will you be able to watch AI tonight?

Take care of yourself.
Beth

[lulu201]

:sunny: It's a beeeyoootiful day in Pennsylvania! :sunny: I just got in from driving DD to school and the birds were singing and I noticed buds on the trees. . .ahhh, spring. :D

I'm not as tired this morning, though Dpup had me up in the night with all his scratching and licking of his feet; I finally gave in at 4:30 and got him another antihistamine. Poor guy. :(

Okee dokee, let me get the plan in gear:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--20 oz. gone
3. Exercise--jumping on the treadie; hope to have time to do two miles this a.m.
4. Food--22 Target, 2 AP to work with; bank still full with 35 flex.:p I've used 5 points so far today.

b--cinnamon almond banana oatmeal and coffee=5
s--yogurt or cheesestick=2
l--late lunch: McDonald's salad=10
s--red pepper strips=0
d--tuna sandwich=5
dessert=fresh fruit salad at 1 or 1.5

That gives me a point or two to play with. I may dip into my flex and have a flavored coffee from the Dunkin Donut nextdoor; I'll have to see. I do have that peach green tea, though. . .that's very nice and relaxing. Hmmm, choices, choices.

Quickly, some "notes to self"--what I've learned the last week or so:

1. At this stage in my weight loss game, a binge really throws off the scale. Even if it's just for one day that I choose to binge, I'm pretty much choosing to not show a loss. If I binge on the weekend, there's a BIT of hope for recovery (especially if it's only one day), but generally, a binge seriously impacts my loss! When I was heavier, I could play around with this more--try to recover later in the week--but it's getting harder and harder to play that game.

2. Friday is a great weigh in day for me! I can go heavier on the points on the weekend, eat more carefully during the week, and have a good moment on the scale Fri. a.m. (Or at least that's how it's been seeming)

3. If I can get exercise done in the a.m., things just go so much smoother during the day. I feel like I've accomplished something right from the start!

4. The weight that I THOUGHT was my goal weight, might not be. Maybe my body will tell me what's right if I listen? I'm interested to know what other people think about this, so if any of my WISH buddies read this and have an opinion, I'd like to know. . .

Enough musings for the day. I've got to get to my friend, the treadie. Day by day, pound by pound, onward and downward, I'm not messing around!

Erin

[Desiree]

Wow, you've really got your stuff really in order today! Sounds like you have a great plan and a even greater outlook! You know what to look for and you are doing it! What a great job you are doing!

Hope you have a great day today!

[septbride2002]

1. At this stage in my weight loss game, a binge really throws off the scale. Even if it's just for one day that I choose to binge, I'm pretty much choosing to not show a loss. If I binge on the weekend, there's a BIT of hope for recovery (especially if it's only one day), but generally, a binge seriously impacts my loss! When I was heavier, I could play around with this more--try to recover later in the week--but it's getting harder and harder to play that game.

AMEN! I was having the same thought this morning.



4. The weight that I THOUGHT was my goal weight, might not be. Maybe my body will tell me what's right if I listen? I'm interested to know what other people think about this, so if any of my WISH buddies read this and have an opinion, I'd like to know. . .

I think our bodies do stop at some point and say - okay I'm comfy here. However you are within 5 lbs of your goal weight - the last 5 lbs are the hardest to lose my friend. I wouldn't give up just yet - especially if you have had some binges that might be what is keeping you from those 5 lbs. I would keep plugging away a couple more weeks and if there is still no change - then maybe here is where you are meant to be. Also you are not exercising like you use to (what happen to those 4 and 6 mile days?) once you start training for the marathon I bet you drop a few more lbs.

I know I am going to regret saying all this because I can see you giving the same advice back to me later ;) Remember princess: Erin it is a marathon and not a race. You are doing so awesome!

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

That is you! I am delighted to see that you have been so focused on goal:Pinkbounc

I have missed talking to you and need to check in more regularly. Life looks to be treating you well and I am so happy to see. The weather is improving and soon you can be outside for that exercise, and me too;)

Hope your Wednesday has been super:earsgirl:

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi, everyone! Thanks for stopping by MeMe, Desiree, and Amanda. I'm going to catch up on things tomorrow or Friday--Amanda, I appreciate your insights and will respond later--but now I've got to check in with the family then do some late night lesson planning.

Final stats for the day:

1. Vitamins==23/31
2. Water--22/31
3. Exercise--19/31
4. Food--20/31 Used three flex for a mid-week treat.:Pinkbounc

Sweet dreams--
Erin

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!
Hope you have a wonderful day today!!

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu201]

It's morning and I'm still typing lesson plans.:rolleyes: I was so sleepy last night, I just bagged it and went to bed. Now I'm up early struggling to get it done. Oh, well, some days are like that!:D

Here's the plan for a :sunny: day:

1. Vitamins.
2. Water--ooh, gotta drink a lot.
3. Exercise--maybe a mile, if I'm lucky to fit it in. No, I didn't mean that. I WILL FIT IT IN. I MUST FIT IT IN!
4. Food--22 target, 1 AP. No flex; tomorrow's weigh in!:p

I'm moving into the day,
Erin

Edit: Today was a really nice day, but I AM dragging quite a bit right now. I got my lessons done, finally, and I did put in a quickie mile on the treadie. Better than nothing, I always say.
:p

Final stats for 3/25

1. Vitamins--24/31
2. Water--23/31
3. Exercise--20/31
4. Food--21/31

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D I know I've given it my best this week, so whatever the scale says tomorrow, I can live it. No expectations, and no regrets either. I can't ask for more than that.

Good night,
Erin

[cinmell]

I'm sure you will get your mile in today and I hope you have a great day! Good luck with weigh in tomorrow. :D

[Desiree]

Hi Erin! Hope you have a great day today and you get your mile in! :wave2:

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I hate when I have to rush in the morning. I hope this doesn't throw you off for the day. Your plan looks great. Have a good one, and get that mile in. Here's some
:wizard: :wizard: for weigh in tomorrow.
:sunny:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

I'm thinking of you and sending some extra :sunny: your way! Best wishes for a happy scale encounter tomorrow. You know I think you're a huge success regardless of that scale, right?? Right!! ::yes::

Please try to get some much-needed rest tonight. I hope you're finished with those lesson plans! I think this weekend you should be due for a little "Erin time"! I know you have things to do to get ready for your Mom's visit, but don't overdo it, OK?? She isn't coming to do the "white glove test" on your house - she just wants to spend time with her beloved daughter, son-in-law and granddaughter.

By the way, I took DD into Vicky's last evening. She found some cute PJs. I have to take her back this weekend - costumes have arrived for her dance & baton recital and she will be needing a strapless bra & undies that won't show through the skin tight pants! :eek: She made me promise that I'll try on bras too, so now I'm committed! ;) I was thinking of you, my skinny one-D-less WISH-sis!! :happy1:

:hug:

[lulu201]

:cool1: "I've got a new attituuuuude.":cool1: Yeah, I'm strutting around because today I'm at goal! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

:scratchin No, wait a minute. . .MAYBE I'm at goal. Well, I guess I could be at goal. . .do I wanna be at goal? Is this realllly goal?

See, here's the problem. Today I weigh 158, the goal that I had at WW as my goal weight. When I started this journey in June (and joined WISH in August), this was the number I always put down in my siggie. A few weeks ago, I thought probably a "weight range" would be more comfortable for me, so I changed my goal to be a bit broader--155 to 158. THEN, I started wondering if my goal should even be lower than that and I thought 145-150 might feel better. . .:confused: Oye, see how undecided I am???

So, while I'm still trying to have a new attitude :p and I'm going to celebrate a two pound loss today (one more pound to my April challenge goal!), I'm only going to be "kind of at goal." I just have to see. . .

Amanda, you can see now what my dilemma is--I was never going to give up;) (though I sincerely appreciated the pep talk you gave me)--I'm just struggling to see what's best, and I think it comes down to listening to my body. I'm feeling good at where I am, but I think my Jock Athlete Princess Body might be lighter?

I'm a bit frustrated, too, because I feel like I've finally figured out what's comfortable for me as far as points and exercise management, and I'd like to continue on with the program I've established for myself. Maintaining my weight is something I've never tried, let alone accomplished, and I'm not ready to go there, I don't think. And what's a realistic weight for my 42 yr. old body to maintain anyway? Maybe if I wasn't walking 10-15 miles (and eventually more) per week, 155-158 would be my target weight, but then again, maybe 145-150 would feel good for a serious walker like myself? LOL

So, in conclusion: I've reached a number that I thought would have meaning for me. I'm there happily :Pinkbounc , but without any conclusion or direction. The journey continues, just as I knew it would. I'm celebrating saying good-bye to two more pounds! :wave2: I'm celebrating my view of the 150s :teeth:
I'm celebrating a brand new day of healthy living. :sunny:

More later. Right now the realities of motherhood collide with my WISH time--my DD asked me to iron some clothes for her (which I happily agreed to), but now she's out of the shower and has nothing to wear 'cause I haven't done it! Gotta go--

Erin

[R_Judy]

Weigh to go Erin!!!!!!!! Congratulations on meeting your WW goal. I just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy Friday. I guess it already is. ::yes:: Have a great day.

[DoeWDW]

:jumping1: WW GOAL!!! :jumping1:

Dear princess: Lulu, I'm so excited for you!!! :jumping3: :jumping3: :jumping3: I know how you struggled with the idea of going back to WW meetings. I just KNEW you'd meet that goal - with or without them!!

And now we get to the hard part, right? The age old question - what SHOULD I weigh??? Oh, we love our scale numbers, don't we? Weight is a concrete, measurable thing that we can pin a number on - a comfort in a way. Do we have to set a number?? Isn't it enough to just eat healthy food in reasonable amounts and exercise on a consistent basis and let our bodies find their own "happy place"?? Why do we need a number?? I'm pondering these questions for myself these days.

I suppose the big question is - on our healthy living journey, how do we define "success"? I don't know the answer, but I've been asking myself this question a lot lately and now it looks like you're asking the same thing.

The good news is that we don't need an answer right away, right? We can just keep going with our healthy habits and ponder for a while. We'll just keep on keepin' on for now.

Sending you {hugs} and :sunny: for a wonderful Friday!
princess: Doe-Doe

[septbride2002]

:bounce: WW Goal!:bounce:

That is a HUGE accomplishment! ::yes:: Way to go my princess: Erin!

I have to echo everything that Doe said. The age old question of what should we weigh is one of the most frustrating questions ever (Right up there with the meaning of life, and why we are here?) You should be very very proud of where you are and I think you need to do some genuine reflection and journaling. Is this where you want to be? Do you want to try to lose more? Are you ready to start maintaing? Do you want to maintain for the moment and when you start training for the marathon you can start trying to lose pounds again? These are questions that only you can answer.

My 2-cents - it seems to me that you are still losing! Which is AWESOME! Why not keep going? As I said yesterday plug away for a few more weeks and see if you can drop those last 5lbs and then do some more reflection. Whatever you decide you are never ever allowed to stop posting on the WISH! We need you here as our Inspiration! :)

Have a great day princess: Erin!

"There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
Mhhh
That a hero lies in
You "

[Strings]

:cool1: :cool1: :jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1: :cool1: :cool1:
CONGRATULATIONS ERIN! WW GOAL WEIGHT!

I'm so proud of you, and you should be VERY proud of yourself. You've come a long way baby! You've also inspired me to keep on with my journey. People actually do reach their goals!

As for your questions about final goal weight. Sorry, I don't have any easy answers for you. You've reached the preset number that you set for yourself, but you don't seem satisfied. Happy yes, satisfied no. I think you have some soulsearching to do. You will figure out the answer. In the meantime Celebrate your success. What was your goal reward? Sister, it is time for some serious shopping.

Take care of yourself. You are definately a SUPER jock princess: athelete now.

:sunny:
Beth

[Auntmeme]

You are amazing:bounce: :Pinkbounc Congrats on the 2 lbs and hitting your first goal weight:p

So many decisions to make, doesn't it feel great, though. I am sure you look fantastic and feel even better so if you decide to lose more your body will tell you how it feels.

An awe-inspiring moment! Have a great friday!

[toystoryduo]

Way to go Erin!:jumping1: You reached your goal! That is absolutely wonderful!!!:Pinkbounc I am so excited for you!

As for your decision about further weight loss... if you decide to, you can always set a new goal and set out to accomplish that one too. ::yes::

Erin, thank you for the inspiration that you are! Go ahead and celebrate your success! You deserve it!!:Pinkbounc ::yes::

Have a great weekend!


Tracy:wave2: :teeth:

[lulu201]

Oh, my gosh. You all are so awesome. :grouphug: Judy, Doreen, Amanda, Beth, MeMe, and Tracy--you have made me feel so special. You know I'm tearing up here; no one understands this quite like you do. Thank you all for sharing this with me. I can't tell you how I appreciate you.

The other night Dr. Phil was on The Secrets of Extreme Makeover and he was going over his seven points to success. Are you familiar with them? Well, #7 is about having a circle of friends or support system that will encourage your healthy lifestyle, and you and all my WISH friends are certainly that to me--and more.

There are times I wish I could explain to other people the incredible power of the WISH and how important it has been to my journey. For me to make the changes that I've been making, I've needed so much support--not just like in a large once a week meeting like I used to have at WW--but rather, personal daily (sometimes hourly :p ) support, and you have given it freely and openly to me.

Hmmm, a reward for hitting WW goal: I'm going to Disney World!:teeth: Not 'til January, but I'm going!

Again, :grouphug: to all,
Erin

[lulu201]

I'd like to interupt this massive celebration party for a brief service message to myself :

Even though I am princess: Lulu basking in the :sunny: of hitting my WW goal for today, business is business, and I must establish my plan for today.

1. Vitamins: :D
2. Water: 32 oz. done, at least 32 oz. to go.
3. Exercise: I'd like to shoot for 4 miles, but DD is home (1/2 day at school) and I'm not sure what I'll end up doing with her.
4. Food: It's now officially the weekend and I have tons of flex to burn, SO, I'm going to spend a little here and there as I see fit.
So far, b was fruit salad, oatmeal, and coffee=6, I had an extra coffee while running errands today=1. Lunch will be tuna salad and some celery sticks, I think at 4, and dinner will be two slices of mushroom pizza at 18. Total should be 29 (22 T, 3 AP?, and 4 flex).

Edits: lunch was 5 points, not 4. Did 2 miles on the treadie, so only 2 AP. That'll mean at least 6 of the flex with a total of 30.
Had more water. I think I want a nap. I went over my journal from last Fri.--yesterday, and I walked a total of 15.89 miles last week. Today's 2 miles doesn't compare with last Friday's 4.25, but it has me going in the right direction for the upcoming week. I can smile about that.

Now, let us resume the party already in progress! ::yes::

:jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1: :jumping1:

[Auntmeme]

Party Party Party You well deserve it - congratulations again::yes::

[lulu201]

:cool: I'm sitting here, still soaking up the warmth and :sunny: of all the good wishes that you all sent to me yesterday. Thank you, again. :D

So many of the things my WISH buddies said struck a chord with me. . .Doreen's, "how do we define success" and Amanda's "you're still losing," and Beth's "happy, yes. Satisfied, no" are phrases that I need to tie together. Another thing that was even more apparant to me was the while it was fun to announce and to get the kind congratulations of everyone, nothing really changes when you hit the goal. It's like when Lisa Z. hit the 100 Day Cheat Free Challenge and then turned her clippie back to 1--you just have to keep on keeping on. Like MelanieC says, "It's a journey, not a destination."

So, number one--that's what I'm going to do. Keep on keeping on, striving for a healthy life. Leading that healthy life is THE definition of success for me. For now, I'm going to try to keep losing--I'm not going to try any kind of WW maintenance yet (no adding extra points to my target). I'm happy with the changes in my body and in my behavior, but I'm not satisfied yet. Will satisfaction EVER come? That I don't know, but I'm trying to be confident enough in my belief that I'll "know it when I feel it." Do I need a number to strive for? I don't know. If I do, I'm back to thinking I'd like to try on 145-150 and see how that feels, but maybe it'll be 150-155? I'll just wait and see.

Will I keep numbers in my siggie? Maybe. . .maybe not. Jury's still out on that one. I've done enough thinking this morning--heck, I haven't even had my coffee! Everyone's still sleeping,
though, so this is the perfect time to write. :D

It all comes down to this: the plan for the day!:p

Yesterday's stats, first:

1. Vitamins--25/31; I've missed only one day this month!
2. Water--24/31; I've missed only two days this month!
3. Exercise--21/31; I've exercised for three weeks out of this month!
4. Food--22/31; I've stayed on plan over three weeks of this month!

Guess what the plan is? :p

1. Vitamins--will take.
2. Water--will drink.
3. Exercise--plan is to get on the treadie as soon as I take DD to her rehearsal. I want to walk through 2 CDs. I have a sore throat and a cold (small, not raging), so I'm not going to push the speed. This will be an endurance mission! :hyper:
4. Food--will stay on plan. Yesterday was a fun day of spending flex points:rolleyes: . I had some mushroom pizza for dinner, a mini-cinnabon at the mall, and some popcorn as a late night snack, BUT I was still on program and I still have points left in the flex bank! :Pinkbounc Yeah, there are days I really like WW! :p
Today I'm back to oatmeal and coffee for b, a salad for lunch, and tonight will be shrimp for dinner. I'm thinking 22 T, at least 3 AP. . .that should cover it just fine.

Did you think I was going to write a novel here? :D Maybe THAT should be my goal--"Musings from the WISH." :p

Oh, I did treat myself to some new CDs as a little goal reward--one was the Best of Patti LaBelle--now I can hear my "New Attitude" song without having to be on the treadie walking to my SHAPE 3 CD!

I'm moving onward, gals. :grouphug: --
Erin

[cinmell]

Erin,
Congratulations on reaching your WW goal! That's an awesome accomplishment, you should be very proud! You are so right when you say that leading a healthy life is the definition of success, it's so important. Keep up the great work, you are truly and inspiration and you provide motivation to me. I hope you have a wonderful day and congratulations once again!

:wave: :wave:

[septbride2002]

Sounds like you did lots of reflecting! Good for you! I'm glad to hear that you are going to keep going "Never give up! Never Surrender!"

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

Have a wonderful Saturday:sunny:

All that serious thinking before coffee how did you do it?

What music seems to be the best for a good 1-2 mile walk at 15 minute pace?

[lulu201]

Update on Saturday:

1. Vitamins-:D
2. Water--32 oz.
3. Exercise--coming right up
4. Food--5 so far, salad soon

MeMe, I love my SHAPE CD's. Since I only have the intermediate and advanced, I usually pop in the intermediate for a quickie walk (15-20). At least I get a brief warm up--no cool down, though. I have WW and Jane Fonda audiocassettes, but the SHAPE are my favorites.

Time for lunch. . .

Edit: Lunch was 9

Exercise was 3.65 on the treadie in 57 min. No time for anything else today.

Finals for the day:

1. Vitamins 26/31
2. Food 25/31
3. Exercise 22/31
4. Food--stayed on plan! 23/31

[toystoryduo]

Erin,
I love your plan to keep on keeping on!Have a great Saturday, Erin!:sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good Sunday morning!:sunny: Hi, Tracy!:wave:

It's a brand new day and it looks like it could be sunny one like yesterday. Today's a full day--I play at church this a.m., will run to get some produce afterwards, then will stop at KMart, and THEN will come home and continue working on little projects that I want done before my mom comes on Saturday. Then we're going downtown (into Philly) to see DD in a concert at the Kimmel Center, Philly's most prestigious concert hall. It's a big huge deal, and we're all very excited--it's going to be a great time. There'll be little time for the DIS, but that's as it should be, I guess. Other things first. . .

The plan, though, is there every day.:D

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise--I'll do as much as I can, time-wise. Also won't be bad physically to only do a little bit--I have a sore throat and headache again this morning. Maybe some coffee will help the headache (ya gotta love those medicinal qualities of coffee!) and drinking more water will help the throat. Time will tell.
4. Food--22 plus AP; I have 4.5 flex left. Maybe I'll eat them?

Gotta find the cortisone cream and help little Mickey with his feet. His thyroid tests came back negative, btw, and it looks like he's stuck with allergy problems for him (and me, his primary bather) to deal with. What 'cha gonna do, right? He's my buddy, I guess the least I can do is wash his feet a few times a week.

Time to get moving into the day. . .

Erin

Edit: Except for my jello tonight, I'm done eating for the day.
Walked Mickey, but I have some Achilles heel pain--that's all I'm going to do. I'll still count it as exercise. I'm still trying to get my water down; I had my vitamins. I don't think I'll be back tonight. I'll turn my clippie and do my stats tomorrow.

[Desiree]

Wow you do have a full plate today! I hope you'll be able to get everything accomplished that you hoped! Have a great day today! :sunny:

[DoeWDW]

Dear WISH-sis,

I sent you a PM, but I wanted to stop by your journal and send you some extra vitamin C enriched :wizard: for that cold you've got! When it rains, it pours, girlfriend, and you look like you're getting lots of rain. :( :umbrella: Just hang in there and turn that flood into a cruise :boat: - ride the waves, sweetie! I'll be by often to keep your spirits up and cheer you on.

I hope the concert today was fabulous - you must be so proud of your daughter and her choir!

Take good care of you, dear Erin, for you are most definitely worth it!! :sunny: :sunny:

:hug:

[lulu201]

I just lost my whole journal entry, and now I don't have time to do another one! Oh, well, if forces me to be short and sweet for a change! :p

Last night was absolutely amazing--the concert was fantastic and the whole experience will be one we all remember forever.

Stats from yesterday:

Vitamins--27/31
Water--26/31
Exercise--22/31--was going to count walk with the DPup, but no
Food--24/31

Plan for today:

1. Vitamins
2. Water--fill that mug and DRINK!
3. Exercise--quick two miles on treadie is all I have time for
4. Food--22 T plus 2 AP. Lots of fresh fruit and veggies

B will be the usual at 5.

More later.

Edit #1:

Had the vitamins. :D Walked the dog and did a quickie mile. Sorry, but that's all I can manage. :D Have had about 40 oz. of water so far. :D Had a salad for lunch at 9=14; Will have fruit salad (1.5), pb sandwich, and jello for dinner=6.5, total so far is 20.5. Will have to scrounge around for another 2.5. I love when I have that "problem." ;) Maybe a yogurt and some fat free biscotti w/afternoon coffee?

Took the dog for his haircut, went to the vet for more meds, picked up doggie doo in the yard :( , took the dog for a walk (is this guy high maintenance or what??????), made fruit salad, jello, and baked a bunch of chicken strips. Finished the laundry and put it all away. Now it's time to go to work! :faint: Hehe! I'll finish up the day later.

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: :sunny: Good morning, dear princess: Lulu!! :sunny: :sunny:

If things get overwhelming today, you can take a mental break and imagine yourself relaxing at the palace, with servants at your beck and call to fulfill every wish and do all the work for you! ::yes:: Aaaaaahhhhhhhh, sounds like a place I'd like to be, for a few weeks anyway! :teeth:

We're going to let our healthy habits carry us through the day. We know how to do this - we could practically do all the healthy stuff on autopilot by now! Besides, it isn't a burden to eat healthy food - it's a gift that we give ourselves. We like gifts, right? :D

I'm sending you lots of :goodvibes and I'll be walking through the day with you in spirit. :happy1: As always, you're in my thoughts and especially in my prayers.

:hug: , dear WISH-sis!

[Desiree]

I'm so glad the concert went well. It will be a memory to cherish for many many years to come!!!

Wishing you a great Monday!

[married2grumpy]

Wow, you are doing great! Having just started WW I can only imagine how good it must feel to reach goal.

That's awesome!

:cool1:

[ZerasPride]

Hi Lulu!

I just caught up with all the goings on with you and your journal. First, I know I'm a bit late for the party but congratulations on reaching your WW goal! :bounce: :bounce: :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :jester:

As I read your progress, I wanted to cry, tears of joy for you but some tears of sadness for me. I always thought that reaching goal would mean something magical would happen in my life but you have shown me that if I want magic and changes, I have to make those things happen, losing weight isn't some magical happening that will make everything alright. I will still have the same bills, same job and frankly the same "me" that I see in the mirror everyday. I needed that reality check. Thanks so much for sharing your feelings with those of us still striving to reach that place called goal.

I know you can get to your eventual destination, whatever weight that may be. I have decided that when I can wear a particular size, then I am at goal. I am going to try not to let a number on the scale dictate things to me. If I can wear a size 10 and weigh 190 pounds then that's where I'm stopping. Now, of couse, I know I'll need to be much smaller than that to wear a size 10 but I think you know what mean.

I've rambled on your journal too long. I just really want you to know how very very proud I am of all that you have accomplished and all that you will accomplish. You are such an asset to WISH and a true inspiration! Please keep up the fantastic work!!! :)

[septbride2002]

Don't you hate it when you lose a nice long post! Very frustrating! Have a great day today Erin!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Erin,

You must be one proud Mama. The concert sounds fabulous. I hope your day goes well. Your plan for the day looks good.
:sunny:
Beth

[lulu201]

Good morning! :sunny: Uh, wait, need a little more :sunny: :sunny: . OK, the truth: I need a LOT more!:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

OK, now I'm ready to start the day.:p

Yeah, feeling more than a little tired today, but I'm willing to ride the wave into the DZONE. I'm going to pack a healthy lunch to take to work and goodness knows, I've been on this cruiseline before, so I'll just wish myself a bon voyage and set sail.:boat:

Thank you all for checking in. Lisa Z., :hug: to you. Like you, I'm faced with those same bills and same issues that I had before, but you know what? The "me" has changed--and the change has been more than physical. I think I have a new sense of myself--more belief in my abilities and in my personal God-given strength. This healthy living journey has changed me and while there are aspects of the day to day that are all the same as before, there is a difference in life now. Maybe it's just in the small things--moving without pain and discomfort, catching glimpses of myself in a mirror, seeing the twinkle in my DH's eye, not being uncomfortable around people I haven't see in awhile (I'm not wondering if they're assessing my weight in a negative way), but the differences are all there. I have some of those "what will I do" questions when I finally settle on a goal weight range--it's been fun to get new clippies and to strive for the changes--will I find the same satisfaction in staying the same?? But then I figure I'll just set up new challenges and goals for myself to celebrate. I've got to keep having those clippie parties!:p For me, hitting the WW goal was a celebration (thanks, WISH buddies) AND a let down--but maybe that's what happens when you achieve anything big. From the holiday let downs we all experience after Christmas, to the settling in after a wedding, to the moving to a new house--the emphasis for me has to be more on enjoying the journey and not just the destination itself. It's turning the clippie back to day #1, it's eating the oatmeal for breakfast. . .it's coming here to the WISH to start the day. :p

Uh-oh, I'm getting deep before I've had my coffee. . .always a dangerous thing.

Stats from yesterday:

1. Vitamins :D 28/31
2. Water :D 27/31
3. Exercise :D 24/31
4. Food :D 25/31 used one flex (I didn't eat dinner until 9 p.m. and used a point for some fruit salad)

Plan for today:

1. Take the vitamins.
2. Drink at least 64 oz. of water
3. Exercise one mile on the treadie
4. Food--23.5 points (22T, 1AP, .5 flex)
b--will be oatmeal and coffee=5
l--pb sandwich or tuna salad w/veggies=5
d--2 chicken taco supreme=10
McDonald's lowfat vanilla cone=3.5

Keeping my eyes open for the joy in the day. . .
Erin

Edit: 1. Check , 2. 10 oz. so far, 3. Check 4. Had 5.

[DoeWDW]

My deep-thinking WISH-sis Erin,

We focus so much on our goal. We yearn for it, we work long and tirelessly to attain it, we achieve it,.....and then what?? You're right, it's a part of all life's big events. I struggle with it to some extent after every Disney trip. :p In a way, I'm dreading the half marathon, because I know this same feeling will hit me.

But every time I worry about those feelings, I look at the alternative. If I never set any goals, if I never try, then what kind of a life would that be? Would I be happier? I know I wouldn't.

When I look back on my life, it is the big events I remember, the big achievements I'm proud of. I don't remember those feelings afterward. I think the time after is a time to regroup, to recharge and to search for the next goal, to come to terms with all you've achieved and the hard work it took to get there, to look at how you've changed and grown in the process.

That's what it's about, right? It isn't about the achievement as much as it's about how we've had to grow and stretch and challenge ourselves to attain it. We're better people, wiser and stronger, just because we set the goal and strived to achieve it. We can feel better about ourselves because we went the distance and didn't give up in the face of obstacles.

Oh my, now I've gotten all philosophical in your journal. :rolleyes: Thanks, though, for the opportunity to reflect on what it means to set our goals and then work toward them. There are times when I wonder why I do it? Why not just live moment to moment and forget about this goal stuff that can be so hard! Now I think I see - it's not about the goal, it's about discovering a better me!

I wish you a peaceful happy day filled with laughter and smiles and blessings. :sunny:

Love and :hug:

[lulu201]

:hug: , Doreen. Thank you so much for expressing your thoughts and sharing them with me here in my journal. I'll be carrying them in my heart all day.

Love,
Erin

[marsh0013]

i know i'm very very late for the party too, but i have to add my congratulations! :bounce: erin, i know you are still continuing on your journey, and i know it will be one that you never end, and even if this is just your "first" goal, i'm so proud of you for making it! :jumping1:

can i just tell you how i love to come to your journal and read out your menu plan for the day? and let me explain why. i always think, ooh, maybe erin will switch it up today and *not* have oatmeal...and then i think to myself...self, are you crazy? erin will *always* have oatmeal for breakfast. you're the one that got me started on my favorite breakfast (pb/banana oatmeal), and i think the world would start spinning in the opposite direction if you skipped oatmeal one day :p

so keep eating that oatmeal, and keep taking good care of you, you deserve it :hug:

[Strings]

Wow Erin,

Today must be one of those reflective days, huh? Both you and Doe made wonderful statements about attaining a goal. I hope that one day, I will be struggling with the same problem. I do think I will be celebrating for a few weeks at least. You've made some amazing changes in your life and self. Savor them.

I hope you have a fabulous Tuesday.

:sunny:
Beth

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Erin! Your post is so right on this morning! I have found in my life that I am always setting goals - I tend to also become way to focused on those goals. LOL! I'm a business major- what can I say! My friends have told me that they can tell when I don't have a project to focus on because I tend to get antsy. When you decide on a goal and reach it you will just have to come up with a new goal! Maybe it will be to run a full marathon! Maybe it will be to read one book every month, maybe it will be to join a softball team, volleyball team, or some other sport.

~Amanda

[lulu201]

:sunny: Hello, it's WEDNESDAY! :sunny: I'm having a bit of a hard time getting my pre-coffee thoughts together, but here goes nothing:

First, my stats from yesterday.

1. Vitamins--29/31 :D
2. Water--28/31 :D
3. Exercise-25/31 :D
4. Food--26/31 :D Stayed on plan. All I can say is, thank you, God for sugar-free jello. It was a lifesaver last night when I got home from choir last night at 9:30.

My weight loss has been getting quite a bit of attention lately. People have asked me all kinds of questions and made all kinds of comments, from wondering if I have cancer to telling me I'm "half the woman I used to be." :p One that struck me, though, was a comment yesterday from one of our teachers. She said, "it looks like you're working really hard. You really have to learn to say 'no," don't you? I thought about that for a minute and told her I didn't feel that way anymore--at least I don't at the moment, anyway. I feel like staying on plan and eating in a healthy way is EASIER than having to fight with food and make never-ending decisions re: "should I eat this, should I not. . ." I also find that WW is so flexible. Heck, if I can eat a Cinnabon on a "diet," I can't complain, you know what I'm saying?? This way of healthy eating is a workable structure for my life and one I'm grateful for. There's something in the "Thin Tastes Better" book that refers to the liberation of food control. . .I'll have to find that and quote it here.

Enough now. I'm feeling an extreme time crunch this week, so I'm sorry I'm not getting around to journals much--even less than usual. I know, however, that you're all understanding of this, and I appreciate it immensely.

The plan:

1. Vitamins
2. Water--LOTS
3. Exercise--1-2 treadie miles
4. Food--22T, 1 or 2 AP; trying to save flex for the weekend when I'm traveling to get my mom--there'll be lots of restaurant eating.

:grouphug: ,
Erin:

Edit at 9:35 or so:

Dashing out to make my 10 a.m. class. Hi, Beth and Doreen. Thanks for your :D messages this morning. 1. :D , 2. 3 glasses so far, 3. :D , 4. Oatmeal and coffee :p =5

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning! :sunny:

Your attitude sounds sunny and bright in spite of all the demands on your time this week! You are truly walking the healthy living walk and lots of people are noticing!! ::yes:: If you can do it, so can I!! :cool1: :cool1:

I'm not sure I've gotten to that part of the Thin Tastes Better book about the liberation of food control - I've gotten sidetracked with reading "Interview with the Vampire" by Anne Rice (a bizarre book :rolleyes: ). I'll be delving back into it tonight, though, and looking for that concept. Does it tell me how to quiet the voice from the EVM?? :p

I'm sending extra :sunny: and some energy-enhanced :wizard: to help you get through your busy day!

:hug:

[Strings]

Hey there,

I just thought that I would drop by to give you some extra :sunny: and :wizard: for your extremely busy week. Don't worry about journals. Take care of you, and Mickey ;) , instead. I hope you have a good day, despite the schedule.
:sunny:
Beth

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Erin! I love it when people notice my weight loss! I've had a lot of people say that to me as well - you must get tired of saying no alot. And yes it does and every now and then you slip - but I find it easier getting back on program now then I ever did before! Because I like the foods that I can eat on this program! I really don't feel deprived all that often.

I need to check out that book from the library and give it a read!

Have a great day Erin!

~Amanda

[marsh0013]

hey erin, that is so great that people are noticing your loss, how's that for motivation :hyper:

i'm so glad that you are loving your woe! the fact that it's just seeming so easy for you right now is a real inspiration. you really seem to have found a balance with your food...fitting in things that you enjoy (ie, cinnabon), but still making your points. that really is great about ww. the way you are talking about it is making me almost think i want to start counting points again...almost :p

anyway, i hope your busy day goes well and that you find some time to relax :sunny:

[Castillo Mom]

Good morning! I was reading through the last few journal entries you've made. Such deep thoughts, something that's been on my mind as well which I mentioned to Lisa Z the other day. As I get closer to goal, I'm feeling a little scared, but I can't quite put my finger on why. Maybe I'm afraid I'll gain the weight back. Oh well, something to continue pondering.

Wow, so you can have Cinnabon on WW? Cool! Haven't had one of those in about a year. On Atkins maintenance, you can have the occasional sugar-laden treat, but of course I would have to keep those items minimum. But hey, this has to be a lifetime of making good food choices and nothing wrong with having that treat every now and then. Otherwise, how would we stick to it?

Hope you're surviving the D-zone this week. Take care Erin, and thanks for cheering me on!:D :hug:

[lulu201]

Did I say this was feeling easy?:rolleyes: Well, let me take a moment and eat those words--and everything else that isn't nailed down. . .

Yesterday I fell apart, big time. I made it until 8:30 and then I sought comfort in every food item in the kitchen. I binged. BUT, I know why I binged and though I'm not proud of it, I accept it and I'm going to just try to grow and then let it go!

I was stressed--really stressed. I had the strangest day--from the parent who brought her BOYFRIEND to my toddler class (and I quote: "It's so convenient to have an affair with your neighbor") and then retold the events of the previous evening as I was teaching ("my husband locked me out so I had to climb through the bathroom window, but I had thought that might happen, so I had rigged it") to difficulties with a teacher. Lesson plans due at 9 a.m. still aren't done, the dust in the guest room (soon to be my mom's room) is an inch thick, PMS is raging. . .AGH!:crazy:

But you know what? It's all good. :D In between all the STUFF were many special, happy moments with other children and families. DH and I are supporting each other through the craziness. . .it'll all work out. Unfortunately, I fell off the wagon, but is that anything new????? Nope, I'm just going to dust myself off and get back on.

Final stats from March:

1. Vitamins: 30/31-96%:D
2. Water: 28/31-I just didn't have time to get it all down. 90%
3. Exercise: 26/31--83%
4. Food: 26/31--83%

I didn't have any specific goals to hit, but I can say I'm pleased with my percentages. There is certainly room for improvement, but this is the best I've ever done. I've learned a lot this month--I even learned how stressed I have to be to resort to a binge!;)
Lucky me, now I can work on that!:rolleyes:

Today my plan is just to hang in there!

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise--honestly don't know if I'll get to this. It depends on how fast I get my lessons typed.
4. Food--the day opens with me taking a friend to breakfast (no music at the preschool today) at "The Talking Teacup." I know it'll be some kind of quiche, but I'm not sure what else. I'm not too good when I have trouble figuring out the points, but I'll do my best. I'm going to try to eat light today so I have at least a slight chance of hitting my April goal at weigh-in tomorrow, but it's not looking good.

So, in conclusion. . .yep, I'm loving my program until I'm stressed out and :scared1: and reaching for medicinal carbs (specifically popcorn and triscuits)! Definitely something to work on for April.
I might be late in getting these goals down on paper--after breakfast I have to clean everything in sight and then head to work until 8 p.m. I'll try to get back before tomorrow, but I doubt it.

:grouphug: to everyone. I appreciate your comments and support; I'm going to visit everyone's journals as soon as the dust settles (but with the dust I have, it could be awhile yet.:p ).

Erin

[DoeWDW]

My dearest WISH-sis Erin,

I am sending lots of :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: your way! Can you feel them???? You are under so much stress lately AND in the middle of the D-Zone - a little binge is perfectly understandable.

You may even feel the need for a couple extra medicinal carbs today. Girlfriend, if that's what it takes to help you get through the day, then I say go for it! Do NOT stress out over your food along with everything else today. You and I both know that these feelings are temporary and in a few more days you won't even WANT the medicinal carbs anymore.

You'll come through all this just fine, in time. Try to ride the wave :boat: as best you can but please do not try to be "perfect" with food and exercise along with trying to resolve everything else. If you want some exercise, put on some good music and dance away your stress for a few minutes - that counts just as much as the treadie and will release those stress-reducing endorphins, as well as soothing your soul!

I'm so glad you're finding strength in DH and savoring the happy moments in your day, despite all that's happening. You are dealing with things in a very healthy manner and I'm so very proud of you! I'll be saying extra prayers for your day today - do you think guardian angels dust?? :p It can't hurt for me to ask, right?? :teeth: :crazy:

I'm wishing you peace and love today!

:hug:

[Strings]

Erin,

Your binge of last night is totally understandable. You are STRESSED OUT! Throw Dzone in there and you have a recipe for disaster. You can ride this wave today, but you certainly don't have to be perfect. You are the one who wrote about not dwelling on a binge, Just move on. You'll be back OP and living the healthy life in no time.

Congrats on those stats. You did a great job last month. Focus on the positives you have done this year.

:sunny: :hug: :sunny: :hug: ,
Beth

[septbride2002]

I would have binged too! OH! MY! GOODNESS! I can't believe someone would have the nerve to bring her boyfriend to a classroom where her kids are!

You did great on your goals in the month of March! Way to go! Be sure to reward yourself for what you did!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Today is a busy one for you, princess: Lulu! I'm sending many :hug: :hug: , plenty of :sunny: :sunny: and an extra helping of :wizard: to help you.

I'll also be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, as always. ::yes::

"Lean on me when you're not strong, I'll help you carry on.
We all need somebody to lean on."

Love ya, WISH-sis :happy1:
princess: Doe-Doe

[lulu201]

:sunny: Good morning. It's Friday. Thank God.

I'm off to do the housecleaning that I never got done, but I wanted to recap yesterday, 4/1

1. Vitamins--:D 1/30
2. Water--:( 0/30
3. Exercise--:( 0/30
4. Food-- 0/30

Yesterday was tough. Food-wise, work-wise, wellness-wise. . .just tough. I didn't sleep much; between PMS, my cold, and the stress, it was hard. Mama said there'd be days like these. ;)

Speaking of my mama :D , DD and I are headed north after work (at 7 p.m.) for a 4-5 hour drive to pick her up. I'm looking forward to it and dreading it all at the same time. Guess I'd better drink a lot of coffee, lol. What I really need is for my mom to be here with us giving us the "mom support" she freely gives. She'll go with me next week to get some blood work done and to my cardiolyte stress test. . .I'm grateful to have her company. I only work Monday and Tuesday next week; the distance from work will help a lot.

Hmmm, healthy living. I was down to 156 earlier in the week; today I weigh 160. I didn't meet my April challenge.:( I know that this is PMS combined with unhealthy eating, but still, I'm finding it hard to accept. I didn't, however, want to NOT get weighed this a.m.; I've got to deal with whatever those numbers are!:rolleyes:

So, this is my life--cruising one day, in the storm the other. I'm holding on, though, and counting my blessings as I go.

I hope everyone has a good day. Hugs to you all--
Erin

[Desiree]

It does seem like a rollercoaster doesn't it, Erin? ((HUGS)) to you. It's been a rough week all around I think. Just hang in there, you are on the right path! I hope today looks up for you and you have a great Friday!

[septbride2002]

:hug: to you princess: Erin! That D-zone and work stress are an ugly combination. I personally do not know how some people manage to get through them without it falling off plan. I know that I do every time. But Cheer Up Darling ::yes:: because the D-zone will go away and the :sunny: will come out and then you'll be kicking all of our butts again with your weight loss. I hope your test go well and I know it will be good to have your Mom around for awhile. One more :hug: and some :wizard: I hope today is a better day for ya!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Just popping in to let you know I'm thinking of you! I hope the trip to & from Mom's house went well!

:hug:

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi, everybody! I'm still around! No, let me rephrase that--I'm a Round!:p My mother is a baaaaaad influence on me and has forced me to eat peanut m and m's all day!:p I can feel myself gaining weightt by the second. Yeah, she really had to twist my arm:rolleyes: . . .

I'll be poppin' by tomorrow; don't know how healthy I'll be, but it's fun having her here. I'll just take it one day at a time. Maybe if I get on the scale tomorrow, it'll shock me back into my healthy living rhythm.

:grouphug: to all,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

I like your Mom already!! :p Peanut M & Ms freely flowing, right?? I'm thinking your house isn't all that far from where I live....maybe I need to come HELP you with all those M & Ms....ya know, I wouldn't want your weight to suffer too much......I don't really LIKE them but I'll eat some to save YOU from eating them......hee hee!!!! :crazy:

Glad to hear you're back! I'm sure you'll be back on the wagon soon! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Hi princess: Erin. I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you today! I hope everything goes well and please let us know!

Did your Mom bring any M&M's for the rest of us? It is only polite to share ;)

~Amanda

[lulu201]

Wagon?:confused: What wagon?:confused: You must mean the CHUCK WAGON!:p Oh, yeah, I'll be on it, that's for sure!

This morning I had a fasting blood test done, so it doesn't seem too bad that I just finished my oatmeal--and two biscotti. I AM going to take my vitamins and drink my water, though. Plans include a little sandwich for lunch and some fruit salad; something along the same lines for dinner.

The m&m party has stopped for the time being (did you know my mother said Sundays on Lent are "free" days???), but will resume on Easter, I'm sure. I'm hoping to just hold my own through the week.

I think I have to go take a nap--I'm so relaxed now that she's here and problems at work are temporarily resolved. . . Add that to my DZone fatigue, and I'm almost to dreamland.

I miss you guys and will start making rounds again later in the week. Thanks for popping by Doreen and Amanda.

:sunny: and :D ,
Erin

[septbride2002]

Erin - enjoy the nap.

Yes Sundays are not counted in the days of Lent. :) I don't remember the reason why - something to do with a day of rest - I can't remember. I learned that real quick when I was a kid though!

~Amanda

[Strings]

So NOW you tell me about Sundays. I'm thinking off all those years of abstaining from chocolate. I'll try to think of it as calories I didn't eat.

I'm glad you are enjoying your time with your Mom. She sounds like fun. Enjoy every minute.

Have a good snooze.
Beth

[Auntmeme]

I was cracking up reading through your pages.:laughing:

And how do you get so philosophical before coffee? I can barely drink my coffee & read the paper at the same time and forget about talking to me in the morning.

Any how, your mom sounds like a prize, bring on them m&ms. You'll be fine, we all basically do the same thing, must be a WISH thing;)

Hope your Monday is happily moving along:wave:

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning, princess: Lulu! :sunny:

I hope you are relaxing and enjoying your Mom's visit! I'm sure you're having too much fun for journaling - which is the way it's supposed to be! Don't feel bad about it - just soak up the time with your Mom.

Thinking of you and praying for peace and blessings to surround you! :sunny:

:hug:

[lulu201]

All I can say is : :scared1: ! OH, MY GOSH! I stepped on the scale this morning and I think my screams could've broken the glass from here to Memphis! Did anyone have an unexplained chip in their glassware?? :confused:

Let's just say that this morning I'm paying for my little m&m party this weekend--big time! OK, I know that some of it is water retention, but most of it is because of all the good-timing I'm doing.

So, my plan:

Continue the good-timing!:p

No, that's not good. The revised plan:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--2 down, 4 to go.
3. Exercise--uh, not part of the plan.
4. Food--had banana oatmeal and coffee (5), but can't make too many promises for the day. I've got to work until 5:30, go to another science fair DD is presenting at by 6:00, and then leave for choir to be there as close to 7 as possible. I'm just going to wing it. Tomorrow I'm taking my mom to the Talking Teacup for breakfast and then we're having a girls day at the mall--DD will be home early from school. I'll TRY to use my good judgment (but not at the expense of having fun. :p ).

MeMe, Beth, Amanda, and Doreen--your posts made me laugh this morning. Thanks for the :sunny: you bring to my life.

:grouphug: ,
Erin

[Strings]

The way I look at it, if you don't make the promise, you're not breaking it. Try to get through your unbelievably busy day. Good Luck to DD at the science Fair. It seems to me that you are a princess: at winging it. Enjoy yourself.
:sunny:
Beth

[septbride2002]

So that is what that was! They were reporting it on the news here - of course scientist were saying that they thought it was a huge flock of birds flying over the city squaking. ;) Just teasing!

Okay - so you know what to do. Get back on plan, drink your water, and exercise (when you can). The scale will go back down in the end. Enjoy the time with your Mom!

~Amanda

[ZerasPride]

I just wanted to stop by and bring a little :sunny: to your morning. Take care of yourself today! :)

[marsh0013]

hey erin, it sounds like you're having a great time with your mom, even if her being there isn't so great for your weight! :p i just kinda had the same type of thing with out of town visitors in. but then again, i'm on a scale sabatical (sp?), so i don't know the damage :o

definitely use good judgement, but enjoy yourself, just like you said. it's not like this is a regular thing for you, you have to enjoy your time with your mom. it's kinda like a mini-vacation. and while on vacation, i think it's okay to let the food thing go...just a little bit :tongue:

anyway, you have a really busy day today and tomorrow, so i hope everything goes well for you and that you have a fabulous time! :bounce:

[DoeWDW]

Thinking of you today, WISH-sis, and lifting you up in my prayers for a day that is filled with love and happy times. A day at the mall with Mom - fun!! It seems to me that you may not have fun activities planned for tomorrow but it will all work together for good in the end!

:hug:

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin,
Stopping by to WISH you a wonderful day today. Have a great time with your mom and girls day at the mall! That sounds like a lot of fun!::yes:: :sunny:

Tracy:wave2:

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

Have you recovered from your very busy day yesterday. I hope you have a few minutes to relax today. Are you reading anything good at the moment? Here's some :sunny: for your day.

:sunny:
Beth

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Erin! You made me laugh when you said your plan was to contiue with the good-timing.:p Can I join you? No, not until August!

You're a busy bee this week and I admire what you do. Wish I could sing or play an instrument but I don't they'd allow me to do it publicly.:teeth:

Have a great weekend!:D

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I just wanted to send you some :sunny: your way. I sent you a PM too.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Hi WISH-sis!

I'm hoping your day was as :sunny: as possible and you had good results. No matter what, you are certainly healthier now than you were prior to starting WISH last August, so celebrate all the healthy things you've done for you!!

Love ya,

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I know you had an early start today. I hope the day goes well. :sunny: :hug: headed your way.
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!
Stopping by to send some :sunny: and :wizard: your way. Hope you have a wonderful weekend and a nice Easter Sunday. Take care!

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu201]

Hi, all. :wave: Remember me? I'm a WISH buddy, but I haven't been around much. . .:D . I'm just checking in, though, so you don't think I jumped ship.

I've been noticing some not-so-good things since I've been off program this week. First of all, my skin looks awful. I haven't been getting my water in, have had way too much caffeine and sugar, and I'm paying the price for it. Yuck.

Next, I've developed an uncomfortable thickness around my middle. When I get up in the morning and look in the mirror and see my belly looking all the more rounder again. . .YIKES!

Now, you'd think that all this would shock me into making healthier food choices and it has, to a degree, but truthfully, I'm continuing the party:p , but in a less grand style. I'm trying to be choosy about the treats that I take in, and I'm trying to stay away from the carbs. Oh, my gosh, I'm such a carb addict! After not having things like tortilla chips and pretzels in the house too much, I'm finding that when I eat them, I'm almost sucked into some addictive response. . .scary.

Anyway. I have had my plan in the back of my mind, and here is where I am today:

1. Vitamins--:D
2. Water--3 :D
3. Exercise--maxed out on the cardiologist's treadmill. The techs there told me that was enough exercise for one day.:p I liked those people.:p
4. Food--peanut butter sandwich on lite bread and coffee at dr. (7), biscotti in the coffee shop (3 or 4), small salad w/ chicken, olives, and drsg (about 8), dinner--?

It won't be cheat free, no way, no how, but that's OK. I'm just along for the ride right now.

Thanks, Tracy, Beth, Lisa C., Doreen, Amanda, Marcia, and Lisa Z. for all stopping by. It's always fun to hear from my WISH buddies!

:grouphug: ,
Erin

[lulu201]

Had to post this before I forgot. My father-in-law is here visiting w/my mother-in-law. He looked at me and said, "You could blow away in the wind." Now that is one I've never heard!:D That was sweet.

Today hasn't been too good, health-wise. Forgot the vitamins and most of the water. Had a donut around 11 a.m., will have dessert later. Have to say, though, my eating hasn't been compulsive today--no bingeing. I'm happy about that.

I'm hoping I'm wearing my size 10 suit tomorrow; I haven't tried it on since March 28th when I wore it to DDs big concert. Wish me luck!;)

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Warmest wishes on this Easter day! :sunny:

I hope you enjoy wearing your beautiful new suit! You've sure worked hard for that!! ::yes::

Tomorow, we'll be back to business, right?? I'm afraid I'll need a partner to help me back on the wagon....is there a wagon around here???? :tongue: :tongue: :tongue: Maybe we can boost each other up when we find it, OK?? :teeth:

Lova ya, WISH-sis! :happy1:

[lulu201]

:Pinkbounc Happy Easter, everyone!:Pinkbounc I'm wearing my pink suit and rejoicing in the happiness of Easter! :D

I'm also celebrating the end of Lent: one chocolate chip cookie, a piece of pound cake, vanilla coffee, a reese cup, and a snicker's bar. :rolleyes: Did I mention it's the end of Lent and I can eat chocolate at will?????

Doreen and I are packing our bags and are getting ready to get back to the healthy living highway tomorrow. I'll be on the real highway, taking my mother home and I know that it's going to be hard, but I'm ready. The vacation from point counting needs to be over. I want my structure, my vitamins, my water, and my dearly beloved treadie. The title of next week: "How Lulu Got Her Healthy Lifestyle Groove Back." Stay tuned for the previews. :p

We went to the sunrise service (I had to play), then I left DD in her choir robe, DH with his drum sticks, and DM in a back row pew--all getting ready for the 2nd service. I had to take a movie back, so I stopped at home and took my vitamins and will bring my DM her raincoat. I'm off to service #3--such is life for a family of musicians.:D

Easter Joy to all,
Erin

[DoeWDW]

"On the road again! Just can't wait to get on the road again!" Can ya hear Willie Nelson singing?? :p

Have a safe trip to Wellsboro, WISH-sis! See ya when you get back! :wave2:

[Strings]

Welcome back to reality Erin!

I'm sending you some:goodvibes today to help you make healthy choices. I know you can stay OP today.
:sunny:
Beth

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin!
I hope you had a wonderful Easter Sunday!::yes:: Have a great day today!

Tracy:wave2:

[septbride2002]

Hi Erin! I think we all needed a bit of a break this weekend. Glad to hear you will be jumping back on the wagon with us. It is more fun when you are on board!

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

Does chocolate have calories after Lent? I'm sure it doesn't.

Hope your Easter was great. It sounds like we were all on the same road and now heading back. Be careful cause that groove thing can get a little funky:p

Have a wonderful Tuesday:wave2:

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: :sunny: :sunny: Good morning, princess: Lulu!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

I'm sending extra :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: since we won't be seeing the real :sunny: for a few more days! We'll make our own :sunny: with our bright smiles and our healthy habits!!

WISHing you all the best on this Tuesday, WISH-sis! :happy1:

[lulu201]

OK, well, I was kind of back on Monday :rolleyes: , but then I had to travel and eat out a half dozen times, so I'm here on this rainy Wednesday to say that TODAY I'M REALLY BACK!:Pinkbounc

Today is going to be my first cheat free day in April. I've been off plan for almost two weeks and I am paying for it big time. However. . .I'm here now and ready to get back to work and to my healthy living lifestyle.

Goals for today:

1. Take the vitamins (I think I still know where they are. . .no, now that's not true. I had some on Sunday or was it Monday???)

2. Drink the water. I've got to get my big WW mug ready to go.

3. Get on the treadie and walk 1-2 miles--whatever time will allow after getting DD off to school.

4. Stay on plan. Target is 22 points. AP will be 1 or 2. I see oatmeal, tuna, fresh veggies, hard-boiled egg--that kind of stuff in the line up for today.

Today is going to be brutal. My body has been high on carbs and white sugar for almost 14 days and I know it's going to give me a fight today for the wrong kind of stuff. Oh, well, I'm going to go forward anyway. :hyper:

Erin

Edit #1:

1. :D
2. Two glasses finished.
3. :D
4. B--5.5

Making progress. . .:moped: moving down the healthy living road.

[DoeWDW]

Look at you go!! :moped: You are on the MOVE, girlfriend!! It's a good thing they don't give out tickets for speeding down the healthy living road!! :teeth: I'm going to ride on your coat-tails and :sunny: attitude!

I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday!! It looks like the :sunny: is headed back to our area tomorrow and the weekend is supposed to be beautiful!!! Any plans for outdoor walks this weekend??

Now I'm off to chug some more water - you're ahead of me in that department - I gotta catch up!! I want to be :moped: down that healthy living road with you - don't want to be left behind!!

Smile, WISH-sis!! :happy1:

[Strings]

:hug: Erin,

I'm glad you are back. Your body may rebel for a few days, but it will thank you. You'll be back in the 150's in no time. You've done it once. You'll do it this time too. I am really proud of you. You are right back in the swing of things. Keep it up! You will be cheat free today! I'm sending


:goodvibes :wizard: :sunny: to help you achieve your goals for the day.

:hug: ,
Beth

[septbride2002]

Yeah! Erin is back! :Pinkbounc :bounce: :wave2: Girl! It is hard to get back on track when you give yourself a long break - but I have all the confidence in the world that you will be able to do it. Just remember baby steps and slow and steady wins the race!

LOL! This song popped in my head when I was reading your post, "Well it's a great big beautiful tomorrow!"

~Amanda

[honeymo78]

Erin - good to see you back here and back to healthy living. It looks like you have a good plan for the day and just take it one day at a time and you'll be back in the swing of things in no time.

[lulu201]

:sunny: Hey, it's Thursday!:Pinkbounc Don't know exactly why I'm bouncing at that, but what the heck. :p

OK, let's get down to business: I was good on my goals--but not great. The food thing got me down. I worked from 9:30 to 8:15 and I didn't pack enough food to get me through, so I came home starving and overate. I didn't binge, but I ate over my designated points for the day. I won't call yesterday a failure, but I'm not moving my bear ahead yet.

So, I'm going to try again!

1. Gotta take my vitamins.
2. Gotta drink my water.
3. No treadie today. I work from 8:30 to 8:00; no time to do it and keep my sanity also.
4. 22 Target points; 2-3 flex.

Tomorrow I get weighed and show the results of my party-time to the world. Gulp.

Off I go. Thanks, everyone, for offering your support. Please keep on rooting for me--I really need it.

:grouphug:,
Erin

[Strings]

Hi :Pinkbounc Erin,

Keep that water going sister, and wash away those pounds. You seem back on track, and I know that bear will turn tonight. I hope you have a suitcase packed with food for your extra long day. I'll be thinking of you. Sending some :goodvibes to you.
:sunny:
Beth

Here's some :wizard: for your weigh in in the AM. Hopefully you will be pleasantly surprised.

[DoeWDW]

Dear princess: Lulu,

I hope you are working hard to take good care of yourself today. These long days are tough, girlfriend, and I hope you're not putting everyone else's needs ahead of your own.

I miss our walks, too, girlfriend. :happy1: Don't worry, we'll find a way to get together. ::yes:: Maybe we should both get cell phones with lots of minutes - that way we could walk and talk without being in the same place! :tongue: Technology can be a wonderful thing! :teeth:

I hope today goes smoothly and you encounter lots of happiness and smiles!

:hug:

[toystoryduo]

Hi Erin,
Wow! Sounds like this has been a very busy week for you. I hope you have some time this weekend to relax and have some "Erin" time.::yes::

Sending you :wizard: for your weigh-in. Have a great day!

Tracy:wave2:

[lulu201]

Well, what can I say? I'm a shell of a person at this point, but I made it through the day on program! Bounces for myself!:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Now, if I could be this happy when I get on the scale tomorrow morning:rolleyes: .

Gotta go veg in front of "The Apprentice". . .


Oh, good-bye John--next week it's John Stevens!!!!!!

[lulu201]

:confused: Would somebody tell me why I have this big clock in in my siggie??:confused:

I'll get to the point: this morning I weighed 164. Oh, my. That's a total of 4 lbs. gained after my two weeks of fun. Gotta get that off, so I'm going to give myself one week and if I'm still carrying it around by next Friday, I'll change my weight in my siggie. I'm hoping that if I'm careful this week, I'll see some good results.

The plan:

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise--I know, I should get this done, but I have to get DD to school then have the cable guy coming at 8 a.m. I'll do my best, that's all I can say.
4. Food--22 Target plus 6 flex should more than get me through the day.

I'll stop back in again in a little while--
Erin

[DoeWDW]

Some of the WISH clippies are not showing up at the moment. Your clock will go away when they're fixed. No worries - I'm sure the tech team will take care of it.

You are a brave woman to confront the scale this morning. I'm sure you were not happy with the number you saw. I'm in the same boat and your brave facing of the scale led me to confess my own scale number in my journal. Sounds like we both have some losing to do to keep our clippies and siggie weights. I like your idea of waiting for a week and then changing those numbers. We deserve a week to make some progress.

You're still way ahead of where you were last August, Erin. Our weight will fluctuate up now and then. Fortunately you know what works. Shall we walk this road together? I'm not quite ready to start yet (give me another 3 days) but I'll catch up, I promise.

Hang in there, Erin! :sunny:

[Strings]

:hug: Erin,

I know that you are frustrated by the number on the scale. Just try to remember the great time you had with your mom. You know this will only be a temporary setback. You are a very determined woman, and you will get back to where you want to be. We'll help you on your journey.
:hug: :sunny: ,For your weekend,
Beth

[Castillo Mom]

Hi Erin! Don't worry about those 4 lbs. You've come this far so I'm sure they'll be gone soon.

Ooh, that clock is irritating isn't it? We want our clippies back!;)

[lulu201]

Hmmmm, it's Saturday afternoon. I took my vitamins, but haven't had near enough water yet. Haven't walked yet, but the day's not over. I'm kind of tired--may go take a nap. I haven't counted points today, but I'm not binging either--I'm kind of hanging loose.
Monday is my day to hop on that wagon and zoom down the healthy living road. I'll have all my flex points in the bank and can make a well-planned start.

Today was a good day at work. I wasn't sure AT ALL about working on Saturday's again, but DD and DH were there, too--DH was teaching, and DD was answering phones and doing some computer work for me. It was fun for all of us to be there together. Tonight we're going to watch some movies while I do laundry and then tomorrow's church and R & R. Definitely some walking.

Speaking of walking, after dinner I'm going to put on my sneakers and put some mileage on this body of mine. I won't be back to the WISH until I do. . .

Erin

[lulu201]

Happy Beautiful Sunday!:cool: It's so beautiful out--the warmth and sunshine have really fed my spirit. When I'm done here I'm going to put another load of laundry in the washer, grab a book and head out to the patio with the dog. Ahhh, Spring--ya gotta love it.

Today I've been on plan and I have to give all the praise to God above because last night I was NOT on plan and ate whatever I felt like. I know that's not where I want to be, though, so I woke up, gave the whole issue over to Him, and haven't looked back. Lots of water today, lots of exercise, vitamins, healthy food choices--many good decisions. I am taking things minute by minute and step by step, just walking in faith that I can get the job done!

My goals for the remainder of April:

1. Take my vitamins every day.
2. Drink my water every day.
3. Get in some form of exercise every day--a bike ride, even a mile walk counts.
4. Stay on the WW plan for the next 12 days (13 including today).

Today someone at church commented about how I've "lost a lot of weight." I know that that is indeed true, but I don't feel like it. The few extra pounds I've gained make me feel, well, tubby. My clothes fit and all, but I can feel my roundness and it's not comfortable. I'm much happier in the 150s. I'm going back there!

Off to the laundry now.
:D Erin

Edit:

b--2 hard-boiled eggs, 2 coffees=6
l--sandwich, fresh fruit, pretzel, 3 olives, gingersnaps=12
s--1/2 grapefruit=1
d--4 oz. chicken, chicken/rice, broccoli=8
dessert--later will be s.f. jello

Total so far today=27

Menu for tomorrow:

b--banana cinnamon almond oatmeal plus coffee=6
s--1/2 grapefruit=1
l--sandwich=5
cut veggies=0
fresh fruit salad=1
d--chicken of some kind

Exercise for tomorrow: early a.m. bike ride, 30 min. walk on treadie, and a walk for Mickey

Have to go drink more water. . .

[lulu201]

Here are my current stats for the last half of April (we'll pretend there never was a first half:rolleyes: ):

1. Vitamins: 1/13
2. Water: 1/13
3. Exercise: 1/13
4. Food: 1/13

I have a full bank of flex points today (they always turnover on Monday morning on my little calculator) so I'm going to try for a strong start today.

Goals for today:

1. Take the vitamins.
2. Drink at least 64 oz. of water.
3. Exercise: walk the dog, ride the bike, walk the treadie for 30 min.
4. Food: 22 target points plus 2 AP (only from the treadie walk)

This morning I'm home putting away laundry and doing some curriculum planning work. Later I'll head out to the store to pick up an air mattress and some music for my students then head to the studio. It's so nice out, I think I'll look for some capri pants in my closet--hey, Amanda, did you hear that? I'm gonna wear capri pants, too! :Pinkbounc :D

OK, I'm off into the day. It feels good to have a plan; it'll feel even better to get rid of all these extra pounds!!!!!!!!

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Your goals for the rest of April are a great idea! I really hadn't thought about just starting now and setting goals for the next 12 days of the month, but I may just do the same.

I'm feeling "tubby" too and you're right, it's uncomfortable! If I could drop these extra couple pounds, I think it would help me feel more positive about many other areas of my life. So, count me in! I'm climbing back up on the wagon with you! I'll admit that 12 days sounds like a pretty ambitious goal at the moment (I'm not sure about the next 3 hours! :p ) but if I never set the goal and try, then I'll never get there.

I think I'll follow your lead and spend a little time in prayer giving it all to God. I know that I am not capable of doing it alone.

Onward and downward we go, Erin! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:cool1: :cool1: Here are Doreen and I, walking the healthy lifestyle walk--taking it hour by hour today! :p

Goal update:
1. :D
2. Two glasses down
3. Walked the dog
4. Food--oatmeal (1), 1/4 cup skim milk (1), 1 Tbsp. almonds (1), and 1/2 banana (1) plus coffee w/creamer (1)=5

Edit #1:

3. walked the dog and rode the bike

[septbride2002]

I hear ya Erin! I am loving my capri pants so I know you will too! I am going to pretend the first half of April never happened as well! We'll just gloss right on over those first 2 and a half weeks and concentrate in the now!

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I love capris. I plan on buying at least 3 pair this weekend at the outlet. None of mine fit, so I'm in my kakhis. Your goals look great, and you sound determined. WTG!

Have a great one,
Beth

How's Mickey doing?

[DoeWDW]

You sound like you're on track today! Glad you've answered the "grapefruit" question! I bet it tastes so yummy - like it's full of sunshine! :sunny:

We're gonna make it today, girlfriend! :cool1: :cool1:

EDIT: 8:25 PM
I did it, Erin!! I hope you made it too! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[lulu201]

:cool1: That's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, we do it, uh-huh, uh-huh.:cool1: Yep, Doreen, we've made it through the day!

Time for bed, but I'm happy to report:

1. :D vitamins 2/13
2. :D water 2/13
3. :D exercise 2/13
4. :D food 2/13

YAHOO! :Pinkbounc

[lulu201]

Today is Tuesday, April 20th, 2004, and I'm ready to move into the day. Kinda slowly now, 'cause I haven't had my coffee, but I'm moving nonetheless. By the way, Beth, I got some s.f. vanilla syrup for my coffee, so I'm greeting the day in a princess: kind of way!

The plan for today is as follows:

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise--walk the dog, walk on the treadie as long as I have time for this morning 15-30 minutes.
4. Food--I used 3 flex yesterday. Today I'll have 22 target, 1-2 AP--I'm going to try to leave the flex alone, but if I use it, I'd like to use less than 5 points.

Off to get my lunch and snacks ready and unload the dishwasher.

Beth, Mickey is do only so-so at the moment. He has some swelling and itching on his left front paw; the others are red, but not puffy like this one. I washed him yesterday with maalaseb (is that how you spell it), cleaned his ears, gave him his pills, put some hydrocortisone on the puffy paw, and put some antibiotic cream on an inflamed spot on his upper lip (from biting on his paw). I'm going to bathe his paw again tonight; if things don't get better, he'll have to go back on his steroid for awhile, but I want to avoid that if I can. Thanks for asking.

Have a great day, everyone!

Erin

Morning edit: Seems dear Mickey ate DD's homework (for real!); when we came downstairs this morning it was shredded on the floor. Had to tape it together and write a note to the teachers--no exercise this a.m. Instead I'll take a walk at work. I'm aiming for over 10,000 steps today--if I do it, it'll be the 3rd day in a row!
Plus walking at work will give me more time on the WISH :teeth: !

Goal update:

1. :D
2. One full glass
3. Walked the dog
4. Breakfast--my favorite oatmeal and a large cup of coffee w/my vanilla syrup;)
Snack will be fresh fruit salad=1
Lunch will be sandwich (5), fresh veggies (0), and big pickle (0)
=5
Dinner will be 2 chicken taco supremes at taco bell=10
That leaves 3 or 4 points up for grabs :D

Onward and downward. . .

[DoeWDW]

Dear princess: Lulu, you are doing a FABULOUS job!! You are now acting very princess-like and taking good care of you!! We can do this for one more day!

:cool1: :cool1: Here we go, walking together down that healthy living road!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Sounds like you have a great day put together! Poor Mickey and his paw! I hope it feels better soon!

~Amanda

[Auntmeme]

Sounds like a great Tuesday so far. Keep it going:wave:

When are we getting together for a longgggggg walk?

[honeymo78]

Erin - your idea for new goals for the second half of the month is great. You've been doing a great job this half of the month. Keep up the great work. I hope you enjoyed the nice weather we had the past few days - it looks like we're getting some cooler weather again.

[lulu201]

:wave: Good morning, everyone! It's Wednesday! :wave:

OK, let's update the stats:

1. :D Vitamins:3/13
2. :D Water: 3/13 This one was tough yesterday.
3. :D Exercise 3/13 Got in a walk at lunch up the street to the bank. DH came with me--that was a special treat!
4. :D Food 3/13 This one was rocky--used more flex than I had planned, but I'm still in the game.

Today:

1. Gotta do this still
2. None yet
3. Hitting the treadie in a second, walked the dog already
4. Food: b=5, s will be 1, l will be 10, dinner will be 7. I'm going for no flex at all today.

I've lost a pound, so I'm down to 163 again. I'm encouraged by that, even though my eating wasn't the stellar yesterday.

We'll have to plan something, MeMe. . .maybe we can get Doreen to come join us. . .maybe MelanieC? What about Stephanie--she's close. Maybe we could have a little DIS meet! :D Maryann, if you read this, maybe you could come, too?

Feeling a little tired after yesterday's long day, but I'm feeling blessed by all the friendly support here. Thank you, girls. :D

Onward and downward, day by day, pound by pound--
Erin

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning, Erin! :sunny:

Have I told you lately how happy I am that we're on this road together? :happy1: I would be giving up without your support and friendship, so I wanted to say "THANKS!".

Sounds like you've got a plan for your day - you're doin' great! I'll be following my plan too! We can get through one more day!

Did I hear of a possible DISmeet???!!! Count me in!! Maybe May 8th???

Did you know there are new smilies??? Here's one that reminded me of Mickey! :dog:

Now, go drink some water! :drinking:

Love ya, WISH-sis!!

[lulu201]

:rotfl: ! What a big smile you put on my face with those smilies, Doreen! Thanks for bringing them to my attention.

Yes, I think we've got it going on: WISH DIS meet on May 8th! Only one problem, though. I have to work until 11:45 and won't be able to get anywhere until afternoon. Do you think we can work around that? Let the planning begin!!!!!!

Doreen, we ARE in this together, so I promise that today I'll :drinking:, but you have to promise me that you'll get in some form of exercise--maybe a walk, if you have sunshine? :cool1:

Latest update:

1. :D
2. 12 oz. down the hatch
3. Mickey walked (hey, that smilie does remind me of my pup),
2 miles on the treadie: 28:42!:Pinkbounc
4. Holding at 5

Off I go. . .

[septbride2002]

I wanna come to a meet :confused: but I live to far away:mad: Oh well I'll just have to be there in spirit ::yes::


I love the new smiles! Here is my kitty and Mickey!
:cat: :love: :dog:

~Amanda

[Strings]

Hi erin,
I think that it's great that you are organizing a healthy WISH walking meet.
You are doing a great job meeting your goals for the second half of the month. You've certainly turned your month around. Congrats, and Keep it Up!

Beth

[lulu201]

Here's the update from yesterday:

1. :D 4/13
2. :D 4/13
3. :D 4/13
4. :( 3/13

Oh, well, 3 out of 4 isn't too bad. I caved last night under my fatigue and DDs tears over a school issue. Weighed in at 162, however, so feel good that I've lost a couple. Hopefully it'll hold 'til tomorrow and I can put my 30 lb. clippie back in my siggie. When I had that big clock, I deleted it.

So, it's a new day, and I know what I'm supposed to do. I'm asking God for the strength and conviction to do it because I'm really tired and today's a long day. I spend the morning at a nearby preschool, meet with one of our teachers, and teach lessons and classes until 6:30. By 7 I should be at DDs school for the National Junior Honor Society induction ceremony :D, then after that :eek: we go to a recital/concert and the high school that one of DDs choirs is singing at. I'm just going to ride it all out and whistle a happy tune!:rolleyes1 Did I mention that when I get home tonight I have to sew DDs uniform for a concert tomorrow?????:teeth:

Gosh, it's later than I thought. I'd better get going. I'll try to check in tonight if I'm not :faint: .

:grouphug: to all,
Erin

[Strings]

Ok Erin,

It is 830AM, and I am now exhausted just reading your schedule for the day. Here's some :wizard: and :sunny: to keep your energy up through your marathon day. If your make it through today, the 1/2 marathon will be a piece of cake. Enjoy!

Beth

Don't worry about journals today. Sit and relax with a glass of wine instead.

[DoeWDW]

Beth I like the way you think!!! I agree, Erin - relaxing with a glass of wine this evening sounds heavenly! Try to stay calm and centered amid the chaos and busyness. I'll be sending calming vibes your way!

Don't stress over your food today - you've got enough going on and realistically, you can't do it all. No need to binge, but don't be too strict about your food, OK?

Drink your water, say your prayers, breathe deeply and rely on God to give you the strength to do all that needs to be done. You don't have to be perfect, just "good enough!".

:hug: and :sunny: , WISH sis!

[toystoryduo]

Wow Erin!
You do have a lot to do today! Sending prayers and :wizard: to help you :boat: through the day. Congratulations on your DD making National Honor Society! :Pinkbounc That is quite an honor!::yes::

Take good care of you today!

Tracy:wave2:

[ZerasPride]

Hi Erin,

I stopped by to check on you. I see you are busy as usual. Your positive attitude is infectious! I hope you will have the opportunity to take some "me" time today as you run around taking care of everyone else. {{{hugs}}}

[DoeWDW]

Erin, I posted a thread on the main WISH board about the WISH Walk in Doylestown on May 8th at 2 PM! I'm excited about getting together again for some good times with good friends!

[lulu201]

Oooh, I'm excited about the WISH walk. It'll be fun to see everyone and get in a good long walk. I hope it's easier for me than it was in October.

I can't tell everyone how I appreciate all the support you gave me for my crazy day yesterday. It helped so much. When I was feeling stressed I'd think of all of your voices of calm and kindness and I'd have to smile. Thank you so much.:grouphug: .

I'm kind of out of it this morning--just wiped. I have the cable guy trying to come again--this is the 3rd appointment in as many weeks to get cable in DDs room. Let's hope 3rd time is a charm. Anyway, I have to straighten up the house, get over to the drs. office, and then off to work, but I hope to get in a short walk today and will drink lots of water.

Holding steady at 162. I get to keep my clippie.:D Feeling less bloated and more like my "new" self.

will check in later. . .
E.

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

Congrats on keeping the clippie. That's awesome. I'm glad you survived yesterday. Hopefully you can carve out 30 seconds for yourself this weekend;) I hope it's a good one.

:flower3:
Beth

[septbride2002]

HI Sweetie! I'm glad that you are feeling a bit better today. It is amazing how quickly the time is filled up during the day isn't it? Dh and I were talking about this last night - we had the whole weekend free until yesterday when we started getting phone calls and figured out all the things we needed to get done. Now we feel that we have no time to ourselves.

I hope you have a great day - and YEAH on keeping the clippie!:thewave: (I love this one).

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

Dear WISH sis, I'm sending :hug: and :sunny: your way for a great Friday!

:Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc KEEPIN' THE CLIPPIE - YAY!!! :Pinkbounc :Pinkbounc

Good for you! I bet you're feeling much better and I'm sure you'll get back on track when things calm down a bit. Just 2 weeks until we get to chat & stroll!!

:daisy: :flower: :daisy: :flower: :daisy:

[Auntmeme]

I'm in for the Carribbean Beach. waiting for Kamy to give all the info. We stayed there for our honeymoon, it's fantastic. I was also liking the all stars, but I'd rather stay with your guys. I can't wait to meet you on the 8th, so far the date looks good to me.

Sorry to hear you were stressing, somethings in the water:p Congrats on keeping the clippie - you deserve it! Have a great Friday:wave:

[lulu201]

Gee, yesterday turned into another run-around-every-single minute day, but today should calm down a bit. I work this morning and will run some errands, but I see a chair and a book in my future.:) The darn cable guy never did show, but at least the house got straightened up!

Yesteray I let myself go off plan (I think it involved beer and pretzels at 10:30)--the evening after weigh in is always the best--but today I hope to really tow the line. After work last night I went to the mall and got some new capri pants, all size 10:Pinkbounc and I want to make sure I stay in them!

DD was at a sleepover last night and is at an all day rehearsal today. She needs a couple of new things, so we'll be back at the mall later in the day. I don't know how she manages it, but she always has the energy to shop!

Yesterday's stats:

1. :D 5/13
2. :( 4/13
3. :( 4/13
4. :( 3/13

Hoping for big improvements today.

Thank you, Amanda, MeMe, Beth, and Doreen, for stopping by and cheering me on. I love all the new clip art! I'll be stopping by to see you all this weekend. I want to cheer you on like you've been cheering me. :cheer2:

Off to drink some water and get ready for work. . .

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Erin, I hope today, the Sabbath, the Lord's day of rest, that you truly do find time to REST! :sunny:

I'm sure I'll be back later to check in but for now, I'm wishing you peace, joy and much love!

[lulu201]

Doreen, DH and I were talking over dinner on Friday night that we have to find a weekend to get away by ourselves. . .when I'm home, I find myself compelled to do the chores that I see needing to be done, and before I know it, the day is gone--even on Sunday. You know what I'm talking about? So far, I've been played at church, gone to pick up fruits and veggies, done the dishes, taken the movies back, and have started the laundry that needs to be done (7 loads are lined up and waiting). I know that I should exercise and do countless other things, but I'm drawing the line right now. Aside from cutting up those fruits and veggies and finishing the laundry--I'm not going to do another darn thing unless I want to! Those things I've done, I haven't minded one bit, but I know that if I don't stop and smell the roses soon, I'm going to let myself get pulled into vacuuming and bathroom cleaning. Those will just have to wait!!

Stats from yesterday:

1. :( 5/13
2. :( 4/13
3. :D 5/13 Mickey and I had a nice long walk in a new park that's near us. If anyone had been watching us, they would've gotten a laugh. Mickey started off strong, leading the way. At the two mile mark, he was trailing behind--we were exactly in reverse. Shortly after that, I picked him up and carried him the last quarter mile. At least he started strong! :dog:
4. :( :( 3/13 Nope, didn't follow through on this again. I did some real soul searching last night and have placed this back in the Lord's lap. He has to help me--I sure can't do this on my own.
I think that a large part has been that I've allowed myself to operate without a plan. I can't do that. I wish that I could be a person who could walk a middle road, but like an alcoholic, I can't walk that path--I'm in control of my compulsive eating or I'm not. So, today, my plan is as follows:

b--my favorite oatmeal and coffee x2=6
s--grapefruit=2
l--sandwich and pickle=5
s--fat free biscotti=2
d--pork barbeque and grilled veggies=7-9

So, that's it and I'm back on my way.

Erin

[Strings]

:cheer2: Erin,

I think a weekend away is exactly what you need. Go for it. Your plan for the day looks great. I bet those size 10 capris look wonderful.
:wave2:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

:rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose: :rose:

Here are half a dozen roses (all I could afford :teeth: ) to help you start your week off on a happy note! They're also here to remind you that April showers bring May flowers - guess that's why we have our grey skies today. I hear by Thursday it will be sunny and in the mid 70s!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

Thanks for all the support you send my way, WISH-sis! It's wonderful that we can cheer each other on :cheer2: :cheer2: through the good, the bad, and the ugly! :teeth: Today I'm aiming for good!

I'm glad you found some time to kick back and relax yesterday! You are a wise woman! I found some time to do the same, so we can both stroll into Monday with genuine smiles!

I hope you have a wonderful day and, in the words of Dory in finding Nemo :fish: :fish: "Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming!" :fish: :fish:

:hug:

[lulu201]

What? Flowers for me? Oh, thank you, Doreen! You shouldn't have. . .but you know that I'm glad you did!

It's Monday and I'm swamped in things to do, but I'm just going to be like Dory:fish: and keep swimming through them all.

I'm really aiming to take good care of myself today.

1. I've taken my vitamins. (forgot yesterday:( )
2. I've had 18 oz. of water so far.
3. I'm going to get on the treadie for a two miler this morning.
4. I've had my 5 point breakfast. At 11 a.m. I'm going to have some fruit salad and some cheese (about 3 pts). At 2 p.m. I'm going to have a big yummy salad (about 10). This afternoon and evening as I teach I'm going to have some fresh veggies (0), and tonight when I get home, I'm going to have some soup and maybe some sugar free jello. No candy, zero, zip, none.

I didn't get weighed today; staying OP yesterday was enough. While I certainly care what those numbers are, I want to really concentrate on positive behaviors this week. I'm at Day 21 of my cycle, so this is a week where I need to make self-care a priority.
I'm also looking at food triggers again and trying to limit them in my diet.

So, I'm onward and downward, putting it in God's hands and doing the best I can. I've got my eyes out for the simple abundance of joy that's around me. . .

Erin:flower:

Edit: I've got to make this short since I'm taking Mickey for his pedicure at noon :teeth: .

1. :D
2. 50 oz. so far
3. :D Two miles at 29:00
4. b--5, s--3=8 so far. Target plus AP=24 I'm not using any flex today and that's final!

[Strings]

:cheer2: :cheer2: Go Erin!

You did great this weekend. Focusing on all the positive behaviors you've achieved this past week is a great way to stay on track during DZONE. Your plan looks great for today.
:smooth:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

You GO, girlfriend!! You are on track for a FABULOUS day!!

I'm continuing to lift you up and ask God to send His angels to be with you today! :angel: :angel: :angel:

[Castillo Mom]

Good morning Erin! Dropped by to say a quick hello in hopes that your great attitude and sunshine will rub off on me!:sunny:

In answer to your question, yes, we're getting an early dose of summer out here in California. It was 90 degrees yesterday and will be again today with some areas hitting the 100s. I love warm weather though.

You're doing do so well, size 10 capris! I'm size 12 right now, so I'm right behind you. Maybe I'll be in a size 10 by August.

You're an inspiration Erin, thanks and have a great week! :flower:

[lulu201]

I made it through the day cheat free!:teeth:

Stats to wrap it up:

1. :D 6/13
2. :D 5/13
3. :D 6/13
4. :D 5/13

I finished the day at 23.5 points; .5 under my plan. No flexies used.

Tomorrow, the plan is the same. I'll have to get up early to walk my two miles before I take DD to school. I'll have to be on the treadie at 6 a.m.

Plan for food:

Breakfast--lite toast w/pb plus coffee=5
Snack--grapefruit=2
Lunch--sandwich=5
Snack--veggies=0
Dinner--two chicken taco supremes=10
Snack--4 chunks of chocolate chip almond biscotti=2

Total for day 24/ no flexies planned, so no flexies may be used!

Off to bed. Thank you for stopping by Lisa C., Doreen, and Beth. With friends like you, it's easy to be cheerful. :flower1:

Erin

[lulu201]

Tuesday, 4/27. . .

It's a beautiful :sunny: day; all the dogwood are in bloom:flower: .
I love springtime.

I've taken my vitamins, got up early and walked on the treadie for 2 miles, and have had about 22 oz. of water so far. I'm going to go put together my lunch and my snacks for the day and then head on off to work. I've had 6 points and have 18 more to use for the day.

Tuesdays are full days--after work I'll run over to choir practice. I won't be able to do much (if any) visiting of journals, but I will stop in here before bed time to wrap things up.

To all my WISH friends: I'm so grateful for you and your presence in my life. . .thank you for sharing the ups and downs of the journey with me. :grouphug: .

Erin

[DoeWDW]

Oh Erin!! Wait a minute!! You forgot to pack this!!!

:hug: :sunny: :flower2: :sunny: :hug:

Hope your day is a good one!

[Strings]

:hug: Erin,

Here's some :wizard: to help you with your busy day. Sounds like you've planned (and packed) for it. Have a great one.
Beth

[ZerasPride]

Hi Erin,

I'm stopping by to check on you and want to remind you of something you said the other day: I'm really aiming to take good care of myself today. I hope with your busy schedule you make time to take care of you. I'm going to remember your words and try to take care of myself today too!

I hope you have a wonderful week! :)

[lulu201]

Thanks, everyone; I had my bag packed with all kinds of things goodies thanks to you--flowers and hugs and sunshine and kindness--all the things I needed to make it a good day.

I'm fading fast here, but I wanted to check in before I let Mickey out and hit the hay.

1. :D. 7/13
2. :D I had about 100 oz. today of water alone! 6/13
3. :D Walking at 6 a.m. got it done and over with before I even really woke up! 7/13
4. :D Stayed at 24 points and used no flexies. I have to admit that I'm hungry, but if I go downstairs to eat, I'll have to eat some "pointless" veggies and I've had enough of them today. 6/13

Sweet dreams, everyone.

:sleep: Erin

[lulu201]

Wanted to get in here quickly before the day began. Today I work until 7:45 and then head over to DDs "district jazz festival." I'm just going to put myself on cruise control:boat: , have an extra cup of coffee this afternoon :p , and smell the roses:rose:
whenever I can.

I'm also going to do my best to treat myself like a princess: with healthy eating, lots of water, and some exercise. Here's the plan:

1. Vitamins
2. Water
3. Exercise--two miles at 8 a.m. on the treadie
4. Food--Target 22, plus 2 AP. 31 flexies left in the bank (I found
out I had miscounted my points!. :mad: )
Breakfast--6 (Peanut butter toast and coffee)
Snack--grapefruit=2
Salad--buffalo chicken w/blue cheese dressing=11
Snack--fresh fruit salad w/cheesestick=3
Dinner--sandwich=5
Snack--fresh veggies
Dessert, if wanted--two pieces of fat-free biscotti=1
Total: 28 points, (22+2+4 Flex)

That sounds like a lot of food, but I have a long day and will need lots of fuel.

I'm off to make lunches. Have a great day, everyone!

Erin

Edit around 8:35: vitamins taken, 8 oz. of water gone, 2 miles walked (28:35), and snacks, lunch, and dinner packed. ::yes::
It sounds like a day fit for a princess: !

[DoeWDW]

Congratulations on making it through yesterday!! You did a great job of treating yourself well!

Erin, you've got an ambitious schedule ahead of you today but you've planned well and you sound upbeat. Best wishes for a wonderful day!! :sunny:

[septbride2002]

I'm tired just reading about your day! But you have such a great plan ahead of you and some yummy meals planned that I know it will be a piece of low fat chocolate cake!

~Amanda

[honeymo78]

Hi Erin - hope you have a wonderful wednesday.

It looks like you're doing a great job staying on plan with food and exercise. Two miles in less than a half hour is great. Keep up the good job!

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I hope you have a quiet weekend plan, because your week has been nonstop. Great job getting your exercise in despite the schedule. Keep it up.
Beth

[DoeWDW]

:sunny: Good morning, princess: Lulu!! :sunny:

You had such a good start to yesterday! I hope all went as planned! I bet the jazz festival was great and it gave you an excuse to just SIT DOWN and listen for a little while - probably appreciated after your long day!

How are you doing today?? Are you off to a good start?? I'm sending you some extra Energizer Bunny :wizard: so you can keep going and going during your busy day! :moped:

Enjoy the beautiful weather today - find time to go outside and soak up a little sun :sunny: :sunny: :sunny: even if it's only for a moment between classes!

:hug:

[lulu201]

First of all, let me start this day off with a :grouphug: Steph, Beth, Amanda, Doreen--your care and concern mean the world to me, and as I sit here in the D-Zone (day 24, don't 'cha know), totally whipped from the week thus far, your TLC brings a tear to my eye.
It's a tear of gratitude for all the love you so freely give. Thanks, girls, I appreciate all of you so much.

I'm hanging in there, I'm happy to say, but I'm beginning to feel weary of body. Today I'm not exercising--I have some kind of muscle strain in my right leg--and it's just as well, I need a bit of rest. Tomorrow I plan to hit it hard; maybe with some bike riding early in the morning, after I get DD off to school. Hmmm, now that I think about it, maybe I'll do it BEFORE school if it's warm enough. I love to be up early to greet the day. I have to confess, though, I don't like to wear a helmet when I'm riding alone, but last week our pastor at church had a serious bike accident (he had a helmet, thank goodness) and fractured all kinds of bones in his face. After hearing about that, I'm motivated to wear mine--what would've happened if he hadn't had it? All you bikers out there, please be safe!

I'd like to "weigh in" on Amanda's discussion about compulsive eating--this is definitely my problem. My psychological relationship with food. . .I don't know how it all came to be and I don't know where to begin to unravel it, but I'm hoping that during the next few months I'll gain some insights through reading and self-examination. I do think that my goals for May will focus on a "one day at a time" mentality that encourages abstinance (sp) from binge eating. Years ago I went to an Overeaters Anonymous meeting and didn't really think it was for me, but I know there's some connection there and I have to explore it further. So much of what I've learned on this journey: that I need to rely on God, that I need a daily plan, that I should only focus on one day, that I need accountability and support from my friends--all of those elements are part of the OA 12-step program. I want to thank Amanda and Lisa Z. for talking about compulsive eating on Amanda's journal thread; it's encouraging me to look at my own situation.

So, here I am, ready to start a new day. The :sunny: is shining, and though I'm tired, I'm grateful and happy to be doing what I love.

Yesterday:

1. :D 8/13
2. :D 7/13
3. :D 8/13
4. :D 7/13

Today:

1. Gotta take those vitamins
2. Gotta drink the water
3. No exercise other than teaching my preschool classes. :D Those little guys do keep me hopping!
4. B--oatmeal and coffee=5
S--1/2 grapefruit=1
L--leftover buffalo chicken salad=11
S--cheesestick=2
D--sandwich=5
veggies=0
Dessert=s.f. jello?

22 target, 2 flex (that will leave 23 in the bank)

I'm going to walk off into the day now. Bye!:wave:
Erin

Edit:

Final stats from today:

1. :D 9/13
2. :D 8/13
3. :D 8/13
4. :D 8/13

DH and I ended up going out to Bertucci's for lunch. The sandwich that I had was also my dinner. I couldn't really count points, so I don't know how many I ate, but I don't care. The victory was that I didn't binge! I took over half of my meal for dinner and didn't use the day as an excuse to go off plan and eat whatever I wanted (and believe me, it's easy for me to grab that excuse when I'm tired and in the D-zone).

I'm going to bed happy tonight and satisfied that I treated myself well today.

:wave2: Erin

[DoeWDW]

You really did do great yesterday, Erin!! You should be so proud of you for being true to yourself and making good choices!!

Did you get your bike ride in this morning? It had to be the perfect morning for a bike ride - sunny, blue skies, moderate temps, blooming trees and flowers. :sunny: :sunny: "This is the day that the Lord hath made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!" It's easy to rejoice on a beautiful day like today!

It's Friday! :happy2: I hope you've got some Erin-time planned into your weekend. Hopefully Sunday will truly be a day of rest, after all the musician duties are fulfilled at church.

:sunny: :sunny: Have a sunny day, princess: Erin!! :sunny: :sunny:

:hug: and :flower2:

[lulu201]

Warning: this post may be even longer than usual!

:sunny: Good morning, everyone! :sunny: What a beautiful day it is! :sunny: I haven't been out on my bike yet, but I'm going to head out after I finish doing a little WISHing.

:wave2: Doreen. I'm going to stop over and wish you a good day in a few minutes, but I saw your post to my journal and had to come right away to read it. YAY, it's FRIDAY!:happy2: :happy2:
We're celebrating together!

We're all looking forward to the weekend here. . .DD has to sing at the shore, so DH and I are going along for the concerts, and then a day on the boardwalk and on the beach. We can't wait; we just love the shore! :Pinkbounc The weather is supposed to be nice, so we're packing our lunch, our beach chairs and our books and are hoping for some hours of restful, healing time with the sun and the sound of the waves. We're taking the day off from church on Sunday as DD will have two girlfriends coming home with her on Saturday night. In the afternoon DD sings again with a school group at Peddler's Village; in the evening we go to my SILs to welcome home my BIL from his tour of duty in Afghanistan. Sounds like a fun weekend!

I'm trying to hold on to my attitude and my energy level with both hands, but I feel them both slipping a bit. My strategy for self-care has helped a lot this week in the D-zone, and I hope to be steadfast in eating right and exercising through the busy weekend ahead. I lost another two pounds this week, so I'm back to 160. I feel better in my body now.

Tomorrow's May 1st and goal-setting time. "One Day at a Time" is how I'm going to live it. I know what I have to do to treat myself in a healthy, respectful way, so I'm going to set out to do it every day. I want to abstain from binging (or bingeing, whichever is the write spelling :p ). I'm going to keep track of my healthy living days, just as I have been doing, but I won't set a percentage to strive for.

Weight-wise, my goal is to keep losing. I've decided to try for 147 pounds as my personal goal, with 145-150 as an acceptable range. Once I hit that number, I'll strive to maintain. I've chosen that number because it's right in the middle of the bmi normal range for my height. If I get to a weight before that and it feels right, well, then I'll just change my mind! lol

I picked up the book Lisa Z. is reading, "Passing for Thin." It's powerful, and has given me a lot to think about. I'm also reading "Primal Teen," a book about the brain chemistry of adolescents (a must read if you're living with one!), and a light mystery I can't remember the name of ("Miss Julia" something or other). I'm going to take all of my books to the beach tomorrow and read the afternoon away!

I guess I'm ready to begin the day.

1. :D all finished.
2. 8 oz. done
3. bike ride and walk planned
4. breakfast--5
snack--1/2 grapefruit at 1
lunch--salad at 11
snack--1/2 grapefruit at 1
dinner--slice of pizza at 9, maybe some veggies?
dessert--s.f. jello at 0

27 total: 22 target, 3 AP, 2 flex

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

congrats on the 2 pounds. Your weekend sounds wonderful. I love the ocean. Combine that with reading, and I'm on:cloud9: Your goals for May look sound. Enjoy your day and weekend.
:smooth:
Beth

[DoeWDW]

The BEACH!!!! :eek: I wanna go to the beach!!!! :mad: I think DD and I might lay out in the sun tomorrow to work on our tans. Maybe I'll splurge on one of those "background noise" CDs that feature the sounds of the ocean waves and the seagulls!!! We can use our Squeeze Breeze (a water bottle with a fan on top) to spritz ourselves with water - just like the ocean spray! What a great idea!! I'll bring the beach to me!!! Thanks for the idea, Erin, although I'd still rather go to the REAL beach! ;) I hope you have a wonderful relaxing time!! ::yes::

:flower1: TWO POUNDS GONE!!! :flower1:

Good for you!! You've managed to lose a couple pounds while in the D-Zone - WOW!!! Hang in there through the rest of the roller-coaster ride - you'll be sailing :boat: into calmer waters soon!

Enjoy the beach!! :sunny: :sunny: :sunny:

[septbride2002]

Sounds like a wonderful weekend - can i come too?

Congratulations on the 2 lbs loss - you are doing great and I think your goal is a perfect one. I know for the month of May I am going to have to take some of the pressure off since it is going to be a busy month and I know that it will be hard for me to strive to be perfect. One day at a time sounds like the way to go for me!

~Amanda

[lulu201]

Yippee! It's a new month! I love new beginnings! :Pinkbounc

Well, yesterday was Friday, so I indulged--but not too much. I didn't binge and I'm happy about that.

Today we're going to the shore! :hyper: We'll be in Ocean City, NJ, walking the street fair, walking the boardwalk, walking the beach, and then collapsing in a beach chair with books and blankets, just reading and listening to the sounds of the ocean. It just relaxes me completely. :cool:

I'm going to have to make a huge effort to get in all my water today--maybe I'll drink most of it when I get home and I'm close to a bathroom. :p

Finishing April:

1. :D 10/13
2. :D 9/13
3. :( 7/13 I was just too lazy. I used my exercise time to sit in the sun and read instead. :rolleyes:
4. :D 9/13 plus one day earlier in the month. 10 days all together= 33.33 % days on plan, my lowest month of 2004 thus far.

Beginning May:

1. Need to take the vitamins right after I eat breakfast.
2. Will drink water before I go and when I get home from the beach.
3. Will walk and walk today.
4. Will not binge eat. I'll eat regular, healthy meals with one shore treat of my choice.

TTFN,
E.

[Strings]

Hello Erin,

So how was your time at the shore?:smooth: :sunny: I hope you got in some great reading time. How was the street fair? More importantly what was your treat? Hey, I'm on induction again. I have to live vicariously.

You certainly deserve some R&R. Enjoy the concerts.
:wave2:
Beth

[lulu201]

Gosh, did I underestimate when I said I was going to have ONE treat. . .I think I had a treat for everyone on the boardwalk! OK, it wasn't that bad, but it wasn't pretty. My WISH-sis, Doreen, suggested that maybe I was feeling freedom from my structured day-to-day routine, and I think she's right. It was as if I was saying, "I'm freeeeeee! Let me try some of that water ice. Just a bite of Monkey Bread, please." What was good was that DH and I shared all of these treats, but inside I know that these weren't healthy choices.

After reading "Passing for Thin" I have tons of questions about my compulsive eating. Why don't I have the fortitude and strength of some of the women on these boards? Is it just that I don't want thin-ness enough? I can't believe that some people go to WDW and stay on plan! I wouldn't have enough strength for that. . .I wouldn't even TRY it. Why wouldn't I? Is food THAT important to me? And if so, why? What kind of personal discipline does it take to exercise for a hundred days--or more--in a row like some WISHers do? Why don't I have that? Can I get it?:confused: Am I in an OK place BECAUSE I'm not so rigid? But then, if that's the case, why do I abuse food when I'm tired and I know I'm eating only to comfort some place that really can't be comforted with food?

I can't really accept at this point that my eating problem is a disease (like the book and Overeaters Anonymous maintain), but I know it's not healthy. I can accept that it's a problem that needs to be managed--forever. Maybe that's enough of a start?

Geez, this stuff is complicated, but I really feel like I need to uncover some answers. I've done the :yo-yo: forever and I want to be done with it. I know that healthy living goals and plans have to be part of my life if I'm going to lose any more weight and then maintain it; I'm settled with that. Maybe the struggling is just part of my being human? The Weigh Down Workshop or First Place--one of those Christian weight loss programs--says that the weight loss struggle is a an issue that forces us to rely on Him for comfort and direction. That could very well be true for me. My weight loss struggles are something I know I can't manage alone.

Uh-oh, I need to take a break. All this introspection is giving me a headache! :p

I think I'll go take my vitamins. . .
Erin

[lulu201]

All right, I'm back:

1. :D Vitamins; 2/31
2. Working on the water; so far 0/31
3. Will count yesterday's walking the boardwalk and street fair as exercise. Had over 5 miles on the pedometer last night. 1/31
4. Food. Man, oh, man, do I not want to go there. So far today I've had 2 donuts, 4 chocolate covered macaroons (very small), two small chocolate chip cookies, 2 slices of lebanon bologna, and 8 crackers w/small pieces of cheese and a piece of olive on each one. Yuk! I'm going to have a salad for dinner. That's it.

I'm ready to be back on plan this afternoon. I don't have the answers to any of my questions--and maybe I don't have to. Maybe all I need to know is what I already know: I'm a compulsive eater who has to attend to food issues every day of my life in order to maintain my weight or to lose. Even when I indulge, binge, or whatever I want to call it, food and its management are on my mind--I'm not free of it. When I am successfully managing my food issues, I'm more at peace.
I don't know why other people are more successful or stronger than I am and it doesn't really matter that they are. Like Popeye, I am what I am and I can only do the best I can. I know that I will never give up; I will never stop trying to help myself. I guess that's enough to know for today.:p

I'm off to do some family things--
Erin

[lulu201]

Here I am, the first Monday in May. I'm ready to get back on track. . .again.:p

The plan:

1. Vitamins
2. Lots of water
3. Exercise on the treadie
4. Food:
b--banana almond oatmeal and coffee=5
s around 10 or 11 a.m.--grapefruit=2
l--tuna sandwich=5
s--a cheesestick=2
d--large salad w/chicken strips=11

Total: 25; 22 T, 3 AP, 0 Flex

Our days are busy and full right now; weekends are filled with family parties, work, DDs concerts--we're all feeling just about maxed out. I've got to work at keeping myself healthy and balanced. I'm going to continue to do my daily devotionals, but I want to plan on some extra prayer time to keep myself centered.
I'll spend some time with that today. Also have to do some "Mickey Care" today--bathe his feet and face, wash his ears, etc.

My expectation of myself for the rest of May is to stay on plan--no binge eating. I'm going to take it one day at a time--here I go! :hyper:

Onward and downward,
Erin

Edit #1:
Vitamins done, 10 oz. gone. Tidied up the bathroom, one load of wash in the washer, Mickey to be washed next!

Edit#2:
46 oz. of water gone. 3 miles walked on the treadie. Second load of wash in, Mickey all bathed and medicated. Ate my grapefruit snack. Not bad for Day #28 of the D-Zone rollercoaster ride! Next on the list: pick up our bedroom and put a load of jeans away. Lunch is scheduled for 1:30.

Edit #3:
Had lunch, made dinner. Two loads of laundry done and put away, dishes in the dishwasher, bedroom picked up. Things looking pretty good. Now I have to get dressed and go to work! :crazy: Starting to have some lousy cramping. Feeling tired. Maybe a vanilla coffee would help? :p

[Strings]

Hi Erin,

I just wanted to give you some :sunny: since you guys got the rain we had all weekend. I hope you find the extra time for your devotionals. Take care of yourself today.
:sunny:
Beth

[septbride2002]

Good Morning Erin! You sound nice and :sunny: this morning. I'm with you on the one day at a time thinking - that is my motto for the month.

I think May is a month that fills up quickly - especially with Mother's Day being in there which takes up a whole weekend. I know we have every single Saturday booked except for the Saturday over Memorial Day weekend - which I am trying desperately to not fill.

Have a great day today - enjoy your extra prayer time and bathing Mickey!

~Amanda

[DoeWDW]

You seem to be doing very well today!! You've gotten a lot done - I bet you're feeling great! :sunny:

[lulu201]

:sunny: Today is Tuesday. . .:rolleyes1

Stats from yesterday:

1. :D Vitamins are 3/31.
2. :D Water is 1/31
3. :D Exercise is 2/31--did my 3 miles
4. :D Food is 1/31 (finally!)

Plan for today:

1. Take the vitamins.
2. Drink the water
3. No treadie today; will walk 3 miles tomorrow
4. Food: b--oatmeal and coffee=5, s--veggies=0, tuna sandwich=5, nachos bell grande=17 Total for day=27, 22 target, 5 flex (leaves 30 left in flex)

Decided to splurge on the taco bell meal since that's what sounds good to me. I'll curb snacks throughout the day to allow for it. I've got to drink lots of water, though--feeling pretty bloated.

I'm back on week one of the half marathon training program at About.com; I'll do 3 miles M-W-F and 6.2 on Saturday in Doylestown. Total planned mileage for the week=15.2. That's a goal!:Pinkbounc

Thanks for stopping by, Beth, Amanda, and Doreen--you guys are such a steadfast supply of love and encouragement. :grouphug:
I hope you all have a great day.

Onward and downward, day by day, pound by pound--
Erin

Edit #1: had devotions, vitamins, breakfast and about 10 oz. of water. I'm going to :moped: on through the day!

Edit #2: did what I had to do today and got the job done!::yes::

Final stats for 5/4/04

1. :D 4/31
2. :D 2/31
3. :D 2/31
4. :D 2/31

That's a wrap!

[Strings]

:cheer2: GO ERIN GO! :cheer2:

I can hear the determination in your post today. You did a phenomenal job yesterday. 3 miles! and OP! WTG! You are off to a great start this morning too.

Watch out everyone, Erin's walking the walk today.:cool1: :cool1:

Have a good one,
Beth

[DoeWDW]

Erin, you are CRUISIN' :boat: through your day!! :sunny:

I'm starting to feel better - I think I'll join you!! :hyper2: I'm going to make a real effort to stay OP tonight!

:daisy: :daisy: :daisy:

[Auntmeme]

Way to go Erin! Keep up the good job of staying focused. I'm going to check out about.com for the training program also. Did I miss the reservations for carribean beach? I only received 1 email from Kamy, want to make sure to accomplish this amazing goal. Hope to see you saturday. :wave:

[lulu201]

MeMe, I hope you can come on Saturday--I'd love to meet you in person!

Haven't heard anything else from Kamy--I'm still waiting to sign up at the C. Beach, too.

E.

[lulu201]

:wave2: Hi! It's Wednesday! :wave2:

Today's looking simple and straightforward as far as healthy living goes: just do it again. No candy, lots of water, some exercise, meals packed and ready for work--nothing new. Today the routine seems comforting.

1. Take the vitamins.
2. Drink 64 oz. of water.
3. Walk 3 miles on the treadie.
4. Eat approx. 25 points:

b--cinnamon almond oatmeal and coffee=5
s--grapefruit=2
l--salad w/ chicken strips=11
s--fat free biscotti=2
d--sandwich and veggies=5

That's the plan. I'm onward and downward, one day at a time.

Erin:flower3: