Fighting against nothing-Comments Welcome

[Blessed99]

Welcome to my journal. My name is Kelly. I just turned 38 on August 5. I need to loose about 200 lbs. For some reason it hit me that I will be 40 in less than 2 years and I don't want to go into my 40's weighing this much. I was watching The Neverending story yesterday with my DD 9 (Kamryn) and was thinking that the characters in the movie were fighting a storm called the nothing. So they had no idea what they are fighting against. That about sums it up for me, I am the one I am fighting against, I am not sure why its a constant battle for me, not sure why I keep fighting against myself! so its kind of like fighting against nothing.
I want to loose this weight not only for myself but also for my DD. I would so very much love for her to have a normal size mom! I want to enjoy things with her like Disney World without having this burden of all this weight! I want to ride rides with her without the fear of not fitting in them. I want to play with her without being too tired all the time.
I was just diagnosed recently with fibromyalgia, so I am sure that loosing this weight will help there too. Today I had no soda, and snacked on fresh fruit instead of junk. I am going to try for more tomorrow.
We have a December 2009 WDW trip planned. Hope to have lots of success by then! Anyone want to join me on this long journey?

[Blessed99]

Day 2
Well, today has been a pretty good day. I have been able to do pretty good about eating within my personal guide lines, I was able to snack on fruit this evening, instead of junk food. :yay: I also walked for 20 minutes after work today. :banana: I am proud of my accomplishments for today. I was able to keep myself from eating a cookie the size of my head after lunch that one of the drug reps brought in.
I kept my short term goal of 4 lbs. in mind.
I know that this is a lifetime journey that I will have to walk forever. But today I feel like I did very well. Emotionally it was a hard day due to everyday stress at work, such as patients cursing at me because they owe a doctor bill, but I kept looking at the big picture and reminding myself that if I ate that cookie, I would be that much farther away from my goal. It is eating cookies like that that got me to where I am today. One day at a time is what its going to take! I can do it! Go Me!!:cheer2: :cheer2:

[jessily]

It sounds like you are off to a great start:thumbsup2 It really is all about small steps. It can be overwhelming to change everything at one time, but if you slowly incorporate healthy foods and exercise you will be successful! You're absolutely right, in order to be successful you need to make it a lifestyle change as there is no quick fix. I'm slowly working on that myself. Sounds like you're doing great! Keep at it:cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Well, Day 3 is just about over. Thanks Jessily for the encouragement! :goodvibes I am proud of myself today. I walked for 29 minutes! :cool1: I have had no soda, no chocolate or other junkfood. Snacked on fresh fruit this evening. I am just trying to get through one day at a time instead of focusing on the big picture. It seems to have worked these past 3 days, so I really hope I can keep myself in this current frame of mind. It takes constant prayer, and support and determination. I am slowly learning to quit looking back at all that I have been through and am trying to look at the present and ahead. I hope to finally start living and having fun instead of living the way that I have for the past long as I can remember so I might as well say 38 years. Keep up the good work me :cheer2: :cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Well, day 4 has came and is now almost gone. Today was another success. I did not have any soda, junkfood, etc. I did not get my walk in today, I had too much to do after work to get Kamryn ready for her first day of school tomorrow. How stressful it is to be starting another school, but hopefully it will be a good school year and maybe the end of the year will bring a healthier Me! I hope to keep up the good work for tomorrow too!

[dare2dream]

Kelly - keep up the good work today. My first couple of days on program usually go well and then I start to slack off.

DON'T SLACK OFF TODAY! KEEP WITH YOUR PROGRAM!

And remember that just because it is the weekend does not mean it is time to eat like a maniac. This is a lifestyle change. That means EVERYDAY 24/7.

I am an empty nester mother of 3. I have two adorable grandbabies. I have lost 30 pounds and still have 140 to go to get to a healthy weight. I have been overweight my entire life.

"I am the one I am fighting against, I am not sure why its a constant battle for me, not sure why I keep fighting against myself!"

I know what you mean Kelly. I am an intelligent woman and I know what I need to do to lose this weight. Sometimes I find myself eating for emotional reasons and not for hunger. I also sometimes feel that I am not good enough and being overweight is my personal punishment.

Kelly, we ARE worth it and we CAN do this!!

Let's have a successful day and meet our personal goals for today. Please check in and let me know how you are doing. TGIF!

[Blessed99]

Hi Dare2Dream :hug:

Thank you so much for your thoughtful message!! :goodvibes It really made my day!

Wow, 30 lbs lost is awesome!! :cool1: I am proud of you that you have came so far! How have you been doing it if you don't mind me asking.
It sounds like you and I are really on this journey together. I would really like to stay in contact with you and maybe we can encourage each other! It sounds like you have the right attitude for success!

Thanks to one and all that has been answering and checking in! :grouphug:
I really appreciate all the support! I knew that I was coming to the right place, what a great group of people!

[Tiger Lily 03]

Kelly, Good job! You are doing it! You are right, you CAN do it!

Keep on keepin' on.

:cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Hey Tiger Lily!:wave2: Thanks for the encouragement!

Well Day 5 has come to an end and I have managed again to stay on track. I had a biiig victory today, a lady I work with brought in 2 boxes of doughnuts from Krispy Kreme and I did not have any of them!!!:cool1: I was soooo proud of myself!

I walked for 30 mins today!:cool1: :cheer2: Go Me!!

The first day of school for Kamryn was a success! So all in all it was a very good day!

[keenercam]

Kelly -- I haven't been in the WISH journals in a long time, but I just read yours and wanted to congratulate you on your huge success each and every day that you have been at this so far. I know weekends can be so hard, so I wanted to send you some good, happy vibes :goodvibes and some encouragement. I hope that you'll continue to check in each day and give yourself credit for what you are achieving one step at a time. We can all do this if we keep up a positive attitude like yours! :hug: Looking forward to sharing your journey! :cool1:

[dare2dream]

Kelly, Kelly Kelly,

You resisted the call of the doughnuts!!

I :worship: :worship: :worship: to you, your highness.

Kelly I am so proud of you. Now don't you feel fabulous for saying no? It's those small victories that can help us reach our goals.

They say it takes three weeks to develop a habit. Keep making those healthy choices to form a habit that will benefit you for the rest of your life.

Glad Kamryn had a good first day of school. What grade is she in?

DH and I are doing a program he found online called fatloss4idiots. It involves choosing foods from lists and generating an 11 day menu. After the 11 days you take off 3 days. The diet emphasizes calorie shifting to confuse your metabolism. Some days you do Adkins type heavy protein menus and some days have fruits and vegetables added. We do it together so that makes it so much easier. He has lost 50 pounds and I have lost 20 on the program. I like the program because each day I have a printed menu of what I need to eat and if I eat anything not on program it will mess up the fat burning process. That is quite a motivator to keep me out of things I should not be eating. I have also learned the hard way that if I buy junk and bring it home I will not save it for a special occasion or let DH eat it, I will compulsively mindlessly eat it and then feel miserable afterwards. I am tired of that constant feeling. I feel better when I stick with my program and feel that fabulous feeling of success.

May we both have a fabulously successful weekend.

PS - Tomorrow is my 28th wedding anniversary. So far nothing special planned. This weekend is our 3 days off the diet. I think I may just get a burger on the grill. No one can grill like my DH the grillmaster.

No matter what I will still work hard to have a healthy day and I hope you do the same.

[Blessed99]

Hey Keenerkam! :wave2: Thanks for the encouragement and joining me on this journey!

Hey Brenda! Happy Anniversary!! :hug: Wow 28 years! Thats awesome!:cool1: Enjoy that burger tomorrow! It sounds like you have a teriffic husband and what great support for the 2 of you to be on your journey together! I know that you will have a good and healthy weekend! It sounds like you are really motivated to stay on track even on your "off " days. Kamryn is in the 4th grade. I read her what you wrote and she said you said like a very nice friend!

Today has been another success! I am happy to report! I went to my 3 year old little cousins birthday party and was not even tempted to have the cake! :banana: I was very proud of myself! And before that, a drug rep brought ice cream to my office today for the staff and I turned it down! :cool1: I have overcome a lot of obstacles today and it was really hard for me because today is the first day I have really felt hungry, but I stayed strong! Go Me!!:cheer2: This weekend is going to be a challenge. I have a birthday party cookout for my sister Saturday and on Sunday have a cousins wedding. I am hoping that doing all that will keep me too busy to think about being hungry. I am going to tell myself that if I were a couple of sizes smaller and healthier that I would probably enjoy both events even more, especially to be able to play outside with Kamryn at the cookout. I am thinking that that will be enough to keep me focused on making healthy choices at both of these events. And knowing that I have friends here to stand beside me is a great big help! Keep me in your prayers for a successful weekend!

[keenercam]

Kelly -- I hope you are having a wonderful day. What an awesome accomplishment you must have felt at the end of yesterday! You are such an inspiration. Keep up the great work! :cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Hey Keenercam :) Hope you had a great day also! Thanks for the good wishes! Its so nice to hear from friends!!:hug:

Today was a wonderful success! :cool1: At my sisters birthday party today, I stayed strong and while everyone else was having cake, I had grapes! I did not feel deprived at all, so I can tell that people are praying for me! So whoever is, I thank you! For exercise today I played a really fun game called cornhole. Basically, its like bean bag toss for adults, or bigger kids, I dont really understand the whole concept, but you keep score to 21 and whoever gets there first wins. My team lost both times I played but it was fun.

My attitude has been really great today, I was really hungry for snacks today but was able to overcome it. Go Me:cheer2: I am so proud of myself, I just hope I can continue!

[dare2dream]

:cheer2: :cheer2: Cheers for Kelly!!! :cheer2: :cheer2:

Grapes instead of cake!! WONDERFUL!! You have succeeded again. I am so proud of you! Keep it up.

I got my burger yesterday but the day went well. Today I am going to a family reunion and taking a boat load of food. I just hope it ALL gets eaten and I do not bring home ANY leftovers.

We played cornhole at DSILs in OH in 2005. DH thought it was fun and built a game for our neighborhood block party that was held several weeks ago. I really suck at it. The guys in the neighborhood who had never played before beat DH the expert. For the block party DH always makes homemade root beer with dry ice. I love to see it smoke as it gets cold. Thank goodness that weekend was also our three days off.

Well off to creating my boat load of food and getting to church. My specialty is veggie bars. They do have veggies but I am not making the 'healthy' version. They are yummy.

Have a healthy day!

[keenercam]

Great job, Kelly! :hug: You certainly have cause to be proud of yourself and to celebrate! :cheer2: Just have a fabulous day today and think about the incredible sense of accomplishment you will feel at the end of this weekend, having come through so many challenging situations with strength and discipline. :woohoo:

[Blessed99]

:) Hey Brenda! Hope the family cookout went well! Hope you made healthy choices and had fun! Did you have to bring home lots of leftovers?:hug:

Hey Keenercam! Hope you had a great day! Thanks for the good wishes!:)

Well, today for the most part was a success. I did have a few cheesepuffs, but really very few instead of the whole bag!:cool1: The only thing I did today was watch movies with Kamryn and then I had to go to my cousins wedding. I was the photographer, so I was up on my feet the whole time taking pictures, but that is what I love to do, so it was fun. I was not able to fit in exercise today except for the picture taking, but tomorrow I will be back on track. Was having a little trouble emotionally today, I think I was just nervous about being in the center of attention as far as the wedding went. I wish sometimes that I could just fade into the background and still manage to take pictures and this was my family that I was around. But I survived and got some great pictures! Well, looking forward to a brand new day tomorrow!

[dare2dream]

Kelly,

Just a few cheesepuffs - great job. DH got cheesepuffs in his lunch today. I am so glad that this is our last day off our program. I am really looking forward to starting again tomorrow.

You are a photographer. What a wonderful talent. DH got me a nice digital camera about the time my first grandson was born about 1 1/2 years ago. I still have not figured out how to use it. YIKES!

I have too many leftovers. Mostly fruit though. I am going to call a neighbor with several little kids today and see if her family would enjoy some of this food. I have to get it out of the house or I know I will eat it all. I am a founding member of the 'clean your plate club' and I have a hard time throwing out food.

I know exactly what you mean about fading into the background. Just yesterday during church I was looking at the front corner of the chapel and thinking that I wish I could hide in that corner and not have people notice me because my weight makes me so different from everyone else. I have got to work on these self esteem issues. When I am on program and in control I feel so much better about myself.

Have a great day today! Monday and back to work. I gather you work in a Drs office. What do you do there? I hope Kamryn has a good day at school. What is her favorite subject? Does she do any extra-curricular stuff? In elementary school my kids just did church and scouts. They did sports in high school. Never outstanding athletes but they enjoyed playing the game.

[Blessed99]

:goodvibes Hey Brenda! Hope you had a terrific day today! Kamryn is doing good. She loves spelling and math. Her very favorite subject is art. She is very artistic. Really good at drawing for her age and very creative. I do work in a doctors office at the front desk check in/out. Most of the time I really enjoy it. We have a good group of coworkers, doctors and patients. Its a family practice office. Some days its :scared1: and other days its ok.
I am sure that you are enjoying your camera with your grandbabies around! Don't worry, there is plenty that I still have to learn myself. I am just a hobbyist. I usually get asked to take friends and family weddings. I have never had any negative feedback, but when they compare my rate to a professional rate, they hardly have any room to complain. But everyone tells me that I take really good pictures. Have a happy and healthy day tomorrow, and good luck on your first day back on program!!:hug:

As for my day today, it went really good. I walked 29 minutes tonight :cool1:
and I have ate well all day today. I decided to make Monday my weigh in day and this week am happy to say I lost 3 lbs!! :cheer2: :cheer2: Go Me!!I was very excited. I am trying not to rely on the scale to make me happy though. I am trying to stay focused on the positives like saying no to junk foods, drinks and snacks. And trying to get up and move more, such as the walking, or just doing things around the house and playing with Kamryn in the yard more, etc. I'm afraid if I rely on the scale and the number don't go down then I will be really disappointed and set myself up for failure, because for me disappointment equals mindless eating until I undo everything I have worked hard to accomplish. Hoping for a healthy tomorrow!!

[karrenlovesmickey]

Way to go my sistah! :thumbsup2 Congrats on losing 3 pounds!!!! :cheer2: Keep it up! You can do it! :woohoo:

Love ya,
Karren

[Blessed99]

Hey Karren!! Thanks so much for posting! I love your user name! I should change mine to Kelly Loves Donald! :lmao: (not all that funny, but I love this little green guy) Thanks for the congrats!

Love ya,
Your Sistah,
Kelly

[Blessed99]

Another day has came and went and all has been well. Walked 30 minutes today.:cool1: Eating has been good. No snacking today. Not really anything going on today. So I am going to sign off. Hope everyone reading has a blessed and healthy day tomorrow!:goodvibes

[keenercam]

Kelly -- You ROCK!!! :hug: Keep up the great work!!! :woohoo:

[Blessed99]

Hey Keenercam! Thanks for the encouragement! :goodvibes
Hey Brenda! Where are you??:hug:

Today has been another good day! Yeah for me! My eating today has been great. My exercise tonight was a shopping trip at the mall with Kamryn. It was nice to spend some time with just the two of us! We had fun, we always end up at Build-a-bear and she always manages to sweet talk me into a bear!I have had a great day emotionally.

[Blessed99]

Well, another day has came and went. Today was successful again. I am on a roll! I ate very well today. I walked for 29 minutes!:cool1: I am so proud of myself. Its been very hard to keep myself from snacking. But so far I have done it. I keep looking at yesterday and telling myself that if I did it yesterday, then I can do it today. So far its working. I really did not want to walk tonight, but I pushed myself to do it and I am so glad I did. I always feel better after walking. So I don't know why I keep fighting against nothing.. But hopefully I will have a happy and healthy tomorrow!

[momof2minnies]

Kelly,
I have been reading your journal and you are truly inspirational to the rest of us.It is a great motto if you did it yesterday you can do it today- I like it!

Remember one thing though the scale is not always a total predictor of what we are doing.There will be some time with large numbers and some plateaus.I say this so you don't get discouraged.I am at that spot now and have not broken a plateau in a while.But boy do I feel better.

Your DD must be very proud of you to see you working so hard.Does she work out with you at all?That is fun sometimes.

Keep working hard and keep posting!

Linda

[keenercam]

Hey,Kelly! How are you doing today? I am so glad that you have been getting your walks in. You will be toning while losing the pounds and that will make you look even better! :woohoo: Keep up the great work! Look at all of your successful yesterdays and think about all the happy tomorrows they will yield! :hug:

[goldcupmom]

Hi, Kelly! Welcome to WISH!!! I've been AWOL (and on vacation) and just catching up.

You're really doing AWESOME!!!! Keep it up!!!

[Blessed99]

Hey Linda, Keenercam and Julie!:hug:

Thanks for the welcomes and encouragement. Its always nice to log on and find people truly care how you are doing. Thanks for being there for me!

Linda, Kamryn is my biggest cheerleader:cheer2: She always does my walking with me. She is so sweet to do so. Everytime I tell her if I have lost any weight she always says "good job Mommy!" and gives me a high five or a hug. She is so sweet! I always worry about making my weight such an issue in front of her, I don't want to see her either grow up and be like me or be the opposite because of me and have eating disorders. Right now she is very tiny. She is 9 years old. She only weighs 56 lbs. She is very tall for her age though.

Today and yesterday were both great days for me. I didn't get time to write yesterday, Kamryn and I went to a friends house after work and did not get home in time. Today we had a yard sale and we are both exhausted. I got really bad sunburn on my arms and face and neck. I was not able to get any walking done for the past 2 days, but eating wise, I have done very good. Tonight, on the way home from the store my mom wanted me to stop by Sonic for ice cream, she and Kamryn had ice cream, I had a fruit smoothie. It was very good, and I imagine while it may be high in calories, it was probably less calories than the ice cream. Ice cream is my weakness, but I was able to resist. :cool1: I have been in pretty good spirits emotionally though. I kind of cheated (something I said I was not going to do) and weighed Friday instead of waiting until Monday, but was very excited, because the scale showed 7 lbs lost!!:cheer2: I was so surprised, but will weigh again on Monday just to make sure its a true 7 lb loss! Hopefully tomorrow will be a happy healthy day!

[momof2minnies]

Kelly,
I am so happy for you 7 lbs is truly a great accomplishment.I know it is hard to stay away from the scale.I was going on everyday then decided this week Monday would be my day-forces me to be good on the weekend.

Explain to your DD that you are eating to be healthy and in good shape.Being "thin" has nothing to do with it.In my opinion the best looking girls are the athletic ones like Mia Hamm and Brandy Chastain not the waify models.Those women are great role models for any young girl.

Yeah ice cream is a problem around here too.My DH loves it as do the rest of us-he's lost about 15 lbs on the Atkins.Not the best but it works for him.

Give your DD a high five for me for supporting her mom so good ;)

Have a great one,
Linda

[keenercam]

Kelly -- Maybe we were sending each other positive "no ice cream" vibes yesterday. I didn't order dessert at dinner with everyone else and just drank coffee, and when we stopped at DQ I got diet soda instead of a blizzard that I really wanted. Thank you for inspiring me! :hug: You are doing such an awesome job!

[dare2dream]

To Kelly and Cam the no ice cream babes - Great job ladies!!!

Kelly you are doing so well. I can't wait to hear about your weigh in tomorrow. I have been doing better with my WOE (way of eating) and it feels good to complete a successful day. As I think of dipping into something I shouldn't I have been thinking of your words -

I keep looking at yesterday and telling myself that if I did it yesterday, then I can do it today.

This has really been helping me. I know I need to be consistent with my program and I WILL lose the weight. Kelly we CAN do this one day at a time.

Have a healthy day!

[Blessed99]

Hey Linda, Cam and Brenda, I hope everyone is doing well. Thanks again for the encouragement! :goodvibes
Brenda, I missed you! I was getting worried about you! Is everything ok?:hug:

Today has been a good day but has been harder than the last couple of weeks. I think its the dreaded PMS :scared1: Its very hard not to want to snack. I did have french fries today with ranch dressing on the side, but it was just a few. I was at my friends house and they were having a cookout/in. My friend deep fried the french fries and she makes a really good ranch dressing, and it was sooo hard to resist, so I had about 5 of them. Not too bad because before this, I would have had about 40 of them. So all in all, I still feel good and successful. I just have to keep reminding myself, that I did it yesterday, so I can do it again today! I did not get to walk today, I got home too late, and Kamryn has school tomorrow, but will definately walk tomorrow come heck or high water! I am saving up for a recumbent bike as a second form of exercise. My doctor reccomended one for me because of some occasional knee pain I have. I hope I am able to get one before winter, since it gets dark so early. I don't usually have too many issues with the cold. I guess its all the extra padding I have, but one day would love to own long sleeve shirts or jackets that would not absolutely burn me up!! I hope everyone has a happy and healthy tomorrow!

[Blessed99]

Well, I weighed in today and have to say that it was not as good as I expected...IT WAS BETTER!!! 9 LBS GONE!! WHOO-HOOO:cool1:

I was so excited about that! it has kept me on track all day long. I have done great on eating, emotionally feel good, the only downfall, I was not able to get my walk in today. Got home too late, although, at work today, we were short staffed, so I done twice the amount of physical work as normal. I know its not the same thing, but am planning on walking tomorrow. Hope everyone has a healthy and happy tomorrow! :hug:

[dare2dream]

:cheer2::cheer2:Great Job Kelly:cheer2::cheer2:

I am so proud of you. Kelly you are an inspiration. Keep it up!! I know you can!

[karrenlovesmickey]

Way to go my sistah! 9lbs. is awesome!!!!

I started Weight Watchers again tonight. I gained back 20lbs. of what I had lost, but not all of it, thank goodness!!

[Blessed99]

Hey Karren, 20 lbs is better than all of it, and that 20 will be gone in no time!! Hang in there sistah! :cheer2: You can do it!!

Hey Brenda, thanks for the encouragement! :goodvibes How are you doing?

Today has been overall a good day. Not much to report as I am not feeling well tonight. Will check in tomorrow.

[Blessed99]

Today was the day, I finally walked again!! 30 mins! :cool1: Eating was good and emotionally good today. Not much new to report. Hope everyone has a happy and healthy tomorrow. :hug:

Anyone still reading along??

[keenercam]

Kelly - I am so glad you felt well enough to get your walk in. :cool1: Great job on another successful day! :woohoo:

[Blessed99]

Hey Cam! Hope you are doing well. Thanks for checking in with me! :goodvibes

Today has been a good day. I got my walk in tonight, 30 mins. :cool1: I had blood work the other day and my sugar was high. I don't really understand but the doctor told me that my number was 122 and they consider it diabetes at 126.:scared1: I was quite surprised as its always been good before. Any way, she put me on Glucophage. I hope I can tolerate it. Other than that, all is well and it has been an overall good day.

Hope everyone has a happy and healthy tomorrow.

[momof2minnies]

Kelly,
Great job!!!!!!! As a nurse I am a little concerned with someone being put on a med with a BS of 126- WHAT????????Normal is 80 -120 .Unless there is underlying issues other than that.

Keep up the great work,
Linda

[Tiger Lily 03]

Kelly I was thinking of you recently and wondering how you are doing. I'm so happy for you an proud of you that you are making those better food choices. I know it must be easier with your resident cheerleader too.
:cheer2:

I saw some posts to your first thread on the WISH main thread too so thought I'd come here and see how you are.

Pretty soon you will have a WISH clippie to claim :wishten I see it very near!

Onward and downward! :cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Hi Tiger Lily, Hi Linda, Thanks for checking in with me. Tiger Lily, I am not sure about the Glucophage either, as its the only blood test I have taken. My doctor said that since I have a lot of my weight in my belly, and have some abnormal liver test results and high blood pressure, that she was more comfortable starting me on the meds than not to. She seems to think that if I get my sugar level lowered, that it will be easier for me to loose this weight. She didn't really talk about a diet though, so, I am not sure if I am supposed to cut carbs and sugars out or just count calories. I have so much to learn!
Hey Linda, I see those dis wish signs and wondered how they work, are you supposed to loose the amount of weight on them to claim them, or is that for what you are hoping to loose? I am kind of new here, so am not sure. But hopefully after weigh in on Tuesday (usually Monday) it will be a 10 lb loss.

I have had another successful day. Yesterday too. I went to a cookout at my friends house and was able to do very well food wise, and said no to brownies and cake!:cool1: I was very proud of myself. My daughter was very proud of me too! That always makes me want to try harder, because I have let her down soooo many times and this time I want to succeed.! We both have a dream of going back to Disney World in December 2009 and this time instead of family members, I want to be the one to ride all the rides with her. So that is another goal I am working towards. I hope to be able to accomplish my goals this time. One day at a time and one pound at a time!! Hope everyone reading has a healthy and happy day tomorrow! :goodvibes

[momof2minnies]

Hey Kelly,
Iwas the one talking about the blood sugar and Tiger Lily has the Dis weight banner-I have no clue how to do it.

Wow a MD that put you on meds but does not talk about diet control or hook you up with a dietician.Must have a kick back of some kind.With a BS of 126 diet control should be all you need at this point.

Disney xmas of 09 sounds like a great goal.

Keep it up!

Linda

[Blessed99]

Hi all, I am sorry to have not checked in for a few days, I just have not had time. Kamryn has been sick with a virus and I have not felt well either. But will hopefully be back on the mend soon!

I have had nothing but good days. I haven't exercised as much as I wanted to, but maybe this week will be different. I weighed in today and was very surprised! I lost 3 lbs this week for a total of 12 lbs!!Whooo Hooo!:cool1: Go Me!!:cheer2: I am hoping to have another successful week. One day at a time!

Now my family and I have started our own biggest loser. From now to Dec 31, Whoever (there is 7 of us) looses the most weight wins the jackpot. It will be $150. I know that no matter who wins, that we will all be winners in the end!

Hope everyone has a happy and healthy tomorrow!

[keenercam]

Kelly -- congratulations on your weight loss, sweetie! You are doing so well. :hug:

Now -- go claim your WISH clippie. Here it is: http://www.disboards.com/images/smilies/10wish.gif

To put it in your signature, go to user CP, edit signature and copy and paste the following into your signature:
*img]http://www.disboards.com/images/smilies/10wish.gif*/img]

Change both of the asterisks * to a left bracket -- [ and it should show up as your clippie. I hope that makes sense. Can't wait to see you sporting what you've worked so hard to earn. :woohoo:

[Blessed99]

Hey Cam! Thanks for the clippie! How does it look? :goodvibes

Today has been a good day except for the fact that I have strep throat!!:scared1: I guess thats one of the many joys from working in a doctors office. The good news is I haven't been able to swallow so it keeps me from eating!:sick:

Overall a good day, hopefully tomorrow the throat pain will be gone and all can resume for me on my journey.

Hope everyone has a healthy and happy tomorrow!

[keenercam]

Kelly -- You look fabulous is that blue clippie!! :hug: Sorry about the strep throat. I hope you'll feel better really quickly. Congrats on not consoling yourself or "relieving" your sore throat with some high calorie thick drink. :drinking1 LOL!!

[Blessed99]

Thanks Cam for the get well wishes!:hug: I am finally starting to feel human again!

Today has been another good day. Its really easy to reach your daily calorie target with strep throat. I haven't felt like eating or drinking anything until a couple of hours ago though. My biggest motivator however has been talking to Kamryn about our next Disney trip. She is very excited that we may actually get to do things together without having to worry about my size. I do not want to break her heart again! So I am really trying with all my might not to let her down. Now finding a way to come up with the money for the trip, now that is the hard part!!But hey, I am learning how to save a little at a time!

Have a happy and healthy tomorrow!

PS. Brenda, if you are still reading along, I miss hearing from you!:hug:

[Blessed99]

Well, I am finally over the strep throat! :cheer2: I do not ever want to have it again. I have had a good few days. Today probably could have been better. For dinner tonight, I had a chicken nugget happy meal from McD's. I shouldn't have, and it wasn't what I really wanted but it was close and cheap, so oh well. But at least it was just the happy meal and not the extra large value meal. So there is a good side to it after all. Have not started my walking back yet, but have not had the energy since being sick. But maybe tomorrow...

[Blessed99]

Well, today was an awesome day. Today was weigh in day, and I have lost a whopping total of 16 lbs!!!:cool1: Yeah! Go me!!!:cheer2: I have been doing very well on this journey to date! I have been able to overcome a lot of sweet treats that keep getting put in front of me! I am so proud of myself.

I hope everyone has a healthy and happy tomorrow!

[Blessed99]

Well, today is my one month anniversary! I lost a total of 16 lbs in one month!
:cool1: I have had a few ups and downs for the past couple of days, nothing major, just haven't been able to walk, until tonight, because of rain, and working late, being sick, etc. But was able to walk 30 mins tonight!:cheer2: Yeah, Go Me! It felt good too! Its amazing how hungry I start feeling when I am not exercising. But at least I stuck to eating good. And now my new philosophy is If you did it last month, you can do it this month!!:thumbsup2

[dare2dream]

Kelly,

WOW!!! 16 pounds in one month. That just shows how really serious and committed you are. I am so proud of you. Tomorrow I start back on my 11 day program and I will be visiting you more often so some of your success can rub off on me. Keep up the great work.

You are inspiring me to do some walking. I usually just walk in front of the TV. Hey at least it gets me off my fat butt while watching TV. Let's see I will promise Kelly that I will walk 5 times this week, 30 minutes each session. It's a start and in the long hard weight loss journey I have ahead of me every step forward is a step in the right direction.

I'm flying to Utah October 23. With some hard work there will be less of me to squeeze into that airline seat. I am very worried because we are flying SouthWest and I have heard they are not kind to overweight folks that take up extra room. I can do this. I know I can.

You keep working hard Kelly. I bet some things now feel like habits with you. You are doing so well. You can do this. I know you can.

Have a healthy day!

[davidsprincess]

Congrats on your weight loss!!:banana: I love your mottos of "if I did it yesterday, I can do it today" and "if I did it last month, then I can do it this month". You are an inspiration!

[Blessed99]

Hey Brenda! Its great to hear from you again!:hug: I hope you are doing well! Did you get your walk in today?

Hey Davidsprincess, thanks for checking in with me and reading along on my journey. Its nice to hear from a new friend. :hug: I am glad I can be an inspiration!

Well, today has been another successful day. I walked for 30 mins. :cool1: It was pretty hard to do, I am having a bad leg day, associated with fibro. I have felt all day like I am walking uphill in the snow, the way that my legs felt. I have beat myself up over one small piece of cake, and a small amount of ice cream. I even counted in the calories for it, but did not have a weight loss today, just stayed the same. And I have been telling myself, if only I did not have that cake and ice cream I might have lost something. Isn't that silly, but that is unfortunately how my mind works! But today, I am feeling really good even without a loss, because I think my body is in shock from losing 17 lbs in just a months time!

Have a happy and healthy tomorrow!

[davidsprincess]

Kelly, don't beat yourself up over this. You have lost 17 pounds! :cheer2: :cheer2: In the real world there will be times when you will have small amounts of food to eat that normally you would have passed up. Hey, you had a small amount! Is that less than what you would have normally had? If so,:cheer2: Every little change that you make towards your healthier way of life is a celebration. Be proud of yourself. I know that I am proud of you!

[davidsprincess]

Hey Kelly!! Where are you? I hope things are okay :hug: . Let us all know how you are doing :cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Hey Davidsprincess! Thanks for the encouragement and for checking in with me! :hug: Last night, I meant to check in, but after I put Kamryn to bed, I started watching the movie The Five People You Meet in Heaven, and it lasted way longer than I anticipated! So I didn't even turn the computer last night.

I have been doing pretty well, eating wise I have stayed in my calorie target. And I walked for 30 mins this evening. :cool1: I feel pretty good emotionally. I am a little tired this week as I have been staying up too late. But I had success today, so I am hoping for success tomorrow!

Hope everyone has a happy and healthy tomorrow! :cheer2:

[dare2dream]

Kelly,

I have really been doing my exercising and thinking of you as I do it. So far I am at 6 sessions for the week. It's not really walking because I do it in front of the TV. I kind of walk, march in place, sashay around, do the hokey pokey or a Latin twist. I just get on my feet and move. It's not much. I don't break into a sweat or lose my breath. It's not strenuous but at least I am moving. At my weight that is a good thing.

How are things going with you? How's Kamryn cutie? Does she walk with you? Where do you walk? What do you see?

I've wanted to see the Five People You Meet in Heaven. What channel was it on? I DVR movies all the time. I have about 30 stored to watch.

Hey my tummy says it is lunch time. I love that feeling of hunger when I am on program. It tells me I am doing things right and only giving my body what it needs, then it tells me when it is time to refuel. On my off days I graze all day and constantly feel full but I eat anyway. It makes my tummy feel awful. I need to work on that.

Lunch is milk and roast beef.

Have a healthy day!

[Blessed99]

Hey Brenda, :hug: Its great to hear from you! I am proud of you for doing your walking sessions! :cool1: You go girl!! I am with you on moving at all is great! I find that truthfully, I hate to move at all if I don't have to, and that is terrible! I think its because I dread the pain afterwards. My dad is my main walking partner. On the nights we are both able to, we walk out to the end of my road and back. Its 1.2 miles. It takes us about 30 mins. Tonight though, my sister Karren and I walked at a local walking park on the river. Its pretty there, but not somewhere I feel safe going alone, there are always strange people lurking there. On my road, there is very little traffic, Its a lot of farm land. There are a few people that have horses and goats, and of course a few dogs. Mostly nice, one of them growls at us, but runs when we get near. I hope he is all bark and no bite! There is a large tomato field at the bottom of my driveway, and just a few houses along the way. Kamryn walks when she has to, but prefers to stay home with someone or go to a friends house. Sometimes, she will walk with no complaint. She is a good girl though and my biggest cheerleader. She wants me to succeed as much as I want to succeed.

Tonight, I have doon pretty good. I did have a moment of weakness though and ate a pop tart that was not within my caloric limit for the day. :mad: I could not help it, it was a moment of weakness, I gave in before I thought about it. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Karren and I walked for 35 mins tonight and that is a big accomplishment for me. :cool1: It felt good, but my hip is now killing me. Hopefully I will be able to rest tonight though! Kamryn has a birthday party to go to tomorrow, I hope I can resist the birthday cake. I will have to pray for strength to not give in!

Hope everyone has a healthy and happy tomorrow.

[Blessed99]

Today has been a good day! Eating wise I stayed within my calories. I walked for 30 mins. :cool1: I have had a good day emotionally.
If I can do it today, I can do it tomorrow! Hopefully all will go well.
No weight loss today, but maybe next week!

[davidsprincess]

Way to go Kelly:cheer2: :cheer2:

I hope that you don't mind, I have been using your motto: "if I did it yesterday, I can do it today." You don't know how often it has helped me.

You continue to inspire me to get healthy. We can do this together:hug:

Michelle

[Blessed99]

Hey Michelle! I have no problem at all with you using my motto! :hug: I am glad I can be an inspiration to someone! Being someones inspiration is inspiring to me!! (I hope that makes since!)

Today has been another good day, I walked 30 mins :cool1: (last night too!)
Eating has been good and emotionally good.

Have been really nervous about the gas situation in my area, since hurricane Ike, there has been a major gas shortage here and I had to wait in line 1 hour and 20 minutes for gas today!!:scared1: I hope it gets better soon!

[davidsprincess]

You are doing great, Kelly:cheer2: :cheer2: . Try not to sweet the stuff you can't change. Just continue to cope with it in a healthy way. Going for a walk is a great stress reliever. I am really proud of you for doing well emotionally. Going for the walks is probably helping out big time. It also is keeping you more focused and wanting to eat healthy. Keep up what you are doing. You are worth it!:cheer2:

[Blessed99]

Hey Michelle! Thanks for the encouragement! :hug: Keep up the good work yourself!! :cheer2: Go Michelle!

Tonight I walked again 30 minutes! :cool1: Today emotionally I am doing good. And eating wise was ok. Probably didn't do as good as I could, but still did ok!

Hopefully tomorrow will be another good day!

[Tiger Lily 03]

Kelly, Be proud! You are making this happen and it will!

It's time for a change though, you should be wearing the new clippie! It's fun to see these change. You won't wear this long though.
:wishfifteen

I am so proud of you for keeping yourself on target and moving onward and downward. You are doing it!

Soon, you will be changing to the next clippie. You are almost ready and it will look so good to see you with this.
:wishtwenty

[dare2dream]

Kelly we have not heard from you since last Thursday. How is everything going? Even though I do not post here regularly I still pop in to check on you girlfriend. Sometimes I just don't think I have anything to contribute.

I hope you are out enjoying RL (real Life) and not sulking and hiding like I do when I am not eating or exercising like I should. I am in a low place right now and have just started to climb out. Losing weight is just so danged hard. I keep telling myself that this is the challenge the good Lord has given me and He knows what is best for me. I keep telling myself I am learning many things about myself along the way and eventually I will be able to help others on their weight loss journeys too.

We CAN and WILL do this Kelly. One day at a time. If you did it yesterday you can do it again today. That quote is from one of my idols Blessed99.

[dare2dream]

Kelly where are you? Are you OK? Is Kamryn OK? How are things going? We are worried about you. We are here for you. Check in when you can.

[Blessed99]

Well, I am back. I am sorry for not posting before now! I have been too busy! Kamryn has had a school project due, we have had a couple of birthday parties and a lot of family stuff going on. But thanks so much to those of you that care enough to wonder where I am! :hug: Its friends like you guys that make me come back!!

Unfortunately, I have had a really bad week! Somehow I lost track of what I was doing and can't seem to get back on it!! Pray for me please!! I did not weigh today because I know I have probably gained back a couple of pounds and I can't bear to see that on the scales right now! I did walk my 30 mins tonight though! :cool1: If you can, please keep me in your prayers!!

[dare2dream]

Don't give up on yourself. Look how far you have come. You can overcome this slump. That's all it is. I don't know why these obstacles come our way, but fight through it! You are already a winner! You can do this. I know I can too. All is not lost, just because you have had a bad couple of days, don't quit. Just look at the bad days as a bump in the road. Each day is a new one, if you don't succeed one day, all is not lost, just keep pushing to get back on track. You CAN do it!! I believe in you!! Hope to hear from you soon. Have a happy and healthy tomorrow!

That's what my friend Kelly told me when I was down. Kelly are you down? Kelly are you listening? I haven't been praying lately like I should but I will start right now with you at the top of my list.

Whaazz the dealio Kelly? We haven't heard from you since Monday. Get on here and post what is going on. Are things better and you are just busy with RL? Check in no matter what. We're in this together.

[Blessed99]

Well, I have totally blown everything I worked so hard to do!! I hate it when I do this! I was doing so good and all of a sudden, everything goes black, and no matter what I can't seem to start back over! I don't know how to get me back out of this dark place! Any prayers and encouragement would be greatly appreciated! :sad1:

[davidsprincess]

Kelly, you can do this. Yes, you have had some days that have not been the best, but you can do this.:cheer2: Do not give up. You have a beautiful little girl who is counting on you and who needs you around for a very long time. Don't focus on the not good decisions that are now behind you and you can't do anything about. Focus on what you can do now. Make good choices starting this moment!! You are going to start this moment and keep on tomorrow. Remember your motto? If you did it yesterday, you can do it today. Well, you did it last month and you can and will do it this month. You have been inspiring so many people here, don't give up!
You are not going to be perfect all the time. You are changing your life. This is not a quick, short term thing. You are taking care of your life and health for years to come. I know that I could not eat perfectly or work out perfectly for the rest of my life. I will have days (maybe even weeks) of not eating great, but if I can eat and work out properly for 90% of the time, then great. I could not imagine not ever having a piece of chocolate cake or chips ever again for the next 30-40 (hopefully more) years. How much fun would life be? But one piece now and then is better than the whole cake!!
Celebrate those little things. And you can do this. You have a lot of people backing you and who want to see you succeed. Go Kelly:cheer2: :cheer2:

[Tiger Lily 03]

Kelly, you CAN do this! Get back up dust yourself off and do one thing at a time. Think positive. I'm sending prayers. Come on, one thing positive. Let's hear it.

:cheer2:

[dare2dream]

Kelly I am generally not a smilie girl but for special occasions sometimes only a smilie will do.

First we have :hug: and :grouphug:

Kelly I am so sorry that you are having a bad time. I wish I could reach through this computer right now and give you the big hug you need. Always remember that I am here for you. Even though I am far away in Maryland I think of you often. I want to see you succeed. I KNOW you can.

Next we always want our magical fairies to make everything alright.
:tinker: :tink: and even pixiedust:

But Kelly losing weight is not easy. Pixie dust will not make it happen. There is no magical fairy. There is no quick fix. It will not happen overnight. This is a journey with many challenges along the way.

You have hit a roadblock. That does not mean you quit. It means you figure out a way to get through the roadblock. Let's make a plan. Let's do this together. I too am doing horrendously right now. It takes hard work, really hard work and some days I just don't think I can do it. But then I remember that this is not the life I want to live and I am the one who can change it.

I have a loving husband, three great kids with wonderful spouses, two grandsons and another grandbaby on the way. I have so much to live for. I know that if I do not lose this weight now I will not be around to enjoy life with those I love.

I know you have special people in your life that need you too. Like Kamryn. She needs you to do this.

Now quit being :scared1:

Take a deep breath, calm down, and pay attention.

Tiger Lily said you should tell us one positive thing. Anything. I have a negative recording that plays on a constant loop in my head. It can really get me down and I actually start to believe it. When I can replace it with my positive recording 'Brenda you are a Beautiful, Intelligent, Talented, and Organized Princess' I am better able to tackle life. What is your positive manta? If you don't have one yet create it now. It will serve you well and will help you crawl out of the hole you are in.

Now let's work on our plan. davidsprincess says to forget about the past, concentrate on right now. Start now right this second. Let's make a goal each day and return and report to each other. Today I will stay OP (on program). I will do whatever it takes to only eat what I know I should today. Now you pick a goal. Start small. Start with something you know you can accomplish. Each day we will add something else. You can do it one day at a time. We will get there together Kelly.

Remember if you did it yesterday you can do it again today. Let's get started doing it like we know we should. We can have success and we can build on our success.

Now I will close with a :cheer2:

Kelly you have done the right thing by posting here even if it was hard to admit you are having problems. This is your roadblock to get through. I know you can do it and get back on your path to good health. This is a journey with much to learn and accomplish along the way. You have just learned that there will be roadblocks. Now let's learn how to break through the roadblocks. Please check in today and let us know how you are doing.

YOU CAN DO THIS KELLY!! LET'S GET TO WORK! RIGHT NOW!

[Blessed99]

Brenda, Davidsprincess and Tiger Lily, Thank you all soo much for the encouragement and for not giving up on me!:grouphug: You guys are great!! I appreciate you all being here for me!

Lets see, a positive for me..........thats a hard one! I guess my positive would be that I was able to post the truth about having a bad few weeks. Before I started Dising I would have just quit on my journey and never admit to anyone what a struggle this journey is, I would just eat myself into a major depression and never try to seek help to get through it! So my positive would be truth! Wow, that actually feels better to get that out!!

My goal for tomorrow is going to be to drink all of my water! For some reason when I am going through a bad spell, I tend to really cut back on my water. :confused:
Another goal for tomorrow is to leave the past few weeks in the past and to remember that tomorrow is a BRAND NEW DAY!! And the past is gone and I cannot get it back. I am going to try and live for TODAY!! :cheer2: :cheer2:

Thanks again my Dis friends!! We all can and will do this, one day and pound at a time!!

[davidsprincess]

So happy to hear you sounding positive again, Kelly. You can do this!:cheer2: We are here supporting you all the way!:grouphug:


Michelle

[dare2dream]

I had a two eating mishaps yesterday. Today will be better and I will think of my friend Kelly that will be trying hard today too.

Let's break though this roadblock and get back on the right path. We will think positive thoughts today.

Yes we can, Yes we can!!

[dare2dream]

Kelly,

sparkpeople.com is a free weight loss website. You can use it to track calories, watch videos of different types of exercise, and read all sorts of articles to help with weight loss. Everyday I get an email from them with a 'healthy reflection'. Today's made me think of you.


Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could...

- Ralph Waldo Emerson, writer

Giving It Your All

If you can do your best and forget your worst, you've already got a head start on tomorrow. As long as you lay it out there every day, you can relax when yesterday is behind you. Of course, the only way this will happen is if you give yourself permission to forget. You can use this approach in anything: Pick up a problem, do what you can with it, and then put it down. Work your tail off at the office, then leave it there (the work, not your tail). Deal with a personal crisis by finishing off one day at a time. There's a great deal of satisfaction in leaving things be for a moment. There's a great deal of freedom in knowing that you could do no more. And there's a great deal of success awaiting the person who gives it her all, no matter what.


Today Kelly we will do our best.

Have a healthy day!

[dare2dream]

I'm out of town until Thursday but I still have been checking in looking for you. Let's get together when I get home and work together to get back on our weight loss journeys.

I'm going to Outback for dinner tonight. It will not be a healthy one I am sure.

Kelly I hope to hear from you soon. Don't give up, get determined. I know you can do this because you have done it and you can do it again.

[mom2faith]

Kelly, you are such and inspiration!! What a great loss you had already!!

I am looking forward to hearing more from you. Hope you hop back onthe boards soon!!

Amy