My last day at home before going back to work

[becka]

Today is my last day home with DS. :( I have to return to work tomorrow morning at 6:30 and I have to leave my baby at the daycare center (actually DH gets the great honor of dropping him off but I still have to LEAVE him. :( )

I know I have picked a good place but it is still just breaking my heart. I have been crying for days and I know that today and tomorrow are just going to about kill me. Every time he smiles at me I can't help but break down crying because I feel like I will be breaking his little heart by not being there for him like I always have been.

How am I supposed to survive this? It just really isn't fair..... :( These twelve weeks have gone by way too fast.

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there just are not enough sad smilies in the world for how I am feeling....

[Dan Murphy]

Just stopping by to offer a {{hug}} for you, Becka. :sunny:

[debster812]

Becka,

This is the hardest thing you and DH will EVER do with your son. I promise you that. I also promise you that it will get easier every single day you drop him off, and (this is the good part) he WILL BE FINE. You know you have chosen a good center. I have have walked in your shoes. PM me if you need to talk some more.

Debbie

PS--It will be harder on you than it will be on Nathan, if that is any consolation at all.

[Kitty 34]

That's so difficult, I know. {{{{HUGS}}} and good luck!:D

[browneyes]

I think all mom's (and those dad's that had to do it too) feel the same way you do. I remember crying after leaving my dd in daycare. She was 10 months old at the time and it broke my heart.:(

Look at it this way-you and your ds are having an adventure. You can each "tell" each other about your day away from each other. And it'll make the time together even more special. {{hugs}}

What you're feeling is normal. I'm not trying to minimize your pain. I've been there, I know the feeling too well. I just want you to know it's ok to feel kinda down.

[A kid at heart]

Sucks, doesn't it?

[December99]

WOW...doesn't seem like it's been that long since you had him....hope your day goes well!!!!

The Friday before I was to return to work I got very sick - had a very high fever and just was in no shape to do a whole lot (the fever was at about 103 if I remember right, I don't think it was much lower). So I called my mom crying cause I didn't know what to do....my cousin came over and took dd to her house which was near my moms....I cried all day - in between sleeping. Mainly because here I was, a mom and I was sick and couldn't take care of my own child. But...it was great practice for that Monday when I had to return to work. Fortunately for me I had her at a home care with a lady that I knew very well and she was like 10 minutes from work (which was 30 minutes from where we lived). So that did help alot.

[chelsea&austinsmom]

Becka! HUGS to you. I know how it feels. When I had my dd 8 years ago I had to go back after 6 weeks which was very hard, and when I had ds 4 years ago I was able to stay out 14 weeks with him. It was very tough going back and it does get a little easier as the time goes by. I still wish I was able to stay home with them but we nees to pay the bills ect.....

[ChiTownZee]

{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}} It's so hard, I know, but it will get easier. I remember those first days so vividly :( :( :(

[DaisyDebbie]

HUGS, I know how hard this is for you:( Let yourself cry, it's ok. It will get easier. It's going to be hard for your dh, he will probably cry all the way to work too.

[Kermit]

{{{Hugs}}} I've never been on your side of it, but I've been the daycare worker and seen how hard it is on the moms. The good news is that it's generally much harder on them than the baby. By loving your baby, you've taught him that people are wonderful and that he'll always be safe and loved.

[Cindy B]

I know how you feel....
don't worry, he will do fine..

I remember doing the same thing and crying in my car...

[bananiem]

{{Hugs}} to you Becka. It is hard and we've been there too. Try to start a good rapport with the care provider and it will get easier.

[Mary Jo]

<font color=navy>Becka,

I remember that feeling well.

Hugs to you,

mj

[s&k'smom]

I too remember that feeling. I went through it last September. I was even leaving my DD with my husband (he works nights) but it still hurt. Sending you lots of hugs.

[Pam]

I can only offer you lots and lots of {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}.
Pam

[#1 Disney Fan]

All I can offer is some giant-sized-squish-you-till-you-smile {{{{hugs}}}}, Becka.

[nativetxn]

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie. I'm sorry you're feeling sad. Hope tomorrow isn't as bad as you anticipate.

[JerseyJanice]

My heart is breaking for you.

I was in the same situation 6 years ago. It was one of the worse days of my life. It was all I could do to keep from crying at my desk all day.

But I survived and so will you, Becka. Chin up, dear.

[ead79]

I'm so sorry it's your last day home, becka. {{{HUGS}}} for you.

[PrincessMomof2]

HUGS to you.

You will make it and every day will get a little better.

I just recently went back to work myself after having a little girl on March 29th. I am lucky to only have to work 3 days a week and one of these days my husband is home with our newborn and my 5 year old girl.

It is hard to go back to work, but just take extra specail care of the time you do have together. Call offen durring the day to help you feel better that your son is OK.

I am here if you need someone to PM or talk to. Hope is goes well.

[Rock'n Robin]

I went through this 3 times. DD#1 was almost 6 months old and DD#2 was 4 1/2 months old (I had them in spring and went back after summer vacation). DS was almost 5 months old (had him in June and stayed out 1st quarter). I know what helped me was the other moms on the staff, young or old, all stopped to see how baby was doing and how they remembered how hard it was. It also helped me that I know I have summers and holidays off, and that DH gets them ready in the morning and then I pick them up.
One thing I do EVERY DAY I leave for work is kiss everybody whether they are asleep or not--I have never missed one morning kissing the kids or DH, since I have to leave by 7 and usually everyone is asleep. I don't know how long this will work with DD#1 (10) but when she leaves before me someday in HS I'll be grabbing her to give her a kiss anyhow!:D
Robin M.