My confession?? What am I doing to myself?? Please help??

[the Fidge]

WEll here goes the ugly truth of it all! I married 12 years ago during my heavy stage at 140 what I would not give for my fat weight now?? UGH

OK so Dr sent me to bed with my first pregnancy and I blew up like a Macys day float Miss Piggy! I weighed more than my DH!! ECK! 225lb at birth! to MY SHOCK I did not lost it all giving birth! I lived on Long Island and set off to the gym and WW and off it came! Hooray!

Now some 8 years ago we relocated to PA smack dab in the middle of nowheresville PA!! I was in the dumps no nothing here but it was great for my sons disabilities to be here and he has thrived overcoming so many things! Great right?? WEll I found what folks like me do when the relocate and am depressed they EAT!!! So I did and began filling my wardrobe with some lovely Pocono lingerie aka sweatpants! I could not return to Long to visit as I was riddled with shame in my appearance. During our time here I lost 6 pregancies and eat my pain away or so I thought! Put on a happy face and go about life, it has not happened.

I fell off the roof of my house cleaning the gutters ..DH response: See I told you I would get around to it now look what you did?? WEll I messed myself up pretty badly in my back and hip and pelvis. The Doctor has given me the green light to get moving again, and what am I doing?? NOTHING!!!!

I finally got to a better place with the loses it really broke my heart I must say. I love being a Mom and no greater joy have I felt holding my baby! Enough of that now!

Now heres my problem, I can't be FAT anymore! I am uncomfortable I fell horribly unhealthy and NEED not wnat NEED to get back to being myself nad not this Macys day float!!!! I would like to start caring about myslef again something I gave up several years ago and need to stop that!

YOu all have helped in so many things and I hope you can help me stay motivated! I have gone as far as considering surgery and I am apposed to that for me, there is no reason I cant get off my **** and get rid of this!

So, heres my confession the truth is out: I weigh 210 lbs and have a trip planned to Disney in April and I would give anything to feel better about my appearance and my heatlh.
I know my husband would love his wife back and I would klove to give that to him. DH and DS birthdays are in Aprilw hen we are going. I know it would take a miracle but I would like ot part of the way there.

SO if anyone would be so kind as to point me in the direction of where to sign up please do..

OK so enough of my whinning heres hoping!

[jeriber]

WOW- what a story.

Let me say that losing a baby is the hardest thing and I know how you feel there.:sad1:

You should join us on the Disappearing Peeps. It's an awesome group doing what we can to lose weight and be healthy. Lot's of cheeers and pick me ups just when we need it. Hope to see you there

[Missy Mouse]

WEll here goes the ugly truth of it all! I married 12 years ago during my heavy stage at 140 what I would not give for my fat weight now?? UGH

OK so Dr sent me to bed with my first pregnancy and I blew up like a Macys day float Miss Piggy! I weighed more than my DH!! ECK! 225lb at birth! to MY SHOCK I did not lost it all giving birth! I lived on Long Island and set off to the gym and WW and off it came! Hooray!

Now some 8 years ago we relocated to PA smack dab in the middle of nowheresville PA!! I was in the dumps no nothing here but it was great for my sons disabilities to be here and he has thrived overcoming so many things! Great right?? WEll I found what folks like me do when the relocate and am depressed they EAT!!! So I did and began filling my wardrobe with some lovely Pocono lingerie aka sweatpants! I could not return to Long to visit as I was riddled with shame in my appearance. During our time here I lost 6 pregancies and eat my pain away or so I thought! Put on a happy face and go about life, it has not happened.

I fell off the roof of my house cleaning the gutters ..DH response: See I told you I would get around to it now look what you did?? WEll I messed myself up pretty badly in my back and hip and pelvis. The Doctor has given me the green light to get moving again, and what am I doing?? NOTHING!!!!

I finally got to a better place with the loses it really broke my heart I must say. I love being a Mom and no greater joy have I felt holding my baby! Enough of that now!

Now heres my problem, I can't be FAT anymore! I am uncomfortable I fell horribly unhealthy and NEED not wnat NEED to get back to being myself nad not this Macys day float!!!! I would like to start caring about myslef again something I gave up several years ago and need to stop that!

YOu all have helped in so many things and I hope you can help me stay motivated! I have gone as far as considering surgery and I am apposed to that for me, there is no reason I cant get off my **** and get rid of this!

So, heres my confession the truth is out: I weigh 210 lbs and have a trip planned to Disney in April and I would give anything to feel better about my appearance and my heatlh.
I know my husband would love his wife back and I would klove to give that to him. DH and DS birthdays are in Aprilw hen we are going. I know it would take a miracle but I would like ot part of the way there.

SO if anyone would be so kind as to point me in the direction of where to sign up please do..

OK so enough of my whinning heres hoping!

I can lament with you in a small way. I went from 116 to 176 with my pregnancy and that 60 lbs got me nothing - baby was s/b. The weight came off slooooowly. I got down to 120 and then crept up and up. I'm at 150 now which is not horrible but still 30 lbs over where I need to be. I'm pointing you into writing down a plan. Give yourself a certain amount of hours to exercise this week. Start slowly. Give yourself two hours...20 minutes of walking a day and you still get a day off to relax. Up your water, and cut your portions in half. It's amazing how much more you eat just because it's there. I just jumped on the get healthy bandwagon so we will help each other. I don't have a vacation coming up but I do have a closet full of clothes I can no longer wear.

[the Fidge]

THank you Jeri I took your advice and signed up with the Peeps brigade!

Missy, I am so very sorry. Thank you for reminding me of my son and how it could have gone! It is those thoughts that help me get through it all.

I pray you may one day know that joy and please count me as one of your cheerleaders for that!

Missy I sadly will need to update my closet but will delighted to do so! Every pound gained takes more work to lose so don't undersell your struggle its still hard work no matter how many!

Heres cheers to us holding an icky glass of water in hand! I am a tea drinker and its wierd not be holding my tea mug but heres to us!

[tiggerlover]

{{{HUGS}}}} to you both, I too know the pain of losing a pregnancy and it was the hardest thing I ever went through and it took me a good year to shake the depression.

You have made the first step, you recognized that it is time to get healthy! Now is the time to put a plan in action. At my highest I weighed almost 220 pounds and although it was slow going at first every pound I loss was a step in the right direction. My advice is to journal what you are eating, you would be surprised the things we put in our mouths that add up in the long run. Drink lots and lots of water, it definitely makes a difference. And if you can't exercise a lot start out small, if you can only do 10 minutes at first, do 10 minutes a couple of times a week for a couple of weeks and then work your way up.

Good luck in your journey! Stop by WISH often for support and you will be well on your way.

[Missy Mouse]

THank you Jeri I took your advice and signed up with the Peeps brigade!

Missy, I am so very sorry. Thank you for reminding me of my son and how it could have gone! It is those thoughts that help me get through it all.

I pray you may one day know that joy and please count me as one of your cheerleaders for that!

Missy I sadly will need to update my closet but will delighted to do so! Every pound gained takes more work to lose so don't undersell your struggle its still hard work no matter how many!

Heres cheers to us holding an icky glass of water in hand! I am a tea drinker and its wierd not be holding my tea mug but heres to us!

Thanks, I'm with you on this. I just got back from 1 hour at the gym and I feel great! (read exhausted :thumbsup2) I'm a tea drinker as well and didn't even think to cut it out. If it's decaf is it fair territory?

[Missy Mouse]

{{{HUGS}}}} to you both, I too know the pain of losing a pregnancy and it was the hardest thing I ever went through and it took me a good year to shake the depression.

You have made the first step, you recognized that it is time to get healthy! Now is the time to put a plan in action. At my highest I weighed almost 220 pounds and although it was slow going at first every pound I loss was a step in the right direction. My advice is to journal what you are eating, you would be surprised the things we put in our mouths that add up in the long run. Drink lots and lots of water, it definitely makes a difference. And if you can't exercise a lot start out small, if you can only do 10 minutes at first, do 10 minutes a couple of times a week for a couple of weeks and then work your way up.

Good luck in your journey! Stop by WISH often for support and you will be well on your way.


Thanks, :hug: to you as well. It's amazing how quickly a child is in your life one moment and gone the next. He is just a memory to me now.

I feel like I'm just on the up with my weight. No matter how much or how little I eat I keep gaining. I had my thyroid checked and it's okay so it MUST be in my diet. I just started keeping a journal so hopefully it will open my eyes to where I'm going wrong. I started out as a size 3, and while I don't care about getting down to that size again I'd like to be a steady 5. I have a very small frame and it's driving me crazy that every time I put my pants on they are tighter and tighter. I gave in and bought size 7s about two months ago, and now I can't get them over my thighs. That kind of weight gain is too dramatic for my liking. And I have to laugh when I look back at my "fat" clothes. Can't get those over my knees. :lmao:

[Tiger Lily 03]

Welcome to WISH!

I am so pleased that we are here to support each other through this journey.

:grouphug: We all need a hug.

I too think you will be finding success now that you want this. It is a huge step to realize that it is something we want. It will not disappear overnight, but making those healthy choices will get you to be healthier for you and your family. You deserve this. It is a commitment, don't let anything steal this commitment from you.

Make small goals and work toward that success. I too recommend writing down all you are doing. There is a thread here on WISH that you can do this.

Make this journey fun, join in any of the threads or start one of your own. We are all in of support here so we need you too. Come often, post lots!

Keep on keepin' on.

:cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2: :cheer2:

[the Fidge]

Thank you Lily and Missy if you add any milk or creamers and or sugars add em up! Sadly I will have to sacrifice my caffeine intake which in the long run is not such a bad thing!

[Debbie]

:wave: Hi Fidge. I want to add my welcome to the others.

NOW, I want you to make a small goal. Let's lose the first 10.5 pounds. That will:
1) make your life healthier in itself. Studies show that a 10 pound loss is remarkable for the health of your body
2) put you in ONEderland. And that is a thrill of it's own
3) be more than a 5% loss, and that is halfway to the first 10%
4) get you through those Disney turnstiles frontwards

Start a food journal for yourself. It could be a small notebook, just to become aware of what you are eating OR you could log your food online at Fitday (http://www.fitday.com) or at Sparkpeople (http://www.sparkpeople.com)

Mostly, give yourself a hug, and log in to W.I.S.H. every day.

[the Fidge]

Thank you Debbie I really appreciate the inspration! HEres a funny update, I had a check up to make sure I am all good to go as the Dr was a littlke concerned as heart disease runs through my gene pool.

I almost fell over evidently my scale likes me better than his it said 219 I almost cried! Naturally the gal was a size 1/2 sokaing wet!

SO ok with that news in hand I came in pulled out the old dusty exercise bicylce and pddled for 30 minutes and boy padding doesn't help in the seat!

WOW my thighs havent tingled like this since my honeymoon! Ops maybe I shouldn't have said that out loud!!:rotfl:

[r3ngels]

HI:flower3:

Tingling thighs are always a good thing:woohoo:

I just wanted to stop by and say good luck... you (we) can do it. I think that once you are motivated and in your head you know you can do it, then it is just a matter of time. The lbs will follow your head.

[Mickeys.friend]

Hi I sent you a PM!!:goodvibes