Denise's Happy, Healthy,Healing Journal-Posts welcome

[Goofydiane]

I'm impressed with the shopping deals! I never go to our Disney store anymore, it is at the Mall of America and I just don't like that mall.

The beading class sounds like fun and I can see how it can be therapeutic. what a great place to meet new friends.

Hope you have a great week coming up!

[DisDee]

Today I have an appt. at the treatment center for my preliminary rad. treatment. This is just to get me lined up on the equipment and check my marks and set up my time schedule. I don't receive rad. today. I think this will help me for when I get the first real treatment. At least I'll be familiar with the room and machine, and it won't be as intimidating.

I also have some errands to run in the area near the center. Hallmark, library, party store-all the stuff I used to take care of on my lunch hour and on the way home from work.

We went to dinner last night at a local pub-type place. I ordered the crab and cheese dip which is way too good! I've been doing some stress eating lately. Its always been my coping mechanism.

Time to get ready for the appt.

[goldcupmom]

How did yesterday go, Dee? Hopefully well & a bit reassuring.

Hang in there!

[goldcupmom]

Just thinking about you & wondering how things are going. You're in my prayers!!!

Hang in there & update us when you can!

[DisDee]

"The reason most people never reach their goals is that they don't define them, learn them or ever seriously consider them as believable or achievable." Dennis Waitley

I'm baaack! I can't believe I haven't posted in a week. I honestly don't know how I juggled everything while working and taking care of the house and myself. I guess I'll find out soon enough when I go back after my treatments.

I started my radiation on Monday. DH flexed his time so he could take me which was nice. I'd really gotten myself worked up in anticipation of the start date. I've been doing so well, that the thought of "cancer treatment" justed freaked me out. My nurse told me that I shouldn't expect any side effects for about 2 weeks, if then. Maybe I'll be one of the lucky ones and have only minimal discomfort. I've been given a special diet to follow for when the GI problems start which is the common side effect of pelvic radiation.

So, enough of all that. Julie, thanks for checking in on me. I appreciate it more that you'll ever know!

We had a great time on our quickie trip to Florida! We visited the Florida Aquarium in Tampa and then went to our hotel in Clearwater. The place was amazing...built in 1897, huge and sprawling, and a bargain since its awaiting an extensive renovation in 2009. I just love staying at historic properties! We went over to their beach club which sits on the gulf and had a yummy lunch while there. Came back and wandered the hotel (while making jokes about "The Shining"), then went to the huge outdoor pool with hot tub. We also took a ride along the gulf thru the little towns and stopped at John's Pass, a tacky but fun boardwalk area in Madeira Beach. Had brunch there and did some shopping. I bought a couple of cover-ups for our cruise in May.

I have to stop for now and do some more catching up with other stuff. I'll be Dissing again later. Have a wonderful Wednesday!

[DisDee]

Here I am into my second week of treatments and everything is going well. I'm not having any symptoms or discomfort to date which I am very thankful for. I am feeling a little more tired than usual, so that may be a side effect.

We had a busy weekend. Our daughter, Lauren came to visit on Friday night, so we had to go to Phila. to pick her up at 30th St. (Amtrack). On Sat. I had an early hair appt., then came home and had breakfast and made plans for the day. Lauren decided she wanted to go to Ikea, so we all- Mom, Sis, Niece, Lauren and I drove back to Phila. We spent a couple of hours wandering around, and I bought a couple of travel items. Found a sling backpack for $3.04 and a case for my MP3 player. I also bought one of their huge shopping bags for $.59 which I figure will work great for a laundry bag while traveling. I can tote all our stuff to the OKW pool when we get back from the cruise, throw it in the washer and relax and have a drink.

We had a big dinner when we returned from shopping. I started an oven stuffer before we left home and hubby took care of that, so when we got back, we made some sides, opened some wine and had a nice family dinner. Oh yeah, DS and his DW also came over, so we had a big group.

We relaxed on Sunday and took Lauren back for her train around 3.

So now I'm back into the treatment mode. I have to call my primary cause my blood sugar is running high. I also have to go over to Curves and put my membership on medical hold cause my 2 docs have conflicting opinions as to whether I should work out or not. I figure I'll just take it easy, stretch and walk and let my body have time to heal itself. I know my treatments will have me more fatigued as time goes on, so I have to listen to my body. I also have to call my med. ins. and see if they will adjust the time for my fitness reimbursement. Might as well get my $150.00 back if I can.

Hope all is going well for everyone. My plan is to catch up on your journals tomorrow. Have a great day!!!!

[goldcupmom]

Sounds like things are good & you're on track! Glad to hear it! Still praying.....

[DisDee]

Thanks Julie! I know the prayers are working because I continue to feel good, just a little tired. I took a nap for about 1.5 hr. today, so I'll be up tonight. I can make my DCL ressies for Palo at 12:01-my 75 day mark.

We have crappy weather today in the Phila. area. Snow in the early morning that turned to freezing rain, then rain. I'm sure it will get icy tonight as the temp drops. Thank goodness I don't have to go anywhere tonight.

I've completed 2 weeks of radiation therapy...3 more to go. I had an appt. with my primary today and my weekly blood work too. My blood sugar was 100 today, which is great for me!

I'm trying to remember what I did all week. We applied for our passports on Tues., which was exciting. I hear they're being processed much more quickly now. Wed was just a typical day, although the RT machine was down for awhile, so I was at the treatment center much longer than usual. Thursday I met a co-worker for lunch, went to Hallmark, then to my treatment. It amazes me how quickly the week goes by since I'm not working.

I'll check back in later and let you know if I was successful with the Palo ressies. Have a great weekend!

[DisDee]

Good news...I got my Palo ressie for the day and time I hoped for so I'm wondering if our cruise is lightly booked. We also booked the Discover Atlantis Tour. Hubby really enjoys going to Aquariums and we'll get to explore the resort a little.

I spent the day at home today. The weather was somewhat dismal so I just stayed put. I plan to get out tomorrow since we're supposed to get some sunshine. I know I have to pick up a birthday gift, so I'll take a walk around the mall, and I'm not sure what else. DH has to work in the morning, so I'll try to plan a little something fun for him too. Maybe we'll hit one of his favorite antique stores.

I received a letter from my health plan today stating that they extended my "workout year" due to the surgery and treatment. This way, I'll have the opportunity to qualify for the $150.00 reimbursement. I just have to log the required number of workouts.

I think I'll take some time to update my medical paperwork and journal. I'm trying my best to write about what happens at each appt, my weight, bp etc., and also to keep all the forms, lab results and other paperwork in some type of order. So, that's my goal for tonight. doesn't that sound like a fun Saturday night?

I'll check in tomorrow with more tales of my exciting life. LOL!

[Goofydiane]

Denise - Glad to hear the treatments are going well! You are an inspiration to the rest of us.

[DisDee]

This has been a rather uneventful week for me, which is good I guess. I've been feeling more tired than normal, so I haven't done much but hang at home and do some leisurely things. DH and I did visit with our SIL on Wed. night. His brother passed away in late Nov. and there is a social being held in his memory next Sat.The event's proceeds will help SIL out, because she took off 5 months of work to be his care-giver and he was employed by family, so didn't qualify for any state disability insurance. Its been difficult for her in so many ways, but thankfully she has a huge family to offer her support. BIL was a big Nascar fan, so a couple of weeks back, some of the family traveled to Daytona where he wanted some of his ashes scattered. Very sad

We don't have any plans for the weekend. DH is working early both days and should be home by lunch time. I'm thinking about attempting our taxes. I need to psych myself to get in the mood, but I figure if I get them in the mail soon, any refund that we get can go into our vacation fund for May. We'll also get that federal refund sometime after that, so that can also go to pay off anything we charge. The majority of the trip is paid, but we'll can always find something to spend it on. LOL!!! If we don't use it then, it can go in our Alaska cruise fund which we want to take in the next couple of years. Sounds like a plan!

Enough about me. Have a great weekend everyone!!!!

[Goofydiane]

Congrats on the Palo reservation! Enjoy it, it sounds like a fabulous place to eat.

With all you are going through, you deserve a nice quiet weekend. I hope it worked out that way for you.

[DisDee]

62 days till WDW!!!

This past weekend was rather uneventful. I had some G/I problems from the radiation, so I was pretty much house-bound. My DD (28) asked if we all wanted to go to the Outer Banks in NC again, so we decided we did and started a rental house search. That was the focus of my weekend. There are so many places available that you can make yourself crazy while searching. We normally go in the off-season when we can get a super deal, but since my DIL is a teacher and DS works at a university, we had to go with the week of August 9th when its 2-3 times more expensive. I'm happy to say that after much searching, we found an affordable place in a great community. We usually rent a huge place with 6 bedrooms, so we scaled down a little and found a 4 BR with the amenities that we wanted. It will be fun to be there in the height of the season, and we'll have the bonus of more beach and pool time!

To be continued...I have to go for blood work.

[DisDee]

I'm back!!!! This was my last visit to the lab during the RT. Yeah! I'm sure my docs will find some other reasons to stick me in the upcoming months.

Anyway...back to the other stuff. I had an appt. with a nutritionist on Monday. We set some goals for the upcoming months. March's goal is to strive for a certain number of steps each week. She couldn't do any food related goals because I'm on that restricted RT food plan and I have to follow it for 2 wks. after the treatment ends. Now I just have to get my butt in gear and do some walking between visits to the bathroom. I know-too much information! I'm wearing my pedometer from the time I get up till I change into my jammies. Its amazing how the steps add up just doing everyday things.

Back to some travel news-we snagged another great rate on Spirit Airlines for $29.00 each way to Myrtle Beach, SC in Sept. We're flying down on a Thurs. night and coming back on Monday night, which is great cause we only miss 2 days of work. We've always wanted to go there, but didn't want to do a week long vaca, so this is perfect.

The time is getting away from me today. I slept a little later than normal because we had thunder storms during the night and both DH and I were awake for quite awhile. So... I better get something done around here before I leave for my treatment. (17 done 8 more to go)

[goldcupmom]

You're doing wonderful, Dee! I'm so glad!! ( & still praying)

Trip planning sounds like just what you need right now.

Hope the good week continues!!

[DisDee]

Today is my last external radiation treatment!!!!!!! I have 3 internal treatments for the next 3 weeks and I pray that will be the end of all my treatments! After this I follow up with my docs at least every 2 months. I'm so thankful that I've come thru this with only some minor discomfort. Thank you all for being here for me!

[DisDee]

I need to get back to posting more regularly! I'll start with the weekend. We picked our DD up at the train on Fri. night so she could spend the weekend with us. She brought me a bouquet of spring flowers since it was my last external rad. treatment, and DH bought me roses also! I was very emotional that day, and cried like a baby when the treatment was done. The staff was very sweet, and I got lots of hugs and good wishes.

On Sat. we had a family dinner for DH's birthday. It was great to have everyone together to celebrate. I could tell that he was very touched. He got several gifts to use on vaca...new camera case, passport holder, and new clothes for the cruise. A good time was had by all!

I had my first of 3 internal treatments on Monday. I was extremely nervous in anticipation, but it wasn't bad at all, and the actual treatment took only 4 1/2 minutes. The preliminaries took much longer-the CT scan and x-rays, prep and all that.

On Tuesday, I had to take one of my aunts to my Gyn Oncologist. Her gyn found a growth that she didn't like , so my aunt had to have it biopsied. She is beside herself with anxiety. She is the caregiver for my uncle who has Alzheimers and severe rheumetoid arthritis, and doesn't feel like she has time to address her own health issues. I had to convince her to go to this appt. and stayed with her the whole time.

So, that brings us to today which is the first day that I don't have to go out in over 5 weeks. I plan to indulge myself today and just read, relax and only do things that I want to do. I plan to go back to work on April 7th, which is going to be tough, cause I'm not used to being active for 8 hours in a row. I'll need to "practice" being energetic. LOL!

I've lost some weight in the past couple of weeks due to the restricted diet. I have to follow it for another week and a half , then I can gradually add back some normal foods. Even though the diet is boring, I know it has helped me get into a discipline groove when it comes to eating. I weigh 181 , and my highest ever was 213. I would love to get to 179 in the next week. I don't even know when I last weighed in the 170's. It would be really nice if I could get to the low 170's by the time I cruise. I bought some smaller sizes at the end of last summer that are waiting for me.

Goal for today...do a Leslie Sansone walking routine, and journal my foods.

[DisDee]

I was watching "The New Adventures of Old Christine" on Monday night, and its kind of weird, but something that happened in the show really struck home. The story line was based on how she never finishes a project or idea, and just basically leaves everything undone in her life. I sat there thinking-this is me. I talk a good game with lots of things, but never seem to follow through. So...that's just what I'm going to do, complete something. It might be big or small, but I need to get the reward of completion in my life. I really thought that when I was diagnosed with cancer, that I would have some profound life-altering moment, but that hasn't happened. I look at life a little differently now, but basically I haven't changed very much. So, my task to complete today is...

Get the clothing and household items in my car to drop off at Goodwill

Longer term...finish the beading project that I started in Jan. (bracelets to wear on the cruise)

I have to run a couple of errands today and then I plan to go to the mall and walk. I'm celebrating the first day of spring with a new handbag. It's time to lighten up. I'm tired of dark colors and gray weather.

Happy spring!!!!

47 days till WDW

[Foxfiregrrl]

Happy Spring, Dee! Sorry I haven't been around much lately.

You sound like you have come through treatment well :hug: I'm so glad to hear that you didn't have too difficult a time. I hope you continue to do well :goodvibes

You are amazing to me and have such an upbeat outlook that I think is Wonderful! With that attitude it is no wonder that you were able to do so well. I have read several things that say your attitude and outlook can make a huge difference.

All of your trips sound really fun, too! I also really Love the planning of a trip and can imagine how therapeutic that would be. Your airline ticket deal for September is Fab!! $29! How many days til your Disney trip? just over a month or so right?

Have a Happy Easter!!

[DisDee]

40 days till WDW!!!!

Thanks for checking in Amber. I feel very fortunate and blessed that I've had only some minor problems thru all this. My attitude isn't always so upbeat, I do have some crappy days and seem to take it out on DH. He's been my rock throughout this time and is so understanding. I'm really looking forward to our trip as a celebration of life, and our 34th anniversary too. We honeymooned at WDW in 1974 (Magic Kingdom only back then) and this is the first time we've been back for our anniversary.

I've been out of work for almost 4 months now, and yesterday and today were the first times that I watched Oprah. The shows were about a couple who were hoarders (mostly her) and how a team came in and gave them their house back. I complain about how junky our 1 car garage is and how we moved stuff into our kids rooms when they moved out, but that show put it all in perspective. They seemed like such a sweet couple but their possessions just overtook their lives. There's a lesson to be learned from those shows for all of us!

My last treatment is on the 31st. I've decided that April 1st is the first day of the rest of my life. I'm all about new beginnings and I'm so excited at the thought of no more treatments!!!! My GI problems have just about subsided, and I'm able to eat some foods that I haven't had for about 6 weeks. I'd been craving some chocolate/peanut butter ice cream, so that's what I had for dinner. Not the best choice, but it sure was good!

Tomorrow I'll get out and walk. The weather here is getting milder and more spring-like. I need to enjoy my last week and a half before I go back to work cause things will really change then. Back to the real word!

[goldcupmom]

Hi, Dee! I'm so glad your treatments are almost over & you've done so well. I won't stop praying, though!!

You've really done wonderful with everything!

Hope the weather cooperates for your walk.

Have a great weekend!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, I have been reading through your journal the past couple of days getting to know you! I must say you have had one heck of a 2008 and I am so thankful you made it through those radiation treatments with so few problems, you are a trooper! I am really keeping you in my prayers, I know you are going to do great. Thank goodness they found the uterine cancer so early. I am calling my Gyn in the next few days, I am past due on my pap smear and need to get in there! Your trip is so close, you must be so excited. And that is so funny about Oprah, I never watch her either and I turned it on the other day and watched the hoarder epsisode. I agree, my own clutter is nothing compared to that lady's! Keep up your good work, I am betting you will be in the 170's soon, that will feel so good (its been a long time for me too, so I really envy you that one)! You are really on the road to good health on all fronts! I hope your weather cooperates for a walk, its so good for the body and soul to be outdoors on a nice day. One way or the other, spring is here and nice days should be here more often for all of us very soon!

Amy

[DisDee]

Thanks for checking in Amy and Julie. Make that gyn. appt. Amy, and let me know when you do. I have deemed myself everyone's advocate against uterine cancer. Julie...thank goodness all turned out well with your SIL's mammo. I know the anxiety she was going thru!

We got our ME luggage tags yesterday. A big smile came over my face when I checked our mailbox. I was really surprised to get them so early-more than 5 weeks out. That must mean the trip is real! LOL!

I'm meeting my dept. mgr. for lunch today. She asked me several weeks ago, but I had to tell her I couldn't do it until the G/I problems were over. We're going to a charming family-owned place called the Carriage House. It's decorated with antiques and country items and is just so cozy with good food too. It should be fun! I may have to stop in the office too. I finally got in the mood to tackle my taxes and realized that our HR rep did not report my disability income. She's a tough one to deal with, especially since this was her mistake, so wish me luck!

I took a mall walk yesterday so I could check my pedometer. I really thought it was over-calculating, but to my surprise, it was under-calculating. The mall is 1 1/8 miles total, so at least I know exactly what I walked. I forgot to check my time...I'll have to do that next time. The toughest part was navigating the crowded food court and wanting to eat! I was really proud of myself that I didn't grab and go.

Off to get ready for the day. Have a great weekend everyone!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hi, Dee! How exciting that you are SO close to the end of treatment and the start of the Rest of Your Life!! I think that is a great way to look at it!

I know you'll have a wonderful anniversary trip to WDW. We just went last September and I'm already itching to go back :lovestruc

Good job of not giving in to temptation at the mall! I know how bad for me all that fast food is, but I still let the temptation get the better of me too often.

Hope you're having a wonderful weekend :goodvibes

[Goofydiane]

Denise -

Congrats on the start of your new life. I will be scheduling my mammogram this week based on your journal. They took the uterus and ovaries 6 years ago, and I've been clean since then, I just never got around to scheduling the mammogram, but now I will.

How fabulous to get your ME tickets and to have a trip to look forward to.

I'm looking forward to hearing about the trip and the rest of your life once you've conquered your current battle.

Go out and celebrate with your family tomorrow night!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, hope you had a nice lunch and made some headway with the HR lady! What a pain in the rear and just what you didn't need. Great job mall walking. I hear you on the food smells at the mall, I used to mall walk with my mom occasionally and it was so sad to walk by Cinnabon and its smells and realize it would take me about 10 mall walks to burn off one roll!

Your trip is real and close if you got your ME stuff!:cool1: I love that envelope in my mailbox!

Didn't make my gyn appt. yet. I realize I want to change doctors so I need to ask around some friends. I get tired of driving 45 minutes each way only to wait sometimes for two hours because her office is badly run. Which is probably why I haven't been in two years. I promise its on my list this week!

[goldcupmom]

How exciting that your ME tags came!!! My Dsis & her DDs & Granddaughters took the trailer to FtW for part of this week for some girl-time. I'mm only dreaming I was there!!

Hope the HR thing gets resolved. It's never fun dealing with grouches!!!!

Have a wonderful Wednesday!!

[DisDee]

35 Days till WDW/Cruise

Today really is the first day of the rest of my life! I made it thru 8 weeks of radiation treatment!!!!! I have a follow-up in 2 weeks with the Rad/Onc., and every 2 months with Gyn/Onc. The only effect that I'm still feeling is some fatigue, but I can deal with that. Many,many,many thanks to all of you who have supported me along the way. DH and I celebrated by having a nice lunch at a place we like near the hospital, then later we went to Coldstone Creamery. I know I shouldn't celebrate with food, but old habits die hard.

I've been doing some thinking about how I can make a difference in my community and in the world in general. There are several events sponsored by the American Cancer Society in the next couple of months. The Relay for Life is a fundraiser and also a tribute to survivors. I need to get some more info from my local chapter and see what I can do.

I'm also thinking about donating to "Give Kids the World" near WDW. I've done some reading on their website, but wonder if anyone has had some personal experience with that organization.

Off to make dinner. I'll be back later....

[DisDee]

34 Days till vaca!

I've decided that today will be a fun day, but I still haven't decided what to do. I think I'll get my shower and see if I come up with any great ideas. I go back to work on Monday, the 7th, so I only have a few days left. On Friday we're going to our DD's. She has some household projects that she needs her Dad's advice on. We haven't been there since Christmas time, so it'll be nice to have a little get-away. I already told them that I refuse to wander around Home Depot, so I'll hit the mall instead. There's some nice little towns in her area with gift and antique shops, etc, so it will be nice to do a little browsing too. Of course we can always hit Chocolate World at Hershey. She's about 8 miles from the park.

DH and I got out and walked around the neighborhood last night. The weather was so mild yesterday and it felt great to get some fresh air. Everything is starting to green up and looks more spring-like (finally) We really need to walk together more regularly for our overall health and to get in shape for the trip too. I've set a goal for myself for a number of steps this week, so I have 1 day down.

Have a great day!!!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so glad you made today a fun day, you have certainly earned it! Eight weeks of radiation is behind you, you did it! Your husband sounds wonderful, celebrating with a lunch and some ice cream (some very delicious ice cream I might add ;) ) is not a habit that needs to be broken. You probably ate much less of a portion at both places than you did before you lost weight. Have fun at your daughters and with your shopping! Your cruise is so close. That was my best vacation ever, you are going to have so much fun!

[Goofydiane]

Denise -

Congratulations on getting through Radiation! The lunch and Cold Stone with your husband was a great reward! Your cruise is just around the corner.

Hope you have a great week!

[DisDee]

What a week this has been! Last weekend we spent 3 days with DD and SIL and helped them around their house, then I started back to work this week. I worked short days (came home at 3), but I've been feeling exhausted every night. I really did not expect to feel so tired. I probably should have waited to go back to work on the 28th as my doctor recommended. The reason I returned earlier was because if I waited till the 28th I would only be back to work for a week, then take a 9 day vacation. I have follow up appts. with both oncologists this week, so I'll be sure to let them know how I'm feeling.

Our vacation plans are pretty much complete. Our cruise group is participating in a Fish Extender exchange, so I have to finish making that, and make sure I have enough little gifts to give away. I found some Disney related items, and some tiny coffee packs from our local convenience stores (WaWa) which everyone from this area swears by. I also purchased some ginger candy which is supposed to be a remedy for sea sickness. I think the exchange will be a lot of fun!

On the fitness front, DH and I have been doing some walking around the neighborhood. I'm working on meeting my step goals from my nutritionist. I'm on hold with Curves till May 15, and I'm looking forward to getting back and building up my strength again. Eating is so-so. I'm not making the best choices for foods that will help my energy level, but I'm not overeating. My blood sugar has come down, but not as low as it should be. I do feel good, except for the tired feeling.

I'll try to get to your journals over the weekend. I miss the interaction that I was so used to while I was at home. Have a fun weekend everybody!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Dee! Sorry to hear that returning to work has been more draining than you were expecting. Listen to your doctor's when you go back and don't be afraid to take more time off if you need to. I'm sure your employer will understand.

The vaca planing sounds like it is coming along nicely. I know you guys will have a wonderful time. What is a Fish Extender?

Take care of yourself and have a GREAT weekend!!

[goldcupmom]

Take it easy with work, Dee! You need to rest up for your cruise if nothing else!!!!!!!

Glad the radiation is over & hope you get good news from the Oncs. Still praying!!

If I don't make it back here before you leave, have a wonderful rest of the week and a relaxing vacation!

[DisDee]

Thought I'd pop in with a quick update. Its been crazy here. To preface what's been happening, DH's bro-56 had a heart attack 2 weeks ago but is now fine and recuperating at home. His sis (44) had some heart problems last week and was hospitalized with an irregular heartbeat that requires meds. She's now back to work and ok. On Tues, DH comes home from work and tells me he has some stinging in his chest. Off we go to the Dr. for an EKG which was fine, but he was having anxiety so we went to the ER, and he was admitted so more tests could be run. Long story short, last night he was told the stress test showed decreased blood flow to the front of his heart, so today around noon, he will undergo a cardiac cath. His bro needed 2 stents, and the weirdest thing is, the arteries that were blocked are in the same area where DH has the problem. Their brother that passed away in Nov. from cancer also had heart problems, and both their father and grandfather died from heart attacks. So, thank God my DH had an early warning system. He had planned to go in for tests after the vaca, but it happened sooner rather than later.

Now for the good news. I had appts. with both oncologists this week and everything looks good. I'm still healing internally from the radiation, but other then that, I'm back to normal. I see my gyn onc in 2 months for a Pap, and probably CT scans a bit later, but I'm feeling like I've beat it!

Hopefully I'll have more time over the weekend to visit your journals. Please say a little prayer for DH!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Oh, Dee! It sometimes seems like when it rains it pours. :hug: I hope that everything is ok with your DH. Sending lots of pixie dust your way pixiedust: pixiedust: pixiedust:

I'm so glad to hear that your tests are checking out ok so far! :goodvibes

Is it vacation time yet? I hope you guys have a WONDERFUL time!!

Check in and let us know how things are going soon :goodvibes It worries me that you haven't posted in awhile! I'm hoping you've just been busily preparing for vacation! :goodvibes

[DisDee]

Time just flies by, doesn't it? Amber, it's sweet of you to worry about me...thanks! Everything is great here! I have lots to catch up with. When I was home I had so much time to play on the Dis, but my time was no longer my own when I returned to work. We're permitted to use the internet for personal stuff when on break or our lunch hour, but before I returned I made a pact with myself not to use it at work. I was just too tempted to use it when not on break/lunch so I promised myself I would stay off altogether.

DH is doing very well. The cardiac cath showed no major blockages, just a small one which was under 10%, which in the whole scheme of things is nothing. He's a very happy and thankful camper right now, and so am I! His docs want him to lose weight, have a sleep study, and some other tests etc, but they were extremely pleased with the outcome of the cath. He was told that most people don't get a warning. I'm just so emotional these days-I think its a delayed reaction to all that we've been thru since Nov. when his brother died, then my cancer diagnosis, and DH's heart problems, along with his brother's and sister's. I find myself crying happy tears over the smallest things. I think I'm finally releasing all the emotions that I kept inside when I had my surgery and treatments. I made myself get thru one day at a time and deal with what was in front of me each day. I'm really a huge chicken when it comes to medical tests and procedures, so I really surprised myself at how well I coped with it all. Many, many, many thanks to all of you who were here for me and posted and encouraged me during my ordeal.

Talk about shedding happy tears...I woke up this morning ready to finish packing for our trip which starts on Tuesday,and started crying about that. My obsessive planning also helped to get me thru those rough days, and now the trip is just a few days away. We fly out of Atlantic City at 7:30 on Tues. morning.I'm just so excited! This will not be a commando vacation because we've been there so many times since 1974, but time to relax and smell the roses (Epcot Flower and Garden Fest) Gary and I spent our honeymoon there in 1974, and May 11th will be our 34th anniversary. We have a dinner reservation at the Gaylord Palms, Villa de Flora that night. The cruise will be a real treat for us. We cruised on Carnival back in 2000, and thoroughly enjoyed it. We only made a couple of ADR's, and no dining plan this time cause we figure we'll eat way too much on the cruise.

My plan is to finish the packing today, then work on the house tomorrow. I also have to pre-pay some bills and get all of that stuff organized. Our son and dil are closing on their first home on Tues, May 13, so they'll be moving the following weekend. Then we'll be going to the Outer Banks in NC the weekend after that. It will be a 4 day weekend thing, and we're very much looking forward to that too!

So, with that said, I probably won't be on the Dis very much. We decided not to take the laptop with us. I've been reading your journals and thinking about all of you! Thank you again Julie, Amber, Diane, Amy and anyone else who has checked in. Wendy, I know you're out there somewhere, and I miss hearing from you. I hope all is well!

I'm playing my Jimmy Buffet music, so its time to get moving with the packing. Have a wonderful weekend all!

[Foxfiregrrl]

:hug: Glad to hear that everything is working out well! How wonderful that your DH is ok!

:wizard: :wizard: Hope you have a WONDERFUL vacation!! :beach: Relax and enjoy yourselves!! Congratulations on your 34 year anniversary! :goodvibes

See ya when you get back! Sounds like you're gonna be really busy! That is a good thing though, that means that you are living a full life every day not letting it pass you by! :thumbsup2

[goldcupmom]

almost trip time!! If anyone needs & deserves it, it's you!!

I hope & pray your DH is better about his health than mine is. After my DH heart attack with a complete blockage 18 mo ago, he's worse about eating than he was!

Glad you're getting clean reports from your ONC.

Try to really relax, enjoy & destress on vacation! Have a wonderful time!

You'll get home about the time I head for FL! :cool1:

[goldcupmom]

Happy Mother's Day, Dee! Hope things are all ok there & DH is better!

Praying for you both!

[Goofydiane]

Denise - have a fantastic vacation and just take the time and relax and enjoy your time with family. Go and enjoy each and every day and not worry about what you do or don't do in the parks.

I'm glad your DH has an early warning system, and was able to be diagnosed and treated quickly. It's been a crazy year and I'm glad there was some good news in there for you.

[DisDee]

We had a Wonder-ful trip!!!! (pun intended) We had fun, relaxed, and did what we wanted to without worrying about schedules, other than on the cruise. We started our trip at the Villas at the Wilderness Lodge. Our flight landed about 9:45 and we were at the lodge by 11. We lucked out-our room was ready! We checked it out, freshened up, took some pictures, then took the boat to the Contemporary and Fort Wilderness, just to get that Disney feeling. Came back and had some lunch from Roaring Forks. We sat outside and ate with a momma duck and her 5 ducklings. Then spent some leisure time at the pool and by the lake with our books...so relaxing!

To be continued...

[goldcupmom]

Glad you had a great time! Hope all is well there!

[DisDee]

Hey Julie, Nice to hear from you and yes, all is well!!! I gained about 4 pounds over the trip and I'm still trying to get back into the groove with food, but I did do a lot of walking during vaca. The day we went to Epcot, I walked 23,000 steps. I took my Curves membership off medical hold and started back this week. I'm really wimpy from lack of exercise. My muscles are weak and are lacking strength, but I figure if I start out slowly and gradually add more intensity, I'll be fine. I'm very happy that I feel well enough to work out.

We're leaving Saturday morning for the Outer Banks in NC. My BIL rented a house for the week and invited us to go along. So, we took next Tues. off to make an extended weekend, and we're headed south. I wish we could take the whole week, but since we just had a vacation, I figured I'd better not push it with work. OBX is one of our favorite vacation spots, so I'm looking forward to some beach time with a good book.

Time to get ready for work. I probably won't check in again before we leave, so have a great weekend everyone!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Dee! Glad to hear that you had a lovely relaxing vacation! Hope you are enjoying your beach time this weekend! I can't wait to get to the beach at the end of June myself :cloud9: There's something so relaxing about being at the beach!

Nice to see that you've started back at Curves and feel good enough to get moving again. Slow and steady, don't try to overdo it to begin with.

Have a wonderful week!

[DisDee]

Thanks for posting Amber! I really need to get back in the journaling mode. I am in serious vacation withdrawl! I keep looking at at pictures from the Disney trip and wish that I was still there. I'm also wishing it was August and we could be in the Outer Banks and on the beach again! I guess what I really need to do is find a bit of "vacation" in every day and not focus so much on the mundane stuff and add some fun to each day.

We got a lot of things done around here this weekend, which felt good! We put our canvas gazebo up and bought some flowers. I still need to scrub the deck and probably paint it too.It really needs to have some of the boards replaced, but for now this is a quick fix until we budget our time and money on that project.

My eating has been rather crappy due to the fact that I haven't grocery shopped in such a long time. I plan to run to the store on my lunch hour and stock up on some things for work. I spend more time there than I do at home, so I need to have some healthy choices available. I'm going to Curves after work, but need to take things a little easy because my knee is bothering me again. It's he!! getting old.

Time to get ready for work. Have a great day!

[DisDee]

This will be a quickie post before I get ready for work. I'm still not back in the work time/me time/home time/everybody else time thing. The house is neglected and so am I. I'm really not doing the things that I need to do to keep myself balanced and journaling here is one of them. We're going to our DD's on Sat. and staying the night. We'll leave on Sunday morning so we can be here for our DS and wife who will be visiting with DH for Father's Day. So...I'm already crazed thinking about all that needs to be done.

I started using my WW program materials to get myself on track in the food sense. I'm not going to meetings, but weighing myself every few days. DH has joined a walking program at work, and I've been going to Curves again and I'm finally getting some of my strength back. I'm still really tired in the evening though, and don't get anything done around here which frustrates me no end.

Well enough complaining for now. I just needed to come back here and get started again. I'll be visiting your journals too!

[goldcupmom]

Glad to 'see' you back, Dee!

Sounds like things are getting somewhat backt normal & that you had a wonderful trip!

Big KUDOS to your DH for taking charge of his life!!

have a great week! When is school out for you?????

[Foxfiregrrl]

Glad to see you back working on getting in the swing of journaling again. It can be so difficult to get back in the habit once we start slacking.

Sorry to hear that you continue to be weak and worn out in the evenings. Hang in there though. If you keep working out and keep a positive attitude, eventually you will get your strength and stamina back :wizard:

Hope you had a good father's day weekend! Have a great week!!

[DisDee]

I have my 2-month gyn/onc visit today. I'm a little nervous as this will be my first Pap after the radiation treatment. Any earlier and it could give a false reading. My appt is for 8:45, so I'll be going to work late, which is OK cause we've been a little slow this week. In my mind, I believe that I'm cured, but there's always that small shadow of doubt. So, please say a little prayer for me and keep me in your thoughts.

Food intake has been somewhat crappy. I wake up in the morning full of positive thoughts and plans, then the first temptation comes along and I blow it. Sometimes I really feel like I need my head examined. I know that my obesity was a contributing factor to the uterine cancer, and its also a factor in my high blood pressure and blood sugar, but my intelligent, rational self and my "bury my head in the sand self" are always battling with one another. I really just need to grow up and do the right thing...get healthy!!!!

I'm such a big whiner lately. Somebody please give me a cyber-kick in the pants and tell me to be smart and live a healthy life-style. I really need it!

Time to shave my legs for the doctor and get moving! Thanks to all of you who are reading/posting on my journal!

[goldcupmom]

How did it go, Dee?????????

I hear you on the eating. The breast specialist I was sent to after my DSis cancer (who is middle age, overweight) said we have a choice. We "can fight breast cancer, heart disease & diabetes, or we can fight out weight. The choice is ours." It really hit home with me as all 3 run in my family. Choose the fight we'd rather have.

Hope all is well. Update us when you can! I'm still praying!! How is DH??

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Dee! Hope the appointment went well and you got good results!

I hear you on the eating. I laughed out loud when I read the part about having good intentions and then blowing it when the first temptation comes along. That is SO me! I think we all struggle with that to some degree. For me it is some crazy mental battle. I may have been fine with eating a lunch that I brought from home, but the minute that I tell myself that I cannot eat out is the minute that I start Really craving it.

I know this is a hard battle. If it weren't then we wouldn't all be here year after year supporting each other through it. You just have to keep at it and not give up. I think what Julie said is right, you have to choose to battle the weight/healthy eating issue so that you can avoid further bad health issues down the road.

You can do this! We will be here to support you through it!

Do you plan your meals out ahead of time? What about snacks? I find that I do the best when I sit down and plan it out and then Stick with it. Mostly that means that I have to actually make my lunch if that was the plan and then Not give into my coworkers when they invite me out to lunch.

Just take it day by day, step by step and hopefully it will get easier as you go along :goodvibes

[Foxfiregrrl]

Happy 4th of July, Dee!!

Hope you are having a GREAT weekend!!

[DisDee]

I'm back! First of all thanks for posting on my journal Amber and Julie even when I haven't written myself. I really appreciate your thoughts and encouragement!

I'm going to back-track a little to write what's been happening on the medical front (which is good). I got my results from the Pap after a week and it was negative!!!! My gyn/onc told me that the most common place for my type of cancer to travel is to the v-word (blocked) since I no longer have a cervix, so the Pap tests the upper end of that area. He also moved my follow -up to 3 months instead of 2 which is also great news. I also had an appt. with my PCP who I love (partly cause she's female and very sweet and compassionate). I had some blood work done for various things and everything looked good. My A1C for blood glucose over the last 3 months was in the high end of normal, but I'll take it! Now if I could just get rid of the fatigue, I'd be in good shape.

DH had a follow-up with the cardiologist and he challenged him to lose some weight, and suggested he eat low-carb, so he's been doing that for a week , and he's lost some weight. Its tough for him though because he loves his bread and pretzels but he's hanging in there cause he knows its important. I decided that I'm going to join him cause it will be easier if we do it together.

I forgot to mention that I went for an x-ray on my left knee. Its been bothering me for about a month since I helped my son move. I should have the results by Tuesday. DH wants to buy me a tread-mill, but I want to hold off until I see what the doctor says. I could be looking at some physical therapy or who knows what else. Whatever I need, I know it will help my mobility, so I'll go with the flow.

We've had a low-key weekend. We've been so busy for the past several weekends so I just wanted to hang at home and not have any pressure to do anything or go anywhere. I've puttered around the house and gotten some nagging little tasks completed, so I feel good about that. Tomorrow is my Mom's birthday, so we're going to do something. Maybe dinner here or out somewhere.I'll see what she's in the mood for. I have a 25% off coupon for one of my favorite country gift shops, so maybe we'll pop in there.

Hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend,so make the most of tomorrow!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so happy you had a fun cruise/WDW trip, that your doctor appt. went well and that your husband had no major blockage! All good things you so deserve! And I am so sorry I haven't visited your journal lately, I have been very neglectful of journals, mine and everyone else's!

We are going to do this together Denise. And you will be happy to know, I had a mammogram last week and am having my pap and physical later this month. You kicked my butt to do that and I did it!

I put it in my journal but I'll post it here too. The name of the book Pearlieq gave me is:

The 7 Secrets of Slim People by Vikki Hansen and Shawn Goodman.

Its an easy read and has been pretty motivating to me lately. I got mine on Amazon, I am sure you could find it at Barnes and Noble easily as well.

Good luck with the low carb thing for you and your husband. Having someone to do that with is a great idea and will probably make it a lot easier.

[DisDee]

Thanks for the nice words Amy! I appreciate your support. I'm so glad that you made the Dr. appointments. There were many times in my life when I neglected my health but thankfully, I didn't when I was having the gyn problems.Doctors are now my friends. I just scheduled my consult prior to my first colonoscopy so that was a big step for me. I've been putting that off for awhile now. I've always had anxiety about going to the Dr. I remember as a kid always worrying that I was going to get a needle.

I'm off today to attend a funeral. One of my uncles passed away on Sunday. He's been thru so much in the last 8 years or so. He's had very little quality of life, so in a way this is a blessing. My aunt has been thru so much too, by being his caregiver. She's had help with medical aides and the like, but his needs were 24/7.

I got the results of my x-rays. My knee has tricompartmental osteoarthrosis, and osteophyte formation. How's that for medical terminology? Translation-I have arthritis in the 3 areas of my left knee with some moderate bone spurs.
I made an appt. with an ortho for the end of the month. In the meantime, I guess I'll just hang in there. The pain has improved which is good, but I'm a little nervous about doing anything real physical. Kind of a Catch 22 type of thing. I suppose stretching will be good, some walking and I'll be careful if I go to Curves. More about that later.

Time to get a couple of things accomplished before I have to get ready for the funeral.

Have a great day!

[DisDee]

I really miss the time that I had to keep up with my journal and others too when I wasn't working. I would be perfectly content to stay at home. I have so many things that I'd love to do if I only had the time.

We're taking another vacation on Aug. 9th. We're going to the Outer Banks in NC for a week. We've rented a 4 bedroom house for us and our kids and their spouses. I am so looking forward to another get-away. Our OBX vacations are laid-back, fun and relaxing. I can't wait to spend some time at the pool and beach with some good books and music. We take turns with the cooking and also eat out or do take-out for several meals.

DH and I went to see Mama Mia today. It was pretty good. Believe it or not, he was an Abba fan. LOL! I must say that Pierce Brosnan should stick with acting and give up the singing career. It was very campy with people breaking into song for no apparent reason. If you go to see it, don't expect anything serious, just good light-hearted fun. The scenery was beautiful. It was set on a Greek island.

I got the book that Amy recommended from Amazon today. Its called "The Seven Secrets of Slim People". I'm finishing up "Table for Five" by Susan Wiggs, so when I'm done that, I'll start the new one. I'll be sure to let you know what I think of it, and share any life-altering hints.

DH is working tomorrow morning, so I plan to get out and walk early before it gets too hot. I haven't decided if I'm going to walk down by the river, or to a local park that is a little more shaded. I'll see how I feel in the a.m.

I'll be back tomorrow!

[DisDee]

Good Morning, Just a quick hello to my Dis friends, Julie, Amy, Amber and Diane, and anyone else who actually reads this thing. Mondays are tough! I'm in the weekend mode and find it hard to transition to work mode. At least it hasn't been too crazy there, and I get an hour lunch which is "me" time.

We've been going thru some of our closets and storage areas and are getting rid of STUFF. Its amazing how it accumulates and takes over your life. Once that is done, we plan to do some sprucing up, fresh paint and simple improvements. If the housing market ever turns around, we plan to downsize to a rather small place that doesn't need much upkeep so that we have more time and $ to travel. We're also looking at retiring in our early 60's and need a plan in place for that too.

I'm off to get ready for work. I'm going to hit Curves on the way home, and try to build up my strength. Its been so hot here that I don't want to spend much time outdoors. We need some rain badly, so I'm hoping that happens sometime soon.

Make it a marvelous Monday!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so sorry about your uncle. Even when its a blessing, its still a sadness for those left behind.

I guess its good they know what is up with your knee, hopefully the ortho dr. can help your pain improve.

That vacation to the Outer Banks sounds heavenly, what a treat to spend that time with your kids and kid in laws in such a lovely location.

I am thinking about seeing Mama Mia but can't get past Remington Steele/James Bond singing! Oh well, I guess I can plug my ears and just watch. ;)

I hope you are enjoying the book, I need to read mine again, I got into a Jody Piccoult novel and haven't been reading Seven Secrets lately. Bad me! Keep up the good work and journal when you can. Sometimes life is so darn busy, we just plain run out of time.:hug:

[DisDee]

It's still hot and humid here in NJ, and I'm in desperate need of some outdoor time. My BD is next week, so we're going to celebrate in advance and go down to the Jersey shore this weekend. There's a restaurant we like with an outdoor area and live music, so we're going to do lunch there and then go over to the beach and hang out there for awhile in the late afternoon, then maybe hit the boardwalk or shops. Another option would be to head over to Atlantic City and hit the casinos or one of the beach bars for a bit. Whatever we do will be fun!
On Aug. 2, my SIL is having a big family party to celebrate the summer BDays, anniversaries, and also her engagement. We're so happy for her this second time around. The guy she's marrying is great, and so good to her.

I'm still stuck at the same weight. I constantly struggle with what type of eating plan I should follow, whether to journal or not, and look at the need to exercise as something that is always looming over me. I'm thinking perhaps I need to adjust the big picture and just think of my life and quest for weight loss and fitness as a matter of health and well being and nothing else. I constantly set myself up for "failure" when I don't follow thru with my goals.This is all such a big mind game, isn't it?

I've been rather melancholy about not having a WDW trip in the planning stages. I'm thinking maybe next Jan. or Feb. for a long weekend, and we would also be able to visit with my bro. in FL. It would be great to snag another cheap airfare with Spirit. So, in the meantime, I'm going to plan an imaginary trip to FL., and decide where I want to stay and what I want to do. We don't need to hit all the parks anymore, those days are over. We had such a great time on our trip in May, that I'm anxious to do it again. Only my Dis friends understand the therapeutic value of planning a Disney trip. LOL!

I really do need to start getting my things together (at least in my mind) for our trip to the Outer Banks. We really do lug a bunch of stuff with us on our beach vacations.

Enough for now, I'll check in later. Hope I didn't bore you to death!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, how could you bore us to death?!?

We went to Rehoboth Beach last year, is that anywhere near where you are? I loved the boardwalk area there, you are lucky to have such nice places/beaches/ocean nearby! Unfortunately here in Colorado, we aren't so lucky!

I hear you on what food plan to follow dilemma. I was even toying with Jenny Craig recently because I figured it would take some of the guesswork away for me. Just do the best you can and take it one day at a time.

Plan a Disney trip! Lets face it, that's what keeps us ladies going, knowing we have a trip to the Mouse at some point in the future.

Your bd trip sounds very nice, can I come?

[Goofydiane]

Denise I'm finally catching up on journals and I'm happy to hear about all the good news from the doctor. That's great news! I also was a bread lover and over time have removed it from my diet because I have found found I enjoy better. I now have 2 slices of bread a day and that's it and I don't miss it. Hopefully DH will feel the same as he reduces it from his diet.

I hear ya on the humidity and going outside! I'm in MN and we get humidity and bugs, I'm glad I have a treadmill in the basement so I can use it instead of walking outside. If you get a treadmill look for one with low impact, that helps so much with the knee pain. I bought mine at 2nd Wind and spent more upfront for one that will last forever.

Enjoy the vacation to the Outer Banks, it sounds like a lot of fun, especially with family along.

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Dee! Thanks for the encouraging words on my journal. I didn't realize I was so far behind on yours though.

Congratulations on the good news from the doctor!! Sorry to hear about your knee issues, but at least you know what is wrong now. That is half the battle.

I understand what you mean about the diet and exercise. I have not been able to motivate myself to go to the gym and it is WAY too hot out there to even consider walking outside.

Enjoy your beach trip!! I love the beach! Those vacations always have a way of being more relaxing.

Keep us updated on your fantasy trip planning. I like to do that too. :love: Nothing like Disney dreamin' on those not so fabulous days :thumbsup2

Have a great week!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, hope things are going well for you! Hope you had a nice birthday!:flower3:

[goldcupmom]

Glad all is well on the medical front. When is your BD??? Mine is 7/30, so we have to be close!!

Hope you had a wonderful beach time!!

[DisDee]

I can't believe a month has gone by since I last posted. We've had a bunch of things going on again, and as always I put the things I do just for me on hold when that happens.

My BD (July 31) trip to the shore was super! We had lunch at a favorite restaurant then went downtown in Ocean City to browse the shops. After that we went to the beach. By then it was late afternoon and the sun wasn't so strong, so I felt better about sitting out. The water was freezing that week-some freakish tidal thing-so I sat in my chair and read and listened to music. DH is such a sweetie to indulge me by doing exactly what I wanted to do that day. I have a strong need to be by the ocean sometimes. We are so lucky to live just a little over an hour's drive to the Jersey shore. Amy,we're about 2 1/2 hours from Rehoboth, and would go there occasionally when DD was in college in Delaware. I just love the shore!

Our trip to OBX, NC was lots of fun. Its so different from the Jersey shore but we love it just as much, and in some ways even more cause the rentals are less expensive. We didn't get an ocean or soundfront house this time because "in season" is more expensive than Sept., but even so our location was really nice with easy access to the beach. Plus, our community had a trolley service that shuttled us around the area. It was good family bonding time for us..days at the beach, some shopping, lots of eating, and a little drinking too. DH was in charge of the blender and the strawberry dacquaris.(how the heck is that spelled?) Our master br had jacuzzi and a hammock on the deck which was so relaxing, and we also had a hot tub on the great room deck.

Now, back to reality. My ortho. recommended physical therapy for my knee, so I started with an eval. this week, then 2 therapy sessions. I'm doing pool therapy which is so gentle and relaxing, but still working those muscles without so much stress on my knees. After the session I get iced for 10 minutes then I'm off for home. I also have a home stretching program, and I'm hoping this all comes together and it begins to feel better. I'm really too young to have all these aches and pains. There's so much that I want to do and I don't want this holding me back.

Now that I'm back on track, I'll get back to your journals too. I've been reading them, so keep posting! Thanks for being here!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, your birthday trip and other beach trip sound perfect. I love the beach too, which is why its unfortunate I live in Colorado! We loved Rehoboth, it reminded me of a place in Maine I used to go with my mom the year we lived up there. We had the best pizza (I think it was called Pizza Grotto) there, naturally I have to remember the food aspect as well as the beach!

Hope the therapy on the knee does the trick. The water exercises sound just right.

I hear you on letting the "for me" things slide, I think we women are just programmed that way!

Hope this week is shaping up to be a great one for you.:goodvibes

[DisDee]

Well, where do I begin? I'll start with the fun stuff. We took our trip to Myrtle beach, SC for 4 days and had an excellent time. We flew in the day before TS Hanna did, and thankfully she blew in during the night with most of the wind and rain. Our hotel was new and super soundproof, so I didn't hear much of anything. Of course DH was up watching the storm from our balcony.(he should work for the Weather Channel) By late morning on Sat. the clouds had cleared and the rest of the weekend was beautiful! We toured around a lot this trip cause we'd never been there before. We had fun at Margaritaville and just did a bunch of beach vacation things. We're going back again for 3 nights in early Nov. Spirit Air had another $8.00 sale which came to $64.00 for both of us to fly RT after adding taxes and fees. Now you may wonder where I get all of this vaca time. Here's why...I no longer have a job. I was laid off on Thurs. due to a reduction in work-force. It didn't surprise me that we had a lay-off just that I was one of the chosen ones. But then again I knew that when I took that time off for the rad. therapy, and they survived without me that my days were probably numbered. I'm doing just fine though and know that things will work out for the best. My co-workers had become such a complaining and hateful bunch that I really won't miss that at all.

Have to take a break now, but I'll be back later!

[DisDee]

To catch up on the health front...I'm continuing PT in the pool and yesterday they added some "land" exercises. Mostly stretches with those thick rubber bands and some isometric exercises while on a therapy table. I feel that I've gotten a little stronger and more flexible, but I still have the knee pain. I did ask my Dr. if significant weight loss would ease the pain, and guess what...it would. I guess that's my "sign", but I've always known that anyway.

I'm feeling very agitated today. I think the fact that I lost my job is sinking in. I was so busy over the weekend that I didn't have time to dwell on it. Thankfully I'll receive 11 weeks severance pay. After that, I can collect unemployment and also take advantage of some training programs that they offer. At 55, I don't look forward to a new career, but we're still quite a number of years away from being ready to retire. I'd really like to get a job with a non-profit or other organization where I could make a difference in someone's life.

Now that I'm home again, I'll be able to cyber-visit you all more often. See you real soon!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so sorry about your lay off. Even though it sounds like your co workers were giant PITA, its never easy to have that happen. I am glad at least you got some severence and that you have some training available. Collect that unemployment and look for just the right thing!

Your beach vacation sounds wonderful, glad Hannah didn't mess it up!

[DisDee]

I can't believe the weekend is here again. DH is working for a few hours this morning, then I'm not sure what we'll be doing. I'm trying to convince him to go see "Nights in Rodanthe", but I'm not sure if he'll agree cause it looks like a chic flick. It was filmed in the Outer Banks so he might go for that reason since we love it there so much.

We got a postcard offer in the mail yesterday from WDW. The package is for selected dates between now and Dec. with park tickets and free dining. We're very tempted and even checked out some flights, but right now there are no bargains to be had. If we can snag a decent airfare, then we might jump on it. DD called me last night from the MK. She's there with her in-laws and staying at the Vistana Resort. Anyway, she says, "guess what I just had to eat?". Of course I knew it was Dole whip. She was waiting in line for the Jungle Cruise at the MNSSHP. I'm soooo jealous!

I'm trying to stay out of the stores now that I'm unemployed, but I decided to treat myself to a new Vera Bradley bag for the fall. I'd gotten several of the Kensington accessories for my BD and just had to have the bag to go with them. So, that was my big treat to myself to console me after my job loss.

My PT will end in 2 weeks, so after that I'm checking out the 2 health clubs in my neighborhood that have pools. My main focus will be on water exercise for my creaky knees, but I'll also use some equipment for my upper body and abs. I'm hoping to find a place which will be under $40.00 a month.

I'm doing pretty good with my eating even though I've had a little too much ice cream this week.(my comfort food) I'm at the low end of my normal weight range and just need to get over that next hump. That will be the mental boost that I need to stay motivated.

Make it a fun weekend everyone!

[goldcupmom]

Glad you're back among us, Dee! Sorry about the job, but in the long run you just may look back on it as a blessing!

Hopefully you'll find some cheap airfare & get to go to WDW!!!

Have a great weekend!!

[DisDee]

We finally have some sunshine today. We've spent the last 3 days in grayness with on and off rain. I'm meeting my ex-supervisor for lunch today before I go to PT. She was informed that I was being laid-off about 5 minutes before I got the news. I've been avoiding talking with my former co-workers because they want to hear the "dirt" as to what happened in private with the VP's when I got the news. I signed a confidentiality agreement that also had some other terms for me to follow. I had to do that in order to get my severance package. So, even though I want to speak with some of my friends, I'm afraid I might say the wrong thing and I really have to be careful.

Wish me luck! I'll report back later.

[goldcupmom]

Hope today goes well! Situations like that can be really hard and very uncomfortable.

Glad the gray finally disappeared!

have a GREAT week!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I want to see that movie so bad! It looks very good, just the escape I need right now.

That is great the sun came out. Your idea to do some water workouts is very sound. I also think swimming and aquasize go fast and pleasantly. So good job with that.

Good luck with your co workers, people always want to hear the dirt don't they? No idea why.

I hope you can find some good airfare, that deal sounds awesome! I love dole whips too. I'll have on in your honor very soon.:goodvibes

[DisDee]

I had my lunch with my friend from work which was nice and weird at the same time. She was never any good in tough situations, just too nice to be in a management situation, and upper mgmt. never included her in decision making. It was such a boy's club there. I could tell that she felt terrible about my lay-off. I'm slowly contacting the people who were important to me which I feel is part of the process of "dealing" with this. I'm experiencing my ups and downs, actually more downs then I thought I would have. I really need to get myself on some kind of schedule so I can accomplish a goal each day, whether around the house, personal, or job-search related. I did hear from unemployment and my claim is open. I file for my first payment on the 8th., which is 2 weeks from the date I applied, so the first check should be for 2 weeks. With any luck, my first severance check should come tomorrow.

Well, enough of that! I snagged another Spirit Airlines flight to Florida. $78.00 total for both of us to fly to Ft. Lauderdale in Jan. That's a city that we've wanted to visit. We can also spend time with my brother, and go to WDW for a couple of days.Who knows, maybe I'll have to tell my new employer that I have a vacation planned. I'm not booking any hotels yet, I have to wait and see what I'll be doing at that time.

I have PT today, which I really do enjoy. Everyone on the staff is very pleasant and concerned about my progress. My last day will be the 15th, and I know that I'll miss going there. I also need to get out and take a walk every day, just to get some sunshine.

Hope everyone is having a good day!!!!!

[Amy&Dan]

I can imagine that is weird to see a co worker. I think it takes time to establish a relationship with a co worker once one of you isnt' working there anymore. I hope you get your severeance check tomorrow!

I love Ft. Lauderdal, that is so great you got that fare. We went there a couple of times and stayed in the Deerfield Beach area (very close to Boca Raton). You will have a ball.

You just got laid off, it takes time to settle into a routine I am sure. I think you are doing very well!:hug:

[DisDee]

We had a nice weekend with our family. My DH had his company picnic at Six Flags-Great Adventure which was decorated for their Fright Fest. Our son lives nearby so we all spent the night at his house, did some outlet shopping, then took DD back to the train station.

This is going to be a busy week. I have PT, M,W,F. Today I have to take my Mom for some routine lab work and on Thurs I have to go to the unemployment office. I'm also meeting 2 different co-workers for lunch. One on Wed. and one on Friday.

I've gotten myself into the job search mode. I'm re-writing my resume since I cannot find a copy and the last time I needed it was 3 computers ago. I've also picked up some applications and I registered on Monster which is a great resource. I'm hoping that I can find something which is less than full time-maybe 30 hours a week. After my health issues that I had this year, I'm looking at my life from an entirely different point of view. In other words, I need to slow down and enjoy each day to the fullest.

I'll be back after lunch!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, something good comes of everything, and I think the good from your illness is the fact you are looking at life differently. I really hope you can find something 30 hours per week. I bet you can!

Good luck with pt and enjoy having those lunches. Hope your mom's lab work comes out fine.

Amy

[DisDee]

We did some research regarding what we want to do while in Florida in Jan., and found a cheap cruise. We originally searched Ft.Lauderdale and there were no M-F cruises. Then we remembered that Miami was close by and found 3 cruises which fit into our schedule. So after some more research, we decided on RCCL-Majesty of the Seas because of the itinerary. It sails to Nassau, Cococay (their island) and Key West. We're very excited and I've been on Cruise Critic trying to find out all I can about the ship.

So, today starts another round on WW. I'm going to follow my program materials from the past and use my Dis friends for my inspiration! You guys are cheaper than the meeting fee. LOL!!!!! I won't post my foods/points, just a general summary of the day. TIA for your support!

Here goes...today's weight 186, and if I stand up really straight, I'm 5'3". As you can imagine, I'm rather roly-poly and no longer have a waist.

Day one and counting! (points that is)

[DisDee]

Yesterday was a tough one trying to stick to WW, although I did manage to stay in my points range. I just need to stock up on some more low cal/healthy items. I find it just too easy to go to the fridge or pantry and just grab whatever I want. Tonight I plan to cook a chicken and rice dish with a side veggie.

I have PT today which is my next to last session. Then I have to find a cheap fitness center which meets my needs. I've narrowed my search down to 2 near my house which both have a pool. I'll probably check them out next week.

Make it a great week Dis friends!

[DisDee]

Yesterday went well for me. I stayed in my points range with the help of a couple of flex pts., and exercised for a total of 1 1/2 hrs. at PT. I really feel good about the level of endurance that I achieved. The 2 months that I spent there was like like a free gym membership with a personal trainer included. I tried to convince them that I also needed to get a massage, but they weren't buying it. I worked with a college student for most of my sessions who was very attentive. It was kind of weird in a way, he's younger than my own son but a very sweet, helpful person. One of the staff PT's was always watching too.

Today my DH has an appt. with his primary. This is the first time that he's been there since his weight loss (still losing). He weighed himself last night, and he's lost about 50 lbs. I know that the Dr. will be thrilled with his progress. Next week he has an appt. with the cardiologist. He was the one who challenged DH to lose 15 lbs. by his next appt., so he will be impressed also.

For those of you who are WW members, when you go for your weigh-in, do you also stay for the meetings? Right now, I'm just using my old program materials. I've been throwing around the idea of joining again because of a crazy idea. I'm thinking that WW might be a great place to work for someone like me. I know that all their staff members have completed the program and are lifetime members. I'll have to do some research on employment with them.Just think, I could get healthier and find a new career!

I'm going to visit some journals today. Have a fun day!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, that is awesome your husband is down 50 pounds! I am very impressed.

I do stay for the meetings, when I don't I am not as successful. And actually a goal of mine is to someday work for WW. I would love to be a leader. So that is one of the reasons I keep with it, I look at as an overall investment towards my goals. I think you would be a great WW employee!

Too funny about your PT, as I get older I am amazed at how everyone around me is younger! My daughter's English teacher is young enough to be my son for heaven's sake!

Keep up the good work, I am off to WDW on Saturday but will hopefully check in while I am gone.:hug:

[DisDee]

I had my 6 month follow-up with my radiation oncologist today. I can't believe that time has passed so quickly. He told me that everything looks good and its time to schedule a follow-up CT scan of the chest, abdomen and pelvis. This is the test when I had to drink the nasty orange crap cause its done with contrast. Oh joy! I'm also scheduled for a routine colonoscopy on Monday. So that means more crap to drink. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad medical science has progressed to this point where we have all these diagnostic tools. I'm very thankful for my continued good health!

My food for Tues. and Wed. was not very good. On Tues, DH wanted to go out so we ended up at Baja Fresh for the first time. The food was appetizing as far as fast food goes, but oh so bad for me. Yesterday turned out to be a snack fest. Today I'm sticking to plan, Even on my "bad" days, I've still journaled, so I feel good about that.

Off to do some housework! (Yeah right)

[DisDee]

Time to catch up on the last several days. Last Friday, I did some clearance shopping at one of my favorite local dept.stores, and I got some great deals! All the summer stuff had a final markdown of $2.99, and I was able to find 8 items for the Jan. cruise. I bought them a size smaller than I wear right now, and they almost fit, and nothing came from the plus-size dept.

We didn't do a whole lot over the weekend, although we did finally go see "Nights in Rodanthe". I enjoyed it since It took place in the Outer banks and Richard Gere was the leading man, and DH kind of enjoyed it too, even for a chic flick.

I had my colonoscopy on Monday, and got great news. No problems and come back in 5 years! Whew, big sigh of relief on that one!

Food has been OK, I just need to get to the grocery store. I did lose some weight when I did the prep for the test, but what a way to lose it. Yuck!

I plan to go to one of the local gyms today and check out the pool, etc. I don't want too much time to go by since I stopped my PT last week. My knees are feeling pretty good right now, no excessive pain, just the type I've been living with for years.

I'm going to try to get some sleep now. I'll be back....

[DisDee]

Wednesday was great in the food sense. I actually stayed in my pts. range but felt I had enough to eat and wasn't hungry. I guess that's what happens when good food choices are made. Tonight will be a test though, cause Thurs. is our night to eat out. I haven't decided where we're going. I just need to think of a place that has some healthy choices.

I've got a date with the unemp. office this afternoon. I've been chosen to participate in a program for re-training and job-search assistance, and I'll take all the help I can get. I just don't know what I want to do when I grow up. LOL!

Our DD is coming to visit this weekend, so I'm not sure what we'll be doing, other than visit with my niece for a little while. She's 14 and throws an annual Halloween party. She's been doing this for around 4 years-the kid just loves Halloween. She asked me to bake a Kitty Litter Cake. I did one a few years ago, and it was just so funny. The cake gets transferred to a cat pan, and cookie crumbs make the litter, complete with green sprinkles and Tootsie Roll droppings. For those of you who have cats, this cake looks very authentic.

Gotta go and do something productive...

[DisDee]

I checked out the gym that I want to join and got a 1 week pass to try it out. Since I'm mainly interested in their pool, I have to wait till tomorrow to try a class because they just installed a new filtration system and it had to get the OK from the health dept. I did work out on Friday and used the st. bike and t.mill and also the leg press. I am determined to make this work for me cause I want so much to feel better physically. I'm good medically, but just need more energy and stamina to get me through the day. We are taking that cruise in Jan., and I would love to be down about 15 pounds. I know that's probably not a realistic goal because of the holidays , but I want it so much that I'm going to do it!

Make it a great week!

[DisDee]

Ugh, another night of interrupted sleep. DH got up at 3:30 to leave for work, and that was it for me. I couldn't get back to sleep so I got up to play on the internet and also do some laundry.

I'm doing great with exercise and just OK with food. Why can't I ever get the 2 in sync? I went to the gym on Mon. and Tues. Monday I took a group aqua class which was great, and on Tues., I just used the pool on my own and did my PT work-out and some laps also. I really felt good after that work-out. Swimming and aqua classes are perfect for me with my knee problems. The best part was being able to use the hot tub when I was done.

The plan for today is an aqua class at 6:30 then a little of my own program. Some time in the next few days I'll have my orientation with a trainer on the equipment. I'm really happy that I joined this gym. There's a nice mix of ages and something for everyone.

Go Phillies!!!! (we live just across the river from Philadelphia)

[DisDee]

I'm so happy to report that I made it to the gym 4 times last week. If I can do that every week, I'll just be so pleased. Of course now is the time to devote to myself while I continue with my job search which is a job in itself, but I know eventually I'll find something that is just right for me.

I'm finding out that I really like to be alone. I love to read and I'm basically a quiet kind of person. I find lots of things to do do every day, even if they don't seem very important. I'm looking forward to the holidays this year. Last year I was having all the problems that led up to my surgery and then to my diagnosis so I wasn't in the usual holiday spirit if you know what I mean. I am just so thankful that I'm healthy!

I'm off to get ready for the gym. Be back soon!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise,

I have a hard time getting my food and exercise in sync too! It sounds like you are really doing well. I loved that movie, it really made me cry though! I am so glad your test came back okay, five years to wait for the next one, I bet you are crushed ;) !

I really like to be alone too. Its good for you! Enjoy this time, and you will find just the right job.

This holiday season is going to be your year!

[DisDee]

We're off to Myrtle Beach for a few days, and we decided not to take the laptop. So....I'll visit everyone when we get back. It's good to see everyone posting again!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Dee! Hope you are having a great weekend!!

I looked back and realized that I haven't posted in quite a long time. I know I'd been reading, but I just failed to post.

Anyway, I'm glad to hear that your tests have come out well and that you are remaining healthy and motivated! :cool1: I am sorry to hear about your lay off, but I have to agree with what others have said, it sounds like it was a blessing in disguise. I'm sure that you will find the right work soon. In the meantime enjoy the downtime :goodvibes Especially coming into the holidays it will be nice to have some extra time.

I'm glad to see that you are hitting the gym on a regular basis and working on your healthy eating. I've been doing poorly for a long time now, but I'm ready to get back on track. I agree that the holidays are a tough time, but if you can keep from gaining that is an accomplishment in itself. I read somewhere that the average American gains one pound during the holidays and never gets it back off. :eek: Let's make sure we don't do that :thumbsup2

Have a great week!

[DisDee]

We had a really nice time while in Myrtle Beach last week.We were there for just 3 nights, but still managed to see and do a bunch of things. Our favorite was the Carolina Opry Christmas show. It was just beautiful-very family oriented with a mix of traditional, spiritual, comedy, country and contemporary-something for everyone. The building and decorations were spectacular. It really got us into the spirit of the holidays. I need to get myself moving and pull out some decorations!

I have to go for a CT scan tomorrow as a follow-up to my treatment. I'm a little nervous about that, but keeping a positive outlook. I feel great, its just that once you've had the big "C", the thought of another episode always lurks in the back of your mind.

Yesterday was DS's 27th BD. Wow, he's getting old (not me). We all met for dinner at a Lonestar which was in-between all of our homes. (DS lives about an hour's drive from us.) Our DIL's parents also joined us and we had a lot of fun. It was a slow night and we ended up being the last ones in the place.

Today's plan include my on-line job search and also mailing some resumes to local businesses. I have the gut feeling that my next job will come from a referral from a friend or just happen when I'm not even looking. With the job market as bad as it is right now, applicants way out number available positions. If I don't find something by the first of the year, I plan to enroll in a class or 2-maybe medical terminology or a computer class. I need to learn how to use Excel-most of the jobs that I'm looking at require it.

I went to the gym yesterday and did a yoga/stretch class, which was very nice but a little mild. I'd do it again after using the equipment as a good way to wind down. She even threw in a little meditation-you know, the whole mind/body thing. I did enjoy it though, since I like variety in my work-outs.

So, enough for now. I'll be back!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise,

I will say a prayer for your cat scan. I am sure it will be fine but I don't think you'd be human not to be worried and a bit fearful. :hug:

So glad you had fun in Myrtle Beach, that sounds wonderful. And glad you had a nice evening for your son's birthday. Is that Lone Star Steakhouse you are talking about? We used to have those but they all went out of business. I miss them!

Good luck with the job thing, the perfect thing will come to you. I think taking a class or two is a great idea.

You are doing great, way to go with the yoga!:goodvibes

[DisDee]

Amy, thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers. I'll be very anxious until I get the results.

Did I say Lonestar? Oops, I meant Outback-I always mixed up those two.

[goldcupmom]

Just catching up. I cancelled WW today....would be SIX YEARS in January. I, too, hope to someday make lifetime & work for them....but not yet! Too expensive at present for not getting to go.

Glad tests are going well. Always breathing a sigh of relief & thanking GOD for each moment.

I hear you about not getting exercise & food in sync. I can't seem to be good at both, either!

Glad you joined the Dec. exercise challenge.

Have a great rest of the week!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, I love Outback! Those we still have. Keep us posted on the CT results. We'll celebrate with you when they come back clear and normal!:hug:

[DisDee]

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone!!!!!

See you in the New Year!
Denise

[Goofydiane]

Merry Christmas Denise!

[Amy&Dan]

Happy New Year Denise, hope you had a wonderful Christmas!

[DisDee]

Happy New Year Everyone!!!!!

Since I've been so bad about posting lately, I decided to start the year off right. First of all, I want to thank those of you who have become an important part of my support group in 2008 while I was going thru my medical problems. I'm so thankful that you touched my life. And speaking of thankful, my last CT scan came back clear. I couldn't ask for better news than that.

I slacked off a little with my gym routine the last couple of weeks before Christmas. I did manage to get there on Monday, and plan to go tomorrow.I really love using the pool for my strengthening and stretching. I also swim some laps and hope to build up my endurance in the New Year. I need to take advantage of all the gym has to offer while I am still out of work.

So, speaking of lack of work-its tough out there. I've been very diligent with my online job search, and have gone for 2 interviews, but so far, nothing. Its a bit frustrating, but I have faith that I'll eventually find something. In the meantime, we booked that cheap flight/cruise and fly to Ft. Lauderdale on the 11th. I have all kinds of guilt about going, but it was paid off before I knew that I would still be out of work. So, we're going and we plan to have the time of our lives. Its 4 nights on RCCL-Majesty of the Seas. The itinerary is Nassau, Coco Cay and Key West. I plan to stay connected by phone and internet while gone, just in case someone offers me my dream job. (yeah right)

I'm sitting here feeling the effects of my food fest from yesterday. Yuck! Why do we over-eat? Its that weird combo of all types of different foods that gets to me, and now my stomach is churning because of it. I think this is the time to say that I'll do so much better in the New Year, but I've said that before, so I'm just going to take one day at a time and try to make healthier, lower fat, high fiber choices and leave it at that.

I'm taking a couple of courses in Jan. which I hope will help with my new career, whatever that may be. My library is offering a free, 3-part Excel class, and I'm also taking a medical terminology class at the community college. I really need to keep my mind a little more active during this down time, so wish me luck. The last time I took a college course was in 1978. Yikes, I'm scared!

Well, I think I rambled enough for today. All the best to everyone in 2009! Make it your year!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that is such wonderful news about your CT scan. I am so relieved and happy for you and your family. I think 2009 is off to a very good start!

Enjoy that cruise! You have earned it. It sounds wonderful. Your dream job is out there, in the meantime, enjoy your time away from the workforce.

Great job taking classes and staying with the gym. I know we can do this in 2009!

Amy

[goldcupmom]

Fantastic news about the CT, Dee! And the trip/cruise sound like just what you need.

Classes? Great idea! The job will come when it is time.

Have a wonderful rest of the weekend!

[DisDee]

Thanks Julie and Amy!

I took the first part of the Excel class today, and so far, so good. I was able to keep up, which was encouraging. The instructor is focusing on applications for personal use, but at least I'm getting a feel for the program, and I'll be able to practice at home.

My eating has improved now that the holidays are over. I'm trying to make good choices this week since we'll be cruising next Monday, and you know what that means. Food overload!!!!! I haven't been to the pool yet, but the weeks not over, so I will make it.

Tomorrow I'm going to a seminar at the library called "New Year, New You". The little blurb on the website says...learn to make changes in your life by decision, not by default. I got to thinking how appropriate that is for me. So many things that happen in our lives are caused by circumstances that we react to rather than be pro-active about. So, if I walk away with just one idea for improving my life, it will be time well spent. I'm looking forward to the session.

I have a cruise to-do check-list, and its not getting any smaller. I think I have to work on it tonight. Its just a bunch of silly things, but I like to be organized to avoid aggravation later on.

Have a good night everyone!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that sounds like a great class at the library and congrats on doing the Excel class. You are really doing some good things for yourself! Enjoy all your cruise preparations, I am so excited you are going!

[goldcupmom]

Sounds like a good class at the Library! I've never even been in our new library and I can see it from my windows! :scared1:

Where are you cruising to? Bahamas?

Have a wonderful Wednesday!!

[DisDee]

We're leaving today for the cruise to Nassau, Cococay, and Key West. I can't wait. "See" ya next Saturday!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, have a wonderful trip (I know you are). See you when you get home, can't wait to hear about all the fun you had!

[DisDee]

I got back from the cruise late Friday night, and we just relaxed all weekend-you know, the vacation after the vacation. We had a wonderful time! The ship ,Majesty of the Seas is one of Royal Caribbean's smallest and oldest, but they've done a super job maintaining it. It was remodeled a couple of years ago, so it has a nice, updated look. We weren't able to go to Cococay because of rough seas, so we enjoyed an at-sea day instead. They had lots of fun activities to pass the time. We made sure that we hit every area on the ship and enjoyed all it had to offer. When we took our Wonder cruise back in May, it was just 5 weeks after I completed my treatment, so I didn't realize how fatigued I was until I look back now. We never made it to any of the lounges or participated in any of the extras that the ship offered. I must say that as much as I love all things Disney, RC was a better match for us, and the price couldn't be beat. I would definitely sail with them again! I'd probably sail with Disney again too when we have some grandkids.

I must have over-done it with all the walking while we were away, so now I'm having some major knee pain, about the worst its ever been. I went to the pool yesterday with hopes that it would make it feel better, but it even hurt to do my routine in the water, which eliminates about 90% of my body weight. The pain is intense enough for me to consider having the surgery that my Ortho. doc recommended back in August. I'm going to do some research on that, and also look into how it would affect my unemployment. Oh yeah, went for a job interview before I left and while talking with the interviewers, they shared the info with me that for that 1 position which was open, they received 250 resumes. Now that's pretty scary and just proves how bad the economy and unemployment rate is. It's very discouraging out there.

Good news is, the weight that I gained while on the cruise (about 5 pounds) is now gone and I can officially start my New Year on the food and weight front. I got my WW stuff together on Monday and started journaling. Still need to go shopping, but I think I'll wait for DH so he can help me with all the bags.

So, that's my recap for now. Its time to get on with my day so I need to figure out what I can do that won't put too much stress on my knee.

Have a wonderful Wednesday!!!!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so glad you enjoyed your cruise! Dh and I loved our Disney cruise, but they have priced us out and we hope to try RCCL someday. Your report makes me want that to be sooner rather than later! Well done losing that five pounds of cruise weight. And I am so sorry about your knee. Good luck with your decision, I know its a tough one. Feel better soon and keep up the good work!

Definitely make dh lug the grocery bags in!;)

[DisDee]

I've been in a foul mood for the last couple of days. I think it was caused by meeting an ex-coworker who is still employed and I had to listen to all kinds of crap about the company.

I've been on a couple of more interviews, and you know what's worse than not getting interviews, its not getting the job. I'm beginning to feel like I'm never going to find anything. I'm 55, overweight, and I've been limping around lately, so what employer is going to see past that? They don't know me and can't tell from a 10-minute interview that I'm a good worker, and have great people skills and I'm also great at problem-solving.

I'm going to stop ranting. Please feel free to ignore this post. I'll be back to my old pleasant self real soon.

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, rant away! I feel the same way you do, I need to find a job, can't find one, can't even get an interview and its making me feel just overall like crap! I think once things settle down in Washington people will hopefully begin to hire again? Just hang in there. And maybe change the subject when your coworker(s) start talking about the company!

Somebody will hire you, its not about your weight or age, its just a lousy economy. You have a lot to offer and I think your luck will change soon. In the meantime, hang in there!:grouphug:

[DisDee]

Thanks Amy, I need all the help that I can get to pull myself out of this funk. It doesn't help that the weather here is lousy. I was supposed to meet with my cousin today but she canceled cause of the weather. I've gotten myself into a rut here around the house. Problem is, most of my friends are at work, and those that aren't, are also unemployed, so meeting with them usually brings me down. I just need to make myself get out every day and go somewhere even if its to the library or the mall. I'm thinking about going to the fabric store tomorrow cause I'm doing the tables for my SIL's bridal shower, so that should help me feel a little better. Don't worry about me, I'll make myself move on.

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, these are just scary times. And it is despressing to hang out with people who are also experiencing tough times! I think getting out of the house is always a good thing and good for your body, mind and soul. Just a walk to window shop through the mall can really help.

I know you'll get out of your funk, things will get better soon. In the meantime, use the WISH board to vent, that's what we're all here for.

Hang in there, I hope today was better!

[goldcupmom]

Hang in there, Dee! We can all survive this, but it sure is getting ugly! I understand the blues, cuz I've had them all week, too!

Try to look at the good stuff! God is still in control!

:grouphug: Hope you have a better weekend!

[Goofydiane]

Denise -

Feel free to rant away, we are here to listen. I hope today was better.

[DisDee]

I thought I'd take a few minutes to check in before I start my day. I'm feeling somewhat better, I just need to make an effort to plan some different things to do this week. I need to shake up my life a little. So... my plans for today are-go for my mammogram this morning, do a little healthy grocery shopping, then swim this afternoon. Exciting, right?

If you check my siggie, you'll see that I added POFQ in March to my trip list. We booked cheap airfare again a few months back (78.00 total for 2, ACY to MCO), but didn't think we'd go cause of my job situation. Hubby and I had a discussion about a quick trip, and decided that if I don't have a job, we're going to do it. The main reason is, I'm probably going to have the knee surgery, so I'll be out of commission for awhile, so a quick trip prior to that will be therapeutic for me. He's been so great thru all my ups and downs this past year and a half, and always looking out for my well-being. We won't do any parks cause that will be a waste of money with the way I'm hobbling around, but may go to a water park with the last of our old Park Hopper Plus options. We also may catch a game at WWOS-we've never been there before. So, if you have any ideas of cheap entertainment at WDW, let me know. I'd be happy to lounge around the pool and resort, but hubby gets a little antsy, so we'll do stuff that doesn't include a whole lot of walking. We were originally going to stay at a Value, but we thought since we don't need park admission, we'd go for the Moderate. We took advantage of the room-only discount offer and we'll only be there for 3 nights.

Gotta run and get my shower. I'll continue later.

[goldcupmom]

Trip sounds like a good plan! pixiedust: for a good mammogram today. I go later in the month and am already stressing!!! :confused3

Have a wonderful week!

[DisDee]

I'm back. Thanks Julie!!!!

I've spent the last several days trying to formulate a plan to help me feel better physically. I've been hurting quite a bit lately and because my left knee is giving me problems,now my right hip is hurting too. I think my body is all out of whack.So, I need to resume my stretching routine even though I hurt and go to the gym more often. They offer a variety of classes for "older" adults, and even though I am probably the youngest of the oldies, the classes are geared to my level of fitness at this point. I need to build up as much strength as I can prior to knee surgery. My appt. is March 2, so at that point we dicusss the surgery in depth and start scheduling the pre-admission labs and set the date. My x-rays show bone-on-bone and the doc is surprised that I was getting around as well as I was. I want to feel better, and if this is the course I need to take, then I'm ready.

So, I can't continue to fool around pretending to lose some weight. Sure, I'm down 25 lbs from my all time highest, but most of that came off before I had the hysterectomy and was due to the state of anxiety that I was in. I've been up and down the same 5 or 6 pounds for the last year. I was thinking about doing WW on-line, but I decided that I need to get out and go to meetings and be motivated by other members. I know its more expensive, but my insurance co. will reimburse me 200.00 if I enroll with them and WW is an approved program. I thought about a hospital-related program also, but they don't offer the meeting flexibility that WW does. I figured I can switch over to the on-line program while I'm recovering, and then switch back to meetings when I can get around again.I just need to do something really positive for myself, I've been feeling down so often lately. Yikes, am I whining or what?

I asked for an employment app. while I was at the radiology center today. The receptionist said I had to go thru the HR office, but gave me the name of the contact, and also told me to use her name as a referral. I don't have any medical experience, but I've worked in customer service for years, so that should be a plus. I did enroll in that medical terminology class, but it was canceled due to lack of enrollment. I couldn't believe it! There is an online version starting up in a few weeks, so I'll probably register for that.

Well, I think I've blabbed on enough for today. Thanks for listening!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Denise! I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling down a lot lately. I can see where you are coming from with the knee, no work, and this blah winter weather. Hang in there though!! You know all of this will pass.

Here is some PD for job hunting! pixiedust: pixiedust: pixiedust:

I'm glad to hear that you will be having the knee surgery. It sounds like it will really help you to feel better.

I think doing WW is a great idea. I think that, like you said, it is a good way to get out of the house. Plus it will give you some positive interactions with new people :thumbsup2

Congratulations on the quickie trip to Disney :cool1: I'm a tad jealous! It sounds like it will be a nice get away for you guys. I don't really know much to do besides the parks, but I think just chilling around the hotel would be Wonderful!!

Hope you have a Great week!! :goodvibes Get out of the house as much as possible and think happy thoughts :beach:

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, good job booking the POFQ trip! I love that resort. You have the boat to DTD. YOu also have full use of all of POR's pools and activites. I love to rent a surrey bike at POR and they also have carriage rides. You can bus or walk to POR very easily. And I think its fun to check out some of the other resorts on the DTD boat line, Old Key West and Saratoga Springs. SSR's restaurant Turf Club is wonderful. You can't take the same boat, but you can boat from POFQ to DTD and then hop right on the SSR/OKW boat very easily. I love the water parks, the lazy river is my favorite way to relax at WDW. I also think its fun to just ride the monorail around. You could always go over to the Poly and see Wishes from the beach. Its a great view and anybody can use their beach area. They have the electrical water pageant as well. So that's my long winded suggestion list!

I think doing WW is a great idea, I really do believe in that program. And taking some classes at your gym is a great idea. It gets you out and it gets your active.

It sounds like the knee surgery is your best bet. I'll keep you in my prayers and in the meantime, just keep busy! And that would be awesome if you got on at the hospital. Health care is a safer thing to be in now, not as many lay offs. I hope it works out!:goodvibes

[DisDee]

So, I did it...joined WW that is. I picked a bad day to enroll, cause DH and I had already planned to go to a pub/steakhouse for dinner. I checked the menu out ahead of time, and went with broiled scallops (I'm a big seafood fan) salad bar, and 1/3 of the serving of mashed pot. I did not take any salads with mayo, and stuck to the veggie choices. I'm really proud of myself that I used sesame seeds instead of croutons, and did not eat any bread. I feel that I did really well for my first day even though I used some flex points. Tonight we're eating at home, so I'm making a turkey meatloaf with salsa, grilled asparagus, and maybe rice or pasta, but a really small serving.

Our DD is coming for the weekend, so I need to get ready for her, and straighten up her room which is a dumping ground for me. She's getting her hair cut at my stylist, and we're going to Carabba's with a gift cert. from a friend of her's who's a mgr. Not sure what else we'll do, but it will be great to have her around!

Amy, thanks for the ideas of things to do at WDW. You gave me a couple of new suggestions that I'll be sure to try. We plan to hit a couple of new eateries-The Earl of Sandwich, and the Big River Grill, just for a change of pace. I know we'll find plenty to do even without going to the parks, so I'm enjoying planning the trip.

I need to get myself in gear and get something accomplished around here. Have a great Thursday!!!

Feb. Exercise...1 hour 45min., Day 2 WW

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, congratulations on joining Weight Watchers! That is awesome you did so well at the restaurant, that's always a challenge. Enjoy your visit with your daughter and Carrabas. I have never been there and it looks so good!

I love the Big River Grille. We enjoy having lunch there and sitting outside. That whole Boardwalk area is really lovely. You're going to have a great time!

Good job on getting in those exercise minutes!:thumbsup2

[DisDee]

I met with 2 of my former co-workers for lunch on Friday who were layed-off also. Even though it was a bit** session, we blew off some steam then left it all behind us. The worst thing was running into 3 of the VP's who were having lunch there also. We thought we had it timed so that anyone from the company would be back at the office, but we goofed. They were all huggy and friendly and it made me want to gag. These were guys who had input as to who was being let go. Of course, my well chosen plan of having soup and a roll for lunch turned into pizza and a cannoli. But I bit the bullet, logged my points and moved on. Any other time I would have just said I blew it and ate whatever I wanted for the rest of the day, so I'm happy that I kept focused. After that, I came home to my mammo. results letter which stated that I needed to come in for more images and an ultra-sound. This has happened to me before and back in 2002 I had a biopsy which turned out fine, but I'm just so mad that I have to go thru more stress. I'm not worried yet, as I said just mad right now. The past year and a half have really sucked! I'm so thankful that I managed my treatment and then the lay-off with an optimistic state of mind, but lately I've been down, and this certainly doesn't help. I'm just glad that my DD is here this weekend to take my mind off of the additional tests. We're going to make one of those fleece, tie blankets for Linus day at a local hospital. The blankets go to kids that are ill or having some type of traumatic experience in their lives. Making the blanket will help me focus on something positive.

I'm going to try to get a little more sleep. Lately, I've been waking up during the night for a couple of hours, then going back to bed after I make myself tired again. I've had sleep issues since I started peri-menopause, but I've finally figured out how to manage it and keep myself in a calmer, restful mode. I'll be back later on today.

[goldcupmom]

Dee, I'll be praying for the stress about the mammo and the mammo itself. Been there, done that!

Glad you joined WW. As long as you behave, you lose......sounds simple, right? Then that stupid stress monster attacks.......

pixiedust: :grouphug: for all you have going on. Vent away when you need to!!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I'll keep you in my prayers, I am sure it will be fine but I am so sorry you have to go through more stress. :grouphug: One thing about it, you have become so strong through all of this, your attitude is really amazing. Just hang in there, this too shall pass.

You should have sent the VP's the bill for your lunch! I am glad you had fun with your friends and so proud and impressed that you logged those points and stayed focused. That is what a successful weight watcher does, she eats what she wants in moderation and makes it work. So good job!

I hope you are having a wonderful visit with your daughter, I bet you are.

Hang in there friend, things will get better and settle down very soon.:flower3:

[DisDee]

Thanks Amy and Julie-I need all the prayers I can get!

So, today's the day for the second mammo. I picked up a copy of the radiology report and they're looking at a small asymmetric density in the right breast. Possibly an ultrasound too. I'm ok, just anxious and I want all this to be over with. I keep comparing where I was last year at this time-I started my radiation treatments on Feb.11. I've come a long way yet still have a nagging fear that I'll have to go thru treatment again. I know that I need to keep a positive attitude, but there's always going to be that shadow of doubt.

I met a friend at the mall yesterday and we did some shopping and had lunch. We didn't even do all that much walking, but later in the evening, I just ached in my legs and right hip. What the heck is going on with me? I feel so ancient.I'm going to the pool today after the tests, so maybe that will help my old achy body.

I also plan to tackle the fed. taxes today. Hopefully we'll get a small refund and I can use that for our trip in March. I love "found" money, and I can really get creative with my financing for a trip.

That's it for now. I'll check back later with news from the test.
Have a wonderful Wednesday!

[DisDee]

Great news...I had 2 additional views taken, then was told I was good to do, but come back in 6 months. I'll call my doc in a few days to get the official report. I am feeling so much better now!

Did my rough copy of the fed. tax and we're getting a nice refund that will pay for most of the 3-nite trip. I felt really guilty about going, and was going to cancel unless we got the refund. I just couldn't justify a trip if we had to dip into savings. I do look at my life a bit differently now when it comes to taking little vacations and enjoying life's other little pleasures, but not at the risk of making a financial mistake.

Food has been kind of crappy, but exercise is good. Now that I have some peace of mind, I'll be back on track.

Wishing you all a great big, beautiful tomorrow!

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hi, Dee! I'm hoping you got good news from your doctor when you called :goodvibes I'm sorry that you had to go through that worrisome time!

Congratulations on the tax refund! I'm glad that it will allow you to take your vacation! :cool1: I understand your feelings on the vacation. I think it is very important to enjoy yourself and enjoying the little pleasures, but I also couldn't imagine doing so at the expense of my future savings. I think that is great though that you will be able to go without dipping into the savings!

Keep up the WW logging and getting in the exercise! Little by little it will come together and you will feel better and better!

Have a great week!

[DisDee]

I just can't believe how quickly the days fly by when I'm doing a whole lot of nothing. I've been out of work for almost 5 months, which is longer than I was off for my surgery and treatment. I'm still feeling a bit down, but I think a lot of it has to do with the winter weather. I did go out today to take care of some errands and went to a local park and did a little bit of walking. We'll be in WDW in less than 3 weeks, so I need to get moving a little more. The pool is great for stretching and strengthening, but its not like being on solid ground where my knee takes the full stress of my body weight.

I've decided to start keeping a list of all the things that I'm thankful for, so I'll share some thoughts with you guys too!

I'm very thankful that my DH had a great job with the opportunity to work OT now and then, which greatly helps our finances while I'm out of work.

I'm also thankful for our little get-a-ways which help keep life fun and exciting.

I'm super thankful that my health is good and that I have a great team of doctors and other health care professionals that take such good care of me.

This is just what I need to do-focus on the positive, and work thru my negative thoughts. Thanks for listening!

[DisDee]

Today's going to be one of those run around days. I have to go to Staples and fax some resumes and also make more copies. Then I need to order the cake for the shower and pick up a few groceries. After that I'll go to the gym and do my swim. When I get home, I have to iron the table linens for the shower. Since I used to work for a linen sales co., I was always bringing home samples of discontinued items, so I have quite the supply of tablecloths.

I've been reading a different type of book (for me). The title is "Honey, Let's Buy a Boat". I love being on or near the water, so I always thought it would be fun to own a boat. This story is about a couple who takes a year off from their jobs, and makes the great loop around the east coast, in to Canada and then down the Mississippi back to Florida. I'm really enjoying it. The thing that's most interesting to me is the places they stop on the eastern seaboard, many of which we've been lucky enough to visit ourselves. We love to go to little harbor towns with shops and restaurants along the water. We really are blessed that we've been able to visit so many interesting places.

So far for today, I can say that my food choices have been great...1 banana and a cup of coffee. It's early though so I have a lot of time to screw things up. LOL!

I have to be thankful before I go, so here goes...

Today, I am very thankful that my kids have grown into such caring and responsible adults and that they always make time to spend with Mom and Dad.

Have a super day!

[goldcupmom]

Dee, I'm so glad your mammo was OK!!!!! Relief...we can breathe again.....right???

I really like your 'thankful' list. It's a good thing!!

Hope todays running goes ok. Your food has been great!

Hang in there!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so thankful your mammo came back good! Prayers answered for you and your family (and you Wish sisters too of course)!

That is great news you will get a refund and can take your trip! I think doing the things you love, with the people you love is always a good useage of time and money. But so understand about wanting to be responsible too. Now you can do both!

Keep up the swimming and walking, your trip is so coming up and you want to be very energetic to enjoy Port Orleans!

Great attitude, that is always half the battle in life and you are doing splendidly!:hug:

[DisDee]

I can't believe that I spent about 20 minutes writing on my Wish journal yesterday, then there was a problem with our cable and it wouldn't allow me to post. Ugh! Well, today's another day, so I'll post quickly since I'm starting to get dinner together.

I'm down 2 pounds this week, and very focused on trying to feel better physically. My ortho appt. is next week and I'm trying to keep a positive attitude about the possibility of knee surgery. I really want to lose quite a bit before the surgery might take place. I went on the hospital website and found that they offer pre-surgery classes with all kinds of info for pre and post surgery. I want to be as informed as possible so I know what to expect.

I have another job interview tomorrow. This one is for clerical work with a law firm. I'm not too sure about this and the "professional" aspect. I'm more of a business casual kind of girl, so this interview should prove interesting.

Gotta run for now. I'll be back soon.

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, best of luck on your interview! At the very least, going on interviews is always valuable experience.

Great job on the two pound loss! And also, I am impressed with how you are approaching this knee surgery.

You are making such good choices right now and really keeping on top of the process as a whole. :goodvibes

[DisDee]

So...I'm back from the interview which I thought went well. Here's another scary story. The HR person who interviewed me said they received 160 resumes for that one position. Yikes, here we go again. I guess I should be thankful that I'm actually getting called for the interviews, but with so many applicants for these jobs, who knows what's going to happen.

I treated myself to breakfast at Panera. I need to get the bread cravings out of my system. This has been a really good week with staying within my points, but a bagel eats up way too many. Now I need to scale back for the rest of the day. I think we'll have chicken tonight with a veggie and who knows what else?

I need to sit down and tackle the bills. DH's check should be double the norm since he worked lots of OT last weekend. Thank goodness for that!

I'm about 3 lbs. away from my goal that I set for myself for the trip to WDW on March 9. I actually think I'm going to make it...in fact, I know that I'm going to make it! I plan to go to the pool this afternoon so I can do my PT thing and also swim a little. Now if it weren't so cold outside, it would be so much easier to motivate myself to get there.

Gotta tackle some household stuff which is no fun. I'll be back.....................

[DisDee]

I visited a new park in the area and did a little walking and reading. Its built along a creek with boardwalks, decks and a very natural feel to it. No playgrounds or ballfields, which is nice. I think I'll make it one of my hangouts when I just need to get out of the house for a change of scenery. After that I took a detour and rode along the river for awhile which was my detour to the gym. I thought about riding by and ditching my swim, but I'm proud to say I made myself park the car and just do it! I always feel good once I'm in the water but sometimes getting there is a struggle.

Time to clean the kitchen and think about dinner. Tomorrow is my weigh-in, so I suppose I'll eat light tonight. I think we all play that game. I'll let you know how I do.

[DisDee]

I had to go to a memorial service on Friday. My best friend that I grew up with lost her sister. She was 20 years older and died very suddenly after a quick illness. Her husband is pretty much an invalid and she was his caregiver. Now I'm not sure what's going to happen. So sad.

Today is up in the air. DH is working right now, and I'm not sure what we'll do later. Can't go to the gym this morning cause they use the pool for swim lessons on Thurs eve.and Sat.morn. Think I'll make a grocery list for some healthy foods for me to consume this week. I used to think it was tough making the right food choices while at work, but being home is even worse. I'm eating out of boredom and its not good.

I need to get the house in order before our trip. You'd think that everything would be perfect with all the time that I have, but guess what? Housekeeping gets old real fast. At any rate, I like to have everything just so before I go away, so I have to get moving. We'll pull the suitcases out of the attic this weekend and get the shorts and capris together. All the clothes are still in the extra room where I stored them after the cruise, so I don't have to search the attic for them, which is good. I was also careful when unpacking the toiletries, etc., so I think all that is ready to go again. We're doing carry-on only, so I have to make sure I have my quart bags. I think its time to excited for this trip!

There's a Dis meet tonight at a mall that's about 1.5 miles from my house. I'll probably check it out and say hello. They're holding it in the food court, so it should be fun!

Time to go and make a cup of tea and that grocery list. Have a great weekend!!!!!!

Thankful for...my upcoming trip, more OT, and the sunny but chilly day.

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am sorry about your friend's sister. I hope everything turns out okay with her husband. So sad.:hug:

Hope the dis meet was fun! Have you heard anything on the job yet? Getting an interview is a very good sign. Haven't made it that far yet on one app I have filled out! Something will work out very soon!

Hang in there, you have a lot going on right now. You will be at that goal by WDW for sure!

[goldcupmom]

Awesome that it looks like you will make your goal before your trip!! Quite an accomplishment in my books!!

Glad you are getting some interviews...if nothing else, it gives you the outing & challenge! Jobs are definitely a hot commodity these days!

Have a great rest of the week! Trip is almost here!!

[DisDee]

Where has the week gone? I really need to get my act together today and get something accomplished. I have to run to the grocery...AGAIN!

I'm about half-way packed for the trip. The weather forecast looks good-low eighties on 3 days and 70's on the other. I made a couple more ADR's, so I think that's it for us. This is going to be a very leisurely trip. I am so looking forward to sitting by the pool with a good book. I've packed my pedometer which I haven't used lately, but I'm always curious as to how many miles I walk while at WDW. Even though we're not going to the parks, there's still a lot of walking to be done.

I purchased an e-book a couple of years ago called "Change Your life Challenge". Needless to say, I never followed the plan. LOL! I thought about using it when I was first lost my job, but never got around to it, but I read thru it quickly the other day, and decided that I'd start it when we get back from WDW. Its a 70-day plan where you look at different aspects of your life and address small changes each day. Its also an organizational tool. Before I start, I have to purchase some supplies-mostly office stuff like file folders and notebooks, etc . I figure, why not try it? I have plenty of time to implement some changes for the better and have the time to concentrate on the challenge.

I got called for another interview yesterday, but unfortunately she wanted me to come in on Mon. while I'm in Florida. I tried to go in today or tomorrow, but she wasn't able to find a spot for me. So, she said to call next Friday, and if the position wasn't filled , she would have me come in. This one is with a co. which is known for treating their employees well, with good benefits and nice working atmosphere. I still believe what will be , will be and there is the right job out there waiting for me. I've learned how to answer some of the silly interview questions which are so different these days, like how would you handle certain situations and more personality and ethical questions then when I was job searching 12 years ago. It's a whole new world.

Time to go and make a list for today. Have a thankful Thursday!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that Change your Life Challenge sounds great. Let us know how it goes. So when do you leave? You must be so excited! Enjoy Port Orleans French Quarter, that is one of my favorite resorts, so think of me when you're there. You will have such a nice time, its just what you need. And as you say, if that job is meant to be, it won't be filled and you can interview when you get back.

The job market has indeed changed. But you will find the perfect job, its out there waiting for you!:goodvibes

[goldcupmom]

Hope you have a wonderful time at WDW and that the weather cooperates!!

I agree that with jobs and all else, what is supposed to happen will happen....but it gets SO FRUSTRATING sometimes!

Have a great time....relax & ENJOY!!!!

Praying for a wonderful, SAFE trip!!

[DisDee]

Thanks for checking in Julie and Amy!

We fly out of Atlantic City at 6:30 on Monday morning, which means we need to leave the house around 3:30 for the hour drive and 2 hr recommended check-in time at the airport. I'll be napping by the pool in the afternoon. LOL!

I thought about getting a spa treatment at SSR, but at this late date that probably won't happen, plus the treatments are very expensive. My other plan is to treat myself to some of the products at Basin and maybe I'll do a day pass to the SSR fitness center and make use of the sauna and steam room. I've heard their spa is very nice. Has anyone been there?

I'm finished packing except for my makeup and jewelry, so I'm happy about that. I just need to run the vacuum and tidy up a bit and I'll be all set.

I'll check in when I get back on Friday. Thanks for being here girls and I hope you're having a great weekend!

[Goofydiane]

Denise - the trip sounds like fun. Hope you have a great time!

The book sounds really interesting, I look forward to hearing about it when you return.

[goldcupmom]

Hope you're having a FANTASTIC time!!

[DisDee]

We're back!!!! We returned late Friday night after adding an additional day to our trip because of a 7-hr. flight delay on Monday. (more about that later). We had a great time with just a couple of aggravating moments which I'll tell you about in the next couple of days. The weather was just beautiful-80 thru 85 every day. We spent lots of time at the pools and Blizzard Beach, had dinner at a couple of new places (for us), and a couple of old favorites. I'm so glad that we decided to go! We were able to keep within our budget with the exception of adding the additional night, and then got some good news while we were away. It looks like I have a new job! I got a call while in WDW for a second interview at a place where I interviewed on the Friday before I left, and when I called to tell them I couldn't come in till today, the dept. mgr. called me back and told me to forget the second interview, and she was offering me the position. I have to contact them today and arrange for some testing, but if all goes well, the job is mine! I was really excited to get such good news while on vacation.

Now here's the funny part. This job is with a food distribution company which specializes in ice cream. Its a family owned business which started as an ice-cream vendor 80 years ago. Now I may have mentioned in some of my posts about how much I love ice cream, and one of the perks of this job is a freezer full of ice cream which is available to the employees all day long. I knew this job had my name on it. Luckily one of the lines that they carry is Skinny Cow, so hopefully that will be available to the employees too.

I had to take a pay cut and I'm starting out at 28 hours a week, which is ok because I have a good feeling about the company. The best thing is that the location is very close to home-about 3 miles. My former job was 12 miles on a route that had lots of traffic lights. Now I'll be able to get to work in under 10 minutes.

I have to cut this short for now. I'll write some updates on the trip and job a bit later, and check your journals too. Have a super week!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, congratulations on the new job!!!:cool1: :goodvibes :thumbsup2 :) :banana: :yay: :cheer2: That must have made the vacation all the sweeter. It sounds like you had a wonderful time (even with the flight delay that sounds like a nightmare). I am so happy you went and about the new job. Way to go!! Can't wait to hear all the trip details.

I love Skinny Cow! Of course I love all ice cream!

[DisDee]

Thanks Amy! My good news did make the last few days of vaca. that much more enjoyable. In fact, that's just what my future mgr. told me when she made me the offer. I'm still waiting for the phone call so I can get started. The background check came back so they sent me for the drug screening on Monday. The lab said 2-3 days for those results, so I'm thinking maybe later today. I'm going to get ready just in case they want me to come in later this afternoon and do some HR paperwork.

I had to tell them that I have my SIL's out of town wedding on Friday, so I'll work half a day. Then I've been summoned to jury duty on Tuesday. The mgr. seemed ok with it, but I hated to even mention the 2 dates, but there was no way that I'd miss the wedding and I don't have a choice with jury duty.

Gonna run and get ready for the day. If they don't call me in, I'll update my trip report later.

[goldcupmom]

That's wonderful news about the job, Dee! Sounds PERFECT!!!

And the vacation sounds like it was just what you needed....despite the delays.

Have a GREAT rest of the week! Things are lookin' up!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am sure they understand about those days you need off. Stuff happens! I am so excited for you and can't wait to hear all about your trip! Have a great day.:)

[DisDee]

Just popping in briefly to let you know that I'm still reading your journals and will try to catch up tomorrow. The job is going well. Everyone seems to think that I'm doing great even though I'm very nervous and apprehensive. I'm working 4 days a week right now with Wed. off.

We had a lovely time at the wedding with our family. It was nice to be able to have fun and then just go back to the hotel room and crash.

I'll check in again tomorrow when I have more time. Have a terrific Tuesday!

[DisDee]

I had to get up at 3am cause I strained my back and I'm having trouble sleeping. I have no idea what I did other than the fact that I am sitting at a desk for long periods of time again. Maybe that has something to do with it. I'll take an Aleve shortly-that should help.

I have some good news to share-my DD is expecting her first baby in November. She had an ultrasound yesterday, and everything looks good. We're all very happy for them! This will be the first grandchild on both sides of the family. I just had to shop yesterday and buy her a maternity top and some little sleepers cause we plan to visit with them over the weekend. This is so exciting!

More later-I can't sit any longer.

[goldcupmom]

Congrats, 'GRANDMA'!! How exciting!! Hope your back starts feeling better soon!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that is WONDERFUL news that you have a grandbaby on the way! What a wonderful time for your whole family. Keep us updated on mom and grandbaby!

I hope your back is better, its funny how a change in daily routine can make such a difference in our bodies.

Your post brought some happy memories back to me. I remember so well 15 years ago when I had found out ds was on the way. I think I was all of five weeks pregnant and my mom brought me over a sleeper for him and a maternity top for me! She always said being a grandma was the best thing in the whole world, so I know this is the beginning of a wonderful era for you and your dh!:goodvibes

[DisDee]

Thanks Amy and Julie! This is a very happy and exciting time for our family. We drove out there Friday night and slept over. We got to see the first baby pictures (ultrasound) and spend some time with DD and DSIL. We went to lunch, then Sean had to go to work so we took Lauren shopping. We ran into Chocolate World in Hershey and bought some candy for my new co-workers (yes, I can be a suck-up) then to the Hershey outlets and went to my favorite store. I always go to the Easy Spirit outlet cause I'm so hard to fit (6W) and I can always find some nice shoes there. Then we went to our new favorite place, the Carter's outlet. We bought couple of little items for DD. Its so nice to be shopping for a baby.

My back was doing much better, but when I started to get out of bed this morning, I threw my legs over the side of the bed too quickly and the pain shot thru again, and now I'm hurting just like before. Ugh! I hope the Aleve kicks in soon.

This week I plan to get back to the pool and do some water therapy, so that should help my all-around well being. The challenge is to get back into the habit now that I'm working again.

DH went into work at 3 am, so he'll probably leave at 10, so I'm going to clean up the kitchen and make breakfast.

Have a nice week everyone!

[goldcupmom]

Isn't shopping for babies fun? I love shopping for my DNieces 4 girls!

I have a new journal...don't know how to link. "Now is the time....." or something like that.

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I love it that your new favorite store is the Carters Outlet! What a great time for the whole family. :goodvibes

So sorry your back is hurting again, I hope its feeling better.

I hope you are having a great week at your new job!!

[DisDee]

So, a week and a half have gone by without me posting. That stupid job is getting in the way of my Dis time. All kidding aside, its going very well for now and my days pass quickly and having Wed's off is great. I'm a little worried that as time progresses and more is expected of me,I might not be able to keep up. The job requires memorization of the product numbers, and I'm just not good at that. Does anyone have any idea how I can build my memory skills???? I think my advanced age is a factor with this problem. LOL!

I went back to the pool last week and feel good about that. Since I work till 3:30, if I go straight from work, I can still be home by 5. My back is feeling better, thank goodness! I suppose I'm getting used to sitting for prolonged periods of time.

I'm meeting my 2 unemployed friends for lunch today. They were let go in the second round, so its now 4 months of being out of work for them. I haven't seen them in about 6 weeks, so lunch should be nice, and we're celebrating one of their birthdays today.

I have to run to BJ's tonight cause the cupboard is bare. I have to do much better with packing my lunches and be more creative and healthy. I'm pleased to say that I don't eat ice cream every day, even though the temptation is there. We do have the all fruit bars which is a better choice when it comes to frozen treats.

If I don't check in again before Easter, have a really nice holiday!!!

I've been neglectful in being thankful, so here goes...Today I am thankful for a day off and spending time with friends-both cyber and in-person!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I hope you enjoyed your lunch today! It sounds like you are really getting into a routine with your new job. That is great you are back in the pool, and that you can get it in and still be home at a reasonable time.

No advice on memorizing numbers! I am pretty good with that but don't know how since I can't add them, I can just memorize phone numbers etc!

[DisDee]

I thought I'd check in quickly before going to work. Everything is going well, I just don't have as much free time as before. We had a nice day on Sat. and drove down to the shore and had a yummy lunch at one of our favorite spots. We headed over to Harrah's after that just to check out their new pool and shopping area, which was beautiful.

Tomorrow is my day off and I get to go to my rad. oncologist for my 6-month check up. It's hard to believe that 6 months have flown by. I plan to have a D-Day tomorrow and do some fun things for me. I do need to clean the bathroom too, LOL, cause there's no getting away from the household stuff.

Have to run now. I'm still keeping up with your journals, and WISH everyone well. Have a terrific Tuesday!

[DisDee]

Good morning! I'm going to try and post more regularly because it really does help my motivation and state of mind. I canceled my WW Online again cause I just wasn't utilizing the journal, etc. enough. Its a really great site and for roughly $17.00 a month, well worth the price, but only if you use it. I'm back to pen and paper, points slider, and a renewed determination. I have a bunch of new summer clothes waiting for me when I lose about 10 pounds. I also know that the only way my knees will feel better is to remove a substantial amount of weight.

On that note, does anyone have an extra Week 9 handout from the Turn Around program or any program for that matter? Perhaps someone could make me a copy...its the only week that I'm missing. TIA!!!!!!!

I have to make myself a list of everything that I need to do today. I've got all these errands spinning around in my mind, so after my Dr. appt., I have to attack them. I'm grateful to have this day off mid-week so I can do my running and also spend time on Denise stuff.

The job is going well. Each week, I'm learning to do more and more. I'm still learning my way around the computer system and finding different options to use. I just hope this all works out cause I do like it there, and the day passes very quickly. I'm so thankful that I found a job, and also that DH is getting a bunch of overtime right now, so we're keeping on track.

I have to buy my DIL's birthday gift today. There's a store in a nearby town that sells the "Life is Good" line of clothes, etc., so I'm going to shop there since she really likes those things. That should be fun!

Must run and get ready for the appt. Its kind of weird how these appts. don't even bother me anymore. I've had so many exams that now its kind of like having my blood pressure taken. That is strange.

Have a wonderful Wednesday!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, good for you for not letting the doctor's appt's stress you out. A good attitude is probably the best thing you can do for your body! So keep feeling positive!:goodvibes

I'll try to remember to get you a week 9 booklet when I go to WW this week. It will be the new program (Momentum) if that's okay. When I get it, I"ll pm you and you can tell me where to send it!

I am right there with you, 10 pounds off and I have a lot of nice clothes to wear! So lets stay motivated and into our closet clothes together!

Thinking of you at the doctor (well your long done now) and also how is your dd feeling? Dreaded morning sickness yet (hope not)?!

Oh, I so envy you being able to drive to the shore!

[DisDee]

Thanks for the booklet Amy! I'll be back later.

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise,

I picked you up a Week 9 booklet today at WW, its all about walking and one of the more helpful ones. Hope that's what you needed!

PM me where you want it sent. I hope you're not near the fires.

Happy Weekend!:flower3:

[DisDee]

Happy Weekend!!!

My Dr. appt. went well. Everything looks and feels normal. We discussed my getting another CT scan of the pelvis and abdomen in August, so I'm planning to do that, then follow-up with him. I'm on a 3-mo. schedule with Gyn/Onc. and 6 months with Rad/Onc. I have a Pap and complete internal every 3 months. I just need to be diligent with my appts. because re-occurrence usually happens within the first 2 years. I feel good and have peace of mind and I'm very thankful that I am a survivor!

We spent last evening with family and friends celebrating Dil's BD. We went to a family-style Italian place (need I say more?), then back to her Mom and Dad's for dessert and gifts. As my sig. says, Breathe in, breathe out, move on. I'm a big Jimmy Buffet fan. His music helped me get thru my treatments in a beachy state of mind. Anyway, today is a new day and a new start.

My DD is doing well. She never had any morning sickness, just a loss of appetite early on. She's being monitored carefully cause her blood pressure is high, but she has a great team of doctors and HC professionals that are taking care of her. She had a glucose tolerance test because of some family history of diabetes, and will see a nutritionist to discuss a healthy eating plan. She's very determined to do everything that her docs tell her. Lauren is a bit of a worrier by nature so she'll listen to their advice.

The weather here in NJ has been weird. We were having a chilly spring with quite a bit of rain, and now the temp was 90 yesterday and for the next few days. My dh hung my hammock in the trees yesterday, so I took my book and myself outside to read, and it was almost too hot to be comfortable.

Amy, I'm going to hang those shorts that are 10 pounds too small in a place where I'll see them all the time just as a reminder of the wardrobe that I'll have when the weight comes off. Memorial Day will be here before we know it, so that's my goal, to have them fit comfortably by that time.

Time to get something accomplished around the house. Cleaned the bathroom thoroughly yesterday and hung a new sh. curtain, so I need to tackle another room today.

Have a super Sunday!

[goldcupmom]

Glad your appts went well. Stay current on them! My DSis reached her 5 yr milestone this month. YEAH!!!

Sounds like your DD is determined to do everything right for this pregnancy. So exciting!

have a GREAT weekend!

[DisDee]

Julie, that is awesome news for your sister. I know that I'll be celebrating when I reach 5 years. But it the meantime, I'm celebrating a 4.4 lb. weight loss this week! I was retaining some fluid, cause my shoes were feeling snug. Not sure what that was all about but I'm glad its gone. I gave myself a smiley face in my WW journal for staying in my points range and I give myself a little heart when I exercise. I know it sounds juvenile, but those stickers are a reward for a job well done. I really would like to have another good week with staying on track, and since today was on target, I'm off to a good start.

I was on the National Body Challenge website, and I read that muscle burns 75% more calories than fat. Isn't that a great reason to get to the gym? I went to the pool yesterday and plan to go again on Friday. I also blew the dust off my hand weights and need to get working on my arm flab. I don't want to scare anyone when I wear my sleeveless tops. LOL!

Went to Macy's today with a 25% off friends and family coupon. I browsed the clearance racks for some bargains and found a few things for me and DD. I bought her a couple of full cut tops which aren't maternity, but will be good for when her clothes start getting a little tight, and should last well into the pregnancy.

Have a good Thursday everyone!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise. You had a good week! I mean an all clear from the Doctor (so happy for you :goodvibes), a 4 pound loss (AWESOME!:cool1:) and all you can eat Italian, does it get any better? Oh yeah, you shopped too! Seriously, I am so glad you got that good report from the doctor. You are doing everything right and thank God, you are here, healthy and enjoying this special time with your daughter. When is Lauren due? Have a super weekend, great job getting to the pool!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, thank you for my lime green Mickey ribbons! That is so sweet of you, we put them on our Disney back packs, they are ready for WDW! Dd was absolutely thrilled!

Hope you are having a good week and that you had a nice Mother's Day. Just think, next Mother's Day, you'll be a grandma!

Have a great week.:goodvibes

[goldcupmom]

Hope everything is going well, Dee! How is that new baby-to-be & mommy doing?

Have a great week!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, hope things are well, I miss you!:goodvibes

I took my lime green Mickey ribbons to WDW and thought of you! I put one in my window at ASMU and had a disboard member comment on it. But I forgot her screen name but it was fun to see another disser face to face. Only have had that happen one other time.

[DisDee]

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[Amy&Dan]

Denise, definitely plan and take that trip! I am betting your job will be fine, you may have to take the vacation without pay. If not, well then you'll find a more understanding company. After all you were looking when you found this job and you can find one again. But I think they will be fine and tell you to go for it!

I think you are doing the right thing with the knee stuff. Sometimes doctors just amaze me. Keep us posted on that and the gyn. stuff.

So when is grandbaby due? I bet you are so excited.

Good to see you around here, I have had some troubles posting lately too, very frustrating!

[DisDee]

Thanks for asking about Lauren and the baby. She is due in early Nov. and she is doing great! She had an ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and they opted not to know the sex. They want to do this the old-fashioned way and be surprised at the birth. We'll get to see them this weekend-we're going out there for DH's company picnic at Hershey Park. He and DS are also going to do some projects at her house.

Today is my day off and I've got lots of things to take care of like pesky phone calls, appts and household stuff. I think I'll make this a marathon "taking care of business day", and maybe next Wed. I'll just chill and enjoy the day. I am going to meet a friend for lunch so we can exchange some books (we both love to read), try to make a hair appt. for later, and maybe run to LLBean for a swim skirt. I'm tired already!

We planned a 3-day weekend get away in the Pocono Mts. in Pa. We're going to a resort where we stayed about 20 years ago. They've done alot of expansion and have also added a waterpark, so it should be fun. The mts. are a little over 2 hours away, so its a great weekend destination. We're also spending a weekend in Aug. at the Jersey shore. My aunt offered us her house and that's an offer we can't refuse and its just an hour's drive from here. I do love to travel!

I'll post about my weight/fitness next time, but its kind of the same old story.

Have a great day!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise,

That is great you have some nice weekend trips planned. I so envy that you live only an hour away from the beach! I think I asked you this once, but do you ever go to Rehoboth in DE? We went there two years ago, it was so fun. The closest beach to me is 1000 miles away!

Glad Lauren is feeling well, November will be here soon. What a fun holiday season you will have with that new grandbaby on board! I didn't find out the sex with my daughter, it was so fun to be surprised. Hardly anyone does that anymore.

[DisDee]

Amy, Rehoboth Beach is approx. 2.5 hours from here. It's a nice beach town and not as busy as the Jersey shore. We stopped there on our way home from NC in May. Lauren went to college in Delaware, about 45 min. from Rehoboth. We are very lucky to be near the ocean-its good for the soul. I love going to the beach in the early morning or late afternoon with a good book and the sound of the gulls. I have many great memories of the beach as a child and teen, then as a young parent with little kids who loved the ocean and still do.

Our weekend in Hershey was both fun and painful. The park is very hilly and spread out. We went in Friday night on a preview ticket and did some rides. It wasn't overly crowded so we got to do quite a number of rides. On Sat. we went straight to the water area which was in the vicinity of the picnic pavilion where DH's company had a nice spread. They added a lazy river and wave pool this year, and did a beautiful job with that.

About the pain...I should know by now that I can't handle all the walking on 2 days in a row. The water area is way in the back and by the end of the day I just couldn't take it any longer. I am so sick of this knee pain! My appt. is next week, so hopefully I'll have an answer.

Food has been really crappy. I pulled out my WW stuff today-here I go again. I just need to be more accountable. I'm also worried that the ortho. doc. will want me to lose weight before any surgery. I am down 25 lbs. from my all-time high, but still way overweight for my 5'3" height.

Gotta run and get something accomplished on my day off. I have a list a mile long, so it will feel good to check off a few things.

Have a super-dooper day!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that is so cool you know about Rehoboth! See here in Colorado, most people go to either beaches in Mexico, California or sometimes Florida. But when I say we went to Rehoboth, they just draw this blank and think a beach in Delaware? But we loved it. Dan's family lives in DC and they treated us to a two day trip there two years ago. I lived in Maine for a year and it reminded me a bit of the Old Orchard Beach area there. I love the beach, always have. No idea how I ended up a landlubber! Maybe retirement will see some changes with that, I hope so. Heck, even a nice lake would be a welcome change! Of course me being me, one of the things I remember the most was this incredilbe pizza place right next to our hotel! I think it was called Pizza Grotto. I always remember the food.:rolleyes1

Don't worry about your food, you'll get back on track. Your weekend sounds fun, but I can see how all that walking would hurt the knees. I hope you get some answers soon.

Have a super weekend!

[DisDee]

I'm back from the land of the lost again. I check the Dis-boards every day but just don't take the time to post.

I'll try to cover some of the things that have been happening lately...

On the medical front-Pap was clear...CT Scan scheduled for the end of Aug.as a follow up to the cancer. Labs were good from my primary. I actually consider myself fairly healthy even though I went thru the cancer treatment. I rarely get a cold or headache and I've learned to avoid foods that give me digestive problems so I do feel healthy on a day to day basis. But then there's the knee issue. I did see the new surgeon and was told that my knee is horrific by his phys. asst. (like I didn't know that) So, surgery is scheduled on Oct. 1 for my left knee. (Total replacement). I always feel like my weight has been a serious contributing factor to the arthritis, but the doc. assured me that there were other factors also like 2 falls-1 on the ice and the other when I slipped down the stairs. Heredity is an issue too. He actually assured me that I am at the lower end of the weight scale when it comes to replacement surgery.Who knew?

So now I am involved with planning all the preliminary stuff prior to the surgery. Dental clearance (to avoid infection), pre-surgery physical therapy to learn how to use a walker. Joint replacement seminar. Pre-admittance day at the hospital for cardiac clearance, anesthesia consulting, blood donation, lab work and who knows what else-they told me to plan to be there all day. I'm having the surgery at Jefferson Hospital in Phila with the Rothman Group which has a great reputation in the area, so I feel that I'm in good hands.

Well, that's enough of that for now. Needless to say I am stress eating. I did get ,back to WW online cause I figure I can do that while at home. I can immerse myself in me for 6 weeks. I also might take an on-line medical terminology course cause I'm nervous about my job. We got a letter the other day regarding how bad business is so the handwriting may be on the wall for cut-backs, especially when I tell them that I'm having the surgery.

Even with all that is going on, I feel good about my decision to have the surgery. If I can keep all my appts. in order, I'll be good to go. Thankfully we're going to the shore for the weekend. I plan to chill on the beach with a good book and some Jimmy Buffett music, eat some seafood and have a couple of tropical drinks. What could be better except for a trip to WDW? Just think, the next time I go, I'll be able to walk without pain. I can't wait!!!

I miss hearing from you guys, so I'll have to be a better Disser.

Have a fantastic Friday!!!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am so glad you have that surgery scheduled. I am betting once that is over and you are recovered, you'll be amazed at how much better you feel. And what the doctor said proves that often we are too hard on ourselves about our weight. For sure weight plays a big factor in our health, but it is possible to be healthy and still have a few pounds to lose, and also to have health problems that have nothing to do with our weight!

Enjoy your weekend at the beach, that sounds perfect! What a nice way to relax and unwind, can I go too???

When is your grandbaby set to arrive? My niece is set to have her baby in the next couple of weeks, to me it went fast, but I bet she disagrees!

So glad your pap was normal, I can imagine how much of a relief that is. And you are healthy. You had a major kink in the system awhile back, but I'd say you are doing pretty darn good now. :hug:

[goldcupmom]

congrats on the wonderful news from the GYN!! It truly is the best news!!

Glad you are getting the knee done. Won't be fun, but you will be glad when it is over. DBIL had both done and is sorry he didn't sooner.

Have a great week and a fantastic time at the beach!! I, like Amy, am envious!!

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denis, hope things are going well. Thanks for stopping by my journal and giving me some very good tips on job hunting! I really appreciate it. :hug:

[Nancy08]

Hi guys...
I'm a new member of this forum and I I am happy having you all. We can build friendship in here. And this topic is a good one since I started to know you through reading your journals. I'm excited to know our different interests, personal observations, imagination and to connect new information with things we already know.

Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us. - inspirational quote by: Earl Nightingale, 1921-1989, American Motivational Author and Radio Broadcaster

[Amy&Dan]

Hey Denise, hope things are going well with you. Any trips to the shore planned? This landlubber has to live the good life through you!

How's your daughter and when's that grandbaby due??:goodvibes

[DisDee]

Thanks for poppin' in, Amy, Julie and Nancy. So much has been happening and I don't take the time for things that I enjoy (like the Dis).

Lauren and the baby are doing well after a scare that she had a few weeks ago. She was hospitalized for 5 days so she could be observed, and as it turned out she was released with some restrictions. She isn't able to travel for any long distances, so her baby shower that was planned for NJ had to be done in Pa. at a restaurant in her neighborhood. So, I've traveled out there several times in the past month, but I'm happy to do that so that I could spend time with her and help her around the house and with some baby things. The shower was really nice, and we were touched that so many people were able to drive 2+ hours to spend the day with her. Some of the family even stayed over at local hotels. Her due date is Nov.3 which will be here in a flash!

Amy, we did take a drive to the shore on Sat! DH has been so sweet to try and keep me busy so I don't dwell on some health issues that I'm going thru right now. I'll post more about that after my Dr. apt. on Thurs. The day at the beach was beautiful-not a cloud in the sky, temp. in the mid 70's and just relaxing to sit on the beach.

I have to get ready for work now, so I'll be back later. Thanks for being here for me!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, Keeping you and Lauren and that baby in my prayers. Please keep us up to date on your health and again, I am thinking about you!

You have a good dh and I am glad you two got some time this past weekend to go to the shore!

Good luck with your doctor's appointment this Thursday.:hug::goodvibes

And yes, November 3rd will be here very soon. You are going to have so much fun being a grandma!

[goldcupmom]

Glad to 'see' you, Dee! I cant believe baby will be here that soon!! Seems like yesterday you found out you were to be Grandma. I'll be praying that everything continues to go well. Praying too for your Dr appt.

Glad you got to go to the shore. Can I come next time?? :flower3:

[DisDee]

Good Morning!

As promised, here's my update from my Dr. visit on Thurs. I went for my routine CT a couple of weeks ago as a follow up to my cancer treatment and an ovarian cyst was discovered.(No symptoms, btw) So...I went for an ultrasound and pelvic MRI to take a better look, and because of my history I have to undergo surgery on Oct. 19. I'm scheduled for laproscopic, robotic surgery with the DaVinci System, but because of the Rad. treatments which can cause scarring and fusion, I may have to go with the full abdominal surgery. The good news is I've had fairly early detection of the cyst, and my CA125 blood work is 11 which is well in the range of normal. On the flip size because of my history this isn't something they can just watch. It has to come out.So, I had to cancel the knee surgery for the time being, and what really ticks me off is the fact that I finally had all my paperwork in order.

I've had several days composed of mostly fear and depression, but I've decided to pull myself out of the funk and get on with the happy stuff. I've begun to contact my family and friends which is another tough part to all of this. In preparation for the surgery, I've started a info web-page thru my hospital website called CarePages. It will give updates of my pre-surgery stuff and recovery. If you'd like me to include you in the emails, please PM me with your email address. I need all the support that I can get! TIA!!!!

Now on to fun stuff! We snagged a cheap flight to Orlando in Jan. so we're going down for a long weekend. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that we'll find a good "room only" code, but its a little too early for that. I've subsribed to the Jan. code watch thread, so I know that the Disboards will help me to find the best deal out there.

To Amy, Julie and all the others that pop in from time to time...Thank You!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, I am sending you lots of prayers and hugs. I am so thankful they have the technology to monitor you and take care of this type of thing early on, but so sorry about you having this stress and also having to postpone that knee surgery. Just know that you are in my prayers (and I am pm'ing you my email address). You are a trooper and you will get through this!

And I am so happy you are planning to go to WDW in January. Its a great time to go (been twice back when my kids had year round schedule, I so miss those off season trips!). Its great to have that to look forward to. I am waiting for codes or deals or some sort of discount too, so lets hope and wish together good deals come about soon!

Keep that chin up Dee!:flower3:

[DisDee]

I had my surgery yesterday, and thankfully it was done laprascopically. SP? I had the procedure at 7:30 am and was home before 2. I'm somewhat sore, but its controllable with meds. The good news is that the initial labs show no sign of cancer although more tests will be run which will take about 2 weeks. It always seems to be a waiting game with my health. Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful that everything has worked out as well has it has so far and that I tolerated the surgery with minimal discomfort, but I just want some peace of mind.

Lauren's OB has her scheduled to be induced on Mon, Nov. 2. She'll be admitted at 6pm so they can start things very slowly and she'll be able to rest through the night. I'm so thankful that I can be there for her. We borrowed a wheel chair from a friend so that I can navigate the hospital corridors with my bad knee and sore belly. (I'm such a wreck-LOL). This is an exciting time for our family-the first grandchild on both sides!

Well, enough for now. My back gets sore sitting in this this chair.

I'll check in again soon. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Denise,

I've seen your posts on Amy's and Diane's journals and wanted to stop by and say hello. :wave:

That is so exciting that you'll soon meet your first grandchild! I bet you can't wait!!!:banana:

I'm glad to hear that your surgery went well. :goodvibes

I look forward to following you on your journey. Hope you have a nice day!:goodvibes

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise,

I am so glad you surgery went well and that you are recovering. That is good news that the initial test shows no cancer, I am praying that this two weeks go fast and that you have more big news to rejoice over when those final labs come back!:hug:

Wow, I cannot believe that you will be a Grandma next week! What a great time for the whole family.

Keep us posted, btw, I never got any information about your hospital page/update thing??

[DisDee]

Thanks Amy and toystoryduo! I appreciate you stopping by.

My recovery continues to go well. I had a follow-up visit on Tues. and was told that the incisions are healing nicely. We were even able to stop and have lunch after the appt. I told DH that I want to go to a craft store tonight and pick up a couple of scrapbooking items. I'm redoing Lauren's baby book cause some of the items had come unglued and it needs to be preserved a little better. I'm going to mount the original pages on large scrapbook pages and use plastic page protectors. She always loved to look thru her book as a child so it's been well-loved.

I made some ressies for that long weekend at WDW in Jan. I booked the Holiday Inn at Downtown Disney which has been completely remodeled, and AKL. Now here's the dilemma. HI is $79.00 per night. AKL is $144.00. We would need a car for HI but use ME for AKL. My questions is...what would Disers do? I think I already know the answer to that question. LOL! Let me know!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Denise,

I'm glad to hear that your recovery is going well. :goodvibes

If I had to pick, I would choose AKL. :goodvibes That way, you wouldn't have to rent a car and you could always take a bus back to the resort if you wanted to take a mid-day break. Plus, I love the resort!:love: Either way, you can't go wrong....You'll be in WDW!:banana:

I hope you have a nice weekend!:hug:

~Tracy

[DisDee]

Go Phillies!!!!

[toystoryduo]

I'm with you, Denise.....Go Phillies!!!!:cheer2:

Did you decide on which hotel to stay at?

I hope you had a nice weekend!:goodvibes

Have a great Monday!:hug:

[Amy&Dan]

Happy Grandma Day Denise! I am sure that everything is going well, and I am saying a prayer for mom, baby and Grandma! Come and give us the good news and post a picture of the newest family member.


Definitely go Phillies! No idea why, but the Yankees get on my nerves!

I would do AKL for sure!!! That is an awesome rate and once the economy picks up, you won't see that again. I would need to be saving way more than that to stay in that Holiday Inn! And yeah, you knew I'd say that!

[DisDee]

I finally made it back here! Its been a crazy week traveling between Pa. and home. We have a new grandson-Scott Harrison Smalley! He was born on Thurs. and weighed 8 lbs, 21 1/2 in. with brown hair and blue eyes for now. Lauren was not admitted on her scheduled date because the hospital was so busy with all the full moon births. Long story short, she was induced on Tues., spent Tues. and Wed. making slow progress, so they performed a c-section on Thurs. morning. She's doing well as it baby. We finally got to see them yesterday when the hospital lifted their visitation restrictions due to H1N1 concerns.I'll check with Lauren to see if its ok to give the link to her SmugMug photo site.

We are so happy to be new grandparents!

[toystoryduo]

Congratulations Denise!!!!:flower3: I bet you and your DH are so excited to be grandparents!!!!:cool1: I'm so happy to hear that Lauren and baby Scott are doing well. :goodvibes

Have a wonderful day!:hug:

[Amy&Dan]

Denise Congratulations! I am so happy for you, my mom always said being a grandparent was the best and I know you are going to have so much fun loving and spoiling little Scott (love that name by the way, had dd been a boy she would have been either a Scott or Stephen).

Congratulations again, it seems like only yesterday you found out Lauren was expecting and now here she is a mom! Of course, I bet the last nine months don't feel that speedy for her!:laughing:

[DisDee]

Thanks for being here for me ladies!

I've been spending a lot of time out in Pa. with Lauren, Sean and baby Scott. Its been difficult to do everything that I'd like to to help them out since I'm still recuperating but I do what I can and I know that they appreciate Gary and I being there. Lauren had a bit of a rough time a couple of days after coming home from the hospital, but she's doing much better now. Scott continues to thrive and is a little cutie. You'll be able to see some pictures on smalley.smugmug.com. If that doesn't work you can go to Smugmug and do a search for Smalley and Lauren and Sean's page should come up.

I gave a little more thought to our weekend trip to WDW and we're about 99% sure that we'll stay at AKL. Not sure what else we'll do because of my knee issues, but I guess we have the option of renting a wheelchair if we want to go to a park. We'll probably just relax and do some laid-back things like spending time at the pool, have some nice meals etc.

I do have some other not-so-good news to share with you. I've have a recurrence of the cancer. We've known for almost three weeks but did not want to tell our family until after the baby was born. We finally told our kids and their spouses last Tues. which was the most difficult thing that I've ever had to do. After the initial shock, I told my positive attitude to kick into gear, develop my support system, and do what I have to do!

I had a second opinion at the Fox Chase Cancer Center in Phila. which is probably the best in the area along with the University of Penn. They concurred with my 2 oncologists that its a recurrence of the Uterine cancer which spread to my left ovary and also the omentum which is on the abdomen. Its in an early stage in those locations and thanks to all the imaging that I went through it was caught early because I had no symptoms.I'm looking at 8 rounds of chemotherapy which will be 3 weeks apart. I have a consult on Tues with the surgeon who will install my port-o-cath and will probably start treatment the first week of Dec.

I know I can count on my Wish sisters to be here for me again!

Well, enough about that. Amy, I'll be updating my Carepages site sometime in the near future, so I'll email you at that time. If anyone else would like me to add you to my list, just PM me with your email address.

My DH has been my rock thru all of this, and he surprised me with a weekend trip planned for the Washington DC area next weekend. We're going to stay at the Gaylord National Harbor which is just south of DC. They have "Ice" just like the Gaylord Palms along with other holiday events like choirs, fountain shows and other fun things. I think this will be just what the doctor ordered! Its about a 2 1/2 hour dive for us if the traffic is good. I'm really looking forward to it!

Time to catch up on lots of stuff around here so I'm gonna run and take care of business. Thanks for listening!

[toystoryduo]

Oh my goodness, Denise!!!:hug: Your grandson is absolutely precious! He is such a beautiful baby! ::yes::

I am so sorry to hear that the cancer has returned. :sad1: I am sending a gentle :hug: and prayers your way.

What a wonderful DH you have! ::yes:: I hope you have a wonderful weekend away in DC !! :wizard:

[goldcupmom]

Praying for you & all your family, Dee! :hug:

Scott is a HANDSOME young man!! I assume the proud grandpa is the one with the beard....he looks quite comfortable with that new little grandson!

Hope you have a wonderful time in DC. You CAN do this, Dee! Life isn't easy, but God is faithful!

Update us when you can.....

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, you have a very good looking little grandson! What a cutie he is.:goodvibes

I am so sorry your have had this cancer recurrance. You were very selfless to wait until after the baby was born and it must be a relief to have it out in the open with your family. I know you will pull through this with flying colors, I am so thankful they caught it early. You have an amazing attitude and that helps too.

That is so sweet your hubby surprised you with that trip to D.C. I think you got a keeper! DC is one of my favorite cities to visit.

AKL also sounds about perfect! Some relaxation at WDW will be so good for you guys. When you know where those nice meals will be happening, fill me in. I love to live vicariously through other people's trips!:laughing:

[Amy&Dan]

Hope you had a Happy Thanksgiving Denise. I hope you and your dh had a wonderful time in DC (I am betting you did). And I know that you are most thankful for Baby Scott this year!

Hang in there my friend, I am keeping you in my prayers.:hug:

[toystoryduo]

Hope you had a nice Thanksgiving, Denise. :goodvibes How was DC?

Sending prayers your way.....Hope you have a great evening!:hug:

[DisDee]

Thanks for being here my friends, even when I'm not!

Our trip to the Gaylord National was just what the doctor ordered! The hotel is in Maryland, just south of DC in a newly developed area on the Potomac River. We didn't do any sightseeing-just stayed at the resort and enjoyed the holiday happenings and had some nice meals. The "Ice" show was amazing. Thankfully, Gary insisted on borrowing a wheel chair from the resort for me because "Ice" was in a separate area across from the hotel. There was also shopping along the waterfront. He certainly got his workout pushing me around because the area is built into the hillside above the river. It was the perfect escape for us just to relax before the start of the chemo.

My first treatment is done and I'm handling the after effects pretty well! I did not have any nausea which I'm so thankful for! I'm experiencing some gastric issues and I had some bone pain from one of the meds. I'm also experiencing sleep issues from another med, but I'm dealing with that cause I can just take it easy during the day. I have a follow-up appt. on Mon.

Again, thanks for being here!

[toystoryduo]

I'm glad that you and your DH had a great time in DC! :goodvibes

Sending lots of prayers your way as you begin treatment again. If there is anything we can do, please let us know.:grouphug:

Hope your Monday is a good one!:hug:

[Amy&Dan]

Hi Denise, I am so glad you and Gary had fun in DC! You have a keeper of a husband! But you know that of course.;) I have heard of that hotel and its holiday festivities, I am so glad you enjoyed it!

I am keeping you in my prayers. And so thankful you don't have any nausea. I'll pray you get a good night's sleep (or rather a bunch of them).

:grouphug:

[toystoryduo]

:santa: Merry Christmas to you and your family, Denise! :grouphug: I hope you have a wonderful day filled with love, laughter, and God's peace. Enjoy your first Christmas with your new grandson!:goodvibes We're praying for you, my friend. :grouphug:

[Amy&Dan]

Merry Christmas Denise! I am going to go out on a limb and say "I bet Scott got spoiled on his first Christmas!"

Keeping you in my prayers my friend, 2010 will be wonderful!

[DisDee]

Happy New Year ladies!

I hope you all enjoyed the holidays and are now ready to tackle 2010 with a renewed sense of determination and optimism! Make it a happy and healthy year!

We had a low-key holiday season which is what we needed to do this year. My treatment was on the 21st so I had a few uncomfortable days, then caught a cold which I could have done without. All in all, I am very thankful that my symptoms and side-effects have been under control!

We're having some family and friends over tomorrow for a small get-together. I didn't want to do it last week since I knew I wouldn't be feeling my best. We're having a lasagna for the main meal and I also plan to get rid of the junky snacks and the cheese cake that's in the freezer. Sunday will be my start-over day which means healthy eating not dieting .

I'm thinking about starting a new journal for 2010. If I do, I'll be sure to let you know. As always, I appreciate your support and friendship and look forward to hearing from you in the new year!

[goldcupmom]

Happy New Year, Dee!

Glad things are going reasonably well. Did I miss pics of little Scott?

Hope you have a great weekend!

[toystoryduo]

Happy New Year, Denise! party:

I hope you have a great time at your get together today. :goodvibes

[DisDee]

Good morning ladies!

Well here it is Tues. and the cold is still lingering and about the same. I tried a Mucinex this morning so hopefully that will kick in soon and give me some relief!I have to get better before my treatment on the 11th.

I may have mentioned way back when about our upcoming 3 day weekend at WDW. We're still going to do it as long as I feel OK. We have a room-only res. so I can cancel it before the 5-day point if I have to. Now here's the annoying part...I was on the Dis a couple of weeks ago and checked the news area and lo and behold the AKL pool is closed at the time we'll be there. I immediately got on the phone and tried to switch it to the AKL Villas but they wouldn't honor the rate for me and its just too far to trek from one resort to the other for me right now. So, I booked us at PO Riverside and used the savings to rent a car which will make it easier for me to get around. I was really ticked about the pool closure cause we haven't stayed at AKL in years and I was so looking forward to it.

I'm beginning to get excited about the trip and have some plans in my head for our itinerary. My bro and sil may even come up from Ft. Myers to visit with us. I hope that works out! We decided that we'll visit AKL Villas and have lunch at Saana. (sp.?) I'd also like to try another new restaurant and I think there's one at DTD. Anyone know anything about that? There's the new Cat Cora place at the Boardwalk so that may be one to try also. We have a gift card for Bonefish Grill and there is one nearby in the Orlando area so we could go there too. I've never been to our local one so going to the one in Florida would be a new experience.

Since I'll be limited with my mobility this trip I'm trying to think of fun and easy to maneuver activities. Has anyone done the balloon ride at DTD? That might be fun for us to try. We'll also catch Bob Jackson and Elliot Dyson at the resort. Then there's Dole Whip at the Poly and maybe fireworks too. Any ideas that you might have for us would be greatly appreciated!!!!!

I also asked about getting a wheelchair at the resort, and they noted it on my ressie just in case I need to go that route. There's a $300 plus charge that gets refunded to your credit card when its returned. I'm going to check the Spirit Airlines website regarding wheelchair assistance just in case I need it at the Orlando Airport. I have visions of us in mile long security lines which will be really tough on my knees. I'm trying to cover any scenarios that might be difficult for me to handle this trip.

So, enough of that! Its a new year and time to get a fresh start and get a handle on things around here. I'm going to tackle our home office today and begin to get things organized for tax time. I bought a huge box of brown envelopes just for that purpose. I also plan to take a walk at the mall which my Dr. recommends to build my strength and stamina. My gym membership is on hold right now due to the surgery and treatment. I may re-activate that soon so I can get back in the pool. At least I won't have to worry about my hair getting wet cause I barely have any. LOL! I will wear one of those silly bathing caps just so I don't scare anyone. I never realized that I have such a fat head but when I order head wear form the ACS/TLC website, I have to order a size large.

Tracy, We did have a nice time at our get-together. It was a late lunch, early evening type thing so when everybody went home I just crashed for a couple of hours and left my kids,their spouses and hubby to fend for themselves.

Julie, most of the pictures of Scott are on my DD Lauren's website...smalley.smugmug.com. I also have a few on my Carepages site. If you PM me your email address, I'll send you an invite to view it.

Amy, Scott had a very Merry Christmas and is blessed to have such a loving and generous extended family and group of friends. Lauren and Sean are so touched by all the gifts he received starting with the 2 showers then the gifts after he was born. And to think Lauren was worried that she would have to go out and buy a boy wardrobe but everyone else took care of that. Then came Christmas with more clothes and toys. What a lucky baby!

Before I go, I have to mention a great gift that I received for Christmas. My son Steve and his wife Sue bought me a Sony Reader!!!! I was just so surprised and thankful for such a perfect gift that I just started crying. Of course I've been so emotional lately with everything that is going on. They know how much time I have on my hands right now, and how much I love to read so it truly was the perfect gift!

So with that said, have a wonderful day everyone!!!!!

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, that is so sweet and generous that your son gave the Sony Reader! See what a good mom you are that your kids cannot help but spoil you! YOu'll get a lot of use out of that.

So glad Scott had a Merry First Christmas! That must have been so fun. Its great he got so many nice gifts, that helps out mom and dad!

I hope your family gathering was fun this past weekend. I also hope you get that cold licked before the 11th. I'll say a prayer!

You don't have a fat head, you have a large, briliant brain!

That is such a bummer about the AKL pool. But at least you saved some money. I think it really stunk they didn't honor your rate at the villas. Very un-Disney like!

I saw the DTD balloon and it looked fun. You could also get a spa treatment at the SSR spa. You deserve some pampering!

When is your trip?

[toystoryduo]

What a nice gift your DS and DIL gave you!:goodvibes

I'm sorry to hear about the pool being closed at AKL. :( That would have been nice of Disney to upgrade you to AKL Villas. Maybe they want to surprise you at check-in!:wizard:

One of my favorite things to do at WDW is to watch Wishes from the Poly beach. I love sitting there and soaking up all of the Disney-ness. (Is that a word? ;) )

I hope you have a great day today!:hug:

P.S. If you'd like to send me the link to your Carepage, I'll be sure and visit!:goodvibes

[DisDee]

Good morning!

Amy, We think alike! I was checking out the website for the Saratoga Springs Spa and I think I might do it. The trip is Fri.the 22nd-Sun 24th. We have a 6:30 am flight on Fri. and an 8 pm flight on Sun, so we'll get 3 full days! The flight was around $90.00 total for the 2 of us. I do love a bargain!!!

Tracy, I sent you another invitation to my Carepages site. I think I spelled your address incorrectly the first time. It needs updating which I'll try to do today. Thanks for being here and there for me!!!!!

I checked out the Give a Day info yesterday and DH and I decided that we're going to work with our local Ronald McDonald House and prepare welcome gift bags for the families. I e-mailed the contact and we're waiting to hear back from them regarding the date we chose. We're not sure if we'll be going to Florida again in 2010, but the voucher for the free day can be donated back to the program and hopefully used for someone with special needs who may not be able to go otherwise. I feel good about my decision to help out. I used to be much more community-minded when my kids were still at home and involved in scouts and other community based activities so now its time for me to get involved again.

So, today is my day to get serious. When I got my diagnosis back in Oct., I used it as my ticket to eat whatever I wanted to. Sure, I've been eating lots of protein along with junk food, ice cream, loads of carbs and any other comfort food that I can get my hands on. My weight is up 15 lbs. since the summer and I checked my blood sugar which usually runs at the high end of normal but it was way over that yesterday. How many wake up calls do I need? I'm really ticked cause my weight had been fairly stable and down over 25 lbs from my all-time high but I do need to get serious. I'm not going to have knee surgery anytime soon, so the only way that I'll get some relief is to get some weight off.

So I'm off to find my medical journal which will also be my healthy eating journal and start using all the resources that I have to do this thing right. Once again, thanks for your support and encouragement!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Denise,

I got your e-mail this morning. Thanks!:goodvibes I look forward to following your journey here and there. :hug:

I hear you on the weight thing. :hug: I started reading my old journal yesterday and almost cried when I saw that I weighed over 25 pounds less on that journal than my new one. :blush: You know what though? We CAN do this!:cheer2: It's going to take time and effort, but we CAN make changes that will affect our health in a positive way. We CAN do this, Denise!!!!:cheer2:

I hope you have a wonderful day today, my friend. :sunny:

[Amy&Dan]

Denise, its perfectly understandable that you have turned to some comfort foods lately, but I am proud of you for taking action against that! You can do it, you have done it before and you can do it again. Your knee will love you for it!

The SSR spa looks so nice. I am still so devastate we had to sell our SSR contract that I am not sure I could go over there yet, but I can vouch for the resort and have heard nothing but great things about that spa. Turf Club is also wonderful, you could have dinner there afterwards. It has a nice outdoor patio or a nice indoor dining area as well.

I'll be thinking about you on those days!

The day I get airfare that cheap from Denver to Orlando is the day pigs fly! Good job taking advantage of that deal, frankly you'd be nuts not to! And way to go doing service at the Ronald McDonald HOuse. Its a win win situation for you and the people you'll be helping. :goodvibes

[DisDee]

Just want to let you all know that I started a new journal called "Denise's Healthy Again in 2010 Journal". I felt like a needed a new start with everything that's been going on with me lately.

Thank you all for reading this and supporting me over the years. I hope to see you on the new journal so we can continue our friendship and support of one another.

Love you guys!