Amanda's "I want this so badly" Journal...Comments Welcome!!! Proud Weight Watcher!!

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi All!! I have been meaning to start this journal for a while now! I mean, what could be more perfect than people trying to lose weight and who love Disney all in one place??? :goodvibes It sounds like the perfect place to come when I am needing to express myself and get encouragement and support. Let me start by giving some basic info. I'm 26 years old and have been married to Chris for 2 years. I work in registration at our local hospital and like my job for the most part.

I have been overweight for most of my life. I only weighed 5 pounds 1 oz
at birth and then it was just up,up,up from there! :rotfl:

I have done Weight Watchers in the past and just recently went back.
I weigh on Thursday night and am starting out at 232.something.

We have booked a vacation to Disney for November but we are going to postpone until February (as soon as the 07 packages come out, I will call and officially change our ressie). I'm a little sad about postponing but I know that it will be better financially and will give me more time to lose weight!

It is my (first) goal to get below 200 pounds! I really can't wait for the day when I am able to walk into a store and shop in the "regular sizes" as opposed to the "plus sizes". I have never been able to do that and I can't wait!!

I carry most of my weight in my hips and butt and I hate it! :furious:
It makes it hard to find pants to fit. If they fit in the hips they are too big in the waist because my waist is actually not that big! Anyway!!

Hope you enjoy reading my journal and I will post often to keep myself on track!! :grouphug:

~Amanda~

[blue_eyes5212]

2 days back at the Weight Watching and I've stuck with my points for both days.....This may not seem like much, but I was probably eating 60 points a day before......so it is a really big deal. And on days when I am thinking that I cannot stick with it I want to be able to look back at this and say "I can do this......I just have to take it one day at a time!!"

~I love my journal~

~This is fun~

~Amanda~

[goodeats]

Great job Amanda! You're going to be so much healthier for all your efforts! Not to mention, look great!

Make sure you get your water and no-point veggies in!

[blue_eyes5212]

I just got back from my mom's house where we did the 1 mile Walk Away The Pounds!!! :banana: This is a big deal because I hate, hate, hate to work out and haven't done it in several months! I feel very proud!

One day at a time!!!!

Go me :cheer2: go me :cheer2: go me :cheer2:

I have heard some people say that one of their favorite things to do is work out, but I don't think that you will ever hear me say that! Maybe when there is less of me to move around! :rotfl: Nah, maybe not even then!!! :rotfl2:

[TomB'sWidow]

Wow good for you on the exercise :cheer2: :cheer2: I also hate to exercise I actually joined Gold's gym two months ago and I have not gone yet How pathetic is that? :confused3 Keep on :cool1:

[blue_eyes5212]

I'm a member of a gym too!! :rotfl: I join with the best of intentions but don't seem to make it there! I keep telling myself that exercising will be easier when I get about 10-15 pounds off, but maybe I am just fooling myself!! We'll see anyway!! Cause I'm gonna do it!!! :banana:

[Imgoingwdw]

Amanda you just described my body type. Everything is to tight around the stomach and hips and doesn't touch the waist anywhere!!!

Keep up the good work if you want it bad enough you can do it. Just remember the goal. For Christmas my husband gave me a tirp to WDW in July. On January 1 I went on a diet (said I was going to look at least decent in those clothes that were hanging in the closet rotting). I have lost 52 pounds and I can now wear most of the 12's in my closet. I feel so much better not carrying around that weight, and buying clothes sure is a lot more fun. We leave in two days. I accomplished my goal. That alone feels pretty great. :goodvibes :goodvibes
Keep in mind that goal and you can do it to. :woohoo: :woohoo:

[blue_eyes5212]

Happy 4th to anyone reading this!! pixiedust:
Don't really have plans today but I'm sticking with my points regardless.
My DH grilled hamburgers (lean meat for me!!) and corn on the cob! We
have a watermelon that we are going to snack on later......so today is
going well!! :yay:

Thursday night is Weigh In and I am so ready to see how I have done this week!

:disrocks:

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hi, Amanda! You sound like you are off to a great start on your diet! :cheer2: I know that it can be a struggle to get used to eating right when you have been just eating whatever for so long. I still have trouble sometimes, but stick with it! :cheer2: You can do it! Great choices for today too!

Exercise does get easier and more enjoyable as you get into the habit of it. :yay: You start to feel better and better then it feels like less of a chore. I have started and stopped exercising Many times in the past. This is the first time that I have ever stuck w/ it for any length of time. I started in January and still manage to get about 3 days a week. I know that the exercise challenges on WISH really help keep me motivated! :cheer2: You can do it, just take it one day at a time and listen to your body! :cheer2:

Have a great week! :sunny: And Happy 4th of July!

[blue_eyes5212]

The thing that is the hardest for me is the exercise! I keep telling myself it is because there is a lot of me to move around but I doubt that I will ever be one of these people who just LOVES to exercise! Or who LOVES fruit over cookies or ice cream! But I am doing much much better!! So I am proud of myself for that!! :goodvibes

[blue_eyes5212]

First Weigh In!! I lost 2.8 pounds!! :banana: GO ME!!

[blue_eyes5212]

Just got back from taking a walk! GO ME!! :cool1: :banana: :cheer2:
This is a big deal since I don't like to exercise!!

[TomB'sWidow]

Way to go :cheer2: for the weight loss and the walk, keep it going :banana: :cheer2: I am going to try and go to the gym tommorrow :confused3 we'll see, but you go girl :cool1:

[lacy1101]

I mean, what could be more perfect than people trying to lose weight and who love Disney all in one place??? :goodvibes It sounds like the perfect place to come when I am needing to express myself and get encouragement and support.

I carry most of my weight in my hips and butt and I hate it! :furious:

Hope you enjoy reading my journal and I will post often to keep myself on track!! :grouphug:

~Amanda~

Amanda - your first journal entry sounds like it could have been written by me! I love Disney sooooooo much and I want to lose weight sooooooo bad - why not try the two together?!? Since our last trip to Disney in the fall last year (when the pic in my siggy was taken), I have gained almost 20 lbs.! Love food? That's me! I had been doing WW prior to our trip and had lost down from 182 to 163. Obviously, I've gained it all back! I am really struggling right now. :sad2:

I have decided to go back to LA Weight Loss. I lost a significant amount with them approximately 5 years ago, but did not go through the maintenance phase. They told me at the center the other day that it takes your body one year to accept its new weight. I guess I didn't give it enough time, because it came back to find me! I, too, carry my weight in my butt and hips. :furious:

I think I may give this journaling thing a try. Heck, I've done everything else! :confused3 Maybe I'll see you around on the WISH boards. Congrats on your success so far! :thumbsup2

[BCV MOMX2]

Amanda,
We sound soooo much alike! I too am counting the points and am determined to get this weight off before our next trip. When I'm out of points for the day and my stomach starts growling I ask myself outloud - how bad do you want it (to lose weight that is)? Being on the Dis also helps because it keeps my hands busy typing and not opening the fridge! I'm so into the the WW - I looked at this and thought.....2 points! :banana: Hee hee! Keep up the good work! You'll get there! Believe in yourself.

[blue_eyes5212]

Hi All,

I haven't been very good at the journaling like I thought I would be. Thanks for the encouraging comments. I just got back from weight watchers and I have lost 4.8 pounds overall with over 2 pounds just this week! I'm excited about my progress and nervous that I am going to mess up!!

Again, thanks for the comments and I hope to here from you all again soon!!

~hugs~
Amanda

[lacy1101]

Way to go, Amanda! :cool1:

I'm not going to weigh in at LAWL until Monday. Hopefully by then I'll have 5 good days under my belt, and only 2 bad ones! ;)

[blue_eyes5212]

Way to go, Amanda! :cool1:

I'm not going to weigh in at LAWL until Monday. Hopefully by then I'll have 5 good days under my belt, and only 2 bad ones! ;)

Is this your first weigh in?? Good luck!!! I'm from Kentucky also!!
I wonder how far apart we live?? I have a good weekend!! :goodvibes

[DisDee]

Congrats on the weight loss!

[TomB'sWidow]

Congrats on the weight loss :banana: just keep focusing and take it day by day :wave:

[blue_eyes5212]

I don't know why, but here lately the weekends have been so hard for me! Like yesterday I ate tons of bad stuff and went over my points. I did the same thing last weekend and the only reason I lost this week is because I dropped my points from 26 to 20 the rest of the week to make up for it. I guess that is what I will do this week too, that way I still have a loss!! I'm pretty mad at myself!!
:sad2: :furious:

[TomB'sWidow]

Hey, don't be so hard on yourself. :sad2: weekend's are usually hard for most people but it looks like you have a plan in place to controls this week.
:shamrock: :jumping1: Good luck you can do it :banana: :cheer2:

[blue_eyes5212]

I have no idea how many cookies I've eaten today! Plus a biscuit and sausage for breakfast and 2 eggrolls for lunch! I've done so bad! Why do I do this??
I feel so guilty!! :guilty: I had the breakfast and then thought "Oh well, I've blown it now" So I've eaten all day!! It doesn't make sense to just keep on eating, but I did!! Surely, I'm not the only one?? I feel sick and disgusted!!

[DisneyMama2H&O]

Hi Amanda,

Hang in there. I'm a Weight Watchers Lifetime member and I know how hard it can be. My sister, my best friend and I attend our meetings regularly and have a great support system and have helped each other make it to lifetime. We have lots of tips, tricks, recipes and support to share with you if you are interested.

Becky

[DisneyMama2H&O]

... I forgot to say BRAVO on your accomplishments so far!

[blue_eyes5212]

Thanks for the support Becky! I would appreciate any advice you have!! I have a long way to go until lifetime, but hope to get there one day!!! Thanks again, and I hope to talk to you soon! :goodvibes

[blue_eyes5212]

It has been over a month since I first started my journal and I have not had a very successful month. I do ok for a week and then I eat (a lot) and undo all my hard work!! Why do I sabotoge myself this way??? :guilty: It makes me so sad!!! And mad!! And defeated!!! Sometimes I'm ashamed at the amount of food I eat even though I have heard people on talk shows and stuff talking about eating more than I do!! I guess this journal entry is just me rambling.....but I need to get this off my chest!! My Weight Watchers weigh in is on Thursday night so Friday my Flex Points start all over. I start Friday with the best of intentions, but then the weekend hits and I blow it! So then I figure I might as well just keep eating!! Sometimes I'm my own worst enemy!! :guilty:

If anyone is reading this and knows how I feel.....I would love to know that somebody understands!!!

~Amanda~

[DisneyMama2H&O]

My weigh in day is on Saturday morning. I was struggling for the past several months. I'd weigh in and then make poor choices Saturday and Sunday. I had to refocus my goals and my habits. I had to find new foods and recipes that I would enjoy. I'm back on track for the most part and journaling again. Here are some tips that work for me. Some may seem silly but they are working for me.

1. I have a snack basket in my pantry. Presentation is everything & it's easy access ~ I don't have to open any boxes. I have lots of choices and I know they are all 2 points. Here's what's in there ~ (100 calorie snack packs ~ different varieties, 2 points bars, popcorn snack bags, 100 calorie cool ranch doritos, rice crispie treats.) Lots of happy choices.

2. I'm short so all the tempting foods are up on the top shelf of the pantry so that I have to get a stool to be able to reach them. I actually have to take the extra effort and time to think if I really need that food.

3. I recently replaced my kitchen glasses with goblets and added a water purifier to the faucet. I'm drinking water more than ever. There's just something about drinking water out of a pretty glass.

4. I pulled some exercises off of WW etools that are quick and easy and do them whenever my kids are occuppied.

If I think of anymore I'll let you know. Sometimes it helps me to share what is working with others. Why don't you share what is working with us.

Hang in there.

[blue_eyes5212]

Well, I thought I would just check in and journal today........I am still not very good at journaling, but I had a rough day at work and I need to do something other than turn to food for comfort! I never thought I was a comfort eater, but I guess I am!! I feel very stressed about things that are going on at work but I keep telling myself that eating is not going to make situations at work any better!!

[goldcupmom]

A very belated Welcome to WISH, Amanda! Sounds like you're doing very well. As a fellow WW who constantly struggles, any downward movement is good and don't sweat the mess ups... Life happens!!

Have a great week!

[DisneyMama2H&O]

any downward movement is good and don't sweat the mess ups... Life happens!!



Well put goldcupmom.