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LindsayDunn228

12-30-2006, 06:36 AM

Hi all!! This is the beginning of my WISH journal. Part of my problem staying healthy and eating well is I don't have any accountability. I am hoping using the journal will help, not to mention be a place for venting, marking success, etc.

A little background about me to begin with.

I am 28 years old and a paraplegic. I have been since I was 6. I have been gaining weight the past couple of years and I am really starting to feel it. Paras are susceptible to Type 2 Diabetes and if I get it, it's not going to be because I didn't take care of myself. Also, long-term paras start to get shoulder troubles from pushing a chair for so long. Mine are already getting crunchy and I don't want added weight to make it worse.

Here's the kicker: I have been working out 3 times a week for almost 2 years now with a personal trainer. She totally kicks my butt. That's the good news. The bad news is that I don't eat healthy. I am a compulsive eater. I eat just because it's there and I can. Sad isn't it? My endurance, cardio, and muscle tone has gotten AWESOME with all the workouts I do, but I am overweight. And that's my fault. Oh one other thing, I work at this personal training studio. How pathetic is that?

Due to my injury, I will never have Janet Jackson abs. I am cool with that. But I would really like to see myself in smaller clothes. I titled my journal "Lindsay's Not Hiding From Cameras Anymore" because I HATE seeing myself right now. I am obviously overweight and it's embarrassing to look at. We have a family trip to WDW planned for next November and by dang I want to be proud of the pictures I am in, not to mention just being in better health.

So I am starting my goals early. Just so I have a round starting point I am beginning (like everyone else) on New Years Day. I have 309 days to get in ship shape.

I have to go for now, but I going to make an actual list of goals that I can keep on this first post and go back and look at. I helps if you have things to work toward, not a generic "I want to lose some weight."

I thank you all for any and all replies I get. Please, feel free to post questions, comments, and encouragement. I will reply to all. Folks, I need and want accountability.

A great day to all!

ETA: Since I cannot weight, I judge my weight loss by how my clothes are fitting. So if you notice I never post my weight it's because I simply can't :)

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Ok, here are some goals.

I have a HUGE mug I bought in WDW on my honeymoon (2004). I want to keep it full of ice water and always at my side (while I'm at home). Seeing Disney characters on it will motivate me to drink it.

*going along with that first one* Keep my drinks to water, cranberry juices (helps my urinary tract), my energy drinks (will explain that one if anyone is interested), and no more than ONE sodium-free drink a day (such as Diet Rites, I'm partial to the tangerine). I bought a couple of generic Crystal Lites to flavor my water with just to get me drinking.

Eat a piece of fruit with my breakfast.

When eating out, split the entree with my husband (we've already discussed this and he's totally on board)

When away from home, make sure I have a bottled water with me. If it's there I will drink it and not have the excuse of having to go get one.

Brush my teeth after eating.

CJK

12-30-2006, 07:18 PM

Welcome to WISH!!! I sort of feel like I know you from some of the other boards! I hope you enjoy yourself over here and find that we're a great group. Thanks for sharing your story. You have such a wonderful attitude and you seem to know what steps are necessary to take in order for you to achieve your goals.

Similarly to you, I was always able to motivate myself to exercise, but my eating was out of control! Through subtle changes in diet, I've enjoyed a lot of success this year. I hope you will find the same. Posting a journal is a WONDERFUL way to be accountable. We all support each other during hard times and help lift each other up. We are also each other's cheerleaders and are genuinely thrilled for each other when we are doing well. Please jump in to any of the threads. We're all part of this journey together as we try to become healthier and happier. Happy New Year to you and here's to a healthy 2007!! :goodvibes

LindsayDunn228

12-30-2006, 07:38 PM

Thanks so much for your kind words, CJK (sorry, don't know your actual name!!). You don't know how much they mean to me. :)

LindsayDunn228

12-31-2006, 06:33 AM

Bumping because I added some goals. Not done yet though!

goldcupmom

12-31-2006, 09:29 AM

Welcome to WISH, Lindsay!

Your goals sound very doable and your motivation is GREAT! Glad your DH is on board with you!

Have a Healthy, Happy New Year!!

blue_eyes5212

12-31-2006, 12:00 PM

HI Lindsey,

When you commented on my journal I didn't notice that you had one of your own! Believe me, I know about hiding from the cameras. Looking at pictures of myself is one of the times when I have to look and think "oh my goodness....why have I let myself get that big?" It's embarrassing!!

One thing I have to work on is exercise! Basically, I don't! It's bad to be so lazy! This week I am concentrating on my eating and next week I hope to incorporate a few days of exercise. One thing at a time!

I'm glad that your husband is supportive! My DH is overweight and understands what it is to be big......so he can sympathize and encourage!!

I look forward to talking to you more!! Good luck!! We will do this!! :hug:

~Amanda~

LindsayDunn228

01-01-2007, 06:30 AM

*Oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beautiful day....*:dance3:

Happy New Year everyone!!

I am so pumped this morning. I am ready to get on the ball and get moving, so to speak. I know what works for me as far as shedding pounds, it's just a matter of doing it.

I went to the grocery store yesterday and stocked up on a buttload of fruits and veggies. If it's there, I will eat it :) I also got a good variety of things so I wouldn't get sick of anything. Anyone else have that problem??

My husband is such a Pooh pooh: (he really is! that's my pet name for him!!). He is a computer programmer and I asked him if he could write a program for a vacation countdown clock for our desktop. And he did!! Now I have a countdown clock on my computer so I can see it every time I go into our office. How's that for motivation?? :hippie:

Hmmm, this is turning into more of a general post than a journal entry. Oh well.

My name is Lindsay. I am 28 years old. Dang it, I am still young. The older you get, the harder it is to do this. I cannot wait until I have type 2 diabetes before I get my butt in gear. I will not be a health burden to my husband.

Sorry about that. I needed a little butt-kickin' in my journal :laughing: My poor mom has battled her weight her whole life. She's not fat by any means, just needs to lose about 10-15 pounds and it's so hard for her to keep it off. I am going to try to win this battle while I am young. I DO NOT want my poor mother worried to death about my health. Good grief. I am not even 30 yet.

***NOTE TO WHOEVER IS READING: I should have put this in my OP. Sometimes my journals may be a lot of free association. If I type anything and everything that comes to mind, it's a bit of a therapy to me. I would gladly do a hand-written journal, but writing a lot makes my poor hands cramp, thanks to 22 years of pushing a wheelchair.***

I am currently enjoying my one cup of coffee I have every morning. I am drinking it out of a Contemporary Resort mug :) I am having a breakfast bar for breakfast (anyone wants to know about these I will be glad to tell you). I am going to go cut up an apple to go with it and share with Pooh.

Have a great day all!!! Stay well!! :grouphug:

LindsayDunn228

01-02-2007, 05:44 AM

*Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got, I'm still, I'm still Jenny from the block* :dance3: (sorry, for some reason that song just gets in my head from time to time, don't know why)

Yesterday was a good day. Today will be even better. My husband and I went out to eat and to a movie. We went to the Macaroni Grill, one of my favorite (local) restaurants. Instead doing my usual Create Your Own dish, I chose the smart option of grilled salmon. :woohoo::love: Ohhhhh, it was sooooooooo good and I left not feeling guilty. And I didn't make a pig out of myself with their bread either. I just tore off a little piece and tried to make it last. We then went and saw "The Prestige" at the cheap theater. I hadn't gotten to see it yet. Talk about a rocking movie!!! Not to mention, Christian Bale is a nice little piece of eye candy :faint: :3dglasses

I did well yesterday. I was proud of myself. No bad foods, no binging. It was a good day. Today will be even better. I get to work out today. My trainer (Laura- remember her name readers, you will hear a lot about her) was out of town for the holidays, so I had other trainer who are not as kick-*** as she is. She's back and I'm going to tell her to kill me, and kill me good today :tilt::worship:

This morning's journal was quite smiley-filled, wasn't it?

Have a great day!

LindsayDunn228

01-03-2007, 05:53 AM

I am so proud of myself. I am doing awesome.

I made us a really cool dinner last night. I made black bean soup and a nice salad made with hearts of romaine, carrots, broccoli, and cauliflower. It was a small salad, though. It was really good comfort food. Soup and salad, who doesn't love that?

My trainer was still out of town yesterday. She will back for my workout tomorrow. I can't wait. I need a really good butt-kickin' workout and I know she'll give it to me. Hee hee, she'll really crank it up if I tell her to :yay::faint: She won't admit it, but she likes it when I make those requests.

Woo hoo, my tummy's growling. That never happens. I usually am grazing on unhealthy food all day long my poor stomach doesn't have a chance to growl. :blush: This is so cool.

I think I will go get my breakfast now. Sorry I'm not writing much today. I will come back later when I am more awake. :surfweb:

blue_eyes5212

01-03-2007, 05:00 PM

HI!!! :wave2:

It sounds like you are doing a great job! I'm impressed that you made such good choices while dining out!! I have such a hard time with that!! :scared:

What type of exercises do you do with the trainer? I wonder how much a personal trainer at my gym would be?? :confused: I would just like one for long enough to get me started so that I know what I am doing and to get me into the habit of working out.

I am going to weigh in at my WW meeting tomorrow and will post my results afterward. Check out my journal to see what happens! I'm a little nervous since it is my first weigh-in since I rejoined. I've done pretty well especially compared to all the junk I used to eat! :woohoo:

Continue to do well......and I will talk to you soon!

~Amanda~

LindsayDunn228

01-03-2007, 07:39 PM

Hi Amanda!!! I am just checking in on the DIS. I will answer your question about the training first thing in the morning. Hope you have a great night :)

Thanks so much for posting :)

CJK

01-03-2007, 07:52 PM

Sounds like you're on fire girl!!!! GREAT JOB!!! :cheer2: You're sure starting the new year off right by developing some great food and exercise habits. Keep up the fantastic work!! :goodvibes

LindsayDunn228

01-04-2007, 05:44 AM

Another wonderful day!!! It's good to be alive! (said somewhat sarcastically; I am NOT a morning person, but if I say things like that it helps me have a better attitude first thing in the morning).

I have really tried to make my journaling part of my morning. I always DIS with my morning coffee anyway, and I make WISH the last place I visit. A good way to start the day, IMO :)

I had a good day yesterday. I ate well and managed to get 2 pieces of fruit in. Cool, eh? If I'm not careful, my system can have, shall we say, clogged pipes?? :blush: So I really try to work in some fiber in my diet. So far, so good. I also take a fruit and vegetable supplement which helps A LOT.

Laura (my trainer) will be back at work today. I'm SOOOOOOOO glad. I'm really excited to tell her how good I've been doing, not to mention get a good workout. I'm prepared to sweat and get all sore. :faint: I don't want to go to work though. My boss is a turd and I really don't want to deal with him today.

I've been trying to incorporate salads into our dinners (me and hubby). So far, so good. I splurged and bought some hearts of romaine, instead of the usual Salad in a Sack. Mmmmmmmmmmm, I love it!! If you prefer a crispy salad over a leafy one, you will enjoy it.

What type of exercises do you do with the trainer? I wonder how much a personal trainer at my gym would be?? :confused: I would just like one for long enough to get me started so that I know what I am doing and to get me into the habit of working out.

I do a little of everything with my trainer. Being a paraplegic, I was worried I wouldn't be able to do any cardio. I mean, really, what is there for me to do? I shouldn't have worried. Laura was light years ahead of me :) For cardio, I use a punching bag. Cool huh? It REALLY makes you work up a sweat and a high heart rate if you do it right. For toning, you name it, I do it. A LOT of work with dumbbells, lat pull downs (close grip, wide grip, both under- and overhand), rows, use of exercise bands, etc.

See the difference in the YMCA, for instance, and where I work out is that it's ONLY personal training. You can come in and workout on your own on your off days, but you are paying for personal training. I'd be careful of personal training at other places unless I knew for sure that person was educated in personal training/fitness. At our local YMCA, the trainers are high school/college kids who don't have a clue what they are doing.

I hope I was of some help :)

Have a great day all!!

r3ngels

01-04-2007, 02:49 PM

blue_eyes5212

01-05-2007, 06:03 AM

Hey Lindsay,
I am just jumping on here to say Hi... you were on my journal a couple of days ago and I haven't sent you a PM but I could use support with eating. You have a great goal with your fluids.

I seem to go from Coffee to Diet Coke... I need to get other fluids in.

I am so glad you are doing great... I will stop by again.:goodvibes

As a Diet Dr Pepper addict I completely understand!! I know that it is not the best choice that I could make, but luckily it is 0 points on Weight Watchers. I'm trying to work on one thing at a time and my goal for this week is EXERCISE!

My first week at weight watchers = a LOSS of 6.6 pounds!!! YAY!! GO ME!!
GO ME!! :woohoo: (Can you tell I'm excited?? :confused: ) :rotfl:

Good luck to anyone reading this and have a great day!! Make good choices!!

~Amanda~

LindsayDunn228

01-05-2007, 07:28 AM

I am SOOOOOOOO glad it's Friday!!!!

I work out at 7 a.m. on Friday mornings so my journal will be a little later than usual. I had a pre-workout bar in my way and am now enjoying one of my energy drinks (root beer flavor).

I am doing so well. I put on a pair of jeans yesterday that wouldn't not zip last week. WOO HOO! I don't think I'm down a whole jean size yet, but I'm getting there.

My boss switched my hours on me and health-wise it's going to benefit me. Instead of working the mornings and ending with my workout, I will be beginning with my workout and then working the afternoon. So before I go to work in the mornings I will have time to thaw, chop, and prepare things for dinner that night, take my lunch to work with me, and not be tempted nor have the time to snack on unhealthy food. Cool eh?? :hippie:

My trainer was back at work yesterday. I asked her to please kill me (workout wise). She said, "I'm so glad you asked!!" :lmao:She's hilarious. I am mega sore today though, which is awesome. I got a good hard workout out of her.

I used to be Coke/Pepsi addict. I promise, it does get better. Just takes time :)

I'm off to go pick up my house a little bit. Have a great day all! :) :grouphug:

LindsayDunn228

01-06-2007, 06:06 AM

Ohhhhhhhhhhh, I am still so sore!!! :faint::headache: I can't complain. Being sore for me is a good thing. It really shows me I had a tough workout. It's odd though. My deltoids are MEGA sore. That's rare for me.

I had a good day yesterday. My cousins were in the process of driving to Chicago from here (Tennessee) and called me midmorning to chat. I was on the dang phone with them for over 2 hours!! Thank goodness I have a headset!

The only downside of my healthy eating (meh, not really a downside, just a bit of inconvenience) is my colon is doing a little bit of a detox. Eating salad and having veggies every day caught up with me yesterday. Let's just say I got a lot of reading done! :lmao: But getting excess poo out of you is a very good thing. Just icky sometimes.

My cravings are slowly tapering off. Let me explain. I only work a few days a week. On the days I was home, if I got a hankering for noodles and spaghetti sauce for breakfast, by heck, I would fix it!!!! Sad isn't it?? That's what I want control over more than anything. We all have choices. I made bad ones. I chose to completely binge on things like that even at breakfast, when I could have chosen to eat fruit and toast (or something) instead, but I didn't. I hope and pray I don't battle this the rest of my life. I need to nip this in the bud while I am young and diabetes-free. Someone please tell me I am not the only one struggling with things like this.

Sorry for the rather graphic story first thing this morning. I am off to finish my coffee and my breakfast. Have a healthy day all!!:wave2:

r3ngels

01-06-2007, 12:11 PM

:rotfl: you're funny this morning...

I am glad you are sore today...;) that is always good when you are trying to get back in shape.

My backend is a little sore today... either to much DISing or from working out for the first time in awhile. Hopefully it is the working out.

BTW, where in Tenn? My parents live in Nashville.

Have a great day Lindsay. :sunny:

CJK

01-06-2007, 02:21 PM

Happy weekend to you!!!!! :) I know exactly what you mean about the soreness! You feel a weird mix of pain and thrill from that pain! ;) It means that you're working hard and should be proud!

Sorry about the detoxing going on! I know EXACTLY what you mean though! Your body is probably thanking you for the changes.

I completely empathize with you about the cravings. For me, it seems to go in phases. I'll have weeks of very few cravings and then suddenly I want everything I can think of (or at least everything advertised on TV!!). The good news is that your body eventually doesn't crave things in the same way anymore. I ALWAYS ate fries with my veggie/chicken sandwiches when at fast food places, but I'm finding it easier and easier to have a side salad instead. That's not to say I'll never have fries again, it's just becoming easier not to crave them to the point of running old people down to get to my fries. ;)

Enjoy the weekend!

blue_eyes5212

01-06-2007, 03:19 PM

That's not to say I'll never have fries again, it's just becoming easier not to crave them to the point of running old people down to get to my fries. ;)

:rotfl2: I'm laughing because I can totally relate!! I don't want to get to the point where I just don't ever want fries or pizza or whatever, I just want to feel like I can control it, instead of feeling like the food controls me!

Thanks for posting on my journal, Lindsay!! If you will notice my new weight loss ticker I just added, that shows how I'm doing so far! And I am sticking with the program, so I feel optimistic! I feel like I can really do this!! :woohoo:

Have a great weekend!! :thumbsup2

SunFloridaDisney

01-06-2007, 05:28 PM

Hi Lindsay,

First, Welcome to WISH, I didn't realize until today that you had started a journal. Looks like you have some great goals, and a fantastic attitude to go along with it!

I've heard it very often that eating a lot more fresh produce will have that particular effect on your body! But after a short time, things will settle down.

Your idea of the water bottle is such a good one, I do that all the time, I keep a huge bottle of ice water with me, whether I'm at work or at home working. It really helps.

And I also wanted to say, about the weight, when you said you judge by your clothes, I think that's the best way anyhow. I know myself I can get obsessed with the scale, but what really matters is whether the things that have gotten too tight are fitting better again.

I think we all have things we need to get a handle on, whether it is eating whatever, whenever, or some particular food that does us in. Mine is chocolate, I just can't stop once I have some.

Stop by some of the other journals, there are a lot of supportive people here, and we all share ideas with each other. I know you have lots of good recipes, we're always looking for new ideas.:goodvibes

Have a good weekend.

LindsayDunn228

01-07-2007, 05:31 AM

Blech. I hate mornings. :coffee:

I had a rocking day yesterday. I am really proud of myself, you guys. We went out to eat to the Olive Garden. I ate a little bit of the salad and had a ravioli dish. Not the healthiest choice, but I didn't eat all of it and didn't gorge myself on breadsticks. Baby steps, and they are working. Oh and we passed up dessert. How hard is that to do the TOG?? :sad2::headache:

I gave myself a little treat yesterday too. We went to Barnes and Noble to use some gift certificates. I got a tall skinny cinnamon coffee WITH NO WHIPPED CREAM! :faint: It was really good and it satisfied my sweet tooth.

Can you believe my deltoids are STILL sore?! That was quite a workout I had 3 days ago!!

Well, I'm off to church here in a little while and a day filled with relaxing with my husband. Sorry it's such a boring journal today. I may come back later and post again.

Thanks to all of you who have posted. I really appreciate it!

LindsayDunn228

01-08-2007, 07:05 AM

Yesterday was a good day. Today will be even better. Way to start the morning. I hate mornings :surfweb:

I don't have much on my plate today (no pun intended). I want to spend a little time reading. One of my New Year's goals was to read one book a month. I am getting off to a good start reading The Prestige by Christopher Priest.

Would you believe that I am STILL sore from my workout?! My deltoids are still killing me. This is awesome. I can't wait until tomorrow. Kill me again, Laura!!

I have been thinking a lot about my WDW trip that we'll be taking in November. It will (hopefully) be here before I know it. Taking this trip being a little lighter and lot healthier is exciting to think about.

I'm having writer's block this morning.:scared:

LindsayDunn228

01-09-2007, 05:46 AM

It's 37 degrees here this morning. :cold: Very warm for January here, but at least it's a lot cooler than it has been. I think that's why I slept so good last night :)

I had a good day yesterday. I got sooooooooooo tempted midday though. I was like, "Need something sweet. Need something sweet. Need something sweet. Must. Have. Something." I took a deep breath, calmed that annoying voice, and sliced up a pear. All better!! Not to mention I ate it close to dinner time, so it decreased my appetite. Cool eh?? Not to mention I am trying my best to get 1-2 fibrous fruits down daily for my plumbing :snail:Like I mentioned earlier in my journal, I am trying to make sure I have a variety of options so I don't get sick of any one food. It can be costly, but it's working so far.

My trainer informed me last Thursday that she is pregnant. I am so excited for her. I can't help but have selfish thoughts though. I know that after she has the baby, she will not return to work. No one, and I mean no one, can train me like she can (at the studio). So I am taking a lot of notes now. When she leaves I will quit where I am at and just join the YMCA or something and do it myself. The studio I work out at is WAY to expensive not to get Laura-like training 3 times a week. :sad: I have entertained the idea of talking to her about this and suggesting she train someone to train me, so to speak. But as she once told me, you can't teach creativity. You either have it or you don't. She is absolutely right.

I have a lot on my mind this morning. Mind if I vent a little?

My dad remarried when in December 1995, I was a senior in high school. He had dated the woman for about 6 years, so it was a good thing. We got really close, as did myself and her kids (who are 6 and 7 years younger than me).

My stepbrother (who I adore) was born with some kind of kidney disorder. He had troubles with it his whole life. In 2002, when he was 17, he had to have a kidney transplant, and guess who was a perfect match to donate? My father. I had a lot of problems with this. My dad was not the best dad in the world as I was growing up, and the thought of him giving a kidney to my stepbrother when he couldn't give a pint of blood to me when I had a spinal fusion as a child, honestly made me jealous (note: my dad contracted hepatitis from a blood transfusion in the early 80's and that's why he couldn't donate blood. Apparently we know a lot more now than we did in the late 80s when I had my surgery for scoliosis and his kidney was safe to give my stepbrother).

So anyway, they had the surgery, all was well, bing bang boom.

Fast forward to now.

My stepbrothers moved out back in the spring of 2006. My stepbrother (the kidney one) has never eaten what he was supposed to, taken his meds like he was supposed to, and taken care of himself like he is supposed to. He is now in the very early stages of rejecting the kidney. My father is so frustrated with him and I don't blame him. He had to have a port-a-cath inserted last week and he is going through dialysis-like treatments.

If you look up "helicopter parent" in the dictionary, you will find a picture of my stepmother. She has been giving him insulin injections, taking him to the hospital for these treatments (which apparently don't leave him feeling bad, he could drive home himself), and texting him to death all day at work (when he's actually working).

Now the big news? My father tells me yesterday that he and his girlfriend want to get married in June. Ok, let's put this in perspective: you are 21 years old; you are in a dangerous situation right now, health-wise; when you do work, which right now is not often, your job pays under $10 per hour with no benefits; your girlfriend is still in college and works only part-time as a CNA; your mother dispenses your meds and gives your injections.

Do you really think you can get married?!?!?

Ok, I got that off my chest. Sorry, I just needed to vent about that.

My coffee is getting cold. I will come back and write more in a few. :surfweb:

LindsayDunn228

01-11-2007, 05:44 AM

Does anyone actual read the journals? I am kinda bummed out about mine. It says a bunch of people have viewed it, but rarely any responses. If I read someone's journal, I make a point to at least post some kind of comment/suggestion. I was hoping my journal would be beneficial for someone besides myself. Oh well.

Ok, enough whining.

I am doing really good this week. Still no binging or anything. I tell you what, the pears have been my saving grace. When I go to the grocery store I need to make sure I get enough pears to last me the whole week, not just a few days.

My Pooh has jury duty today. :(

My roots are mega showing. I need to go get them touched up tomorrow and my highlights pepped up. The only reason I color my hair at all is I have WAAAAAAAAAY too much gray for a 28 year old.

Off to drink my coffee. If you take 2 minutes to read my journal, please let me know that you did, ok? :hug:

dhcoffey

01-11-2007, 08:06 AM

Hey Lindsay,

I've been reading your journal and enjoying what you write about. I'm looking for all the inspiration I can get! Sounds like you're doing a great job. :thumbsup2

I also read the WFD thread every day and have gotten some great ideas from that. Thanks so much for keeping it up,

Heather

LindsayDunn228

01-12-2007, 05:39 AM

Today will be a better day. Today will be a better day.

Food/exercise-wise, yesterday was fine. I just had a bad day in other aspects. I had a very embarrassing incident happen to me at work. I won't go into what happened, let's just say it had something to do with my disability :sad1:

I normally work out at 7 a.m. on Fridays, but I am staying in today. I am having bad cramps and just need to get going a little slowly this morning. Laura is not my trainer on Fridays so I won't be missing a kick-*** workout, so I don't feel too guilty. I may stick in an exercise tape in later to at least get some cardio in. I don't know. I'm feeling so sorry for myself I may just forget it today.

I am going to get my hair done at lunch today. Getting out of the house and having my hair touched up will probably lift my spirits. Also, I am going to my grandmother's for dinner tonight so that will help, too.

Just say a prayer for me, if you pray. Think about me and love on your pet, if you have one, if you don't pray. I'd appreciate it.:flower3:

I've got a long weekend ahead of me. My husband is off on Monday, and I don't work on Monday's anyway, so we get to spend the day together. We may try to go see "We Are Marshall." We are going to go see "The Prestige" again tomorrow at the cheap theater. We saw it on New Year's Day and I am dying to see it again. Mmmmmmmmm, Christian Bale. Yummy!! :love:

Well I better go for now. I will try to come back and post again when I am more awake. Thanks for all the support, WISHers :grouphug:

r3ngels

01-12-2007, 08:06 AM

Hi Lindsay,
I haved check in, in a couple of days. I am sorry you had a bad day yesterday. Today will be better.

I had a bad day yesterday too.... but it will be the start of a 3 day weekend tonight :thumbsup2

It's a bummer about your trainer... I know how much she means to you.

Have fun at the movies popcorn::

r3ngels

01-15-2007, 12:54 PM

Hey... where are ya?

How was your weekend?

LindsayDunn228

01-15-2007, 05:57 PM

Will report in the morning :)

LindsayDunn228

01-16-2007, 05:46 AM

Sorry I have been MIA the past few few days. Not much has been going on and I haven't any time to come in here and write.

We had an awesome weekend. Saturday we had plans to see "The Prestige" again. Sadly, there were no matinees, so we went and saw "We Are Marshall" instead (I'm kinda partial to Mr. McConaughey). I easily blubbered off all my makeup, hee hee. What an awesome movie.

Yesterday Pooh was off, and I don't work on Mondays anyway. I stayed in my pj's all day and we chilled out together. Boy was it nice!! We watched some stuff, surfed, and were just plain worthless. It's nice to do that every now and then.

Warning: this may be TMI for some readers. Consider yourself warned!

I am going through my first PMS of the year. I am on the Pill to help my periods (been on them since I was 20). One of the symptoms of my PMS is intense bloating. And I mean intense. I was hoping that eating better would make a difference but it hasn't so far. The stinky thing about being so badly bloated is I have to pee, all the time. For someone who has to take a whiz using an intermittent cath, it's pretty inconvenient (will explain if needed). Anyone have any suggestions on making the bloating better? Something to eat, drink, pill, etc.?

Ahhh, now that I got that off my chest...

Well I guess that's all for now. I may come back later. Have a great day all!! :drive:

LindsayDunn228

01-17-2007, 05:47 AM

*I'm looking at you through the glass, don't know how much time had passed..."

Sorry. When I begin my journal I don't have the tv or radio or anything going so I usually have a song in my head. (the above is "Through Glass" by Stone Sour, if anyone cares. I love that song.).

All is well here. My bloating is thankfully getting better. I was ready to cry yesterday when I was getting ready for work. I just knew the jeans that I could now fit into would be unbuttonable (if that's a word) because of the bloating. Surprisingly, but happily, they slid on. Woo hoo! I was so happy :banana:

I don't think I've mentioned this yet. I have another goal, weight-wise, concerning my WDW trip this year. I want to wear a fitted shirt while on my vacation. I cannot wear tops with any kind of Spandex in it, I look and feel like a hoss. I want to be able to wear a few in WDW :thumbsup2

I kind of hurt my shoulder last night. I was laying on my back in bed and my husband came over to hug me. He got on his knees beside the bed and leaned and against it and kind of hyper-extended my arm. My shoulder has been hurting ever since. I hope it's better by tomorrow. My workout will be very hard to do with a bum shoulder. I am going to try and nurse it today.

Well I better go for now. If you read this, please post a comment, ok? I would appreciate it!!

CathrynRose

01-17-2007, 05:49 PM

I should do a WISH Journal. It would be nice to see how Ive progressed.... I think once I kick this Sinus Infection of mine, I will !! Thanks for the idea! i didnt even know this board existed!

I think your goals sound great, Lindsey.

One thing, that I always try to keep in mind, because my mom was diabetic (and passed away at age 55 from complications of such, a year ago January 28th :guilty: ) that the cause of that disease is your glucose/insulin levels. And by cutting out that cr@ppy white food - sugar, flour, and root vegetables for now you can very often shed weights AND lower your chance of getting that horrible, horrible, horrible disease.

Portion control is great and works for a lot of people - not me though. Im a hungry person. I need to eat, so if Im gonna eat, it cant be "white".

ETA - I re-read this and it sounded preachy. Its not supposed to at all. I just have a serious PASSION for low-carb, or at least get rid of BAD carbs for people prone to diabetes. I wish my mom would have done it. :(

LindsayDunn228

01-17-2007, 06:08 PM

Thanks for the post Cathryn :)

Your post wasn't at all preachy!! I totally get you :) I have tried and cannot do no-anything. It works for awhile and then I completely binge. So I do an everything in moderation approach. :)

KristinBelle

01-18-2007, 06:22 AM

Hi Lindsay! Great job so far, keep up the hard work and you'll be wearing those fitted tops before you know it. :thumbsup2

LindsayDunn228

01-18-2007, 06:29 AM

*Stretch. Yawn. Grumble grumble* :surfweb: Morning all.

First of all, thank you to everyone who is posting on my journal. You don't know how much I appreciate it :)

Just finished my breakfast and coffee. Having a good day so far. I am taking things one day at a time (as much as I hate this phrase, it works). The only thing is I really need to be drinking more water. I will work on that.

I taped the Real World last night so I'm off to go watch it. Have a good day all :)

LindsayDunn228

01-19-2007, 06:01 AM

I'm getting a butt-kicking today, and not the killer workout kind.
Warning: TMI:scared:
Last summer I gave Yaz (the Pill) a try. I LOVED it!! No PMS, a dot of a period (no pun intended), and it lasted only 2-3 days. How can you beat that? The catch? I had a severe headache 24/7. So after about 4 months of this I go back on the Pill I have been taking since I was 20.

I'm back to 5-6 day periods, kind heavy off and on, and cramps. But it's totally worth it not to have that blasted headache that literally made me ask my husband to please shoot me and put me out of my misery.

So I'm not working out today. I need to rest. I've got a crazy busy weekend ahead of me so I need to pamper myself a little bit.

Everything is still going good food-wise. I cannot judge if I have lost any weight with period bloating going on. I still feel better than I did before though. Know what I mean?

I'm off to go attempt to eat some breakfast. I have no appetite but have to eat something so I can take my vitamins. Have a great Friday all and thanks for reading my journal :grouphug:pixiedust::disrocks:

LindsayDunn228

01-21-2007, 06:13 AM

*WARNING: A TMI JOURNAL BELOW!!*

It has sucked to be me the past 2 days. I have learned the hard way that I cannot eat nuts anymore. I had a small handful as a snack on Wednesday. Friday and off and on yesterday I have sick with constipation. Ohhhhhhh, it's been bad. I have NOT had a good weekend. How do you know it's the nuts that did it, you ask?? My answer: you really don't want to know. *shudder and gag*

At least now I won't be tempted to eat nuts when I know what they can do to me.:sick::crazy2:

So I have been taking it easy and not really eating a whole lot because of my raw tummy. After I pulled myself together yesterday I put on a pair of jeans that had been fitting fine. They were so loose around the waist it was pathetic. A very hard way to lose an inch or so, but I did. :sad2:

We are taking my grandmother out to eat for her birthday today, along with my parents. I don't plan on eating much to give my tummy a break. Not to mention I don't have much of an appetite yet. When you deal with nutty poo for 2 days, food kind of makes me gag. Know what I mean?

Well I'm off to shower. Have a healthy day!

ETA: I'm also chugging water to make sure I don't get dehydrated.

LindsayDunn228

01-22-2007, 05:34 AM

Whoooooo boy, has it been a long weekend. After being sick as a dog Friday and Saturday, I spent Sunday semi-chilled out and am feeling much better now.

As far as WISH goes, I am doing awesome. No flubs at all. I'm hoping I feel like working out tomorrow. I'm still kind of blech. I should be fine though. Sometimes I just suck it up and work out anyway and I usually feel much better because of it. Sometimes exercise IS the answer. That's not just an annoying cliche.

Hmmm, not much in my mind yet this morning. Think I'll go DIS a little more :)

escape

01-22-2007, 09:09 AM

Hi Lindsay! I'm more of a lurker than a poster. However, I do want to let you know that I think you are doing a great job here with your journal...and...getting on the right track, weight-wise. :thumbsup2

I'm thinking about starting a journal. I need some accountability as well. My goal is to run/walk a full marathon at WDW next January. I have a year to train but so far, I'm falling down on the job. I've been eating everything in sight and I can feel some of the pounds that I've lost already starting to creep back on. Not a good thing. I want to lose about 50 more pounds. Ugh! Your journal, as well as others, are giving me the swift kick in the pants I need to get back on track.

Another bummer about your pg trainer. She might not be able to pass on her "creativity" but maybe she can recommend another trainer close to her style. As for me, I have to use a personal trainer. Otherwise, I wouldn't push myself as hard. I'm just not disciplined enough at this point. As a matter of fact, I need to go get ready for my appointment now.

By the way, glad you are feeling better today. :hug: Hopefully you'll feel like working out tomorrow. :)

LindsayDunn228

01-23-2007, 05:25 AM

First of all, Susie, thank you so much for your post. If you need some accountability, I'd be glad to do whatever I can to help you. I still need it myself!!!

I had a good day yesterday. Being sick this weekend turned out to be a good thing. I am more aware of what I am eating and how much, and making sure I am staying hydrated. Sometimes an awful experience can teach you a lot. One thing you will learn about me, I always try to find the silver lining whenever I can. My husband recently backed into someone's mailbox. Didn't hurt the mailbox but it creamed our car and cost us $900 to fix. My silver lining? "At least you didn't back into someone's Escalade!"

I try to apply the same in every aspect of my life. I try to. Sometimes it's difficult.

I hope everyone has a great day!! :cheer2::grouphug::flower3:

r3ngels

01-23-2007, 06:40 AM

Hey Lindsay,
Sorry about your car... We have a dent in the side of ours that we need to fix next week... someone hit us in a parking lot and left. I hate spending money on cars.

I am doing better this week... part of last week I had the I can't do this problem... but this week I am doing better. Because I can do this.

I am glad you are feeling better.

I haven't been to your dinner thread in a couple months are you guys getting some lower fat/cal recipies... I should come look. Problem is the low fat stuff doesn't taste as good as your jumbpasta recipie ;)

Have a great day.

r3ngels

01-26-2007, 12:20 PM

Hey Lindsay.... How are you doing this week? Any plans for the weekend?

LindsayDunn228

01-27-2007, 05:28 AM

Hi all :) Sorry, I've had a lot on my plate the past few days (no pun intended). But I am alive!

Today we are taking a friend out to eat for his birthday. After doing some grocery shopping we are going to come home and chill out. We have season 1 of 24 from Netflix right now so we will probably watch some of it. Looks like we have a relaxing weekend ahead of us! :)

Pixiedust34

01-28-2007, 06:30 AM

Hi Lindsay,

I'm enjoying your journal as I can relate to it in a few ways. One of my biggest motivations for shedding my weight is health. Diabetes runs in my family, and I'm trying to prevent it from setting in as I get older. I also have acid reflux, and losing my 20 pounds will help with that. Plus, I know that being thinner is overall better for my health.

And......the mug matters! It sounds that you love your WDW mugs as much as I love mine. I drink all of my drinks in a WDW mug. :goodvibes I've down to about 1 soda/month and about 2-3 cups of coffee/month for a special treat. The rest of the time, I drink water or diluted iced tea in my Disney mugs loaded with ice. If it's there, I'll drink it. I also keep a mug next to me while I'm cooking and will sip on it while making dinner. I hope that this will help me with portion control when I eat.

Keep up the good work! :thumbsup2